December 31, 2004

New Year Eve!!

mm..today leh is the last day of 2004.. i went to my dear house..mm..when i plan to go i didnt remember that it is 31 dec..mm..he went count down today..i went to find him..then have dinner..then he send me home..after that he goes countdown..this year at least i spend with him..last year wow..so lonely..coz parents at malaysia attend wedding dinner..bro also went..mmm...abit regret Vin have ask me lor but later no transport wat..so i didnt go..i wish to go n countdown with him..fun leh..spray pple haha..naughty ar..dunno how he is..having fun i guess..wont disturb..next year ba i go.. :) anyway have someone to spend with is gd.. then tml a brand new year .. :) ok lah stop here..going 2005 soon..one more hr !!! :) mm..just want to add..new year..strive harder forget abt last year..coz there are unhappiness..i want put them all behind.. strive hard for studies..try lah..then happily with Vincent n my family can liao.. :)


December 26, 2004

today..went 3rd ah gu house..eat turkey..hhee have jelly too..turkey nice..today ar..not feeling very gd..tired also..wow 9am can feel house shaking..then believe is earthquake..really lor at night watch news..indonesia earthquake..very big impact..alot of countries affected as a result..then today abit sad..actually hungry but dun want eat..wat wrong with me..then in the end eat cup noodle..also dun feel is gd..maybe too hungry..no feel liao..

i just dun feel happy things bothering me..but leh..i think will be fine..today sian til i dun think i miss him even.abt 5 plus eat abit dinner..now like want drink something..maybe go pour cereal or wat..better wat..maybe mood swing..no wonder like tt..this few days i feel happy..yesterday n today not happy..

today hhaa ah yi say bring him go ah ma house on CNY..then they can see..hhaa..see lah..they want see him..haaa then today cousin also go ah gu house..ying ying not in..mm.hhaa she knows i got bf.hhaa coz she sees my friendster haaa..her mum also know haa..she even tell her see..funny ar..

mm..yesterday went orchard..find wl..then ar..give xmas card to hui ,wl n ling..then go shop..at night went home n go eat dinner with family..eat fish steamboat..wait so long sia..abt 1 hr..hhaa..so many pple eat. in the end 9 then start to eat..9 remind me of wedding dinner hhaa..

today never chat much with vincent..he say he chatting..maybe too many pple.or dun want talk to me even?hhaa maybe i think too much..i just feel moody..
dun want tink so much..maybe yesterday wat we say ..i cant get over it..tt why..but small matter wat.. should be ok when i see him..hhaa

December 24, 2004

Christmas Eve..

mm..today Vincent works..i at home ..watch vcd..at night went out lor with family go kallang there eat taiwan porridge lor..wow nice..eat 3 small bowl..super full..then sit in the car just now tired..abit cant tahan lor..usually too full i cant sit in the car..dun feel tt gd..but alright lah..i feel like finding him today...in the end cant leh..eat liao so late leh..he knock off leh..haiz..i miss him i know tt..go out eat also think of him sia haiz.very fast wor.xmas eve liao..mm..tt is fast..3 more weeks sch reopen..i hope can study hard..pay attention lor in class..must work hard to go poly lor..go out is go out must study too..
also gd everyday see him in class..hee..but leh..i also scare pple tease..but sch reopen two mths liao should be ok lah..nvm pple tease lor..they know know lor..is ok..

hhaa xmas eve forever at home count down..nvm..at night go sleep tml need go out..end here dunno wat to write..

December 23, 2004

Results out!

today..didn't went out..stay at home..went downstair have lunch then i come back watch vcd..then i play com..mm..nothing much lah..never talk to VIn yet feel weird..maybe miss? dunno leh..msn dun really chat in the afternoon coz he plays game..then at night know can check result liao..result out..mm..alright lah i pass.esc hhaa done not so gd.. C...Accounts B n Bzf B..PIE S lor..alright lah..wow LU get all Bs hhee..happy for him..mood gd also leh..want tell him de result..he never online so i call him..haha he sleep leh..no wonder no reply lah..hhaa..
make me worry..anyway he ok..talk to him i happy leh. :) finally know result..happy liao..can relax..wont be scare.. :)

ok end here..

December 21, 2004

today went to Vincent's house..then went out..go changi village eat ipoh hor fun..wow nice sia.then drink sugar cane..mm..went to changi bench after that..so windy.. :) hee..together..i really happy..see the sea..mm..so relaxed lor..then went to Century square n TM lor..hee take the bus have past by Gongshang ..my ex pri sch..hee..

haa..he ar naughty de..at his house tickle me :P then i realise hhaa..he ar very scare pple tickle de hhaa so fun..i tickle him..wat i can say..i feel the happiness..maybe no stress too..mm..wow have to wait til next week then can see him liao..he needs to work.nvm lor msn or sms lor..even can chat on phone..but usually we wont..msn chat better..endure abit lor..haa see who cant tahan hhaa..both lah..i can say he is diff..from other guy..he cares more for me..mm..still early lah..but soon de lah 2 mths etc..fast de..want to see that we can go beyond one year..actually half a year is gd liao..but of course go as far as we can .. this i cant be contented..

He tells me leh i simple gal..is gd..hhaa mm..i feel i too easily contented..but not really lah..depends wat..some things i may want..but i hope i achieve it myself?? maybe ba..is not wat others think i easily contented ba..but sometime u think of some pple so poor , we are very lucky liao lor..so cant ask for alot u see...in s'pore have house, study..then have food to eat have money to spend..ok wat..but if u want more lah..have to work hard lor like wat Vin says..true lah..i have think of staying in bungalow..but in s'pore difficult lah..i guess flat can liao lor..wow today diary so long hhaa..

ok lah end here liao..haa private stuff i wont write here ba..hhaa.. ;)

December 20, 2004

today..mm..went out..Vin comemy house..haa..then go out shopping..jurong lor..go IMM n jurong point..nothing much lah to shop..haaa he say dun go so far next time..yeah..tired wat..i abit tired..we go there eat also..hhee..but happy lah..i really feel happy..hee see him tml then wont see him til next week coz he got to work..no choice lor..work more impt..earn money ma.. :) i understand de..

just hope this kind of happiness is not for a few mth is forever.. :) last one.. hee..

December 17, 2004

Good mood..

today leh..wow tired coz yesterday i chat til midnight 2.30am hhaa..with him lor..hhaa then wake up today tired sia..mm..watch vcd..then afternoon go orchard meet mum..with bro..then go shopping..go far east han's eat chicken chop..mum eat fish n chip..mm..then continue shopping..shop til tired...but anyway bought titbit..hhee n ar..lipstick..yeah..gd sia.but walk til tired sia..hhaa..

then nine plus go home.mm..today mood not bad..good mood..hope it stays the same lor..for everyday..try lah..:)
hhaa like abit feel like eating..haaaa


December 16, 2004

mm..wow now midnight leh..today dance practise is cancelled..mm..i get the msg from Xiu ting in the morning..then he comes my house hee..then went to work..see him happy lor..then mood gd sia..hhaa..then i watch vcd..eat dinner like wei kou gd lor..hhee..mood gd eat wat also nice..mm..then leh give him xmas present liao..he gives me liao too..i like it lor..watever he gives..converse bag :) is gd..the colour not bad..will use de..
then give him de gift..he ar at lst say dun use lst hhaa then in the end i buy de he use lor..ar too small leh..then he cant put all stuff..haiz..i dunno how to buy..thought guy de dun want so big..nvm..he likes can liao.. :)

December 13, 2004

Feeling sian..

today wake up at abt 10 plus lor..Vin msg me sia..telling me he can't come my house he got to work today..cant be helped lah I wont blame him..but kind of disappointed lor..now he not online..dunno what he doing lah..i know he not purposely dun come..how i wish there is surprise visit..feel sian..want see him..i know i miss him lor..ask him miss me ma he ar hhaa say why must miss me leh..wow so bad leh..nvm lor no need miss lor..hhaa...
i watch tv later..then tml also at home ba..wed go practise dance..thur bowling he wants go go lor..fine with me de..dunno lah today y the tone so weird one hhaa why must miss me leh..duno him..

holiday fast lah sooner or later sch reopen..wow actually alot of things to do..watch tv lah, do crossstitch n write cards..crossstitch do half way going finish soon..yesterday went out never do liao..see how maybe will do..mm..yesterday he say wat give surprise..aiya no need hope lah..he say liao working today..sure not coming leh..haiz..
ok lah i stop here lah go watch vcd then won't think so much.. :D

December 11, 2004

today ok..abit sian..wake up at abt 12..hhaa Vin call me lor then at tt time i awake..mm..afternoon watch vcd lor..mood so so..coz abt yesterday de..i was kind of angry but wake up liao ok..but still remember wat..but i not so petty lah..he got ask wat i still angry..me alright lah.then at night watch tv..wow tonight online de frenz very few til abt 11 plus more lor..make me feel so sian sia..mm..tml going out buy present for him lor xmas present..hope can find a gd n nice wallet lor..but ok ok de price..

wow later i broke hhaa..no sch ma..aiya dun use so much money lor.present must buy de is ok..then buy for xiao jie also..his birthday coming..see can find wat to buy..haiz..always must crack my head de..wat to buy i dunno.i know wat to buy for vincent..if no nice wallet i buy shirt lor..

he ar dunno go where late liao still dun go home..but once a while ok lor..although guy but i do worry lah..like where he goes..dunno him lah..tt why never online haa..hope he ar dun go home too late lor..

December 10, 2004

wow now raining liao..heavily..i online then thinking lor today i talk to yan hong on phone lor..then mention tt 3 gals..mm..only tt s de lah..worry lor wat she might do coz friendster so big lor have our pic ..she always full of tricks..yh ask me beware..i know..i totally forget about them why remind me..haiz..i know she close with me just remind me lor..then i thinking lor..tell hui..then ask me dun worry..also remind vin..must be careful..haiz..pple know abt us ok lah but not them..dangerous..

mm..today call hazel plan regarding bowling thing lor..then korkor with her..hhee talk to me..then ar ask me how am i and got find job ma then say never he say me lazy worm..hhaa korkor forever de..i say him wow in thailand suan me back also suan haaaa..he laughs..then talk a while only..nvm lah thur seeing him..he lor sudden talk to me de..hhaa coz i kpo lor kor kor with her ar so i ask..hee then he ans phone..anyway glad to hear his voice.i call him korkor wow so long never like tt call heee..

December 07, 2004

today..go ling house..mm..wl also go..not bad lah get together lor..then ar shi hui also go..then starting nothing much to do..mm..then i chat online..then they watch tv..then go buy bubble tea..mm..i eat fries too..then go home hee Vin fetch me home..heee tt is great..i happy..wow go home cant eat..hhaa eat lor..then so full.mood gd eat wat also gd..hhee..then msn sudden got problem duno wat wrong sia..siao de..got to restart com..haiz..ma fan..no choice..

anyway quite a gd day lah..:) hhee see him ma.. :)

December 06, 2004

A boring day!

today like very sian..afternoon ar..no vcd to watch coz mum haven take lor.. discs no 7 onwards..haiz..then i play com lor..around evening time then watch tv..haaa laugh like siao..the 5566 program funny sia..then surt net lor at night..but sian..coz Dear ar..he busy playing game..then not many pple to chat..aiya..is like tt de ..make me feel so sian..then mood no gd liao..haiz.. easy mood swing...wow then late liao should sleep..if not nothing to do..mm..next few days got vcd to watch n go out should be ok..not so sian..

dunno wat to write leh..yawn..maybe off to bed..sleepy..i guess chat abit more ba..end here..

December 03, 2004

today go out ..take cardprint with Vin..mm..ok lah..we play badminton..then go eat..go changi airport eat..order food..order mee goreng n he order fried oyster..the bread too..wow full sia ..cannot finish mee goreng.two of us so full..i know i have fun lah..no matter wat go where do wat is fun n gd lor with him..cant imagine he go overseas wat to do..coz after airport we go expo a while n we go home..after tt he asks me call him when i reach home liao leh he send me home n he goes home..talk to me..he tells me he may go overseas study or yi ming..haiz..
i cant imagine lor he go me how..now i realise how impt he is to me..
is he telling the truth or he wants test me..i guess is real lah..he wants go Australia..mood was ok..become not ok leh..maybe i think too much..cant help it wat..haiz..duno lah later go sleep alright liao..

December 02, 2004

today watch s'pore idol..ah..taufik win sia.I vote Sylvester lor..in the end not he wins..disappointing..chat online also no mood..get irriated..coz of this ba..then talk to Vin hhaa also no mood de..i hope i dun give him attitude lah..not his fault..then he asks me things etc i get irriated..he with gals or wat..how i know...now no mood..

but talk to vin slowly ok liao..haiz..i very easy mood swing..dunno lah..my msn nick put so big..dun want pple later kanna scolding..
i guess tml will be ok..see him also.. :)

November 30, 2004

today holiday leh..hee finally..but abit fan..coz i dunno lor want work ma..abit dun feel like working lor..coz holiday leh ..mm..i guess not working..chatting then i will not think so much..watch vcd at home..do cross stitch go out ok wat..go work i no time leh..later sch start wow stress again should relax..so i guess i wont work leh..find own entertainment..

hee chat with Jufri always gd..he always full of jokes hhee..later Vin come my house..hhee great..acc me lor..
i hope i dun think so much..want work work lor..must make up my mind..i guess by thur ba..but at home too long later rot hhaa..nvm..have vcd to watch.. :)

November 27, 2004

today wake at ten plus awake by mum doing the housework. actually at night i sleep late i guess today i will be tired.ok lah now..just now talk to Vincent..he seem very sian..tired lor..i talk liao also sian..haa maybe call him wrong time. he calls me back...mm..he knows how to plan for future..i never think so far..sometime maybe dun dare think so far.i guess i find a time go n think about it lor..after exam ba i guess..think so far if never go so far how leh..of course hope bf will be the last one liao wont get hurt etc..but did i think abt it is he the right guy for me n towards marriage..dunno leh..just been together abt two weeks..u never know leh after a few months wat happen lor..he loves me more ..is gd..but maybe he thinking i love him ma..tt why he asks me b4..wat i know is yes ba..coz i feel jealous hhaa..

i know he dunno wat i thinking so ask me can see my diary ma..but kind of privacy lor..some things no need to show him de..maybe coz got things lah unless i delete but diary ma delete for wat..so i dun let pple see lor...very few knows abt it..i know he may feel disappointed..but really lah wat he wants to see leh..he will read n read de..then ask me why some dates dun have or wat..haiz..

November 24, 2004

mm..everything ok since yesterday..talk abt it liao..but i abit moody now..coz of accounts exam ba..plus a bit disappointed lor xmas eve cant celebrate with him ba..he works too haiz..but cant be helped...i find own entertainment lor..wat to do..

hopefully tml exam ok..dunno why so easy mood no gd de..then dunno wat to write here..got to sleep early..hopefully accounts not difficult..talk to him feel better i guess ...hheee

November 22, 2004

hello..today sian sian..coz of yesterday ba..partly affected..then he claims he ok..i dunno..then he never really msg me..only msg once..dunno lah.i guess busy..or he dun want talk to me..make me feel bad..now msn he knows i online i guess..dun care me..i can dun care..i feel sad..i thought ok liao..why like tt..tell him straight also no gd..he abit xiao qi sia..duno lah now we talking..abit dun feel like chatting..scare he not happy..i dun feel zhi zai..then he says he wants to study..dunno lah then he goes off..now come online..ok lah i dun talk to him..

tml exams already..why i say him..i really dunno lah..wat i doing..let us dun talk best ba..let ask think abt it..then ar study hard..but at this kind of atmosphere how to study..dunno lah just sleep later tml exam...sooner or later settled ba


November 18, 2004

today ..a fine day..last day of sch b4 i start exams..wow fast..today so few pple go to sch leh..8 pple only during assembly..hhaa yh say ar..snow white and seven dwarf hhaa..andrew the snow white hhaa..then accounts lesson still very few..that 3 gals ar..come during lunch time..wow sch no govt is it..dun care lah not my problem..

bca..nothing to do surt net haaa..then bzf so few pple too..then he comes to sch for bca lesson ...til last lessons..
tue he didnt come sch..hee i went to visit him..aiya go home get scolded but a while ok..mm..he sends me home ...heee.. hold hands leh..:) must remember tt day..i happy with him..hhee.. he feels better..is gd lor..coz he feels hungry..today he alright lah..still go play soccer..

today come back never study..relax lor..so relax..after sch went to eat something with him then i go home..he went home n meet his frenz for soccer..


November 13, 2004

today went out..wow he sick leh..i see liao sigh i dunno wat to say..coz he is still weak..go out also not happy sia..this is lst date hhee..he still weak still come out..poor him..he buys milk for me..buy mineral water for me when i eat dinner..so gd of him..

He go home with me..til my house..hee so gd then he goes home..see him so weak i feel sad sia..hope he get better..i feel tired..tonight got to sleep early lor..sigh..hhee i give him the cough drop leh..
tired lah cant think sia wat to write..we went bugis n suntec..plan to find wl but he so weak nvm go home lor..i wont see him for two days lor..mm..hope he is well on tue..:)

i end here..
today...go sch..wow only a few pple come..abt 6 like tt for sw..break record..many pple dun come..Vincent ar..sick so never come..i worry..he got fever lor..etc..then cant fetch me from sch..i understand..i feel sad..he sick wat..i care for him is normal..so he ask me out tml..mm..lst date ar.

today ar..slowly pple come..but only 10..then esc we know oral presentation result..hhee i help Vincent see..he not in sch..mm..i not happy..then got PIE test..sian..

anyway he alright.. :) i can fang xin..see him tml hhee..

oh ya yesterday went east coast..hee so relax..learn to cycle bicycle..

November 11, 2004

today holiday..gd ar..stay at home..but can feel stress..i dunno is work or coz Vincent..coz maybe we too fast hhee..i hope not leh..but really lor nowaday i very stress like tt so tense up in sch..i think coz of him..i so pai seh de kanna tease..we been together for 3 days leh.must remember Nov 9 i agree to be his gf leh.He clever yesterday Hazel ask abt us..she asks me..i deny..hhaa..so i know she sure ask him..he say after exam i will tell him..hhhaa..li hai..friendster status i haven change..yesterday he get kick out of the class..can see pong give a kind of expresssion like seeing wat my impression..hhaa..aiya Hazel so clever..i believe she knows..but i dun admit lor..she dunno..

mm..must go n buy cough drop for him.he cough ar..i hope to get it today tml give him..aiya in class i dun want so high profile coz starting only..but xin ku leh..i want talk to him haa..but i think next time give him a yan shen can liao..hehe.

today dunno go where leh..aiyo east coast sian leh..i dun feel like going..hhaa rather watch tv lor..

November 09, 2004

Today..BCA test..i think should be ok..everyday practise..when come to do..sigh..i cant do leh..i want sort data why sort liao the amount go wrong..sigh..is very wat the lor..feel very frustrated de..then the pivot table..cant do..abit not the same..some thing occurs which never occur when i doing in class.i can even forget how to do Vlookup..i think i know one..too stress til forget lah..then i feel sad..100 marks leh the paper..i print two sheets only..worse paper i guess..IT paper i do til like tt..

first time ba..Last time do ar..ok de..sigh..hope I pass..
I feel I make Vincent sad..sigh..like bad..coz i moody he also..he thought he is the one who makes me moody..maybe a bit..but mostly is test ba..and studies..he asks me go shopping..i where got mood to go..dun feel like going..at the moment..haiz..

see my mood tml lah..i hope is ok..
today my mood gd..hhee Jufri also say tt..so cheerful..haa...tt Vincent ar..so late dun go home..aiyo naughty..ask him go home he say will go but haven go home..aiya cant stop him also..haa msg him say want get scolding is it..tml have lessons..test too..sigh..he is like that i guess..want him study hard..hope he can..i go home late a bit he calls me liao ..see sigh..i tell hazel he seem more anxious than my mum..haaa..coz i go shop shop with hazel wat..dunno Vincent reach home already..dun care..let him have some freedom..

Not his gf hhaa cant control him lah..today just do hw lor..wow now a bit sleepy coz i eat supper hhhaa..feel like sleeping ..yh always say i pig sia hhaa eat liao want to sleep..hhaa

OK lah stop writing dunno wat to write..

November 07, 2004

midnight..mm..i talking to Vincent..yesterday got things to tell me..today he says leh and he asks me did i like him in this period of time..something like tt..i dunno how to ans..i ask him how abt him..he says got..i got the ans..i long ago can feel it just guessing..i dunno he likes me or not..now i know..i also know he dun call other pple dear etc.. he tells me..i ask him b4 but he didnt ans lor.yesterday he tells me..i know he has chance..he really gd i have no reason to reject him leh i feel tt..

When he confess i feel i ok leh unlike last time i so shock dunno wat to say..maybe i already know lor..is matter of time he says..i can feel it wat..i also know he wants to say this..he let me think abt it..he says holiday then think..he ask we together parents will object ma..mm..i thinking should be ok..still early lah..i tell him.i want to know him better lst..dun want regret..n he ask me i have the fear to start a relationship with him right..i know is yes..coz after 2 times i fail..sigh of course dun want get hurt..

But he must go slim down haha..that is a must..hhee..well.morning he msg me..ask me study..then ask me eat breadfast leh ma..well..i thinking lor if i like him mayb not as much as he likes me i afraid..coz i dunno leh i like him or not even..that is a gd question..

i shall see as time goes by..coz he ask if he with gals i will jealous ma..for now i think now leh..i haven reach the state i like him sia

November 06, 2004

today so fan like tt..yesterday want write diary cant enter dunno wat wrong..well..thinking abt why he so weird online yesterday..the way he talk..he wants to treat me ask me mon free or not..go home late cannot lah..tue have sch lor..then out of a sudden he says want treat me..abt the crab i kidding only..just says i want eat black pepper crab..he takes it serious..then yesterday say "i think should we .......hhaaa " weird sia talk halfway..let him say he dun want say..then say hard to speak up..lst time..wat he up to..scare me..and i dream of him sia hhaa..dream of yh also.. quarrel with her haha..
I have think of it..if he asks me how i react..well..i think still early he is nice ..i may accept but i think need more thing to think abt it n know him better..i dun want to regret..coz zhen hui ar...i regret..i dun want to get hurt..plus i dunno i have feeling for him or not..his look not handsome but impt is he is a nice guy..he very caring towards me..maybe coz he has feelings towards me?? i can feel it i am not stupid de lor..

i still thinking studies impt but i need love..i want..not just from frenz n family..i want bf love..so i sort of want but can't anyhow get one..i dun want to hurt pple n dun want to get hurt..is a headache thing..later i can't study well..how..sian..i want go poly de..so i thought dun want this relationship thing for the time being..

November 03, 2004

today..sian..accounts mrs quek went to see doc.so she not in sch..that miss koh she never come today coz she go headquarter..sian lor no lessons..then ar..i get back bzf test..i get a shock..i dun study well..i get 41..hhaa how can it be..really sian i do i feel i cant do well..cant believe..sometime hard to tell..

Well..then afternoon didnt go ballroom dancing coz we go for the entrepreurship presentation..our seniors lah..so sian lor..stay from 3 plus to abt 6..one group talk so long sian.more than 20 mins..then i feel hungry n bored..well the aircon so cold u see..lucky i brought jacket..poor jufri n yan hong so cold..i cant help cant i am cold myself..well then heard ballroom dancing cancel coz seniors went for seminar..

mm..wat a day i waste alot of time lor..then go home so tired..late liao didnt do anything..watch tv slack lor.well i play com

November 02, 2004

today..accounts lesson so tired..wow raining again..so cooling..nowaday forever rain..well..accounts lesson i almost doze off..not just me ..Hazel too..the rest also..
Esc ar..finally call me ..last one of the day..then ar..i saying history..she says want read ar..she can read herself i can just click let her read herself..she ar..bad..tml she not in sch great!!
well sigh of relief..finally over..can relax..but exams 3 more weeks coming liao..aiya i dunno wat i doing.want online want study too..then accounts do a bit not sure then i stop there..not tryin to be very hardworking but i really lazy..must study hard..lor..

mm..bzf ar..talk abt pie chart etc..like maths ar..so is bored too..concentration half way cant liao
tml have talk sia..cant go for ballroom dancing..but i tell senior liao so nvm lah..
wat else to write? nowaday dun really write..dunno wat to write wat or i lazy... :)
aiya today very free..well..i have think abt many stuffs ba..love stuff hard to say..i guess left it to fate..i know i want a bf hhaa..but not at this time ba..exam coming.. a class guy gd..he often join us gal gang..Jufri lah..but hee taken liao..i dun mind this kind of guy..but too bad lah..he sort of my type ba..he very caring person towards frenz n nice....hhaa wonder he interested in who ar..hhaa so close with us haha..wow anyhow say later he kills me..but he attached wat.nvm i say hhaa..

October 29, 2004

well..today ..mm..i wake up at 8..should be 7.30...mum wake me up when she sees me still sleeping..i jump up thinking is thur..i late liao..then mum say fri lah..scary..alarm didnt ring..i realise in kfc lor that the time n date is wrong ..how come..tt why never ring lah..aiyo..well..heng ar i still can ar get to sch..not late..wow i know i sure cant do the test..coz never study much..fail lor the most..lst thing is p.e test..wow then bzf test..then who knows ar..PIE also have test..
I have test starting from lst period..oh my god! today 3 tests.luckily pe n PIE test no need study..aiyo break record so many tests..
then after bzf test we have presentation.annie koh tell us to write our name on a piece of paper n she pick whoever..the person will present..lst one saeedah..heng lah not me..so hazel,shereen, kailing ,amlie..dunno how to spell..who else..mm..a few lah..heng lor..at least i have time to plan how to present..

finally test over at least can relax..today is a stress day..well after sch we went to kfc j8 eat..sit the same place but korkor not in s'pore..short of him..but still as usual we go eat..things are different..everyone order their own..mm..which is very different..leh..well..vincent always so quiet..aiya nowaday hazel n yan hong i think trying to say he gd..ask me consider ..well for time being..i think we frenzs..lah not more than that..this kind of thing next time then say..aiyo another hong nian..

October 25, 2004

wow a few days never write here..mm..today wake up still wondering why ar Hazel tells me to bring korkor present today..i dun understand.til i go sch i know..i also partly guess right he wont be in sch tml..sigh..the news is he wont be in s'pore for abt one month sia..so shocked..Hazel say she knows it yesterday only..guess korkor dun want so early break the news to her..is it he knows it will come or wat? i his sis he dun tell me too..well..Hazel feel most sad..one mth leh not a few days somemore in thailand leh..I feel sad to hear tt.wont be able to see him..like get used with him around sort of help me protect me..then fri we go have fun..eat lunch..i guess now wont liao..hazel even plan not to go ballroom dancing leh..for a month..then see her so sad dunno wat to say to her..i guess i know y i sad..i still have feelings for him...kind of admire ba

today have get back test..surprise i get 45/50 sia..haha better than last time heee..but not happy coz not tt difficult if is cash bk is difficult..
Tml going airport ba..send him off..then he went sch today..i pass him the present from four of us lor.. He says thanks..hope he likes..later msg him haa see he opens a not :P pig card haha sure scold me haha..:P

a pity tml kor kor birthday cant see him haiz..

October 21, 2004

today..aiyo..wat a day..lucky no test..etc.if not sure cant do well..the gal lah..i sit her place..in language lab..i forget is her seat too..coz saw hazel sit infront, i acc her.who knows.she bang her bottle on the table so i get up move away lah...then say she no manners..she outside lab bu shuang say me no manner still say pple..wat the..maybe this part i wrong..but i still think she is wrong..wat a childish act..and we argue, quarrel lah..feel not worth it lah..anyway classmates close with that b****..then also dun like me n yh..kanna brain wash i guess..

then today angry..Hazel say shouldnt angry coz like that they win..i also know..but cant control..anyway after lunch i ok..i am like tt.but need time to forget the incident..

went to shop n buy korkor present..mm..bought leh a long sleeve shirt..black one n a t shirt blue one..$32..mmm..4 person share.. still ok..glad i settle his present..

October 20, 2004

today..learn walt...today test not bad..ok lah..petty cash heng lor..n voucher..make mistake here n there..never mind as I have already done the test lor..funny ar..coz we thinking where to eat during fri..yan hong they all say coffeeshop..who agree raise hands..we all raise..hhaa 5 verse 1..poor korkor..then we say dun bully him lah he birthday boy..well..he decide to go kfc..at least ok lah..well..jin lun say ar..buy him cha siew bun can liao..i buy siew mia hhaa...then cha siew bun is very small one..korkor say wow he hao yi si hhaa..very funny..

annie koh's lesson..talking abt presentation..wow laugh til so happy coz..she use herself as example.say pple will want to know wat her weight..she say guess wat her weight..she say XXX kg..hhaa then classmate say..i think pong or who ar..dunno lah say is XXXX kg..hhaaa..funny..then ask we all know how she become so fat..so obvious eat lah hhaa..wat a question..

Mm..dancing ar..the nightmare has come..next year oritention must perform leh..sigh..no choice have to..my class only 5 pple..plus Gilyn , Melissa only 7 new pple..sigh..have hazel..so korkor pair with her..if not i guess maybe pair.with me.then pressure..actually dun mind..bro wat..more familar i dun mind..Yan hong with Andrew..Melissa n me..Gilyn with senior ba..at my rate..now oct..jan very fast de..sigh..next year sch start 8 jan ar..huh..fast leh is it 8 jan perform ..oh my god..try lor practise more think can de.. :)

October 17, 2004

today dunno why so sian..just watch tv..then revise abit of biz fun..aiya keep thinking of accounts..i have look through lah..accounts need practise look through actually no use..so i kind of stress dunno wat should i do..sigh..
I afraid i cant finish the account test then how..Korkor advise me lor..but i feel no use one..he always say same thing..usually i stress ar..then surely cant do well..cannot lor must relax then i can do the question..
I watch the left eye can see ghost hhaaa translate from chinese lah..feel a bit sad..although have ghosts but not scary leh..is sad..plus nice lor the story..

why sunday always bored one..want to study sometime also study abit only..but have watch 5566 program i happy liao ..hhaa..ren fu n xie zhi host..:) xi ha pi tou 4 ..not bad lor..

Ok lah i dunno wat to write leh ..dun feel like writing anymore..byebye..:)

October 16, 2004

today go sch..we go rc for the basketball team..we go there to support the basketball team..our sch one..wow ite tampines play well..my sch lost..then ar..today at sch wow didnt see classmates leh only saw Alan walk past..then see he come back with hazel..n sureen come..wow so few pple..slowly more come..then ar.surprsing i saw ite bedok play also..realise zhi hong in the team..wow he so li hai ..after the match congraulate him..his sch wins yeah!!! i support his sch..dover ite not so gd..me n yan hong was like crazy lor supporting..saying yes yes when his sch score a ball etc..hhaa so exciting cant be helped..at lst support dover i see him inside hhaa the team i support bedok..korkor see us was like oh my god haha..

then tell korkor hhee..the match my cousin inside..wow pple cheer for zhi hong leh..he li hai but just aiming in shooting not so gd..mm..really happy..i still scare i make a mistake..i call mummy confirm zhi hong in basketball team..find him familar..then go n talk to him..

then after tt go tampines safra see gim loon they all play bowling..Alan play also..then go burger king eat..so hungry lor..i lst time eat..then yan hong give me a kind of look when i say i never eat b4 bk..is fact wat.not bad..then meet mummy n go home together..bought a watch..i buy one for her she buy for me too..haha


October 13, 2004

today..hhmmm..that YH lah go and ask..and find out all a joke heng ar..scare me..anyway he very nice..but too bad attached haha..everytime make me laugh..but as a frenz only..his gf hhee in malaysia..well he ar use such thing as joke abit overdo it ba..he ar today esc work..instead of doing stuff..keep making me laugh..he really can make me happy..haa everytime with me n Yh aiyo make us laugh like siao..I can say he really nice..a gd frenz lor..he saw my pencil case ask me change new one..say will buy espirit one for me..haha i only his frenz..wat esprit lah..then ask abt my bag dunno for wat..say want to be a ? guy hhaa..coz my bag have ? ..hahaa..anyway i say my pencil case not spoil wont buy new one..he say cut can liao lor spoil can get new one..aiyo.. -_-''..

dunno lah he always so funny..heng ar..not interested in me..but he always praise me..like to talk to me..i dunno lah hhaa attractive?? haha nono cannot BhB..i dunno leh..then everytime ask me want to change hp..not one time..still early wat my hp use 5 mths only..still early lah..

I feel i feel like being in love suddenly..maybe coz see pple in love i envy..but if happy is ok..not suitable one then not happy cannot lah..so best to choose the right one..I hope is like forever..mm..possible n also not possible..i scare of being hurt..glad i get over lor for zh one..already over..and dun feel anything..i only know in this sch now is my happiest days in my life..although there is unhappy incident..

Mrs Yeo always say ar..saw me n yan hong smiling..we so happy gal..hhee..aiya life should be like tt..really happy wat..like that study better lor..but she dunno i can feel sad too and angry she never see..but really lah i very happy n contented.. :)

October 12, 2004

today..very relax..nothing to do..anyway ..meet J online while i checking something..then he come n chat with me..asking me kor kor is it dating..he say he knows it long ago liao -_-'' just want to double check n he say never make lst move abit regret..he weird tonight..i know he no siblings so must be he online..is it mistaken ..but talking abt korkor tt is him wat..after that he left say back 5 mins later..tell me dun log off..after that continue talking..then ar..i say pple dun like me..he say pple dislike me nvm most impt he love me..i was like huh u kidding.he say he serious..he say i am a nice gal..well..he not joking he says..i nice that is wat he love me..-_-'' is it he talking wrong conver..how come he talks like this..cannot be lor..just now msg him he dun reply..nvm lor..i say u must be bro love sis that love is it..he ask me why cant it be more than that..he dun think like this..i say i think this way..sigh..wat is he up to..hey mind him got gf leh..he too lonely ar..he not real one haha..fake one..i so shock til now..dun want jump to conclusion.he ask me i get wat he trying to say..i say dunno..hhaa he say shy to say lah..then i say i think i know wat he means..but want to confirm wat he means lor..he says shy to say.. ....wat the..aiya i dun care..maybe wrong leh ..misunderstanding ba..coz he say go out eat on thur..then ar..ask yan hong they all along..with out lovebirds hhee..then i say then better dun tell him later he say i bad..j say he dare say tell him he settle with him..wow..i dunno i so gd meh..in sch have pple protect me hhee..he still say my gd points..wow like no one tells me b4 sia..as if i no bad points..anyway i also dun like him leh for now..frenz lor..

October 11, 2004

today..mm..class problem become big liao.korkor gf want change seats...and sit beside me..then lunch time eat with me n Kai ling..i ok..then they find teacher to talk abt changing seats..and settle their problem..Teacher knows everything leh..and I find out bcoz of me n Yan Hong , kor kor kanna dislike by the 3 gals lah..coz they think he always defend me they not happy..wat he do..have defend meh..so wat if defend he is my bro..that all..even if is our classmates he also help wat..

At least i get to know the reasons..mm.both of them angry surely..the other 3 together also bu suan..then ar..at com lab..that short gal wallk past me n yan hong purposely lah..and dun say excuse me just push through our place to go to her seat..so bad..no manners..i say out loud..

Well..aiya korkor want to make the matter big ..i know he can't stand leh..like as if he scare he dun take action coz for the sake of his gf..now he did it..dunno what they will do i dun care..coz watever it is..korkor can help me..not i have kao shan but is the fact wat..my bro there to help..cant then tell teacher lor..

October 09, 2004

Today do work..watch tv. Xiao yi come our house..Uncle also..well..help us paste the window stuff..well cousins come..i do my work..I do work wont think of stuff..but think abt 3 gals..feel angry..now is sad..I feel sec sch ar onwards..just feel pple dun like me..i thought after sec 5 ok already..now have also..wat i do to deserve this?

I feel stress already..exams soon nov lor..and have problem now..not just me involve a few pple..I just dunno why they dun like me..y cant the class be peaceful n just study hard..where ever i go pple dislike me..I am no gd..I know i dunno anything..no talents..i try my best to study..and this incident dun share with mum later say my fault..go sch is study n make friends too..but make frenz can result in problem like now..why lah so ma fan..kor kor also angry n unhappy..sigh..why some pple so wu liao..i know i should not think..but i can't help it..goes on like this how to study..go sch is to study not find fault..mm..all those enter my sch aiya my class are those dun want study want want to find problems..not all some ok lah..like kor kor really want to study me n yh also..we joke is joke but we r serious while doing work..i do work no joking coz pple disturb i get angry one..

aiya some character maybe pple dun like..i also dun like them..Yh msg me thinking coz of us..kor kor get dislike.. i think partly..partly is those gals already dun like him..i feel better now :D enough of writing..i telling frenz wat i think also..:)

October 06, 2004

Today weather hot sia..well..biz fun..some learn b4..ok lah i have to find dictionary lor some words too chim..Mrs Tan teach is so so only..today after cha cha tired..mm..accounts lucky no hw..only have go through answer..well Bca a bit i go home do..mm..finish liao..today ballroom dancing learn new stuff..aiyo i dunno leh..catch no ball sia..after tt melissa teach me i ok lah..must practise..everytime dunno ar i will dance with kor kor one duno why..anyway today he dance with yan hong, hazel n me ..hhaa so many..change partner ma..

Well..Hazel pick up fast..not bad..Yan hong also..well i dunno..coz they dance usually i looking one..sigh coz not enough partner..and i like zhang shan wei learn things slow..Oh ya remember Annie koh's lesson, discussing about the report writing..we never do much dunno how lor..then ar talking abt annie koh hhaa her clothes..hhee like chinese new year ar the way she wears it..like want to celebrate like tt..then so tight fitting..and her butt big hahaa..yan hong so bad say her butt big haha..and Jufri n I cant stop laughing..laugh til siao leh..too bad she is such a gd person to be teased at..haha

Today finally reveal ar..kor kor n his gf..We suspect very long just that he dun admit..today ar....go home Kor kor n her hold hands..so obvious leh..mm..so i dun want to get to close with him ..anyway is ok i his sis..then i kind of feel sad..i know why lor..surely de..but just like tt..starting i ok ar..after i leave the train..i feel sad..is confirmed..that explains why he n her everytime show up together in sch..well kor kor dun admit lor..hhaa now cant deny..gf caring leh..take tissue for him to wipe face..frankly speaking i want to have a bf..but is easy to say..but fate haven come cant help..anyway My classmates and I usually no fate one..so have to wait for the right guy..the one i like taken leh..too bad lor..

Hhaa today ar..I no printing paper leh..coz forget to bring left one..then Yan hong lah purposely ask Alan want him to lend me..say want to test see whether i need to give him back double or triple a not hhaa..then she tells him he say dun use me to borrow..hhaa then i say really need..then he say ok kinship hhee no need give back double..then Yan hong say ok lor she n him mei you guan xi hha..too bad i his sis:P

Yan hong so bu suan hhaa..and kor kor say she throw temper..hhaa..mm..i believe guys scare of her..no guy can tolerate her..no wonder Kor kor choose that gf not others..coz ar she seems gentle and good..kind lor..quiet lor..not like us so noisy n naughty..but sis nvm..hhaa tease him..i thinking why so fast ar..they steady..usually wont long one..coz depends suit each other ma..i know what i thinking..hope they not together ..but i cant help thinking what..what to do..mmm..dun want to think leh so envy..and where my guy sigh..

today kind of busy..accounts hw..then do that spotlight work..then ar i finish my BCA work..well remember yesterday funny lor annie koh..She talks about a phrase vincent was like huh wat 5494 hhaa..become number can buy 4d..well..and talking abt women stuff ..kotex hhaa..coz say satay inside have tt..yucks..well.den talk abt a man die inside have something..classmate say have tt..hhaa we all laugh..Annie koh say how could man have tt.then is beef lah he die from it.. in his body for 6 years sia..

well..today tired lah..haiz.and Mrs Quek tells us Exam coming 5 more weeks..Nov 18 onwards dun have to go sch liao..now Oct..very fast one..pressure coming liao..haiz..think of Yan hong always tease me...and Boom Tom, my small kor keep asking me when i having bf..aiyo so eager to know for what..Always ask nowaday and have bf he will ask me how me n bf ..never go out with him ar..aiyo..I will ask when he has a gf..hhaa..ask me i ask him lor..then wl say want to bash him up because he also ask her ..hhaa i say go ahead..he so noisy hhaa..
Well she so caring towards kor kor hhee buy drinks for him..well today kor kor calls me ask me abt com..his com have problem ..hhaa i dunno lah..well surprise he asks me..usually i dun ask him things he dun ask me one..i ask yan hong he also..mm..feel he not so happy nowaday due to md i think..that bitch lah so bad..she very childish sia..playing sia with her gang of frenz..so wu liao..kid sia..sometime feel she acts as if she so mature sia..wat shit sia..*puke..
Ok lah i go zzzzz... :)



October 02, 2004

Today wake up so late sia..dunno lah wake up sleep back tired ma..then ar..MF calls me..I answer her call I just wake up.she asks me about studies what else..petty cash..my brain was like blank..just wake up sia can't think..12 plus that time..wow i sleep like pig haha..seldom sleep til so late..then she asks me call her back i didnt..coz after that i went to eat mooncake and then bath lor went out leh..wow today can say getting fat leh..

Eat mooncake..go out tp central..xiao jie eat mac, i dun want coz eat yesterday.then eat ice cream and help mum buy bread.I bought cheese stick n eat.bought floss bread for mum.then after that shop a while we go novena square..mum want to find the d.i.y shop but is not there dunno why..well she keep finding..never give up..hhaa that a gd point leh..but legs so tired walk here and there sian sia..the shopping centre not many shops to shop..

then go united square..not many shops too..a lot of kids that kind of shop.Then went back to toa payoh..buy bowl noodle go home eat..btw bought a bag for myself..$5 only hee.cheap lor.well can use for sch..mum birthday also like tt..never buy present for her.cant find gd ones ba..watches she dun like leh..so never buy..

I went back home help dad buy western food..downstair have wat..and bought chicken wings..and i Ate..oh really sia today eat alot of unhealthy food hhaa lucky Kor kor dunno if not sure say me one..

now getting a bit tired..but thought i sleep enough..dunno why..feel like eating also..anyway end here




October 01, 2004

Today I wake up, I don't feel like going to sch..Because don't want to see some people lah..But have to go so ok lor..SW sian one..running lor then do warm up again then ar play game as usual.I feel moody..tired during ESC lesson..the Spotlight talk so much one..about report writing..I so sleepy and hungry can't stand her talking..anyway i Wont do her hw i think..weekend mood hhaaa..then PIE play memory game ..ok lah not bad..I saw the 3 zha bo..i feel two of them seem the face not happy one..heck care i didnt do anything..maybe I think too much..aiya kor kor stand there I take things then ar i stand beside him lor..while i taking things he steps on me, he says sorry lah ask me ok a not..aiya ok nvm one lah..

Just feel he has gf in our class so best is that don't be so close with him not good lor..but He is my bro what...i think nothing wrong with that lor.I also not confirm his gf in our class.He don't admit..mm..wat to scare about..I suspect him n her as the status in friendster the gal put as in a relationship lor that why lah..wat a coincidence thing must be lah.. wink hhaa...
Have to wait and see.If true i wish him all the best really ar..i treat him as my bro forever..Think stay this way the best as he also call me xiao mei wat..

Today went to eat macdonald..hee with kor kor , Andrew, Jin lun , Yan Hong, Vincent and Gilyn.talk talk ..hhaa talk abt Yan Hong the way she is like a guy..hhaa...then Kor kor say she Hua Mu lan and He laugh..I hear liao also laugh alot sia..so funny..he getting very naughty also..just now msg him say yan hong new nick is hua mulan not hong nian leh hhaa he agree..he say we call her that next time..hhaa and i say if she says us pig we say her back lor..who ask her always suan us ;) wink..hhaa

oh ya still have korkor say go yan hong's house can slim down leh go one week..coz simple meal..then i think of food not nice..then ar say cannot ..reaction big..then say no place to sleep..then yan hong say sleep outside her house hhaa..i say i dog is it..kor kor say is cat..then i say i cat then he cat kor kor right so he is cat too haha.he say must think twice next time b4 speaking haa..he kanna suan by me hhaa.he always suan me when i say him pig head he say i his sis wat so is miss piggy..sigh..

September 30, 2004

Today's mood also no good..i know coz of yesterday..yawn now feel sleepy think going to bed soon..well.remember wat that two gals say lah the shennie and celia i am angry..see the group cant't forget what happen..well..yesterday mm.kor kor msg me i dunno put the mode too soft..he ask me ok ma..mm..i alright at that time coz cool down already..mm..so send back i am ok..then he say good and glad to hear tt ask me dun sleep too late and that all..korkor can be caring ar..he cares for his friends..I thinking he won't care..to my surprise he cares..anyway i am his sis n yan hong his secretary.Heard Yan hong say he ask her I ok a not..Want double check maybe? He worried lah..I really fine also dun want him get worried..mm..

just now he online..but ar..he talks a while and nothing much lah he say he tired and he went to sleep..the attitude really ar..tell him tm something happen then he ask wat happen..tell him liao he say that all ..he thought wat big news..haiz..He dun talk like that..why so serious just now ..maybe he tired lah..nvm..why care so much..usually will upset easily sian wor..today mood swing..well i think will feel better tml :)

I also tired dun write leh..yawn



September 28, 2004

well..Today I don't know why seem like everything dun like me.I use sch com hang sia and i never save..luckily done only a bit.Well and for accounts lesson don't know why under my desk there is a puddle of water.Mrs Quek tease me and say i cant tahan also no need do it there hhaa..then i was like not me what i do haa..Yan Hong say the way i react like kor kor haaa...then laugh at Vincent dunno for wat and then called by Mrs Quek to do question on the board.hhaa then Vincent laugh at me coz i laugh at him lah so must do lor..wat a logic.then saeedah wants to bully me too..hhaa i forget what she do..:P anyway she always say i bully her haa..wat i do? i tell her go complain lor I not scare hhaa..so funny sia..and then she give me the pity look..hhaa i very naughty haha..

Today ZHong Qiu Jie..Mooncake yummy. pandan one nice. love it but better dun eat too much very sweet leh.
mm..got to do hw.just now done BCA work which I have not finished.wow fast 6 plus already..i go and do hw..

September 26, 2004

Today..my mood seem alright....haa yesterday was like unusual i feel..i bought titbits..roller coaster,chocolate,mentos,mamia..hhaa is it spell like that i don't know how to spell and more..mum say I crazy hhaa..bought this and that and i eat..maybe just feel like eating lor..today i spring clean my room..the softtoy bear bear wow so dusty leh..too long I have not clean leh..hee hhee..I feel this two days i getting more hardworking bhb leh ..really..i also don't know why...sudden study hhaaa..but study abit only..

Is it because of him, that's why sudden unusual? i think so..because seem like my classmate suspect leh haiz..sigh..
They better don't know.I don't want people to know.Today very free. Nothing much to do just watch tv and spring clean room lor..nothing much to clean also hee..just the display items dusty ..mum keep telling me to wipe i ok lor go and do it.if not she will keep telling me to do it and i am tired of hearing it ..and i may ignore :P naughty leh..hhaaa..mm..getting hungry .Mum went to buy food already.

I think that's all..nothing to write already..i dont't write everyday because sometimes i am lazy to write or nohting to write..I just hope sch will be alright and i just study hard and not think of love stuff.It is a troublesome matter..

September 23, 2004

wow today so tired..now also abit sleepy maybe because i ate something just now.today that H make me kind of unhappy..haiz..then J also..both tell me two stories..dunno who the one wrong..so piss off..but now tired no mood to be angry ba..H dunno really ma never tell J i like tt guy..MayBe J anyhow say coz they share secret and J seem to know i like that guy haiz..later spread how.i pai seh leh..i get so angry..i know why..like lor what else..then H today i eat fries she so auto..take n eat without asking i dun like..although close with her so far but cant be like that right..and i saw frenz..she walked away lst never tell me abit dao can intro what maybe..nvm i also bu ji jiao..just dun like.

J claim that H tell him that i seem to like tt guy what crap sia..tml i want to know what happen and i forget about it..i forgive one may not forget lor..k lah i go zzzzzz..end here

September 22, 2004

Today's lessons boring ..business fundamental do group discussion..then ar BCA do excel..then lunch..mm..then accounts never study leh..cause whole class only 14 people in class teach what..then Mrs Quek discuss with us the sitting arrangement.i think I am not going to change seat. then late for annie koh lesson.She says us lah what else..noisy lecturer leh.. memo..tell us go out do lor..hhaaa provoke yan hong lah she..she keep scolding her:P

Well Ballroom dancing only me And Yan Hong the rest bowling or dun want to go..haiz..10 people never go. except Gilyn lor n us..today is the most boring day of my sch life i guess..never really have the class..waste of time..one week never dance i rusty leh..not so sure..i accompany yan hong if not i go home already.She needs to close the self access room lor.then left her there dun want lah..

Anyway also no homework..mmm...accounts getting abit rusty i think.Oh ya heard from classmate that Kai Ling in hospital i wonder true a not..getting worried sia..but heard that Jufri say she didnt tell him what happen..she lies alot should we trust her? I don't know.really don't know..haiz..tomorrow then see..think end here dunno wat to write already..back at home best feel relaxed and feel good..not so bored




September 20, 2004

Well..mm..today seem that i feel bored..maybe because there is no homework.I can't bath now as the toilet still fixing mirror lah etc..maybe that why i don't feel comfortable.usually i feel relaxed after a bath and I will proceed to do my stuff..today seem my daily life changes because of that.

Well i know i feel abit i also don't know how to describe that feeling..today saw kor kor with her in the cab i don't feel anything but is it possible they are together? like so close..but i have no evidence.today group work for esc..kor kor instead of joining our group he join her group.It is so obvious lor..i heard he even put her pic as wallpaper for hp..so i thinking are they an item? i don't know. I know i don't feel good about it.I just don't want that kind of feeling but i can't control lor..It is difficult.In his heart, I am just his sis what..he always calls me that. mm..forever stuck with that xiaomei nick.

Last time i ask myself is it i have feeling for him..i believe no..cause i just don't want to face it.i know the answer now but what can i do? the person he like is her. I believe the feeling not too strong lor..i just hope i can forget about it..but avoiding is not the way lor..

well why i write it here??just my feeling and i think he won't see so nevermind..anyway not many people know my blog..dun let my class knoe can already. anyway today test not bad lah ..wow kor kor did well sia..he always can..but not the highest in our class..the highest is shennie.

Today Mrs Quek not in sch due to on course so still dunno i sit with who..that gal hhaa never pester me i so happy..so have to wait til wed then know lor i sit with who.haiz..then today kai ling never come to sch..surely cause of ezlink card lah what else.

September 19, 2004

Sch reopen leh tml!!

mm..today..midnight I was awake by tv because my dad comes to my room watch soccer..well..as the cable is indonesia channel only my room can see lor..then i cant sleep leh..i went to sleep with mum lor..funny is half way morning already i went back to my room to sleep..that' what i do haaa..weird ar..like my bed alot :P well masterbed room bed also nice..i often say it is a "sleeping pill" like that ...as u lie on it u can fall asleep easily so comfortable..

Maybe because of that afternoon i was tired..i take a nap lor..i guess tonight i maybe can't sleep leh,tomorrow how? i dunno hhaa surely yawn tomorrow..but i will still try to sleep.i just sleep a while should be ok..

Well very fast lor..sch reopen..mm..i getting abit tired..dun feel like writing already..let hope tomorrow sch day will be a great day :)

Create blog lor for fun!

..well today i went to look at friendster..finally kor kor write testimonial for me and he write til so good..scare he get it from me if he write bad comment haaa..wat would i do? he is my kor kor leh..he is funny..say i use internet all day ..and luckily not he pay for the net bill..he dunno there is a thing call broadband hhaa and can play unlimited..hhaa generation gap...well happy that the testimonial i write for him appear..mm..mon he will know wink haa..why mention abt the cute thing aiyo..want to let whole world know..haiz..wat so cute?Well sch reopens soon, and i do hope can sit with Yan Hong n not Mf..pls ar..hhaa also cant sit with Alan later litter on the floor he accuses me..bad ar..hhaa..always tease me one..anyway got to sleep..mm..holiday quite fun..and so long i didnt write diary leh..so many things happening nvm update here..someone stick to me lor..aiyo..so irrating..if sch start i sit with her..i dunno how..is a nightmare leh..haiz..and mm..i like someone..but i dun want to think too much just let nature takes its course :)