Studying!

mm...wow feel sleepy right now..studied..then blog a while b4 i sleep..actually want to sleep but cant..have to study abit more..sometime feel sian..think alot..alot of stuff lor..pple wont understand de..i just dun want to say..u must be wondering wat i saying ar..for me to know for u to find out..haha..

anyway today abit more hardworking i guess..hhaaa..did studied..wat to do..I want to do well wat..at least get 35 marks..should be ok..tt mock test i ok lah..got 31 hhaa..should be ok ..hopefully..I guess if u studied should be ok de..btw dear wasnt online again..i guess sleep le ba..or study then sleep le..I also lah going off soon.want to flip abit more of the notes and sleep le..tml must gabatte..hhee do my best..should be ok..

Just dun want think so much..I didnt even tell vin lah..dun want lah him to worry..end here..got to study..bye

tired!

Today quite many pple didnt come to sch..wow feeling sleepy now..well kbox plan no more le..anyway i dun feel like going then cancel le..nvm lah can go with vin..or go out with other pple lor..want to make my holiday fruitful..guess tonight dun go online le so blog here..

tml have Ca lor..today get back PR Mock test..didnt do well of course but pass lah..k gtg..can go home le..right now in sch..

today as usual wake up watch tv lor..then had lunch and went to bedok visit grandma..then went bedok central to shop a while and head down to pasir ris for the appreciation dinner..mm..buffet lor..we took fun pack.alot of things inside.hhee..at lst took red colour de..then i change it to blue ;) blue nicer..hhee..

buffet have fried rice, fried bee hoon, chicken wing n drumlet , curry veg , fish lor..and jelly and drink lor..like tt..ok lah not bad lah..not saying super gd..but was alright..eat til full..five plus i ate ice cream u see..so i feel full..
alright lah i end here..feel tired..anyway came back at about 10..mm..guess dear sleep le..coz never go online nor reply to my msg..
today i met him to go together to the CC lor..

today didnt go out..seem like alot of sats we didnt go out le..either he work or watever...not like last time..we went out..now busy lah..just rest at home lor..watch repeat of ndp and then watch vcd..time just flies like tt..did nothing much today..study abit of adm..haiz..tml wont be in..guess mon then study le..i wont study much also tml..
feel like eating cup noodle..abit hungry..haha..end here..tml going out..go bedok lst then go to pasir ris cc for the thanks appreication ceremony..

It has been like 3 days lor since I use com..tired also lah so i sleep earlier..then can blog I blog in sch..i dun care I must try today ,hopefully router ok..can plug back hopefully ok I want to use..poor dear..sprain his ankle yesterday..he came to sch walk one limp one limp.well.. can help him carry things then I help him..but he dun want me to help coz he says he not handicapped..I was like abit sad..as gf I just hope i can help him..hopefully he recover soon..he went to see doctor le..coz of soccer.if yesterday rain then gd..he wont be like tt..perhaps can acc me lor..right now do project I cant even acc him to doctor..actually maybe can de..but scare I did til too late so I told him I cant acc him..

I got back Adm mock test..ok lah pass..of course didnt do well..coz study a bit only..weekend must study hard le..then ar..sunday going pasir ris cc lor for the thank appreciation ceremony ..that NDP de lah..mm..today stay back lor do project hhaa..later call dear lor..worry about him..end here..

Sunburn!!

Today still sun burn coz of national day event @ tampines..tired lor..sleep should be enough but still tired..now i update abt national day ..
wow quite nice..we take care of VIPS seats..then get burnt..but can see the event clearly. nice fireworks..and of course my idol Vincent Ng with wushu..haha enjoy myself..but tired lor..
there is Fiona Xie lor..with indian dance lor..then there is motivator dancing the dance 40 lor..
then host is guo liang , Michelle chia and Aaron Aziz...weather so hot..the amostphere very gd..very high lor..but goodies bag not given yet..so sad cant get it lst..have to take on 14 aug..well we have lunch at 11 plus and dinner at 4 plus sia..so early..I cant eat..like quite full lor..then at nite feel abit bloated ..not feeling too gd..but end liao go home lah..very early briefing lor..abt 10 like tt..coz pple late..then have lunch and set off to tampines heartland..then still can rest a while b4 we start work lor..haha go shopping a while.. 2.30 report back lor..well after all ok lah..I did enjoy myself lor..
is a special day not just national day but also Vin & I s' special day on 9 aug..hhaa must be wondering wat right? guess ling n hui u know what i talking abt hor? meaningful lor..wat a day to spend on national day ..very memorable..although sun burn yet fun..
then my com cant use.coz of the router..haiz..so update in sch lor.hopefully today can settle com stuff..i want to use..two days never use lor..yesterday only log in to bro com n use a while..my hand itchy lor.ok lah end here..waiting for next lesson

National Day Eve!

Today is national day eve..I did not have enough sleep..slept at 2am lor coz of adm project lah..I rush to do..then slept 4 hrs only..then went to sch..tired sia..have concert..as usual lah hip hop dance lah..indian , malay dance..hhaa etc..well today rain so we went to watch the concert at the multipurpose hall..after tt watch til almost finish I went off le..went to see the stalls in the canteen which sell food..bought crab paw to eat..heee coz hungry
then went to mac..with bro ,Kailing, Yan Hong and Mei fen..I ate fries..then after tt meet Vin..coz he juz went to sch to hand in project..didnt went to sch during assembly..spend abit time together then ar..went home..I feel tired sia..bought lunch for my brother..then went home do housework bath le n take a short nap..I feel fresher lor..
Yeah Mum back tml..I happy..she bought alot of things for me..tt wat she told me..hehee so gd of her..anyway time flies..this few days I did housework..like so fast day past by..I felt so busy..today abit fed up also. juz feel..this few days..busy..no one help.dinner I also need to buy..brother n dad cant even help me with anything..man are useless?? sian..is like i thought parents take care of us become the other way round perhaps..making me fed up..dunno lah..dun want to think..think liao sure fed up.coz plus i need to do project lor..so even more busier..

ok lah end here..tml have to go for tampines event for the whole day..

Today woke up did housework lor..haha..then mm..like tt lah..buy lunch..read newspaper..mm..today busy.yesterday also..like no free time. but .today still ok lah have free time..miss dear lor..then miss my mum too..mm. sudden house quiet one..dun get used..haa 2nd day she not around..yesterday she just set off to malaysia with ah yi lor..well she seem enjoying wor..shopping n shopping so shiok.then i do housework dun enjoy..haaa i msg her asking did she miss us..haa she said miss us so much..hhaa my hair standing sia..lst time say tt de ar..

yesterday call us 3 times..today didnt get a call yet..perhaps tonight? maybe ba..time flies de lah and she will be back..wow then i can relax liao..do housework is ok..but busy lor..i still have things to do..i try to finish washing clothes earlier then can rest..haven even touch my vcd..no time lah..i guess tonight then do project..right now can do ..maybe i find visa and the hotel details lst lor..

update abt yesterday..mock ca for adm lah..dunno how to do lor..didnt do well i guess..coz never studied much..then have briefing lor..then get the t-shirt for tue's event..well after having lunch i go home le..well..do housework lor..in sch was like Vin asking me wat flavour of ice cream nice..I never thought of why he asked as he said he wants to eat..he gives me a surprise lor..then i know why he asked..didnt realise wat he will do..coz i call him asking he go home le ma..then talk to him he on the bus..then say reaching home soon..i was like so fast..then he asked me to open the door see who's here..hhaa surprise me..dear bought me one tub of ice cream ..have a free small tub de banana flavour..he bought 3 litres de sia..so much.. so nice of him..i feel happy to see him of course..i say I want to eat tt time he didnt buy coz we forget..

well organic banana flavour ice cream not bad lah..well is KL meeting me? so late didnt msg me or call me..later I not free to meet her lah..need to wash clothes..she thinks i so free..busy when mum not around..unless i dun do wont be busy..but cannot so much dust..ok lah end here..

Today feel sian..moody ba..rainy day so cold lor..mm..well right now feel like talking to dear..I guess he watching tv..mm..well.. just feel sian..mum going malaysia tml so everything i have to do le..housework..ok maybe should think a few days only so is ok..but sian..cant go out..then wed i want go kbox one and go dance practise..maybe have to cancel one..coz like that cant do housework lor..wat to do..dance i may go..then kbox is confirmed..but coz I didnt know mum only back on wed..then how..should I go kbox or dance? frankly speaking I do want to spend time with dear..we really seldom go out..sat i free he work..He free I not free..sigh..then tue out the whole day for the national day thing lah at tampines..sian..

Just scare lah wat should I do , dunno how to handle ..act as if nothing..i have to worry this n tt..not like I can rest..sian one..still have to do project
can handle ma? ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

i want to relax , just give me a break..I am so tired of work, projects.......
end here..discuss with vin see how lor..if not holiday then go le..haiz..

Fed up!!

today..tired..well..rushing project lor..own one didnt do..also dun want to do..group one impt also..then yan hong ar..haiz..was like not doing a gd job..we still have to edit..I just feel want to do nicely then do perfectly lor..why anyhow like heck care de then let pple finish for u..is like everyone so busy..think wat.

.today kind of fed up..coz have things to do..then ar..mei fen still asking abt 9 aug stuff..wat the..is like from mon talk til now still talking..everyday talk abt it..she really scare dunno how to go home..can settle de wat..teach her take mrt she dunno.ask her take bus she blur blur also..then how..dun go lah or ask someone fetch her lor..I know maybe she seldom go out.but really lah i dun want to say..everything also dunno..19 liao..I know not that i very li hai..but really lah too terrible lah ..seldom go out dunno liao then ask we all can dun go ma..coz dunno how to go home..surely there is a way wat in singapore..like hazel says dunno then dun go forever ..i agree..learn lor..sometime i also dunno wat..wat the...
well then today coz regarding 9 aug ar. consent form.still ask me how old is she..faint..she dunno meh? wat a question..somemore i mood swing today abit sian sian..so many things i really dunno..

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Today is Jufri Bro's birthday give present to him le..his plastic bag like full of present ..no lah only four..haha
mm..today adm , Mrs Cheong taught unit 5 lor then we were told there will be Ca..mock ca also..sian everything on the same week ..or even day..the mock Ca.

that mr Liau..our group settled for 9 aug event..surprised that vin didnt get to join hadi they all..he with other gals..suay lah the 3 gals in his group..and the rest of the gals..
I wasnt too happy lor..jealous? i think so..i also dunno ..he is the leader..i just dun feel gd..i told him and he smile..say jealous is gd..haa. -_-''' really? perhaps he jealous i do feel happy also..i love it..hhaa but dun overdo it lah..abit is ok.coz it means how much the person means to u..hehe..Dear saw my face expression in B2-07, he asked me wat happen..at lst i didnt ans..dun want to say..after tt i told him lor.. i am jealous.
Spend time editing adm project stuff just now..didnt play much com..haiz.i guess harry potter bk i cant finish reading too..no time..but i love to read tt..tml test sian ..i just studied abit..really must study hard..
too lazy liao..but seriously too many things to do.. btw we can wear jeans leh on 9 aug..gd sia..that Mr liau dunno anyhow say cannot..we asked Mrs Tan le.
duno wat to blog liao ..end here..

Mon Blues...

Today nothing to do..so sian..Adm lesson so bored..doing project lor..why I feel so sian? perhaps mon blues ba..haiz.. anyway going to have lunch soon..I think I stress also..3 periods of adm so sian man. Mrs cheong back.hhaa ya Bro changes new hairstyle man..look cool hhaa..then I laugh hhaa..cant get used to his new hair..but is nice
everyone so busy..haiz.. dunno what to write leh..sian..
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haaa continue from wat I wrote..We were told national day we will need to be at tampines til 10pm.so late sia..then need to wear long pants etc..haiz..well..somemore need to meet at pasir ris east cc lst..then go from there..to sun plaza park..well have briefing lah..need to be there at 9.30am..I will be meeting dear..coz dunno how to go to pasir ris cc..haha..he fetching me there..haha..from mrt station of course..then he wants to send me home..i thinking no need lah..see how lor..when i tell bro abt it..he was saying ask me take cab or vin send me home safer..if not he will send me home haa..so jin zhang wo ar? hhee today he helps me massage also..hhaa bro gd ar..so comfortable..opps..dun let dear know.. :x later he jealous sia..ok lah end here..

Bored Sunday!

Today stayed at home..didnt went out..no vcd to watch really bored me..anyway I read newspaper n magazine to past time..I also watch tv lor..sigh..today seem like a long to past ..and I really dunno wat to do..Maybe sudden too free..plan to study in the end I didnt ..hhaa ..I was thinking of reading harry potter ..perhaps I read b4 I sleep ba..i want to read lor..coz it is so thick ..I want to try to read some everyday..

Haha.Yesterday I miss Dear...today he miss me alot..to me like that lor..dunno why dun feel anything..but just now thinking abt it i feel gd...let him miss lor..let him feel how i feel lor..I just didnt say wat..just say wow his turn ar..and why miss me so much..he msg back saying cannot is it..hhaa so bad..rude ar??? i know just joking lah..
sometime he pretend to be fierce hhaa..naughty boy sia..

Sometime we two still like kids lor..joke n tease one another..but sometime like no gd..how come..perhaps busy..so I feel he didnt really talk to me nowaday..feel abit sian like that..maybe see each other too often ar..dunno leh..end here ba..he wasnt online yet i guess.the person who is online is not him..his sis ba..haiz..

today I didnt went out ..Stay at home do PR work and watch vcds..anyway nowaday weekend to me is like staying at home.Vin busy with work also..to me sat didnt go out is nothing liao..Maybe I have things to past time ba.sudden have alot of thoughts and I told Bro and ling..just feel that I miss him today..that we never put in enough effort in our relationship.can be better..that I should be more caring..dunno leh..everything not enough..
perhaps after all obstacles we are tired..so take things more easy..like wat vin says..so i feel is different..effort put in where is it? is like If I am the one who fu chu only wat the use..need both parties de.

anyway I finished watching tan pan zhuang jia..ending gd..but if there is more to it will be gd..
perhaps dun think so much..I think after saying out i feel better ba..perhaps this relationship wont end well as well til old? dunno lor..i just feel maybe ba..end here ba..dun blog le..

today did a presentation IAP..Present to lst year students..two classes in b2-07..i felt nervous lor..present til no gd..mm..well..Dear dun have co-op duty so we went to have lunch at kfc with the rest also..hazel, jin lun etc..mm..have fun and joke n laugh..cant tahan jin lun's joke..well..after that went to look for jufri's birthday present..We bought a belt for him..share lor..4 of us..vin, me , gim loon n hazel..
then go to wrapping section ask the person to wrap..nicer wat..hhe but i feel so budget like tt..nvm..thoughts that counts..use seiyu wrapper hhaa..

after buying went to orchard with dear..went to library etc..four plus reach home..although nothing much. but i do enjoy being with dear..spend time with him lor.sometime sat not free de..seldom go out on sat le..is gd to rest..
hhee today vin keep teasing me..so bad..like purposely act so fierce..hhaa..bad..But we happy together lor..ok lah end here..dunno wat else to blog..

Go to Expo!!

Well today didnt do much things ba..adm no lesson wat.finally back to normal study time no AL le..right now in class so cold man..I dun feel like doing anything..so just blog..going expo..when I am back hhaa I will blog about it ba..What so special about Expo? nothing much wat..mm..left individual project but I dun feel like doing..have to do research lst b4 I can do u see..mm..left a few more days only to the deadline..

Today I guess I have to go home and cook rice too..coz bro have Nafa test lor..I guess he wont be back so early..I guess tonight may sleep early..yesterday kind of tired..I dunno why I blog also..I am bored lah ..so must as well blog..going to have lunch soon le..yeah..
Haiz..wat happen to hui's blog..I cant enter de lor..I dunno what wrong with it..sigh..

heee now editing this blog..add more lor..went to expo le..nothing much..just hear the speaker tell us abt expo..then went to one of the halls to look around at malay wedding exhibtion..nothing to see wat so see that..just like tt..another hall that food carnival or something not ready yet ..cant go..anyway expo also nothing much de..reach abt 3 then went off abt 4 lor..took bus back to bishan..faster wat..and dun need to take public transport hhaa..save time n money...
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Today didnt attend adm n evm lesson..My group took AL lor..hazel wants lor to take so that we can do WIts project which is due on thur..sigh..Is like sian..miss lesson..evm have notes to copy ..I borrow Vin de and copy lor..I dun want to take AL one but haiz..just take..today n tml..well I taken 4 AL le this semester..sian..
I did project til kind of fed up..Self access room's coms are so lousy man..some can work some like u do half way may have problems u see..face com til I tired..
Right now i feel tired too..so didnt do project..tml continue..at night feel sleepy cant do..I can't think at all u see..
I dunno why often coz of projects I dun feel gd and i get fed up..perhaps stress as we need to meet the deadline u see..It is like not just one project u see..

I find Vin like troubled and can say mood no gd lor..I guess he do feel stress or something..coz of teeth? or even something else? coz of me? I do feel partly me also..haiz.
definitely lor..surely partly coz of me just that he dun want to say..I can tell..
ok lah end here ..bye..

I just enter a quick entryb4 i sleep..today quite tired..have a bad dream lor this morning.wat sia..train accident..
dunno why dream of that..sigh..anyway went to cut hair today..cut shorter..I feel abit sian today..just watch tv lor..vcd..wake up feel my neck abit pain..never sleep properly ba..but after a while ok lah..
last night think alot..this morning still think..sometime i rather i can just sleep forever..then no trouble..think i scare dear..let him worry le..haiz..
shouldnt think that way.but can't help it lor..life can be helpless..but i guess we just have to continue..i cant be so silly..still young wat..I will try to look on the bright side..today i keep myself busy so I wont think..other days i dunno lah..dun want to blog further..make me think alot..
anyway think abt hui haiz..she broke up with her bf le..day b4 her birthday..why of all days but 23 july..why so heartless one to her..why so cruel..let her have a sad birthday..all this i can't ans them coz i am not him..just hope she will be ok..i cant do anything leh..so helpless..she sad i feel sad also..
alright lah i end here..go and sleep le..

Today awoke at 8 plus dunno why lah..sudden awake..then try to sleep but can't..then I went to visit vin..mm..he bought strawberry for me..well..mood so so..coz last night mum lah wat else same thing scold..one day i think i will lose control..dunno what I will do man..I won't know..kill pple? lol wont ba..perhaps jump down and that's it..hahahaa..no one scold me le..but my bf will get blamed de..but whose fault..the one who pressure me lah..
today also scold me ..haiz..i tired of it..sometime thinking how far can we go..i just take a step at a time de..
no more tears..coz cried today le..in front of vin..haiz..let him see me crying again..

i cant tahan stress lor..end here ba..dun feel like talking.I want to sleep..bye..

Lovesick..

Today woke up so fresh coz I have slept enough.Vin told me he wont go to sch..coz of yesterday he go dentist then today teeth there abit swollen..so he not going to sch..I miss him..I really miss him ..so i blog lor..Coz i cant tahan lor ..sometime stress ..now is that I didnt see him for a day..I feel abit uneasy..dear says b4 when I am not around with him..he feel uneasy..no gd feeling..Is just like wat I feel now..even though talk to him..is like not enough..today have WITs if not I sure go his house and visit him..then can reach home at about evening time..

Mm...he is ok lah that wat he says..I guess should be ok..but he is very tired..How I wish i can fly there immediately..I understand de lah..when ur love ones is sick..surely wish that u can go there straight lor..
I dunno did I disturb him alot..call him ask how he is when sch ends..then talk to him after WITS..I sick i think he also wont call alot of times..maybe coz he works..but he do cares..He makes me think that he won't worry that much de..like as much as i worry for him..but he did call me twice a day..

I dunno why didnt recieve his msg or waiting for his reply..i feel no gd..is like how i wish he reply but he didnt..
I really fall very deep..I just feel really cant leave without him le..i dun care how he looks etc..just hope he wont gu fu wo..Perhaps this few days or whatever, I have alot of time to think on my way home etc..I been thinking alot..thinking his love still same ma..or has it fade? I guess I think too much..i didn't tell him that..
Maybe the time spent together not as much as last time..that why..year 2 le..really abit different..abit more busy lah..so many sats like never go out de lor..usually go out on fri..sometime fri also didnt go out..

Poor dear..can't go and sing..actually he also dun want to go..anyway I can see him tml :) can't wait to see him ba..end here..

Today I dunno leh so tired when I woke up lor..Well.. I know I feel abit sian lor maybe unhappy that why everytime go where with my frenz ar..he seem not interested..perhaps dunno wat to talk to them so dun go..I guess he asked me 2join his frenz I also dun want to go ..then He asked me wat happen I dun want to tell him..small matter nvm..so usually he wont ask me to go with him..Is like bbq or wat I dun mind..but he scare this and that..scare later go home late I get scolded..I know..perhaps i wish to go and have fun and to know his frenz..I ok de..i dun mind..have fun wat..usually gathering or what pple will ask gf to go along de wat..get to know thei

I dunno lah cannot be so petty or wat and think so much...Just study lor..Today ar nothing to do during ADM lesson..so bored..really must find something to do while having free period.. nvm I guess i will be ok after lunch..
I have to do Adm stuff lor ..do research ..end here..
yeah tml can have harry potter bk to read..I won't be bored le..but tml he wont acc me again..sigh..every fri so lonely..cant be helped..he has program so I let him know lor..sat then go out ..

Today Karen cheong still wasn't here.. She will be back on 29 ..well. yesterday was tired ..today better..I was like considering whether I should work or not..haiz.. then was like yes plus no..in the end I plan not to go coz i have to miss lesson u see..mm..hang ten was like not bad u see..haiz..maybe dun work lst next time then work lor..

I dunno why this few days like thinking alot..even though see dear everyday..why like miss him etc..hhaa..I think i fear lor..just that i dun want tell anyone..frenz sure say i think alot..so I keep it to myself..I been thinking he busy..are we drifiting apart? seem he wont be so close with me ..I am the one who feel we are still so close as b 4..dunno..perhaps I think too much..coz sometime there is time to think u see..i seem to feel that ..one day we will drift apart lor..when that day comes..if it is the end is also ok i guess..coz love fade ..wont feel so hurt..
I dunno..not that i doubt his love..love can decrease day by day..increase is difficult? decrease very fast i guess..
nvm lah..dun want to think so much..nowaday adm n kds stuff so many to be done coz karen cheong not in sch..haiz..stress ba i guess..

that 3 gals i dun want to say..in lecture room purposely sit far apart so we cant sit that row..siao one..well..coz day b4 we sat there wat..that shennie very unhappy i know..whatever..end here..

Sunday..

Today woke up feeling ok..but weak..Perhaps hungry ba..haiz..sick yet heard sacarastic remarks..sigh..One word..baised..bro treasure I am grass lor..haiz.. say wat I act pitiful want pple to pity me..make me sad..as if I act sick..sick can be faked de meh? sian..just now really feel down..say me til like that..I just slight fever ma..then so wat if I have high fever..wat the..dun want to say lah..since young, attention given to brother ba..i think i just feel jealous..can say that I childish or wat..this is the fact what..whatever parents can say they are not biased,they are even 1 % also is yes..dun dote me le lor..big liao no need dote le ar? dunno lah..

I guess I dun think so much tml have test.haiz..sick for two days..mouth so bland..but now ok le. end here...

Still sick..

Today woke up still feeling sick..haiz..I just hope I recover fully..sometime ok, sometime fever again..but slight fever still alright..I dunno what am i thinking now..I just feel sian..I think I not just sick physically..perhaps mentally sick too. .I know I just hope he cares for me..He did..msg me and call me to see how I am..I know what i want..that he can appear just right in front of me..but He can't. He has to work.. To me the care & concern like not enough..Is it I ask for too much? I guess no.. I know when u fall sick, u want alot of care & concern from ur love ones.. Maybe that what I feel..

I think I had been free this two days since I was sick , I did nothing but rest..watch tv..that all..then I began to think alot? I thinking is the love still the same..I know he did care for me..But I sense not the same..I think maybe I think too much..He is busy what so can't put in 100% care & concern lor. I should be fortunate since I am sick, Mum do cares for me..Maybe I am big already so she dun need to worry as I know how to take care of myself..I know dear worry about me..He did asked about me..When i recieved his msg plus call, I just feel good.. :) this is normal reaction ba.
I just want to tell him I love him..But sometime I feel that it is better not to say i love him so often then is like of no meaning le..coz u say so many times lor. I miss him..
He seldom says he miss me..I guess he too busy so won't miss me..Sometime I think I am bad ,dun trust him..I shouldn't doubt him..But gals think alot de wat..
I end here..hungry..I go take dinner le...

Sick..

Today I feel fresh as I slept late last night..but in sch , I dun feel gd and i thought i am ok..Well have lunch with dear and I went home..realise that I have a slight fever..my head pain..is like so heavy..As I took panadol b4 i go home, I didnt take medicine until I woke up from my nap and cook rice and I ate medicine.. watch vcd..dear called. feel gd that he called..talk to him abit..I just want him to sayang..maybe abit act cute hhaa..but sick ma..of course want pple to dote..I am like tt..Mum will dote me but in different way not in the sense that sayang one..coz i am big enough to take care of myself..so she worry more for bro..is ok..I know she cares can le..

I feel when u are sick, or even like sore throat etc..u can feel mum's love more..so warm n nice..I feel so gd.. :)
Is like she so nice to u..Feeling abit tired..maybe coz i eat medicine..so i online a while so I can log off early..
I hope MOn can go to sch..should be lah..coz I have a test..Tt EVM lah..sian..MR liau..haiz..I guess too heaty that why sick le..then abit cough..I just feel sian when I fall sick..who likes to get sick anyway..Well..Can't be helped coz we are human beings..surely can fall sick..ok lah end here..

8 months........

Today went out with Bro Jufri to buy present for yh lor..sian ..coz we didnt know what to buy..went to shop at bugis..then in the end we bought wind chime for her..duno wat to get u see..give mug like of no use..then we get a box also..to put it in..actually have box 2 put de wat..but not nice lah..tt wat bro think..
then after buying i went to tampines..met Vin..for a while ..we been together for 8 months le today..then I went to grandma's house..ah yi they all went too..I went myself after I go shopping..abit tired..mm..ate dinner there..then take train to aljuni.dunno how to spell.then dad pick us up from there..reach home at 9..abit tired..hehe have curry pie to eat..dad buy de..
update yesterday also..yesterday after sch..stay back for wits stuff then 1 plus , xiao jie was at j8 so I went to find him while waiting for vin..he had co-op duty.. then we went to sentosa to collect free tickets..the tickets would be send to vin house coz dunno why his name wasnt in the list..then we went to eat fried oyster..was not nice..the person dunno how to fry hhaa..we ate at harbourfront hawker centre..tt time we went to eat also ..not nice de the food we ate..this time also not nice..nvm next time go eat other food..after eating, shop around habourfront and saw star cruise..star virgo..sudden feel like going for a cruise trip..vin said next time work le then go..hhee..I want to go Australia..he said married le we go there for honeymoon..I felt that it is still early to talk abt tt..mm..My wish is to go strawberry farm..

mm..sometime see parents upset etc, i do feel the saddness and I really dunno lah wat can i do..i also upset..
just that sometime outsiders dun understand de..maybe I also dun wish to tell..only vin know ...kai ling perhaps i tell abit only..I dun want to say so much..then pple may see me happy..yes in sch dun think so much study and funny jokes i laugh..happier wat..but sometime maybe I at home I wont feel happy..glad dear there for me..i really need him and that I hope we wont quarrel or give up one another..coz i already feel sad etc over other matter..i dun wish my relationship also in a mess or wat..then I dunno how to take it..end here..

Today went to attend WITS training ..take approval leave..at 12.30 pm we ate lunch..haiz..was told we wont be entering competition..no need le..actually we happy..hhaa no need to stay back..went to eat ice cream today..haiz..not a gd day..eat ice cream stir up some things..regarding what i unhappy abt..talk abt it then make both of us unhappy..got to solve it lor..this is a problem..haiz..i will reflect myself..he was thinking is he gd enough? asking me..wat the ...he told me..to hate him now or regret forever.what did he mean? I think he really thinking about stuff..haiz.he implying break up? i dunno..i really dunno what he thinking...
i guess we cool down n then we talk abt it..now no point talking sense to one another..it makes no sense..
what is happening? one problem comes after another..how to concentrate on studies..i dunno ..let him cool down ba..yes i unhappy with him coz of work..coz he was so tired..then sometime really i have holiday, he dun have..
not that i want him to spend alot of time with me..just a day.i will be happy..like I talk to hui..she says surely relationship not so smooth de..wow why my hand so hot sudden..dunno also..surely have obstacles etc..

Like i say maybe he lst time, he dunno how to handle ba such situation..haiz..takes time..surely have quarrel or wat..so see now we need to reflect ourselves..usually watever he says to me, i remember de..coz i take things to hard..i feel abit sad..confused right now..I dunno how to handle when i see him kind of fed up n down..wat can i say? wat i say is like no use lor..that wat i feel..better go n sleep..tml will be fine perhaps? dunno lah..

Perhaps i really make a big fuss..small thing i unhappy n he cant take it..he is too tired..i know..i also tired..but now is to solve..not break up coz of that ba..but is he implying tt? i dunno
tml have dance ..got to sleep..end here..

Today went out to catch a movie with Vin..We watched war of the worlds..Not bad..Is nice..It was about..aliens and their machines..appear from the ground when lightning strike ..ruin all the houses , buiding and many people were killed.It was a movie which is..how should i say it..When u watch, was like oh my god..so scary ..pple have to run for their life..yet like cant get away in time, they were tear into pieces..Is like i guess soul also lost..all gone..except tiny pieces of clothing.flying around. .oh my god..and the alien suck blood..they catches human being n trap them into their "cage"..I dunno what tt called..then suck them up one by one..etc..
Then Tom cruise acted in it..He was like escaping here n there..so lucky..anyway he was the main character of course he wont die..haha if not no more stories..

dunno why I dun feel secure nowaday..thinking bad stuff..like why is Vin busy..have another gf or wat..I know shouldnt think like tt..but cant be helped i think this way..gals can think alot and be sensitive.maybe he busy so i think too much..dunno perhaps too free..shouldnt think so much..
end here..going to miss him coz i wont see him tml..

Today mood was alright but abit tired..Kai ling n Jufri mood no gd..Kai ling was like sian sian..My bro face so black..he is angry..but he is back to normal..I am glad..sian is that KL go n tell Mr Ramu abt things..guess saying we ignore her or wat..after Mr Ramu's last lesson, Mr Ramu said he wanted to talk to us..not scolding us lah..just want us to talk things out , know abt what is happening..want to hear two sides..I guess she complain all she wants..aiya I wasn't angry..so big already..Mr Ramu tell us not to be angry..when Mr Ramu said he wanted to talk to four of us. I really know something not right surely is about her..

She always like that complain to class advisor..last time MF she also told Mrs quek..maybe vent out her feeling she feels better..I feel she really too free..She told me she has nothing to do..then she even sms Alan, my kor kor ..say wat hazel ignore her..wat sia..dunno her lah...end here..
I dunno what to write further..

moody day..

Today mood not gd..coz of yh lah..hai wo..must be thinking what happen?.?.coz of the clothes..I get scolded..well dun want to eleborate..mm..my mood really bad..well last night before i went to bed, i cried.I guess really cant control le..anyway I didnt tell her abt it that i get scolded again..last night I was thinking why I everything get scolded..is like why everytime me..I don't know..just that I have things for pple to scold..even if not certain problems like clothes or wat..still have things to scold de..then i really no mood to study..stress up..
..then another issue stir up..KL n J..aiyo..KL cried today..i duno how ..coz she cry til very jia lat u see..then ask J lor..then he was angry..aiya dun want to write in details coz i lazy.. :P anyway is pple's problem..but coz is my bro n frenz..i care lor..I also like very fan le..
Then i told vin abt my personal stuff..maybe feel better.right now ok..sometime I feel I need someone, hhaa the person not there.maybe be busy or wat anyway at least I know there are people who are there for me..dear and my friends..but frenz I also dun want to talk much abt stuff.sometime u never know u trust someone alot , end up she or he betray ur trust..u never know..I been wondering whether to trust her..U must be thinking wat I was saying right? classmate..I dun want to say much..

Well..glad when i am down, dear with me..even without saying anything is gd enough..even help me..like what he says, i need help , he dun do anything, he shouldnt be my bf le..end here..

Sunday...

Today never go out..I did powerpoint slides for the IAP thing..do a few hrs ..tired lor..I dun feel like doing de.but have to finish it..Is like holiday i am busy..sch start still busy..but finish this i will be relaxed a little..feeling stress de lor..i hope is under control if not too stress can go crazy..today must sleep earlier ..abit tired lor..
sometime thinking why i am so stress ..and that i dun feel like doing anything today..then evm de notes i also study abit only..after doing ppt slides ..tired le..dun feel like studying..
ok lah end here..later sleeping le..

Saturday!

Today didnt go out ..Last Sat also didnt go out sia.. It has been two sats I didnt went out with dear le..But weekdays we do meet a while or what lor.. I knew I miss him today although i see him everyday.. maybe nothing much to do so i been thinking of him..but afternoon I been doing report so didnt think much.. anyway today he went to work.his auntie lah never work lor ..still sick i guess..mm lucky didnt plan to go out, if not i surely angry..yesterday not free, today not free too..but nvm..I had to do report so I didnt want to go out ..Kai ling asked me out today and I dun want..go out I waste time lor..abit bad..everytime asked me out i usually reject..maybe next few weeks lah..i maybe go out..
ok lah nothing much to write..end here..

Today have lesson lor..lessons started since yesterday..or should say day b4 start abit only..EVM sian..Mr Liau keep asking questions again..test us...... -__-'' maybe is gd..test til we remember..refresh etc is gd..For Mr Ramu lesson, PR, we had a combined lecture with another class for tutorial lah..the class noisy sia even not many pple like our class..btw Mrs cheong siao siao one..yesterday early in the morning throw temper..unhappy abt attendance lah..dunno why have this teacher..can't be helped she teaches us..
I feel I getting stress..so tense up in class..just like last time..how come ar..I really dunno..I feel I giving myself pressure perhaps? Frankly speaking I dunno.. haiz..Maybe see that 3 gals i sian also..
Is like never study I ok de..Study I not ok le..I just never tell others except my frenzs n Vin..tell mum or wat also no use..She dun think i have pressure de..sometime too much ar..can go crazy..But I am ok..under control..haha
Today I did pay attention in class..maybe awake coz i drink coffee..hhaa if not i sure fall asleep..
alright lah i end here..

Today help out at the booth..attract pple's attention by dancing..hhaaa is also gd..get used to letting pple see then i wont feel so stage fright..concentrating ar u wont feel so nervous de..then dance to show dear..hhaa pong they all also come..then pong still say can dance again.lol..heard Chandra say wow when i do the drop..hhaaa
then 12 pple want to join social dance..not bad lah..
Half way through i went to take cardprint with vin ..went to j8..he having break wat...2 plus end the cca display..
today rain ..performance not held at the amphitheatre..too bad..at the hall coz floor wet due to raining..
everytime fine la..Mrs woo ask abt why last min we cancel dance..then i tell her to find andrew..then talk abt it ok lah we are fine le..but heard melissa unhappy..never tell us tell andrew only..
andrew suggest we have a session lor then we sit down n talk..i duno lah..dun want to comment much..the more u say the more trouble there is..
ok end here..

Stupid day!!

Today lst day of sch reopen..wow got timetable..ok lah..everyday 8 also..sigh..but sch dismiss alright lah..the time table..mm..orientation day today..many new students come in..all wear sch uniform le..so fast..which is gd too..no need rush to get uniforms..We watch abit of small performance..too bad we not dancing le...is kind of last min..6 plus then Yk called me..asking me abt stuff like how i think abt our dance..can we dance well., confidence etc..i was thinking what happen..then know that they want to cancel it..i was disappointed..slowly think abt it..I was angry..is like so last min..never think of how pple feel..plus seniors take off..how abt them?
They specially take off coz of the performance..

We practise hard then say dun have...we wasted lot of time..then Andrew n Yong Kiat thinking never wasted coz aug dancing..haha..if know like tt..why would we be learning at night..make me n yh so tired after IAP..
then two word really sorry solve everything? what the..Guys only know how to say tt..everything is prepared u see..
My lst time lor..they ruin it..sad..disappointing..i try hard coz i know i dun dance well..yet they do this..haha next dance ask them dance it themselves..
maybe if they cancel it earlier is still fine with us..maybe unhappy a little that all..Melissa think she very li hai..say she dun need practise de..YH say tt means saying we need..ya lah we dun dance better than her ..so wat..i feel melissa talk to us sometime regarding dance..as if she so li hai..give tt strict face saying again..unhappy we cant dance? Andrew's face change when Melissa said that she dun need practise..
aiya dun want talk abt it le..end here..mad abt this matter..

Sunday!

Today woke up early..go for dance practise at seng kang ..kenny there the void deck..well..In the end, only 2 pairs..Yong kiat cant go..only me , kenny, wei qiang n yan hong..Just practise lor..abt 12 plus then went off..Wei Qiang went off lst coz he has to work.. I went home for lunch..then nothing much to do, i tidy up cupboards..wash shoe, pencil case n hp pouch..so dirty..actually I also have nothing to do..did something i feel better..is like wont think plus past my time..dun waste a day like tt..
When u accomplish something, u feel great..ur things are clean..

I did feel abit sian sian plus moody perhaps..I was thinking why cant i just lead a peaceful life..anyone who is reading this, like Hui or ling , must be thinking wat i saying right? vin again?hhaa no.. i dun want to comment here..that's wat I can say..just have some problems here n there..but i dun wish to say much..
sometime why life cant just be happy de..why troubles n problems here n there..I dunno ...just feel sad perhaps..sometime i feel helpless..i dunno how to handle..I guess just study hard dun think so much..that will be gd enough..concentrate on my dance lst..I cant think so much cant focus..
Btw yesterday so angry that i scold him..must be wondering who right... he deserve the scolding hhaa.....He deserves it and I dun think i am wrong or wat..What I say is reasonable lah..is like i wont say or scold pple til like tt..I really cant tolerate.He is wrong..must make him wake up his ideas lor..

alright end here..tml sch reopen le..so fast..but i feel ok lah..maybe coz not starting of a new environment so i dun feel anything..I wonder why..

Last Day of IAP!!!

Yeah Today was the last day of attachment..I felt happy ..Then meeting Liyana for the last time to go to work together..I type out video list today in HR Dept then went to the library to help Dennis did things. writing no.. and paste on the tapesThen after I came back as I went away a while..Thomas asked me to go the HR dept there the room..I forget is what room..I thought what happened..Wow a surprise..Boss Mrs Alice Chew was around..In fact all HR dept people..Have Ice Cream cake and small mini cone ice cream..I was quite touched..I really Don't know what to say..NSC people quite nice..in fact our boss nice lor..Still joking away..We were given a token of appreication..NSC stuff...with the name printed infront ...Boss shaked hands with us..Colleagues says thanks lor..Asking when we go back to sch..she says is fast mon..

I don't know why maybe attached to the company.when i leave, I feel a bit weird maybe can't bear to leave..
Fazial tell me to study hard..Naim wished me and said that on the road if I see him, say hi to him :) He was very nice..Jennifer and the rest didnt say anything..Dennis tell me to take care..the rest i forget what he says..He told me alot of things and he teaches me alot ..that what i felt..Nice working with him..I guess i will miss working with him perhaps?

Sometime humans are funny..when u work u feel that u want it to end soon..but when u work til the last day, u dun feel like leaving..oh ya Jasmine very gd..buy muffin for me n Liyana..I don't know why i writing this i feeling abit sad..maybe environment so nice although did junk work..but alright lah..
Boss even asked did they bully us hhaa..we never say anything..Jennifer says pay still with her..hhaa so we dun dare say hhaa..actually alright lah..I get quite gd pay..early in the morning Jennifer signed my attendance and give me my performance appraisal form..then i saw chai kern signed de..I think i give wrong person marked attendance..nvm coz chai Kern never give me any work except yesterday asked me help Auntie do things ..in the end never do..

Yan hong called me today..wat else abt dance lor..saying wat yong kiat may want to change partners.in the end no changes..if change very wat..Is like we get used to each other and last min change ..then she was funny wear make up dun wear lipstick de -_-'' she says she hate it..I wonder is she a gal hhaa...
dun want to agrue with her..End here//
alright end here..

Thursday!

Today I was quite sian..partly because of Vin..regarding what happen yesterday lor..for Shi Hui and Amelia, if u two are reading this..u must be wondering what happened last night..i guess Shi Hui knows a little..cause i tell her..well i doubt him regarding something lor..dun feel like writing in details ...then i guess i make him throw his temper..then at night just feel tired i went off to bed..

then today dun feel like msging him..then i feel abit sian also...then still msg him in the end..actually want to test whether he will msg ma..then talk to him on the phone he seem sian sian..and his voice very different..maybe still not happy with me..I dunno...Is like he msg me some things i see already i feel sad..

This few days i feel ok as I dun think so much.there he is thinking so much..He was saying that even since he was with me, many things happen, he dunno can he continue to take it..haiz.. at that time i feel like crying..really..but no tears..He told me he learn to take things easier and lighter for this few mths since we patch up..he wonder is it a gd sign.....i dunno too..can be gd in some ways i guess..
when i knock off that time..he was ok le..
back to normal..now i thinking abit it , i have mixed feeling..dun think abt it lah. so scary...tml last day..i feel great.. :) end here..

Tue......

Today work as usual..finished up checking the claim stuff then i key in those not found inside the data system into excel spread sheet..I also did folding the letters that i do mail merge one..they were signed already by mrs chew..then i put them into envelope and seal..folding letters are fun..I even did keying in the leave record of hospitalisation and unrecorded ones..eyes tired man..but thinking of meeting Vin..i just cant wait to knock off so i can see him..thinking abt seeing him later ..i smiling to myself..then working time past faster too.actually quite fast..then i daydream abit abt Vin.hhaa cant help it..even i concentrating..more or less my mind have him inside all the time..sometime too busy maybe wont..but when there is free time here n there..i will be thinking what is he doing? feel like talking to him..by msging him..but working cant use hp everytime..no gd..but i still do tt..
I dun care..
Today working seem is the most happiest day i worked..coz mood gd plus i meeting him after work..surely feel gd..
I meet him at novena square de burger king..we ate abit of food and spend some time together..shop around..i saw Kai Lin..my sch de..she been working..then at night then i remember she having holiday also..so she worked ba..mum called me i thought she will scold..nope she didnt..she ask me to buy panadol..well..she knows i went out coz haven go home yet at 7 ..hhaa
then went home to have dinner..didnt ate so early coz not hungry..
ok lah end here..

Release of results.....

Today did same thing as last time.file some documents checking
I went home at night 7 plus check results.it is out le..i got all Bs ...GPA so low..sigh..then i help vin check..wow he did well..actually i know my standard..i also didnt work that hard ..i knew i get bs de..perhaps i didnt know other pple's results i feel better..I wont feel anything..Is not that pple get As i jealous or wat..
Is just that when u compare results, u feel lousy..thinking why pple can get As and u can't..feel sad de lor..
sometime brain not the same..some pple brighter wat to do..i can get bs ok lah..still feeling sad right now..
Really dun feel good..he gets 3 As leh..and one bs..GPA so gd..always win me..
as his gf i should be happy for him..maybe i am ..but i see my own results..how to compare..
feel abit disappointed with myself..sometime i also lazy lah..then pple can absorb things faster also..
after all wat u rear is wat u gain..i put in how much effort then is how much i get..
mum still saying cant get As how to go poly..haiz...
true lah..GPA so low..i dunno myself too..must work harder for year 2..frenz says not bad..i feel results no gd..
end here..

Happy sunday!

Today I didnt not have dance practise so I went out with Kai ling to paya lebar the post office centre's this fashion and bought skirt for dance performance..anyway the skirt can be wore even after performance so i dun mind buying..the white top also..I love the skirt..too bad nice colour pink dun have my size so i bought other colours..
I drank soya bean milk..hungry lor after buying clothes..went to eat yong tou hu..then decided to go and find vin..i went down.reach at 6 like that..haiz..he wasnt surprised..everytime he would know de..not fun..
but he told me actually he wasnt sure..coz i was at paya lebar so he thinking will i come to find him..then i did..
He is happy..me too..
Today i felt happy..everyday works I dun feel happy..is sian..but seeing dear .today is my happiest day of the week.. :)
this is the second time i want to find him and he called me de..then he will know ar i going to find him de..anyway he wasnt confirm lor..so he says i really surprised him..dunno leh..feel he knows abit like no use..
if really next time dun tell him..hhaa..
ok lah end here..

10th day.....

Today did same thing..filing..faxing..and even write the name for the shoes which are for the nurses.I nearly have to send to the clinics..but in the end didnt..Jennifer ask pple to come to hr dept n take.sian..blog so long ...talking n blogging at the same time..takes me very long..haha..after faxing stuff ...i slack le..pretending to find again..resting n eating apple give by NSC..

well..kind of tired..went to novena square to have lunch..food junction..actually want to go mac..but there dun have -_-''
weird ar..shopping centre no mac..glad that it is weekend le..next week last week le..yeah..
alright end here..work til sian......
I dunno i get abit excited..results out and that dance performance coming soon..
duno leh just now abit not happy..vin everytime this not interested that not interested.sian..i know he wont go zpop de wont ask him to go..wat he wants only is to sleep ba..pig..no tt kind of qing qu..sian..
ok lah end here..

9th day...

Today so sleepy when i woke up. But Can't be helped got to wake up for attachment..i felt that i sit too long back ache..Now i feel my neck abit pain..but is alright le..

Well i did letters , rejection letter..I just do mail merge and then printed out the letters..I was kind of fed up today..As i know myself , sometime i try my best to do something but it turns out not smoothly , I can get fed up.As i know I am not a patient person..I have been doing faxing lst then I did Jennifer's work..
I dunno how..coz the mail merge that I learn does not apply there..I did a bit different..I thought I knew..haiz..
I was like abit like I knew yet can't do..What will she think? I dunno.So i asked her.

After that i did filing..Fazial asked me to do. It was like so many files. I have to check all..alphabetical order..what the..I felt that they think ITE student gd to bully. It is so bad..Sometime u cant think the person is nice..U cant judge a bk by its cover..Just like i thought Fazial very nice..After today's fax machine incident, I knew wat type of person they are..

Yana accidentally touch the fax machine tray..then it broke..actually is already loose..so she feel bad thinking will the staff ask her to pay..What i heard was that only faizal was around and he witnessed it..then because I wasn't around at my desk i was at finance dept there checking through files..I heard that HR dept pple was talking abt it..saying ITe very loud..that was wat Yana said..haiz..i guess we gave a bad impression of our sch? i dun care..actually i tried to do wat i am suppose to do..just that i did a bit slow..
then yesterday Jennifer said that i broke the file so ask me to transfer the document into another file..i dunno is it i broke it..i never apologise coz i dun even know if it is me..then i use another file..Jennifer was trying to say i broke it..i thinking did i? then i ask her..then she said no ..now thinking abt it..they like to accuse pple ar? my surname not lai..hahha yesterday i didnt mind..

Never know Jennifer can be petty that wat i heard..anyway i just work and dun bother..Niam was asking abt fax machine in a joking tone saying i broke it ar..then i say no lah not me..coz he didnt ask in an unfriendly way so nvm..anyway coz i use it often this two days..that why he thinks i spoil it ..what..the..
anyway he is ok..he n the who ar..i dunno how to spell the name..very nice de..but i also must be careful..
i also didnt talk bad abt them..better be safe than sorry..hahaa learn to be smart le..dun talk behind pple's back..the most i talk abt wat i did..that all..
btw hhaa yesterday one uncle i heard is from library de..he is a clerk..always flirt..even talk to me..i didnt talk to him much..maybe pple can say i am unfriendly..but i am like tt..u flirting i not interested to talk to u..saying wat lady u very familar leh..like see u b4..u have elder sis or younger sis ma..i shake head..pls lah uncle..i still young..haa.. anyway think is chai kern saying in hokkien pple very young only 10+++ dun like that..hhaaa..

ok lah end here..today did filling system til tired..so many..

8th day.....

Today finish up Fazial work n did filing for Jennifer..then i key in the ticket order..that was quite ok..the work..alright lah..then i did faxing..I have to fax alot of numbers...slowly fax..tml still have to continue..
so many numbers..Colleague gd..go n ate something ask me to ans call ..leave me there..then not Senior HR manager talking to colleague i wont know actually they went down to eat something and they never offer me any..anyway is fine..I not so greedy..but why so bad de..anyway is alright..
After work i went to geylang cc to practise dance..today everyone put in effort..tiring too..but have to get the dance right wat b4 performing..for me alright lah..teach me a few times..practise and practise ok le..
have to work harder..dance coming soon..
then go take bus with andrew ...wow 10 plus til reach home lor..took 155..tired..haa then i still online..anyway hair wet wat..and also plan to blog..
ok lah end here..

7th day.....

Today 2nd day of 2nd week of IAP..wat i did today was wat i did yesterday..I cant finish keying in data..sigh do til i wanted to sleep lor..eyes really want to close when i was doing..Is like repeating n repeating wat i did..Faizal 's stuff alot..the training lah, talks lah..need to key in for the staff..wat they attended lor.
I did til i really feel like i just dun want to continue with it..But I Can't..I just have to endure..

While working or should say i feel sad. in the morning.remember what Vin said last night..if history repeats he knew wat to do..sigh..this is the last chance that we have is wat he says..Then i feel so tensed up..scare..almost cried le..but didnt lah while working..
I cant be crying while i am working right? well go home leh i feel better..relaxed..bath le and ate dinner.I watched tv..can dun think dun think lor..I just take a step at a time..wat for think so much make myself. worry..while taking shower actually ,my tears come out a little..that's all only..
right now i feel ok..really ok..

Just yawning away..sleeping soon..i end here..tml have to go for dance..I wearing pant.. :)

Saturday.....

Today didnt work..yeah..went out with Vin..i try not to put on make up ..hhaa want to be natural dun spoil my skin..well..went to tp central lst then went to orchard and shop..sian lor..i ate ice cream and toriQ de chicken..hhee full leh..then dinner I ate burger king..wow so full..ate very long..
Starting abit mood swing , i dunno why..then after that ok le..talk to vin ..often make him laugh..which is gd..
He say if is forever like that , it will be good..sometime good things wont be forever? I dunno..
Just dun want to think..see hui so sad..i also thinking for the worst..actually scare also..
what she fear really came true..
anyway spend a day with him is gd enough..I wont see him for two weeks..coz sch starting tt sat i dun want to go out..rest at home lor b4 sch starts..going to miss him although busy with work..see how we endure..he going army soon, will have to get used to not seeing him so often lor..
ok lah end here..

5th day...

I am glad today is fri ..tomorrow I don't need to work..today I did work which is given by thomas..keying in dates of the medical students' schedule.....then he asked me to make print 3 contacts no.. and cut out..i did make nicely and printed four times before he approved it..what the.then i get fed up..I just feel sian and moody today..then as you know ..you can get very irraited..after that i did jennifer stuff til knock off.Tiring facing com whole day..At home i also face com but i play not for too long wat..so i wonder gd for eyes or not .everyday look at the com..

KNocking of that time..dear msg me..asking me where i am..i thinking why..he told me later he give me surprise, i will not feel tired le..i thinking he coming to find me? ya he is..but thought i knock off early..then at lst don't want le coz he going orchard for Alicia's birthday party ..In the end he plan to meet me..so went to novena square a while to shop lor..then go home..see him a while also gd..

Haiz..Hui in a very bad mood today..i know de..she told me dun ask about her n him..i not aware of what is happening..but i guess i know lah.she told me..so ask me not to ask..is fine.just don't ask.just now get a bit irraited by that..i don't know..i having mood swing..then trying to be concern there she is giving me tt kind of attitude..i know u are not in a gd mood..i experience b4..then wat can i say..ask if u are ok , u even tell me dun ask..wat u trying to do? avoid the topic? no use de..no matter wat got to face..ur frenz me here wat..i just do wat i can even if i just listen to u.. i know how u feel..i feel helpless..no matter wat i say is useless i guess..
u are the one who can help urself..so i just leave her alone..
i know she sure cry like mad.even if she didnt say it.. haiz..
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4th day......

Today quite relaxed printing the staff appraisal then i was free le..Went down to staff lounge a while hhaa..with cheng leng..well..then continue to do some work given by Thomas.the grouping list of the medical student..
then time for break leh..ten mins earlier lor..thomas they all say we can go n have lunch..
Jennifer was on mc today..so today abit slack..after lunch nothing to do..hhaa vin so busy while i so free..
nan de so free u see..everyday so busy..today relax abit.so i didnt feel that tired..gd leh..
After Thomas return then i have work to do lor.. did the class test list for medical student..then finish le abt 5 plus..today office so few pple..coz fizial on course..then the other colleague half day..

ok lah end here..

3rd Day of IAP

Today went to work..did the same thing staff appraisal..coz i didnt finish yet..spend whole day doing..and i printed a few le..printed wrongly lor ..maybe tired..if not i might print more..well tml continue lor..then after that dunno wat i will be doing le..
After lunch did work til want to sleep leh..dunno leh today very tired like that..maybe sleep late plus stomach cramp dun feel so well.u know lah lady stuff..so unlucky..working , then like that...I didnt went for dance practise..coz really dun feel that gd..so go home n rest..bath le feel ok le..i duno lah..sian leh go practise..my eyes closing man..dunno why dear wasnt online..perhaps sleep le or watching tv ba..nvm i logging off soon ..tired..i sleeping..

2nd Day.....

mm..Today woke up early as usual.I dun feel like working.I was like i sleep til so good.It is only the 2nd day of IAP..haiz..have to endure..13 days more days ..actually quite fast..tml 3 day..slowly one week past..then soon I will leave the company..I did clinical staff apprasial today with the temp staff..I did that for whole day..coz i need to copy n paste stuff plus key in lor..I have to print..So I took the whole day..Actually Coz i take my time to do..wat for rush..later have new things to do again so must as well take my time do carefully..
Time flies fast today.I was hungry and i ate biscuits while doing work..then went with the temp staff to the staff lounge drank coffee lor for 10 mins..i also dunno can or not..i didnt ask..just went..but i did my work wat..
I did and never slack..take a rest also not wrong..

Yan hong told me the dance practise was cancelled..no venue wat..clementi no one in cant be used..tampines cc all fully booked..so if we cant find a venue dance may be cancelled..haiz..i know i do want to perform coz we promise Mrs Woo le and that we cant say cancel wat..But Andrew did want that coz he also not free..He has church camp coming up..But i feel that dance thing come lst wat..why religlion stuff thing lst..i know religion impt..dance also wat..why he like that..that is very selfish..
Did he asked for other pple opinion? dunno lah..
then maybe go sengkang there practise..cant be helped le..no place..wow sengkang far also..duno leh here like no place ar..if not can try ar..central area wat..
pig pig haven online..dunno wat he talking ..dot dot..what is he trying 2 say?? he just dun tell me..then i make him tell and he says is fingers..bo liao
alright end here..

1st day of IAP..

Today woke up early..haiz..dun feel like waking up early de..have to go for attachment..mm..I knew a new frenz today same sch as me ..Acc dept de..Liyana ..i never see her b4 in sch..hopefully next time can see her..
I went to HR Dept while Liyana was located at Finance dept..surprising how come HR dept more male than female lor..one female staff Jennifer and one temp female staff..the rest guys..while finance dept all female..
then Idid some office work..should say i busy de..no free time..finish a work the other colleague give me work to do..do some data entry stuff.. lor..plus compiling survey de stuff but i juz copy n paste file lst..wow alot sia..luckily that temp staff still working tml if not i will die..Is like torturing pple..i dun think is attachment..is helping those HR staff be their slave..hahah
I have lunch at 12pm..Jennifer didnt even tell me wat time is my lunch til i ask..coz liyana asked me wat..then we went to have lunch together at the lst floor de caferia..dunno how to spell haha..
I feel abit tired though coz faced com whole day..but alright lah..the most i sleep earlier..
After work i felt ok..but after dinner i felt abit tired liao..work whole day surely tired de..
tml have to endure haiz..wat to do..
Anyway 3 weeks only..time will fly then we will be back to sch..i still can rest for two days yeah b4 sch start..poor dear worked all the way..
alright i end here

Sunday.....

Today have to wake up earlier meet KL lor at tp central..dun feel like waking up..sleep til so shuang..i recieve msg from dear..9 plus only..read le sleep back dun want reply..til after a while decide to reply..
meet kl at abt 11..waited for her to cut hair..new opened de salon..free haircut for lst 50 customers..many pple quenue..then i bought pearly soya milk ..not nice de..coz that shop de is near old chang kee de..
then went to novena there..walk walk see workplace whether there is shortcut..kai ling teach me to walk the route quite short..ok lah.. :)
today did nothing much..went back home for lunch lor..wl didnt come to play badminton..last min have to work til at night..then anyway it rains also..so juz watch vcd and ate ice cream..yummy..

ok lah end here..nothing much to write..tml IAp le..got to sleep le..

Saturday......

Today went outside have lunch with family and later in the afternoon went tp central pasa malam..then bought food to eat..then bought JJ cd and a nike bottle at world of sport..quite cheap ..it cost $8.40 de and there is 15% discount so end up $7 plus only.. :) after that we went to lorong 7 tp to eat fish steamboat..have dishes also..wow i was not hungry..so ate abit only..still left rice..
anyway today also a happy day lor..CD is mum buy de hhee.. yeah..then i paid for the nike bottle..
I guess dear miss me alot..call me during lunch ..then called me during evening time..i guess he is just concern abt me..but if sometime ask too much i also dun like..He asked wat i ate, bought etc..
Have someone to care for u beside ur frenzs and family is great.. :)
ok lah i end here.......

Singing day.....

Today went meet Kai ling lst to eat lunch @ long john..then went to meet up with wen wen n wei ling to go to tp kbox sing..wow alot of songs we sang alot..sang 5566 de, Daniel chan de..jj de, william so, deng li jun..hee s.h.e alot more songs..sing from abt 2 til 7pm..shiok..lst time get to sing til so shuang..choose alot of songs..but 5566 de i sing a few only..daniel chan de more..so many songs to sing..next time can go..coz there are alot more songs to sing..i did have fun..
Everyone paid $10.50 like that..then have drinks..and titibits..lst drink we drank cold drinks.then cant tahan coz is so cold we order hot drinks..i didnt finish drinking the milo stupid the person take away :( next time really must bring jacket..
after singing feel abit sian..maybe in the room too long..now i am alright.. :)
Dear not online leh..dunno is it com not back yet.i didnt ask him lor..either he watch tv or his com not back yet..
anyway end here..

Today last min decided to meet vin..i didnt want to go out today when KL asked me abt it yesterday..coz sian lah food fair....think we feel better today ..but i can see that dear seem not happy leh..is it i think too much? i just want to see him and spend time with him ..IAP start we would be busy..then not much time..but i believe we can spend some time together de..should be ok..i am happy to see him today..i dunno why tears just come out at the library when i was with him..i think is happy lah..just love the feeling being with him..went to drop bks and ate food at kfc..i ate whipped potato..dear bought me large one sia ..actually i dun want so big de..in the end also ate..then very full..he bought fries and drinks..share share lor..
i been crazy today ..maybe trying not to think and be happy..dear hold my hand tightly..i feel that starting we patch he dun want hold so tight..but now more tight..maybe just dun want me to go ba..I know de he do fear that i leave him again..if i really can..i wont de..one time is enough..i cant take it..if second time i dunno how much hurt i will give him..i wont let that happen..i must try try try not to let that happen..coz in the end i wont feel happy de..i only know a word pain..

Then i cant help hui ..Shawn is angry with her..i dunno wat to do too but to talk to her lor and be a listenier..mm..sometime cant be helped de..haiz..dunno
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Lots of thoughts.......

Today woke up haiz..mum nagging again..i just scare..old scene will be acted again..then i believe will really be the end le..i dun think so easy to go back again..coz the pain will be more..i was thinking shouldnt patch ba..if i know will be like that..i regret? actually didnt ba..coz i love him..i love the way he is..then just now i cried le..
i just fear..we will walk out lor of the path..then my dream maybe half true lor..i dunno..
then miss him alot just now want to see him straight away..i think i just want secure..
nvm now ok le..
today went back to sch for dance practise..4 pairs..we dance salsa only..have andrew, yong kiat, kenny and wei qiang..then me , yan hong , clare and melissa..mm still ok lah the dance..but need to bend back wow abit difficult..then during june , after IAp i have to go to clementi campus leh..for practise..wed lor..haiz..
that far..i go from novena..ok lah..should be ok..
end here..

Bad day......

Today should be happy de..i didnt see him for a few days so i met him de..go his house lst then go heartland mall shop and eat..coz of a pair of shoes he n I unhappy plus angry..he so mi xing and that coz of shoes he think so much..then still ok..then coz i say him regarding he didnt bring umbrella he angry..coz his hands full of stuff not he dun want to use..how i know? i dunno wat..i concern scare he sick so i said that..is that wrong? maybe tone bad lah..i at fault too..he says he thinking why so xin ku buy food for me then like that get said by me? not purposely wat..i really dunno..then i abit angry also lah..small thing he angry with me...ok lah maybe coz his back hurts lah..i dun have see situation lah..
anyway i finding the patch for him..i feel better ba le..found le..then can help him or not i dunno..think cant ..sian lor..
I guess today sure very fat le..coz i ate chocolate le..then drink bubble tea..then never finish it..hhaa too full..
dunno lah..end here dun want to blog le....

Missing u..

Today..didnt go out..Uncle came to my house..then i have a new harddrive actually not new de..is last time de he repair de..then i use..faster lor..then when u on it or off it..there will be 5566 songs..cool ar?
mm..i watch vcd as usual n tv..did crossstitch..wow i guess I wont be doing for the next two days coz I wont be at home..
Just now called Vin coz i miss him..end up i ok lah maybe cure my Ls..but leh..make me a bit fed up sia ..he always think he is so clever , like his gf , me duno anything..haiz..then ask me dl mirc ..then cant help him coz cant see his nick de..i say le dun have..he says dun have meh...make me fed up..wat for i blur..i know my attitude maybe no gd..but i am like that..anyway can see him tml..
I also dunno why out of a sudden i miss him..like last few day maybe i have things to do..i feel ok..
i think never see him for days that why..
ok lah end here..

today woke up as usual..brush teeth le..saw dear's msg..asking me wake up le ma..hhaa he thought i was still asleep..he was wrong..I woke up already..Then read newspaper and watch 5566 variety show lor.later in the afternoon, Wei ling called me asking whether i want to play badminton..i anything ..so she came my house at abt 5.30

then we went to play lor 6 til 6.45.tired sia..no strength le..yeah we confirm fri go kbox le to sing..sing til our voice hoarse that why Wei ling said..hhaa..dunno can we sing tt many songs ma?
sian dunno wat to blog..but i know today mood sian sian til at night i feel better..today didnt do crossstitch..mm..dunno leh..dear not online i seem to log off earlier and dun want to chat..maybe msn without him seem bored although i have frenzs to chat..not that every night we have alot to chat wat with frenzs..i love chatting with him..but at least he called me lor..still ok lah..but usually i call him back more..haiz..coz free incoming..let say mine free incoming then how sia..haiz..dunno..end here ba

Today i have a bad dream and i was awoke at 7.40am..dream that vin n kai ling together de..then ar want him to choose between me n her..he chose her saying that at least her parents like him etc..then got dream abt my dad in my dream like i go home...cant remember..
then i tell hui..then she says is the fear i have..i dunno..but glad it is a dream lor when i wake up..

Then continue sleeping lor..sleep til Vin called me..11 plus lah..disturb my sleep lor..
watch tv in the afternoon..watch vcd lor..then i did read bks lor..
mum bake sponge cake ..not bad lah ..have improved..
ok lah end here..

Today didnt went out..stay at home watch vcd and did crossstitch.. I recieved call from Vin that he got to work tml coz his auntie is sick..haiz..ruin our plan le lor..I was angry lah..then he asked me to forgive him i ignore his msg..i know cant be helped but i just felt angry abt it..haiz..then at night slowly i feel ok le..mm..today did nothing much lor..mood so so lor..then there mum go talking abt vin again.i was like angry with him yet she keep mentioning him..sian..but she dunno i was angry u see..

yesterday i remembered Yan Hong called me..i will have to perform during orientation lor june intake de..Gilyn , melissa cant lor..i know usually wont tell me to perform, coz i know i cant so i dun want..this time sure go de..abit worry i cant handle two dances..salsa and jive..Heard Kenny n Clare will dance cha cha..then 25 may have to go back sch lor practice..so cant go kbox on that day..maybe other day perhaps..ok lah end here..

Today i woke up quite late..then ate lunch read newspaper..Kai ling ask me out..went tp a while then decide to go Ps lor..went to shop..then bro called me ask me to go home coz we going grandma's house..then go there do nothing..aunty etc went and i just stay there watch tv lor..do crossstitch lor..

now doing nothing lor blog lor.hhaa sian leh dad nowaday use my com lst coz bro's com spoilt..then cant sleep well last night..sleep liao awake during midnight..

dunno wat to blog end here..

Today took last paper HRA..yeah finally over..paper not that easy..but i guess can pass lah..
after paper..went to have lunch with vin at coffee shop then we went to shop around at j8 .haa saw Yan Hong and Wei Qiang wor..Wei Qiang called me and after that said i never look at the road de..Coz i talk to Vin til never notice anything that surrounded me..WOw xin fu nu ren..WQ took her bag for her..i tease him saying i want him to take mine too..I am happy for Yh ..glad that she finally found a bf lor..hope WQ & her will be happy together..i can see WQ dote her de..

After going to J8, We went to novena lst to check out my IAP place..National Skin centre..So far from Mrt..I have to walk.haiz..
Then after that We went to orchard..which is at abt 12 ..wow time flies..shop around..VIn was tired le hhaa..I duno why I was like really want to shop lor not like last time , i dun shop too much when i go shopping with him..hee walk walk I grab a bite also.
He is very naughty..tease me etc..cant tahan..I made him laugh alot..he also made me laugh..

I know i feel very happy today being with him..ok lah end here

Tue..Study day..

well what am i doing here..hee blog lor. Well i am suppose to study for tml's HRa exam..end here i surfed the net.. I dunno i just feel like using the com so here i am blogging..later i will study..
today's weather cooling..last night i slept at 1 plus..I chat with vin..actually 11 plus dad used my com so i stop a while and continue chatting with him..
I was touched..i was like crying when i saw his msg b4 he slept..Very touching..
he said love has filled his heart and i am the one who bring him joy n happiness..that he has no doubt spending his life with me..

Well, i had a nice chat with him..i let him know..i willing to spend the rest of my life with him..i just hope he is the last bf that i have..
mm.ok enough of yesterday..

Talking abt today..i woke up at abt 11..msg Vin and he didnt reply til noon he called me..saying he went to drive his dad's car and cant reply me..11 plus i went to buy food before it started pouring as the sky is full of grey clouds..after eating lunch i watch tv and then study a little and surf net..til now it is still raining..but weather cooling..
I feel i am lazy ..tml is the last paper yet i dun want to study..but actually studied b4 hand le..now is time for me to refresh my memory.I wonder did i remember wat i had studied..perhaps ok ba..i dunno..at least i did not study last mins..so should be ok..coz so many things to study and is theory stuff ..so kind of bored ..
I go and study now..end here..

Exam day!

Today was Cbz exam..mm..manage to finish the exams and there was still time left..haiz..i forget to write memorandum for the notice of meeting sia..there should be no matters arising n no minutes of last meeting..yet i put down..aiyo blur sia..is lst meeting..marks deducted lor..haiz..
nvm over liao..wat to do..i had tried my best..take hra paper liao then can celebrate liao and wait for exams results lor..which is release during june..mm..then will know how i fair..well i dunno..coz i know most likely i wont get A..but if i can get , i be happy..

hhaa went to sch today ar..many classmates commented on my new hairstyle..hhaa ..YH was asking that i cut hair ar..she very surprised..haa bro also lor..pong was saying nice haircut..hhaa
dunno leh i didnt know he refering to me til YH tells me..hee i thanks pong lor..hhaa
anyway was glad cbz over liao..
mm..kind of not hungry after exam..dunno why..then we went foodcourt hhaa i dun feel like eating..then i want to eat whipped potato ..hhaa go kfc..ask him to buy for me..then i ate a meal the $2.95 de. well then went home to rest i feel better le..not bloated..ok lah end here..

Today wake up ..watch tv hhaa read newspaper lor.Vin tell me abt stuff so i read..well..then ate lunch watch tv a while more..study abit and slack..haaa then went to buy ice cream to eat in the afternoon..yummy..chocolate de..then continue studying abit..kind of lazy to study..so bored..
mm.
anyway is cbz paper tml..well..just look through letter..scare i cant do well..
I feel abit worried lor..but talk to Vin abit better le..he went off to sleep le ..i still online a while and i sleep le..haiz..hui been very down recently..as her frenz i cant help her..just feel helpless..i know i am tt kind who can think alot.she too..i am not the only one who cant take thing easy..actually is not cant take it or wat..this kind of bgr stuff hard to take it..i also very sad tt time.but i see her like that i am sad plus worry..wat can i do to help her?? i dunno..can only talk to her..i understand how she feels..no matter wat we say..is also like tt..this only she can help herself..i will be there ..

Love is unpredictable.when u step in ..u never know wat is going to happen..then something happens and tt u fall so deep , u can get very hurt..i experience it then i know i love Vin so much..really cant live without him..i just love who he is..so i learn to cherish..i know i scare to be alone..ok lah end here..tml have paper got to sleep le..

Sat!

Well..today i woke up quite late..woke up at 11.50 sia until kl called me..power right? i also dunno leh yesterday cant fall asleep..that why ba..mm..
well talking abt yesterday , i couldnt get in this blog..so never blog lor..

Yesterday I went to meet Vin for lunch at tp central..he came all the way to meet me..knowing i miss him he asked me the day b4 i want him to come ma..so he came.. :) indeed i want to see him and I was happy to see him although we only spent a few hrs together..abt 4 he went home le after he sent me home..we went to have lunch and went library to see the photos we took at the zoo..mm..not bad lah..then i chose which one i want to develop.. :) 13 photos.. mm..quite many wor..then we went walk walk hee..then bought bubble tea for my bro then went home..
evening time i went to cut my hair..new hair style..hair length abt shoulder length lah but infront i put down fringe le..hee so long never do tt..like this i look younger ba perhaps.. :) then i told vin i change hair style..mon he can see..he feel is the same ba perhaps long long de..haa
nope wat..he dunno ..mon he would know..

Talking abt today..mm..nothing lor ate lunch..do nothing haa..feel earthquake at abt 1 plus..1.06 ba..house shake abit..not long lah..a while so i never panic..well..then i watched CNA news at abt two it showed the latest news sumatra earthquake 6.7 ar ...not again lor..sian dunno how many times there are earthquake this year..life unpredictable de...mm..alright i end here..have to go and study le..

Alot of thoughts..

Today presentation..Rizal turn up late coz he twisted his leg..then we started presentation lst then he rushed to sch..for our presentation .tt 3 B*tc* keep throwing us questions lor..is like is obvious that they purposely did tt..for other groups they dun..We are unhappy abt it..luckily hazel can handle the questions as she worked b4 for engraving services..if not we dunno how 2 handle..then i unhappy til i scold bad words hhaa..that not me..but cant tahan..hhaaa

mm..sudden have alot of thoughts..regarding who leh..who else..Vin lah..dunno is it i think too much or is it so..our love can be stronger..but not deeper..kind of lack of something..i think is the importance of someone in ur heart..i feel i not tt impt like b4..can be impt..but not as impt as last time..sad to say..maybe is my deduction lah..i dunno..i know he been trying hard..but leh love is not to try..is that u do watever from ur heart..sometime i scare..that he is here with me..his heart not here anymore..then how..slowly neglecting me..is it love slowly fade le..is like i feel i am the one putting in more effort now..then ar..the more u put in..the more u feel hurt..
maybe i scare his heart not with me then i patch back is a wrong decision..

I didnt know things can not be the same..is like on the surface , is like back to normal..but for me ..i feel is not..the love has really faded..but my love never change or fade.is his..wat am i suppose to do to gain back the remaining part? i know wat he can do he do le..but is it coz for the sake of doing or becoz he loves me..is different de lor..
why am i thinking so much leh..i also dunno..is it break up b4 so that why like tt..he can say he gain back the feeling..but i really dunno..sometime can read his mind..sometime cant..guys think so differently..not that i very wat..everything want to win or wat..not that i want u to do it til so gd or perfect..maybe i can be demanding..but demand abit ok wat..not that i really want u to let me alot..i put in effort..i want u to put in also..it takes two hands to clap..

this time..i really try to do wat i can also to maintain this relationship..i dunno..really dunno..does it pay off? once there is a crack the crack will remain 4ever..cant be removed..
i did things that i didnt do the last time round.. maybe didnt put in enough effort..
end here..

Sian Day...

Today wake up just feel sian..i know coz of yesterday night..dunno leh..maybe i shouldnt mind so much that he is busy everytime he is online haiz..i dunno..i guess all humans will mind..then i log off dun want to talk..anyway he also sleeping..i try to study but cant leh.. then today dun feel like talking much..maybe a bit tired also..

wow face still burn..and is dry..itchy lor..hha then Mrs Quek was asking me why face like that..ask me go seaside ar..haaa Vin also burn..still roasted pig hhaa..nvm de ba.guess will get better de..need a bit of time.. hhaa mine tearing liao..
sometime i feel i should be understanding lor..but certain thing i still mind de..i know he has his free time de..but why everytime chat with me lesser.. is like we need to communicate wat..i dunno lah maybe dun think so much.exams coming so study lst..i haven study sia..then next week exams liao..haiz..

During lunch break.is so early..then we ate liao nothing to do..sang song lor..i sang with KL hhaa..dunno wat wrong with us..sudden feel like singing..just sing..

Right now i have alot of thoughts..since patch back.i really feel we talk lesser..online.. mm.i know i online coz i want to talk to him..then he told me..no need everytime acc him de..he knows i online is acc him..but i also not want to acc him only wat..i just want to talk to him..IAP coming..i guess we have lesser time..then online dun really talk ..i also dunno how..can say i petty..small thing also ji jiao..regarding online i may say alot of times..sometime i do feel i really happy he is there for me..but who knows wat he is thinking..i just feel he still didnt put in 100% right now..kind of abit different from last time..i also dunno did he get 100% back..although he says he did..Vincent i really cant read ur mind..ya u r gd to me like last time or even better lor..love stronger..but why i feel lack of wat..or maybe i think too much..
i dunno..i am a girl..so i can be sensitive at times..wat to do..
u can be happy ..then til u tell me wat u thinking , then i know how u feel..u never tell me ..i still wonder our love is it like last time?? really ma? i dunno..sometime so sad..but try not to think...

i can feel love really not like last time..the love is not yet 100% although we back together for a mth..i can feel..he cares for me not as much as last time..i knew he try his best..but if is forcing himself to try is it gd? i know no one is perfect..this relationship really dunno how long it can last..he can say why everyday must chat n talk on phone..he can talk to me in sch or when sending me home..or he feels he has nothing to talk to me abt..? maybe..usually i talk more..like this if married even worse? the time in sch n on the bus is so limited..ok lah maybe shouldnt waste time talking online..i also know wat to do.chat less..let him have free time ar..better right? make me more sad when i talk to him just now ..so i say dun let him see blog coz will turn out like that..
he dunno he neglected me til i tell him........... why guys cant feel it..maybe he is gd liao..i too demanding perhaps..dunno lah he went to sleep..i also want to sleep le..tired..
btw 9 may is our 6mths together..haiz..then turn out like very wat..sometime he dun find me i find him lor.. is i find him more than he finds me..wat happen..everything has changed..is give take so i ok lah..
love can fade de one day..i dunno when..if really like tt..i cant do anything also..let nature takes its course ba..end here..

Sun burn...

Today wake at 9.30..mm..went to bath..going out with Vin to sentosa..sleep well today..dun feel like waking up..but have to..meet vin at 11.10..i was late for ten mins..hhaa..nowaday he is early..
hhaa..then we went to eat lunch..at harbourfront centre...then set off to sentosa..take the shuffle bus..reached at 11.55 like tt..went to the silso beach lst..have fun there..hhaa vin sun tan there..then we go into the sea..shallow part to play with water..shh..i didnt tell mum abt it..if not she surely scolded me..i just say i play with sand..haha..
sometime...some things dun need to tell her de..

after that we went to bath..wow stupid sia..i waited so long for pple to bath ..queue up and that they know pple need to bath ..they take their own sweet time..so long..i dunno did i take very long..i guess not as long as them ba..then i feel like shouting at those who are showering to hurry up..really want to scream....
then 3.15 i finish my shower..Vin waited for half an hr..all thanks to those gals lah so slow..
then i ate abit of biscuits..then we went to other place..we went to fort silso..which is abt world war stuff..walk abt there..then went to take shuffle bus to harbourfront centre..it was evening liao..so got to go lor..never went around much..wow..plan to go underwater world..but one person 19.95..so expensive ..so in the end we didnt go..i want to take cable car..but no time le..anyway very cheap sia..we didnt know..so didnt take..Vin promise to ride cable car the next time we go..

We then went to eat dinner at harbourfront centre..mm..although didnt went around much..but i do enjoy the day with Vin..mm..being in the water..is so shuang..i know i still afraid coz i cant swim..but i went to shallow part..is ok..beside Dear is with me..
wow dear call me dear til very shuang..is sweet..he get used le..he often call me tt now.mm if is last time..he will feel shy..i also call him dear..seldom lah..mushy wat..

mm.I got sun burn..stupid is that dear help me apply sun block lotion.. i asked him not to apply on my face..so my face got sun burn..arms got burn abit..legs abit..haiz..abit pain and itchy..
but dear even worse..he lah want to sun tan... sun tan til sun burn..face red ..hands read also..poor thing..
then i enjoy my day.mum spoil it..coz clothes alot of sun..so she scold lah..but a while only..nvm..dun care her..hhaaa then say i burn til like tt..say H burn..so i also want to burn to show off..wat the ..who want to show off sun burn..yi dian duo bu hao show........... lame sia..
nvm..
I come back dun feel tired..dunno why.. then thought vin wont online..he still online..talk to him abit..hhaa hungry sia..eat banana le..later sleep can liao.cannot eat supper later grow fat..at night eat too much supper also no gd..endhere..

Today right now in class finish presentation already..sian leh. just now presentation I felt i didnt do well..so nervous..and the project so simple n other pple de better than me..but over liao like that lor..raining now too..hope it wont rain later so that it is better..

Haiz.. Vin ar..dun clap for me sia..clap for shereen..wow make me jealous ar..no lah kidding only..i also cant remember if he did clap or not..too nervous liao..haaa then the com so slow..then feedback from pong that my presentation make them blur.coz the mouse fly here and there..hhaa..i never comment anything..
heee i joking that i want to sit with pong instead of Vin..that time we are joking wat..hhaa that i sit with him..hhaa
dunno wat to write already..maybe tonight update..is like many pple know i have blog le..but leh..only hui n ling have my blog url..

Well continue from today's blog..well went to catch a movie with vin and pong they all..hhaa i told vin dun be late.in the end i turn up late..then we were like walking very fast so wont miss the movie wat..we watched coach carter..is abt basketball..basketball coach lor
He is very strict with his training of students but is for their own good..atlthough starting sian lah..but watch already find it interesting n some parts funny..tired sia..blog liao i will sleep..
after watching movie.I went to eat dinner with Vin at suntec..so gd of him..today he order food for me..after eating, we walk a while n he sent me home..
i know he is very good to me..help me carry my bag etc..never doubt him now..but i do do do hope he never lie to me..that he treat me gd is truely from his heart..i believe lor..coz he loves me..i love him too..being with him today is great..well he is very naughty today..tease me lor..everytime like that..so bad of him..but i know he mean no harm de..wow really tired..end here...

Sian..

Today went to sch..nothing much to do too..went back at 1.15..so gd sia..no cca also..mm..IT lesson see classmates present..oh no..tml my turn..i didnt prepare..dun care..just present as i go along..then PE no need run..weather so hot..if we run surely get burnt? so we play game straight away..well..play basketball lor..sweating like hell everyday when i walk to sch from mrt station or watever..this kind of weather having Pe. is even worse..

after P.e lunch..i ate spahettie..eat til abit scare..maybe too much..i dun really like..tt time i like coz i hungry? tt why? or becoz i ate abit only..maybe ba..well after lunch is Cbz ..then go home le..haiz..as usual do letter lor.. i cant finish and i bring home n do..anyway weather hot also hard to do u see..dear so hardworking is it..offine go n do work..dunno him lah..11 plus then do..wat time can he finish..well he finish letter of enquiry le tt wat i heard..he doing others..for me i finish tt and notice of meeting..minutes i do it tml ba..
haven study sia..then tml after sch go and catch a movie with pong they all together with vin too..haiz..i been lazy lor..but i did my work lah..cannot dun do..must do..coz exams coming..abt 2 weeks left for cbz and two weeks left for HRa..haiz..

dunno why sian sian just now..vin again ba..everytime he so busy..either watch tv or play game while he is online..cant be helped..i cant say him or blame him..he has his free time..to do wat he wants..cant expect him to chat with me everytime..but really lah..last time we chat more lor..now lesser..dunno why.. i just feel i not tt impt now as compared to last time..but he still treat me gd..maybe i think too much? i dunno..sometime feel sad that he is so busy..but as his gf , i have to be understanding..so like that lor..even dun like also dun say..

ok lah i feeling sleepy..end here.eyes closing..

Back to sch liao today..I just finish doing the HRA past year paper..mmm..Mrs Quek given us last week i guess ..then i completed it ..done with it , I can relax abit..

Well..Today feel tired..i drank coffee..if not i surely sleep de..kind of tired..but ok lah..hee so great that we didnt need to attend csv n kds lesson sia..
Sch end at 2.15..so great..Vin sent me home..b4 tt we went to buy the drink that i wanted..as usual..Mr bean 's soyabean milk..we share lor..dunno why i love to drink that nowaday..addicted haha..well anyway is a healthy drink like i said b4..mm..he ate a pancake also..so small de..kaya de.. i dun want coz surely sweet de..

mm..Mr Ramu is back today..then as there is no csv lesson he took over that lesson as ent..then after recess also ent..anyway lesson is being push up ..so we end earlier..nothing much today..everyone seems to have holiday mood..then Hazel not here today..talking abt project over the phone..wow she so fed up.as if she scolding me..but i know is not..she mood swing wat..understandable .haiz..early in the morning nag at me.. poor me..nvm..

Well.heard that MF will sit at Chandra place..to Kl is a gd news..to me a bad news..but better than she sits at bro place..dun want bro move so far away u see..well..she sits behind me ..omg..surely ask me questions etc..cant be helped..haiz..maybe is better this way..

mm..back to sch abit stress u see..then ar..dunno lah mum nag again..wat else..but i also like tt..get used le..patch back get nag is normal..but wat i know exams coming..i been going out for the past few days..is time to study le..dun care abt other stuff..i feel i keep myself occupied i wont think lor..like the past few days..i feel happy..
Our love getting deeper..i know leh this time he the one for me..want to spend the rest of my life with him le..dun care le..well regarding parents accepting him..i feel as time goes by..should be able to..have to face de lor sooner or later..when we are together for a longer period i will settle de..coz more firm..ok lah end here..

Today..I woke up feeling so tired..so nice to sleep but have to go out so i have to wake up ..then bath n went to buy lunch..Went to Amelia's house lor..b4 that i went to find soya bean drink..too bad no Mr bean de..i want to drink!! then no choice i bought jollibean de..so small cup..$1.20..haiz..

Then i went to Ling's house..reach abt 2.10 ..weather so hot man..then i reach a while hui reach le..hee..we talked lor..then see friendster etc..hhaa disturb ling's blog..hhaa write crap..hhaa so funny man..Hui n I naughty ar? that's us hhaa..so fun..hhee then we even post it while she went to bath..hahaa then when she was back she saw it n quickly delete off..hhee..
we decide a while where to go sia either 800 plus or century square..but hui said Cs nothing much..in the end i felt hungry so decided to eat fries..so long didnt ate mac fries..so we went to 800 plus de mac..sat there eat & talk..til five plus we went back to ling's house..thinking of leaving at 6..but end up i stay til 7 sia..hhaa butt stuck there..haaa talk to ling, her mum n hui til dun want to leave..gals' talk hhaa..talk abt bgr lor etc..

Then i reach home at 8.15 hee bath and had dinner at 9 .not hungry wat..tt why..mm..dear called me when i was at ling's house tt was 6.35 ..hhee asking me go home already..haa i say wow guan wo le ar..then ask wat i ate..hehe i say roasted pig..he said ya mac has tt ar..hee i know i trying to be funny..hhee..naughty wat..pple miss me i know de..sometime i dun like pple to control me like wat time i go home..but no doubt he asked abt it i fine with it..love it..it shows tt he cares lor..rather than dun bother u see..

mm..just feel relaxed this few days..i know i am very occupied.so never think so much..maybe dun need to face YH n MF ma too..no stress.i play enough..must study le ...exams going to come ..abt two weeks later..k end here

Nice Day!!

Today awoke by msg..kai ling msg me ..asking me i f i would like to go out..so thinking that i have nothing to do..i went out with her to bugis..then i thinking of going changi find dear..then not so sure how to go..in the end also go.took bus 29..he suspected lah when kai ling called him asking abt the bus to go there.i know he is smart..anyway he found out i visiting him..nvm lah..but he is touched..that wat he says..coz he miss me n i go all the way there..i know can take 29..but not so sure where to alight..anyway can find civil service club..hee then go admin office lor. i know he in the office..

He see me never talk..dunno leh he give an expression i wonder wat was he thinking..then talk in msn he told me he was lost for words. touched too.hhaa ..i went to find him and went to eat.lst. then dinner break acc him..then i went home..eight plus then reach home..mum know i went to find him coz i come back late..anyway she didnt scold lah..hha say i so li hai go til changi..hhaa..

what i know is show that u care n ..not regret when u cant do it le..u can love n care ..do all u want..since i lose once..i know to care n concern more for the person I love..dun want to have any regret..coz i just love him...i never make someone touched b4 i guess..he will be honoured..
hhaa dear surprise me today..shocked me..dun ask me wat..this is between me n him..i wont tell hhaa..well very happy today n tired on the way home..sleep late last night ba..
end here le..hee mood so gd..