Well Today I feel alright compared to sunday & yesterday..I was really tired on sunday n yesterday..We have a small sec sch gathering at Island resort on sat night..stay over night til sunday..I feel that it wasnt that nice n enjoyable..quite boring..but one thing for sure..sun rise is so beautiful..4 of us, Ker Hisen, Boom Tom , Pei fen & I went to watch sun rise at the jetty..we cycled there in the morning..Boom Tom ride two seat bicycle..I didnt sleep much on sat night..cant get to sleep..chat instead ..slept 1 hr only..haha..

I can see that everyone is so tired and half dead on sunday morning hee...We didnt sleep much the whole night wat..is normal..
This is the lst time I stay overnight..the feeling is gd..to see all my frenzs together..although a small group..not so bad..coz u get to know others better..even though never talk much last time,we will talk already..that is gd..a pity I forget to bring camera 2 the jetty..i left it at the chalet :p anyway I "gain" something ar ..injure my knee.lol..nvm small matter

End here ba..I do my work le..I guess we have another gathering when free..not chalet or bbq le..troublesome..no one ate the food..so sad..

Moody..stress

I dunno why..I just face problems..work n him..make me even more stress..I know I need him at times..when I am down n even when I am happy..but I dun get to meet him ba..he is busy with NDP rehearsal..I am stress..cant u understand..work load so much..u cant comfortable me ar? haiz..I feel like crying at times..too stress til I want to cry..stress then u still treat me coldly at times..dunno wat u doing..maybe I think 2 much? dun want to think le..no mood 2 work sia..thinking of chalet stuff..not that sure how to go..I have bad sense of direction u see..later get lost haaa..jia lat one hor..want to enjoy also have so much problem..staying overnight tml yeah..

I go n do my work ba..end here..I hope I feel better..just blog a bit..looking 4 new job..have job offer but rejected.I want a better environment..I jia you lor..may god bless me.. :)
yeah just relax tml..dun wish 2 think so much..

Worry freak?

I dunno..I feel that our atttiude towards each other changed since so many things happen..maybe dun wish to put in so much hope n effort ba? plus he is quite busy recently..outfield..NDP stuff..he said he dun have much time for me this year..I feel that we can plan de lor..so he say see when free then meet lor. Y he gives such attitude? I guess we need our free space also ..But I dun wish that becoz of that we drift apart, it will be bad..

Recently we quarrel..easy to argue....sigh..temper getting worse..but yesterday's msg was sweet and make me feel secure n happy ba..He meant wat he says? so I am still very impt? He needs to spend time with his frenzs..I understand de..but I guess wont meet for 2-3 weeks..I didnt really tried b4..gonna miss him..sigh..I just find my own programs lor..go church service etc..We need some space yeah..

I not going acc him next week ba coz I dun want to go to his place so often..not gd..u get what I mean? I dun like..he needs rest also..and he says he go church with me..but end up he doesnt want to go..hhaa coz I didnt go n find him?
I just explain how I feel..I really hope he understands..I am a gal..I have my fear also..We r old enough to know wat is right or wrong..but sometime it can be a rash action etc..not that gd u see..

Somehow feel jealous coz I know he meeting a bunch of gals or two gals probably on sat..I guess is normal although I know they r just his frenzs..He said I can join him if I want..I wont want 2 spoil his fun plus I will get jealous lor if they talk n neglect me..hhaa so easily jealous?? is normal wat..I am still alright since I know them..is alright to meet but better dun lie to me lor..trust is very impt..

End here..

Farewell Mr Mike Ho..

Recently..many things happen..sian..We just heard a recent news..that Our sec sch ex physics teacher, Mr Mike Ho CK passed away on sat..is really sad to know it.He is still so young..age of 38..

I remembered Mr Ho as a nice n very patient teacher whereby he will explain things til u understand..although we used to be noisy in class..he was patient..classmates dun appreciate wat he did..but I know some did..We didnt see him for a few years..and didnt know the last time we get to see him is at his wake on mon..this news is really shocking..I heard it from Wei Ling..she msg me..

He is my form teacher when I was in 4N2 which is in Year 2002.Mr Ho looks skinny le..sigh..he is a nice teacher..why he have to die so early..but I guess is better for him now as he went home with the lord..with no suffering n pain..I hope he is happier..in heaven..I believe Jesus will take him with him.. :) rest in peace Mr Ho..I believe u will be glad to know that ur ex students are doing fine..aint u?

We saw our teacher..Mr Devan..he is doing fine..happily married with Ms Cheok..I know he is sad coz Mr Ho & him is like buddies..start to teach together..go out have fun also..even be his best groom when he get married in year 2004..
I am glad we have the chance to pray our last respect..even though he may forget us? I guess he wont.. May god bless of us n Mr Ho..

End here..

What u want?

Seriously I just wish we ignore each other and that's it la.why u bother to call me? luckily my hp is off coz of low batt..I didnt even hear the voice mail til this morning lol..that will make u give up? I thought is Lai Mei..pastor's sis..so I didnt bother..didnt know is u..

I dunno wat else we can say..everything is ruined til like that & I heard some things abt u ,but dunno whether to believe wat I heard..i am in doubt..maybe I see it then I will believe..I know I try hard to forget u..but I didnt although I didnt call u or msg u anymore..u just come to my mind..but wat to do..I cant care so much..I worry alot whenever I am with a person..how I know wat ur motive? dangerous..

Right now I have my bf..I dun wish to think abt other stuff but build up our relationship..sometime I am in doubt as whether single is gd..maybe it is..so I wont get entangled in such stuff..sian..tired u know that..tired whereby the matter doesnt end..he doesnt give up..haiz..do I have to hear wat he has to say? haha MY is right..wait for him to call instead of calling him..here he is calling me le..but I didnt on hp..too bad..I dun think I wish to hear from him anymore..dun want to hear craps.dun make me put in hope la..I very scare it is a trap..so I keep pulling myself away..if he isnt single, I get myself into trouble lor..

End here..

I feel better

I really feel better today..I am on mc today..too tired physically n mentally last night..just went to see doc n rest..yawn.. well maybe we said we wont contact but he really not that heartless..to see me unhappy..still cares for me..I know him..guys can say they wont do that etc..if they r really heartless like someone..maybe I am to blame.I am heartless to him lst..haha..he wont care..

We still keep in touch..kind of chat alot today..msg alot..mm..nan de..for the past few days maybe too sad..we didnt contact much although somehow msg him n saw him online..just dunno wat to say..now just talk like normal lor..
I just feel that God maybe blessing me..to let us talk again..we r frenzs..still care for each other..is normal..I feel that sometime maybe is hard to be frenzs..but there are pple who will do so..just that maybe we cant care so much like we used to be?

It is a matter of time to forget everything..said is easier than done..I will try..try to forget that someone..better not to see him..and better that he dun give me any hope so I can forget him.. just that the more u want to avoid the more u get to meet the person? I saw him at the main door of our company..face to face..I pick up the internal call.is from him..I still see him in the office.is this coincidence? I dunno ..wat to do have to work what..dun want 2 think so much..

I want to pursue my career and studies...bgr is not impt anymore to me & Vin..we lead our own life..relaxed lor..I believe if we r fated, maybe we may be together again..I feel is hard as the pain is so much that he wont want romance..he is silly but I know I am lucky..thx god 4 giving me this bf..maybe we just not fated..

I really feel I am very blessed in life...to have a family ..with my doting mum..really thx my mum for all her care & Concern all this years..although I can be stubborn, talk back at times..and even not spending much time with her..I try to spend more time with her already..She really a lovely mum..if there is a next life.. will be glad to be her daughter again..really thx god for letting me meet my 3 best frenzs..Amelia, Shi Hui & Wei Ling..who are always there whenever I need them..to talk etc..they will be willing 2 listen..I love u guys..

Thanks Vin too..for always being there when I need him..even up to now he still cares for me..such a guy hard to find but maybe not fated..I am not so worth for u to be so gd to me ..I can say u really treat me well..although I am hot tempered at times..we compromise even if we quarrel..not really a big quarrel..we just give n take..either one person apologise and we are fine.I cant deny being happy with u for the past two years..been through a lot n u never leave me..I can only say I feel sorry that I am unfair to u..but u never blame me..thanks for it..

U guys must be thinking wat wrong with me..talk abt all this..I just have this thoughts and want to express how I feel that all..coz life is unpredictable..no one knows when we will leave this world..haha my mum just feel that my thinking quite weird since I went to church service..I change? nope ..I think abt all this all the while..from wat I see..and hear..I just learn to cherish life..but maybe I never cherish relationship..

end here..

Carefree life..

I dunno should I say I am really carefree now and I should feel happy..somehow not that happy..I guess I need to take some time 2 adapt..after all I am so used to being attached..is the end between us..I just let it be.I believe in fate..maybe this path is the best for me..I dun have this kind of life for so long..I want to take a break and concentrate on my work..I want to get a gd career..it takes time and I am still looking 4 it..

Frankly speaking, I guess this is the best way..we can lead our own life.do wat we want without restriction..I love that..I believe that every relationship make us grow up..and learn more things..as long as we dun make stupid mistakes..love cant be forced..

I choose this path..but wat to do..I already choose, cannot regret and then u ignore me..what can I do..I just hope u let me give up totally ..dun call or msg me anymore 2 give me hope if u dun even bother already.. so I can forget u and continue my life..I know is hard..I dun want to bluff myself..I just fall in the well..trying to pull myself out..u know that kind of feeling? then wat abt u ? U like me? I find it hard to ans..u ignore me coz of what? I still get to see u..although u say u dun come up 2 office..haha.. :P u only tolerate 4 two weeks..I know u cant do it la..

Guys r like that..seriously I dunno whether u really like me..I give up coz u dun want to ans my call..b4 that u still msg 2 ask if I call u..I dunno for what..end up I didnt call..I am angry, dunno wat u want to say n afraid I will scold u instead..I already tell u how I feel..is up to u to care or dun care..I dun mind le ..wat can I do..I choose the path le..better for me..leave it to fate..tml is his birthday..but haha he has frenzs to help him celebrate de ba..I dun have to worry..

I just know like someone is so xin ku..I will try to forget u de..slowly ..if we are destined to be together, we will be together de..that is wat I can say..sometime hard to know if a person is playing with u..u have to see 4 urself..

End here..



End here ba..

What's wrong?

I dunno wat I thinking..I just know that my mood is ok today til we talk abt an issue.. sigh..wat is there a big fuss abt it that we can feel unhappy? small matter only..maybe he is stress up & unhappy..small little things he can get fed up..doesnt mean u r not impt to me..u can join me but I know u dun like so I never force u..is it really difficult to compromise..not just god.u, family n frenzs r impt too..

maybe u dun understand how I feel..I know u want me to acc u..I never say I wont pei ni wat..that u claim the time is short..sigh..compromise lor..go on alt sat..wat 2 do..relationship is a give n take one..but I believe u love me, u respect wat I did right? now u know how i feel when u put work at the very lst priority that u almost neglect me..I really not happy..is the same thing..now u know..

I feel this is only a small matter..wat u concern actually isnt this..is more than that..I know u..I been together with u..I know how u feel..but sometime is also hard to know wat guys r thinking..
what to do..sigh..

end here..

Still cant forget..

I dun want to think abt u..but u keep coming 2 my mind..is unfair..I feel alright..til I saw u drive past me today..u act as if u never see me I guess..I dun want de..but I just happen to see u..sian..I rather I dun see u ba..then I wont feel sad..I dunno why I hope to see u..but when I see u.I feel sad..I am just reminded of wat happen..I cannot forget!!! I am that kind who can remember things de for so very long or even cant forget..like I saw Hang ten..I am reminded of stuff..so hurt n sad abt wat I did..haiz..but now dun really think of it..

Nvm I need time..and perhaps u or I leave the company ,it will be fine..slowly fade..better? I just want to enjoy myself today and feel happy that I have my dear beside me..dote n love me no matter wat happen.I am unfair to him..I will treat him even better..coz I know I love him..just that I cant get over wat happen..sigh..I really need time..time can heal everything ba..

End here..

Mon Blues..

Today just feel sian..dun feel like doing any work but have to work..so I just do my work seriously..maybe I think alot..still reminded of him..wat to do..unless I leave this company..still wonder why is he not here..lol..silly hor? I shouldnt do that..I stopping myself le from contacting him..coz he already told me not to ...I know..like that we can forget each other ? u really want to do that?

I still treat u as frenz wat..dun have to do til like that ba..now building my relationship..we need some time..I already get back those feeling together..but hope it will be even better..hope everything turns out fine..I am bad..can do this and yet he forgives me..sigh..I am unfair hor..I hope this is the last time..we cant take it if there is another such test..sigh..maybe is all fated..if there r problems, end up we r still together..maybe is fate..I dunno still early to tell? who knows wat happen..I just hope we two can have a gd relationship n walk on til old..but right now I dun want to think abt that.career is impt to me lst..then studies..earn money first..if not cant even think of other stuff..

End here..

Settled & hope things turn out fine

Everything is back to normal..and Dear told me how he feels..our ship is nearly sinking again..but right now we trying to save it again..hopefully I will be fair..he told me if I think he not the ideal guy, tell him earlier..I believe he is..just that I am so soft hearted..Sorry dear for hurting u ..haiz I am a bad gal..

Father lord, I really hope n pray that my heart wont waver and that we r happy together..he is gd to me n dote me..if I give him up, I am really a fool..maybe my guy is just right beside me..I dunno how to cherish..hurt him..r u telling me he is the one?? although some things I cant accept..but no one is perfect..I know that..
I just wish to have someone who love me truely n dote me n my family..to be able to share my burden..regardless of happiness or saddness..have a flat..help me in housework, down to earth..did I ask alot?

I get back the feeling yesterday..have fun n of course really a bit down yesterday til a very big extreme..that I dun want 2 mention anymore..

I went to sentosa with dear..took cable car..the feeling is gd..took some pics at vivo n sentosa..rainy day wor..we went to pasta mania n have dinner..hhee..he treat me lunch so I treat him for dinner..:) been spending quite alot of money this week..have to save a little..
anyway life is to enjoy at times..I mean cannot be spendthrift but then sometime I want to enjoy life..a little..like drinking or having some food that I like..after all we work so hard..agree?

Right now we just see if we can stable our relationship after he ord..and I get other job n studied..this is a test for us..that this is a test..if we can get through..mm..more or less know we can settle down..soon..

Now I just wish to work hard and get a better job..career is impt..no career,other things we can lay aside lor..end here..

Just want to be alone..

I dunno ..I feel miserable ba..I feel unhappy although things r settled..Sorry D..I hurt u..wat I said also no use..nothing is fair in this world..u have to forget me..I know I have a bit feeling for u.I just dun dare to face it..I fear for the future..I feel that i dun suit u really..sorry being unfair..I am afraid I love u temp. or wat..is unfair to u..so I rather never start ba..sorry..I really dunno how to face u when I see u..I know wo zai hu ni..yet I stop myself from falling in..haiz..why? love is so complicated..

I just cant overcome this..it making me collasping..maybe u guys will say I stupid n silly..my mind n body really tired..give me a break can? I know dear u r beside me..sometime I also need to take a break..know u understand n wont disturb me..I just want 2 be alone now..I really dun feel happy this two months..D u think is ur fault..is not.dun blame urself..if u didnt ask..others may ask..still the same.. I just hope u can find ur ideal gal.and settle down..u r not young le..

End here..may god bless u..I believe he will..wish u happiness..

What I want?

Frenz say me is true..I really dunno what I want..or maybe I know what I want but I am afraid to face it..so never make empty promise..i cant say I dun feel happy with u..is that my heart just waiver..why is that so? I dun dare to face how I feel..I can say is my problem..even if he doesnt appear..there may be problems..I guess is all my fault..
Maybe I should just be left alone..better for me? choose wat I want? then end up cannot find then forget it lor..single..is that what I want? I dun want to hurt u two..

Seriously y I worry abt u not coming to work? I cant figure out how I feel towards u..is it like? I just feel so comfortable talking to u n going out with u..I dun feel any stress..but recently talk to u..I guess we r giving each other attitude le..why is that so? then u can feel I am a bad person..I worry when u didnt on ur hp..or ans the call..I scare something happen to u..coz I care right? I dun have to do that right? but why? frenz dun do that..I am doing more than that le..

I dun want to regret wat decision I make..frankly speaking Dear I know u r gd to me since we r together for so long..maybe I demand too much..that I go out with u..I tend to be unhappy when I dun wish to..how come? I mean when there isnt some romantic stuff but u r true to me..u love me for who I am..u forgive me for what I do..if is me, will I do the same? this is a gd question..

I also dun dare to get into a new relationship although I do say I did like u a little..but wat kind of like is that? end up I find u not suitable..break with u no point lor..I dun have the confidence..beside there is alot to consider..why must I think so much..like pple will say just do what u think is right..I dunno u well..maybe I doesnt suit u..i think u forget me ba..

Frankly speaking if I knew this will happen again..coz no sparks etc..i shouldnt patch back with u..then we can have our own life.isnt it better? maybe u can find someone whom u truely love n she truely love u..I am being unfair to u..maybe I haven find the one who will let my heart stay firm..still young so I tend to choose..
Is my expectation too high?

End here..

I really dunno what's wrong with u..sometime u will ans call, sometime u wont..then u claim u r slping..really? then when u call me I must ans? not fair leh..maybe we r just denying how we feel..I just dun dare to face it..I know is unfair..then I react in that kind of tone last night coz I care n worried ..I know ur gum hurts so ur mood isnt that gd..I cant help caring for u & I am worried which makes me worry why..I can bluff others but not myself..I know how I feel..is just that I dunno how to face it..so I just let it be..

I dun want to hurt u or others..I been bluffing myself..bluff myself that I treat u as frenz..but the concern between us seem more than that..is unfair to him..but I really dun care so much abt him..which is bad..my heart isnt firm after all..I scare I hurt u also..I think alot..worry this n that..so I just let nature takes its course..

I been thinking u claim that u dun have gf.really or not? I just want to take a step at a time , be ur frenz n go out have fun..know each other better then come n say lor..
u ask me if I mind the age gap..frankly speaking I do mind but sometime certain things when u r in it..u wont mind anymore..
I wonder if u r serious with me..is comfortable to talk to u..and shop around..can u tell me how u feel towards me?

End here..

Moody..

Seriously I am quiet today..maybe abit siao siao also..but deep in my heart, I dun feel happy..I guess I think 2 much..sorry I have to make u disappointed coz is really not the right time nor right way to agree..I know I feel bad and I cant hide my feeling that I admire u a little..but then maybe it isnt that much like what I think..I worried abt u, I care for u..

I dunno why..but right now..I have him le..so I wont want to think so much..so I clarify le last night and let nature takes its course lor..dun want to create misunderstanding n trouble which will make us miserable..

I dun mind being ur friend..nice to chat with..dunno why we just can click.let's take a step at a time..just be friends ba...I wont want to think so much....I mean u want to know it so fast..so sudden but I answered u..haiz...wat to do..I dun want to bluff myself n u..frankly speaking I have been trying 2 bluff myself..but I know myself..
Making myself unhappy etc when I think too much..haiz..

Dear I just thought of u so I got my answer..end here..

Confused

I dunno why..some pple tend 2 be playing or serious? I dunno..just find them fan at times.be friends is aright..seriously I dun mind going out together as a group..not more than that..I am not that gd as u guys might think..I have temper etc..right now I have him, is gd enough..I dun want to think abt what happen in the past & hope it wont repeat..my dear friends who r reading this..u know , I know wat I talking abt..

haiz..sometime it just comes..dunno why..I not showing off..just writing down my thoughts..out of a sudden They want to take my hp no.. dunno what they up to..so weird..I mean for so long then they take..I dun mind exchanging no. but dun disturb me will be gd enough..I just feel confused and pai seh when I see them..dunno how to face them..I just pretend to be normal but I know I am not..maybe I think 2 much? but from what I see, I feel that it isn't so simple..

End here..

Tired weekends

I am back to work after stock take..wow been tired this few days..stay til 10 plus on last fri and 9 plus on sat..Sat was quite free in the sense that we can have a chat and just do wat we want..like no body biz? haaaa..coz nothing to do ..wat u expect us to do? stare blankly at the wall? so We just do wat We like..luckily I can rest yesterday..I was tired..hhaa was watching dvd til quite late too on sat..I just want to relax myself..enjoy the drama and slp at 2am :P so u guys must be telling me, I shouldnt complain I am tired right? haa..currently I am catching hua yang shao nian shao nu, I want to get the part 3!! Cant wait to watch..

Quan is so handsome and finally have frenz who agree with me.. hhaaa..usually I think is handsome, others wont think so..hhaa they will say ok , or so so..hhaa
Ling thanks for agreeing with me haa.. This Brunei Guy, although his brunei accent abit weird, but his chi is gd enough for a Brunei Guy..

My weekend is gone just like that but once a year only , which is fine..I haven see Dear yet since CNY..didnt meet him for a week..miss him? I still feel alright, maybe too tired and occupied..dun have the feeling of missing him too much..how come?

End here ..

Chinese New Year

I am back again..hhee..it is still CNY..I just talk abt my CNY..Nothing much though..

I went to both ah ma's house as usual on the lst day of CNY.. I didnt get a huge amt of hong bao.still alright..2nd day went to Vin's house and he came to my house too..then we have steamboat for dinner at my place.. :)he can acc me to have dinner..
3rd day sian ..Wei Ling came to my house and we decide to watch "Just follow law" directed by Jack Neo..It is so funny..and full house lor..we plan to watch 2.15 slot but not enough tickets..left two tickets but my younger bro catching it with us..so we went to watch at 5.50 istead..We went swedsen to have earthquake ice cream n then head down to my house..after that we catch the movie..

I met WL thrice last week..hhaa miss each other too much? just kidding..I went out last sat n sun too..sat went to YY's 21st birthday at costa sand pasir ris..nothing much also..a bit sian..but she invited me so I just went..Sunday went WL's house bai nian with Ling & SH..then we dunno where to go either so stay at my house lor have a chat ..eat goodies..Mum wasnt in de..but nvm..coz they are my best frenz..We did have fun although just simply chatting..is gd.. :) as usual We tease Amelia lor regarding pri 6 incident hhaa..which I wont mention here..secret among us :P

Nothing much to do at work as stock take is coming..after that can faint haiz..end here la

I am back again..Didnt blog abt a week..busy busy busy when CNY is around the corner..alot of work to do..

Anyway I bought Nian huo le..wow can spend alot on that..now leave bak kwa, going pay ah yi 4 ordering 4 us...once a year is alright..
Still have to get drinks..nvm downstair sells them..

I just went 2 Chinatown after going Vivo City 2 feel the CNY atmosphere on sat..so crowded..
Too bad camera no batt cant take pics..sob..didnt check, and this is wat happen ar dear..hhaaa

Anyway I got him a cookie cake from Famous Amos for V day..Birthday gift, given le..a polo shirt for CNY yeah..haiz..V day n his birthday so near no gd..lol..have to get so many things..kidding..
Anyway there is a card made by me..
I do hope he really love wat I give.

Thinking of getting 1 more top and get a shoe or something 2 go along with my dress.. :) hhee happy that I can see him tml..thought I wont be able to..but no plans at all as I thought we wont celebrate lor..anyway we can have a simple meal ..and beside we kind of celebrate on sat..I treat him food..so is ok..

Like wat pple will say, if u r lovely and has a stable relationship, everday is V Day..I agree..doesnt have to be on 14 feb right?

K end here and going do my work & go shopping again after work..busy CNY period wor..

Tiring Sat..

I am back again blogging..I feel sleepy today and I can say is very tired after having our company dinner last night..We went to Yen Place at chinatown n have dinner..

It is quite fun.guess wat Jean end up sit with us.I didnt expect her to sit with us..I guess no seats already that's why..Boss naughty haaa..He can get really fun joking with us n enjoying with us..is gd..have a gd relationship..We get very high wor..hhaaa not taking pills ar..lol
We have Karaoke session to go with the dinner..I sang 1 song with Jasyln..bei ji xue.. :)
Ah seng really can sing..not bad..

I tried red wine again..Boss naughty..we ordered soft drinks & he replaces the soft drink with red wine instead ..dun let us drink soft drink..hhaaa..I cant drink alot..I dun drink wine de..So I guess I get abit drunk last night hhaa..a bit blur blur..tired lor..I dunno..

I know dear u are worried but dun worry I am fine.. :) still manage to get home and I know how to get home hhaa..
I enjoyed myself..left at 10pm..as today we have to work wat..if not I stay longer..dun feel like going off lor..

Anyway meeting dear later..k go n do my things..enough of last night..end here..

A new year..2007

I didnt blog for a few weeks le..and I am back..Starting of this year, I am busy with work as CNY is coming..busy for this two weeks..not enough time to use lor..sob..

Anyway I celebrate my 21st birthday with WL, SH & Amelia..at MSQ KBox..we did have fun and they bought me a choc. cake wor..yummy..It isnt too sweet and is nice..quite fun singing together but Ling hhaa.. we could'nt hear her voice :P sing from 2 plus til 7 +..then have dinner together and shop around..

Dear wasn't free to celebrate with me..nvm.. but earlier on he got me a strawberry cake n bring it to ah ma's house there together with other snacks..touched..thanks dear..but u didnt cut the cake with me..a bit disappointed ba..
I did have fun guys..sigh old liao hhaa..u guys still have a long way..

I went to Suntec on Sun 2 shop around & so I went 2 see project superstar..hhee Daren is handsome wor..so mi ren..I hope he is the champion..of course not forgetting the rest..Nat cute..Carrie is pretty..Diya also not bad..glad that I can see them..I remember I didnt go n see pss last year..but I saw b4 Xin hui and Jun Yang.. :) not bad too..

I just went to buy death note comics to read after catching the movie.I am glue to the comics..omg!! how? I am not that type who love comics but I reading them now..hhaa I am a bit surprise of wat I am doing :P maybe bcoz it interest me..

Alright I shall end here la..I have to do my work & free I will blog again..

Sian..disappointed..

I am working as usual on sat..feeling grey?? hhaa I feel sian & I know I miss him but I cant see him today unless I go n visit him?? but then I end work abit late, reach there quite late plus I feel tired..bad right dun visit him?I plan to meet but he had rashes last night so cant see him today..I dunno wat I plan 2 do today..I know abt it this morning,last min wat to do..maybe go library then go TS shop around for dvd etc & then I go home lor...nothing 2 do..have to think of present to buy 4 the gift exchange.
I will feel tired after work,frankly speaking I dun feel like going anywhere..beside today is sat, so many labels to print..sure print til siao..I try 2 finish printing them today lor..I cant help feeling disappointed but sometime cant be helped & I dun blame him..just that so coincidence he meeting me today, yesterday like tt..nvm I see him on xmas eve then..

Happy that I meeting WL on mon..finally we can go shopping together..she has been busy nowaday with her assignments etc..now waiting for death note 2 to come..anyway Wen Wen did ask us if we wants to go for death note GV marathon..I wasnt really interested as I catched death note already, no point though..beside death note 2 wil be at 12am..so late!

Alright I end here..

Latin Dance Club Rocks!!

Well didnt blog a two weeks..here I am back again..

I just had an early xmas party in sch.. :) my cca party..I did have fun yesterday though.get together with juniors after I graduate but too bad YH & XT cant attend.Anyway YK & Andrew did came..
glad to see all of them plus Casey & Mrs Foo..Mrs FOo bought the strawberries & marshmallow for us to dip into chocolate..yummy..is really nice..then we have fried bee hoon fried by Zi Yun's mum..satay, fishballs etc..

hhaa of course we exchange presents..each of us bought one gift..haha luckily didnt get forfeit hhaa..some lucky onces, they draw the piece of paper with forfeit written hhaaa..heng!
anyway I left sch at 9 plus..is so dark..We did have fun..
Hope we can meet up more often ..

I have to get another present.sigh..dunno wat to get..my company exhanging gifts too and we will have food on fri..a small treat..I bought chocolates for the sch party..wat abt this? chocolate again? I dunno..I didnt plan to exchange presents this year but since there is,I dun mind..it's quite fun though..

End here..hungry..waiting 2 go out 4 lunch..

Busy Day..

Well it has been a few weeks since I last blog..I guess nowaday I dun really have the habit of blogging as I am busy plus nothing much to blog..

Time flies & Dec is coming..I guess I will get busier soon..anyway I am busy today as the server is down for a few hrs & I couldnt do any work and I did them in the afternoon..finally finish my stack of work.. sleepy wor..wat a busy day..

I just went to the adidas sales which is held in expo..I went with him on sat..Mm..alot of pple & we have to queue to get in.u cant bring ur bag in, they give u a plastic bag to put ur things ..I get a pair of shoe.. :) finally..I wanted to get a pair of new shoe long ago..I went to popular sales too..but didnt get anything..just shop around..then have dinner & shop around at tampines lor..


I guess my family bonding is better nowaday? ..atleast everyone have time 2 sit down 2 have meal together once a while on weekend..Last time we dun really do so as everyone is busy..I love this kind of feeling..kinship is impt..Well hopefully it stays this way..

I hope it won't rain during weekend coz I am going out..Xiao Jie wants to go east coast so we going together with Dear..
I think I didnt see my grandma for quite long..I have to find a day to go n visit her..I miss her though..
I thinking of making a new pair of spect as mine is really so old n tt the lens have scratch marks..sigh..Maybe go & make on sat..I just hope to have an enjoyable weekend yeah..

Mm.. wat else did I miss out? I guess nothing much..so I end here..

Mon Blues...

Today I am quite free..Just have a bit of work to do..Feel abit moody in the morning..I dunno why..I guess Mon blues?? hhee..well yesterday just stay at home..nothing much..

I talk abt sat..This year celebrate anniversary earlier..haaa then recall abt last year I cant even remember..opps..but I have noted it down haaa..so I recall le..This year no flower though..a bit disappointed..nvm the celebration is over :P We went to Msq to catch Death Note..The movie is quite interesting..I never regret catching it..I thought it is a horror movie til WL told me tt it is not a horror story..It is really nice..whereby anyone's name written on the death note bk , the person will die of heart attack within 40 secs if no details of death is stated..
But then there isnt any ending ..I guess there is going to be death note 2? After watching movie, We went to swedsen to have our dinner..ate ice cream too..great..Food not bad..then we went for a walk at esplanade park..nothing much though..just like tt..I got a wallet from him.. :)
Although my guy isnt romantic..but like he says he make an effort to celebrate the day with me..tt is gd enough..
I cherish the time being with him..I have to wait for one week then I can see him..sigh..nvm I guess time will pass by fast..Btw my dear can U try to be abit romantic? hhaaaa..just a little..anyway he wont read this :P haaa..End Here..

Today quite free though..I really rest lor..nothing much to do..anyway meeting him on sat..celebrate our 2nd anniversary..mm..I cant wait..We celebrate earlier lor..nvm we are happy..every day is our anniversary.. yeah..nothing much planned..but I hope we have a nice day..Sat need to work though..abit sian..but is alright coz after tt I can see him.. :) I guess we going catch a movie though..

So fast Nov comes..Wonder wat to get for Amelia n Dad's birthday coming soon too..sigh..I must crack my brain to think of wat 2 buy..sian when it comes to choosing gift..haiz..
Wat else to blog..nothing much ba..Just miss him lor..
I just hope we enjoy our days together & be happy..

End here..

Time flies and is coming to end of Oct and soon Nov will come..count down to our two year anniversary.I had prepared the gifts already..Just completed the cross stitch card yesterday..just wonder wat he will be giving me..I really have no idea at all and I guess he wont know wat I giving him..haha

I feel sad when I heard the news that he may be posted to Taiwan, Thailand etc for a year..so far we have not be separated whereby both of us in different countries..I guess it may be a gd test for us..How would I feel?? I will miss him lots and cant bear to let him go aboard but I cant be selfish though..It's a gd exposure for him as he will be learning stuff..but one year leh..seem so long ..God is giving us test everytime but I guess is gd to test our relationship..We already went through quite a few test..so can I say we pass them?? I dunno..kind of fail hhaa..

I have not told any close frenz abt this yet..It's not confirmed so didnt say anything..so just have 2 wait n find out whether he will be going or not..december will know ba I guess..army life is like tt..sigh ..I know he wish 2 go for a few week
only & he wont want to leave me here right..but sometime u cant choose..

Btw I finsh watching princess hrs le..bought the vcd though n watch..I really find Joo Ji Hoon( Xin Jun) charming..heee although the Lu is handsome..I prefer Xin le..I even bought the ost soundtrack..abit crazy ar..nice songs wat..mum nagging saying I waste money hhhaa
End here.. I do my work..not really busy today..Just miss him..

I have not been blogging for a week..somehow no time 2 blog u see..I have been busy this week..mm..mooncake festival period,I dun seem tt busy as compare 2 now..hari raya coming u see..

MM..update wat I did..well..working as usual and yesterday I had meeting after lunch with Boss & Pandan Loop pple.I think it's not really a meeting, a discussion session perhaps?? Mei Yue & I together with Elsie & Sharon attend lor.We just bring up issues etc ..I didnt comment on anything just listen..
I find tt James is a gd boss..mm..He is willing 2 listen to us and then if there is problems he trys 2 solve it, tt why we have a discussion session right? sometime he does try 2 interact with his employers..He quite friendly though but as he is a boss, I think I dun really dare 2 talk 2 him tt much?? just have 2 respect him..
Yesterday coz of the meeting,I get 2 have lunch with Mei Yue ..yeah..finally not lonely le..it has been some time we have lunch together..

Currently I watching princess hrs on channel u..it really interests me..I wasnt interested in korea drama at all at 1st but this drama really interests me..the female lead actress looks cute n pretty..so sweet..I guess she must be very young..I do hope 2 look for the vcd so tt I dun have 2 rush home everyday 2 catch it on tv..but I shall check out the price lst..dunno whether should I buy although I know I want 2 have it..hhaa I have been spending money on vcd..is it a waste of money?coz after catching it, u just leave it in ur cupboard..but usually I wont watch it for one time as it is nice..I really dun mind watching it again..so I guess it's worth the money right??

Alright I shall end here..too longwinded ar ..haaaa blog again when free..need 2 do my work..

Today Mei Yue is on mc and I work alone..but still managable.. :) well let me update abt weekends..

mm..sat went 2 have visit Peh Peh then went 2 eat steamboat..think I mention it b4..well did have fun with my family at marina south..I ate til so full..perhaps I gain weight?? opps ..i hope not hhaa..so crowded at zhen fa steamboat..have crabs, prawns etc..ate a few times at marina, I didnt even ate the crabs..Daddy get the crabs lor..but everyone limit 2 a certain amt..

well..sunday went 2 meet dear for lunch at tpy central then bought some fruits etc..he went 2 my house & we watch movie together..finally after so long....Mummy cooked dessert and we ate..We let him da bao some home 2 let his family eat.. :) Mummy didnt say anything..anyway I didnt do anything at all so wat can she says..haha..although spend a few hrs only, but is gd..

Tml is mooncake festival and I almost forget..My company gives us a box of mooncake each.so nice of them ar..I was quite surprised..anyway meeting Wei Ling tml for dinner..she wants 2 meet me today but i dun want..i want go home watch ge dou tian wang.ending today..actually she going catch movie but cancelled..anyway I dun want 2 go too coz this month spend alot though plus I want 2 be at home tonight..tml ba..then see whether Yu Yan want 2 join us..long time never chat wat..I dun mind..since she stays at tpy de..

Alright end here..blog alot today ar..so long winded hhaaa

Today is my turn 2 work as last week I wasnt working..mm..this few days quite free after doing my work and I can really rest a while ..mm.seldom get to blog le and I also dunno wat to blog so didnt uupdate..Update a bit...last sun went 2 Vin's house..after tt I met Mum to visit Peh Peh at tts hospital lor..well didnt really spend a lot of time with Vin so tml meeting him for lunch n we have a gd chat etc..tonight going marina bay 2 eat steamboat as mum birthday coming, I bring her 2 have some food..tt will cost me mm..abt $50 for my family..well is alright as birthday is only once a year.. the most I save abit next month, dun spend so much money lor..

I think i didnt update regarding wat I buying for Him..well a mug with our pics..is ready le..I have it done at bugis n is quite cheap though..I hope he likes it and i get a gift box 2 put it in..as for the card is not ready yet..hhaaa i do it too slowly but get it complete soon.. :)
End here

Very Free!!

Today quite free lor nothing much 2 do .. :) nan de free wor..juz recieve sms from the shop that My mp3 ready 2 be collected..yeah I am so happy..finally can have it back after 3 weeks..then can load my songs n hear..I really love 2 hear songs..but probably all gone n I need 2 load all the songs again..I love jj songs :( my fav songs other than 5566 songs..then i will back up the songs lor in my thumbdrive just in case.. :)

I just watched little man yesterday with dear..quite nice n funny..btw currently catching the magical of love ..find it quite nice..stories abt hair salon de..183 club acting..dear manage to find the part 2 for me..as i only bought one part at lst and now they only sell in 1 whole set.

End here..

So busy this few days...

Well..I have been busy this few days, busy til somehow I find I cant take it and cant manage as production there is so much to do ..sigh..anyway I feel ok la since tml sat le..time flies..MY not around I do work til siao.. *sob.. \

I just think alot sometime and today mood not very gd coz sian so many things to do..almost cry coz stress....yesterday he felt low..some things r hard 2 forget..I also never forget..but it makes me sad 2 know he is sad..haiz..I dunno..somehow there is something bothering us and We juz couldnt forget..I guess it takes time to overcome n even not overcome ..I dunno..k do my work..

Meeting dear on sun instead of tml..tml working I just feel tired to go out..I wish MY is back soon so at least there is two persons to do work n I have not apply leave.. end here..

Busy day

Today just feel busy..usually tue is like tt..anyway went to east coast on sat with dear n I went to sim lim square 2 bring my mp3 player 4 repair..so sad my mp3 is spoil.. * sob..anyway hope I can get it back soon..i guess songs will be gone..wat to do ..have to load again lor.. :(

I guess next few days will be busy coz Mei Yue will be on leave til next mon then come back..sigh..I just jia you ba and do my work..
btw my da zhu was sick but glad tt he is fine le ...let me worry hhaa..anyway who wont fall sick..

End here..

Well today is finally Fri..yeah ..didnt blog so often as nowaday busy and nothing much to blog.I going out with dear tml to sentosa yeah..but need to work abit sian..yesterday was unhappy coz of work but ok le..
last week watch the last show of fireworks.. nice..ok la have to end here..do my work

Fri

Today is fri again ..yeah ..tue went to catch firework again..not bad too.today going with Mei Fang to catch another one then tml go with dear..anyway I guess will be busy today..is gd as time pass by fast then I can enjoy my weekend..so fri usually my mood so gd when I dun work on sat..

ok la go n do my things..end here

Sat Working

Today is sat again..great and I working this week..well I going see firework tonight with dear..actually want ask mum go also byt she cant make it..she working today too..firework festival..I miss it last year..this year going lor..marina bay firework..I guess it will be great..anyway I going merlion park to watch..right now a bit hungry..nvm going to knock off soon..

Time flies and grandma is back to my uncle house..they finish upgrading le..yeah..suddenly house short of two person.. dun get used..happy although need to work cause can see dear later..well today not so busy..just do some printing of labels, filing and keying in data..yeah..

alright end here..go do my work

Bored

Today quite ok have things to do but now nothing to do lor..sian lor..I finish my work ..didnt dare to really use com coz boss around..but wat to do ..stare at the wall?? use com lor..dun get caught can le.the most get fired.lol..dun want la..job hard to find..

Today abit LS also..sian..miss him lor..but talk to him feel ok la..alright nothing to type..end here..

A bit busy

Well today is tue so a bit busy..sian lor always have order list..cant be helped just do.. it will keep me busy lor for the whole day..yeah ...cause have to print later after tt sia..anyway sometime Mei Yue look at me do things, I really dun like..like supervising me..sian de lor..cant be helped sometime I do make some errors..but who wont make mistake u see..yeah..today leave hp on my desk if not cant hear.when there is msg...the most dun keep using can le..it doesnt really ring u see..gd..everyone busy, so who will msg me sia :P well wear my new shoe to work today..abit tight though..just fit me..

Ok have to continue with my work.. I miss u dear..wondering wat u doing now.. mm..hope to hear from u soon..at least leave me a msg..

end here..

Friday yeah

Today is fri..yeah great.hhee tml dun need to work..I guess today alot of labels to print..btw today bai bai 7 month..think around 11 plus will go bai bai then eat at our working place.not going out eat le..

Now nothing to do wor ..waiting for Jaslyn to give me labels to print..hhee..
Tml meeting dear around 3..hope I have fun..then find a shirt for Jufri present..

Ok la end here..

Thursday

Time flies and I have worked for 3 weeks and tml is fri yeah..sat dun need work..hheee last week quite gd..sat go out with dear,sun meet hui, ling n wl go to bugis and pass them presents..hhee hui n wl birthday gift..it was quite great getting together..

yesterday busy sia with the m.o.. cause tue the IT person settle my password stuff then cant do my work u see..anyway today ok la do work lor..Tue just went to meet my 3 best frenz for dinner at marina square..tried the kfc chicken chop.It was not bad..
Sat going habourfront with dear..shop shop then buy jufri present..

ok la end here..

Weekend

Today I am happy coz going out after work..it has been two weeks since I work and today need to work..sat sia..but nvm next sat not working..meeting dear later.now nothing to do sia..sian must go n do something in case boss or Edmund here...

I going east coast park later in the afternoon..I had been sick on wed n thur and I took two days mc..sian..too heaty ba so fall sick..fever..but I am alright..back to work yesterday.. :)

Today only Jaslyn and I work..Mei Yue and Ming li off..btw Mei Yue is also a production clerk while Ming li N Jas in charge of outlet de ..quite nice environment so far..sometime still can joke not bad la..

Ok lah end here..

Many things just happen recently but then everything is settled.. thing just happen til a bit messy..that I break up with my dear..but then back together..sigh..during army time surely some thing happen and that I feel bad I hurt him..I hurt another person too..
SO moral of the story..cherish someone b4 u regret..but I guess that is the test for my relationship..maybe dear the one or wat..I hope he is..dun want to be sad again another time..the feeling terrible..like life no colours at all..

end here..

Troubled

Today didnt go out. Some things just happen so sudden tt I dunno how I should react and somemore I knew it just pretend dunno.y it happen 2 me and I make someone sad .I feel bad.I can only say sorry.love cant be forced.not one is two But I dun like.end here

long time never blog

hi.I am back..long time never blog..recently been working in Hang ten ..currently not working le..now using frenz com to blog..I just end my job on wed..hope to get a new job ..is nice working with kent etc..but after all I still need to leave..u see..anyway I will still go back n visit them..miss them though..hheee..My dear going army soon..nowaday really not enough time..seldom spend time together..he working and I also working..

I dunno when I can update my blog again..shall see..sunday going pray ah gong..well waiting for my pay so I can rebond hair.. haiz.. well..I dunno wat to update le..there are so many things to say..I guess I wont type in all here..that will be super long u see..just dun have much time nowaday..weekend busy working..

alright I end here..

Going to work

Well have job le going 2 work on thur le.hang ten near my place. Yeah! Just went 2 bbq on sat n yesterday went 2 pong chalet at changi. His birthday. Tml go cut hair.kind of mixed feeling going 2 work ,excited. Can earn money

Went to Amelia's house

Today went to Amelia's house..My dear at thailand lor so gd sia having holiday but will be back soon..dunno how is he.just recieve his msg and know he is fine..great.Weather not tt gd today look like going to rain heavily wor..just get a bubble tea wor..nan de can blog on a weekend.. My skin still sun burn due to wed lor ..go jurong swimming complex and have fun end up having sunburn..sigh..my nose's skin start peeling lor..look like snake..lol..I have been at home for two days..didnt want to go out also dunno where to go..luckily didnt go where as it rains this few days ...somemore heavily..

Talking abt wed ar..went to jurong in the morning..then have fun til 2 plus we went to have shower..12 of us went lor.masturah , dayana, hadi they all..after that went to seoul garden to have lunch..should be dinner le ar..4 plus then ate..so hungry sia..ate til 6 plus then went home..

Tml going to bedok lor bai ah gong..sian have to go that person house..cant be helped..for ah gong sake..anyway guess cousins will go ba..hope so..end here..

Today feel sian lor didnt go out.kind of tired.thinking of working.manage 2 blog using my hp,guess this month bill sure expensive .going out tml with dear and other friends 2 jurong swimming complex.didnt get to sleep well today caúse of yesterday which i dun want 2 mention end here

Last day of sch b4 exam

Well hasnt been blogging this few days..mm..finally come to the last day of sch haa coz tml staying at home to revise work..time flies..I think I cant bear to leave the sch as I spend the happiest time in ITE with my frenzs and nice lecturer like Mr Ramu..plus hee using the com very gd sia..flat screen de..opps..hhee like going to sch for that..no la..

Exam coming and then graduate liao ..mm..planning to go out next week..so far wed confirm going out le..thinking of going kbox ..wonder anyone wants to go on weekdays..shall see..maybe make it next next week..

First time to do is to go n cut my hair after exam..so long n I find it messy..sigh..

Ok la end here..dunno when will blog again..guess wont really blog le..

well todayI feel tired..didnt update blog for a few days..nothing much though just went on AL on wed coz nian jin..mm..then whole day I was tired..came back to sch abit blur coz there is new things to be learn for Aoa lesson..anyway manage to catch up..heng..exams around the corner..nowaday more busy..more work n go home help to do some housework ..light one though very fast can finish :) quite alright..

I feel sian have to do excel rather do at home..tired lor..end here

Moody..

Today wake up later than usual as there is no sw lor.. :) yeah..Mum was like asking me..how come never wake up, no sch ar..I heard someone talking to me when I was sleeping..I said 7.30pm..then sleep some more..I feel bad as yesterday just has a quarrel lor..haiz..a very harsh one though..making my mood still not back to normal yet.. haiz..

Now update about yesterday..nothing much lor..stay at home read story bk and watch tv..I was feeling sad though ..cried haiz..
Sat went to catch a movie..Watched Big Mama House 2 with Vin at Marina Square and then went to take some pics at merlion park then went to eat dinner and went to IT show at Suntec lor..bought an ear phone..sigh This is the 3rd ear phone that I was using..dunno why the previous ones that I bought was spoilt so fast...

Alright end here..

Sian..

Well just have a presentation..marketing project presentation.How I wish my dear listening when I am presenting..just give me some support or wat..I can sense he isnt..I didnt see la coz if I look at others, I cant present so I just look at Mr Ramu..most likely didnt listen to me..when others presenting he wasnt listening.. sad..his group not yet present..I guess I can do the same..when he presents I dun listen..dun care about him.. I dunno why I mind so much..perhaps that he is my bf ba..

I dunno la dun care..do work ba..end here

sian..

Well today I wasnt happy..yesterday cant sleep..end up today tired and like no strength..every day get nag..then being say I was useless or what..how I feel?..I dunno how should I think..cause get used le ba..i just want to have a peaceful day ..end up sometimes parents talking, can talk til us de..We really no gd meh in their eyes?? really so useless?

Just went to have lunch at kfc yeah..so full..I didnt even tell anyone abt how I feel today..just tell my bf that I didnt feel happy.I feel that it is no point wat..So wat if I share..I just feel if I study also get said..dun study also say me..I really must make sure I come out and earn money..then earn money myself..see wat pple can say abt me..I dun care what others say..but my own parents sometime seem to say something that they think they should say, but have they think of how we will feel?
sometime I dun even bother to talk to them so much nowaday.I rather keep to myself..then wont get scolded or wat..sometime dun talk also wrong..talk also wrong..wat they want me to do leh?? sigh..
I guess cant think so much..just study lor..exams coming.
Even if I think so much also no use de...

End here..

Flu..

Sian I still having flu..my brother la..plus weather hot..flu for quite long still not ok..anyway I have eaten medicine..sian..usually flu n cough is very xin ku..sian..anyway sch going to end soon.everyday in aircon room I wear jacket..scare that I will catch a cold..abit tired now..*yawn... wonder wat to eat for lunch lor..sian..maybe getting hungry??

Alright end here..dunno wat to blog le..tml going to pray ah gong ba..two weeks never go out with dear le.. :(

So fast March

Well..Today feeling sian right now..I went to hand in my application form and realise there is a need 2 attach o level cert to it..which I didnt..I feel I am blur..or didnt understand there is a need.. sian..actually today has cca and I dun intend to go home after that coz it is a waste of time u see..but cant be helped have to go haiz..

I feel tired sia..like no mood lor..I just hope to settle stuff then I will feel ok le..end here..

Well I have decided to give it a try to apply for poly..I will see when the results are out wat I can do lor..no point thinking so much..mm.. I know I want to go ..but now choosing which poly to apply..only can apply the courses from one poly which I cant mix..so sian..still considering..perhaps nyp coz nearer.. still not very sure wat course I may take as I dun want to regret..I already decide le..but I want to know more about the courses lor..hee now looking through then decide

alright end here.. :)

Well today just completed my frontpage project ..yeah..finally done..last few days was busy..I didnt do very nice one..I just do a simple one but with effort put in though..I just hope is ok..hhee now I can slack le..tml then hand in the work..yeah..exams coming I must study le..today go home n look through marketing ba..at least read through lor..so for aoa lesson, I will be free le.done with my work..yeah..maybe can edit somemore or wat..I shall see..but I think it is fine le..

Getting hungry lor..going to have lunch soon..anyway my poor brother sick ..wonder if he is ok le..hope so..now raining sian..guess dear cant play soccer..so sad..very sacrastic ar?? hhee dunno leh just dun want him to get hurt..later legs pain etc..haiz..end here..

Today feel sian..We can apply for poly le..for my results I may get in or may not..but I guess I not studying ba..Actually I know my dream is to go in to poly to study..I am still young I want to get a diploma cert..Juz feel that so fast I have to go out to working life ..I wasnt very experienced too..I get a bit worried u see.haiz..Maybe work lst then pursue my dream ba..I want to get at least a diploma cert lor..sometime others dunno how I feel..studying in poly not cheap either..I dun have the ability now..what to do..Just have to work first... :(

Now want to try to complete my AOA project..frontpage..I see others do like very nice..Just want to do a simple yet nice de.. nvm I trying my best to do it le :) yeah..go n do work le..end here

Well today long hrs of lessons..now my eyes abit dry I cant tahan..mm..update abt last two days..went out on sat and sun..sat went out with dear to bugis to upgrade my hp plan and he went to see camera at sim lim square..we got wat we want..hhee I buy hp , he buy camera..yeah.I didnt get the phone that I want..I get a cheaper de with a contract of plan..mmm was alright la quite nice to use ..pink colour de..It was quite meaningful on sat lor..went to get stuff and go shopping too..then went to hawker centre to have dinner..

Sunday which is yesterday went to san qing gong with mum n bro to pray ah gong..It seem abt 2 weeks never go?? I guess so..just hope he knows we went..then went to visit ah ma in bedok ..We also went to sam's house to view his new flat then went to fourth ah yi house a while..makes me so tired sia coz I have nothing to do..went home around 4.30pm..I plan to go and find my bf but I was tired plus it is getting late..later reach home very late..End up didnt go..sigh..

alright la end here

Sad

Well today nothing much just start to do my frontpage project lor..resumes..hhee done one page le..

Now update about yesterday..heard a bad news..the photos that we taken during chalet, plus valentine day..all gone..the photos develop out are blank..sad lor..wasted..lucky some vin's frenzs has..just that the pics dun have me.. *sob..so unlucky..dear was sad me too..that i can cry u know..anyway over is over..just have to take pics again..birthday de cant be helped..others de still can take again..haiz..just that there are alot of memories lor.. fated..haiz..should have back up lor..anyway watever I say also too late le..

Guess tml going out and he will buy a new one..have to buy..coz I want to take pics leh..maybe can go sim lim square and buy lor..go check out the prices..

Happy Birthday Vin..

Well today is my dear's birthday..hhee later going catch a movie and eat something..he says yoshinoya ..ok anyway I have the voucher ..hee.. dear xin fu ar..sat have birthday de bbq today I acc him..then didnt go for my dance lor..

Well update abt yesterday..valentine day I went out with dear to Marina square. We ate at pizza hut, ate the heart shape pizza meal..it was nice..with drinks..soup, chicken wings and dessert, a mini strawberry cake..yucks not nice de the cake..I dun like..food was very filling..so full lor..the service was good too..hhaa..lol ..As dear had to work, he only spend time with me til 5pm ..kind of sad coz only a few hours..But it is better than not spending time with me.. :) We took some pics too..
hhee he gave me one pink rose..hhaa coz if he give 3 roses without wrapping is not nice..but how I wish I have more than that..pink roses nice..he has he giving me more roses the next day..I dunno wait and see lor..

Guess that all that I want to update..end here..

I didnt blog for a few days..mm..now update about this few days..I went to dear's chalet at changi civil service club to check in with him on friday..10 feb..then ate rojak and keep him acc til I went home at 4 plus..just be together for 2 hours..hhee..I have to go home..then Hadi, Andrew and Chandra reached so they keep him acc..hhee they played PS2..they are like so excited while playing game..lol..hhaa How I wish I can keep him acc more..but cant..

Well then I went to his birthday party on sat..which is the day before..bbq lor..I feel that it wasnt fun coz dear get sabo by his guys frenz with water bomb..i wasnt happy about it..just cant help him ..but then try to make sure he is dry..I just scare that he is wet..then he will catch a cold..I guess whoever is in my shoes will feel unhappy right?? But I cant stop in time as he already get wet..haiz..21st birthday hhaa..actually not yet 21 la..he celebrate earlier hhee..

Well I reached the chalet with Jufri at 4 plus but he wasnt in..I was disappointed as I thought I will see him the moment I got there..is ok..anyway he was back from collecting cake around 6..
I guess I didnt want him to get "bullied" then I was like a kola bear hhaa stick to him which wasnt like wat i used to be....I dunno..helping him to take things and then acc him upstair whenever I can..

I ate a little bit of food only as the fire was slow sia..it was windy u see..the weather gd..mm..then at 9 plus he cut the cake ..yeah chocolate cake ..sweet but nice..then I help him to take pics lor..hhaa then his frenzs tease us..was shouting..kiss kiss..Of course we didnt ..this is private thing..shy shy la hhee wont do it in front of so many pple right??

I went home around 11 ..Vin's bro drive me home..of course with dear inside the car acc me to my door step :) so sweet..
although didnt enjoy much but treat it as a gathering lor..not so bad lah..just dun feel happy coz his gals frenzs seem planning to sabo him but seeing tt I wasnt happy about it they didnt do it lor..lucky lor..if not I sabo them lor.. then I slept around 3am that night..I couldnt get to sleep ..haiz..

Yesterday just stay at home..feel tired as I wake up around 9 plus..cant sleep further sia..dunno why..then afternoon take a nap..didnt do anything lor..too tired..well Vin feel more tired though..

alright end here..

I didnt blog for a few days..mm..now update about this few days..I went to dear's chalet at changi civil service club to check in with him on friday..10 feb..then ate rojak and keep him acc til I went home at 4 plus..just be together for 2 hours..hhee..I have to go home..then Hadi, Andrew and Chandra reached so they keep him acc..hhee they played PS2..they are like so excited while playing game..lol..hhaa How I wish I can keep him acc more..but cant..

Well then I went to his birthday party on sat..which is the day before..bbq lor..I feel that it wasnt fun coz dear get sabo by his guys frenz with water bomb..i wasnt happy about it..just cant help him ..but then try to make sure he is dry..I just scare that he is wet..then he will catch a cold..I guess whoever is in my shoes will feel unhappy right?? But I cant stop in time as he already get wet..haiz..21st birthday hhaa..actually not yet 21 la..he celebrate earlier hhee..

Well I reached the chalet with Jufri at 4 plus but he wasnt in..I was disappointed as I thought I will see him the moment I got there..is ok..anyway he was back from collecting cake around 6..
I guess I didnt want him to get "bullied" then I was like a kola bear hhaa stick to him which wasnt like wat i used to be....I dunno..helping him to take things and then acc him upstair whenever I can..

I ate a little bit of food only as the fire was slow sia..it was windy u see..the weather gd..mm..then at 9 plus he cut the cake ..yeah chocolate cake ..sweet but nice..then I help him to take pics lor..hhaa then his frenzs tease us..was shouting..kiss kiss..Of course we didnt ..this is private thing..shy shy la hhee wont do it in front of so many pple right??

I went home around 11 ..Vin's bro drive me home..of course with dear inside the car acc me to my door step :) so sweet..
although didnt enjoy much but treat it as a gathering lor..not so bad lah..just dun feel happy coz his gals frenzs seem planning to sabo him but seeing tt I wasnt happy about it they didnt do it lor..lucky lor..if not I sabo them lor.. then I slept around 3am that night..I couldnt get to sleep ..haiz..

Yesterday just stay at home..feel tired as I wake up around 9 plus..cant sleep further sia..dunno why..then afternoon take a nap..didnt do anything lor..too tired..well Vin feel more tired though..

alright end here..

Well today very sian leh..nothing much to do now.. mm..so blog now..later have dance..I guess Yan Hong never come to sch le..still sick ba..later I think I will go home first since I will be alone.. if not I have to rot for 3 hours..sure cannot stand it..

Today didnt eat breakfast ..getting hungry soon..haiz..talk about office admin de CA..I get it yesterday.Yesterday forget to blog..surprised that I didnt fail or wat..alright la.get 77 marks lor.. so so la..then mkt project my group's mark I was surprised too..we did alright.the mark is.80 plus lor.. :)

End here..nothing much to blog le..

Well today so tired this morning..mm..well yesterday went to orchard..day b4 also..hhaa went to watch chingay on sat lor..alot of pple..have dinner then go with dear to watch chingay..
Sunday which is yesterday go and shop for present lor..Kl de..hhee bought her a watch hhee..purple colour de..
mm..luckily dear already know wat i buy for him if not today while having lunch ..Yh say so loud that I bought watch lor..I cant tahan her..sometime never think b4 she speak..vin so near us lor..next table only.Anyway is ok lah..but I guess KL may know what I buy for her..Yh la..haiz..her big mouth..

well many pple left le..they go home le after doing their work..hhee..at lst internet cant use sia..lucky can..I need to check out info ..email etc..if not cant use very sian..

Alright end here..

Fifth day of Chinese New Year

Today mood seem sian when I heard dear maybe not driving me home lor on his birthday coz he drive not tt gd ..his dad dun allow him to drive alone le..abit disappointed though..sigh..sian..always disappoint me de..can't be helped..mood now alright..

I watch vcd for quite a long time..only 20 discs but I take so long as I wasnt at home etc..I watch xia yi zhan cai hong,hk drama regarding fashion design de..nice sia..I can tell who will end up with who..kind of obvious..

Maybe is still CNY ..some classmates didnt come to sch..hhaa go bai nian?? I dunno..so fast is the fifth day of cny..ah gong not around for one week le..time flies..hope he is fine ..

alright end here..dunno wat to update le

Happy New Year to all...

Well didnt update for quite many days..firstly happy new year to all..mm..

I didnt get to bai nian..sad to say my ah gong passed away b4 cny has come..sad..been missing him since he wasn't around..

well so didnt go anywhere except bedok lor during this cny period..
I cant get ang bao also..nvm..just hope he is happy and dun need to suffer anymore it will be good.

well today back to sch le lor..just study lor..as usual..sometime just miss ah gong..anyway I am ok de..just feel life unpredictable..and life and death is normal..

mm..anyway already get a gift for dear le..hhee next sat go his birthday party and give him..mum worry I go home too late dangerous..Should be ok..dear say he driving me home..hope so..when tt is confirm then say lor..if not mum sure say de how come he says he driving me home yet never do it..

end here..have to do work..