Bad mood..

Today just a normal day and I thinking when am I a confirmed staff..I feel upset coz she seem not wanting to confirm me yet, claiming that I didnt learn much things yet..I feel that,it has nothing to do with confirming or not..is not a matter of whether wat I learnt or know now..I can learn and willing to learn..as long as I learnt, I will know how to handle but they are busy wat..so how can they let me try while the report is so urgent, I will slow down the process..what I say did make sense wat..so she says she wants one more month to see how well I can perform..

I wasnt so happy abt her..I dun get the assurance, it makes me so unsecure..Maybe I shouldnt get so upset but I also dunno why I feel this way..I feel that I am a person who is lack of security..sigh..I just have to wait n see if I am confirmed or not lor..wat to do..I am only an employee..

Shall end here..glad that tml is sat..meeting Jolene & the rest for lunch.. :)

Tired..

I simply feel tired today..not enough sleep..even right now, I am feeling tired..gonna slp earlier today if not I am going to fall sick..start to cough already and my dear friend, WL is on mc..poor gal..hope that she gets well soon..ya..

Work is as usual..I just went out after work last night..Went to bugis, have dinner and shop around with Jufri..mm..thinking of getting a mp3/mp4 player soon..I guess mine doesnt work anymore..I cant detect the device at all.. sob.. I want to get a new hp too..aiming for Samsung ultra 13.8 ;) I guess all these have to wait til next year..prices increase therefore expenses increase but our salary doesnt increase..sigh..

I feel that I really dun trust guys anymore..always doubt what they say..I just want to know more friends..be with my brothers and sisters,hanging out with them to have fun and of course continue being God's child together..I love my carefree life..Just want to be happy and not to think so much..
Sometime things doesnt go our way and I will get upset..what to do, certain things cannot be controlled..We cant always want it to be the way we wish for and of course not to force our way through..I shall let God lead me to the path..

At times I dun wish to share that much nor talk so much but I do have some thoughts here and there..anyway is not necessary to share that much abt certain things..
I shall end here..

God bless u!

Rest in peace..

I am back to blogging again and was sad to read abt the 5 dragonboat paddlers..at lst I wasnt very aware of wat's happening til I follow up with the news..life can be unpredictable and we lost 5 sportsmen..I just hope that their family can overcome the saddness soon..I Know is really hard..those are their love ones..and all five of them are so young and one is the P.E teacher..I can really understand how they feel..I did lost a love ones b4 and a lovely teacher too..sigh..

I just pray that they can overcome everything soon though we are not related..just pray that the 5 guys can rest in peace..

Anyway was busy with work as usual and a bit tired today..I shall end here..

May God bless all of u..

Not my day!!

Well today work as usual..but then shopping trip with Ke Xin cancelled..then heard that Lai Mei sick..then bible studies cancelled at the last min also..I was like, not my day..everything cancelled and my schedule was like all messed up..dunno wat to do with the remaining free time..water drip on my hair n nose somemore..water from the aircon! wat the..then not just that..dunno where the water comes from when I walk out from church..wat a day..

It makes my day so sian..at times I am dreaming that I can find the one in church..then go church together and believe in God together and we share the same value and he can understand why I want to go church coz he also goes..perhaps can compromise better..the best is having a church wedding at our church..I want Pastor Kian Cheng to help us wor..I hope it will come true..May God bless that I find the right one , one day.. :)continue waiting and dreaming for now.

End here..

Been a long time..

It has been some time since I last blog..well..recently ok de la..work lor..we going to start to be busy coz of "Front Warrior"..well have to finish it in a week's time.omg! What we can do is to try our best..
I rather be occupied than slacking and dunno wat to do..It is not so nice u see..

I just went to visit my grandma on sat and went out with Ling, hui & WL for ling's birthday celebration on sunday..
We tried Msq's Wakaru Japansese Pasta..healthy pasta..then shop around and of course took some pics.I will upload soon gals..dun worry abt it hehe..

It has been two months liao..we sort of seldom contact liao..not even talk on the phone liao..is it really the same for all?once part means dun contact much liao.. I feel that maybe there isn't a need to do so..no reason to chat alot liao..at times I walk past some places or even came across some food, they just trigger my mind abt u..I believe u will just stay in my memory forever..After all these are gd memories of us..I just hope that u are doing fine..I know I am ok but somehow some memories u wont be able to let go..I can bluff others but perhaps I cant lie to myself that I forget everything abt us..is not possible..It is just that since we part, I dun wish to think abt so much..looking forward to my future..I am doing fine nowaday..as per normal..

I feel that somehow..we cant compare one another..I seem to feel that every human is so so different..not sure how pple feel and how impt is certain things to others..Somehow I realise I cant tell but just open my eyes big n see for myself..I guess this is the only way..

Shall end here ba.

It will stay in my memory..

Fri again..Today used to be a special day in my life but now it will just be a past and memories..It is a special day for my dad though..

I just feel like blogging and then I blog..This has been going on for a few years since I started blogging..It is really a gd way to blog about our thoughts each day..
Somehow I believe eventually I get over it but somehow I wont forget all the happy moments that we have as they are sweet memories..9th of each month used to be so meaningful..It will just be a history of my life for now..just want to say thank u.. I guess I wont forget u..hope that u can live ur life to the fullest and achieve ur goals..This new way of life is relaxing but lack of something..I guess I think 2 much but who doesnt think..we have feelings and won't forget certain things in life..they are our history n past..

Perhaps I wont even tell others that I feel this way but then I am a person who cant forget..hard to forget..I need time..

Anyway let me update abt yesterday..I went out with mum n brother as it is a public holiday..we went to book tickets for our holiday trip to genting and it is confirmed..going off next month for 3 days..I will be applying leave soon..glad that we can really go n relax somewhere though is nearby..slowly..it takes time to travel to other places..yeah..I went to visit grandma and then go shopping after that..bought top n skirt..time just past like that lor..holiday is over..
I still feel the holiday mood..nvm going out tml though after work..yeah..can continue to have fun haha..

I shall end here..having my dinner le..

Busy day..

It has been a busy day today..Quite a cold day due to rain..so nice to sleep that I dun wish to get out of bed..but what to do, we have to work..so ya..getting excited and cant wait to be on holiday and cant wait to meet u on sat.. ;) wonder who is that u..hhaa dun tell u all.. lol :P

Well I am just busy today..doing documents stuff..photocopying etc..not a hard job..
I cant wait to catch the ending of " 溏心凤暴" ..though I roughly know how it is going 2 end because my mum told me the ending already..sigh..not very nice..it can be sad ..surely..anyway it is just a drama..I am quite emotional though..if there is sad scene, I may cry..omg! btw 林峰好帅喔!He simply look so charming lor..actresses really lucky to be able to work with this 帅哥..envy lor..what to do, can only daydream and cant get to know him..sigh..not only acting, Raymond can sing well too..be it cantonese songs or chinese songs..wow..el also no problem..It is really fortune for his parents to have such a talented son..Hope he keeps it up..Raymond rocks!

I end here..going catch the drama now before the night turns really late..

Updates again..

Well today is quite a carefree day..I just learnt some new things yesterday..I know I wish to leave this job again..damn sian..but job really not easy to find and that u are happy there..so far this is my 2nd full time job but I dun like though..I love to get along with my colleagues..they are fun..but haiz..I dun wish to say with regard to boss..

I shall change topic and talk abt yesterday..I went out with Az and I guess no one knows la..dun intend to tell as they will tease us if they find out..haha..We went to have meal at MSQ Swedsen then went to merlion park have a chat lor..just a simple meal..It is ok la to get along with him..wow I love this kind of freedom lor to go out with anyone and no restriction as long as the person is decent..haha
Enjoy the dinner..
Anyway out of a sudden KK call me and ask if I want to chat..he came n look for me..It has been a long time since we really chat..This friend of mine can be nice and a gentleman that if u dunno him personally, u maybe mistaken by his action haha..He will ring u up at times even though u never find him..sometime not that I dun look for him..everyone is busy wor..I tried to msg him once a while le..I cherish my friend and glad that he treat me as quite gd friend so he will contact me.. :) thanks for that..

I shall end here..dunno wat else to blog..tml is fri yeah..may or may not go out..depends on KK la..bringing me for a ride if possible..