Sunday..

Well is past 12.. I am back again.. just went to purchase a fan today as mine is spoilt..sigh.. the motor of my previous fan burnt.. -__-''' I went to look around at Courts, Harvey Norman n Carrefour..In the end I get my fan from carrefour lor..well not bad ..Akira brand at afforable price. hhee thx dear for accompanying me and as well as carrying it for me back to my place n fix it lor..My PA?? haha..:P

I didnt really shop today.Just get the necessary items and went home to have dinner..Yeah Mummy cooked today! Since she started working, normally she only cook once per week.I cherish the food alot..yummy! of course we played the strategy game yeah..I beat u n win u.hhaa but u win me for a round ..anyway 2 vs 1 still wins lol.. :P so wat other games that u want to play my dear? haha

Now talk abt something else which I least expected..
He try 2 call me after one month after not contacting each other.. I knew is him so didnt pick up n he left me a voice mail msg...telling me it is him..asking me, I dun want to be frenz with him already ar? call him when free or something like that..cannot hear clearly :P whatever..I dun bother since I get used to not contacting already..

I guess I didnt see wrongly, I saw him at orchard that day..should be doing his work..delivering goods ba..I just avoid it lor..dun wish to see him.. I dunno y I hate to hear from him, so when I receive his call I get angry..What am I? am I a person whom u look for when u need me..when u dun u just dun care abt my feeling.U can say watever u want to protect urself..Pls la..I dun need such friend coz is not worth to be friends though..dun bother..I hope he dun bother me again..I not trying 2 be nasty, y this guy just wont stop bothering me..thought everything is fine, u try to contact me again for wat..Must be quarrelling with her then find a person 2 pour ur sorrows? u have many friends wat..nvm

I dun wish to talk abt that le.Been longwinded..end here..gd night!

Finally got my bk!!

I just decide to go n get harry potter bk 7 which is the final bk..I went to kino n get it today though it rains..I just cant wait..should have bought it early ar? but no hurry wat that's what I thought..it wont fly away..lol..I believe I am not just a follower..I get attracted to the bk when I was studying,heard from friend that it is nice so I went ahead to read and we can borrow it from library..I was happy and read all the bks til bk 6 I bought it..now to the last bk..

Wat a pity..there r spoiler..I dun want to know what happen in the end but somehow find out a little which I dun wish to say..wat a spoiler from newspaper or other form of media.... -_-''' nvm..I just read lor since I bought it..no point telling coz sometime other have not read yet u see..Nvm..

Enough of grumbling abt the bk..now talk abt other stuff..get nag as usual de la..dun want 2 say so much lor..get used..haiz..dunno wat to say leh out of a sudden..sometime dun want to bother friends etc so may either blog to pour out how I feel if not pen it down ba.then I will feel better lor..

Ok la I end here.. I will be alright..tml will be brand new day..wish me gd luck ya?

Have Fun!

We went to celebrate Hui & WL's 21st Birthday in advance today..We met up n went to Mind's cafe..yeah is like pitstop cafe..but the aircon so cold man..omg! We have a two hrs board games..with finger food n drink..not bad..is fun though..I enjoyed myself.It's great to meet up at times and spend time together..is really relaxed there..then went to HK cafe at bugis with WL to have dinner..yummy food yet not expensive..

I feel so happy today..really..though sometime we cant meet up or seldom talk..after all we r friends who meet up..glad to know u guys..as long we have each other in our heart is gd enough..friends ya..

haha I want to get harry potter bk! but dear wants me to finish reading my shopholic bk lst and comics.. :( so when will I finish? hhaa currently reading fern michael's Guest list..this author is nice..I love her stories..interesting..U can find alot of her bks in National library..that is where I came across and start to read her bks..

Though is gd to rest like wat WL says..rest time lor..I still want to get back to my own occupied life soon..enough of rest..while I can rest..I make full use of it..

End here..going read my storybk..

Still waiting..

Well I just dunno why I feel abit unwell this morning..stomach seem to be in pain..gastric? I dunno..left leg ache for a while too..but better now..mm..I should be fine ba..so I guess I am not going anywhere today lor..haiz..

Well I waiting 4 Jojo's call..I feel that if she didnt call at all means no hope lor..I dunno..coz its going to be 3pm..I didnt hear any news from her.. :( well nvm I tried my best though..I must jia you!sometime feel sian since there is no news..when I tried..lead to me feeling lazy liao..opps..

Btw I read abt certain comments regarding some bloggers which u guys will know if u went to take a look..I shall not mention names..though I shouldnt comment so much but just stating my view abt it..stating others as disgusting bloggers r bad..after all, those r pple's blogs..pple shouldnt be so mean as to comment on them and there is no point fighting back too such as saying pple ugly etc..this will lead to no ending..I feel that since it is a personal blog, pple have the right to do wat they like n blog wat they want as long as it isnt unreasonable or obstruct to the law..get wat I mean..so after all it is pple's biz..we dun have to mind so much..if u aint happy abt it..dun go and look at the blog..no one ask u to view it..u can dun view it..agree with me?
No point arguing or wat..simply too free? nothing better to do? childish la..I not saying I am so mature or whatever..really la..childish..

K la I shouldnt comment further..it is none of my biz after all but I see liao buay tahan other critcising pple's blog and even say abt Auntie's blog..bad! I end here

Waiting..

Today I just went lor for that opportunity..I dun have a lot of confidence..but I have tried my best just wait lor..I cant do much but wait for call..that is always the case..haiz..
Mean while I will try my best for others..pls dun pester me la ..I tried my best.. :(

Well today's quite alright..recommended by JOjo lor..really must thanks Hazel for her help..if not I wont get to know jojo ya..
I own Hazel a favour .. :) maybe can ask her out one day..I only know the outcome on fri..so let see lor..

I dunno wat to do tml..rest ba..sometime I know I have bks, comics, newspaper n bible to read..hhaa but seem like not enough time to do all that..I still can do my crossstitch n watch dramas etc..wat did I do the most? I guess is slp ..hhaa n rest nowaday..

Rest is to walk even further in life..I am prepared to start work anytime yeah..

I end here..need to do other stuff..

Simply sian..

Another day has past ya..feeling the same way as usual..I just went to catch Harry Potter with Vin,my cousin Angelia & her bf on sunday..not bad la..I love to watch..hhee we went to tiong bahru plaza..I realise is quite crowded..many pple watched..actually plan 2 go 2 other places 2 catch it but the tickets r almost fully bk with not many seats left..so that's y we went to tiong bahru plaza..

haha..Dear was supposed to help us get tickets..but end up Ivan got it lol..nvm :P thanks Ivan..hehe..Ivan was feeling abit sick though..poor thing but he manage to finish watching the movie b4 he went off..
not a bad thing to have double date? meet up some days again..

Sometime is not that I want to grumble..I dun wish to bottle up how I feel so I will say it out..at times I dun wish to go online so I wont pester u guys so much..or maybe I dun even feel like going online..

sometime we have different views and pple tend to assume how I feel..not saying all of u r doing that..some pple la..not my 3 closer friends though..assuming isnt gd..like ling say..we know ourselves the best..that's true..so I guess I dun have to be bothered by what u said coz that is ur view not mine..it doesnt matter ya..

But pls dun comment or criticise abt pple's religion..I hate it..different pple have diff. beliefs..this is a sensitive topic..but ur dear friend love to do that.he know who he is la..I dun wish to say..I dun like u mixing around with him..but he is ur friend after all..so I dun wish to interfere..he tend to influence u..that is bad..coz it is not a gd influence..maybe I cant click with him and agree with wat he says..doesnt matter either..is ok la..I am still me..ya..u guys can do wat u want..I simply cant interfere much and dun wish to do so in case u say I am a narrow minded person dun let him enjoy etc..

I sound angry? I am not..I just dun like the way he comment abt pple..bad lor..coz is wat he thinks and he assuming lor..not wat I thinking..I dun like..nvm..doesnt matter..

End here..

Sian

As usual nothing much to do lor..I know I have things to keep me occupied but I guess is becoz I lack of something..I hope to get one soon..back to normal life though..hope opportunities will come soon..

I also hope that u and I can understand each other better and everything turns out fine for us.stay happy ya..may god bless u to have a gd health so u wont fall sick easily ya.. :)

My main goal is to grab an opportunity and have a job soon..
Hope to meet up with friends when we r free.. though I may have small circle of friends but I believe that if there r true friends..a few will be gd enough ya..

End Here..

July already..

Time flies and I am back to blogging again..I left the company for a few days already and I guess I am really relaxed but a bit bored..nvm..trying hard to send resume n then go for job interview..I have one on fri..yeah..keppel.. :)

Well frankly speaking..I realise I did know some nice friends when I work..just like in hang ten n PH..we do keep in touch though seldom contact..I know I somehow dun wish to leave? so weird.hhaa
I did have a nice lunch/dinner with u guys..surprise u will ask me out for dinner coz is my last day..fun chatting with u n Sam..realise u aint that quiet..when pple know u..u can chat liao..This is the part whereby pple want to explore abt u hhaa..

Nvm we still can keep in touch..but then u r mushy..I really awake by ur msg..wat miss me..omg! I cant believe is from u..I guess he must be kidding..PH pple all weird weird one..dun fool me n make me happy can? I am not so gd but maybe easy 2 fool?

Father lord help me pls..I dun wish to think so much.I cant control wat they thinking..but he isnt like that last time..wat happen? so weird..I am scared..just want to beware of him..coz I dun want to be treated like a fool again..maybe I think 2 much..let nature takes its course..u guys r my friends..

I end here..

Pursue goals..

Time flies..this is the last week of work..I wondering how am I feeling now..I guess I wont know it as it is of mixed feeling..so excited?..I just wish 2 take a short break n find a new job..
Working in PH mm..can be unhappy but I believe I gain some experiences and get 2 know how to handle certain pple..sometime we just have to move on & stop thinking abt the past..whatever that happens will be the past once I step out of the company..not much of a nice memory..maybe some frenzs which I know ..not so bad..we have each other's contact no..I hope we can keep in touch..

I wish to go n pursue my goals slowly when I am still young..I take a step at a time..some things cant be rushed..it makes things worse.so I am going 2 aim for wat I want..just hope everything is fine..I believe the decision I make regarding resigning wont be wrong..I wish that I can do wat I like n achieve wat I want so I wont regret for the rest of my life..

Of course hope me & Him be fine with each other's company..hope we can understand n love each other more..

May God bless us..I believe he did..thx Father Lord..

A bit fed up

Well..I didnt blog for abt a week..now just update a bit..new staff is here for 3 days and I was supppose to train her..haiz..headache..Mei Yue never care much..some "interesting" things happen..I dun wish to mention them again..maybe it is just a small matter..but it makes me vomit blood..I will just try my best coz I will be leaving soon..1 more week..I wont feel sad or wat..I just feel happy 2 start a new job agan..leave unhappy memories behind..I wasnt that happy over there..I really wish I can find a place where I will be happy working in and a conducive place..

Maybe this place suit the new staff..hhaa wat a trap..Edmund clever 2 say I going to study..since when? this is an excuse..I believe this is wat he says to Mei Yue 2 when the gals want to resign..
hope everything turns out fine..

I end here..dunno wat else to blog..

God's Child

I am back blogging..just come back from church..I was surprised..I accept Jesus..so sudden today..I didnt expect it..I didnt let parents n him know yet..wait til the time is right ya..I guess I will be still me..maybe a better me..ya..
Let me talk abt 1 night cruise trip last sat..well it turned out alright..It is a bit bored though..nothing much..took some pics here n there..ya going develop them..we just have food..explore around, take a look at casino, karaoke lounge to sing songs during midnight hee..have to order drinks though to be able to sing.. I have fun but abit short..it close at 3am..ok la have a gathering with the rest is gd..I leaving the place soon anyway..treat it as a gathering lor..

I think I end here..go n do other stuff..

Company Trip

I am back 2 blog..mm..this few weeks quite occupied on weekend..I just went to 1 night cruise trip with my colleagues on sat..it is gd 2 get together n relax..but quite boring..Star Libra have limited facilities..maybe it is smaller that why..with 9 decks.. :)
I love 2 sing at the lounge.Sam, Elsie, Celina, Me, Min Li, Mei Yue went to sing during 2am hhaa..too bad they close at 3am if not we sing til the sun rise hhaa..We ordered drinks n we can sing lor..

I guess most enjoyable is food ba hhaa..too many 2 choose from so I didnt eat much though..eat til scare.coz we have dinner and we have supper during midnight..u can see everyone is awake still eating lor..hehe Owl wor..this is night life ..yeah..
We should enjoy while we go on trip yeah..not slp in our room hhaa
Mei Yue, Min Li & I share a room while Elise ,Sharon,Andrew etc they all stay next door to door..It is convenience lor to find them..
I will go n develop photos n let colleagues see & choose.. try to get it done soon..yeah..

I guess that's abt all..I dun want to be so longwinded and talk abt it that much..countind down..so end here..

Well Today I feel alright compared to sunday & yesterday..I was really tired on sunday n yesterday..We have a small sec sch gathering at Island resort on sat night..stay over night til sunday..I feel that it wasnt that nice n enjoyable..quite boring..but one thing for sure..sun rise is so beautiful..4 of us, Ker Hisen, Boom Tom , Pei fen & I went to watch sun rise at the jetty..we cycled there in the morning..Boom Tom ride two seat bicycle..I didnt sleep much on sat night..cant get to sleep..chat instead ..slept 1 hr only..haha..

I can see that everyone is so tired and half dead on sunday morning hee...We didnt sleep much the whole night wat..is normal..
This is the lst time I stay overnight..the feeling is gd..to see all my frenzs together..although a small group..not so bad..coz u get to know others better..even though never talk much last time,we will talk already..that is gd..a pity I forget to bring camera 2 the jetty..i left it at the chalet :p anyway I "gain" something ar ..injure my knee.lol..nvm small matter

End here ba..I do my work le..I guess we have another gathering when free..not chalet or bbq le..troublesome..no one ate the food..so sad..

Moody..stress

I dunno why..I just face problems..work n him..make me even more stress..I know I need him at times..when I am down n even when I am happy..but I dun get to meet him ba..he is busy with NDP rehearsal..I am stress..cant u understand..work load so much..u cant comfortable me ar? haiz..I feel like crying at times..too stress til I want to cry..stress then u still treat me coldly at times..dunno wat u doing..maybe I think 2 much? dun want to think le..no mood 2 work sia..thinking of chalet stuff..not that sure how to go..I have bad sense of direction u see..later get lost haaa..jia lat one hor..want to enjoy also have so much problem..staying overnight tml yeah..

I go n do my work ba..end here..I hope I feel better..just blog a bit..looking 4 new job..have job offer but rejected.I want a better environment..I jia you lor..may god bless me.. :)
yeah just relax tml..dun wish 2 think so much..

Worry freak?

I dunno..I feel that our atttiude towards each other changed since so many things happen..maybe dun wish to put in so much hope n effort ba? plus he is quite busy recently..outfield..NDP stuff..he said he dun have much time for me this year..I feel that we can plan de lor..so he say see when free then meet lor. Y he gives such attitude? I guess we need our free space also ..But I dun wish that becoz of that we drift apart, it will be bad..

Recently we quarrel..easy to argue....sigh..temper getting worse..but yesterday's msg was sweet and make me feel secure n happy ba..He meant wat he says? so I am still very impt? He needs to spend time with his frenzs..I understand de..but I guess wont meet for 2-3 weeks..I didnt really tried b4..gonna miss him..sigh..I just find my own programs lor..go church service etc..We need some space yeah..

I not going acc him next week ba coz I dun want to go to his place so often..not gd..u get what I mean? I dun like..he needs rest also..and he says he go church with me..but end up he doesnt want to go..hhaa coz I didnt go n find him?
I just explain how I feel..I really hope he understands..I am a gal..I have my fear also..We r old enough to know wat is right or wrong..but sometime it can be a rash action etc..not that gd u see..

Somehow feel jealous coz I know he meeting a bunch of gals or two gals probably on sat..I guess is normal although I know they r just his frenzs..He said I can join him if I want..I wont want 2 spoil his fun plus I will get jealous lor if they talk n neglect me..hhaa so easily jealous?? is normal wat..I am still alright since I know them..is alright to meet but better dun lie to me lor..trust is very impt..

End here..

Farewell Mr Mike Ho..

Recently..many things happen..sian..We just heard a recent news..that Our sec sch ex physics teacher, Mr Mike Ho CK passed away on sat..is really sad to know it.He is still so young..age of 38..

I remembered Mr Ho as a nice n very patient teacher whereby he will explain things til u understand..although we used to be noisy in class..he was patient..classmates dun appreciate wat he did..but I know some did..We didnt see him for a few years..and didnt know the last time we get to see him is at his wake on mon..this news is really shocking..I heard it from Wei Ling..she msg me..

He is my form teacher when I was in 4N2 which is in Year 2002.Mr Ho looks skinny le..sigh..he is a nice teacher..why he have to die so early..but I guess is better for him now as he went home with the lord..with no suffering n pain..I hope he is happier..in heaven..I believe Jesus will take him with him.. :) rest in peace Mr Ho..I believe u will be glad to know that ur ex students are doing fine..aint u?

We saw our teacher..Mr Devan..he is doing fine..happily married with Ms Cheok..I know he is sad coz Mr Ho & him is like buddies..start to teach together..go out have fun also..even be his best groom when he get married in year 2004..
I am glad we have the chance to pray our last respect..even though he may forget us? I guess he wont.. May god bless of us n Mr Ho..

End here..

What u want?

Seriously I just wish we ignore each other and that's it la.why u bother to call me? luckily my hp is off coz of low batt..I didnt even hear the voice mail til this morning lol..that will make u give up? I thought is Lai Mei..pastor's sis..so I didnt bother..didnt know is u..

I dunno wat else we can say..everything is ruined til like that & I heard some things abt u ,but dunno whether to believe wat I heard..i am in doubt..maybe I see it then I will believe..I know I try hard to forget u..but I didnt although I didnt call u or msg u anymore..u just come to my mind..but wat to do..I cant care so much..I worry alot whenever I am with a person..how I know wat ur motive? dangerous..

Right now I have my bf..I dun wish to think abt other stuff but build up our relationship..sometime I am in doubt as whether single is gd..maybe it is..so I wont get entangled in such stuff..sian..tired u know that..tired whereby the matter doesnt end..he doesnt give up..haiz..do I have to hear wat he has to say? haha MY is right..wait for him to call instead of calling him..here he is calling me le..but I didnt on hp..too bad..I dun think I wish to hear from him anymore..dun want to hear craps.dun make me put in hope la..I very scare it is a trap..so I keep pulling myself away..if he isnt single, I get myself into trouble lor..

End here..

I feel better

I really feel better today..I am on mc today..too tired physically n mentally last night..just went to see doc n rest..yawn.. well maybe we said we wont contact but he really not that heartless..to see me unhappy..still cares for me..I know him..guys can say they wont do that etc..if they r really heartless like someone..maybe I am to blame.I am heartless to him lst..haha..he wont care..

We still keep in touch..kind of chat alot today..msg alot..mm..nan de..for the past few days maybe too sad..we didnt contact much although somehow msg him n saw him online..just dunno wat to say..now just talk like normal lor..
I just feel that God maybe blessing me..to let us talk again..we r frenzs..still care for each other..is normal..I feel that sometime maybe is hard to be frenzs..but there are pple who will do so..just that maybe we cant care so much like we used to be?

It is a matter of time to forget everything..said is easier than done..I will try..try to forget that someone..better not to see him..and better that he dun give me any hope so I can forget him.. just that the more u want to avoid the more u get to meet the person? I saw him at the main door of our company..face to face..I pick up the internal call.is from him..I still see him in the office.is this coincidence? I dunno ..wat to do have to work what..dun want 2 think so much..

I want to pursue my career and studies...bgr is not impt anymore to me & Vin..we lead our own life..relaxed lor..I believe if we r fated, maybe we may be together again..I feel is hard as the pain is so much that he wont want romance..he is silly but I know I am lucky..thx god 4 giving me this bf..maybe we just not fated..

I really feel I am very blessed in life...to have a family ..with my doting mum..really thx my mum for all her care & Concern all this years..although I can be stubborn, talk back at times..and even not spending much time with her..I try to spend more time with her already..She really a lovely mum..if there is a next life.. will be glad to be her daughter again..really thx god for letting me meet my 3 best frenzs..Amelia, Shi Hui & Wei Ling..who are always there whenever I need them..to talk etc..they will be willing 2 listen..I love u guys..

Thanks Vin too..for always being there when I need him..even up to now he still cares for me..such a guy hard to find but maybe not fated..I am not so worth for u to be so gd to me ..I can say u really treat me well..although I am hot tempered at times..we compromise even if we quarrel..not really a big quarrel..we just give n take..either one person apologise and we are fine.I cant deny being happy with u for the past two years..been through a lot n u never leave me..I can only say I feel sorry that I am unfair to u..but u never blame me..thanks for it..

U guys must be thinking wat wrong with me..talk abt all this..I just have this thoughts and want to express how I feel that all..coz life is unpredictable..no one knows when we will leave this world..haha my mum just feel that my thinking quite weird since I went to church service..I change? nope ..I think abt all this all the while..from wat I see..and hear..I just learn to cherish life..but maybe I never cherish relationship..

end here..

Carefree life..

I dunno should I say I am really carefree now and I should feel happy..somehow not that happy..I guess I need to take some time 2 adapt..after all I am so used to being attached..is the end between us..I just let it be.I believe in fate..maybe this path is the best for me..I dun have this kind of life for so long..I want to take a break and concentrate on my work..I want to get a gd career..it takes time and I am still looking 4 it..

Frankly speaking, I guess this is the best way..we can lead our own life.do wat we want without restriction..I love that..I believe that every relationship make us grow up..and learn more things..as long as we dun make stupid mistakes..love cant be forced..

I choose this path..but wat to do..I already choose, cannot regret and then u ignore me..what can I do..I just hope u let me give up totally ..dun call or msg me anymore 2 give me hope if u dun even bother already.. so I can forget u and continue my life..I know is hard..I dun want to bluff myself..I just fall in the well..trying to pull myself out..u know that kind of feeling? then wat abt u ? U like me? I find it hard to ans..u ignore me coz of what? I still get to see u..although u say u dun come up 2 office..haha.. :P u only tolerate 4 two weeks..I know u cant do it la..

Guys r like that..seriously I dunno whether u really like me..I give up coz u dun want to ans my call..b4 that u still msg 2 ask if I call u..I dunno for what..end up I didnt call..I am angry, dunno wat u want to say n afraid I will scold u instead..I already tell u how I feel..is up to u to care or dun care..I dun mind le ..wat can I do..I choose the path le..better for me..leave it to fate..tml is his birthday..but haha he has frenzs to help him celebrate de ba..I dun have to worry..

I just know like someone is so xin ku..I will try to forget u de..slowly ..if we are destined to be together, we will be together de..that is wat I can say..sometime hard to know if a person is playing with u..u have to see 4 urself..

End here..



End here ba..

What's wrong?

I dunno wat I thinking..I just know that my mood is ok today til we talk abt an issue.. sigh..wat is there a big fuss abt it that we can feel unhappy? small matter only..maybe he is stress up & unhappy..small little things he can get fed up..doesnt mean u r not impt to me..u can join me but I know u dun like so I never force u..is it really difficult to compromise..not just god.u, family n frenzs r impt too..

maybe u dun understand how I feel..I know u want me to acc u..I never say I wont pei ni wat..that u claim the time is short..sigh..compromise lor..go on alt sat..wat 2 do..relationship is a give n take one..but I believe u love me, u respect wat I did right? now u know how i feel when u put work at the very lst priority that u almost neglect me..I really not happy..is the same thing..now u know..

I feel this is only a small matter..wat u concern actually isnt this..is more than that..I know u..I been together with u..I know how u feel..but sometime is also hard to know wat guys r thinking..
what to do..sigh..

end here..