Wedding..

I just came back from Shu Wen's wedding not long..my cousin..mm..though not close and we really dun talk much or wat..I just went to give her my blessing..Sincerely wish her and her hubby Stanley have a blissed marriage..May God bless them!

I realise I dun really dislike my cousins compare to last time..perhaps feel that they have attitude problem in the past but they seem fine now..We went to 88 Restaurant at Harbourfront..I can say that the food are not bad..really..

haha my own younger brother asking me when am I getting married..lol omg! still early..wait til I find an ideal guy..haha..I really feel very happy for her that she can tie the knot with Stanley..They have been dating for quite a period of time..8 years wor..It is gd to find the one and settle down..If I can do so, of course really will be very happy n touched on that big day but who knows when my turn :P who is the next one getting married? It is still early for me..Shu Wen very pretty..of coz my dear cousin, Zhi Hong is very smart looking n handsome today..their sis also not bad..look prettier liao compare to last time..I must say Stanley is charming hhaa..lucky de Shu Wen..She nearly cry wor..too touched ba when giving speech..I can say the bride is so pretty..bridegroom handsome..

Haha there was a video clip shown..regards to childhood photos and dating photos..nice and also this morning's happening when they fetch the bride..they get sabo..biscuits with wasabi which is quite alot of it and weird drinks..
I am getting sleepy since so late so I guess I end here..

Holiday coming..Jingle Bells Jingle Bells..

I am back to blogging..mm..went out on thur which is public holiday..manage to get some clothes at A.M.K hub with Mum..got a pair of high heel shoes too..omg spend money again!! I enjoyed shopping though..relaxed myself n dun think so much..
Fri which is Yesterday..as I am blogging at midnight now though consider sunday..nvm..I went for church service at 8pm..it is kind of a bit different..abit of xmas one..but heard that it is around 80% la..kind of feel the atmosphere but my mood not very gd..abit sian..I guess I am fine..

I went to see the fountain of wealth's laser show..I thought there was lighting of fountain whereby the lights will be really on..water show or wat..but seem dun have..nvm..maybe becoz there is already decor..anyway I enjoyed it with WL and we send dedication to each other hehe..fun..It is kind of sweet though..I just wish her merry xmas and thx for being there for me always! friends forever! though the words didnt appear but the DJ read it..WL's dedication to me was out..haiz..nvm..she thx me too..then merry xmas lor..a pity suppose to watch it with u instead but u cant make it due to not well so ya..that is my small regret..if not it will be better..u say watch it with u, nicer..I guess so..do we have the chance to catch it together some days and touch the fountain water? I dunno..sunday, which is Today..is rest day..

Then off to mon, Xmas eve..heading down to mind's cafe with the rest to have fun and chill out..yeah..of course xmas day, we having church service..I dunno going anywhere after that..hope we will have some programs..end here.getting really late.

Disappointed..

Today thought that I can enjoy myself..end up He msg me saying he is not feeling well so cant meet me..I was damn disappointed lor..maybe I put in too much hope, seeing the fountain of wealth.u promise me but end up u never keep ur promise..I know sometime shouldnt doubt or wat..I feel u r lying that u r not well..only sore throat why cant meet..I really dun understand so I get so upset which I Shouldnt be de..end up I mention alot and u didnt even want to say much things..wat the..why? shoot til u dun want to say or u dunno wat to say..maybe coz she told me b4 u didnt meet up coz sore throat so I suspect u bluff me also..sad..if let say u dun want to meet, u can tell me earlier lor and not today itself..

Maybe I am making a big fuss out of it coz I cherish the friendship and date but I really dislike pple for cancelling programs at the last min..dun care whether u sick or not..try to give me a gd explanation..I will be ok one..dun last min when I am all ready to meet u..I hate it!!!! seriously..is u guys who make me unhappy..always coz of guys, I am unhappy..why should I be unhappy in the lst place..shit lor..

End here..

Christmas Season..

Well Xmas is just one week away..omg time flies..mm..I just attended a xmas party at Jolene's house last fri..14 Dec.. :) though it is a short one but not bad..end up didnt attend our dance one due to not getting to know the address when I ask them dunno la..make me sian that I dun want to go liao..anyway I just went to Orchard road..wow love the lightings..mm..shop around with Mei Fen and then walk to PS..nice atmosphere..I am happy today..really relaxed..

Hopefully will enjoy even more with u tml la..yes is u..to see the fountain lighting as the music comes..yeah..really will enjoy.never bluff u..I just wish everything is ok and we enjoy each others' company will do..sometime I think too much and perhaps worry too much and too sensitive that I make myself unhappy..1st time viewing that..so I am happy u can go with me..really..are u honoured?? haha..surely lor..I never go with anyone to see yet wor..this is my wish and I know u trying 2 keep a promise but I feel is not for the sake of accing me ..I want u to enjoy also..

ok la end here..

Down..

I simply dunno how am I feeling now..the more I think, the sadder I feel so I rather dun think so much..think alot of stuff which makes me feel sad..I simply cant forget wat happened in the past though u tell me they are history..I cant forget..sometime asking myself why is my path of life not right, when will I enter the right path for everything? I dunno..perhaps is really a test for us..to lead us to a better route/path..at times we gain something n lose something..there is no gaining all the time..life is like that..there are ups n downs..I hope we can overcome all of the obstacles in life..I hope I can overcome the fear in life when the time comes..

May God give me the strength to carry on with my life and have the determination n strength to overcome whatever that occurs..Thanks Lord..

End here..

I am back!!!

I am back from Genting Highland..had a traffic jam due to accident,jam for 1 hr..we reached home late..reach home almost 1am..feeling abit tired now..had a shower and finish unpacking my luggage..

Though holiday is short but I do enjoy it..We reached Genting on thur at abt 3.30pm and then check in hotel etc and went out for dinner..head down to explore and then to the arcade..alot of pple though..weather is so cold due to the rain..It has been raining since we were on the way to Malaysia..though S'pore stop raining, Malaysia side start to rain so kind of freezing cold when we reached..
We tried the buffet dinner for dinner, it was alright..very filling..I didnt went to casino coz of Xiao Jie..He is underage though so I acc him lor..if not perhaps I will go n explore for the fun of it but not gamble..We tried the bowling too..ok la not bad..the lane is smooth..went to arcade too..

Luckily yesterday's weather was fine though drizzling in the morning..the rain stopped during afternoon and theme park's games were all opened..yeah! We are considering whether to go or not b4 that as we were told that only certain games were opened..anyway we went around 1 plus..Mummy &Daddy didnt go so we were on our own..queue quite long though for the games..queue for fun kart abt 1 hr..then tried to play the rest of the games but had to meet parents for dinner so went out lst..after dinner I went to play again to try out roller coaster and the fall..omg! kind of scary and thrilling when the roller coaster comes down fast..shiok though..I longer to take that ride since afternoon but it was having a long queue..as for the fall..I didnt want to go as I am afraid..It seem scary..when it went up, is ok..the scenery was nice but when it went down, it was scary as if u didnt sit on the chair at all..maybe due to the force when it went down, really strong force..hhaa I scream very loudly but enjoy it..the wind was damn cold.. :)I guess my brother really enjoy it as he wants to go n give it a try and pull me along..haha..so no choice :P
sob he bullied me!! just kidding! other games ok la..fun kart was normal though no slope or wat..it's speed quite slow so u cant really speed lor..hhaa helmet is needed..u wear it with a shower cap..

As for the last day, which is sat..yesterday since it was already midnight..I woke at 9 plus,a bit later than the lst & 2nd day..enough of slp..yeah..
we had our lunch n took some pics etc and head down to take bus back home..
Along the journey back home, we bought some snacks for colleagues..cant carry so many so sorry guys, Genting nothing much to buy, I didnt get anything for u guys..if I go to other countries, I will get something 4 u all k.. :D
I took some photos there and will upload them soon in my friendster :)

k going to end here..just want to say I really relax myself this few days and hope to enjoy future trips too..

Here to update again..

I am back again..been doing some work this few days but still quite free..U know Jacqueline, we were having our tea break and she saw me doing nothing but rest..She didnt realise the time or wat..I dunno la..she ask me if I have nothing to do is it? wat the..is she really blur or wat,to try to pick on me during tea break??
Anyway forget abt it..small matter..

I shall update abt sat first..I went to Jolene's house after work..we have lunch at her house..alot of food..pizza, chicken, sotong, otah, muffin,homecooked rice by Wendy etc.. I ate til quite full and it lasted me til after church service lol..abt 10 of us turn up..probably all working adults..I dunno them but slowly know them lor..of course Angelia did turn up but for a while as she has D&D at night..
I feel a bit left out at lst but after that I feel alright..
We head down to church together..

mm..sunday suppose to meet Mei Fen but end up dun have so I stay at home to do my own stuff and then today I went out to meet him lor..have dinner and shop a while..
I shall see u when I am back ya..

Nothing much..will update again though..end here..

Bad mood..

Today just a normal day and I thinking when am I a confirmed staff..I feel upset coz she seem not wanting to confirm me yet, claiming that I didnt learn much things yet..I feel that,it has nothing to do with confirming or not..is not a matter of whether wat I learnt or know now..I can learn and willing to learn..as long as I learnt, I will know how to handle but they are busy wat..so how can they let me try while the report is so urgent, I will slow down the process..what I say did make sense wat..so she says she wants one more month to see how well I can perform..

I wasnt so happy abt her..I dun get the assurance, it makes me so unsecure..Maybe I shouldnt get so upset but I also dunno why I feel this way..I feel that I am a person who is lack of security..sigh..I just have to wait n see if I am confirmed or not lor..wat to do..I am only an employee..

Shall end here..glad that tml is sat..meeting Jolene & the rest for lunch.. :)

Tired..

I simply feel tired today..not enough sleep..even right now, I am feeling tired..gonna slp earlier today if not I am going to fall sick..start to cough already and my dear friend, WL is on mc..poor gal..hope that she gets well soon..ya..

Work is as usual..I just went out after work last night..Went to bugis, have dinner and shop around with Jufri..mm..thinking of getting a mp3/mp4 player soon..I guess mine doesnt work anymore..I cant detect the device at all.. sob.. I want to get a new hp too..aiming for Samsung ultra 13.8 ;) I guess all these have to wait til next year..prices increase therefore expenses increase but our salary doesnt increase..sigh..

I feel that I really dun trust guys anymore..always doubt what they say..I just want to know more friends..be with my brothers and sisters,hanging out with them to have fun and of course continue being God's child together..I love my carefree life..Just want to be happy and not to think so much..
Sometime things doesnt go our way and I will get upset..what to do, certain things cannot be controlled..We cant always want it to be the way we wish for and of course not to force our way through..I shall let God lead me to the path..

At times I dun wish to share that much nor talk so much but I do have some thoughts here and there..anyway is not necessary to share that much abt certain things..
I shall end here..

God bless u!

Rest in peace..

I am back to blogging again and was sad to read abt the 5 dragonboat paddlers..at lst I wasnt very aware of wat's happening til I follow up with the news..life can be unpredictable and we lost 5 sportsmen..I just hope that their family can overcome the saddness soon..I Know is really hard..those are their love ones..and all five of them are so young and one is the P.E teacher..I can really understand how they feel..I did lost a love ones b4 and a lovely teacher too..sigh..

I just pray that they can overcome everything soon though we are not related..just pray that the 5 guys can rest in peace..

Anyway was busy with work as usual and a bit tired today..I shall end here..

May God bless all of u..

Not my day!!

Well today work as usual..but then shopping trip with Ke Xin cancelled..then heard that Lai Mei sick..then bible studies cancelled at the last min also..I was like, not my day..everything cancelled and my schedule was like all messed up..dunno wat to do with the remaining free time..water drip on my hair n nose somemore..water from the aircon! wat the..then not just that..dunno where the water comes from when I walk out from church..wat a day..

It makes my day so sian..at times I am dreaming that I can find the one in church..then go church together and believe in God together and we share the same value and he can understand why I want to go church coz he also goes..perhaps can compromise better..the best is having a church wedding at our church..I want Pastor Kian Cheng to help us wor..I hope it will come true..May God bless that I find the right one , one day.. :)continue waiting and dreaming for now.

End here..

Been a long time..

It has been some time since I last blog..well..recently ok de la..work lor..we going to start to be busy coz of "Front Warrior"..well have to finish it in a week's time.omg! What we can do is to try our best..
I rather be occupied than slacking and dunno wat to do..It is not so nice u see..

I just went to visit my grandma on sat and went out with Ling, hui & WL for ling's birthday celebration on sunday..
We tried Msq's Wakaru Japansese Pasta..healthy pasta..then shop around and of course took some pics.I will upload soon gals..dun worry abt it hehe..

It has been two months liao..we sort of seldom contact liao..not even talk on the phone liao..is it really the same for all?once part means dun contact much liao.. I feel that maybe there isn't a need to do so..no reason to chat alot liao..at times I walk past some places or even came across some food, they just trigger my mind abt u..I believe u will just stay in my memory forever..After all these are gd memories of us..I just hope that u are doing fine..I know I am ok but somehow some memories u wont be able to let go..I can bluff others but perhaps I cant lie to myself that I forget everything abt us..is not possible..It is just that since we part, I dun wish to think abt so much..looking forward to my future..I am doing fine nowaday..as per normal..

I feel that somehow..we cant compare one another..I seem to feel that every human is so so different..not sure how pple feel and how impt is certain things to others..Somehow I realise I cant tell but just open my eyes big n see for myself..I guess this is the only way..

Shall end here ba.

It will stay in my memory..

Fri again..Today used to be a special day in my life but now it will just be a past and memories..It is a special day for my dad though..

I just feel like blogging and then I blog..This has been going on for a few years since I started blogging..It is really a gd way to blog about our thoughts each day..
Somehow I believe eventually I get over it but somehow I wont forget all the happy moments that we have as they are sweet memories..9th of each month used to be so meaningful..It will just be a history of my life for now..just want to say thank u.. I guess I wont forget u..hope that u can live ur life to the fullest and achieve ur goals..This new way of life is relaxing but lack of something..I guess I think 2 much but who doesnt think..we have feelings and won't forget certain things in life..they are our history n past..

Perhaps I wont even tell others that I feel this way but then I am a person who cant forget..hard to forget..I need time..

Anyway let me update abt yesterday..I went out with mum n brother as it is a public holiday..we went to book tickets for our holiday trip to genting and it is confirmed..going off next month for 3 days..I will be applying leave soon..glad that we can really go n relax somewhere though is nearby..slowly..it takes time to travel to other places..yeah..I went to visit grandma and then go shopping after that..bought top n skirt..time just past like that lor..holiday is over..
I still feel the holiday mood..nvm going out tml though after work..yeah..can continue to have fun haha..

I shall end here..having my dinner le..

Busy day..

It has been a busy day today..Quite a cold day due to rain..so nice to sleep that I dun wish to get out of bed..but what to do, we have to work..so ya..getting excited and cant wait to be on holiday and cant wait to meet u on sat.. ;) wonder who is that u..hhaa dun tell u all.. lol :P

Well I am just busy today..doing documents stuff..photocopying etc..not a hard job..
I cant wait to catch the ending of " 溏心凤暴" ..though I roughly know how it is going 2 end because my mum told me the ending already..sigh..not very nice..it can be sad ..surely..anyway it is just a drama..I am quite emotional though..if there is sad scene, I may cry..omg! btw 林峰好帅喔!He simply look so charming lor..actresses really lucky to be able to work with this 帅哥..envy lor..what to do, can only daydream and cant get to know him..sigh..not only acting, Raymond can sing well too..be it cantonese songs or chinese songs..wow..el also no problem..It is really fortune for his parents to have such a talented son..Hope he keeps it up..Raymond rocks!

I end here..going catch the drama now before the night turns really late..

Updates again..

Well today is quite a carefree day..I just learnt some new things yesterday..I know I wish to leave this job again..damn sian..but job really not easy to find and that u are happy there..so far this is my 2nd full time job but I dun like though..I love to get along with my colleagues..they are fun..but haiz..I dun wish to say with regard to boss..

I shall change topic and talk abt yesterday..I went out with Az and I guess no one knows la..dun intend to tell as they will tease us if they find out..haha..We went to have meal at MSQ Swedsen then went to merlion park have a chat lor..just a simple meal..It is ok la to get along with him..wow I love this kind of freedom lor to go out with anyone and no restriction as long as the person is decent..haha
Enjoy the dinner..
Anyway out of a sudden KK call me and ask if I want to chat..he came n look for me..It has been a long time since we really chat..This friend of mine can be nice and a gentleman that if u dunno him personally, u maybe mistaken by his action haha..He will ring u up at times even though u never find him..sometime not that I dun look for him..everyone is busy wor..I tried to msg him once a while le..I cherish my friend and glad that he treat me as quite gd friend so he will contact me.. :) thanks for that..

I shall end here..dunno wat else to blog..tml is fri yeah..may or may not go out..depends on KK la..bringing me for a ride if possible..

Unhappy Day..

I simply thought that today will be a fine day going to work..I didnt know early in the morning there will be incident..then Boss just comment abt the work done by that person at the meeting..it happened to be me..so can u imagine how I feel..I simply have no pride at all..I mean I didnt do correctly is my fault..I admit but u dun have to say it infront of everyone..this is wat I hate..end up the rest helped me with the work..Thanks everyone!! I just feel sad and angry lor..I had never been shoot by boss like that..though it was a small matter..I dun like..He simply dun care abt how others feel and just hurt u without realising it..He did that to other staff also..he hurt my pride that why I upset..bad

I really appreciate previous company boss..maybe it is always the case whereby u see different boss then u will realise actually u found a gd boss then u doesnt cherish it..I cherish it lor..It is becoz of the job scope that why I left..
Maybe it is a learning experience that GOd wish to let us learn n see more things..I have to take it as a test..Simply wont stay there for long..wat to do just work n gain experience..I am not a gd employee..

Well this is parcel of life and that we still learning things..everyday is a learning day.. :)

End here..

Happy and enjoyable day..

Well I am a bit tired right now and I shall post a short one..

I am on leave today and settle some personal thing then head down to visit ex colleagues in PH..really glad to see them and I know they r happy to see me..yeah.. have quite a long chat with Xiao Wu..long time no chat wat..after that I meet Bro..
We went to vivo to shop and have dinner at secret receipe..frankly speaking we r quite close nowaday..of course we are just close friend now..food at the secret recipe was alright but too filling..maybe I ate something b4 that so wasnt that hungry ba..anyway thanks bro for his treat..planning for our next "date"..we thought of lots of programs and he seem very excited abt it..hhaha..
By the way finally bought my speaker..yeah..

It was a relaxing day and just sit down have a chat at the open gallery..It was nice man..I never feel so happy for quite some time lor..I really feel happy for the whole day..horray!! k end here..getting late..

Stress with work..

It has come to the 3rd week of working late..anyway manage to clear the work and can finish soon I guess but it really make me mood damn bad and down..cannot take it..I take a break yesterday after work and went to orchard to shop with Mum & Xiao Jie..I bought a white bag n two cardigans.did I spell correctly? nvm.. quite happy to shop and drink coffee at coffee club..spend an amt of money on all these lor..I hardly go out nowaday..so long didnt shop already..one month? abt there..haiz..we just relax during chalet then after that is cheong our work..wat the..
btw Vooka with rasbery flavour..I really cant consume it..I think I am allergy to it..skin allergy..I drank others still not so bad..well not going take it again.. :(
Took it last night and feel damn itchy n slight rashes seem to be coming out..sob..nose blocked..weird..now I am pretty sure I am quite allergy to alcohol..

I am tired today..Dad asked us to have supper at quite late..2 plus in the morning..after that then I slp at around 4..really tired after drinking n I fall asleep..slp til quite long..afternoon..opps..nvm..I must have a gd rest lor..
anyway after shopping I dun seem to be happy..weird..I think I am really thinking too much n I am too stress..back to work again tml..sian.tired..

End here..

Rest Day..

Today's weather can be unpredictable..It rains just now and it becomes sunny again..Life is just unpredictable not just weather..I remembered I cant take it on Fri and then I went off at 5.30 without doing any OT..the stress just comes and I cant take it anymore and feel like crying but I didnt..I went to arcade with my younger brother to destress..though we need to spend money but throwing the basketball really can make me destress in a way..throw til I have no strength..we play alot of times for that lol..addicted?? maybe..of course we play other games too..

It was a holiday yesterday so I was not working..I was kind of tired..partly becoz I slp late..slp quite alot I guess..wake up quite late :P I just went to church as usual and time just flies past like that..went to have some food with my cousin etc and went home..sat is always the case..boring..how I wish I can do something happily..I guess it has been a long time since I went out to shop on sat..due to going to church..I went out on sun instead..anyway doing window shopping may end up buying stuff hhaa..I guess I wont really shop til next month..spend quite alot this month..
So ya have to save a little..

As for today, I just dun feel like going anywhere but rest at home..perhaps wait til we dun have any extreme OT then I start 2 go out and have fun on weekdays and weekends..yeah..sometime really no time and there is no life..work work work is all I do..I know it is a gd way to stop myself from thinking abt unnecessary stuff but it is way too much for me..unbearable..We may rest a while but after that it is back to the same old thing..omg! I telling myself to endure and move on..trying hard..
How long can I endure?? I wish I know the answer but I dun..
so where is the right job for me?? I just wish to find a suitable one and stay there and just work on..

I shall end here..

I am back..

I am back from downtown east chalet..so fast.. is great..we stay for two nights..if one night only surely not enough..we have bbq on fri night..enjoy ourselves..helping out to wash food etc..then bbq by Restine's 老公& Wendy's friend..hhaa basically I only sit down n eat :P
我们很幸福喔..哈哈..
We didnt slp at all for the entire night on fri..we were really tired the next day..Mei Na , Ke Xin & I didnt slp at all while the rest still manage to slp lor..
We didnt slp so we went for a walk n play sparklers and head to macdonald 2 have some drink n light food while waiting to catch the sun rise..
romantic? lol too bad is not with the one I love..well..hopefully I can catch the sun rise with my future partner one day..
We went to escape yesterday..I love go kart..so fun n can feel the thrill..so relaxed though to drive and have fun..
It is a pity we didnt know there are more shops that we can shop around but anyway we went to explore b4 we go home..hehe go arcade til stuck there lol..dun want to go back yet..lol..though we waste a bit of time on sat, but then is gd that we can relax ourselves and have fun..of course have to spend some money la for chalet..is normal but is ok since it wont be that often..yeah..working life is too stress with OT everyday..I intend to work a while and will leave lor..cannot tahan la everyday OT..sick and tired of it already..I need some fresh air..I need some space on weekdays..I need some time to hang out with frenzs to destress..

I shall end here..