Some thoughts

I am back blogging again..somehow I feel..mixed feeling..

I know I dun feel so happy but rather trying to be happy at times..It takes time and also other work issue, it's making me stress and unhappy..My boss is stress and here I am also stress..what can I do to help u James? hope everything is fine on thur wor..
headache..I am not happy..if I am, I guess I am not human being..I am trying to be normal in front of all..I just wanna work, don't wanna think too much..

I try to stay happy..I will..it might be hard..what to do..work stuff, leave it aside..irritated..haiz..I am affected..

ENd here..

Still the same..

I am trying my best but sometime things doesn't go our way & I get upset..maybe I should stop whatever I am thinking or doing to just move on with life.

Things doesn't go on that smoothly.how am I suppose to carry on, it's really bothering me..I just feel like letting go..at least I feel happier..I think I should just do it..stay away & be alone..I know I will feel happier that way..I am really tired of life..ya at this age? must be wondering so fast?

I won't be bothered from now on..u guys happy can liao..life still goes on..things always dun work out for me..so what u wanna me to do? I am tired..really..

shall end here..going back office a while n go to church..

simply tired..

Somehow after I come back from HK, I am back to the same old me, thinking alot and I am seriously unhappy coz of u two..whatever it is..I dun wish to talk much about it..is that why I feel so unhappy? coz I dun tell anyone what happen..a few friends been asking me..is ok guys..I guess I will be fine..I dun wanna say la..really..so dun need to ask me..plus lonely in office? so I become too self centered in my world? I dunno..

anyway I will try to get some sleep..I was snacking away today not becoz I really wanna eat but rather I will snack when I dun feel so happy..sigh..

Shall end here..

Mid Autumn Festival & Hk Trip..

I am back from Restine's Wedding..Yes, I just attended her wedding at dragon gate resturant harbourfront centre. Congrats to her & her Hubby..finally hold their chinese wedding..You look good in ur wedding photos..

Anyway I just come back on sat night 11.46pm.. Back from my hk trip..
I felt relaxed..I went for four days..I took Singapore airline..Took a morning flight on wed and a night flight on sat..
I am quite tired now..I wanna just have a quick blog n sleep.

Hk's weather was very warm. 33 degree celcius and it was so sunny all day..summer..they have their summer sales but I didnt really get things from their shopping centres..

Train was very convenient as u can travel and go to anywhere u want. We stayed at conrad hotel with Jolene who is on biz trip. Cousin & I went to avenue of stars whereby u can see famous stars' handprints etc..U are able to see the smponthy of lights ( sorry dunno how to spell) at 8pm..building will light up.. We went to causeway bay, kowloon, wan chai,mong Kok,tsim Sha Tsui,lang kui fang..Visited their ladies street,temple street,the peak etc. We took the tram and get to see the night view of hk. It was rather hazy so we cant see that clearly..what a pity..anyway is alright..We went to tsing Ma Bridge too and get a glance of the hk view..wow nice and I manage to get a few mugs which will change colour when u pour hot water..
I bought some snacks too and espirt clothes etc..oh yeah..I also went to the famous wax museum..We tried their dessert , congee & dim sum..Oh yummy! We had been eating quite alot of pork n prawn that I reach s'pore..I dun wanna have any..

I didnt go to disneyland & ocean park though..It was fun exploring around and get to taste different food..my cantonese wasn't that good. I can understand but I dun think I speak that fluently so somehow we speak english when we talk to sales person etc. They can ask us, r u from singapore? lol..that obvious?
Hk is really a shopping place whereby u can really see alot of shopping centres..As for pubs, lang kui fong is a gd place..

It's good to take a break for a while..recharge myself..a pity I didnt get to eat egg tart..anyway enjoy myself though it is a short trip.

I shall end here and go to bed..gd night..need my sleep..shall update again soon..

Setting off soon..

I finished my work today.I went back home earlier and packed my stuff..James should be on board already..He sms me just now saying he checked in..Well anything just sms will do while he is away n I am away..my gd friend ;)

I can't wait for mine..sense of relief to finish what I have to do..clear my mind and have fun..

I shall update when I am back..sleeping time..night!

Update again..

I am back to blogging again..

mm..Last fri went out for dinner with my fellow colleagues and boss came to join us for a drink at bliss after his dinner with family..
I drank la..

Sat, dun feel that good but after that I went to church and met darling for dinner.

Sun, rest day for me..I just stay at home though.

Back to mon, working day for me lor..as usual..As for yesterday, work and then had dinner with James...to discuss some issues and clear doubts etc.. Everything is great

He is off for holiday without any worries. No one can contact him..power..end up I will be the one picking up call lor -_-'' Hate it as it makes me fed up coz of an issue today.. Something to do with one of our fp and end up I had to try to solve..what the..at times they cause some inconvenience..nvm..what done is done..

I don't wish to think so much..work can make me stress but just let it be..how I wish James is around..I don't wish to worry that much..Some things are just beyond our control. It is within God's control. We can't do anything about it..

I cant wait for my trip that's all..I can just let go off everything and have fun..I need a break..Hopefully after 4 days of break, I will feel very fresh..

end here..

Award Night..

I just reach home around 11 plus..I went to attend Awards Night at Grand Copthorne Waterfront hotel..The place was quite grand and the food was not bad..Boss got award so I was invited though so I went..not a bad experience but I left after the dessert..hehe..Perhaps abit drunk & I feel abit blur just now. After shower I feel ok..

It's great to drink and James start asking me why I am unhappy etc and he told me things..talk to me..I dun want to elaborate further..simply 2 long..

I have been busy and I try to finish my work etc..he's trying to train me..I am trying my best to meet his demand..just see how it goes..what else to update? I think nothing much.I went to catch firework at tpy on fri..korea..as for sat,I didn't catch..Sat meet up with yy,valen,ming,darling & yu yan for dinner..

Sunday went to top one to sing with kk,yu yan, Chien Kiat , Ming De..sang from 11 plus to 6pm then heard for dinner at v8 cafe..BT brought his gf along..finally get to see his gf..hehe..after that they head to play pool but I just go along n watch..chat with zu er.. :)

I gonna sleep.can't take it..tired after drinking..end here

Some updates

Well a quick update before I go to bed. I am feeling quite tired already. Well didn't blog for a week and I am back.

I was quite down since last fri. Anyway I am alright now.Doesn't matter and I don't wish to talk about it again. so ya.. mm..other than meeting Jamin a while on mon & tue which I have mentioned in previous post, I was working til quite late to finish my work so not many programs last week. Sat as usual,go to work.sigh work til 3pm and I went to starbuck with James..After that he sent me home and I went to sleep a while before meeting darling for dinner at botak jones tpy.. Wow it was the first time trying that and darling queue for some time wor and we had our meal from abt 9 til 10 haha..slowly enjoy our dinner and have a great chat. We even just walk around and guess what we landed in Bishan. Somehow we got lost. yup you didn't see wrongly. We got lost!! -_-''' haha..Anyway we manage to walk back, making our legs feeling aching but we have fun exploring :P

Sunday was a bad day Mum made some jellies and I brought it to darling. end up somehow I am angry with him..I don't wish to say too much..sigh..

Finally went to register for my biz management course on mon after dragging for quite some time due to working late.I felt the change in me..It was a good sign but I guess I am pushing myself over my limit in order to perform better..anyway everything is under control. I felt alright already. Right now waiting for sch to start and I will be slightly busy. I cherish the time that I have now as I had not experienced studying and working at the same time. I did thought about it but I would like to fufil my goal which I set two years ago. I wish to achieve this when I have enough money to study. Here I am doing what I wish to. yup I want to achieve my goal and then I can continue with other goals..I guess I won't think so much, just give it a try..

Oh ya I want to get my driving license by the age of 25..right now I wanna wait for the enrollment letter and then study & get my cert..after that I will go and learn what I want..

I just went to NUS for bizarre which is actually from mon to wed but I only went yesterday due to the need to do submission on mon and then today too. I dun wish to go today..it was quite boring and I would rather stay in the office.
I just did some survey and even got strawberries from the stall lol..there were quite alot of things but I didnt manage to explore much.There were free candy floss so I went to get haha..sound like kid? I love candy floss! There is a van supply free milo too.. It was quite a relaxing day but a bit warm as we are wearing black polo tshirt..As for today, I didn't go anywhere and I guess I wont have any plans for next few days except weekend..probably going church on sat.I want to be in the house of the lord and going k session on sunday..horray! still planning in progess..

Alright I shall end here..time to sleep before my boss nags at me tml..haha

Special Day..

I was doing my work as usual but was glad that today is a special day..I am able to meet up with darling during his night out..Though we just meet up for a short while,is good enough..trying to spend some time together whenever we can..we are quite busy today..never sms much though but everything is fine..
met up with darling at J8 and guess what I saw Sherrane..oh no! she saw me with Darling, I was shocked..what a small world that I saw office pple..opps
That day someone whom Jamin know, saw him..It is my turn now..haha but I didn't let go of his hand :( too stunned haha..We had dinner at pastamania and dessert..Mango dessert..quite a small bowl though but was quite thick..not too bad..

Getting sleepy so I guess I shall stop here..sleeping..night!

Boring sunday..

Well I have been out since wed so I am at home today. Suddenly feel so empty but glad that my electric keyboard is here.hehe..I have been waiting for the delivery in the morning as it was stated that it would be delivered between 9am to 2pm..Well I cant really play much yet but will try to learn ya..other than that, I was doing nothing much so maybe gonna watch drama online..Sunday is quite a boring day as there wasn't any nice drama for me to watch :( nevertheless is ok..just have my personal time. Let my darling have his personal time too though thought of him. I guess I wont see him til next week though he will be free tomorrow..

Well I went to catch "Money not enough 2" with darling yesterday. The movie was quite funny and yet sad too.I cried.. I was emotional u see. We went to get my electric keyboard too.. We even had dinner then went to catch firework and then went to boat quay to have a chat before heading back. Guess what, I scald my right thumb n 2nd finger while I got my dinner..painful and my skin turned white and is kind of hard and a bit numb now though is not painful..sob sob..thanks dear for helping me to apply gel..so sweet of u!

As for fri,I went to have dinner with Koon Huat, Yu Yan & Jamin..We went to arcade first while waiting for Jamin before heading for dinner..
Koon Huat cant join us for a drink so we went to have a drink at balcony..outside hereen. The environment was great.Before that we saw someone,whom is none other than Bryan Wong from star idol. he is gd looking wor..Glad to see him..
We have fun drinking..the drink wasn't that strong and it only makes us feel warm that's all.. yeah we stay til about 12 and we left.

As for wed and thur, I met up with Mei Fen on wed for dinner and I met Ke Xin for dinner as well on thur..seem like a busy week? not so bad though..I enjoyed myself so I am having a break today. rest day at home!

End here..gonna watch drama etc..

Feeling sleepy already..

I am getting sleepy..some updates before I sleep. I was out with him during evening time til 11 plus today..spent some time together and is great..sharing how we felt etc, I really feel better. I just hope that we will just stay happy always. Everything can be solved ya..though at times I am angry etc by his actions but I just love him. hehe

Updates about sat which is yesterday.. I went to work til 4pm :( and head down to meet Yu Yan & Koon Huat. Yu Yan's friend wanted to meet us but end up she can't.She left and we went to shop a little and head down for dinner followed by catching fireworks at marine square and also having drinks at cafe.. We went to esplanade place, a quiet place. I ordered shirley temple and it was a mixture of lime, 7up and syrup. It was yummy and somehow actually we aint happy but is ok. We enjoyed ourselves and hhaa was complaining a little. I know is bad but can't help it. everything is fine..

I need to sleep. so tired..end here

Relaxed..

As usual today, busy with work and then went for meeting with Boss. We went out for dinner then have a drink at mount faber,hhee not to worry I drank fruit punch. I can't drink as I need to work wor.. I felt tired but right now, just have a quick update. I didn't get to meet Jamin if not I will be even more happier..Coz need to meet boss..

I felt happier as I told Boss how I felt about work. I felt relieved as I finally said it. somehow the atmosphere was good and we were at the right place, we can talk freely and then we did crap on the way back etc as usual..

we are serious towards work and we do crap when we are relaxed..thanks for bringing me out to relax. I felt great really..nice place..appreciate it and I sent sms to thank him. He didnt reply :P maybe he was driving just now..
We don't go out often, once a month for now to do some review..should be fine..

He told me that I can talk to him when I have problems.mm..shall see..

Thx God for everything..Glad to have a good boss..
yeah..

Time to sleep..Night!

End here..

Simply Depressed..

Somehow or rather, everything seems bad to me right now. What is wrong with me? I felt depressed but I don't wish to tell you. I see it no point, I rather keep it to myself. Telling you doesn't help but rather tell my friends. I don't even wish to seek God for advice. I don't wish to relie on anyone cause I can't even help myself. No one understands and that includes you.. You might think I overreact? I should be fine.
I know you are busy and I don't wish to disturb either..

Nothing seems right and I felt that I am rather demanding and expect certain things that I could do etc. I realise I can't meet my Boss & my own demand.Perhaps I think a lot and when you came across certain things/issues in your life, it makes you fear and makes you worry. I need to overcome and yet to do so.

Somehow I don't feel happy each day, or rather should I put it,if I am, it will only be a short while.
noting is everlasting..I hate the place and the people..sigh..

What should I do?
End here..

slacking..tired..

I was at home today and went downstair for a hair cut and met him a while as he cut his hair too downstair. It was a tired today as we had late night yesterday.I slept alot today until 1..opps..so I feel that time seem not enough.I don't have enough rest.

I went to work yesterday at 9.30 and stayed til 3pm. sigh. I was quite tired and luckily boss sent me home.Well I just wish to go back home and met up with the rest.
I reached home at 3 plus and met up with Yy,Jamin,Valen & Xin Zhu ( not sure how to spell) at 5 and we went to get presents. I felt kind of tired after a long day. We went wen's house to have steamboat as it was her birthday and also to celebrate for WL as well.mm..we had fun eating and something scared us haa..flying cockroach and Ming de was the one who caught it. lol..all the girls just ran away..cockroach came to greet wen happy birthday? that's what we joke about..haha..
We ate til quite late then help her 2 clear up before we went home..we drank red wine..Jamin's face was so red..lol..mine too and i think I felt a bit blur plus I was tired..reach home at 12 plus..surely talk more crap after I drank..

mm..I was thinking am I that demanding? Gd friends feel so..perhaps I shouldn't care so much.. Doesn't matter, end here..

Updates again..

Here I am blogging again after some time..sometime really too lazy or tired..

Today is a busy day and I felt stress..but get to meet up with u though a while, is good enough,cherish the time..
Yesterday was busy too..

mm..update about last weekend, I went out with Jamin,Yong Yee & Valen..We went to zoo..Valen has the membership card from her uncle so entry is free..yeah..It was a bad weather that day though not sunny. It rained around 5 plus..luckily we sort of finished looking around and set off to have dinner. But keep it away from me like where we going.. end up we went bishan park, a cafe..I just don't like people keeping me in suspect and was moody so my reaction was bad..anyway not a bad day though..

Sunday went top one ktv with WL, Hui & ling..celebrate wl & hui's birthday..We sang from 12 plus to 6..not so bad..Amelia came around 1pm..after her jap class..
Then we went to MOF to have our dinner..I ate spicy miso ramen with pork hehe..
Been eating chicken almost everyday for last week..western food most of the time..so unhealthy..we even went to have dessert after that..enjoying ar..hehe

I shall end here..too tired..

Taking note of my goals!

I believe not really fufil yet so gonna write it down again to remind myself..

1. Commitment in my life towards work,God or anything

2. Register for my course latest by end of July 2008

3. Start studying in Oct 2008(slight change as I decide to go MIS instead)

4. Get a keyboarding

5. Put in the effort to learn the keyboarding after I bought it and not wasting the money.. No learning half way through!!

6. Finish reading o/s storybooks and comics by Sept 2008

7. Learn dance either from Casey or other dance instructor(not urgent can be done by end of 2008)

8. Go ice skating, singing ( Anytime, is just my wants hehe)

10. Get a new com keyboard and mouse from IT sales during GSS!

11. Save $$ every month after getting my pay ..(shall not disclose the amt saved)

12. Spend money wisely each month though I may have some leisure activities

Bad day!

Well here I am back to blogging but I don't feel good.I thought today though a slack day but I came across things such like wrong no. when I called clients, company stamp issue which I don't wish to mention much as it is a small issue but people seem to make a big issue out of it..what the. making me troubled..Firstly I was moody today.. I just don't know why.Everything seem to be bad.I got so pissed off.I lost my ezlink card today lor.. I can't find it, must have drop it somewhere while I put it into my pocket..sobsob..
I went to purchase a new one for 15 bucks. :( I keep quiet about it, not wanting my mum to nag at me. This is the first time I lost my card and with the precious moment card holder. Luckily there wasn't much value inside my card if not I will scream!

I wish to chat but you are busy and I tried to return your call after I shower but you are chatting with other people.Is ok, I shall wait for you to return call..wonder how long it takes..

I just wish that tomorrow will be a better day.

End here

Wonderful day..

Just wanna update. though I know right now is consider sunday as it is almost 3am and why am I still blogging haha. Well didnt sleep just now, having supper so I just keep on chatting etc.

I do a quick update and off to bed. Need to go to church wor. well just spent a day with Jamin. catch a bit of ndp rehearsal and the fireworks..wow..great time. We took pics too..quite a few today. so sweet.

Anyway went for dinner and set off to fountain of wealth. sit down n chat..he opened his present. I could see him so touched, I felt so happy.He cherish it. just give him a hug.
Thanks for making me smile..hehe u r naughty..thanks for helping me with the balancing..so nice..

You r secretive regarding one of ur birthday wish. I just wonder what u wish for.
I just know is nice spending time with u..I am very happy whenever I am with u..feel so blessed.. Thank GOd!

End here..sleeping time..

Updates again..

here I am blogging during midnight and is July already.I gonna get present for..

Recently I realise some unexpected things happen and I believe that God loves me and bless me.. :) thanks Lord!

let me just update about what I did this few days..mm..Met MF on fri at bugis & after that I knew that WL is at orchard so I went to look for her a while.

Sat, went out with the rest such as YY,Jamin, Yu Yan etc.. 10 of us. big group ar..not bad lor.. In a way hehe they are disturbing. I don't wish to say so much.
Take a step at time for everything and I shall see how.
I know but see how it goes.. I also don't know how would I react.
Well we had fun..went suntec convention centre, then s'pore flyer. fun to explore and we heard down to newton circus to have our dinner. Ordered quite a lot of food.Not bad wor. Hokkien mee, satay, fried carrot cake, chicken wings etc. We enjoyed ourselves but too bad WL u didnt join us lor. what a pity! thx 4 the prawn! *wink..

I went to watch kungfu panda with him on sunday at great world city..It was funny, interesting movie. Never regretted watching it wor. Time just flies but is ok..we can go out another time.. Yeah! can't wait to meet u soon!

That was some of the updates so far..as for work, as usual.

I shall end here.time to sleep wor..

A long day..

I had a long day today. Went to NUS with boss & the rest to give the students a talk.

Food at the canteen was really cheap wor. We had breakfast there and I ate chicken wing n hashbrown as I had taken a light breakfast..

We even went to sp food court 6 for lunch lol.. I had been there before when I went for open house etc during sec sch times..

After that we decide to head down to kallang leisure for bowling..cool! I get very excited..relaxed what..James played quite well.. Wilson is from sch team wor..
After bowling, we went to catch movie..I am not sure of the movie name as it is quite long n chim.haha first time didn't remember what I watched..

It was funny but then to me is a bit pervert haha.the way the guy does his action..pple who watch will get what I mean..We really laugh a lot..

I enjoyed myself today! I guess the rest too..

I will think about the question which friends ask me to think..Anyway glad 2 hear from my darling.hehe..wow I put that will let pple misunderstand ya but I do call him darling..miss me just sms me lor, I will be glad.. I can feel u dun dislike me will do
Other than that..I still can sense but just take a step at a time..nice being friends with u, hope that u dun find me irraiting will do..Like u say, if u dun wish to talk to me,u won't talk to me for long or dun talk at all..

End here..gonna sleep..so tired..