Simply Depressed..

Somehow or rather, everything seems bad to me right now. What is wrong with me? I felt depressed but I don't wish to tell you. I see it no point, I rather keep it to myself. Telling you doesn't help but rather tell my friends. I don't even wish to seek God for advice. I don't wish to relie on anyone cause I can't even help myself. No one understands and that includes you.. You might think I overreact? I should be fine.
I know you are busy and I don't wish to disturb either..

Nothing seems right and I felt that I am rather demanding and expect certain things that I could do etc. I realise I can't meet my Boss & my own demand.Perhaps I think a lot and when you came across certain things/issues in your life, it makes you fear and makes you worry. I need to overcome and yet to do so.

Somehow I don't feel happy each day, or rather should I put it,if I am, it will only be a short while.
noting is everlasting..I hate the place and the people..sigh..

What should I do?
End here..

slacking..tired..

I was at home today and went downstair for a hair cut and met him a while as he cut his hair too downstair. It was a tired today as we had late night yesterday.I slept alot today until 1..opps..so I feel that time seem not enough.I don't have enough rest.

I went to work yesterday at 9.30 and stayed til 3pm. sigh. I was quite tired and luckily boss sent me home.Well I just wish to go back home and met up with the rest.
I reached home at 3 plus and met up with Yy,Jamin,Valen & Xin Zhu ( not sure how to spell) at 5 and we went to get presents. I felt kind of tired after a long day. We went wen's house to have steamboat as it was her birthday and also to celebrate for WL as well.mm..we had fun eating and something scared us haa..flying cockroach and Ming de was the one who caught it. lol..all the girls just ran away..cockroach came to greet wen happy birthday? that's what we joke about..haha..
We ate til quite late then help her 2 clear up before we went home..we drank red wine..Jamin's face was so red..lol..mine too and i think I felt a bit blur plus I was tired..reach home at 12 plus..surely talk more crap after I drank..

mm..I was thinking am I that demanding? Gd friends feel so..perhaps I shouldn't care so much.. Doesn't matter, end here..

Updates again..

Here I am blogging again after some time..sometime really too lazy or tired..

Today is a busy day and I felt stress..but get to meet up with u though a while, is good enough,cherish the time..
Yesterday was busy too..

mm..update about last weekend, I went out with Jamin,Yong Yee & Valen..We went to zoo..Valen has the membership card from her uncle so entry is free..yeah..It was a bad weather that day though not sunny. It rained around 5 plus..luckily we sort of finished looking around and set off to have dinner. But keep it away from me like where we going.. end up we went bishan park, a cafe..I just don't like people keeping me in suspect and was moody so my reaction was bad..anyway not a bad day though..

Sunday went top one ktv with WL, Hui & ling..celebrate wl & hui's birthday..We sang from 12 plus to 6..not so bad..Amelia came around 1pm..after her jap class..
Then we went to MOF to have our dinner..I ate spicy miso ramen with pork hehe..
Been eating chicken almost everyday for last week..western food most of the time..so unhealthy..we even went to have dessert after that..enjoying ar..hehe

I shall end here..too tired..

Taking note of my goals!

I believe not really fufil yet so gonna write it down again to remind myself..

1. Commitment in my life towards work,God or anything

2. Register for my course latest by end of July 2008

3. Start studying in Oct 2008(slight change as I decide to go MIS instead)

4. Get a keyboarding

5. Put in the effort to learn the keyboarding after I bought it and not wasting the money.. No learning half way through!!

6. Finish reading o/s storybooks and comics by Sept 2008

7. Learn dance either from Casey or other dance instructor(not urgent can be done by end of 2008)

8. Go ice skating, singing ( Anytime, is just my wants hehe)

10. Get a new com keyboard and mouse from IT sales during GSS!

11. Save $$ every month after getting my pay ..(shall not disclose the amt saved)

12. Spend money wisely each month though I may have some leisure activities

Bad day!

Well here I am back to blogging but I don't feel good.I thought today though a slack day but I came across things such like wrong no. when I called clients, company stamp issue which I don't wish to mention much as it is a small issue but people seem to make a big issue out of it..what the. making me troubled..Firstly I was moody today.. I just don't know why.Everything seem to be bad.I got so pissed off.I lost my ezlink card today lor.. I can't find it, must have drop it somewhere while I put it into my pocket..sobsob..
I went to purchase a new one for 15 bucks. :( I keep quiet about it, not wanting my mum to nag at me. This is the first time I lost my card and with the precious moment card holder. Luckily there wasn't much value inside my card if not I will scream!

I wish to chat but you are busy and I tried to return your call after I shower but you are chatting with other people.Is ok, I shall wait for you to return call..wonder how long it takes..

I just wish that tomorrow will be a better day.

End here

Wonderful day..

Just wanna update. though I know right now is consider sunday as it is almost 3am and why am I still blogging haha. Well didnt sleep just now, having supper so I just keep on chatting etc.

I do a quick update and off to bed. Need to go to church wor. well just spent a day with Jamin. catch a bit of ndp rehearsal and the fireworks..wow..great time. We took pics too..quite a few today. so sweet.

Anyway went for dinner and set off to fountain of wealth. sit down n chat..he opened his present. I could see him so touched, I felt so happy.He cherish it. just give him a hug.
Thanks for making me smile..hehe u r naughty..thanks for helping me with the balancing..so nice..

You r secretive regarding one of ur birthday wish. I just wonder what u wish for.
I just know is nice spending time with u..I am very happy whenever I am with u..feel so blessed.. Thank GOd!

End here..sleeping time..

Updates again..

here I am blogging during midnight and is July already.I gonna get present for..

Recently I realise some unexpected things happen and I believe that God loves me and bless me.. :) thanks Lord!

let me just update about what I did this few days..mm..Met MF on fri at bugis & after that I knew that WL is at orchard so I went to look for her a while.

Sat, went out with the rest such as YY,Jamin, Yu Yan etc.. 10 of us. big group ar..not bad lor.. In a way hehe they are disturbing. I don't wish to say so much.
Take a step at time for everything and I shall see how.
I know but see how it goes.. I also don't know how would I react.
Well we had fun..went suntec convention centre, then s'pore flyer. fun to explore and we heard down to newton circus to have our dinner. Ordered quite a lot of food.Not bad wor. Hokkien mee, satay, fried carrot cake, chicken wings etc. We enjoyed ourselves but too bad WL u didnt join us lor. what a pity! thx 4 the prawn! *wink..

I went to watch kungfu panda with him on sunday at great world city..It was funny, interesting movie. Never regretted watching it wor. Time just flies but is ok..we can go out another time.. Yeah! can't wait to meet u soon!

That was some of the updates so far..as for work, as usual.

I shall end here.time to sleep wor..