Bored Sunday!

Today stayed at home..didnt went out..no vcd to watch really bored me..anyway I read newspaper n magazine to past time..I also watch tv lor..sigh..today seem like a long to past ..and I really dunno wat to do..Maybe sudden too free..plan to study in the end I didnt ..hhaa ..I was thinking of reading harry potter ..perhaps I read b4 I sleep ba..i want to read lor..coz it is so thick ..I want to try to read some everyday..

Haha.Yesterday I miss Dear...today he miss me alot..to me like that lor..dunno why dun feel anything..but just now thinking abt it i feel gd...let him miss lor..let him feel how i feel lor..I just didnt say wat..just say wow his turn ar..and why miss me so much..he msg back saying cannot is it..hhaa so bad..rude ar??? i know just joking lah..
sometime he pretend to be fierce hhaa..naughty boy sia..

Sometime we two still like kids lor..joke n tease one another..but sometime like no gd..how come..perhaps busy..so I feel he didnt really talk to me nowaday..feel abit sian like that..maybe see each other too often ar..dunno leh..end here ba..he wasnt online yet i guess.the person who is online is not him..his sis ba..haiz..

today I didnt went out ..Stay at home do PR work and watch vcds..anyway nowaday weekend to me is like staying at home.Vin busy with work also..to me sat didnt go out is nothing liao..Maybe I have things to past time ba.sudden have alot of thoughts and I told Bro and ling..just feel that I miss him today..that we never put in enough effort in our relationship.can be better..that I should be more caring..dunno leh..everything not enough..
perhaps after all obstacles we are tired..so take things more easy..like wat vin says..so i feel is different..effort put in where is it? is like If I am the one who fu chu only wat the use..need both parties de.

anyway I finished watching tan pan zhuang jia..ending gd..but if there is more to it will be gd..
perhaps dun think so much..I think after saying out i feel better ba..perhaps this relationship wont end well as well til old? dunno lor..i just feel maybe ba..end here ba..dun blog le..

today did a presentation IAP..Present to lst year students..two classes in b2-07..i felt nervous lor..present til no gd..mm..well..Dear dun have co-op duty so we went to have lunch at kfc with the rest also..hazel, jin lun etc..mm..have fun and joke n laugh..cant tahan jin lun's joke..well..after that went to look for jufri's birthday present..We bought a belt for him..share lor..4 of us..vin, me , gim loon n hazel..
then go to wrapping section ask the person to wrap..nicer wat..hhe but i feel so budget like tt..nvm..thoughts that counts..use seiyu wrapper hhaa..

after buying went to orchard with dear..went to library etc..four plus reach home..although nothing much. but i do enjoy being with dear..spend time with him lor.sometime sat not free de..seldom go out on sat le..is gd to rest..
hhee today vin keep teasing me..so bad..like purposely act so fierce..hhaa..bad..But we happy together lor..ok lah end here..dunno wat else to blog..

Go to Expo!!

Well today didnt do much things ba..adm no lesson wat.finally back to normal study time no AL le..right now in class so cold man..I dun feel like doing anything..so just blog..going expo..when I am back hhaa I will blog about it ba..What so special about Expo? nothing much wat..mm..left individual project but I dun feel like doing..have to do research lst b4 I can do u see..mm..left a few more days only to the deadline..

Today I guess I have to go home and cook rice too..coz bro have Nafa test lor..I guess he wont be back so early..I guess tonight may sleep early..yesterday kind of tired..I dunno why I blog also..I am bored lah ..so must as well blog..going to have lunch soon le..yeah..
Haiz..wat happen to hui's blog..I cant enter de lor..I dunno what wrong with it..sigh..

heee now editing this blog..add more lor..went to expo le..nothing much..just hear the speaker tell us abt expo..then went to one of the halls to look around at malay wedding exhibtion..nothing to see wat so see that..just like tt..another hall that food carnival or something not ready yet ..cant go..anyway expo also nothing much de..reach abt 3 then went off abt 4 lor..took bus back to bishan..faster wat..and dun need to take public transport hhaa..save time n money...
end here..

Today didnt attend adm n evm lesson..My group took AL lor..hazel wants lor to take so that we can do WIts project which is due on thur..sigh..Is like sian..miss lesson..evm have notes to copy ..I borrow Vin de and copy lor..I dun want to take AL one but haiz..just take..today n tml..well I taken 4 AL le this semester..sian..
I did project til kind of fed up..Self access room's coms are so lousy man..some can work some like u do half way may have problems u see..face com til I tired..
Right now i feel tired too..so didnt do project..tml continue..at night feel sleepy cant do..I can't think at all u see..
I dunno why often coz of projects I dun feel gd and i get fed up..perhaps stress as we need to meet the deadline u see..It is like not just one project u see..

I find Vin like troubled and can say mood no gd lor..I guess he do feel stress or something..coz of teeth? or even something else? coz of me? I do feel partly me also..haiz.
definitely lor..surely partly coz of me just that he dun want to say..I can tell..
ok lah end here ..bye..

I just enter a quick entryb4 i sleep..today quite tired..have a bad dream lor this morning.wat sia..train accident..
dunno why dream of that..sigh..anyway went to cut hair today..cut shorter..I feel abit sian today..just watch tv lor..vcd..wake up feel my neck abit pain..never sleep properly ba..but after a while ok lah..
last night think alot..this morning still think..sometime i rather i can just sleep forever..then no trouble..think i scare dear..let him worry le..haiz..
shouldnt think that way.but can't help it lor..life can be helpless..but i guess we just have to continue..i cant be so silly..still young wat..I will try to look on the bright side..today i keep myself busy so I wont think..other days i dunno lah..dun want to blog further..make me think alot..
anyway think abt hui haiz..she broke up with her bf le..day b4 her birthday..why of all days but 23 july..why so heartless one to her..why so cruel..let her have a sad birthday..all this i can't ans them coz i am not him..just hope she will be ok..i cant do anything leh..so helpless..she sad i feel sad also..
alright lah i end here..go and sleep le..

Today awoke at 8 plus dunno why lah..sudden awake..then try to sleep but can't..then I went to visit vin..mm..he bought strawberry for me..well..mood so so..coz last night mum lah wat else same thing scold..one day i think i will lose control..dunno what I will do man..I won't know..kill pple? lol wont ba..perhaps jump down and that's it..hahahaa..no one scold me le..but my bf will get blamed de..but whose fault..the one who pressure me lah..
today also scold me ..haiz..i tired of it..sometime thinking how far can we go..i just take a step at a time de..
no more tears..coz cried today le..in front of vin..haiz..let him see me crying again..

i cant tahan stress lor..end here ba..dun feel like talking.I want to sleep..bye..

Lovesick..

Today woke up so fresh coz I have slept enough.Vin told me he wont go to sch..coz of yesterday he go dentist then today teeth there abit swollen..so he not going to sch..I miss him..I really miss him ..so i blog lor..Coz i cant tahan lor ..sometime stress ..now is that I didnt see him for a day..I feel abit uneasy..dear says b4 when I am not around with him..he feel uneasy..no gd feeling..Is just like wat I feel now..even though talk to him..is like not enough..today have WITs if not I sure go his house and visit him..then can reach home at about evening time..

Mm...he is ok lah that wat he says..I guess should be ok..but he is very tired..How I wish i can fly there immediately..I understand de lah..when ur love ones is sick..surely wish that u can go there straight lor..
I dunno did I disturb him alot..call him ask how he is when sch ends..then talk to him after WITS..I sick i think he also wont call alot of times..maybe coz he works..but he do cares..He makes me think that he won't worry that much de..like as much as i worry for him..but he did call me twice a day..

I dunno why didnt recieve his msg or waiting for his reply..i feel no gd..is like how i wish he reply but he didnt..
I really fall very deep..I just feel really cant leave without him le..i dun care how he looks etc..just hope he wont gu fu wo..Perhaps this few days or whatever, I have alot of time to think on my way home etc..I been thinking alot..thinking his love still same ma..or has it fade? I guess I think too much..i didn't tell him that..
Maybe the time spent together not as much as last time..that why..year 2 le..really abit different..abit more busy lah..so many sats like never go out de lor..usually go out on fri..sometime fri also didnt go out..

Poor dear..can't go and sing..actually he also dun want to go..anyway I can see him tml :) can't wait to see him ba..end here..

Today I dunno leh so tired when I woke up lor..Well.. I know I feel abit sian lor maybe unhappy that why everytime go where with my frenz ar..he seem not interested..perhaps dunno wat to talk to them so dun go..I guess he asked me 2join his frenz I also dun want to go ..then He asked me wat happen I dun want to tell him..small matter nvm..so usually he wont ask me to go with him..Is like bbq or wat I dun mind..but he scare this and that..scare later go home late I get scolded..I know..perhaps i wish to go and have fun and to know his frenz..I ok de..i dun mind..have fun wat..usually gathering or what pple will ask gf to go along de wat..get to know thei

I dunno lah cannot be so petty or wat and think so much...Just study lor..Today ar nothing to do during ADM lesson..so bored..really must find something to do while having free period.. nvm I guess i will be ok after lunch..
I have to do Adm stuff lor ..do research ..end here..
yeah tml can have harry potter bk to read..I won't be bored le..but tml he wont acc me again..sigh..every fri so lonely..cant be helped..he has program so I let him know lor..sat then go out ..

Today Karen cheong still wasn't here.. She will be back on 29 ..well. yesterday was tired ..today better..I was like considering whether I should work or not..haiz.. then was like yes plus no..in the end I plan not to go coz i have to miss lesson u see..mm..hang ten was like not bad u see..haiz..maybe dun work lst next time then work lor..

I dunno why this few days like thinking alot..even though see dear everyday..why like miss him etc..hhaa..I think i fear lor..just that i dun want tell anyone..frenz sure say i think alot..so I keep it to myself..I been thinking he busy..are we drifiting apart? seem he wont be so close with me ..I am the one who feel we are still so close as b 4..dunno..perhaps I think too much..coz sometime there is time to think u see..i seem to feel that ..one day we will drift apart lor..when that day comes..if it is the end is also ok i guess..coz love fade ..wont feel so hurt..
I dunno..not that i doubt his love..love can decrease day by day..increase is difficult? decrease very fast i guess..
nvm lah..dun want to think so much..nowaday adm n kds stuff so many to be done coz karen cheong not in sch..haiz..stress ba i guess..

that 3 gals i dun want to say..in lecture room purposely sit far apart so we cant sit that row..siao one..well..coz day b4 we sat there wat..that shennie very unhappy i know..whatever..end here..

Sunday..

Today woke up feeling ok..but weak..Perhaps hungry ba..haiz..sick yet heard sacarastic remarks..sigh..One word..baised..bro treasure I am grass lor..haiz.. say wat I act pitiful want pple to pity me..make me sad..as if I act sick..sick can be faked de meh? sian..just now really feel down..say me til like that..I just slight fever ma..then so wat if I have high fever..wat the..dun want to say lah..since young, attention given to brother ba..i think i just feel jealous..can say that I childish or wat..this is the fact what..whatever parents can say they are not biased,they are even 1 % also is yes..dun dote me le lor..big liao no need dote le ar? dunno lah..

I guess I dun think so much tml have test.haiz..sick for two days..mouth so bland..but now ok le. end here...

Still sick..

Today woke up still feeling sick..haiz..I just hope I recover fully..sometime ok, sometime fever again..but slight fever still alright..I dunno what am i thinking now..I just feel sian..I think I not just sick physically..perhaps mentally sick too. .I know I just hope he cares for me..He did..msg me and call me to see how I am..I know what i want..that he can appear just right in front of me..but He can't. He has to work.. To me the care & concern like not enough..Is it I ask for too much? I guess no.. I know when u fall sick, u want alot of care & concern from ur love ones.. Maybe that what I feel..

I think I had been free this two days since I was sick , I did nothing but rest..watch tv..that all..then I began to think alot? I thinking is the love still the same..I know he did care for me..But I sense not the same..I think maybe I think too much..He is busy what so can't put in 100% care & concern lor. I should be fortunate since I am sick, Mum do cares for me..Maybe I am big already so she dun need to worry as I know how to take care of myself..I know dear worry about me..He did asked about me..When i recieved his msg plus call, I just feel good.. :) this is normal reaction ba.
I just want to tell him I love him..But sometime I feel that it is better not to say i love him so often then is like of no meaning le..coz u say so many times lor. I miss him..
He seldom says he miss me..I guess he too busy so won't miss me..Sometime I think I am bad ,dun trust him..I shouldn't doubt him..But gals think alot de wat..
I end here..hungry..I go take dinner le...

Sick..

Today I feel fresh as I slept late last night..but in sch , I dun feel gd and i thought i am ok..Well have lunch with dear and I went home..realise that I have a slight fever..my head pain..is like so heavy..As I took panadol b4 i go home, I didnt take medicine until I woke up from my nap and cook rice and I ate medicine.. watch vcd..dear called. feel gd that he called..talk to him abit..I just want him to sayang..maybe abit act cute hhaa..but sick ma..of course want pple to dote..I am like tt..Mum will dote me but in different way not in the sense that sayang one..coz i am big enough to take care of myself..so she worry more for bro..is ok..I know she cares can le..

I feel when u are sick, or even like sore throat etc..u can feel mum's love more..so warm n nice..I feel so gd.. :)
Is like she so nice to u..Feeling abit tired..maybe coz i eat medicine..so i online a while so I can log off early..
I hope MOn can go to sch..should be lah..coz I have a test..Tt EVM lah..sian..MR liau..haiz..I guess too heaty that why sick le..then abit cough..I just feel sian when I fall sick..who likes to get sick anyway..Well..Can't be helped coz we are human beings..surely can fall sick..ok lah end here..

8 months........

Today went out with Bro Jufri to buy present for yh lor..sian ..coz we didnt know what to buy..went to shop at bugis..then in the end we bought wind chime for her..duno wat to get u see..give mug like of no use..then we get a box also..to put it in..actually have box 2 put de wat..but not nice lah..tt wat bro think..
then after buying i went to tampines..met Vin..for a while ..we been together for 8 months le today..then I went to grandma's house..ah yi they all went too..I went myself after I go shopping..abit tired..mm..ate dinner there..then take train to aljuni.dunno how to spell.then dad pick us up from there..reach home at 9..abit tired..hehe have curry pie to eat..dad buy de..
update yesterday also..yesterday after sch..stay back for wits stuff then 1 plus , xiao jie was at j8 so I went to find him while waiting for vin..he had co-op duty.. then we went to sentosa to collect free tickets..the tickets would be send to vin house coz dunno why his name wasnt in the list..then we went to eat fried oyster..was not nice..the person dunno how to fry hhaa..we ate at harbourfront hawker centre..tt time we went to eat also ..not nice de the food we ate..this time also not nice..nvm next time go eat other food..after eating, shop around habourfront and saw star cruise..star virgo..sudden feel like going for a cruise trip..vin said next time work le then go..hhee..I want to go Australia..he said married le we go there for honeymoon..I felt that it is still early to talk abt tt..mm..My wish is to go strawberry farm..

mm..sometime see parents upset etc, i do feel the saddness and I really dunno lah wat can i do..i also upset..
just that sometime outsiders dun understand de..maybe I also dun wish to tell..only vin know ...kai ling perhaps i tell abit only..I dun want to say so much..then pple may see me happy..yes in sch dun think so much study and funny jokes i laugh..happier wat..but sometime maybe I at home I wont feel happy..glad dear there for me..i really need him and that I hope we wont quarrel or give up one another..coz i already feel sad etc over other matter..i dun wish my relationship also in a mess or wat..then I dunno how to take it..end here..

Today went to attend WITS training ..take approval leave..at 12.30 pm we ate lunch..haiz..was told we wont be entering competition..no need le..actually we happy..hhaa no need to stay back..went to eat ice cream today..haiz..not a gd day..eat ice cream stir up some things..regarding what i unhappy abt..talk abt it then make both of us unhappy..got to solve it lor..this is a problem..haiz..i will reflect myself..he was thinking is he gd enough? asking me..wat the ...he told me..to hate him now or regret forever.what did he mean? I think he really thinking about stuff..haiz.he implying break up? i dunno..i really dunno what he thinking...
i guess we cool down n then we talk abt it..now no point talking sense to one another..it makes no sense..
what is happening? one problem comes after another..how to concentrate on studies..i dunno ..let him cool down ba..yes i unhappy with him coz of work..coz he was so tired..then sometime really i have holiday, he dun have..
not that i want him to spend alot of time with me..just a day.i will be happy..like I talk to hui..she says surely relationship not so smooth de..wow why my hand so hot sudden..dunno also..surely have obstacles etc..

Like i say maybe he lst time, he dunno how to handle ba such situation..haiz..takes time..surely have quarrel or wat..so see now we need to reflect ourselves..usually watever he says to me, i remember de..coz i take things to hard..i feel abit sad..confused right now..I dunno how to handle when i see him kind of fed up n down..wat can i say? wat i say is like no use lor..that wat i feel..better go n sleep..tml will be fine perhaps? dunno lah..

Perhaps i really make a big fuss..small thing i unhappy n he cant take it..he is too tired..i know..i also tired..but now is to solve..not break up coz of that ba..but is he implying tt? i dunno
tml have dance ..got to sleep..end here..

Today went out to catch a movie with Vin..We watched war of the worlds..Not bad..Is nice..It was about..aliens and their machines..appear from the ground when lightning strike ..ruin all the houses , buiding and many people were killed.It was a movie which is..how should i say it..When u watch, was like oh my god..so scary ..pple have to run for their life..yet like cant get away in time, they were tear into pieces..Is like i guess soul also lost..all gone..except tiny pieces of clothing.flying around. .oh my god..and the alien suck blood..they catches human being n trap them into their "cage"..I dunno what tt called..then suck them up one by one..etc..
Then Tom cruise acted in it..He was like escaping here n there..so lucky..anyway he was the main character of course he wont die..haha if not no more stories..

dunno why I dun feel secure nowaday..thinking bad stuff..like why is Vin busy..have another gf or wat..I know shouldnt think like tt..but cant be helped i think this way..gals can think alot and be sensitive.maybe he busy so i think too much..dunno perhaps too free..shouldnt think so much..
end here..going to miss him coz i wont see him tml..