Boring work life..

I feel sian but at times doesnt want to talk about it. I pretend to be ok in front of family and perhaps some friends. I don't know what did I gain if I do this but perhaps don't wish to let you guys see me so sad. Rather make myself happier ya..
I want to go back to learn latin dance and Yong Yee says he is interested, say be my partner.. dance is good but dunno is he serious..though he says he may step on people's toe but then is ok I believe wont..wait and see, maybe say only..shouldn't be too excited in case it doesn't happen. Anyway this friend of mine blur blur and get himself injured. aiyo anyway did ring him up already. I guess not necessary to disturb him too much after today in case he finds me fan.. I have a feeling at times he don't know what to say or try to stay happy then he start crapping lol..aiyo.. are you really ok? am I thinking too much.. Shall not disturb you so much..in case very fan..

Anyway look like luck not on my side yet, I can't find a suitable job yet..location wise is bad..west side..will keep trying..k just end here..

Feeling sian..

Working as usual and I am doing recept. job right now..I really don't like and cant wait for other opportunities.. To others I may seem fine actually I am not..just dun wish to talk about it that much so I wont feel sad..so I tend to joke around..relax ourselves after work..meeting a few friends tomorrow and Yong Yee is the only guy haha..He said that he will feel shy.. Well is alright la..Will try to make sure he isn't bored..

At times I am scare I will lead to misunderstanding and I tend to think a lot..I don't wish to lose any friends etc cause of that. I don't know..looking forward to meet you all for dinner to relax..I shall end here..don't feel like blogging..

End here..

初三,四..

I am back..well some updates regarding Chinese New Year..I thought that it would be a boring year again but then, was quite fun on sat.sat,went to a few places with some ex sec sch mates, WL, YY, Yong Yee, Mao Ling, Boom Tom etc..We went to teachers' house too..our chinese teacher's house and of course Mr FOo's place and Yong Yee & WL places and my place 2.We had fun having k session. :) Yong Yee so humourous, didn't know that. Now I know, hehe.. He is not a bad guy and here and there he told me some of his stories. Whatever it is, is past.. my legs was aching after going so many places.. well It is was fun and great that somehow it was a gathering..

Sunday went to chinatown just for the fun of it and guess what, I bought a pair of shoes lol..spent money again. I even bought other stuff but anyway not spending alot.. the pair of shoes is quite cheap.. $18.90. I have some light snacks though n head back home for some steamboat.. Mum ask me to have steamboat, I did went home have some but Dad n Brother was full already..I am the only one eating, Mum was chatting with me..Talking about YOng Yee la..must be wondering what did we chat about..well praising him, envy that he is popular that other parents will like him. :) not a bad choice for gals out there.he knows wushu wor! ting xin shang his talent de..

I shall end here..

Happy Lunar New Year..

Time just flies and Lunar New Year has come.One day just passed by when we go 拜年. Really nothing much this year as two aunties went for holiday and they are not in Singapore. Things seem to change when grandpa not around..sigh. Anyway is the lst day of Lunar New Year so I am not going to think so much. haha that person left me a voice mail when my hp was running low battery.surprised..thank u hor. :P I dun even bother..

Bored today..anyway time just flies and suddenly dun feel like going out tml since Ah yi is coming over.what a boring CNY! I just want to rest..
I just don't feel like going out already and perhaps is better to go on a holiday next time.

I don't know what else to blog so shall end here..

Back to work..

I was on mc yesterday and get back to work today. mm I fall sick, getting cough n flu again though I thought I had recovered. I believe that the germs are spreading, one by one fall sick in the office. I couldnt fight the bacteria anymore so I fall sick..haiz what happen to my immune system? Anyway we will fall sick because we are simply human beings.. well what to do.. k enough of this.

I was thinking if we would slack again today and guess what, James told us to do a proposal for a class that we chose.. end up we chose lyord so ya.. Did I spell correctly? We got into a small group of 3-4 persons..Well this reminded me of sch days whereby we would sit down and have a discussion for our projects.. :) unforgettable moments with all the agruements and committment etc.. I felt that DNV class is easier than others, I know there is ABS and dunno wat BS..I have no idea about them but I heard they are kind of similar to lyord.. I was quite lost,trying to see what I can learn.At least we had something to do today rather than going to work and sitting there for fun..I can get so bored and I simply feel like reading my bk, magazine or even bible.. If not I want to go back home, at least I can do what I wish to do or even take a short nap, wouldnt it be better?

Alright I shall end here..Chinese New Year coming..Time flies..16 more days!!

Simply so tired..

I guess I am too lazy to blog at times. Perhaps due to being too tired and somehow at times simply don't know how and what should I blog and I just simply don't blog unless I really feel like doing so.so here I am blogging again after about a week.

I just feel simply tired and don't feel like doing anything..I simply don't wish to think nor talk.my nose somehow block and of course I dont feel good.At times I get so fed up, I am really worried that I might get high blood pressure one day.I felt a bit giddy just now when I get angry.omg! Is it because I am too tired? I am not sure.I was extremely fed up just now and right now I don't wish to talk at all,just wish to have a quiet and peaceful time alone.

Mm..talking about work. I am still quite free though, waiting for the guys to come back from the vessel and I guess we will have work to do. Currently just sort out some documents and relax. We are not sure how long our break will be,anyway been like that since last month if I am not wrong. More or less even if we have work, it is not much.Consider quite free since Nov 2007.

Anyway just went to buy some Chinese New Year clothings yesterday.I bought 2 dresses and a pair of shoe.I love the dresses though cost quite a bit, one year once is fine though.I bought a yellow top the day before too, is yellow in colour. A colour whereby I seldom wear.Love it too.I have been spending money again but still under control.Pamper myself when I can.Got myself Famous Amos cookies a few days ago too..250gm and get 50 gm for free. :) my favourite cookies..yummy..I don't buy it very often so is ok.Ba kwa also, just feel like eating the golden coins so bought 600gm..

I feel bad though, forgot about Qing Wei's birthday til at night then I remember, just sms him though.We are suppose to celebrate with him after service but I didn't make it though.sorry about it.not on purpose.
Tomorrow is another working day, wonder what will we do again..mm..perhaps being maid lol.shall see

I'll will just stop here..feeling shag and gonna see what I can do with my free time.

On leave..

Yeah I am on leave today due to happy hr yesterday so take a break today..mm..yesterday our company have our happy hr firstly in the office whereby we play games n lucky draw etc..relaxed and then set off to have our dinner at Newton Circle..have crabs, lala, stingray etc and then off to kbox session at forum..We had fun though..great..22 of us including bosses..too bad Anthony n Neil still on board ship cant join us..We had fun til 1 plus so kind of tired today..

I just rest today..go n run my own errand and took my afternoon nap..yeah.feel fresher..can I sleep tonight? hhaa remembered I drank coffee in the afternoon but still can sleep..lol I am becoming pig :P I guess I am really tired cause I sleep late n wake up at ten plus..Tomorrow is back to work lor. time flies..

Sometime think too much makes me feel upset etc..I dun want to think anymore! Just enjoy my coming weekend..end here..

2008..

This is the first blog entry for year 2008..Time flies and I wish that the year ahead will be smooth ahead but then things do happen when u least expected it..

Firstly my Uncle was sent to hospital and he is in a coma now and secondly everyone is shocked that Mediacorp comedian actor, MC King passed away on Friday..He is only 40 years old.really unpredictable..Life seem so short.. I really hope that my uncle wakes up soon and may God bless that everything will be fine..

Mm..as on 31 Dec 2007, went for countdown with Yu Yan, WL, Ming De, Pei fen etc..we went to esplanade park there but was packed so try to go under the bridge la..fireworks was nice but too bad I accidentally delete away the videos..sob..but anyway I catch it so not so bad..went back at 2am..Luckily Mao Ling stay opposite my block so we walked back home together from tpy central.. :) of course play with the spray can etc..not bad la..

New year day nothing much..Visit Uncle..everyone doesn't have the new year mood though..time flies and of course back to work..We were quite free though..can slack n rest for the whole day but I think a lot..

I want to thank u for being there..u know who you are la *wink..dear.. really need some support and I have been praying n praying..hope miracle happens..
As for my birthday didn't plan to celebrate much but process on to have dinner with Amelia,Shi Hui & Wei Ling at Bugis Ajisen on thur..did I spell correctly? thanks for the meal n presents :) actual day was out for dinner with family that's all..I believe I will remember what happen as it is near to my birthday..haiz..not a nice birthday though but anyway is over la..I didnt get to celebrate with u but thanks for ur lovely card..I was so surprised though is just a card but u are sincere enough..Thanks..and ur friendster msg..

Weekend really nothing much..I have been a bit sick..starting sore throat then recover..after that flu and now I am having cough..hate it..no choice..taking medicine..I shall end here..watching tv..

Wedding..

I just came back from Shu Wen's wedding not long..my cousin..mm..though not close and we really dun talk much or wat..I just went to give her my blessing..Sincerely wish her and her hubby Stanley have a blissed marriage..May God bless them!

I realise I dun really dislike my cousins compare to last time..perhaps feel that they have attitude problem in the past but they seem fine now..We went to 88 Restaurant at Harbourfront..I can say that the food are not bad..really..

haha my own younger brother asking me when am I getting married..lol omg! still early..wait til I find an ideal guy..haha..I really feel very happy for her that she can tie the knot with Stanley..They have been dating for quite a period of time..8 years wor..It is gd to find the one and settle down..If I can do so, of course really will be very happy n touched on that big day but who knows when my turn :P who is the next one getting married? It is still early for me..Shu Wen very pretty..of coz my dear cousin, Zhi Hong is very smart looking n handsome today..their sis also not bad..look prettier liao compare to last time..I must say Stanley is charming hhaa..lucky de Shu Wen..She nearly cry wor..too touched ba when giving speech..I can say the bride is so pretty..bridegroom handsome..

Haha there was a video clip shown..regards to childhood photos and dating photos..nice and also this morning's happening when they fetch the bride..they get sabo..biscuits with wasabi which is quite alot of it and weird drinks..
I am getting sleepy since so late so I guess I end here..

Holiday coming..Jingle Bells Jingle Bells..

I am back to blogging..mm..went out on thur which is public holiday..manage to get some clothes at A.M.K hub with Mum..got a pair of high heel shoes too..omg spend money again!! I enjoyed shopping though..relaxed myself n dun think so much..
Fri which is Yesterday..as I am blogging at midnight now though consider sunday..nvm..I went for church service at 8pm..it is kind of a bit different..abit of xmas one..but heard that it is around 80% la..kind of feel the atmosphere but my mood not very gd..abit sian..I guess I am fine..

I went to see the fountain of wealth's laser show..I thought there was lighting of fountain whereby the lights will be really on..water show or wat..but seem dun have..nvm..maybe becoz there is already decor..anyway I enjoyed it with WL and we send dedication to each other hehe..fun..It is kind of sweet though..I just wish her merry xmas and thx for being there for me always! friends forever! though the words didnt appear but the DJ read it..WL's dedication to me was out..haiz..nvm..she thx me too..then merry xmas lor..a pity suppose to watch it with u instead but u cant make it due to not well so ya..that is my small regret..if not it will be better..u say watch it with u, nicer..I guess so..do we have the chance to catch it together some days and touch the fountain water? I dunno..sunday, which is Today..is rest day..

Then off to mon, Xmas eve..heading down to mind's cafe with the rest to have fun and chill out..yeah..of course xmas day, we having church service..I dunno going anywhere after that..hope we will have some programs..end here.getting really late.

Disappointed..

Today thought that I can enjoy myself..end up He msg me saying he is not feeling well so cant meet me..I was damn disappointed lor..maybe I put in too much hope, seeing the fountain of wealth.u promise me but end up u never keep ur promise..I know sometime shouldnt doubt or wat..I feel u r lying that u r not well..only sore throat why cant meet..I really dun understand so I get so upset which I Shouldnt be de..end up I mention alot and u didnt even want to say much things..wat the..why? shoot til u dun want to say or u dunno wat to say..maybe coz she told me b4 u didnt meet up coz sore throat so I suspect u bluff me also..sad..if let say u dun want to meet, u can tell me earlier lor and not today itself..

Maybe I am making a big fuss out of it coz I cherish the friendship and date but I really dislike pple for cancelling programs at the last min..dun care whether u sick or not..try to give me a gd explanation..I will be ok one..dun last min when I am all ready to meet u..I hate it!!!! seriously..is u guys who make me unhappy..always coz of guys, I am unhappy..why should I be unhappy in the lst place..shit lor..

End here..

Christmas Season..

Well Xmas is just one week away..omg time flies..mm..I just attended a xmas party at Jolene's house last fri..14 Dec.. :) though it is a short one but not bad..end up didnt attend our dance one due to not getting to know the address when I ask them dunno la..make me sian that I dun want to go liao..anyway I just went to Orchard road..wow love the lightings..mm..shop around with Mei Fen and then walk to PS..nice atmosphere..I am happy today..really relaxed..

Hopefully will enjoy even more with u tml la..yes is u..to see the fountain lighting as the music comes..yeah..really will enjoy.never bluff u..I just wish everything is ok and we enjoy each others' company will do..sometime I think too much and perhaps worry too much and too sensitive that I make myself unhappy..1st time viewing that..so I am happy u can go with me..really..are u honoured?? haha..surely lor..I never go with anyone to see yet wor..this is my wish and I know u trying 2 keep a promise but I feel is not for the sake of accing me ..I want u to enjoy also..

ok la end here..

Down..

I simply dunno how am I feeling now..the more I think, the sadder I feel so I rather dun think so much..think alot of stuff which makes me feel sad..I simply cant forget wat happened in the past though u tell me they are history..I cant forget..sometime asking myself why is my path of life not right, when will I enter the right path for everything? I dunno..perhaps is really a test for us..to lead us to a better route/path..at times we gain something n lose something..there is no gaining all the time..life is like that..there are ups n downs..I hope we can overcome all of the obstacles in life..I hope I can overcome the fear in life when the time comes..

May God give me the strength to carry on with my life and have the determination n strength to overcome whatever that occurs..Thanks Lord..

End here..

I am back!!!

I am back from Genting Highland..had a traffic jam due to accident,jam for 1 hr..we reached home late..reach home almost 1am..feeling abit tired now..had a shower and finish unpacking my luggage..

Though holiday is short but I do enjoy it..We reached Genting on thur at abt 3.30pm and then check in hotel etc and went out for dinner..head down to explore and then to the arcade..alot of pple though..weather is so cold due to the rain..It has been raining since we were on the way to Malaysia..though S'pore stop raining, Malaysia side start to rain so kind of freezing cold when we reached..
We tried the buffet dinner for dinner, it was alright..very filling..I didnt went to casino coz of Xiao Jie..He is underage though so I acc him lor..if not perhaps I will go n explore for the fun of it but not gamble..We tried the bowling too..ok la not bad..the lane is smooth..went to arcade too..

Luckily yesterday's weather was fine though drizzling in the morning..the rain stopped during afternoon and theme park's games were all opened..yeah! We are considering whether to go or not b4 that as we were told that only certain games were opened..anyway we went around 1 plus..Mummy &Daddy didnt go so we were on our own..queue quite long though for the games..queue for fun kart abt 1 hr..then tried to play the rest of the games but had to meet parents for dinner so went out lst..after dinner I went to play again to try out roller coaster and the fall..omg! kind of scary and thrilling when the roller coaster comes down fast..shiok though..I longer to take that ride since afternoon but it was having a long queue..as for the fall..I didnt want to go as I am afraid..It seem scary..when it went up, is ok..the scenery was nice but when it went down, it was scary as if u didnt sit on the chair at all..maybe due to the force when it went down, really strong force..hhaa I scream very loudly but enjoy it..the wind was damn cold.. :)I guess my brother really enjoy it as he wants to go n give it a try and pull me along..haha..so no choice :P
sob he bullied me!! just kidding! other games ok la..fun kart was normal though no slope or wat..it's speed quite slow so u cant really speed lor..hhaa helmet is needed..u wear it with a shower cap..

As for the last day, which is sat..yesterday since it was already midnight..I woke at 9 plus,a bit later than the lst & 2nd day..enough of slp..yeah..
we had our lunch n took some pics etc and head down to take bus back home..
Along the journey back home, we bought some snacks for colleagues..cant carry so many so sorry guys, Genting nothing much to buy, I didnt get anything for u guys..if I go to other countries, I will get something 4 u all k.. :D
I took some photos there and will upload them soon in my friendster :)

k going to end here..just want to say I really relax myself this few days and hope to enjoy future trips too..

Here to update again..

I am back again..been doing some work this few days but still quite free..U know Jacqueline, we were having our tea break and she saw me doing nothing but rest..She didnt realise the time or wat..I dunno la..she ask me if I have nothing to do is it? wat the..is she really blur or wat,to try to pick on me during tea break??
Anyway forget abt it..small matter..

I shall update abt sat first..I went to Jolene's house after work..we have lunch at her house..alot of food..pizza, chicken, sotong, otah, muffin,homecooked rice by Wendy etc.. I ate til quite full and it lasted me til after church service lol..abt 10 of us turn up..probably all working adults..I dunno them but slowly know them lor..of course Angelia did turn up but for a while as she has D&D at night..
I feel a bit left out at lst but after that I feel alright..
We head down to church together..

mm..sunday suppose to meet Mei Fen but end up dun have so I stay at home to do my own stuff and then today I went out to meet him lor..have dinner and shop a while..
I shall see u when I am back ya..

Nothing much..will update again though..end here..

Bad mood..

Today just a normal day and I thinking when am I a confirmed staff..I feel upset coz she seem not wanting to confirm me yet, claiming that I didnt learn much things yet..I feel that,it has nothing to do with confirming or not..is not a matter of whether wat I learnt or know now..I can learn and willing to learn..as long as I learnt, I will know how to handle but they are busy wat..so how can they let me try while the report is so urgent, I will slow down the process..what I say did make sense wat..so she says she wants one more month to see how well I can perform..

I wasnt so happy abt her..I dun get the assurance, it makes me so unsecure..Maybe I shouldnt get so upset but I also dunno why I feel this way..I feel that I am a person who is lack of security..sigh..I just have to wait n see if I am confirmed or not lor..wat to do..I am only an employee..

Shall end here..glad that tml is sat..meeting Jolene & the rest for lunch.. :)

Tired..

I simply feel tired today..not enough sleep..even right now, I am feeling tired..gonna slp earlier today if not I am going to fall sick..start to cough already and my dear friend, WL is on mc..poor gal..hope that she gets well soon..ya..

Work is as usual..I just went out after work last night..Went to bugis, have dinner and shop around with Jufri..mm..thinking of getting a mp3/mp4 player soon..I guess mine doesnt work anymore..I cant detect the device at all.. sob.. I want to get a new hp too..aiming for Samsung ultra 13.8 ;) I guess all these have to wait til next year..prices increase therefore expenses increase but our salary doesnt increase..sigh..

I feel that I really dun trust guys anymore..always doubt what they say..I just want to know more friends..be with my brothers and sisters,hanging out with them to have fun and of course continue being God's child together..I love my carefree life..Just want to be happy and not to think so much..
Sometime things doesnt go our way and I will get upset..what to do, certain things cannot be controlled..We cant always want it to be the way we wish for and of course not to force our way through..I shall let God lead me to the path..

At times I dun wish to share that much nor talk so much but I do have some thoughts here and there..anyway is not necessary to share that much abt certain things..
I shall end here..

God bless u!

Rest in peace..

I am back to blogging again and was sad to read abt the 5 dragonboat paddlers..at lst I wasnt very aware of wat's happening til I follow up with the news..life can be unpredictable and we lost 5 sportsmen..I just hope that their family can overcome the saddness soon..I Know is really hard..those are their love ones..and all five of them are so young and one is the P.E teacher..I can really understand how they feel..I did lost a love ones b4 and a lovely teacher too..sigh..

I just pray that they can overcome everything soon though we are not related..just pray that the 5 guys can rest in peace..

Anyway was busy with work as usual and a bit tired today..I shall end here..

May God bless all of u..

Not my day!!

Well today work as usual..but then shopping trip with Ke Xin cancelled..then heard that Lai Mei sick..then bible studies cancelled at the last min also..I was like, not my day..everything cancelled and my schedule was like all messed up..dunno wat to do with the remaining free time..water drip on my hair n nose somemore..water from the aircon! wat the..then not just that..dunno where the water comes from when I walk out from church..wat a day..

It makes my day so sian..at times I am dreaming that I can find the one in church..then go church together and believe in God together and we share the same value and he can understand why I want to go church coz he also goes..perhaps can compromise better..the best is having a church wedding at our church..I want Pastor Kian Cheng to help us wor..I hope it will come true..May God bless that I find the right one , one day.. :)continue waiting and dreaming for now.

End here..

Been a long time..

It has been some time since I last blog..well..recently ok de la..work lor..we going to start to be busy coz of "Front Warrior"..well have to finish it in a week's time.omg! What we can do is to try our best..
I rather be occupied than slacking and dunno wat to do..It is not so nice u see..

I just went to visit my grandma on sat and went out with Ling, hui & WL for ling's birthday celebration on sunday..
We tried Msq's Wakaru Japansese Pasta..healthy pasta..then shop around and of course took some pics.I will upload soon gals..dun worry abt it hehe..

It has been two months liao..we sort of seldom contact liao..not even talk on the phone liao..is it really the same for all?once part means dun contact much liao.. I feel that maybe there isn't a need to do so..no reason to chat alot liao..at times I walk past some places or even came across some food, they just trigger my mind abt u..I believe u will just stay in my memory forever..After all these are gd memories of us..I just hope that u are doing fine..I know I am ok but somehow some memories u wont be able to let go..I can bluff others but perhaps I cant lie to myself that I forget everything abt us..is not possible..It is just that since we part, I dun wish to think abt so much..looking forward to my future..I am doing fine nowaday..as per normal..

I feel that somehow..we cant compare one another..I seem to feel that every human is so so different..not sure how pple feel and how impt is certain things to others..Somehow I realise I cant tell but just open my eyes big n see for myself..I guess this is the only way..

Shall end here ba.