I am on mc today..sleep and rest for the whole day..however I still feel tired..lots of thoughts again but I didnt want to talk to anyone about it. I guess is the uncertainity that bother me. I know I should have faith and just move on and see how things go..it's the beginning but is like so uncertain and many changes here n there..I am not sure how far can I grow when I am there..It's about a week but I didn't learn much stuff..

Are you afraid that I will be a threat? am I thinking too much? doesn't seem that you are willing to teach me, however B was willing to do so..I prefer to approach him than P..however P will tell me if I ask..haiz lots to learn..I am not sure yet thus no confidence.

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