Busy Monday..

I was kind of stone today. I was really tired and I did not had my breakfast..oh no I forget to buy donuts lol.I wanted to have them for breakfast..well perhaps I can get something else later on my way to sch..buy and keep it first..no harm..

I was so busy in the morning..kind of moody and stress as I knew what I would be fear of..Well I leave things to God..I will do my very best and God will lead me along the way..

I need to have my dinner and then head for mgtment class.. time flies man..I can't wait for fri to come..long weekend!!

Flea market at Holland V...

Well I felt shag now..it is an enjoyable day though is tiring..I get to experience life at flea market and this is my first time..I am gonna go down again if I can on 6 Sep 2009 and may it be a better one..Thx God for the blessing of good weather and cab..well though I seem to lose two items but nevertheless it was a good experience..sigh WL & the rest r late though.there are interesting incident too..haha..I had headache recovered after taking panadol..I would like to go again when there is a flea market..perhaps to go there once a while if I have items to sell..

Well I know that Elaine jie , XL, JQ di went to see cq at sembawang shopping centre..I didnt go as I was at the flea market..I might consider going to look at all the dj if I have the time..gave it a miss this time though..is alright..hhaa AUnty lucy is the special guest..hhaa CQ!!

I shall end here..gonna surf net a while and then go off to bed as I have to work tml and I have class wor..

Ion

I am feeling tired once again..had a long time..I went out in the morning to meet up with JJ, Charmaine , her friend,Valerie,and Yati to shop at ION..finally..Yati went off after getting bag..Planned to have jap food but it was crowded so we went to hk cafe instead..Well after shopping a while, JJ MIA..Heard that he msg to say that he has to rush off..after that Charmaine's friend left..basically no one stay for very long lol..IOn is quite big but then , it seem normal to me..hopefully there is a day whereby every1 is more free to shop together..I head off to church at 4 plus..had dinner n dessert at bugis with Angelia, Ivan, Huay Ling & Yamashita San and went back home.

I am really tired..ready for flea market!! oh yeah! end here

I am getting tired now..sleepy n hungry..nothing much to do at work as it is fri..is sat now..Aug has come..wow..that's fast..meeting JJ and the rest later at orchard at 11.30..yes we r going IOn and had lunch together..then I will head to church..then have dinner with Angelia, Ivan & Huay ling..then maybe go shopping..

Sunday which is tml..will be having flea market at holland v.first time..need to go dig out what I wanna sell tonight..I have not done yet :P lol..maybe not going..see how I feel lor
might feel so tired..

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What kind of service?

Well I am pretty occupied today..I manage to finish what I should do and get home..yeah there is no class today..I guess I am going to gain weight..lots of food to eat while working there..yesterday was mango cake from bengawang solo and we had home cooked porridge by Mdm Phua today.

Well let me update about last night..xl & I pretty luckily at night..We called in :) I just tried my luck and I get in after Xl hang up..really afraid that my call will get cut off again..luckily it didnt..earlier on was Lynn..天啊！好开心喔。。一个星期没打通了！他不记得我的声音。well is alright..so many callers at times..I can't expect him to remember and more over I was having flu previously..lol..surprisingly he still remember Lynn's voice and she was abit sick..flu..can tell though..happy to chat with CQ over the phone..he talk quite alot..everyone was pretty emo during midnight..hhaa He said, every1 try to fake emo ar..hhaa no la..they r just emo lor..either sick or busy though..

Well back to today..I am not happy..have u come across a food eatery whereby you cant get more chilli sauce? so weird..I don't care what reason you give..my objective is to get the service that I want for the price that I paid..the food is getting expensive and the service is pretty bad..I am unhappy with the service..I am not trying to discrimiate the china workers.Their attitude really sucks you know..This is not the first time though.I was thinking of letting them off but then it happens again.I don't wish to patronise the place again since the service sucks..no point though. I can live without it.

I shall end here..

Busy day..

It has been a busy day this two days..I worked til really wanna cry ..stress up as things just seem to come unexpectedly and I had alot to call..kind of cant cope in the morning..thx God is done..I manage to finish my work at 2 plus and rest for one hr..

I started my lesson..had a/c class and it was pretty alright..principle of managment was alright..both lecturers are good..anyway thur has another lesson and off for weekend

I shall end here..so tired..

Class starts tml..time flies

Well..I didnt do much things today..clearing some old magazine n arrange my cupboard..slacking now..my classes gonna start again..it's tml..time flies..I am a little excited..

Actually I start to worry whether can I cope or not as JJ said he has a special program for me..oh no..hope I can finish my work on time and head off to class..starting of the week should be fine..may God bless and grant me success and concentration on my studies n work..I dunno what to blog further..

Shall end here..

Harry Potter & The Half Blood Prince

As usual went to church today and head to PS to meet up with Huay Ling n Yamashita san to have dinner followed by movie..of course the book is better, neverthless I find it ok..some part are funny and the last part is really sad..tears just came out.. oh...

I felt sleepy now..shall end here with this short blog..

happy day!

I cant surf the net yesterday..technican come and solve the minor problem and is done today..oh yeah..is fri!! actually consider sat when I post my blog..I feel happy..quite relaxed at work after lunch..manager, vp , p etc went for meeting..hehe.I was so busy b4 lunch..running around the whole sch looking for students..it was really warm when u have to walk around and you are not familar with the place..I guess is a good way to explore around the sch..

I feel good ..finishing my work today..oh yeah..catching harry potter later!! oh yeah! wow just saw the previous TA today..she came to visit us.. :)

Really a pity I didnt have fun today as i dunno they are celebrating wl's birthday..just a simple dinner ba..beside I am waiting for the singtel personel as well..sigh..

I fall asleep a while at 9 plus..gonna sleep late..wanna do things that I like..end here

Moody..

Well simply dunno what is wrong..I dun feel good..anyway tue was racial harmony day and we wore ethic costume to celebrate..CQ was quite high and happy this few days! I didnt call in,sms instead..i didnt call nor sms..tried my best but I cant get in..can't be helped.feeling abit disappointed..sigh..is another work day again..emo..I guess I dun like to do what I am doing..but cant be helped..that's life..you have to do what u dun like..for my studies sake..I bear with it.,..is gonna be tough..may GOd walk with me..end here..

Field Trip..

Yeah I am back from the trip around 5..We went to get dinner etc..
Well this time round, we went to orchid ville, fireflies farm(nothing to do with fireflies), sungei gadoh natural reserve park, marina barrage and the vegetable place again..

I am feeling abit tired now..pretty warm today and it was the first time we went to marina barrage..The place was comfortable.cooling..we entered our trip there and we took train home since we were at marina bay..It's nearer, rather than going back from eunos..which is silly..too bad Cousin Li Ping not able to come with us as she was sick..I shall sms her later to see if she is ok.. :) I took some pics.I will load then when free..

Shall end here..

Enjoyable day!

I will try to blog quickly and sleep soon..feeling drownsy already due to the cough syrup.yup I have a slight cough..I was abit sick on thur and it was my last paper..can feel that i get a flu but thx God, my flu and slight sorethroat has recovered..however I cough sigh..I guess is due to heaty and late nights. I have been sleeping late lor..sigh

I meet up with wl & hui for a meal at pastamania far east plaza and then went to bossini and get my smiley shirt..I also see Chong Qing and Pei Fen hosting the bossini event. I let him know who I am and he remembered..oh yeah! ya is me! Pei Fen ask him if I am his fan..he said is listener.. :) so happy though!

Normally I wont call in to radio station, but after knowing fc pple, they start to encourage me to call and I did..Fc pple r friendly and we dun fight or quarrel la..one big family..great! pple calling me mei mei or jie jie..so respectful hor..Love my didi, meimei & jiejie ohhh yeah!!

Shall end here..time to slp

sian..

I feel so guilty..while on leave but I didnt really study yet..start to study now.maybe take it as , while not working..I wont feel so tired..I can study better now..if not I would be on my way home only..once feeling shag from waking up early , cant study..

Last paper tml..I guess have to retake stats again..wait for our results will know..sian..no confident..though I really hope I can at least pass...

Yeah meeting Lynn on fri after work.. :) meeting my gd friends on sat and having field trip on sunday..occupied my whole weekend after exams..waiting to watch harry potter next weekend..dun intend to watch this weekend.surely very packed..

Shall end here..I wont go n get dinner so early as I plan to get meal from the zi cha stall downstair..lazy to work so far..go study le..

Yeyeye..

I was really happy this few days..get to see my idol and I fufil my dream of calling in 933 to talk to CQ during midnight..maybe try my luck tonight again..see if I can call in again..not that busy today..quite ok with work but a few days not in..tend to have some stuff here and there..Ms Koh leaving the sch to pursue studies..wow I have to learn whatever I can before she leave..

Time to study hard while mood is really good.Not enough sleep.. sob sob..I gonna end here..take my shower and do my stuff..

Happy..happy..Lam Feng!

Yeah I just settle down after showering..reach home around 11.30..must be wondering where did I go right? I revised my work today and then head off to jurong point to see Raymond Lam Feng..yes he had the Alicafe Meet & Greet Session..It was a last min decision. I was hesitating whether to go and I get MF to go with me..happy to see him..I fufil my wish, that is to see him face to face..manage to take some pics and video though not clear.. :) Wow he is really charming..handsome! He smile alot and he is really friendly..Even his manager is quite gd..knowing that there are alot of fans..they allowed Raymond to help to sign a little while more..so nice..a pity he didnt sing.

He told us a good news, that he will be releasing a mandarin album..oh yeah..I will go n support him when the time comes..maybe can Get Mummy to go with me since she likes Lam Feng too..oh yeah..she regretted not going haaa..I was quite surprised..I thought she doesnt like crowded event but she told me she wanna see him..is ok..when there is another chance,I get her to go with me..

I realise that I am not so into getting his signature..what I wanna is to see him..whether I get the signature or not doesnt matter..as you can get two pack of alicafe and you can get a poster and queue up to sign..I am pretty lazy to wait, not like when I was slightly younger..I would queue to get idol's autograph..It has been a long time since I go to see idol.. :) the excitment and happiness is really there..Lam Feng, u make my day! Hope you have a great week ahead and not get too tired..

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Jamin's birthday celebration

Time flies..9 july was Jamin's birthday and we celebrated today..is past midnight..getting sleepy after drinking..drank abit..we went to bq korea to eat..11 of us..surprising ww came and guess what, she asked us to do survey..which we dun really like..alot of papers..crazy..

Thanks for the wonderful and lovely muack..hehe..ww asked me a question which doesnt concern her and we choose not to ans. Ww jealous la..hhaa..just finish a marketing paper and time to cheong for stats paper which is on mon..

Shall end here..I feel so sleepy..

5th day..

Well it has been the 5th day and I am feeling abit tired now..gonna quickly finish up my notes so that I can sleep..I slept quite late last night.Glad that today is a fine day..manage to have lunch kaki :) well..I am still able to cope now and hopefully it will alawys be a good day as time goes by..

Continue with tying the notes..

it's sunday and I dun have to be at work early tml. oh yeah..Just have to reach at 8.30 :) Glad that I have not wasted my time today..at least finished up a few chaps of the marketing notes..oh yeah..thank GOD..In fact I am bloated now and abit sleepy..I guess I try to finish up chap 6 then I shall rest.. I did my notes and also went to grandma's place for dinner..I didnt waste my time..brought my notebook along with me to type my notes..

Hopefully it will be a gd week ahead.. :) I am not so stress already so hopefully I can perform better..end here

2nd day of work..

Stepping into the 2nd day..I am still not used to it and learning in progress..Hopefully everything is fine..learn as much as I can..feeling sleepy and my studies notes are not out yet..

Surprised..that P came to talk to me..anyway is very different when you are a staff now..hhaa.. :) self discipline instead of pple discipling you..I hope I can absorb more and see how it goes..I have no idea really what gonna happen and no one knows til we walk n walk towards the front..I just wanna finish my last sem and see how it goes..I guess my heart is already telling me what I want in life..somehow feeling the stress and I doesn't seem to have the peace..perhaps is due to exams..gambatte ne!

First day at work!

It's a new start and so far so good..Adapting to the environment..I am really unsure of what's gonna happen next..I know what I am thinking..I am going to do my best and not to think so much..trying..is stressful going through at this period of time..exams nearer and nearer..I can't study now..2 tired..sob..
So far colleagues are helpful.Thank God!

I will do my best for tml..that's what I can do :)

Pissed Off..

I wonder what kind of person is he? leaving someone behind and he left..what the hell..finally exchange my adapter from sls :) I hope it doesn't give me any problem.yeah..starting work tml and I wonder how it goes. I will do my best..everyday is a learning day..I will do what I can and learn whatever I can.It's stressful you know as I have not studied yet and exams are around the corner..sigh..I really dunno what am I suppose to do..I pray hard for it and I tell myself I can do it though..

where is our lecturer? hhaa I am in class..Brought my notebook along to test and see the adapter works though..shall end here..

I had a gd day today..somehow mixed feeling..meet up with hui first then WL..I get my contact lens, and adapter..My notebook adapter is spoilt, somehow get new one and I have to go and change it tml..sigh wasting time..wat to do..maybe find a cafe to study after that..hhaa..I have to head down to class..yeah last lesson for the sem..and exams r near..starting work on wed..wow..God Bless!

I got it! Yeah

I left my hp on throughout the night and was surprised to see a msg and a miss call from Jason..I got the job! Thank God. Most probably gonna start work on next mon..will go down and meet Jason again tml and shall ask him in details.. :) That's fast..Just nice..Time to study and work hard! I felt so lazy.. :P

I have to start studying as I will start work soon, might feel tired as I will be waking up early..Only a few people know it..I won't announce it unless they ask me..sound so secretive? I find it unnecessary to boast around that I have gotten a job..

My application is approved as well! horray! time to pay sch fee and continue to study for the next sem..

Shall end here..revise abit of stats and I am going to get my dinner..

I realise that though I was out today, I did not really enjoy it though.Feeling empty once again..I guess resting too much is no good as well..time to study hard! time for revision as exams r around the corner..I am pretty lazy.. :P I went to suntec today, finally get my cooling pad for my notebook. The previous one was spoilt.

Not sure what else to blog..shall end here! need to gambatte!

Need it!

I am still waiting for the application and they had not revert back to me..pretty worried as I really need it to complete my next sem.I have been chasing them for it and they told me that they will send me an email to notify on the status but no vail till now..sigh what can I do? I can't do anything now.no mood for anything now..Pray that this issue will be settled soon.Well not sure how it goes for today's interview..I tried my best. There is another one tml. Well Gambatte!

Somehow no mood to do anything right now. sigh..Father Lord..pls help me!!!

It has been a relaxing day..I went for the full body massage..well not too bad..it makes me relaxed..gonna try to sleep soon.I need to wake up early for sunday's service..somehow I am still very awake.We went to visit grandma..according to the safety measure, hospital has restricted the no. of visitors per patient..well is good though..somehow the swine flu cases have been increasing each day..hope that it will be under control and also pray for both my grandma, may they be healthy always! may they get well soon! :)

I am struggling with my assignments though..Tried to do what I can..finishing them soon..left with a few questions..I guess I should finish it now and I can relax a little and revise my work tml.. end here..

Well just settle down after I come back from sch..well just had my ethics test and gotten the assignment result today..phew my result quite ok..Phew what a relief! at least I know , my effort paid off.. :) I am more concerned about my stats. I did my assignment half way..gonna continue but somehow abit lazy to do so now..I hope I can do it. Well quite relaxed now but somehow I have not left the past behind..she still called me to ask me questions lol..this few days of rest is pretty good and somehow I wish I can continue to relax for a while..Didnt really take a gd break since CNY..

I hope that I can go for a holiday trip right after I finish my final exams which is around end of this year..I need a break..Really feel like going for a body massage and holiday trip!!!

Meanwhile I wish I can enjoy the free time that I have..do what I like..study,read the books that I love..do things that I always dun have time to do..I have not start..time to start before I don't have much free time again

I miss M..somehow he just come to my mind..didnt see him for a while..wish to have meal with him..perhaps it doesnt concern him..I really dunno..let nature takes its course..

Waiting..

I just come back from interview not long..well I manage to get there on time and then my application would be sent to the sch and hopefully I can get it. I am pretty keen..guess what, if successful I would be working in my brother's ex sch..starting next month.

I have to wait for call either this week or next week. well I leave it to God..I did what I can..Hope for the best..thank GOd..

Just wonder, how do we get something that we really like and passion in? I am really not sure where I wanna head to..is sch the place that I would want to work in?

free as a bird..

Currently slacking..I feel so lazy.hope to rest a while and then get my job soon as well..maybe rest for two weeks..I need a break..
To do what I like..two days not enough yet..somehow I don't even feel gd doing nothing..gonna do something about it..I have lesson and interview coming up..gonna jia you! I have faith in myself n GOd..just have to be positive..

Don't even know what I wanna say now..mixed feeling..feeling sleepy already..just wrote the thank you card...have alot of thoughts..thank you! perhaps I love the industry..shall see how it goes..hhaa I will miss the paris n milan again..:( I love to watch.. anyway not sure what to blog further..let nature takes its course for everything..i will study hard! yeah get to know next sem starts on 27 july..applied for the funding already..thanks Alicia..

wonderful day

it's a great day..a special day..6 june..thx God for the blessing..everything is fine..5 candidates turn up for interview..great..even get 2 reach home earlier..lecturer postpone lesson..he dun feel 2 well..as a result assignment deadline is extented as well..oh yeah..indeed a wonderful day..

Somehow I have been doing my best for my assignments and job searching..kind of slacking at work..is the last week..last 5 days..time flies..she will take over me..somehow I guess I feel the same way again each time I left..somehow is stronger this time round..We do have a choice.I choose the opinion so that I can be happier and stay healthier. I know I am right but I know I will miss u guys..after all I make some friends..not sure will we meet again..rare ba..just like previously but I did keep in touch with some of them.. :) whenever you are at a place, somehow you have grown a sense of belonging there. Well is time to move on with my life ..A new chap..not sure when will we meet again..all the best to everyone..thanks for all your help! I appreciate it!

Tired today..quite stone..but somehow lots of thoughts again..I know I will move on happily! jia you jia you!!

Here I am blogging away when I am suppose to brainstorm for my ethnics..need a break and to clear my thoughts without telling anyone..I don't feel like talking about it, rather blog..

The feeling is getting stronger..I feel happier when I think of you all..Very thankful for pple I met..Thx GOd..Everything is possible..I believe so right now. I will do my best..Thank you for everything,all friends and sisters & brothers in my life..You guys make my day great! :) though things might not be smooth always, slowly manage to pull through..I will live better each other from now on..a brand new one..strive for my studies..I know I am abit lost for stats..will do my best to study and revise..gotten my mid test result..I pass but the results aint very ideal..so I need to revise..

Sometime wonder how to thank someone though the person might hurt you some ways or another..how do you see the good points of that person? Perhaps I manage to appreciate the good things that happen and thank the person for the guidance. Well I am trying to forgive n forget.accept pple as who they are..It's really hard..
How do I forget?

Along the way, I still need some guidance..at times I know I dun admit..I need that someone and work opportunities..May God grant me the opening for both.. :) I believe..

Well happen to find out more about him..interesting..realise he might feel the same way as I do with regards to heart affair..sigh..and He seem quite talented..leave it to God..if he is the one..

Shall end here..

Relaxed..

I thought of blogging when I was back home but somehow lazy to do so..came back around 4am this morning.. :P usual routine and then we went to have fun at kbox after having service & our dinner at soup spoon..
sang all the way from about 11 till it close hhaa..shiok!

I am kind of tired now,slept for about 5 hours. I don't intend to sleep alot yet..maybe not til I complete my assignment and then I can sleep if I want. I just wanna do some work hhaa..right now..here I am blogging haha..Just feel like doing so and get away from all the unhappiness etc. I guess I can sing again..I love to sing..

Alright shall go n do my stuff.end here..lunch would be dumpling again hhaa.I love it..is only my third one this week. not so bad though..

Tsukareta..

Well..is another down day..when can I end this..I am not running or escaping. I just don't like the feeling anymore..I just wanna get off and then head on to another new chapter..pls spare me..

Well I always feel that you are very demanding..I hate it and I cant stand it..

May lord help me..I am so tired now. having mkting test tml..sigh..

Somehow is possible to finish work today.not sure how. I just do it lor. if not you are gonna push me..so tired..sometime really can't take it..see how it goes

End here..

Weather is so warm..didnt do much today. Well I don't have the mood to do anything..mid test on tue..sigh..Gotten my results..Glad I clear so I can focus on current sem..somehow I feel insulted..you know who you are..you know what you did..is hunting me day and night..I feel so..I hate the feeling

I wanna study harder but I don't seem to do so..I dun feel like doing anything..I'm so tired ..I am tired, feel like running away from everything..where can I run to, how can I run?

I dunno..end here..

Stress

Some updates.Well stress..I just feel this way.alot of small little things to cope with though is not a lot..I have to juggle and also to train..

Wx, FM start asking me and my ans is yes..that's right..I am leaving..I am glad I made this choice but is not easy to train pple.
I feel so stress..don't know how to vent so just blog. I don't want to say too much..only told friends abit.First time going through that and coz there is submission. I am trying to balance. I hope I can finish what I must do then teach her. I really hope I can do it!
At times really wish that someone can sayang me, I need it..but at times I don't wish to..I know our dear Father would be there always and also my own mum..

I dunno what I want..I guess I just wish to study harder which I have not..have to start studying on sunday..

well update on sat & sun..sat went to do my mkt project at esplanade library and then went out with yy & Jamin after service to get present and we had dinner n dessert together at bugis.

Sunday which is yesterday, went for a day trip to the farms with mum,bro,cousins, aunties, their yoga class friends etc. It was a sunny day..well thx God..mm..went to hay dairies farm, mushroom & wheatgrass farm,Qian Hu fish farm, Dragonfruit farm & Veg retail place. We woke up at 6 plus and set off at 7 plus. Reach farm around 9..had lunch around 1 and move on till 4..drop dead when I reach home..so tired lor..that I slept for a while and wake up..still manage to sleep at night..quite tired today..stress ba

Gtg and have dinner..end here..

moody..

Frankly speaking, I don't even feel like talking about it.you still ask me to think about it.since that is my decision, what's the point of digging them out again..no point.whatever I wanna say, I have already say..you are just wasting my time and is an excuse right? I know what you are thinking..I can feel it

Seriously I don't wanna think but I am thinking why does it have to be like that. sigh..is kind of dishearted you know..what I know, I have to study hard, I am stress as I feel that though I attended lesson, I don't seem to do well for statistic. I need to look through my work again tml or sat..I have to start studying..

The results will take some time..wow end of May..I can't wait and I am afraid of the result as well..how? for now..I wanna put my heart n soul in my studies but doesnt seem to be the case

How I wish I can get out this little country and have a break to get away from the city..I need a break!

Really dunno what i am thinking. Simply don't feel like saying much..the feelings sucks..

come to the end..

Well I have made up my mind and you know it..aint you too much with regards to it? well is ok.what goes around and will come around.so tired..didnt sleep much for this two nights. I guess I should sleep now..end here..

K session..

Just had my last paper and then met up with Huay Ling & Yamashita San..we went to k box at chinatown and sing..first time singing together..enjoyed ourselves..Yamashita san love to sing lol..I can see that he enjoyed himself..well whatever outcome that will be out next two weeks..I will face it..anyway gonna have to work hard..work pile up..nevertheless try to clear..may GOd bless..

I didnt work today so not so tired..I went to tampines 1 to shop with mum & brother. well I stil dun feel happy though..I dunno why..I guess I have to leave the place.well thank Lord for being there to walk with me..thank my friends for being there..you know who you are ya..really thanks alot.. :) hearing my grumbling etc. I won't give up..will walk on with life though..

have not finish shopping though..I guess I will go back one day to shop again.I wanna relax..meeting huay ling n Yamashita san for dinner on mon..oh yeah..tue will be a hell day..work pile up..wat to do..just do my best..

end here..

Labour day!

I slept soundly last night..had a great rest..good..holiday mood..I have not studied..need to study..is a good day to study today..well
nothing much..a bit bored and doing nothing..read newspaper and slack.well Can't remember did I update about star award..happy for Guo Liang to get the best host. He deserve it.his hosting skill is really good..surprised XXX get into top 10..haha..anyway dunno what else to blog..having last paper on mon..strategy..I am not sure about IT paper..I tried my best to do..well went back to office on wed to work though I am on leave.sigh..

I guess is alright..I am leaving the job soon. I had enough of him.
I wont bother if economy is bad..currently just want to focus on my studies.

Shall end here..

I feel that I am at the edge..think back on sat..I go back to assist you, end up I get scolded..what is this..I did nothing much.waste of time and I can't even study at all on sat..I dun wanna say anything..go back n work tml..and on leave again..affect me badly..

friends around me, tell me to find a job first..I know!!!!! is hard to find..I tried..not that I didnt try..I didnt get any news..what should I do then?

I am going crazy..I swallow, I endure till sat..I really break down..stop n start for 5 times..just like tap water running..

Don't wanna think about it..end here..

Sunday..

I dun wish to talk about it already..I dun wanna bother everyone with it, objective is to study hard now..

Well I can't eat titibits meh? not very expensive either. Why I cannot buy things to eat? so weird..you even wanna to care about that.I dun seem to have freedom..I guess you really 管太多。。

I dun need this to survive..you think you are so good? you ruined my own sat and you ruined many of my days. I had enough of you! I dun care if mkt is bad. I can't stand you..really..

I have nothing more to say to you. it will come back to the same old thing if it continues..no wonder pple all left..I will too, soon
You can look for pple, I dun care..

K ending here as I eat & bath..then meet MF to study..byebye..

Bad Sat..

Sat was ruined..planned but no mood to study coz of him..he ruined my whole sat..I break down..really break down..that's how much I have accumulate..tears drop for 4 to 5 times..that's how serious it it...don't feel like talking about it. need to work hard for exams..other things can wait..

eND HERE..

Well is past midnight, don't feel like sleeping again though..

Should I study? I need my rest though as I will be tired..is consider sat..

mm..talk about fri..well busy busy busy..even went to sembawang to collect the medical report from the doctor for client..pple look at me as if I am pregnant..aiYO..no la..lol..take a long time lor..to go n come back..is so far..I hope I don't have to do that again

Marcus was around our office area so he called me to meet me for lunch..as usual you know, James disturb la..aiYa my friend what..anyway we are not so close, just had lunch together twice.

What I can say, he might fit my criteria hehe..let nature takes its course la..I also don't know but currently it's just a mutual friendship..
need to work work work..sigh..

I have to study as well..mon paper

end here..

Sunday..

Sunday has come again, somehow I will feel that time is not not enough as I need to work tml..

Sigh..I sleep till very soundly today, slept quite alot and I feel good. right now gonna blog and then continue with typing my econs notes which I have not finished yet. can I finish them by today? I hope so. at the same time going through my mind while I type though..I hope it works and enable me to recap what I learnt.

I went to work as usual yesterday.I have been busy lately with work and also studies.Assignments coming in and mid test will come as time goes by..sigh..I am trying my best to cope.

Got delayed by boss and I left office at 2pm yesterday.My mio box was spoilt and 2 years past so I went with Mum to amk hub hello shop to do a renewal and got a new hp which I need..things seem so well planned and they will come on thur morning to fix the box for us.well with God's plan, I feel that everything seem so wonderful..we head to soup resturant 4 dinner..yummy yummy..relax..need it..

I can't explain fri's miracle incident..
Somehow there is something wrong with office printer's connection and no matter how hard I tried, it doesn't seem to work.
Somehow it becomes alright again.printer siao one..Thx God.. :) I am so happy..

I wish that things will turn out fine everyday and I can manage my time well. I am quite lazy to do some work though or even study as I have been working the whole day. Sometime really wish that I can relax etc and also go for a break. I guess I can only go for a holiday after my final exams.

Leave everything to God..wish that someone will appear in my life one day..

I shall end here..


Shall end here.

Tired day..

Dunno why, today seem so busy but I manage to finish what I should do..Thank GOd..Everything goes smoothly for me..somehow the printer seem to have problem again,what is wrong man..this time round is the cable ba..I guess so..aiyo why is that so?

I find it irritating and James gonna say is my fault again though..aiyo..I hope it works tml. Pray hard for it..

I am trying my best to manage my time and figuring the right way to study.Not too sure though but I guess library works for me..so gonna study in library so that there is no distraction.I hope I can do it and I know if I want, I should be able to do it though. So study hard would be the best so I wont waste time again. This is how I feel right now so I am telling myself for sem 2, I must work hard..study well for exams..I don't wanna any failure..

I hope that tml will be a good day!

End here..

Busy Monday!

What a busy day today..I was really packed with work..PFR etc..thank God I manage to finish them.I feel out of breath though..so tired..things doesn't seem that good either though nothing much..I had mood swing but nevertheless the day has passed and I felt tired..trying to just relax myself by practising on my keyboarding..that will make me feel relax & good..

Shall end here..reading newspaper soon and then sleep..

Saturday..

mm..As usual work today,rather irritated today..dunno..anyway I met up with hui & ling after work..-__-'' they are late..nvm.
We sat down at tcc suntec to enjoy our coffee and relax..tai tai? hhaa..well..nothing much..yesterday was gd fri. I went to gd fri service followed by going out for lunch at ichiban with huay ling, Angelia & Shuji Yamashita.yummy food..worth it for a set meal..I love jap food.. :) anyway head off to watch fast & furious 4..was suppose to watch confession of a shopoholic but the tickets running out so we watch the other one instead..hopefullY I can watch one day..Fast & furious 4 was not bad though I was a bit lost at first as I did not watch the first 3..we went for dinner together too..

Well expected that I will retake..I did..soon..in two weeks time.abit lost but I have to face it..gonna work hard

I shall end here..

Sunday again..

It's sunday again..

I am at home doing nothing much right now. I feel so tired though I feel that I have slept enough.

I relaxed myself yesterday.work,then went to have lunch with yamashita san & Huay Ling..yeah we ate Ramen at raffles city shopping centre & head to suntec MOF for dessert.I love japanese food.lol..I wanna have food at MOF again next time..I went MOF a few times & find their food not bad..

Head off to church and went to parkway with Angelia & we had dinner at mac & met up with her friend & we went to the vista bistro@ east coast park. I heard they close quite early though..we were there for about two hrs. they have live band who sing with their guitar..cool and relaxed. This is the first time there. I love it. I feel that unless you have your own vehicle, if not is not that accessible at night.maybe you can get a cab in but I still find it not so accessible..

I was tired after drinking..in fact I was tired after lunch. I had a good rest last night but neck a bit stiff lol..perhaps is my positioning..

Gonna end here and go & do some of my statistics assignment.
Well gonna have class on tue..holiday on Good fri..oh yeah..going church and then enjoy..

Gonnna have meeting tml..hope that everything is fine though..May God bless that the meeting will be smooth sailing tml..

It's sunday!

It's sunday again. I didn't go out. mm..rainy day.slept alot though and I feel good..stay at home to read, wrap my textbks and also to try out some biz statistics questions before lecturer going through with us.

Well the whole week was working,and trying to handle work while Jas & him not around. anyway they r back, I am slightly busier.I had dinner with Angelia, Huay Ling & Yamashita San after service yesterday before heading down for our dessert at Ah chew dessert. We brought Yamashita-san for dessert.He said he feel like having dessert and I have a craving for it too.. I can see that he enjoyed it as he finish the whole bowl and even lift up his bowl to finish it..hehe
Hopefully we can go for cycling one day. I need to relax..

so far.lessons has been good. I love Jeffrey's lesson. He is really a joker. Edmund & Louis are good too.but Louis seem more friendly and Edmund seem more fierce.Nevertheless, all my lecturers are good.
Lessons gonna be quite fierce as Edmund rearrange the lecture and we will have lesson tml as well.. 4 days for this week..wow..

I guess tml gonna be a busy day. I will do my very best in watever I can. If it really can't work out, I know I did try my best

Things aint that fine this week. may next week be a better week ahead and that I can cope with everything. :)
I am still thinking of what I want. I guess I shall just let it be for the time being as I am studying right now. I really don't wish to think about it at all at this point of time.

End here..need to go and do my work..

Biz ethics

is past mid night.I had my ethics lesson..lecturer is so funny..he is a joker..I enjoyed his lesson.
I think alot, as in I feel reluctant to resign yet. what should I do? still searching..

I know I longer for career and a him.. when pple say he will be jealous, is it true? I seem not able to be convinced..what to do..
how is like if pple tell me he likes me..I know it is exciting but somehow I don't know for now. I have not meet the right one.
what kind of career is gd? been thinking.just had statistic lesson yesterday. find it so sian lor, can fall asleep..

Boss come back already and he will be back in office..time flies..

I wanna end here..tired..

Start sch..

I have been trying to figure out the new messenger but of no vain, decide to install back the old version. Doesnt matter.. anyway I am suppose to sleep, end up surfing the net. I start sch already with biz statistics. It was quite boring as i remembered learning a little in my previous biz course. mm..anyway I will have ethnic class as well follow by mkting. I believe I have the foundation for this sem modules..I shouldn't fail then if not I will feel ashamed

I have been busy picking calls for Jas..terrible..so many calls! boss doesn't even have much call u see..sigh..in fact I have been answering till I can't finish data entry :( I will let boss know..anyway something wrong with the printer and also I accidentally fall today...trip while i was climbing the stairs.. I was thinking about something and there I kanna my knees.having bruies now. son..

somemore updates..I went for bbq on sunday..MIS class gathering at aloha loyang. nothing much just eat..I dun gamble either so not so fun..I left at 10 though while some of them still hang around..

I meet up with ling & hui for lunch on sat..We went to sakae sushi..wl came n join them after I leave..after that I went church and then have dinner with my cousin..nothing much..I tried my best to spend my time happily..I believe I am ..last week was great..went out for four days :)

i shall end here..so sleepy .. i need my sleep

thoughts

Don't know why, I seem not happy to see sad drama again..as in the guy went disappear and the girl is waiting n waiting..sigh..cherish what we have..I had a long day today.tired..busy for whole day, is fruitful. I did alot of work properly though and he has nothing much to say about me. I am doing my best.that is really my best! oh yeah!

I am still thinking what I really want..so sian..what should I do? suddenly we are talking about drinking lol..I suppose to meet with mf but she cancel it. well is fine with me though.

I hope I can make the right decision and find my ans soon.

End here..

Feeling sleepy..

It is already past midnight and here I am still blogging..actually don't wish to think about anything. just update a bit before I sleep.

I met Wei Ling for dinner. We really chat a lot. we didnt chat so much for so long..about 4 hrs..wow..the feeling is gd..talk our hearts out and at times I realise she didn't share with me certain stuff as I am busy. She doesn't want to disturb me when I am having exams.

I wish that you are happy with whatever decision you make. I will support you! all the best!

May God bless that we can make the right decision in life and that both of us will be able to sort out our thoughts with regards to what we want in life. Thank Lord!

End here..

Last paper! crazy shopping..

I just finished my last paper today and I knew I didnt do very well though. Anyway is over. I spent quite alot this month. Remembered pampering myself last week with shoes and clothes. I just get myself a new sony mp3 as I wanna hear 933. at the same time I can hear songs. It has been quite a while since I use mp3 player as I can use hp to listen to songs. Anyway the mp3 was affordable and it is sony brand. I believe it will be better. I bought new bag and wallet as well. I didnt change my wallet for a few years so is time to change.

AM I happy to spend money? abit crazy ar..bought so many things..those are all that I want so pamper myself..sigh back to work..have to do my best..

End here..

I hate you!

I don't know la..talk to u irritate me. spoil my mood ..I want you to get out of my life!!!! everything also wanna interfere. eeeee..ever since I start my life there, I don't feel happy at all..pple gonna say I am too emotional about it, isnt it?

I have not studied. better study after dinner..end here.

Why?

It's sat again and I am at home..yeah!wake up slightly earlier to have my breakfast and read newspaper..feeling is good..I love to eat breakfast but not too early :P It makes ur day feel good for a start.

I sit down thinking, time to do something about it. I am taking actions..once I get it, I will say bye bye to u. haha..It's enough..really..I don't think I want to carry on. Life working with u, suffering liao. I didn't bad mouth u infront of other secretaries colleagues..which is very good already.I wanna move on. Sometime I wonder is it because I am unfriendly or I don't mix around. Maybe I didnt share with you, what Elvin told me..He felt the same way as I did in office..I guess there is no point saying anyway.
People are just unfriendly, is not because of us ok? always assume..assumption might be wrong. Anyway I can't control what you are thinking so be it. I want to find the old one..lost the feeling,the cheerful and determined one..I know my determination is still there but rather not cheerful..

K go and do my stuff.end here

moody..

I just dunno why back to office,just feel stress..what's there to stress about? I am not sure. feel abit trapped today..really moody..nothing much..exams coming, just have to work hard..

I am not sure what I want..just don't feel good..very irritated for whole week..
Gonna take a break and watch tv..end here

It's already very late suppose to sleep as I will be working..is alright..I get used to it already..finished biz econs paper today and I went to relax abit at starbuck paragon..I love the relaxing feeling.. quietly sit down and enjoy my drink. gonna get back to work and then prepare for next paper..IT..I guess my biz econs paper so so..might fail also..I am not sure..anyway just let it be..and wait for the results.move on with life..

I guess I am not a gd and intelligent student..I don't like to study for exams..I dun mind having lectures and assignment..
Endure two more papers and I will be starting new sem soon..I guess just have to study no matter what..I wont wanna fail my IT right as I know I didnt do well for my mid test..so need to work very hard..end here..

Steamboat..

I just had my shower and back from our steamboat with the rest and also harry's bar..
We went to celebrate Yu Yan's birthday ..belated one and KH too..We enjoyed eating at the usual bugis steamboat. I felt so full that I wanna puke..then head off to harry's bar..Everyone drink except me n Yao Feng..actually i drink abit la..just a small sip while playing game..Jamin was abit drunk and I guess Boom Tom also. I feel quite shag..and then smelly from the bbq lol..I just make sure Mao mao is ok..he seems alright but talk a lot..haha I know we owe each other 4 things ya..as stated..see if you remember..u always love to ask what rewards you will get if u do certain things..even when you are drunk..are u sure u will remember? wait and see..
Gonna cheong for my studies as econs paper on mon..oh no!

Shall end here..everyone enjoy themselves..really relaxed..been two months we have not sit down to have dinner together..I wish we have more time in future..

If you fail, will you try again?

A wet weather again today. Luckily it wasn't that terrible yesterday while I was walking to church if not I will be really drenched. Anyway I didn't go out today, suppose to study and I have not done so again..sigh need some self discipline though. I printed out the notes by our classmates. It was sweet of them to do it and share with us.Thanks JOhnson & Shirley! I realise this class is really different with other schools that I attended. Classmates are more friendly and helpful. I guess is because currently all of us are working adults so the way we behave will be different. Thank God for having gd classmates and lecturers. May God continue to grant me gd lecturers till I complete my course.

I have received the letter from sch. Got my entry proof for exams. Oh yeah! I made it! heng! anyway I get to know the timetable for next sem. Gonna pay my sch fee when I go to sch for my exams. I wil start lesson on 24 march..at least have one week break from lesson.
Enjoy our bbq first before lesson starts again.

I came across a motivation video which is sent by Shirley and it was really good. Nick who was without limb can have the will and strength to move on with life and do what he likes like swimming, golf etc. if He failed he will try again and again..
I have already share it with some friends. if he can do it! why we can't?

So never give up on your life!

End here..need to study!

Not sure how..

I have been feeling troubled as in I can't decide what to do. I have certain consideration in my mind you see. so what should I do?

Somehow you only think about yourself and get your things done..can you spare a thought for others for once? I don't need alot , but can you just do so? everyone needs space and not just to do your things..why would I meet such a person? I question myself.should I say I am lucky or unlucky? I really feel so unhappy this period of time. I have never behave like that before. So I am not sure what to do..should I stay or not? It's really tough you know but I am hanging on..I really don't know how long can I take it..

May God give me some direction abt that..seriously I need it

End here..feeling sleepy..I wanna go rest liao..need to work tml..

Bad day!

I didnt have a gd day but anyway what past is past..I have to move on and I Know u love me..ya that's you Lord & my dearest Mum..fellow friends as well..so I wont give up..I believe there are better route or path out there..I need direction..hope I can endure more and be able to grow and not so depressed..time to move on and no turning back this time once I decide..I believe moving on makes me happier..I am happier last time..at least happier than now..

I did try and you might think this is not the best..so can u tell me what is the best? nothing is perfect! not even human as well..so dun expect everyone to be like u..we are not you..everyone is an unique one..God created 1 n only 1..that makes us special..don't you agreed?

:) I have things that I have yet to achieve and I won't let my mum's effort in bringing me up gone to waste. She loves me and I love her too.. I love you Mummy!
She is really my best friend, not just a parent only..She won't forsake me and no matter what I did that pissed her off, she still dote me always..really luckily to have her as Mum..Thank GOd for that..

Shall end here..need my rest soon as I have to work and then last lesson for the sem..oh yeah!

Gonna jia you!

Well feeling sian & stress..exams coming..I believe and I know very well..I am more stress with regards to work rather than studies..I still can manage my studies..last 2 lessons..oh yeah and I had started with my revision which is a gd start..kind of lazy at times..exams in two weeks time..oh..

I gonna jia you and wait for next sem schedule..roughly know it will start at the end of march..happy for those who are in their last sem..is alright..our days will come..hehe and we will less classmates as time goes by. our batch doesnt have new classmates. The new intake is slightly different though..with 12 modules..

I will try to study hard! end here..May God bless and walk with me..

stressful week

I am relaxing now but somehow feel the stress..studying is not as stress as working for you..my reaction quite weird this whole week..sigh..gonna collect my report soon and hope that everything will be fine..working in the afternoon as I will be going clinic later in the morning..mm..what about the musicial is it confirm to be today or is it next sat? midnight already so is suppose to be sat..KH haven tell me properly..is fine with me whether to go or not..cousin seem to plan programs every week already..We wont hang out as often ba.. :( we used to hang out together..cut downn already..why is that so?? everyone has their programs ba..she seldom date me also..at time I also didnt go to church..yup that's why..

end here..

Total Defence Day!

Today stay at home..trying to do my revision for tml's lesson.. and also exams..slacking at home..read my books etc..well sunday is always like that..a quick update and I wanna study

Yesterday's valentine day..I went out with mum n bro..we went to vivo city and had dinner at terra cafe..wow the food not bad..we enjoyed the food there..I ate roast chicken with lingeurine..sorry dunno how to spell and mum ate fish and prawn lingeurine and bro ate grilled pork chop..quite healthy in the sense that it is grilled and they give veg n carrot..wow his had mashed potato but mine dun have..mine was not bad..can feel that some spices and olive oil was added to the lingeurine..it was nice..oh yeah..I felt that is worth paying for the meal if I enjoy the food..

That's how I spend my v day..well..exams coming..time to study and work hard..will get stress when back to work..what to do..take one step at a time..end here..

Somehow lost..

I am back to work and exams is coming..as usual I really feel the stress..Tried my best to complete whatever I have and I know that at times there are so many things that I wish or need to do but so little time to do..You know that kind of feeling? James tells me to do one at a time..

My mood is really moody and I ask myself..what have I been doing all this while..God knows all..economy is bad etc..my life doesn't seem to be that great though I tried my best..Lord knows what I am talking about..somehow things doesnt go the right way..I am aware..why? I guess right now my reaction might be quite big as things wasn't so bad after all..I believe that everything will be fine next week..problems can be solved..just focus on work & studies..do them well and don't bother about other stuff..

Shall end here..gonna study soon..

My thoughts..

Nothing is forever..after ten days of break..I will be back to office tml..back to reality.just have to work harder..focus and also study hard..My class starts tml as well..
everything is a new beginning.. Jia You Jia You!

God Bless! Hope everything turns out well..

6th day of CNY

Well is already midnight..come back from James' place after bai nian..Robin, Wilson,Nancy, James & his Kids came over to my place a while..after that we head to James' place for steamboat dinner and we played game of life..board game..we have fun..

actually every year CNY is slightly different as my friends didnt come my house this year except wei ling..whereby we go to boss's house..this is the first time I went to his place..not bad..neat..
But his daughters hyper active till Pei fang & I was scared..the way they behave..scary! I can't imagine what will I do if my kids are like that..whack them ba..haha..well..sunday which is today..I will be at home eating steamboat again..oh no! fat fat..

Back to reality already after ten days of break..I know..I will face it..work hard and study hard..back to work liao tml..wow so fast..I did have a gd break..no regrets..
we have a love bird together..really or not? haa not very convinced..I thought is a joke..

nvm..wait and see..shall end here..

5th day..

Time flies and it is 5th day of CNY..still on leave..I went to Mum's boss house on 2nd day and went to WL & Queenie's house on the 3rd day.We even went to river hongbao..Boss & colleagues coming over to my place tml and we will be going over to boss's house too..somehow I dun feel like going though. sigh

I believe you must be unhappy coz I didnt turn up today..well is alright, you can tell me logic stuff all you want or even tell me off. Is up to you.. I will tolerate..
Think a lot as in why do I come in the first place.. I believe it is a test for me.leave everything to GOD..what goes around comes around!!! don't be too much, you will get it some days! you wait and see..I am not threatening..GOd knows all..

I really don't know how and what should I do then you can be satisfied..the best way is always to open the door and leave..to you, is escaping..to me is not.. I am just a tool which can be used and once I am of no value, you will throw me aside or away..I am just a tool whereby you can get by paying..that's how impt I am ar! bull shit!

I know I am not suppose to talk n think this way as it is still CNY..should be happy isn't it..But I just feel this way, not trying to be too personal abt it but it is the fact and the truth..who do you think I am?? the old me? the one who run when you ask me to run..I am not a dog! I know I learnt a lot but you know, you bring me alot of anger, tears which I never experience b4..that's how terrible it is..I really hate men especially after working with you..I hate men more..you men think you are so great ar?? don't try to be funny and think that I can be bullied or bluff..you try la..I am not the old me! that I will keep quiet and say nothing about it.. I don't wanna be too much and do nasty things..coz I feel that I will let Father Lord down if I do it..GOD knows all..I tolerate.. let GOD handle everything..hopefully I can be more forgiving..
Men always make me upset..so what is so great about men..
I don't know..It's getting even harder for me to accept le..

end here..gonna get dinner..I don't wanna think so much..gonna study later..

2nd day CNY

Thought that I would wish to go Pastor's house..end up I didnt wanna to go.I went to Auntie Sandra's house instead. Quite bored.. nothing much to do except eating..lol
I gonna cook something later to eat..hehe..
meeting wl tml..if let say not meeting, is also fine with me..I will do what I wanna do lor..

Happy Chinese New Year!

The year has come and it is CNY again..
Getting bored this year though

Well just some updates..

I end work on fri so I did my own assignment at home and went to sch..off to church on sat and hang out with huay ling & Angelia which I believe I have updated earlier on..

As for yesterday is CNY eve..family went to Angelia's place for reunion dinner..steamboat!! nothing much..catch the countdown on tv at home..do what I like..watch my drama..that's it..

As for today, first day of CNY, went to Angelia's place and then mother side grandma's place..just like that..
Getting more bored each year..2nd & fourth Auntie went on holiday..sigh..二姑 & family didnt come..

I will be visiting pastors with the rest tml , meeting wl to go hongbao river on wed, thur will be my personal day..I wanna do my group ppt etc..will be going back to office on fri for offical working hrs..sigh..boss and colleagues will be coming over to my place on sat and we will head to boss's house as well..sunday..no plans yet..schedules not bad already..

I shall end here..time to watch my hk drama..oh yeah! having a break is good..I get to do things that I like..seem a long time I didnt get to spend time on my personal stuff..

Chinese New year eve

I didn't blog for a while and here I am back again..
nothing much now..I stop work on fri , was on leave..do assignment n attend lesson..as for sat..I didn't work, went to church , dinner and catching movie with Huay ling & Angelia at the grand cathay..we watched at 9.25pm..The wedding game by christoher & Fann.The movie was not bad, it was funny.. so I would say is worth to watch.. gonna catch Jack Neo's movie another time perhaps?? the love matter..
shall see
Time flies and is midnight..having reunion dinner soon wor..I am getting tired..end here..

God is with us..

Somehow I just don't feel good..
Well I did spring cleaning which I feel is meaningful today but have not start on my assignment..just need to blog how i feel before I can start doing..Anyway We went to have steamboat to celebrate Huay Ling's birthday and also Saju's..We have fun eating..so full lor..

I am glad that God is there with me..at times really stress like fri..I began to write down how I feel..is quite long..somehow I rather I write it here..express all that I can..

Life is great with God..I see the wonderful things that God did to my life..somehow I still wonder why I end up with my current company though I went to similar companies for interview..there must be a reason for working here..I did learn alot to deal with life etc..it is really a challenge and I hope I can hang on..just do my best! I know I can do it but sometime just too stress that I can't take it..nevertheless I wont give up! The road is tough ahead..God will walk with me..I will endure til the day I graduate..I shall see..what goes around comes around.. I won't curse and swear you..God knows what is happenning..

Perhaps it is a gd training ground for me..to strengthen me? I see the change in me be it gd or bad..just wonder what's the path that I am heading to..how long will I be staying there? Heavenly Father, can u tell me? simply have alot of questions..nearly give up..
Unexpected incident do happen etc..I was amazed..I hope I can continue to be positive in life..though I am really occupied and time seem not enough..I am managing.just do my best..
I don't want to waste the time I spend for the past few mths..how can I give up? sometime I feel that I wanna do so..

shall end here..go n do my assignment

Thank God..

I have been wanting to come online to blog but either busy , too tired or no inspiration

I just like to say God create unexpected things in my life..thank God for walking with me..I can feel the love he gives me.sometime certain feeling is hard to express..I will share more one day and write down what have I been facing all this while when I walk with GOd..God showered me with surprises in life..
I have faith in God..as in whatever I do, I will just do my best and let God handle the rest..I know I am in gd hands.. :)

Thank God for everything! I am not so busy right now..waiting for CNY to rest..

I shall end here..time to sleep..tired day..

It's my birthday!

Time flies and is my 23rd birthday liao..Time flies..old already

Some updates..

I had a mini celebration with my fellow gd friends..Ling & Hui for dinner on new year eve..

Follow by, Nancy was asked to organise a birthday celebration on Friday 2 Jan..and we went to soup restaurant to have dinner follow by dessert at NYDC Cafe suntec..Food was great..I can't really finish my brownie..I was too full, yummy brownie..
We had games hhaa which was planned by Nancy..It was fun..exchanging gifts and we laughed alot..
I got an extra gift for being the winner for guessing the 24 items in the staple box hhaa..

Fellow friends, Jamin, Both YY , Ming, WL, KK came n celebrate birthday with me..We went to have dinner at industrial park and head off to my house for celebration..I wasnt aware of what they are up to, they are so sweet.. Plan etc.. They bought me a cake and presents..We had fun singing karaoke..and playing games..laughed alot too..I am glad to know them..never had a gd and nice celebration so far..first time..the other time was at KBOX with my gd friends..

Thank you guys for the effort,I really appreciate it and thank God..I had them around. :) cherish them

As for today,the actual day. I willbe having dinner with my own family and I just rebonded my hair..oh yeah..

shall end here!

Year 2009

It's new year..2009..Time flies..

I have made the decision..I will move on..
What done is done..there is no point repeating about the past..will it help? can we turn back the clock? no what..so why are you always grumbling and nagging at me? is irritating

Some updates..I went for countdown yesterday at clark quay with cousin ,her friend,bf & his friend..
I don't like clubbing..It's 2 noisy for me..I prefer pubbing or going lounge..oh yeah..
before that I went to meet Amelia and Hui for dinner at millenia walk and then we drank coffee at TCC.enjoy ourselves..too bad WL is sick so she couldnt join us..I miss her!
Well is so difficult to get a cab after clubbing..I guess I wont wanna go clubbing next year..rather do something else..
I reach home around 4.30am so didnt wanna go out today..tired..

Stay at home to relax today..I am stil rather stress..thinking of what to do..I need to relax..

Shall end here! Happy new Year!

End of Year 2008

Time flies and it has come to an end of year 2008..I knew I have some issue which I need to solve..will settle it and hopefully lead a happier 2009.

I know what you will wanna say..I am prepared..seriously..is sad but can't be helped..coming to an end..

anyway meeting up with WL, hui & Amelia for dinner..shall end here and update again ..

Xmas Day..

Is Xmas Day..I wish you a Merry Xmas..

I went off to church to celebrate xmas with my bag of gifts..not alot of gifts though..kind of nothing much today..everyone gave chocolate and I received two presents, one from my dear cousin Angelia & another one from Huay Ling.. thanks alot ..I love the cd..
Cousin bought me chocolate from Japan..Great!

I felt happy today, feeling the joy of Xmas..Christmas carol etc..

After the happy Xmas celebration, Huay Ling,Kelvin, my dear cousin Angelia, Me & Yamashita Saju went to Aerin's to have lunch..I tried the Cajun grilled chicken..It was nice..HL & cousin tried too but cousin changed the potato wedge to fries..the sauce was great..I love it and I would recommend friends to go there to have meal though it is abit more expensive but is worth the money..

We went gelatino..did I spell correctly? We shared ice cream.oh yeah..I enjoyed my day..so relaxed and happy..didnt feel this way for so long..I believe is the joy of xmas..God Bless!

I felt tired after the whole day..I shall sleep..end here

Xmas Eve

Well what am I doing on Xmas Eve?

I am at home..mc..sigh..been sick for past few days and I am resting..seem not possible to do anything but I wanna do something..to do what I like and to do things that I feel that I don't have time to do.. I seem still abit sick but I just don't wish to sleep now.. perhaps can do my assignment or even plan a template for PFR..or even read.. I just want to do things that I find it meaningful after I blog..
Somehow I just don't wanna crack my brain and think so much..hhaa weird right?

I found someone who is similar as me..with negative thoughts..maybe I can get to reflect and know how people feel towards me..

I have dreams etc so I will move on with life but she can't..I am afraid as she has the thought to commit sucide, I am not sure for what reason..sigh..how to help her??

I shall end hee..go n do my stuff..

Sick..

I believe that even superwoman or superman will fall sick as we are human beings..

Did we work too hard etc? I guess is because of lack of rest, water etc that I fall sick yesterday..I was running a fever..glad that I am well today and hope it stays this way..I had my meal not like yesterday, can't even eat much..well I will take care of myself as Xmas is here..I wanna enjoy the xmas to celebrate the love, joy and peace! GOd Bless!

mm..you are right that we understand life better when we are sick..
I learnt alot this 8 months..I tell myself, right now what I can do is, to do my best in completing whatever tasks needed as your secretary..If let say,it doesn't turn out well, I really have nothing to say as I did my best..I will just let go..

I learnt about how to go about being a responsible secretary, I believe the responsibility of mine wasn't that much when I work elsewhere..
I start to be like you?? I sense the similarity at times but I know how to balance them better don't I? where as you work like crazy..

Must learn to relax at times..work hard and play hard..I understand how it feels to be sick and you are worried about work.I felt the same though..I will try to relax myself this week..finish up whatever I need and knock off..I need plenty of rest and I can't overwork anymore.. I will never give up though I am tired at times..

I don't understand you, sometime you can be so nasty to me and sometime you can encourage me alot..why is that so? I shall sit down and talk to you when we have time..I just wanna know what you are thinking..weird..when you tried to tell me something about me which you find it hurting..You cough badly and you said God don't allow you to say and you keep quiet.. Father Lord, is that really you? I was wondering..

Everyone has their own belief..I believe in you heavenly Father that you will protect me..You always shower me with love,care & protection no matter what Thanks..Love you lord! I feel so blessed!

Shall end here and go to bed! Need my rest!

Seminar

I just finished our company seminar and I am in sch right now..blogging..just feel like typing down since my class has not started..

Nothing much today at fullerton hotel..Our year end seminar..maybe we can do better? just helping out..

Stress last night..alot of things to do..with regards to studies..mid test etc coming..ahhh..
I am trying to cope and I couldnt sleep last night but luckilY I still manage to fall asleep..I still wondering how can we last??

I am going to get presents & goodies for xmas.. then study for mid test tml

Shall end here..

busy dec

I have been busy this week..sigh calendar etc..has to be out..I am being responsible to try to complete tasks..but work is never able to finish..

I try my best..have been working this week and then I went to work today as I was on mc the day before and then off for class. Learnt alot in class about Strategy-SWOT analysis and then I went to get my printer n external hard drive, had dinner with mum & Bro..

Just like that..wow fruitful month? I have been tired..busy busy busy..going for ming de's birthday party..hope that we can have fun and enjoy ourselves..

End here..

Thoughts

Simply have alot of thoughts after watching the 8pm variety show on channel 8..see the way how the volunteers help out and towards the end of the last epsiode, the man who was handicapped still manage to help to do the housechore and still live on with life.. he had the right value for life and I believe everyone should learn from him.

Even after meeting the accident, He can still live on with his life and never give up..what about us? We have an able body yet some of us choose to die when we think that we are at the dead edge of the world..what about him?

At times I feel that everyone has only 24 hrs yet we have more things that we wanna do..maybe we can have enough time but we wasted i? sometime we need to relax too you see..I will try to manage my time well..balance them..I am really not sure how far I can go in term of my limit..

I just want to be strong and not relie on shoulder but I know at times I wish there is someone beside me at this point of time to be able to comfort me.. Need some counselling as well I guess..
I always tell myself to think positively and not worry so much.. just do what I have to do and move on..I can do it! I know at times you are just telling yourself but it might help though

I shall end here..need to do other stuff..
Working tml after taking a break..I didnt manage to go SLSQ as it was raining..nevertheless I will go source for printer to compare the price and get one asap..I need it.

Stress Dec..

I feel the stress, busy with work and I have not really start on my individual assignment .. thought that I will use that topic but end up I choose not to as it is hard..so I have decide on already and so I can start to do the project and have to hand in, in two weeks time..that is why I am stress..though it is not a last min thing, I feel that perhaps I should start earlier? well what done is done just move on and get my things done..

I don't have time to talk nonsense though and to think about unnecessary stuff. I just have to perform well for work..the CAR which you mention. so ya..sometime wonder why I make myself suffer,is it worth it to make myself so tired & busy? at times we don't have a choice as we are employee..sigh

I will do my best and I know I am stretching myself and am I overstretch? I believe at times it is..everyone has their own limit..have I reach mine? I am not sure..It is only the beginning, I have to hang on.. I know what I want and since I have chosen the path, I just have to move on and work hard on it to fufil what I want.

I am not superwoman but rather training myself to achieve what I want when I still have the time..as long as I know what I did, is worth it, I will do it! There is always up n downs in life, everyone has to go through that.. positive thinking is impt..

I know I have been down this week and lots of things to be done..I really wanna cry at times but right now, my main focus is my work n studies..while not working, I have to spend time on my studies..at the same time, I try to relax myself a little by meeting friends..I need some fresh air..no matter what, I always try to set a day per week to relax a little..Hopefully I can still do that every week for next year..

Shall end here..I need to get my dinner.so hungry! I can't work with hungry stomach..

Why?

I feel like blogging for past few days but simply lazy or dont wish to blog..

I feel that why are you like that? I just don't wish to face you, began to hate you at times..really..is that serious. I don't know what is my limit..I guess I already reach it but controlling..

Who wants to play with you, I don't have time either..
Shaun mentioned abt the two Cs which I don't have..

I have lots to mention but I don;t wish to say much

Anyway I went to orchard with MF to see the lighting..I love them..shall update photos when I have time..I took some pics..felt relaxed walking around..


Shall end here..

Planning...

Well I just have lots of thoughts and my head feels pain..I have been thinking alot..since 2009 is coming, I start to think about what I would wish to achieve for next year..

I already write it down in my personal notebook..shall add on more when more stuff comes to my mind..

Project's deadline is next month, not sure what topic to do yet..I am going to do research tomorrow..work seem quite alot,things are piling up..I need to buck up and clear them..

I feel the stress once again and I feel the slacking in me after we shifted office..
Somehow I just don't have the motivation to work and I am so tired everyday..Why is that so? I know myself the best..so ya..
How to go about performing well is what I am thinking right now..
I have some plans in mind though..

Sometime I wonder why does people want to gossip so much? am I too sensitive? I sense that people do gossip whereever they are be it in sch or workplace..I guess it doesn't matter as it is none of our biz u see..it's their mouth not mine..Just don't wish to hear any nasty comments from others will do..anyway NO one is perfect though..

I shall end here..going to read newspaper and rest..going office tomorrow to clear my work..stress..

3rd day..

Time flies and I shifted office for 3 days already..shifted to raffle place..I didn't work in town area before and my wish is to work there..my wish has come true but somehow feel that the area is so crowded..scary..can you imagine the crowd when you go for lunch? scary..

I love the view as it is better than trapping inside an enclosed area..nice view whereby you can relax..

Thank God for blessing..I just hope that everything will be fine for me..gonna go for lesson tml..didnt go for two lessons ..opps..I feel guilty liao..due to unpacking of office..I really dun feel shag..I have to change my mindset about this..need to study hard..gonna read through notes later..sleep earlier is impt..I have been busy for past two days..

Tired..shall end here..

Angry day!

Simply not happy today..just wonder why are you like that?

You take me for granted? I help you with things and you think this is what I must do..you take me for granted right?? Aint you making things difficult for me? always ask me to think positively..

Do you think that I can't leave? sigh..I just don't know..unhappy with you! hate u at times! is not that I don;t leave, I am waiting for opportunity..

I have alot to say but somehow I feel abit blank now..I just don't want to write further I guess..simply unhappy with you..

Who am I to u? so tiny?? I will do what is instructed..coz I can't say no right?

I will remember wat u say to me..that sentence..u wait n see..

End here

Happy Birthday Daddy!

Today is my dearest Daddy's birthday! Yesterday was James' Birthday..

Well some updates..

We celebrated James' birthday on wed as requested by him. I wanna plan to celebrate yesterday but he prefers to have it on wed so we went for dinner at HK Family Restaurant! fulfilled his dream for many years..then set off to changi..one of the lounge to have a drink and they have karaoke facilities but is manual type whereby u pass them the songs that you want.

I only sang a few songs but is alright..Drink a glass of cocktail and I was so tired the next day as I reached home at 12.30am..Nancy sent us home while James headed home straight as he was shag after the manager's meeting.

We enjoyed ourselves did we? laugh so loudly together as John N Nancy was so funny.. They always make James laugh..James appreciate the celebration

As for yesterday, I went out alone when I didn't have to work..I went to get Amelia's present and also to run my own errand,do some shopping. Weekend is the best time to do so..I don't have much time on weekdays already..Well have to sacrifice time when you wanna achieve something..so ya..feel a bit sian & empty on sat..

Somehow there is not much life now as work & studies occupied most of my time..nevertheless I just have to endure through this period of time and once is done, I will be able to take a break and have some fresh air and then decide when I should take up my degree..The course is expensive.I have to think about it. really..
Meanwhile I have to study hard first. Positive thinking! somehow I can't catch HRM lesson as Lecturer Daniel taught so fast..aiyo..what to do, I just have to read up..yeah!

As for today , staying at home to study and head out for dinner later with my family to celebrate Daddy's birthday!

Shall end here! studying time..

Sch starts..

Well I start sch for two days and I was coping fine..I start to get busy as I have to knock off on time..nevertheless..though is tiring to rush to sch, I enjoyed the lessons so far..trying to pay attention etc..I guess it wont be that bad right if you pay attention in class? It's quite interesting though is hectic to study after work..after work, I felt relaxed..

I start off with Biz Economics and HR Management..Frankly speaking though I have not covered Biz Econs b4..I understand while Lecturer was teaching..as for HR Management..though I have some basic foundation. I don't get what lecturer is teaching.haha..my phone was spoilt on fri. It kind of affected me and I can't focus well..anyway I sent my hp for servicing..The LCD was spoilt. sigh..Luckily it was still under warranty. HP would be hospitalised for 3 to 5 days lol..Hope that everything would be fine.. :) miss my phone..

Gonna have another new module on mon..Biz policy & strategy..hopefully I can cope..after that ..I will study 4 modules from next week onwards..which means heading to sch almost everyday except wed..Right now, my time would be work and studies..

Nothing much..not so much time for leisure..anyway is alright..I have to miss my tv programs etc but I believe it's worth it..

If possible I will consider degree after my course? I shall see..trying my best to cope with work and studies..have to motivate myself..perhaps I can stick some motivation notes on my office desk? lol..

Well I am afraid that I can't cope but since I have decided to study, I will try to bear with it and do my best..I realise in order to complete tasks fast, I made quite a lot of mistakes this week. How should I go about to improve? mm..I am wondering.

Let nature takes its course..pray to GOD..of course I have to help myself too..

well as for today, I went shopping after going office to do some tidying of cupboards etc..oh yeah..I felt more relaxed..I need that but somehow irritated this morning by two persons..never mind..is ok..Shall make sat a day to enjoy and relax while I leave sun for my personal time..

Shall end here..

Updates..

I am back to blogging again..what should I write this time..well some updates for this week..

I didn't really go anywhere but rather meet up with friends for dinner..

I went for sch orientation on fri and what I can say was that..it was boring and guess what, only one guy & I who turned up.. He is Eric..

I am quite excited what's gonna be installed for us and that I will do my best to study hard as well as work hard for my work..mean while I don't wish to think about anything except work and studies.. May God bless that I can cope..I must think positively..
I have yet to see the rest of my classmates, shall meet them on thur..

As for sat, I went to work n church as usual..then meet Huay Ling for dinner.well my cousin, Jeremy & Kelvin joined us as well..also to get James' present..Sunday which is yesterday, Jolene n Angelia came to my house and we headed off to Aaron's house for a dinner gathering..
So I have been eating n eating this whole week lol..so unhealthy wor..am I fat already?

As for today, I am at Grandma's house right now, waiting for dinner lor..Mum helping the domestic helper to cook as well..wow I guess we will have a great feast? home cooked food should be healthier lol..oh yeah..I am hungry

I just feel that the so called last week of free time, was spent not so meaningfully but I guess I enjoy the food etc..relaxing is a gd thing u see..

I shall end here..

Orientation

Well I am back from orientation just now..kind of lost around that area..lol..

I regretted going as there was nothing much. should have meet wl instead..sigh nvm meet her another time..only two person turn up for the orientation lol. I was like, huh..
I shouldn't go but just went to take a look u see..feeling tired now..so fast tired ar..
sigh..after a long day of work..

I dun feel like updating anymore..shall end here..sch starting soon..

Success Attracts Success

Back to blogging again and in fact I felt tired already..Trying to have a quick update of my blog and off to bed soon.

Somehow need some motivation and I went to read a book and get to learn some stuff from there.. I gonna share it now..weekly life coach-how to get the life you want in 48 hrs..

It says winning isn't about being a winner-winning is a state of mind..

Positive self belief-postive expectations-effective behaviour- increased confidence..
Let all your experiences work for you..when you see each moment as a learning experience, your life will have enhanced meaning..

Share the 10 ways to attract success..

1. Be true to yourself

2. Celebrate your uniqueness-this is what makes you special

3. Develop your inner strengths and talents

4. Think Big

5. Believe in yourself and radiate confidence

6. Take the first step towards one of your goals

7. Appreciate the miracle of life

8.Love and value your experiences

9. Be a go getter

10. Never, ever give up!


I didn't read a lot yet so I shall share till here..

Well a busy day today, so occupied..It's good that I focus..I dun wanna think so much and let nature takes its course

I guess I need to think positively..I am trying not to be down..I need to cope with studies soon. I really need to change my mindset..I don't wish to have any regrets and I have certain dreams on mind..I wanna to fufil them..Work & studies matter more now and the rest can wait..

So be positive! I will try my best! Gabatte Ne!

End here!

Updates..

Here I am back with some updates..oh yeah fri meet up with Timothy like I have mentioned in previous post. I went to work as usual yesterday and head off to church followed by steamboat with KH,kk,YY & Ming :) We enjoyed our food at bugis..Free flow of food, my fav ice cream..oh yeah..I felt so relaxed..

I know I enjoyed myself and I feel good..whatever it is installed tml, I just leave it to tomorrow..I hope that everything will be fine for the meeting tml. I dun even know how to use the projector yet..oh man

As for today,I went to orchid country club for bowling as yishun safra doesn't have any lanes available..oh yeah finally get my new keyboard and mouse..I realise my previous mouse can be used..anyway is ok..I can keep it for spare use..

I feel tired..shall end here..

Relax..

I just come back not long just now..yeah met up with my dear pri sch friend Timothy...so met up for dinner and have a chat.. I do talk to him on msn..We went to bugis..

Thanks dear Tim for listening etc and also advise me..U brighten and straighten my thoughts..
Right now I won't think of other stuff besides work n studies which are more impt..
As for fate..I leave it to GOd..what comes will come..

Nice meeting you Tim..is great to chat..hhaa you are as chatty as me.

Hope to catch up again next time..once a while..friends what..

End here..

Tired..

I didn't sleep well for past few days..simply feel so tired..I am going off to bed after I blog

Well I received my studies timetable..Been waiting for it and I received it through my email..well terrible as in studying 4 days per week..oh man..I hope I can cope..For certain timing, it wont be four days as we are having holiday etc. That I have to wait til dec..study for 1 day for the week..shiok! At least I can take a short break..during xmas etc

I guess for the 3rd semester, it will be a bit tough as we have 4 modules..after that should be fine..So I have to bear with the timetable til Feb..

加油！I have faith in God! I will do my best in work n studies and see how it goes..Work is tiring as I work late

I need to sleep..end here..

Relax..

As usual working today and I was really busy lately..work n work..Just wanna finish them..left with some work only..It's making me stress though..I still can endure..Endure till I cant, I will know what to do ya..

I am still waiting for my timetable..wonder when will it come?

I went bowling with KH to relax..I didn't enjoy that much but anyway release my stress already.. We had a chat etc..I felt better. Thanks KH..

I went back home early though and I find it rare to reach home early on sat haha..nothing much to do lor..getting sleepy after meal..sigh..it's only 10 plus..

shall end here..tired