End of Year 2008

Time flies and it has come to an end of year 2008..I knew I have some issue which I need to solve..will settle it and hopefully lead a happier 2009.

I know what you will wanna say..I am prepared..seriously..is sad but can't be helped..coming to an end..

anyway meeting up with WL, hui & Amelia for dinner..shall end here and update again ..

Xmas Day..

Is Xmas Day..I wish you a Merry Xmas..

I went off to church to celebrate xmas with my bag of gifts..not alot of gifts though..kind of nothing much today..everyone gave chocolate and I received two presents, one from my dear cousin Angelia & another one from Huay Ling.. thanks alot ..I love the cd..
Cousin bought me chocolate from Japan..Great!

I felt happy today, feeling the joy of Xmas..Christmas carol etc..

After the happy Xmas celebration, Huay Ling,Kelvin, my dear cousin Angelia, Me & Yamashita Saju went to Aerin's to have lunch..I tried the Cajun grilled chicken..It was nice..HL & cousin tried too but cousin changed the potato wedge to fries..the sauce was great..I love it and I would recommend friends to go there to have meal though it is abit more expensive but is worth the money..

We went gelatino..did I spell correctly? We shared ice cream.oh yeah..I enjoyed my day..so relaxed and happy..didnt feel this way for so long..I believe is the joy of xmas..God Bless!

I felt tired after the whole day..I shall sleep..end here

Xmas Eve

Well what am I doing on Xmas Eve?

I am at home..mc..sigh..been sick for past few days and I am resting..seem not possible to do anything but I wanna do something..to do what I like and to do things that I feel that I don't have time to do.. I seem still abit sick but I just don't wish to sleep now.. perhaps can do my assignment or even plan a template for PFR..or even read.. I just want to do things that I find it meaningful after I blog..
Somehow I just don't wanna crack my brain and think so much..hhaa weird right?

I found someone who is similar as me..with negative thoughts..maybe I can get to reflect and know how people feel towards me..

I have dreams etc so I will move on with life but she can't..I am afraid as she has the thought to commit sucide, I am not sure for what reason..sigh..how to help her??

I shall end hee..go n do my stuff..

Sick..

I believe that even superwoman or superman will fall sick as we are human beings..

Did we work too hard etc? I guess is because of lack of rest, water etc that I fall sick yesterday..I was running a fever..glad that I am well today and hope it stays this way..I had my meal not like yesterday, can't even eat much..well I will take care of myself as Xmas is here..I wanna enjoy the xmas to celebrate the love, joy and peace! GOd Bless!

mm..you are right that we understand life better when we are sick..
I learnt alot this 8 months..I tell myself, right now what I can do is, to do my best in completing whatever tasks needed as your secretary..If let say,it doesn't turn out well, I really have nothing to say as I did my best..I will just let go..

I learnt about how to go about being a responsible secretary, I believe the responsibility of mine wasn't that much when I work elsewhere..
I start to be like you?? I sense the similarity at times but I know how to balance them better don't I? where as you work like crazy..

Must learn to relax at times..work hard and play hard..I understand how it feels to be sick and you are worried about work.I felt the same though..I will try to relax myself this week..finish up whatever I need and knock off..I need plenty of rest and I can't overwork anymore.. I will never give up though I am tired at times..

I don't understand you, sometime you can be so nasty to me and sometime you can encourage me alot..why is that so? I shall sit down and talk to you when we have time..I just wanna know what you are thinking..weird..when you tried to tell me something about me which you find it hurting..You cough badly and you said God don't allow you to say and you keep quiet.. Father Lord, is that really you? I was wondering..

Everyone has their own belief..I believe in you heavenly Father that you will protect me..You always shower me with love,care & protection no matter what Thanks..Love you lord! I feel so blessed!

Shall end here and go to bed! Need my rest!

Seminar

I just finished our company seminar and I am in sch right now..blogging..just feel like typing down since my class has not started..

Nothing much today at fullerton hotel..Our year end seminar..maybe we can do better? just helping out..

Stress last night..alot of things to do..with regards to studies..mid test etc coming..ahhh..
I am trying to cope and I couldnt sleep last night but luckilY I still manage to fall asleep..I still wondering how can we last??

I am going to get presents & goodies for xmas.. then study for mid test tml

Shall end here..

busy dec

I have been busy this week..sigh calendar etc..has to be out..I am being responsible to try to complete tasks..but work is never able to finish..

I try my best..have been working this week and then I went to work today as I was on mc the day before and then off for class. Learnt alot in class about Strategy-SWOT analysis and then I went to get my printer n external hard drive, had dinner with mum & Bro..

Just like that..wow fruitful month? I have been tired..busy busy busy..going for ming de's birthday party..hope that we can have fun and enjoy ourselves..

End here..

Thoughts

Simply have alot of thoughts after watching the 8pm variety show on channel 8..see the way how the volunteers help out and towards the end of the last epsiode, the man who was handicapped still manage to help to do the housechore and still live on with life.. he had the right value for life and I believe everyone should learn from him.

Even after meeting the accident, He can still live on with his life and never give up..what about us? We have an able body yet some of us choose to die when we think that we are at the dead edge of the world..what about him?

At times I feel that everyone has only 24 hrs yet we have more things that we wanna do..maybe we can have enough time but we wasted i? sometime we need to relax too you see..I will try to manage my time well..balance them..I am really not sure how far I can go in term of my limit..

I just want to be strong and not relie on shoulder but I know at times I wish there is someone beside me at this point of time to be able to comfort me.. Need some counselling as well I guess..
I always tell myself to think positively and not worry so much.. just do what I have to do and move on..I can do it! I know at times you are just telling yourself but it might help though

I shall end here..need to do other stuff..
Working tml after taking a break..I didnt manage to go SLSQ as it was raining..nevertheless I will go source for printer to compare the price and get one asap..I need it.

Stress Dec..

I feel the stress, busy with work and I have not really start on my individual assignment .. thought that I will use that topic but end up I choose not to as it is hard..so I have decide on already and so I can start to do the project and have to hand in, in two weeks time..that is why I am stress..though it is not a last min thing, I feel that perhaps I should start earlier? well what done is done just move on and get my things done..

I don't have time to talk nonsense though and to think about unnecessary stuff. I just have to perform well for work..the CAR which you mention. so ya..sometime wonder why I make myself suffer,is it worth it to make myself so tired & busy? at times we don't have a choice as we are employee..sigh

I will do my best and I know I am stretching myself and am I overstretch? I believe at times it is..everyone has their own limit..have I reach mine? I am not sure..It is only the beginning, I have to hang on.. I know what I want and since I have chosen the path, I just have to move on and work hard on it to fufil what I want.

I am not superwoman but rather training myself to achieve what I want when I still have the time..as long as I know what I did, is worth it, I will do it! There is always up n downs in life, everyone has to go through that.. positive thinking is impt..

I know I have been down this week and lots of things to be done..I really wanna cry at times but right now, my main focus is my work n studies..while not working, I have to spend time on my studies..at the same time, I try to relax myself a little by meeting friends..I need some fresh air..no matter what, I always try to set a day per week to relax a little..Hopefully I can still do that every week for next year..

Shall end here..I need to get my dinner.so hungry! I can't work with hungry stomach..

Why?

I feel like blogging for past few days but simply lazy or dont wish to blog..

I feel that why are you like that? I just don't wish to face you, began to hate you at times..really..is that serious. I don't know what is my limit..I guess I already reach it but controlling..

Who wants to play with you, I don't have time either..
Shaun mentioned abt the two Cs which I don't have..

I have lots to mention but I don;t wish to say much

Anyway I went to orchard with MF to see the lighting..I love them..shall update photos when I have time..I took some pics..felt relaxed walking around..


Shall end here..