My thoughts again,.

Coming to the end of the month, I know I have not blog for some time but then at times I just want to write down how I feel if it is too personal. mm.. work is alright, have outstanding to clear and even have a review with Boss today. Everything seems fine and I need the ABC which he told me..so ya..

Sometime I wonder what guys are thinking lor.so nice at times and yet sometime u really need to ask them things, they ignore you.As if I want to disturb u, no choice. It is my job u know..Can u dun be so nice then? Best is not so nice will be good lor..
Still searching for my prince.A long way though..slowly..concern doesn't mean anything..this is how I feel..

yeah going beach with the rest. :) let's enjoy ourselves there and get to know more friends..

End here..

Back to work soon..

I have a long break til I have to get back to work tomorrow, the feeling isn't that great as I know I have to face all the workload..May I be able to finish my tasks and even handle other stuff as well. I am worried..

This few days as usual do my stuff and rest.I can get to sleep slightly later, which is good..Went to church as usual and even have dinner with WL and YY yesterday. At least I am out of my house..I feel better.. I don't like to be trapped at a place for too long..no life like that.

I was catching fated to love you by Chen Qiao En & Ruan Jin Tian.. I found the drama nice and had some thoughts after I catch it. I know in real life is not like the drama and that there is romantic scene etc..It's very hard in our real life..People are so busy, no time for romance though..

It's really hard when both parties will fall in love with each other.. When can we find someone like that? anyway hhaa 1 of my ah yi was saying, who knows 3 years later, I will be getting married..still a long way for me til I find my Mr right if not don't have to talk about that.. I do wish for but not in a hurry to get attached right now..Let nature takes its course.. I know I don't have many male friends so hard for me to get attached ba haha..Leave it to fate..How long do I need to wait? only God Knows..

I end here..

Cant stand!!

Everything goes on smoothly while I am on leave this two days and what has to be done is done already..that why I can blog here.

By right, I want to blog about my thoughts last night but after doing my things, I don't feel like doing so anymore. So ya

I can't understand why some people are just so insensitive towards things or issues..You can keep on making fun of me as if I am a clown? that you can have fun teasing me and you don't even bother how I feel..too much! You still say I am so fun to tease.. what the hell! I know is not a big issue but I have enough! Can you be more tactful??

Anyway thank God for all the blessings..Indeed God is great!

I shall end here..

How far can it scretch?

I just wonder and have a lot of thoughts and was thinking how far can a band stretch? u talk about comfortable zone and we need to stretch. Everyone has different tolerance level u know that? I don't dare to think so much. As times goes by, I will just try to do my best. I have to ask God to help me at this point of time. At times I really feel down til I don't want anyone to help not even God.. what is wrong with me? I can't even stand the normal stress, so how am I going to be able to handle the stress which I gonna have soon..Beside you know I can't knock off early, what do you want me to do?
I hope everything will be fine if not perhaps u will see a gloomy and a very shag person. That's the worst I can go right?

I always feel that you think you have a lot of experiences in life in that line so you know everything and you have to teach me how to handle life? Sorry that is not what I want and wish for. I have my own mindset and I know what I am doing.. I don't need you to teach me everything as in what to do in life. If that is the case, I don't think I should exist since it is no point if people is telling you what to do in life..pointless to live.. We live for ourselves and not others..I know perhaps you meant well but you are trying to tell me that I am lousy is it?

I shall stop here. I don't wish to comment further..

Is great to exercise!

It is really great to be able to sweat it all out. I feel tired..I went to service this morning and set off to play badminton after that with cousin and the rest..I only slept for a few hrs so I was really tired now..Watching charity show alone and resting..sigh so lonely..

I don't know why, when I am so free I tend to think a lot. Thought about fate, wonder why the right guy has not come. WL was right, they are my past so why should I bother. I know what I am thinking.. Just let it be lor, why should I bother out abt how the person feel..Some things are fated.. Is urs will be urs, no need to worry so much..
I can tell, women's sixth sense quite accurate..I feel good though now to be single so why should I bother so much and let myself be unhappy. What is the point of doing that..

Alright end here..Don't feel like blogging that much..

Updates..

Well some updates..mm..life has been the same..work..Thur was a public holiday so I went out with Pei Fen, Wei Ling & Yao Feng to orchard..Yu Yan & Ming De join us after that straight at far east and we had dinner together..The thai restaurant's food was not bad though.. We order dishes and rice. Yummy! We kind of enjoyed ourselves as Pf, me & WL bought what we wanted. I bought a pair of shoe and a dress :) Spent money again but I believed is worth it..

I was on mc yesterday as my eye was red and I felt itchy just went to see doctor.. I am fine already and Boss did showed concern.

Anyway talking about today I went to tampines and shopped there with Mum & brother..end up spending money again on jewellery. I loved shopping..I saw nice earrings so I bought 3 pairs.. There was 10% discount so ya and not expensive. I gave one pair to Mum. I also bought another pair of Cross earring..It had been quite some time and I had not get any "cross" necklace nor earring so I bought one..after shopping around, We went to visit Grandma who was at tampines and also to collect my cpu from my uncle.. Bought some toiletries too..

That was what I had been doing for the past few days and as for tomorrow which is Sunday, I will be going to sunday service and then head down to play badminton with my cousin and church friends.. yeah a fruitful weekend? I was a bit lazy though to bring all my stuff but anyway prepared them..

At times I feel that many things are still beyond our control just like heart of affairs.. I have no idea how and when it comes.. anyway I do hope that I can find someone who likes me and I like him.. To me, I feel that is normally one sided love rather than two way..It is really hard to find.. I won't force and won't try means to get it..no point..I leave it to fate..though I fear of bgr cause of some reasons but I do longer for it at times..I like the feeling of being dote and love..Who doesn't? At times you have to find the right person and the right feel..when will it happen? I have no answer for it but just wait and see..

Alright I end here..

Yeah..holiday lor..

I have been working for four weeks already..wow time flies..I am still having stress..I finish my work around 7pm today and left..Happy to see the sunset..wow is wonderful that I can see it from my office building. I didn't know..while taking the lift, I enjoyed watching it and it makes my day better..

Somehow I felt that there are a lot of work but then I felt relaxed after lunch..I know tml is holiday.yeah..I will be meeting Pf, WL, YY & Wen.. :)
Well is good to relax..I am glad they ask me out..We shall shop around and then have dinner..

At times get tease by Boss haiz.. I don't find it funny..sooner or later perhaps we will feel shy? I just didn't take it to hard but don't wish that he will misunderstand..at times is easy to tell if a person mean something to you..simple things like your name n birthday.. I leave it to fate..
It takes two hands to clap and there are nice guys..But we need sparks..I have lots of time..don't have to rush into it but I do longer for one though I am scare at the same time..But who likes a girl who think negatively..I must stay cheerful.. waiting for my prince..is hard to find one who loves u and u love him..well leave it in the hands of God..

I shall end here..gonna do other things..

stress..tense up..

I really have no idea how long I can hold on. I told myself not to give up easily and Boss & colleague encouraged me.. really very nice. thanks them but I still feel stress at times. Though u tell me to relax and don't myself stress but I still feel so.

Beside you make me stay to work and you say I will hate you soon. Is it so serious?
I admit working under you is very stressful.. I really not sure how long I can work there. I guess when I reached my tolerance level, that's it.. I won't let people think that I can't do it and keep changing job..I still can cope for the time being..

I manage to have dinner outside and went to look at spects. RObin recommended..he is a nice friend but whatever it is, nice colleagues right now..
People will tease etc.. wu liao.. I just don't think to think so much about anything.

End here,WIll be meeting Kareen & Ke xin soon

Think about it..

I was busy as usual today and then Boss told me to go home and think about what I have learnt so far and how I feel about the job..I guess now is the time to think about it though I don't wish to think about it in case I get upset etc. I just shut this issue off my mind..

Mm..I shall think about it now..Just blog it here..Everything is so new to me. I start from scratch as I don't have any insurance background..I learnt about different types of polices plan such as LMP,AMII, My Shield etc and their claims. How to go about doing the summary and where to look for in case I need the details etc.The different forms used and pfr and proposal form..I learnt about GI, how to go about filling in the quotation and rang the person for info etc..Filing as in the style of filing and how clients'name are sort. differences between Pink, Yellow and blue files.how to retreive or search data from VSC..
how and what to prepare for boss when he meet up with clients. I learnt scanning of documents too.. mm..how to check the proposal n pfr form to ensure that it is filled in correctly and at times I do need to help to fill in too so I learnt what is required to fill..oh ya submission of documents and the cut off time for that. Sorting mail and put them into respective pigeon holes..How to look at new biz report and tabulate them into a excel table for our Cps gen..

What else..
I cant think of it at the moment ..

I guess that's all for the time being..

I just know starting I felt so lonely and bored as I was new. I have to adapt to it and quite a few things are throw at me..I couldnt cope as I was not used to working alone rather than team work..I was stress so ya..slowly I get the hang of it and I felt much better. I believe I still feel sian at times..
I shall end here..sleepy..

Time flies and it is sunday..Let me just update about my life for the past one week..
I have been slowly learning things as time goes by and I get the hang of summary but still ask Boss to double check in case is wrong.. Well been busy.

I just met up with Mei Fen on fri at bugis..We had dinner and shop a while..I remembered meeting her earlier on, which is Mon check out the sch.. mm..I didn't remember wrongly right?..MF wants to meet me on thur but it was a last min decision so I suggested meeting up the next day..Saturday..went to office for meeting in the morning.sigh..though it was only two hours, I just don't feel good going back but I had no choice.. what to do..I met up with Lai Mei for follow up and head home as my uncle came to repair our coms..Manage to clear my drawers etc..happy as it was not so dusty after that..
As for today, went to visit father side's grandma and was bored there..Spent some time there and then left with not much time today..I want my free time to myself..

Mm..going to plan a kbox session, bowling session and dinner gathering with friends ..Look like I have to think of a way to spend my money wisely.Programs will be coming up..omg! I push it all to next month when I get my pay :P Wonder how does it goes..simply too many things that I would wish to do.. of course badminton session.. opps didn't exercise for so long..

I shall end here and tomorrow is my third week at work..wow time flies man..

Sunday..

Well right now I am blogging is already way past midnight so is sunday though. Time flies and sat has passed by but I am glad that I spent a nice sat though. I get to sit down and read my newspaper and head down to church. After that as usual dinner n shopping time! This is what I normally do on sat..

Update about Friday also. I was slacking haha..I did some work but not much. Meet up with WL, Hui & Ame for dinner at soup spoon bugis..We ate and have a nice chat.We even head down to Ah Chew Dessert to sit down and enjoy.Head home after that at 10 plus.

Well is nice meeting friends after work. I hope we can try to plan more programs next time. I shall try to plan and we can distress. :)
Perhaps a dinner on a fri night..I think I have to plan next month instead. I have not get my salary though sob sob.. I have been spending money. time to stop and spend wisely again..

I shall end here and enjoy my precious sunday!

3rd day of work..

Today I manage to do my work and was glad that I reached 5 mins late, boss wasn't in..luckily. Anyway manage to do more work and then work load going down but at times will still go up. Depends on how Boss gonna teach me and what he will assign. Somehow I feel stress as I am still new and those secretaries doesn't talk to me at all except one whom I talk to while she taught me on how to submit document. I find her not bad, quite friendly in that sense.. Perhaps can slowly be friends with the rest..I felt lonely though at work as I had lunch alone today . Nevertheless is ok as others did not ask me to join them, how would I be so thick skin to ask them if I can join. agreed?

I still feel lost and not yet blend into their culture but anyway I work under my boss, shouldn't care about other matters.
Work just keep on piling lor, dun wish to think so much. Just relax myself..
Time is not enough when we start work. I do learn alot of things at work so no harm.

I just have to continue to learn n try to catch up. Boss says I have 3 months..probation what..

Ok end here..

2nd day of work..

Today feel lost at first and sian. In a way I don't know what I must do.. Slowly James taught me stuff liao and I get the hang of the summary.I got it and James glad that he said that I learnt quite fast. I find it ok la. I did make some mistakes here and there.Learning process..I feel good I got to learn some work and I believe there is alot of things to learn.. Boss ar..dun give me too much pressure wor!

Time flies and this is the 2nd day.. I must jia you for the 3rd day and Boss flying off soon to Japan..So whatever I need to ask, must ask quickly..

I shall end here.. felt tired after a long day but right now still ok..

First day of work..

Yeah the day has come and I am back to working life..Though I really need time to adjust back as in not able to have super late nights anymore unless is weekend. :( well in life we can't have the best in everything. No one is perfect too.

As it is the first day, I am still quite lost though and excited. I learnt some things today and glad that Robin was a helpful person.. Thanks for your help in carrying stuff.. I manage to meet a few nice pple today. But Wilson asked alot of questions and I am not comfortable with it.I hope to be able to get along well with all though so that we can work hand in hand..Basically I am under my boss so I hope everything turns out well. He is going to fly off to Japan soon.. That is what I am worried about. I am not sure whether I can cope.. I will try my best to learn this few days.

I don't know why but my pimples come out already..omg! it just happened today and is it because of dolling up and my face too oily? Ahhhh!! I have tried the new facial wash and in a way it helps to control the oil already but I realise after I put on make up today, my face starts to have pimples again..sob sob.. better stop putting make up for the time being..no choice. Just want to look pretty. Once I get a fixed salary, I will go n see skin specialist.

Well have to keep working hard tml etc. More things to learn and I know there is alot of work to do.. sigh. What to do, working life is like that. I try not to worry and think so much so as not to give myself stress.

I shall end here..

I got it..

Time flies and it is April already.I feel quite excited today and was kind of nervous for the 2nd round of interview and who knows it is not really an interview..lol I got the job. Horray! I was so happy. I rest for about two weeks and manage to get a job finally and I know there is prospect. :) thank God.. I hope I can really grow in the company and move on to what I want..Boss did ask me what and where I hope to be for the next 3 to 5 years. I know what I want and I will do my best to fufil it.He told me is possible to fufil it even before 30 years old.. Guess what, he asked me when I getting married. lol
I dun even date now how to get married? Faint..he was surprised I don't have a bf.Is that surprising? I have no idea.

Right now, career & studies matter more than other things. Of course family n friends are impt too. So is God. I leave the rest to fate. really.. What will come will come around. Relationship is just a parcel of life and I am still young..

Did I grow up? I used to wish to date perhaps because I am younger that time and the my timing is slightly different but for now I straighten my thoughts and dun wish to date. I believe finding a good one is not easy but if it will come, it will come unexpectedly. I just let it be and see how it goes..work hard and study 1st. Enjoy life with family & friends, carefree life without being attached, is good isn't it?

I find it good without clinging onto something and have to really commit to it.Perhaps I simply don't wish to commit to anything right now while I am young.

Happy today and I went orchard to shop for clothes and bought them..I got what I want .Great! Life is great today and hope it continues that way.

K time for dinner. I am hungry.. God is great & good! :)

End here..

Good News..

Yeah I receive a call from HSBC Boss and I am a step forward to the 2nd interview. Well I will do my very best since I am given a chance. I will be heading down on wed though.
Boss weird, talk so much then tell me he inviting me to the 2nd round.. -_-'' I don't like people beating about the bush..Is best to go straight to the point though.
Somehow this cheer me up but nevertheless I will look out for other chances just in case.

Anyway I am carefree and looking forward to a new career.. Right now nothing gonna make me troubled etc. I am free! horray!

Just met up with Kareen, Ke Xin & Restine for lunch just now.Glad to hear from them and just have a simple meal. We shall meet again ya? I believe so.

Alright gonna continue watching diao man gong zhu..Well I really love the drama and Alec Su You Peng rocks! Ja Nara also very cute..

End here..

My Goals..

I was quite excited today as I was selected to go for an interview at HSBC Insurance company.I seem to have some fate to do with insurance company..haaa I have been to a few other companies. Guess what? The boss is called James.. Oh my god! I have two ex bosses who were named James so I wonder will I work for James boss again.haaa

I do love the job and the location.I don't mind learning and I believe it is a good prospect and perhaps it will be busy and stress but work is always stress. I just want to further my studies as I have targeted for the past two years. I told myself that I will start working 1st and earn money for two years then I can start studying. The time has come. I will work towards my goals.. I want to succeed and win! I know I can be quite hao sheng for things, this is what someone told me before. I did not do so for studies if not perhaps I can really study very well.who knows? I know is tough to work and study at the same time but need to endure in order to get a cert and have more career prospect.

As for other matter, I just don't wish to care as they are not important anymore other than career and studies. :) May God bless me and be with me to guide me along the way..

I shall end here

Elvin & XIao Qing s' Birthdays..

Well I just came back around 11 plus from the birthday gathering.. I was considering whether to go, end up I did went but then didn't know it was at east coast road..oh my god! It was so far and we waited for very long for the bus 13 at Euno where we met first and then we kind of lost our way u know..We reached the olive cafe at 8 plus. Then started ordering food. After we finished was 10 plus.. I didn't enjoy it though as I felt left out and couldn't blend into the group though I know them a little..there were about 20 of us. Of course spending money while I am jobless hhaa... sob sob.. so you know how I felt?

The chocolate cake was nice and it was from four leaf.. Jolene bought it. Well luckily I got a lift from someone.. I believe the rest did have a lift back home too..great!
Is good that they have cars lol.. I felt tired so that was my day!

Shall end here..

Easter Sunday..

Yeah is Easter Sunday and I felt bad, woke up late today though I think my hp did ring once?? I can't remember and was wondering whether to turn up at church cause I was really gonna be late.. I woke up at 7.30 man and service was at 8am. Well I just hurry to shower etc and then took a cab down to church. I was late but better than not attending right? yeah I kept my promise that I will go. Thank God. I was telling myself, that oh lord please let me have a cab as I need to rush to church and when I reached downstair, I saw a cab hehe.. I don't have to wait. Great!

Even before I know God, I was bought to church by friend but I told myself that I was not ready. If I were to go church next time, will be going on my own and that it is because I wish to step in with my own will. I did! anyway I always believed that I am blessed before I know Lord.. People around me prayed for me and prayed that I will accept him.. Thanks God for all his blessings and love!

I went for late breakfast with the rest today and then went to shop with my cousin and accompany her to visit Uncle. Glad to hear the nice words from her.. gal, only you and I know what it is..haha.. quite a tiring day cause I only slept for 5 hrs. I felt ok though at least I slept for 5 hours. It was not as bad as sleeping for 3 hrs..

I shall end here..gaming..here I come..

Saturday..

Yeah is sat and here I am at home..cool cause there is no sat service today so just come back at 8 plus and deal with some stuff.. Well I went out with mum n brother to sim lim to get some stuff and we had dinner at pasta mania before heading to have dessert at Ah Chew Dessert shop..yeah. It was raining though after we finished getting what we needed. Luckily the rain gets smaller so we were able to go n enjoy our dessert. Of course we did spend money while we were out but was all worth it. The things that we bought were all useful though. I finally got my cooling pad. At times was afraid that my notebook would be too hot.. sad to say that after I had my notebook, my desktop monitor was down..sob..anyway we were luckily that we had the notebook..

I shall end here and gonna watch tv and let my dear brother use my notebook.. I have to wake up at 6 tomorrow..Yes is 6! It has been a long time since I wake up so early and it is sunday.. oh oh.. :( sunday easter service