Last day of 2010

I feel that I should do an ending post for 2010 and welcome 2011..

I believe I mention during my earlier post that this year is full of ups and downs.No doubt it might not be very smooth ,I experience a lot of first time such as seeing our dear friend getting award,going mdc cum SA,indoor stadium for SHA,going Istanta,SCO concert etc..The feeling is great.Of course there were lots more things that we did happily.Seriously I really wish that job can be smoother.It's ok,2011 will be a better year, just have to be positive.Something to look forward to will be Lam Fung's Concert

Relaxing right now while it is pouring outside,so glad that I am at home instead of being outside because it's so wet and cold due to the weather.Pray that the weather will be great for tonight in order for the countdown party to be held. :) Whatever that happens for this year, let it come to an end..A new start soon.No doubt I feel a little dishearted at times, is alright.

I am prepared to catch live countdown party on tv and snack around with sparkling juice and titbits.Trying to get the mood of a new year.Entering a new year, we should be happy though I am currently not feeling very happy.

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3 more days to 2011

I just feel like blogging..at times I am really too lazy that I realise I really didnt blog much especially during nov n dec month..I guess so..sometime is good to express myself here.

Time really flies and is only a few more days and we come to the end of 2010. I guess the best present would be providing me with a good job and I can progress from there.I am getting older as well..thx God I survived 2010 no matter whatever did happened..it's over.a brand new year is coming.Just have to live a more fruitful life.I had too much thoughts, not sure what else to express. Shall keep it to myself.I wish to smile even more which I couldn't do so now. Thx D for giving me such a gd "gift" for xmas and upcoming new year cum birthday :P memorable. It's ok

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I didn't blog for 1 week. Here it goes..After the bbq gathering,came Xmas..Just had xmas eve lunch with church friends at clark quay follow by tea then I head off to meet sec sch friends for early dinner at Suntec and we went to play bowling at MSQ follow by drinking at harry's bar esplanade. Xmas day just have dinner with Mum and then set off to church for XMAs OAR.It wasnt raining when we were heading there but shortly after heavy rain and then it stopped till about to go home, it started again. Thx God rain get smaller when we were going back.Glad that Pastor Gideon was back for xmas. He preached..Humourous him make us laughed though.Exhausted after two days as I reach home on xmas eve night around 1am which is already xmas day. Xmas Service till 10pm..reach home was 11plus.Sunday went for service early in the morning then went back to rest after brunch.I slept like a pig lol.Really too tired after xmas activities..I didn't sleep much for the past few days until sun afternoon I took a nap for 3 hours.

Looking forward to a better year 2011..I am working hard to work on my strength since I know some things might be what you like and prefer but they might not be your strength.At least I tried though.it's ok. Pick yourself up when you fail.Try and try again! At times I might feel down but life goes on. I just have to pick myself up again and move on. Learn from each incident and grow from there.I have been trying to motivate myself as no one can help me if I do not wish to help myself. I am helping myself right now. Everyone will feel demoralized but no point feeling that way. Wasting of time. I will jia you!

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BBQ Gathering 2010

I realise I blog lesser recently, perhaps nothing much to talk about plus I am lazy.

Well weekday was normal, working, yoga lesson and shopping after work. Met up with latin dance club pple for bbq at pasir ris park. This time, the pit was really good, pretty bright for us to interact and be able to have food happily. I was really full and I enjoyed the sausages and chicken wings etc. Nice gathering,I hope that we won't see each other only once every year. perhaps we can have more gathering if possible. I was there around 5.30 and I left at 11pm.It was already midnight when I reach home thus rather tired. I didn't go anywhere today. :P time flies. I just can't wait for xmas! Gonna catch up with the rest on xmas Eve..oh yeah..I will send a sms reminder when it is nearer..we just gonna have a xmas lunch and then perhaps tea or coffee if we are not drinking.
I guess it's too early to drink.drinking shall leave it to at night :p Xmas day would only be church service at night.I have no other plans for now. Totally no christmas party.sigh.

I am not gonna think so much, shall do my own stuff.read, watch tv etc and occupy myself.

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I didn't update for a while again..Fruitful weekend for this two weekends.Lam Fung was here to promote his feb desire tour next year and I went to see him at downtown east during last sat..Handsome wor!
Thx HL for passing me the ticket and I have yet to pay her till I get salary. A bit tight coz xmas is coming etc. I feel a bit bad but I will pay her that's for sure. I believe she knows I will do so.sigh broke coz of ticket,yoga etc..pending payments.. :P I will clear them before CNY..dun wanna owe too long..

I went to east side to visit grandma yesterday with my ah yis and cousin. We had dinner and then shopping plus having coffee at coffeebean..It's an enjoyable day! si yi wanna plan a bbq at east coast..that will be good..having fun getting together as a family..

As for today, went to church as usual and we have fellowship.I didnt play just help my cousin with stuff.. :)

Feeling empty now though I have a long day for weekend..somehow it's so quiet when I am alone. longer to find a partner..somehow is time and I am waiting..I have a strong feeling..I am ready after being alone since I start my course and I already graduated..

I shall leave it to YOU!


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Sick..

Wow I realise I have not been blogging for a few weeks..well I started working on mon..I fall sick on wed which was a public holiday and I took mc on thur.. -__-''' Lots of things to learn and I am getting stress and lost as in which one to start first.I just have to go and try..there might be mistakes but that's how we learnt..I know I fear, not sure how to start etc..Thx God colleagues are pretty helpful and willing to guide me. I just have to do whatever I can and if I am not sure, they can help me. I believe things would be fine..I must jia you!! :) I can do it! pray that I can settle the job order..I am just thinking about that,wanna finish those task asap..I cannot pend it for too long though.

Update a little, I went out with the rest,HL,Mum etc to topone ktv to sing and end up I fell sick after that and I was having a fever.I was already having a slight cough earlier on when I start work.I went back to work on fri and I went to meet up with Ame, Hui & WL for our hangout at play nation to play wii games. My sorethroat worsen & I cough too much.As a result I have a sexy voice right now :( Feeling tired though for today and I just stay at home to rest. Though I might sleep, I did not sleep very well, somehow waking up in the middle of the night as I cough..sigh

Something to look forward to is Lam Fung's concert. :)
End here..I hope I can get well soon.

宅女。。

This is my first entry for Nov..I realise I have been staying at home for many days for this week..I only met up with Vivian on mon for k session..$8 promotion for kbox on mon..worth it..Sang for 3 hrs..I didn't go to church nor go elsewhere though there is a long weekend..It really doesn't matter..taking a break at home is good as well.save money..catching my drama etc though it makes me pretty lazy..I will be out tml though..catch up with Vin, haven been seeing him for some time.time flies..gonna be dec but I am still slacking..hopefully I can find something that I am comfortable with and have a fruitful life..

I just feel rather tired now though I have enough sleep..sigh..perhaps I need to eat more..I just ate a little rice..I dun feel very good..

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S'pore Hits Award 2010 & Halloween Night

I love my weekend though I am tired today. I went to indoor stadium for the s'pore hits award on fri.Good experience! Happy! It's good to hear singers sing the songs live. I love Zhang Xin Zhe & Huang Xiao Hu..nice songs.. I realise Xiao GUI is really quite tall. Perhaps watching him on tv is a different feel..though we are not very near the stage but we still can see. Better than catching on tv, totally different feeling. Aunty Lucy n Veg Piano r really funny. Veg piano is the fake cai Qin acted by Michelle chong.somehow entertain us with their laughter. Gd to see Cq do the opening with ke Wei, Wei bin n Serene.Though I am not a fan of xiao GUI, personally find him cute. Not bad la..Ah zhe is the prince! Singing 3 songs n earlier on he sang a duet with Olivia. Nice! It's only when he sang as well as huang xiao hu sang, make me feel a bit high. Other than that, we r a little bored..hopefully it will be better next year with more stars! Ok enough about that. Move on to talk about yesterday. It has been some time since I attended sat's service.I went church as usual and then had dinner with siow ching n cousin..we went to clark quay since is halloween night.we walked around n see what others r wearing. Only one person do scare us. We even saw one person with a 7 11 box as design n wore it over the head.another one was a man with diaper carrying a moo moo softtoy lol. Interesting! We went for a drink before leaving to get a cab back..ling queue though but luckily my area not far so cab fare still alright. Gd experience. Maybe we will do something scary next time too. As for today, just went to grandma's place have dinner. I am occupied with things. Luckily! :) I shall end here

Lost..

It's a nice weather to rest and I am feeling sleepy..Thx God that the haze went down, I just hope that it won't rise up again.well it takes time depending on whether the fire is still burning..I hope not..

Well struggling through though it was the 2nd day and I hesitate whether to move on..seriously I really wish that I can just leave as I know that I do not wish to adapt with that culture. Rather uncomfortable. Environment is important. Once I am not comfortable, I will not want to continue..It's a tough decision though I know my answer. I find it quite bad but I rather move on now then drag on and then when the trainer trained me, I choose to leave..It's bad..

Headache..I shall end here..no point thinking further..head gonna crack..

Journey to the west...

Feeling tired.. Just do a quick post..Update about this week.nothing much except interview for weekday. Well as for yesterday , I went to look for cq, the jie li sai competition at imm..after that meet up with mum n bro for dinner n follow by supper at geylang. Daddy wanna bring us eat n we went out at 11 plus :p tired lor..I went to church this morning, after that catch up with huay ling while eating..after that I went to see Lam Fung. He came a short one as he need to go jb..he came to bukit panjang plaza for alicafe event. I shall load photos tml ba. He signed recycle bags..quite fast la..I didn't get any coffee coz I rarely drink..his fc compose songs for him..one goes with the tune of cai shen dao..lam fung commented so fast cny in canto. Hahaha..Tired! After he left I went to shop around n then head to lot 1 to shop a while too..seldom go that's y..here I am at home catching president star charity. Just dun feel like moving..end here

First thing in the morning, I receive a gd news..yup before I got the letter of employment, I shall not say much about it..gauging by the interview yesterday, pretty good..as the GM was not around, I will go down to talk to GM on wed afternoon follow by signing the contract..thx God! Actually this was one 2nd job interview..I take a month 2 weeks break and if nothing goes wrong, I will start work on next thur ba..hopefully everything is alright with upcoming challenges..To be frank, I have mixed feeling..new environment and new stuff to learn..then again this is a place that I wanna go to but previously perhaps due to some reasons, I wasn't given a chance..so I am grabbing the opportuntity now..

THis is gd news..then again there r some arguement between me & A..end up we r irritated..whatever..it's over anyway..just that I feel a bit moody..feel quite sian..not sure what to do tml as well..
Feel like not going any activities at all..no point la..

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10 oct 2010

TodAy is the day whereby many couple get married. I attended one just now. Ting fong & Abigail's wedding. Congrats to them! I dunno them well though but it is a church occasion so I attended service plus the wedding celebration. Happy for them. Just wondering when would it be my turn? Thinking of him. He was dressed smartly today helping out with ushering.just like it..is impossible between us..he has been busy I guess and we cut down on contacting each other once again..that's life..sometime also nothing much to say..he won't come to talk to me though..I heard that a few more couples will get married next year..happy for them and looking forward to attend.. "red bomb" coming! :P opps...is alright just give them our blessings..

I just pray that good opportunities will come soon & the right partner as well..End here!

Farewell Mrs Lee KY...

As I am blogging now, it's getting late..

I came across the eulogy with regard to Mrs Lee..My heart sank while I read..From MM Lee, PM Lee, Mr Lee Hisen Yang, Dr Lee Wei Ling..it was sad yet touching..The continously love between Mr & Mrs Lee for so many years was really touching..Looking at the tribute video, we can see that Mr Lee always bring a smile or will laugh when he is with his beloved wife..they are so sweet & lovely despite aging..the constant faith and love , support,cherishing each other whether in sickeness or in health till death apart..They did it..as what the wedding vows stated..I know life is not easy adapting as Mrs Lee is not around anymore.I know how they feel..I recalled the time when Ah gong passed away four years ago..Memories will always be there..Though I have not seen Mrs Lee in person, I always see her on tv etc, she was always accompaning MM Lee for trip etc..As I read about her, I just know that she was a lovely wife, mother, grandmother and a nice boss to her employees..a great woman of our country..Never regret queuing up at Istana to pay the last respect yesterday though it was warm and we only went in less than a min, give three bows and we left..I saw Mr Lee Hisen Yang & his wife..never see PM Lee

Well life is short, do cherish people around you especially old folks as age is catching up, you will not know when they will be gone..a few people passed away this year, Dr Goh, another MP Minister and then Mrs Lee.

I pray that the Lord will be able to grant the Lee family the strength,the peace and take away their sorrow slowly so that they can move on with life..Pray that Lord will watch after MM Lee's health as well and also the family..
I also pray for my family and friends and people that I know,that the Lord will protect them,watch over their health as the weather has been humid lately, and also my two grandmothers's health as they are getting older, may the Lord grant them happiness as well..also to watch over my cousin while she is on biz trip..
pray for myself too silently! God knows I know..will do..

I end here!

Nothing much today..I didn't wake up too late but I didn't turn up at the place..somehow I dun wanna shift work anymore.

I hope that tml is confirmed that we can go n pay respect to Mrs Lee KY..that's the last chance..waiting for Jm to arrange the timing..life is short, but at least Mr Lee spent around 60 years of life with her..Thx God for that..as everyone aged etc, we will leave one day just that she left earlier..pray that PM Lee & family would be able to pull through this period of time and move on with life..I know is not easy, give them some time..

Well the story of Mrs Lee is really great..can see that she is a kind person who is really caring and understanding..Mr Lee is really lucky to have her as wife..still lovely after many years and even went go out together on valentine's day during 2008..you can see Mr lee smiling so happily..somehow I can feel the pain and the lost that they are going through coz I lost love ones before too..my beloved grandfather..He is always remembered! I guess Grandma do miss him alot..

mmm..enough of that..somehow nothing much to do make me lazy..gonna catch last few eps of dramas and then move on to new dramas..I need to jia you..partly moody coz I am still at no where..It's ok..I will be alright, I will pull through this period of time..

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Tired..just a quick one before I go n sleep..We went out to have dinner at Liang Court as it was MUm's birthday..I bought her a cake as well..just a simple dinner and Dad drove us around for sight seeing such as RWS la, Mount Faber..Feel like going party world to sing but Dad was saying, if singing will drink etc..end up we decide not to go..

While we are having fun, we do know that MM Lee , PM Lee & Family were feeling sad as MM Lee's wife just passed away peacefully at home on sat 5.40pm..I understand how they feel as I experienced the lost of love ones before..Pray that GOd will grant the family the strength and the peace..Understand that PM Lee was away while MM Lee was actually admitted to hospital for chest infestion that day..the stress level while on biz trip and something happen to Dad and now Mum..sigh

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last day of sept..Towards the beginning of Oct..here I am so emo...he saw it and sms me..I thought it was mei and end up is him..we didn't talk for this few days as I guess nothing much to say also..I just dunno how to reply neither do I wanna reply..just dun wanna talk about it..I have been asking myself what have I achieve this year..rather sad..this year is pretty bad..nothing much for me and about 2 more months to dec and chapters will close this year and 2011 will begin..

I cannot control that feeling. So I wish you dun contact me so often so that I will stop myself from falling in deeper..It's hard and I am struggling..Father, what should I do? I need your guidance..is the news true? I believe in You..

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It's a gd day partipicating in are you smarter than charis kids? Though I am tired, it's fun though. Shall have a gd rest tonight. I went to caramel for high tea. Glad that hl enjoyed it. It's cosy :) hopefully can go drinking one day. Yeah I get Stella beer but not drinking today. End here

Seriously not sure what to blog..I am lost for words after hearing the news..where did she heard it from? She doesnt want to disclose anything, making me more curious..what can I do? like that lor..it also solve the issue of wondering what he is up to..I can say, I know it now..good..who is the lucky.... ? We shall see..God has His plans..seriously dun feel like going anywhere later, sound like avoiding him? maybe ba..I dunno..he doesnt know I know ba.so what if I know, like that lor..

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Nothing much today. I went to meet Bro Ju for dinner and chill out at tcc orchard..we didnt meet for so long..look like he doesn't really like to know about him :p so? I like can already..kind of purposely let him know opps..mean? not really..
It's really quite sian not knowing where to go..just walk around..I feel bored lately..time to work harder..I am trying my best..need more motivation. Tml will be a boring sat..sigh..what to do..

I hope sun will be better..end here..gonna drink while I watch drama then I can sleep well tonight . :) feeling a bit tired though..

Mid Autumn Festival

Yes is Mid Autumn again..nothing much today.I just went out for late lunch and then get some stuff before going home..yes I got Lam Feng's concert dvd..finally..I watched disc 1, still have two more to go..just wanna enjoy the songs and not to think so much. I miss you and I have yet receive your sms..Dun tell me you sleep already..it's more like I will reply ur sms, you dun reply mine..forget it ba..

I just seem to have the sour n strange feeling when I see the profile pic..I know is nothing but just feel weird..ahhhh..what should I do?? there is nothing I can do...I just cannot control my feeling though I try to hide it..the closer we get...perhaps we will distance away again..hard to say..

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A day to Zoo

Yes I know I am being a "tourist" going to local attractions..
I went to church for service as usual and Yamashita san wanna go jbp take photos , end up he decided to go zoo instead so 3 of us went..the last time I went was 2008..I am back to zoo again..not much changes except that the polar bear exhibtion is closed.. :( It's alright.
We spent half a day there taking lots of photos and I am tired now..Shall sleep after I blog..I was out the whole day for almost 12hrs..shag..It's fun going out.. we had dinner at amk sha bu shi jap buffet resturant..the food ok wor..we didnt eat much..just want to try it..

Enjoyable day..but somehow I thought of him..he somehow contacted me again..sigh..did he call the wrong person? cannot be so many times right?? It never happen before though only today..

I shall go to bed..sweet dream..tired..

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A day to sentosa

Nothing much today and I meet up with xm and we went sentosa..go to silso beach, then head to discovery walk to take a stroll..He sms n call me saying maybe can meet for dinner, well end up never had dinner together also..make me happy ar..he was at house warming and I guess he had alot of food, cannot eat anymore..it's ok..we have to wake up early tml for service..must as well dun meet for dinner..another time ba..I just had dinner then a bit of headache..weather was really good today..I reach home at 3pm..right now nothing much to do..just rest..I am bored..quite tired too but I plan to sleep earlier tonight instead of sleeping too much in the afternoon..

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Lazy fri..feeling tired again..been sleeping late. Waking up late.sigh. No news or maybe I didn't work hard enough on that. Sometime thought of u. Nothing much to do. Bored. I feel so slack. So many things that I wanna do. Not done yet. Pray that the right ones will come. The radio drama so sweet. Heehee. Resting a while.Didn't go out much. Only went out yesterday celebrate mei's birthday. A simple lunch then acc her to take passport. Meeting her again tml to go sentosa. We need beach. Sun will be church. The whole week almost gone like that. Sian. Sometime dun wish to blog about it

A fruitful weekend

Well it had been a fruitful weekend..time flies..
As Mum was out of town, so I helped out with housework :P
Meet up with Wl,Hui & Ame on fri for dinner at lexus bugis( I cannot remember what is the name)on fri..not bad..we had pizza, buffalo wings and mushroom..had a big glass of mint lemon tea to share..shop around as well,rather tired on friday though..It was nice spending time with friends.

As for yesterday, I woke up at 4.50am to tidy up house a little before I go out..Head off to meet HL at city hall to go to jb..guess what, the bus was delayed for half an hour and we actually reach early lor..no one apologise nor or whatsoever..
-_-''' They just get another bus to fetch us. Traffic flow was great and we reached JB about 8 plus and head off to eat dim sum around 9. It wasnt so fantastic to be frank..It comes with one whole plate etc, perhaps enough for all of us, not much also..end up we still cannot finish. ActuallY I dunno the rest well, dun dare to eat alot either.
After that we head off to organic farm for a visit. end up didn't see much stuff etc..The goat is cute though hhaa..running past us..It was the first time I see a goat running past us..then we saw cows as well..
after the farm, we went to have lunch,however there was a traffic jam so we had lunch at about 2pm..really late lunch and this time we had hokkien mee, fishball soup (everyone only can have 1 fishball each as it was only enough for all) -__-''' We wondered if the fishball is that expensive. :p I thought fuzhou fishball noodle end up is hokkien mee with a bowl of fishball soup with dong fen,fried kang kong & red wine chicken.Kong ba bao as well. not too bad but I felt that noodles might not be enough for big eaters..I was rather hungry lor during lunch..can eat quite a bit..
After lunch we went to noodle factory. It was a small place though. As bird nest factory was closed due to hari raya, we didnt get to go. No one informed us about that till we are on the tour bus..sigh..
After noodle factory, we went to eat durian outside a temple place.I didnt eat much also, end up feeding the mosquitos instead
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After durian session,we went shopping. Actually bus journey took up lots of time. We didn't do much things and there is nothing to buy at the shopping centre though there are alot of clothes and shoes. I wasn's able to find anything that I like. We shopped for 1 hr and then head for dinner. We had dinner around 8pm and dinner was much better, there is xiao bai cai, beancurd, prawns,fish,fried sotong,watercress soup, fruits.

It was home sweet home after that. Traffic was good so we reach tuas checkpoint really fast. Hl & I face some problem while we go through, it has to do with our bag of stuff as we did not put the stuff on the stroller.Everything is fine, we didnt know we r suppose to put at the side. First time use auto scanning n arrive at checkpoint when we come back.
The lady police officer was really nice, asking me where I come back from, which part of m'sia. :)

Thx God for the safe trip,gd weather, traffic and nice custom officer.

As for today, I went to church and then head back to do some chore and gonna take a short nap soon

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Time flies and is Tue.

After a serious consideration,I decide to reject.

I thought I overcome that fear but it is still there..No point forcing myself to go for it. Perhaps people would wonder why am I like that, well it's me who is going to walk on with my life. I don't care what others are thinking as long as my conscience is clear. Everyone do sin. I did. However I have been a better girl ever since I start my studies and then I do know that I might seem not hardworking enough, that is because I have not find something that I have the motivation and the passion.Well this time round, I am striving hard to do my best to find one soon..then I can't say 100% perfect, but I will do my best to learn and progress..I won't give up! that's me!

Since still young, gonna take this time to strive though I have been circling around this few years but I did learn something. Getting a bit lost as I am no where right now. Well take this chance to take a break so that I can walk further in life.No one can determine how good or bad you are coz they ain't perfect too.. Only God knows.

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Charis Talent

It was a good day today, travelling for 1 hr plus to crystal to support the charis talent competition..It was good..congrats to tpy hgc for winning!

Had dinner at vivo and then shop a while n head home..not feeling very good now..somehow moody.not sure what am I thinking, perhaps ...I need to do something about it and after that I should be fine..looking out for opportunities..I guess when there is a goal in life, I will feel better.

I shall not sleep too late as I will be heading to church for service early in the morning..not sure what to do after that. so bored..ahhhh....

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I went out with J after work..chinatown eat and then eat dessert..follow by drink at starbucks. terrible hor.. :P just wanna rest only..he is quite tired.. :P wonder what is he thinking..playing with me today, disturbing me..he just like to play..I guess so..shouldn't take it to heart.But it is unusual lor.

I should focus on my stuff..so ya..end here

Last..

yes it's teacher's day today!well it's also my last day working.I thought I will be fine..somehow there is mixed feeling..this is the place I have been for a year where I pursue my studies..and after that I start working etc..though duration is not long, I did learnt something. Thx God for giving me the opportunties! one friend told me, when God close a door, he will open another door for us. I believe in that. I will do my best, is not the end but the beginning to next journey.I am not sure where I will go to, but then again I have to move on.That's life.I just have to work harder.Faith..I must be more happier. Everything is fine..

Small ostabcles meant for us to grow. Time really flies! I can take a short break.

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Lazy Sunday!

Some updates..I guess whatever I mentioned here can be a bit random as well.

Firstly update about yesterday, as usual we went to church and then head off to wendy's to have our dinner. Amy, Xiu Yun & Shi wei join us..It's good to mingle around with different people.
This is the first time we tried the food..not too bad..the queue was long though but service was rather fast. Staff was a bit blur as I ordered 4 sets of combo..It's alright..her attitude was alright, so I didn't blame her.Maybe she was new? after eating, I went to shop around for a while, the rest went back home..Guess what this is the 3rd time I went to town for this week..I went on fri too and Mum & I shop around a while..Well J told me he saw us passing by. :P spy ar..hhaa kidding..He called and chat with me at night..sometime I wonder is he too bored? I just happen to be there I guess..well doesnt matter for now..

Lazy afternoon, I was editing n uploading photos, chatting with friends and also watching variety show..I woke up rather late and
time flies so fast..back to work tml. It's alright as my last day is coming.. I will be set free..I don't wish to think so much as it's really no point thinking about it..

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Just feel like blogging..am I foolish? I realise I still have that feeling..I miss...sometime you cannot control it..I am not sure how..I am just trying to hide and suppress it..I know my priority now is to find job..but this just come to my mind..It's hard to control..I don't think is the same with him..previously maybe yes, not now..time pass by and feeling might change..I leave it to YOu..if that is the right path, I believe You will lead us to it...Sometime it takes time and some tests..Gaining things easily isn't good either.I need Your guidance.. :( I am not sure of my path now..be it career and the rest..

Saturday already, I just wish to take a good break..move on with life and work even further..

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Time flies..I realise I didn't blog during the weekend..sometime too tired or lazy..
Some updates for the weekend before I blog about other stuff..

I went to visit grandma at east area and then went to visit my 3rd Aunt. I love the sliced fish mian xian. It's great. I should recommend but I didn't. maybe later.
That was my sat. As for Sunday, we went to have the porridge buffet at tiong bahru plaza, Rajah Inn. Yummy! There were more than 10 varities.Not bad. After that we headed to ecp for Charis Olympic..Happy that TPY-SEngkang won the overall olympic :)great! Tiring sunday. I head to grandma's place for dinner after we went to old town.
Nice weekend!

As for this week..I am counting down..a few more days yeah..well thinking what to do for the weekend. Probably rest as there will be charis talent next week at crystal. We can enjoy the event there. No plans for this week.I wanna go shopping probably on fri as it is eat with your family day again. :) Perhaps shop around and then go back. Sat probably will be going service and then I can rest on sun! My dramas! I have not catch them.2 hk drama series! I have books to read as well..aiyo..must plan my time..Once I start drama, I cannot stop.. :P
I am taking the break to do so..good time to rest..I need a break to move on further..I will jia you!

Last min went out with J to have meal & window shopping! Though is not very long, but I got my thx u card and might source for gift on fri again ba..

I enjoyed going out with him, rarely catch up due to our schedule.Leave it to God..I still sense that the feeling is good but look like he has even further plans to upgrade himself..It's good..Which makes me think that there is no time for us and not possible..purely friends now..what means to be, will be..This is what I always tell myself..longer to find the suitable job and a suitable partner..not sure when will they come. just have to jia you!

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Feeling so sleepy and I hear nagging..I thought I take a break after watching movie, will feel better. Indeed I felt better, just wanna sleep..eyes closing..but hearing that doesn't help..

翡翠明珠好好看!林峰好儬仔！I went to cineleisure to catch and the movie was funny,touching as well..Happy ending!worth it to watch..guess what I went to catch movie alone this time round..the feeling is good..I enjoyed the movie! I thought it wont be packed but quite alot of people watched though. :) not so bad..at least get a seat..林峰's acting was great! Ah sa is pretty...Joey not bad too..Zou lam not bad either..all in all I love it..most imptly is enjoying what we catch, is better than catching the other movie when you feel ok only after watching..

I wanna enjoy my weekend, relax as much as I want tml and on sun..

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Time to move on..

I have been thinking for past few days and didn't really blog..
I have decided to move on..I am already keeping a look out and hope that opportunties will come..the drive just not that ever since I heard about the news. It's really alright. I just want to enjoy ourselves during the weekend and do not wish to think about it now..take one step at a time.. I will jia you!
I know deep in my heart, I am unhappy but life goes on..God bless! I just have to do my best! :) nothing much that I wanna say right now. Looking forward to weekend..charis olymic and our buffet porridge lunch on sunday!! wooo..end here

I know it's very late already and I guess it's raining soon and I am blogging..

The day past by feeling moody however I am alright already..I went to catch pck movie with xm at tiong bahru plaza in the afternoon..really not many people..we really LOL from the beginning till the end..perhaps some people will find it quite crappy..just like what my boss commented, huh you catch that crappy movie ar? well as long as I like, who cares..everyone have different opinions about things..so ya..what you don't like, doesn't mean I also wont like it though.I don't mind watching, that is why I went to catch you see..

After catching we went to raffles place for a walk..yes I didn't go for the cQ's celebration but I did talk to him on the phone.I guess they had fun. I really wish I was there but end up I didn't want to go down due to some issues..well it's alright as long as he is happy.

Well before I went to catch movie, I heard the news about transfer..I wasn't too happy about it and I know what I want.Very clear.So I will make my right choice when the time comes..no point..Just have to see how things go but I guess it should be confirmed.Leave it to You

I shall end here..gonna work later but I don't feel like sleeping

Happy National Day!

Yeah it's the day again and time flies..watching ndp at home this year..while getting bubble tea and titbits..off to work tml..ahhhh..

Just update..somemore not too bad..resting today and watch tv programs on the free channels :p glad to know a new friend through Vivian. I guess I rarely make new G friend so I would be curious to know more..added me that fast in fb..I was surprised..very friendly ar..seriously we didnt talk much..B talked to HL more :P well B is friendly..good impression..haha Vivian was asking me if HL & Yamashita san is couple yesterday..so cute..nope they are not..so I asked her & B r they couple as well? haha..her reaction was really big saying no no..so cute..
time face reality which is working tml!!! sob sob! the long weekend has passed..that is fast..I wanna more holiday!! have to wait for next month though..

Jia you jia you!! leave the rest to You! I don't wish to think so much.

A day at Istana

Tired. I woke up early to go for service and followed by going to istana open house in the afternoon. A gd experience and we suntan :p well
more like sunburn :p too tired to do anything now. Luckily it is ph tml as it is national day. Time flies and back to work on tue. Just wanna have a gd rest tml. Yesterday was at home then dinner with mum n acc her to wake. Time flies.

Today was a little irritated but thx God everything is fine..as usual and we will be waiting for those auditors to come this few days..might have to be busier and do what we can etc as boss will be out of town..

Anyway update abt yesterday, V & I decided to go k session since we wanna to sing..so we tried the kbox outlet at scape orchard..not too bad just that they dun have free drinks..drink is not included..this concept not too good though..the place is cozy and aircon is powerful though..not too bad..but u cant sing at the same time..the mic frequency is too high..noisy..

Shall end here..feel like slping earlier but I am bloated..

Just had my dinner. yummy! Getting sleepy soon as usual. I just watched inception with hui n ame ar tiong bahri plaza n we also had lunch there. It's nice! U have to really watch it carefully. Too engrossed into the movie that we seem to be into it. I am back to reality. Working tml.yesterday had dinner at new york new York. Nice food! Finally been to marine parade koi cafe. Starting was wondering where is that outlet. Feeling good after meal. Looking forward to long weekend

It's weekend once again and off for church soon..just update before I go out. Time just fly past..

I realise I was too lazy to update about last weekend..Sat was at work and then I had some quiet time at tcc b4 heading for service.Yamashita-San cooked japanese curry for us at HL's house..we spent time together for the whole afternoon..that was last weekend..

For this weekend, firstly update about last night, we went to YMCA-tpy HGC special.. :) we were invited to join them as well..I guess there is about 40 pple if we are not wrong..just chit chat and enjoy our food plus play a few games..it's fun..playing taboo, happy family, heart attack and other games..hehe..really laugh alot..fun and enjoyable night though a few hrs..we had buffet..how I wish we can get in the pool.there is swimming pool though.
As for today, I just tidy up my "letter Box"..it's neater now :) I will go for service and then decide what to do after that.
Gonna have lunch and catch movie with my gd friends tml..oh yeah finally!!

Fruitful weekend ar..not too bad..

End here..gonna get ready to go out

I spent half a day going out since I have to work tml. Went with xm to orchard, end up ar sakae sushi at scape. Not many pple which is gd. Enjoying our food n chit chat. Take photos n lol. That was happy moments however I do feel down after that .I know is a small issue. I guess I will be ok tml. Relax n watch drama will do

The emoness comes again..not sure of who to consult, perhaps I dun wish to talk about it much again,because that doesnt help at all.HL told me to talk to LM & A but seriously I don't feel like telling them lor..I guess people can advise however the decison still lies with me. not sure what am I doing there. I think boss sms me? or is it my dream? I was in the sleepy mode and I can't tell if that sms is real or is just a dream..oh man..I can't find any sms evidence either in my phone..goodness.stress??? I just have to move on and continue to strive right? how can I give up like that? I am not sure what else can I do? is like I am not very sure of what is happening around, isn't it? have to find out myself as pple dun tell u at times..u got to ask and learn from there..that's life

I am not sure and time just flies..I don't wish to think about it..end here

A day at ECP

We woke up earlier to go to east coast park as Aunties are doing yoga..go there to join them for food about 9am and the rest left about 9.30am..it's only a short while after that it starts to drizzle..we decided to wait a while, MUm, Brother n I went to cycle..rains get heavier slowly about 12pm..so we get wet..let's get wet in the rain wor! romantic..rather wet though but other than that should be fine..Bro wasnt well for a while though after we started for about 15 mins so we rest and continue..that's when the rain started to pour more heavily but thx God is not those thunder storm..It was the first time I cycle when it rained..
Good experience..I manage to overcome the fear already..woo hoo! thx God for that and my legs n hands are pretty ok this time round not aching..I guess I didnt cycle too much this time round??

We had our lunch at mac and then head home.
I went to take a nap just now for 2 hours..feeling better..I feel like sleeping throughout the night but still need my dinner though..long long time since I went to ecp with famil. It was a fruiful morning out there..

Update about yesterday as well..as usual went to church and then dinner and head home..dun want to stay out too late coz of today.but end up sleeping late though..I got a new book from popular yesterday..yes again.. :P I have to start reading,keep buying books but I didnt read..I love to buy since there is offer, y not..the next time u buy will be more expensive..


anyway I am glad and thankful for the past fruitful weekend that I had..I enjoyed them to the fullest..finally can enjoy the weekend instead of struggling with my assignments almost on every sunday..so happy that I had graduated!!! :) woo...sunday has been good..sat as usual will be church but at times we have other activities after that maybe drinking..spending time with God is fruitful too..I do hope that I can spend one of the sunday at home..to do my stuff..hasnt been doing so for past few weeks :P

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Yeah I came back from mdc after the recording of entertainment on 5..CQ went for the show so we went to support our friend..it was an interesting program as it is not live, u can get to see how they do the recording..pretty fast and nice..it's funny too..I love the show and I will continue to catch other epsiode..personally find the host very good and comfortable. I love to catch buffetlicious too.Hope that as time goes by, I can watch more channel 5 shows just to brush up my el..listen more n learn more..

I am tired..other than mdc, for work wise, there is monthly sharing cum talk..sharing of MVV..everyone has chocolate to eat..relaxing while we listen..interesting & funny talk as well..

Just hope that I can have a good weekend! end here

A day at Scape Orchard

Well very thankful that weekend finally come and I am resting..just update about yesterday..nothing much past few days..except for wed movie..I met up with Jo for dinner and he introduced me to the new scape which I had not been to. I really have to explore more places. sometime is really not sure what to have etc..there are too many cafes out there to explore..slowly..then we can intro to friends etc. :) that's what we always do

Talking about scape, I went to try out the food at white dog cafe..I really find the cafe name very cute..the food not too bad but kind of lack of staff lor..the staff is rather busy and I believe there is not enough cook. I want to try out the other two cafes next time and maybe can go to the kbox at scape to sing wor..the place looks cosy.. :) I like places which hidden at a corner..not so noisy.. :)

Gonna relax myself tonight and tml..hanging out with friends for drinks tonight and high tea tml afternoon..oh yeah..we shall relax abit at times..this year not that busy for me..I guess is a time for me to relax a bit after being busy for some time since the last two years..take a slower pace to walk further in life

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Twilight eclipse

Yeah I had half day today thus wentbto catch eclipse with Grace. Well not too bad. Office aircon drip water yesterday, as a result we can't on it. Luckily the recep area can. Paul didn't come today thus baron has to work til 9 as I can't. My leave was mentioned way before last week. Edward still the best! Hee random ar. Thinking about the movie. Normal la nothing surprising. I guess is becoz I read the book. Mm. Gonna practises hard for keyboarding. Really feel like going for holiday. Hopefully next year. Taiwan n I wanna go hk again.end here

A day at the airport!

I am quite tired..didnt sleep alot..I guess I can sleep earlier tonight..hopefully..a few things that I wanna do..firstly update first..

I went to airport to send CQ off as he is going tw to film programs.well only manage to hang out with him for a short while but thx mei that she sms me to ask me what time I will reach though..then sms her if I reach..she is not so bad la.. :) then realise that the rest are eating lunch though and we just joined them but there is no seats for us as the table is too small so we sat behind..which is kind of extra..is ok la..just feeling a bit unhappy about it..after eating CQ left to board the plane..Alice & I went to shop around and then had our late lunch at tcc..there is 1for 1 treat..so not so bad..quite nice wor..
Well we can even stayed at airport for 3 hrs..lol that's quite long..indeed airport tcc is cozy and quiet..I love it..haha too some pics.it's with Alice..she will load them.. :P

finally went to kino to get my books..I had voucher and was wondering what to buy..end up buying Have a little faith by Mitch Albom and not forgetting Xie zhi's 志游自在..He wrote a new book and there is 10% discount when we get the book..then plus I use voucher so I paid only 20 bucks for two books..wooo.. :) so happy!

Feeling tired but having home cooked dinner, made my day :)

End here..gonna wrap my storybook..and then read

See Raymond Lam!!

Yeah a little tired today as I went to work for half a day and then went down to compass point to meet up with Mummy..yes both of us went to see Lam Feng..He was here for the bio-essence nugeno cool men search event.Event was at 3pm..He was one of the judges..really dashing..not only his fc fans went..alot of people went to see..pple crowding around from 1st level all the way til 4th level..wooo..we also took some pics..clear than last year alicafe's photos as I didnt bring my camera the other time..it was also during july..

Lam Feng make my day..This is the first time Mum wanna go n see star..She really loves the dramas that he acted in..nevertheless the songs are nice too..His fans can sing so well..woo the new song for the mysteries of love..haha 1003 djs are the host..well they talked about his old drama..well should talk on new drama instead right? is alright..He just fly over and then fly back to Hk as he had other work to do..

Glad to see him..hope to see him more often and all the best for his upcoming concerts..loading some photos before I sleep..
taking a longer time coz the loader is no longer the fast one :(
Gd night!
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Updates...

Here I am updating the happenings this few days..well is thur! though is fri tml, not too excited as I am working on sat :P well mon work late so nothing much..as for tue, went to chinatown to have dinner with SC,WX, A. We ordered fish, veg, fried hokkien mee n fried oyster to share follow by dessert at traditional dessert shop..woo really very full..

As for yesterday was our sales team dinner at Chong Qing Steamboat..the variety not too bad but I didnt eat much also..very full..hearing boss & colleagues sharing about stuff..you know men's talk and I was getting sleepy..haha..

Working til 8pm today and yes meeting my gd friend WL tml for dinner..Sat should be seeing Lam Feng..actually timing clash with CQ's event at suntec but I guess I will go n see Lam Feng coz he rarely come..sun will be service..should I really go gym?? after gym then go n eat n go home..I think I should exercise..packed weekend here I come..

Thinking alot about stuff..may I be able to learn stuff and be able to provide a good service..need some time..I need opportunties..pray that God wil grant me the strength to move on
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I am here to blog again..just a quick one.

Not sure how would I feel but when there is nothing to do, make me wonder am I extra or just doing nothing now..not too sure about stuff and there is nothing much to be done..waste of time..perhaps it's because currently not peak period..I hope to see myself being useful and slowly get the knowledge and skills.If there is no prospect etc, really no point wasting time..ever since last week, I seem to get rather more emo..not sure how can I make things better..

I need some advice though..I will be fine..just have some thoughts that might be inconvenient to tell people around me especially colleagues..
I wish I can rest now..actually I am not doing much things too :P

End here..just enjoy eating with my team tonight will do..working at 11am tml, not so bad..fri and then sat half a day..wooo long week

Gathering with dear friends..

Yeah it's the day that we planned to meet up..thx EVe for organising..we went to costa sand pasir ris for gathering with Chong Qing & other friends that we know..David ordered nice food..rice, then there were dishes..not bad..is nice..no wonder cq loves it..I know the food that he feel that is good, will be really good la..he loves to eat lor..

Thx U for the weather and friends..I feel so blessed..Chong Qing is right, life r short..being able to be friends, not easy..cherish them..I cherish you all..though not many of us are there..but nevertheless..is good..about 22 of us..we can play game and share things..Chong Qing we love you too! though it was a simple gathering from 7 plus to 11pm..it was rather nice..spending the few hours to know each other better..I might not be free at times, once I cherish a friend, I will continue to cherish..be there for you though not every1 will feel that you are sincere etc..doesnt matter..I just feel happy..past few days are the days that we aint happy..but life goes on..the little thoughts from friends can warm our heart..make me smile & laugh for the day..overwhelmed with thoughts that I am not sure what to say..just happy and feel that I am so lucky..I will continue to move on with life, slowly slowly change for better ba..way to go!career fair on sun..prayed that things will be fine

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Goodbye Uncle!

Time flies and today is the day we sent him off..that ends the four days wake..RIP!everyone is overwhelmed with things and been sleeping late..pray that everyone can feel the peace and have a gd rest tonight..we all need it and some of us going back to work already.thx God for everything especially the weather.Thx God for the brothers & sisters, uncle , aunties who came down to the wake..
Thx u SC, WX,TA, PCK,J for sending my uncle off..

Chalet with CQ is tml..since the funeral ends, I will go ahead with the chalet..nan de can meet CQ and he just came back from maldives..must be having a good mood..looking at his photos, wow it's so nice..

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I am tired..after the meal.just want to take a nap and gonna head to grandma's side at night for the wake..is really heartbreaking seeing grandma cry n cry..I had not seen her like that before..she is 91 already and she had to send her son off..is really heartbreaking..we will be there for her..just went to comfortable her today..not sure what to do..

I go n rest a while..end here

It's Father's day but...

Yup it's father's day today but we lost our dearest Uncle..God took him away already..Uncle passed away this morning and we are feeling lost..administrative work etc to be settled and I guess things will only be settled tml..our heart sank..I slept so late but still quite fresh now..

I guess we knew this day will come but why is it on Father's day? I do have some plans for this week as well but might have to cancel..Family still more impt..see how it goes..
It's really impt to cherish love ones around us..earlier on few years back , my grandfather left us and now is our uncle..I am simply worry for grandma as she is so old already, how to break the news to her..

I dun even feel hungry now, at the stage whereby not sure what to do now but to wait..pray that God will strengthen all of us, especially his immediate family..watch after them and all of us..comfort them..It's a relieve for him..

Shall end here..God bless~

Tired

I am feeling rather tired..we r busy with soc stuff and I thought that tonight will be fine..well I do have to stay late again..plus tml as I am on mid shift..somehow is like I am in sch..oh man..

Of course we felt shocked by the flood at orchard road..It's really terrible. I hope it is cleared by now..if not no one wanna go orchard..somemore it happens at orchard where tourists are..pray that everything will be fine...

I am bored..but will be busy before 7pm..hopefully everything goes on well..not planning to go anywhere on fri.I just want to get home to rest and yes next fri is the chalet..waiting for the chalet no. I guess it will be announced soon by cq or kt..lets wait patiently..

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Rather tired today as there is SOC..generated SC & LOO etc..we really spent some time doing it..did some keying in on fri n sat..then printed them out yesterday..alot of work..we r all tired.gonna go back earlier tml..need a gd rest though.I work til 8pm tonight..to help out..I know there will be time like that whenever there is SOC..

Shall end here..gonna continue the hk drama and then slp..

cold day!

Just a quick and short entry since I have some thoughts.
Finally feel that I am a consultant though the designation don't say so..more people approaching..really Thx God for the opportunities. close sales on tue if I am not wrong! I will do my best to help them and get the suitable one for them..though sometime really bored but sales line is like that I guess..just do our job..as long as job is done well, who cares what you do..is the figure :P realistic..I am not crictising anything but it is just my point of view. It's true if you ask those sales personal or even FPs..they can share with you.

I will jia you! weather so cold lately coz of the rain..I guess is better than feeling really warm..thx God for the weather! guess what I saw Tay Ping hui again while I go to work..he was filming near my workplace..I walked closer and realise is him :) tend to see him..saw him thrice already when I was outside.I am not sure about the lady as I can't see her face as her back was facing me..Thinking that I have to go to work, I didnt bother much

Happy working to all! I end here! yes is fri tomorrow and I will be on half day..working on sat. nevertheless is alright..waiting for my facial treatment..woooo

Mon Blues

Wow..my first post for June..Finally recovered fully since wed..but I dun dare to wear my contact lens yet..quite free today..bored..anyway update about weekend..

Yeah went for GSS with Mummy in orchard..I bought slipper for office, 2 t shirts and 1 dress..face scrub and masks from faceshop..woooo that was about 100 bucks lor..I cant spend money for the time being..maybe next month.feel like going for another round.. :P We went coffee club for coffee too..I love the oreo cheesecake..suppose to take new york cheesecake but it was the last piece and reserved :( is ok..oreo cheesecake is nice..

As for yesterday tired..went for service and then went to mount faber park a while but it was too warm so I left and head to RWS instead :P HL didnt go before so I brought her there..then we did walk around harbourfront centre n vivo a little..had a light snack at pizza hut and head home..I was really dead when I was home..I fall asleep after dinner and then trying not to slp so much in case I cant slp at night..end up dozing off before 12am again and I decide to sleep instead.

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Rest day

Just a short update..

Long weekend just pass by like that.

Yeah I have been resting since fri..continue to rest as my eyes are still abit red..I wanna make sure I recover before going back to work as I will face the com for the whole day..trying not to strain my eyes..so sleeping is the best..piggy me..haha..eat n sleep..slack..what else can I do but rest..ya

I will be back tml and hope that things are fine.looking forward to events next month..woooo!!!

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Sunny sat

Yes it's so sunny and I am in office :p going back soon..mm..2nd day of my swollen eyes..really dry & a bit painful but it's much better.ThX God! I hope I can recover soon. not able to go anywhere at all..you know that feeling..staying home for 3 days though yesterday was PH..at least get to enjoy thur night..so I shouldn't complain ar..we can always go shopping any other days right? Normally I try to spend my PH at some place instead of staying at home..I had a gd rest though yesterday, feeling relaxed and get to watch 谈情说案, it's showing til ep 5 only..waiting for hk to show it first and I can't wait to catch..been quite some time I chase drama and somemore latest drama..feeling good about it. I know I am suppose to rest but I can't stand slping whole day..way too much..napping for 2 hours is still ok..

I guess I sleep well..just have to rest more and drink more water..avoiding seafoods ba though doc didnt say :P

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Sore eye

Yeah it's PH and I thought I can go out today..end up having to stay at home cause my eye start to feel weird yesterday and is swollen today.so I cant go out with Mum.She went out with my aunties instead which was planned earlier on..

Well not a bad thing after all as I had fun yesterday. just rest today and there will be other PH as well..just have to think positively..I can sleep perhaps watch a bit of drama

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Eat with your family day!

It's almost 1am and I am blogging..rather tired..just chill out with colleagues at hooters clark quay ..reach home around 12am :p a nice place..met up with Grace all the way til evening..around 6 hrs..wooo great! we went bugis to have lunch and dinner hhaa..though nothing much, is good..

It's eat with your family day so we get to either go work one hr later or go back one hr earlier depending on what time you start work.Well I didnt spend with family however we will have dinner together during weekend so it doesnt really matters to me :) everyday is a day whereby you can eat with your family not just this special day u see..

I shall end here..tired

Graduation day!

Yeah officially graduated already..I hope to be able to get to wear the hood soon.. :) yeah I guess there will be a chance..the feeling is good to be a graduate for now..taking lots of pics with the rest..I just uploaded them..so fast hor..happy occasion though..It end around 12pm and we get to eat.end up snapping more pics first and then go for our food..it's held at raffles town club..food not bad but I am busy with photo taking that I don't really wanna eat alot..ate a bit..should be good enough..

I am happy!! woooo..too bad certs can only be collected later on :P boo..all in all, everything is great! thx God for that!! You are awesome..thx u Mummy for attending the ceremony..

Looking forward to the long holiday next week..activities coming up..End here

Busy answering call day

Well there are really quite a no. of calls today..feeling abit headache to get the calls etc but still alright after all..get to learn more things each day..yup working afternoon shift today..not so bad..gonna go off soon. :P

Have a bit of time so I blog..opps..hhaaa hungry already and I feel like taking a cab home..will there be any cab around? maybe save it for sat since I need it on sat? I guess I dreamt that I spend too much money last night and left with only certain amt..weird dream..

yeah tml is fri.so happy! already schedule out next week that I work afternoon on wed and then thur half day..need to work on sat..though a bit sian but is ok..I guess nothing much..take the time to learn things and read? probably will be like that..

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Cooling day

It's rather cold day as it is raining..nothing much to do.answer some enquires etc...pple all getting sick soon..boss is sick now..

I can't wait to get home soon..just hope that there is sales coming soon..I guess I should read up more about our courses etc when I get home..have a gd dinner n shower before I can read..watch nice videos etc..

probation is 3 months..not sure how it goes..nothing much to do so I just rest and learn stuff..hopefully I can do something soon to prove myself..I have faith! :)
Like what friends say, take it easy for now..give myself 3 months.

End here..going back soon and afternoon shift tml..wooo can wake up later..end at 8pm..is ok..

anyway that pussycat joke is funny..

Well I didnt go anywhere today. My notebook adapter is pronounced dead.gonna get new 1 tml.time being just have to find other things to do.Update about yesterday. We attended Qing wei & Rachel's wedding. Congrats Brother Qing wei! Rachel is really lucky. Thx God for the couple. May they have a blessed marriage. Their martimony was held at the church. It was my 1st time attending at the church. :) very happy for them. The church was rather different from ours. We had buffet lunch reception. Not bad. Weather was great. After that we headed to church thereafter dinner. Gross experience as we found live worm crawling in our salad. It was the 1st time there n I guess it would be the last time patronizing that outlet. Spoilt our appeitte. End up didnt go 4 supper. Daddy bought food. End here.

Motivational Talk

Yeah is fri!!! nothing much as usual today..thx God I got my namecard..my first namecard..can start to distribute already hhaha..not trying to show off..just share lor..

We had monthly sharing followed by motivational talk by Roger Collantes today..inspired by him..I bought his book.. :) he shared that life is like a donut with hole in the middle..his wife said that..life is full of ups and downs isnt it?

Happiness is an inside job..example A CEO earns a lot, he or she might not be really happy..is more on yourself..happiness in you..You have a choice..to make your day better or make it worst.doesnt mean that with great achievement and very successful, you will be really happy. at times is not..don't just survive but thrive!

Just a summarise on that..I will update more after I read the book..

End here! have a great weekend! God Bless u!

I am on mc today..sleep and rest for the whole day..however I still feel tired..lots of thoughts again but I didnt want to talk to anyone about it. I guess is the uncertainity that bother me. I know I should have faith and just move on and see how things go..it's the beginning but is like so uncertain and many changes here n there..I am not sure how far can I grow when I am there..It's about a week but I didn't learn much stuff..

Are you afraid that I will be a threat? am I thinking too much? doesn't seem that you are willing to teach me, however B was willing to do so..I prefer to approach him than P..however P will tell me if I ask..haiz lots to learn..I am not sure yet thus no confidence.

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Hectic day

well It is the 5th day of work so far..slowly learning stuff..well just felt tired after attending 5 hrs of meeting with SA team & our team..wow we discuss stuff from 9.30-12.30 and then continue after lunch all the way til 4pm..I was really tired..almost dozed off..
I hope that the rest of the week will be fine and also as time goes by..pray that I can learn more stuff and slowly absorb what I learnt :) May everyone has a great week and stay healthy! do remember to drink more water wor.weather is rather warm lately with showers at times..

I am going for medical check up tml..so I cannot sleep a bit later though I start work at 11 tml :( well is alright. Probably reward myself with a gd breakfast then head to work..then get something to eat for tea break in case I am hungry

End here..watching tv

Tiring Weekend

I am relaxing now..I went to gym this morning with HL and then head down to cafe Iguana to have the gathering with the rest..Thx Kelvin for organising..I enjoyed myself..rather tired..drank a glass of kiwl margiatas..dunno how to spell :P abit of alcohol though..after showering and having my fav cup noodle, I felt better..

I should sleep earlier tonight wor..

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We just have a small celebration for Angelia..bought her a mango cake..we went ajisen to eat..parkway after service..meeting up again tml for tea..hhee

As for yesterday, meet up with Jo for dinner at orchard and we have coffee at tully's coffee..cosy place but somehow coffee too sweet :P

Going to chomp chomp for supper soon..weather is so warm..feeling itchy lor..going gym tml as well before meeting friends for tea..


I am having some thoughts again..haiz..I decided not to go down to see AL competition..time to stop myself from doing that..there are more impt stuff to do..right now is to focus on my work..learnt as much as I can..do sales..Thx God


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There is always a purpose for things to happen isnt it?
I went back to sch to discuss about the vacancy and thx God, I got in..I didnt have much interview but rather talk about it.I guess is because I worked there for a while and I studied there too..unexpected when Jefrey wanna speak to me last fri..Seriously not sure how would I fair. I am gonna do my very best though I know there are challenges ahead..Pray that I can overcome them slowly and each day..nothing is easy unless you are doing nothing thus no stress..

I shall not think about how it goes but rather learn as it goes..
Pray for me pls!! thanks Lord & Jefrey who give me the chance..waited for 4 months..

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Pri 6.14 Gathering...

Some updates for the weekend..mm..I went for the AL competition yesterday..kt won..she deserve to win.. :) is a good experience..after that I went down to meet pri sch friends..14 of us went to wisma indochine to have our meal and chit chat..catching up with pri sch memories..really fun after so many years though is just a simple gathering..congrats to Angelina as she is getting married..

Tired..but I have a gd time with them..no urge to drink though..meet up with WL on fri for a simple meal at bugis then we went suntec to chit chat..catch up..

As for today..at home lor..dun feel like going anywhere..need to go grandma's place for dinner.yet to prepare for tml's interview..just dun wanna do anything for now beside reading or watching some programs..

Finally has time to do my stuff..will cherish the time..I guess there is no need to envy pple as everyone have a different life..I know the top priority,they can have the time to go ahead n support..I should use my time to find a new job and slowly succeed from there..it takes time..let them go n support since they have the time though I wish I am closer too. Well is no big deal..having a gd career and lived a meaningful, healthy & happy life matter more..life is full of ups and downs...slowly walk through it..Thx God for providing opportunities & all the blessings!wonderful pple that I know..

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Having mixed feeling again..tired..nervous etc..too many things..last day of work and then surprises came up..there is sales vacancy..dunno whether to take up yet..

shall see how it goes..end here

gathering

woo..is it the gathering week? seem like..met up with Yamashita-san & his family.finally see his kids & wife.. :) so cute..just had a simple meal at citylink asian kitchen and then we went to long bar to have a drink..I didnt drink , just had shirley temple..hehe..good to get together during weekday..Kelvin, me, HL & cousin..

Meeting up with wl tml & meeting pri sch friends on sat..woo can't wait to see them..last week of work tml..celebration? hhaa..time to work harder..

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Stars Award Show 2

Suppose to sleep yet blog at this timing :P doing some stuff..congrats CQ for getting in top ten..woooo..He was really happy as it was the first time..well after he settle taking pics etc..he ran out to us and hug us..we were shocked.we give him a hug..this is what I really wish to do to congrat him..will see him soon for the gathering..I guess he can't sleep tonight..we can't sleep as well..gd experience seeing live show and the ballroom was great..resort world convention centre..compass ballroom..waiting to catch the party show as we missed it..red carpet is a gd experience too..

hhaa caught cq taking pic in the carpark :P I guess he has a lot to share tml..hope that he will continue to work hard..he told us he will..always supporting him etc we know him already..but pq,kt still closer with him..gave him a bottle of liang cha to drink..

too bad DK didnt get in top ten..those who get in rather predictable..we were so anxious when last 3 top male r being called..so scary..we really hope CQ get in..thx God he did..

I shall end here..

Some updates..nothing much this week just work..I had a fruitful day today..I went to gym this morning and then go to church..friends not in town...so I am a little lonely today lor..is alright..I didnt wanna go back too late either as it's gonna be a long day tml...I feel good after exercising..however a little tired after 4pm..I guess I was getting hungry after that :P had bland food today after I work out..it's better..I feel the ache now..too long didnt exercise? not really..I exercise two weeks ago :P didnt work out last week..rather tired now..drank chicken soup and koi cafe honey green tea...wooo..though its having quite a long queue..pretty fast..I dun mind buying..

I must remember to buy liang cha for the rest tml.. :) wooo..cya guys tml..end here..

It was rather emo day but I feel better..just feeling that there is alot of things on hand..graduation issue..job etc..making me stress..once I get home and shower plus meal, it seem to be much better.. I will jia you!! job ending soon..cannot give up faith..do my best and waiting for sunday to come..enjoy ourselves ya..

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Star Award 2010 Show 1

I am really tired now..just some updates before I sleep..

Yes I went to mdc theatre to catch live show 1..the experience is good..able to see stars..have the feel of wat is live telecast..funny jokes that was cracked..thx u CQ for the tickets..won it at JF & WB's slot..

I heard that we should be going for next week's star award..thx to GP's tickets..thx u KT for choosing us to go ba..I hope is finalise le...waiting for CQ to try to get more...feel bad & disappointed just now coz he didnt win..nevertheless we tried our best..looking forward to next week's star award

Realy need to sleeo..I am so tired..end here..updatea again soon

some updates about weekend

mm..sat as usual going to church and SC, Angelia, HL, me & Yamashita san had food at shudoku..I hope I didnt spell wrongly..I shared with huay ling as I went for supper with family after that :P fattening right? no worries I didnt eat much..I drank coke though and I couldnt sleep early..end up slping around 4am..waking up around 8 plus yesterday as I went to gym with HL..feeling refreshing though after our workout and drinking our fav koi's cafe bubble tea..woo.there is a new outlet at bishan and coming up next is bugis illuma..wooo..happy! a fruitful weekend!

Well rather tired..need to keep a look out..continue to have the faith..not sure why the feeling is still there..I don't wish to tink so much..let it be..

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I am tired..didnt really blog for this week yet...trying to help Dad with stuff and figuring it out how to do it as I had not tried before..thx God I finished it just now and I am tired to do other stuff..shall leave it to morning since is past midnight..

some updates for this week..mm..nothing much..not feeling well on mon n tue..end up taking half a day on tue as I wasnt well yet and took a day off on wed to rest..back to work on thur..must be wondering what happen ar..I think I get food poisoning :P keep to my healthy diet with not much spicy nor fried food for this week..food was still good..u know fish soup, porridge, bee hoon soup, subway..rice..wooo..not so bad..still surviving with them as long as it keep me healthy & well..I really don't mind..

Happy to hear JJ's song so often..nice!!mm.. need to have more faith nmotivation to continue my job search..weekend has come..just wanna relax and do some stuff..maybe reading?? yes going gym on sun..time to exercise..

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Tired Sunday!

Long day..meet up with Jo for lunch followed by going down to see AL since I am free..Circle line open house..went to take a look..
after that go n support CQ aka AL at suntec..then we went to wuhan steamboat to have dinner with CQ..9 of us plus others la..a small gathering though we didnt interact much with him..He just wanna thank us for supporting & voting..don't mention it la CQ..not because we are greedy or wat, we just wanna support u be it a friend or wat..jia you!

End here! so tired

Long weekend!

Yeah long weekend again..

Cosy weather today as it is raining..

I don't have service today as there is OAR for 3 days..I went for OAR yesterday at crystal..this is the first time I went to crystal tabernacle..not bad..bigger than charis..we have the mass service there whereby we can invite friends.I didn't invite anyone..is alright.just go and take a look..perhaps I can invite someone one day. other than that I slack and rest at home yesterday before I go to church.

Senior Pastor aka founder David preach at the service..translation is in hokkien so it sounds a little funny at times when translating :P rather meaningful..a big group of us went for supper after service..waiting n waiting for the rest til we reach MSQ at 11.30pm..Xin wang Hk cafe opened til 4am so we can stay late..we stayed til 2am..feeling sleepy at the point of time..not sure who keep taking photos of us with sleepy faces..oh man..

J was like rather happy..smiling and saying finally saw me at OAR :P I didnt went for the previous one due to rashes.. well so I decided to go this time round..He cut his hair..thx him for being helpful whenever we need to go back after we have our meal, he always mention that I need a ride too..somehow he observed that my cousin was sleepy & he showed concern..it makes me wonder I am sleepy too but why he didnt notice it..I think he can't be bothered..

Well coz of yesterday..I slept at 4am this morning end up waking up at 12.30 :P I guess I was still dreaming and my mum wake me up as we are going out..yeah I went to tampines again..visit grandma..nothing much..I had craving so I bought bubble tea for my mum & I..yummy..happy as at least we went out for a walk..yup fri & sat just like that..however I felt relaxed..

End here..going to catch wu fu which I missed last night

moody!

Well I already had an upset day, maybe I should put it a moody day not feeling well mentally & physically and she added oil to the fuel..so we end up arguing as I cant stand it anymore..exploded..

Each time, u blame God..everything has nothing to do with HIm..sorry I don't mean to be disrespectful..she doesnt understand how I feel..2010..we can't be looking back..we should move on with life so my expectance of life would definitely be different as we wanna improve..everyone can doubt me, everyone can disbelieve me but why r u the same as well? It's really alright as I know what I am doing..you see the negative side of me, that doesnt mean I am not working on my goals..we can't take things for granted..as I am clearer on the goals that I want, that is why I take a longer time to get it..you simply dun understand and I don't bother to explain as it is not necessary.all u did was pull me down and give me pressure..I know u meant well..perhaps that's not the way and the truth always hurts..

even when I commented on something, u aint happy about it..its my freedom to comment right cause that's mine? I didnt hurt anyone or offend anyone with the words..I am only praising the Lord..is it wrong?
ahhh..whenever things happen u bring the Lord's name which really pissed me off..can u respect my religion n me?
do u see me critcising religion?I never criticise on things even if I dun like or wat..coz is not right..sigh..

I know where I am heading to..everyone is different..I am who I am..everyone is unique..I believe in myself..coz I have to , to move on..I need more motivation and not u pulling me down each time..u know it hurts..is alright..there is always ups n downs..I will jia you!!!

this 90 days really tough to pull through..I am still kicking alive and finding ways to walk out of the darkness..give me some time..I prove myself, not to anyone but to myself..I have been too lazy lately..I admit

I will be alright.just wanna pour everything out..

I end here

Warm Sunday!

Just some updates for today.

I am rather tired as I woke up early for service and then came back around 5.30. I went to see JJ..背对背拥抱 photo taking session at 2pm..JJ Lin came around 2.30

You must be wondering am I crazy..well I have not seen him before..so went to glance and then as the queue is not so long..I went to take photo with him..hand in hand..woo..wonderful..thx Yamashita-san as he took the shoot for me..I can keep it as memories..I understand that there is another one which is autograph session at 8pm scape orchard..I am too tired to go..so at home right now blogging, watching tv..rather warm today but I feel better after my shower & dinner..just wanna sleep earlier tonight..need to work tml..time flies..JJ is cute..He sang 背对背拥抱. :) nice.rather excited to take photo with JJ..good one..Yamashita-san took a video..so I can get from him..waiting for the pics..I can start to upload some pics first..

End here..abit lonely as my family is out..is alright..

Happy Shopping!

Woo..I feel tired already after shopping..
some updates before I sleep.

I went to Resorts World Sentosa with Mum today and we also shop at vivocity..some of the shops at RWS are still not operating..is good to explore though..I have not been to the unversial studio..well will find a day to go there though it costs a bit.I guess I should go and take a look..yeah bought two pairs of shoes..hershey chocolate, rather expensive $4 a bar for the king size at RWS..I bought popcorn at garrett popcorn shop..yummy..$9..

Finally get my cooling pad for my notebook as well..I brought Mum to have dinner at soup spoon..she loves the soup and salad wor..good..shall bring her again another time..

Thx God for the good weather..rather tired after shopping..legs aching :P..I never feel so relaxed and enjoy shopping for some time..is like we really will shop around..which I have not done so during CNY period..shop til we drop..the feeling is shiok.

I went to catch How to train your dragon 3D with Joseph yesterday and we also went to catch up at coffee club after the show.the. movie was nice n funny..worth to watch for those who have not watched.I would recommend it to them

Ok time to slp as I am going for service wor tml..

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I went to wakaru bugis to have pasta and then chocolate ice cream with hazelnut :) yummy..too full to sleep yet..hopefully tml will have a gd day..off to catch movie tml..yeah how to train your Dragon..

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Nice Weekend!

Just some updates..

I went for sunday service today and then had a late breakfast cum lunch so is brunch :P then head to tampines..as there is quite a few hrs so we hang around and chit chat, arcade.. met up with the rest at 3.30pm for our fellowship cycling..8 of us..of course there r pple who r late :P

we went to ECP to cycle for two hrs followed by dinner..jap food..yummy..so full..I am tired..legs n arms aching :P from cycling..that is the result of not exercising for long..

As for yesterday, attended Cousin Hui Ling's ROM wedding at SAF Yacht Club..a simple ceremony followed by Buffet..thank God for the weather for this two days..

Tired..I gonna end here..time to go to bed..

so tired

I am not sure why I just feel so tired..going off to sleep after I blog..

Well seem to have many things that I wanna do but end up never cause is getting late..had interview and then went to catch up with WL over dinner at novena and back home to complete that application form..check abit of mail etc and I felt tired already..time is so fast..I wish I dun have to work tml..but I have to..I didnt take leave..is ok ..just enjoy myself during weekend and there is another interview tml..

End here..need to sleep

Suppose to sleep but just feel like blogging a little while and then off to bed..

Happy for Cq as he got award..great..anyway I am having mixed feeling..not sure how I feel..simply weird..I feel alright after praying to GOd..I need the peace..perhaps is the 3rd month, I felt abit lost..I am not losing my faith..Thx Lord..I will keep on trying just that is bored at work..I dun wish to sleep earlier but I know I should,to have plenty of rest..things that I wanna do, can be done during weekend..I guess there is not enough time this weekend to sit down quietly to do my stuff..perhaps during the morning..coz I will have to attend wedding on sat, sun would be service..follow by cycling in the afternoon..wooo..packed weekend..perhaps is good..

I wanna feel happier soon..thx God I receive calls for interview..pray that it will be alright.. :)
I will jia you!!

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Being human

I just watched "being Human" directed by Jack Neo..I would say that the movie was rather good and funny..it's still worth watching after all..PS GV was packed with pple that we can only get seats at the first 3 rows..It surprised me..Glad that audiences still support the movie regardless of the scandals news..Thx God for that..

I am not sure why I just feel so itchy after my shower..is alright..hearing the music piece "Air on the G string"..I love it man and I just wanna have the music piece to enjoy

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It's sat..I woke up earlier to have breakfast and see if I can manage to find gd opportunities..look like nothing much only, making me a little disappointed..nevertheless I know I have to try harder everyday..Pray that more job opportunties will be provided..

mm..since last week, the biggest news in town is JN..well I do agreed we have no rights to interfere with his personal life but I just have some personal views though..everyone is talking about it..perhaps we shouldnt say too much but the things that he did, are unaccepted and no one knows that is the real him until he was exposed..it was a big lesson and his family has to face others outside who will gossip and pin point at them etc..some men are just like that, we don't wish to accept but that is the reality..consquences can be very big and I always believe that you have to be responsible for your own actions so is better to think about it whether is it right or worth it to do so..you have to pay a big price. I do believe, God gave us the gift of forgiveness, God would wish that he will repent and JN will be forgiven by our Heavenly Father..God is our wonderful Father who is so forgiving but of course we cannot abuse that fact and do anything we want and then seek for his forgiveness..Learn to obey the God ba..

Whatever done is done..I pray that slowly things will be fine..gonna support his movie as it has nothing to do with his personal life..yes I am catching it tonight and will feedback whether it is nice after that ..

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I feel it once again..that feeling of no motivation..can't wait to get a new job..8 more days to my current contract..sigh..well met up with mf..just a simple dinner..chit chat..also nver chat much..reach home at 10pm..I am pretty tired now..I wanna go to bed soon..feeling abit bad..doing nothing much..never search for job..I guess tml ba..too tired..


THought of that JN's news remind me of him..same kind though..sigh..

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Touched..

It's a normal sat once again but I am touched..my eyes get watery..
As I know the amt that I have is gonna run out sooner or later..He always provide..is not the first time..providing me with solutions..thx U..I just cried..no matter what I did, everyone makes mistakes..He forgives..It makes me realise that I am not very forgiving towards my friends..perhaps I should be more forgiving..I will try..it takes time..I know I am lazy at times..but no worries I won't give up searching for the career..give me some time..I will continue to search..and do my best for the job that I am in now..this is what I should do now..

Time flies and I am going to church soon to worship You Lord..Thx U..I know that simply words not able to describe how mighty how wonderful You are and how much You dote & love us..I love U Father!

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Well getting a little busy this two days as there are more work to be done..fruiful day..catching Vanness 's drama 下一站幸福。。still have a few more espiode..nice..never been so engross in one ever since I watched 宫心计。。relaxing and watch..I wont think so much..personally feel that Vanness mature alot compared to during meteor garden..his acting skill improves..

mm..somehow feel a bit emo..I will be alright..thx God..finally get my pay..delayed for some time and I prayed for it.Michelle came to me today unexpectly to give me my cheque..I really need some money..finally..as for last month end salary, I guess it needs some time again..sigh..hopefully end of this month..

I pray for more job oppportunies and may God grant me patience & strength to move on with life, also my family & friends with gd health, happiness and keep them safe n sound..

I have faith in U..I continue to work hard and also trust in U..

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MIS Dinner & Dance 2010

Yes We just had dinner & dance on fri 26feb..yup..It was fun and cool as most pple dress up as different characters such as spiderman, emperor, empressor, mario, me as a student etc..the host was funny while he entertain us..we had the dinner at hilton hotel and a bus was here to pick us up and head to the hotel..if not can you imagine wearing weird outfit there taking public transport..if not have to change there..still abit ma fan..our emperor and empressor changed there..if not they will look weird..9 person was selected for the best dressed costume..and the lady in black dress won though..busy taking pics with pple and We didnt take with all..there is photo shots that we can take..one was free for us..the rest u will need to pay

Aiyo I was choosen to go to the stage and then learn how to dance..haha..makarina..oh man so embarassing..it's fun as I dun care about the audiences hhaa..I am just into the dance..trying to follow..the indian guy was firstly singing as he picked a lady to sit down and he said love song..haha..after that then we went up..one guy & I was chosen..

Of course there is game to guess the song's name or where the song is from..haha..funny as the person who wanna to ans has to sit on the chair which is on the stage..so participants will snatch..
anyway dinner was good..the food was not bad..end up sitting back with sales dept pple as I dun wanna eat halal food :P opps I know I am bad..seriously I don't want to..so weird..

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Its already 2nd day of work at CE dept..yup I transfer over..work is alright..temp admin tend to do more paper work and data entry..need to photocopy stuff tml..sian but just do as it is temporary..I guess she is not too happy about it? I sense that she doesnt wanna to talk to me and asking if she wanna go for lunch she said she was meething other pple which I think is realistic..as she told me she having rice lor..who told me we r friends? she is the one..every working place do let us learn more things..at times is sad to know the truth..I know I might be sensitive..I hope I am..just feel like ignoring her..coz once she is having meal with auntie, they will gossip..I hate it..whereas it's more healthy to have lunch with Alicia they all..it's ok if she is a realistic person..
There isn't really a true friend in life..maybe you might meet but it is rare..sad to say..the longer you know doesnt mean you are all close..might distant away..in fact sec sch friends on off will meet and at times don't even bother..not that close..just that they are fun loving though..everyone is busy..

well let me share an incident today and I think it happens any other day..I was on my way back after my work and it was peak hour and happen that an old lady accompanied by perhaps her daughter came in..at first they r standing near the door after that slowly move inwards a little and infront of people who are sitting down..I noticed 4 teenagers sitting down and they are couple..simply ignore the old lady and as people stare at them, I overheard them saying snap pics of them and post la for not giving up seats.. -_-''' I wasnt sitting down so I can't give up my seats..simply don't feel good seeing her stand sigh..They are too much!

Anyway still looking out for my career, firstly is a job first to make it a career..then other things can be in place such as things that I wish to fufil..

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CNY Dinner cum Lo Hei

Yeah I just come back not long..I went to church as usual..she still made me really mad this morning but I am fine now..
Believe those who look at fb will know..Ji even tell me to cool down and be forgiving..not to be so angry..thx for your concern..Kelvin also ask me..I guess they dun dare to ask online in case they get scolded lol..anyway we have cny dinner out at the field with the lo hei..games too..Ji seem to avoid me when we took the same car to serangoon and he went to sit in the front..am I too sensitive..we went for dessert and he didnt sit with us also..not sure though..I had mango smoothie..pretty alright..normal..we had fun chit chatting and joke..gossip..lol.more than 20 of us..luckily some of them drive so ok lor..Johnson sent me n Kelvin back while the rest fetch the rest home

End here..I can catch drama a while coz I am not sleepy

Pissed me off

SeriouslY I was so pissed off yesterday, fickle minded and she doesn't learnt her mistakes..I prefer to mind my own biz now..when pple ignore her she can bomb ur house no. and hp no. til u r fed up.My Family is irritated by the phone call as well..ahhhh..how to be patience with her? Ta tell me to be patience with her and pray to God to have patience with her. sigh..I don't even want to try.She spoilt my CNY mood..it's still CNY and I blow my top yesterday..reach my tolerance limit..angry lor! thinking about it now still makes me feel irritated..not angry become angry again..she doesn't know what is her mistake..she throw her temper..

Well update abt yesterday, met up with Grace mei and we went msq kbox for klunch and then chit chat around while doing window shopping..not too bad.xl fly us aeroplane ..is alright.I am abit unhappy but that not as pissed like wat that MF did..I was really mad til my face was so hot..

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Well feeling so tired now..I guess is the headache..weather is too warm..stay at home the whole day..I will try to sleep earlier today..

I am thinking about stuff..she asked me about the type of guys that I like..trying to dig out my secrets? in the end I did share a little with her but that's past..dun wish to think about it as it makes me emo. I just caught a new drama..rather normal to me..as Roger Kwok acted, not so bad..

Pray that I can get the right job with prospect and the right guy ba..

Well I met up with Grace mei yesterday as she wanna pass me homemade cookies..almond cookies..not bad..it's nice though I dun like the taste of almond ,this cookies doesnt have that strong taste..yummy..end up we went to river angbao..this time is day time..acc her to go and then we went to s'pore flyer popeye to chit chat..I didn't reach home too late..just a short one..sat will have buffet dinner cum lo hei..wooo..

seriously a few guys aint not so bad appear in my life but I never thought abt it as bgr issue..simply friends..I hope that others dun be too anxious to help me with it..cousin might try to matchmake me hahaa..so funny..let nature takes its course..not too impt now as compared to career..

yeah gonna sing my hearts out tml with mei..wooo..yes k lunch..I just wanna relax and then go to work next mon

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2nd & 3rd Day CNY

Well 2nd day of cny which is yesterday, Yamashita-san and HL came over to my place..invited them over for dinner and bai nian..catch the aunty lucy movie with them..I was surprised that my Dad enjoyed it too while laughing hhaa..my mum catch a little too..wow..can you imagine, CQ is really successful in that..even my dad praise him..He rarely watch tv de..and he enjoyed watching..hahaha..first year that they visit us and then had some simple home cooked dinner with nice soup :) glad that they enjoyed the food..

As for today..nothing much to do and I went to catch movie with HL at Lido shaw house..well valentine;s day was a great movie with laughter..wooo..everyone laughed alot though..I believe most of them especially people who are sitting behind me..haha..they LOL..I didnt regret watching it..after that we take a stroll and shop around before heading home around evening to have dinner etc..Catch guo hao nian's last epsiode..glad that it has a good ending :)

That's mark the third day..I can rest a while and gonna call or sms lela tml regarding that issue..probably rest til end of this week..wow good break..

I shall end here..time for my drama..I wanna catch..

CNY Eve & Day 1

Here I am to update..I was back a little late yesterday after steamboat..went to have steamboat as usual and then was asked whether I wanna go hang out with the rest..Tin An, Siow CHing, cousin, me , Wei Xiang and Alvin went to river angbao..yeah went to walk n walk and we went to flyer's popeye to have drinks..follow by watching the fireworks and then WX drove me back first before the rest head to Tin An's house to play mahjong which I am not interested in.. :P pretty fun hanging around with them..with lots of laughter..hehe..a different way of cny eve..

Well as for today..as usual house visitation for both grandma's side..I was too tired to go for service :P sigh..just mark the end of CNY Day 1 with no V day mood..no partner lor..no urge to find partner but rather to find my career first :)

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Should I?

This is the last day at the dept..mm..nothing much..it marks the end of the two weeks..time flies..rather in need to find a job..sigh..I am not sure why, suddenly I was asked if I wanna join the other dept since they need some1 also and they wish that I can consider..amazing arrangement right? I was surprised also..

I know I dun like admin job but I need more money now..how..sigh..not sure ..let me think about it..so tired..

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work is normal today. I feel upset now..He is serious about asking me to go acc him during cny..I thought he is kidding..why are you the same as the rest? why do I care so much about how you react? it just trigger my memory.. you wont even care about how I feel about it ba..I am nobody..to u, I am just a fling/companion ba..how can I be compare to ur HY..I even suspect that I did like him..but I dun sense maybe 2 close..we are not that kind of couple relationship..which make me feel that coz u dun wanna find them so u look for me..pei ni de ren should be ta..not me..

I will only acc u if u r truely my bf..not a problem..I dun wanna to have no status..u know ma..I wish that I have a shoulder to cry on, to dote me n to share my joy and happiness with though I dun need for now..where is that person, I have yet to see..is he around me alreay or is he far away..

I have yet to receive call from them, I guess is gone case..look out for better job ba..I need some music though to relax..I dun care about him

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2 more days

Yup two more days and I am out of that place..and also CNY eve coming..time flies..all I did was really filing and trying to help them settle cause is rather in a mess..shall not go into it..just cannot stand the double work..is alright..though I earned a little money from there plus CNY angbao coming the way..I still need to earn income though..gonna be very broke soon..so I am stress after work today..thinking about how to go about getting more opportunties and a perm gd prospect job.I will try even harder..waiting for that call..is 50-50 for the 2nd interview for that position.not to sure..but I have planning if I cannot get, then I just have to slowly find..I sense the prospect there but I know it will be stressful etc..I know I face obstacles before..I will be brave to face them again, coz U r with me...thx Lord..

I love u Lord and I know U love me alot too..whenever I think about U, I just feel like crying..touched by U each time..may you continue to provide me with good opportunities and match me with the right one..I need it seriously to move on with life..I can't accomplish the rest yet when this is not done..

I slept early last night, so feeling good today..was too tired yesterday plus I ate medicine..I am feeling alright, just wanna take gd care of myself for CNY

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Had a gd laugh!

Well I laughed a lot today.yeah firstly is because of CQ & Ivy..went down to support cq a while before I go for service..poor him still sick so jm, yuki, pq went to get something for Ivy n CQ..liang cha , oranges, CNY card and a tin of chocolate rolls..wow but too bad Cq cannot eat yet..CQ has to continue to host and I can see him sweating..which is so unusual.is cold sweat..aiyo..

Pray that he will recover soon so that he can enjoy the CNY..well somehow get sabo to go up and play game hhaa..I dun mind also..play zhong ji mi ma with 3 person and along with Diya, CQ & Ivy..Thx God I didnt kanna anything..phew..Yuki did..hhaa..funny coz first one who kanna is a gal..have to kiss cq's stomach..2nd one have to kiss IVy's face but pass to CQ..Cq disturb her by kissing her..hhaa..last one have to piggy back Ivy..end up Yuki kanna and pass to Ivy..Ivy do that..coz Cq also said Yuki no strength la..hhaa
Yuki was a bit frightened by Diya's reaction haha..

It was fun though..we laugh alot..I didnt even notice pple below the stage..focusing on the game..
Too bad I cannot stay long and have to leave for church's service..manage to see cq n Ivy on air live etc..and he suan Ivy etc..so bad :P how did he manage to do that while he is sick..weird..glad that CQ told others some of his supporters become his friends.. :) I didnt really take pic..doesnt matter..coz the rest did take for us..is the fun of it..Took pic with cq b4 so doesnt matter..

I really cheong to church today just on time for Ji's testimony..yup he shared so I wanna to support him..at first hesitating whether should I go church though I know I wanna go coz I just wanna go not only support him..glad 2 hear his sharing and pastor disturb him..asking him to sing amazing grace hahaha..end up he didnt..Glad that I am in church as Pastor shared the gift of forgiveness and righteousness..I had a great day!!

Ji msn me rather late asking me how's his testi and then he went off to bed.. -_-''' perhaps just to get feedback..well..ok la at least we r talking a little though not too close..I sense the feeling still there..sigh..trying to keep it away..Find Jo rather nice as well..slowly see..no hurry to know more guys etc..but thx God that He is providing me and introducing more friends to me..leave it to fate..I have been wondering where is my prince, haha..

End here..CNY soon..one more week to CNY Eve