moody!

Well I already had an upset day, maybe I should put it a moody day not feeling well mentally & physically and she added oil to the fuel..so we end up arguing as I cant stand it anymore..exploded..

Each time, u blame God..everything has nothing to do with HIm..sorry I don't mean to be disrespectful..she doesnt understand how I feel..2010..we can't be looking back..we should move on with life so my expectance of life would definitely be different as we wanna improve..everyone can doubt me, everyone can disbelieve me but why r u the same as well? It's really alright as I know what I am doing..you see the negative side of me, that doesnt mean I am not working on my goals..we can't take things for granted..as I am clearer on the goals that I want, that is why I take a longer time to get it..you simply dun understand and I don't bother to explain as it is not necessary.all u did was pull me down and give me pressure..I know u meant well..perhaps that's not the way and the truth always hurts..

even when I commented on something, u aint happy about it..its my freedom to comment right cause that's mine? I didnt hurt anyone or offend anyone with the words..I am only praising the Lord..is it wrong?
ahhh..whenever things happen u bring the Lord's name which really pissed me off..can u respect my religion n me?
do u see me critcising religion?I never criticise on things even if I dun like or wat..coz is not right..sigh..

I know where I am heading to..everyone is different..I am who I am..everyone is unique..I believe in myself..coz I have to , to move on..I need more motivation and not u pulling me down each time..u know it hurts..is alright..there is always ups n downs..I will jia you!!!

this 90 days really tough to pull through..I am still kicking alive and finding ways to walk out of the darkness..give me some time..I prove myself, not to anyone but to myself..I have been too lazy lately..I admit

I will be alright.just wanna pour everything out..

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Warm Sunday!

Just some updates for today.

I am rather tired as I woke up early for service and then came back around 5.30. I went to see JJ..背对背拥抱 photo taking session at 2pm..JJ Lin came around 2.30

You must be wondering am I crazy..well I have not seen him before..so went to glance and then as the queue is not so long..I went to take photo with him..hand in hand..woo..wonderful..thx Yamashita-san as he took the shoot for me..I can keep it as memories..I understand that there is another one which is autograph session at 8pm scape orchard..I am too tired to go..so at home right now blogging, watching tv..rather warm today but I feel better after my shower & dinner..just wanna sleep earlier tonight..need to work tml..time flies..JJ is cute..He sang 背对背拥抱. :) nice.rather excited to take photo with JJ..good one..Yamashita-san took a video..so I can get from him..waiting for the pics..I can start to upload some pics first..

End here..abit lonely as my family is out..is alright..

Happy Shopping!

Woo..I feel tired already after shopping..
some updates before I sleep.

I went to Resorts World Sentosa with Mum today and we also shop at vivocity..some of the shops at RWS are still not operating..is good to explore though..I have not been to the unversial studio..well will find a day to go there though it costs a bit.I guess I should go and take a look..yeah bought two pairs of shoes..hershey chocolate, rather expensive $4 a bar for the king size at RWS..I bought popcorn at garrett popcorn shop..yummy..$9..

Finally get my cooling pad for my notebook as well..I brought Mum to have dinner at soup spoon..she loves the soup and salad wor..good..shall bring her again another time..

Thx God for the good weather..rather tired after shopping..legs aching :P..I never feel so relaxed and enjoy shopping for some time..is like we really will shop around..which I have not done so during CNY period..shop til we drop..the feeling is shiok.

I went to catch How to train your dragon 3D with Joseph yesterday and we also went to catch up at coffee club after the show.the. movie was nice n funny..worth to watch for those who have not watched.I would recommend it to them

Ok time to slp as I am going for service wor tml..

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I went to wakaru bugis to have pasta and then chocolate ice cream with hazelnut :) yummy..too full to sleep yet..hopefully tml will have a gd day..off to catch movie tml..yeah how to train your Dragon..

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Nice Weekend!

Just some updates..

I went for sunday service today and then had a late breakfast cum lunch so is brunch :P then head to tampines..as there is quite a few hrs so we hang around and chit chat, arcade.. met up with the rest at 3.30pm for our fellowship cycling..8 of us..of course there r pple who r late :P

we went to ECP to cycle for two hrs followed by dinner..jap food..yummy..so full..I am tired..legs n arms aching :P from cycling..that is the result of not exercising for long..

As for yesterday, attended Cousin Hui Ling's ROM wedding at SAF Yacht Club..a simple ceremony followed by Buffet..thank God for the weather for this two days..

Tired..I gonna end here..time to go to bed..

so tired

I am not sure why I just feel so tired..going off to sleep after I blog..

Well seem to have many things that I wanna do but end up never cause is getting late..had interview and then went to catch up with WL over dinner at novena and back home to complete that application form..check abit of mail etc and I felt tired already..time is so fast..I wish I dun have to work tml..but I have to..I didnt take leave..is ok ..just enjoy myself during weekend and there is another interview tml..

End here..need to sleep

Suppose to sleep but just feel like blogging a little while and then off to bed..

Happy for Cq as he got award..great..anyway I am having mixed feeling..not sure how I feel..simply weird..I feel alright after praying to GOd..I need the peace..perhaps is the 3rd month, I felt abit lost..I am not losing my faith..Thx Lord..I will keep on trying just that is bored at work..I dun wish to sleep earlier but I know I should,to have plenty of rest..things that I wanna do, can be done during weekend..I guess there is not enough time this weekend to sit down quietly to do my stuff..perhaps during the morning..coz I will have to attend wedding on sat, sun would be service..follow by cycling in the afternoon..wooo..packed weekend..perhaps is good..

I wanna feel happier soon..thx God I receive calls for interview..pray that it will be alright.. :)
I will jia you!!

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Being human

I just watched "being Human" directed by Jack Neo..I would say that the movie was rather good and funny..it's still worth watching after all..PS GV was packed with pple that we can only get seats at the first 3 rows..It surprised me..Glad that audiences still support the movie regardless of the scandals news..Thx God for that..

I am not sure why I just feel so itchy after my shower..is alright..hearing the music piece "Air on the G string"..I love it man and I just wanna have the music piece to enjoy

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It's sat..I woke up earlier to have breakfast and see if I can manage to find gd opportunities..look like nothing much only, making me a little disappointed..nevertheless I know I have to try harder everyday..Pray that more job opportunties will be provided..

mm..since last week, the biggest news in town is JN..well I do agreed we have no rights to interfere with his personal life but I just have some personal views though..everyone is talking about it..perhaps we shouldnt say too much but the things that he did, are unaccepted and no one knows that is the real him until he was exposed..it was a big lesson and his family has to face others outside who will gossip and pin point at them etc..some men are just like that, we don't wish to accept but that is the reality..consquences can be very big and I always believe that you have to be responsible for your own actions so is better to think about it whether is it right or worth it to do so..you have to pay a big price. I do believe, God gave us the gift of forgiveness, God would wish that he will repent and JN will be forgiven by our Heavenly Father..God is our wonderful Father who is so forgiving but of course we cannot abuse that fact and do anything we want and then seek for his forgiveness..Learn to obey the God ba..

Whatever done is done..I pray that slowly things will be fine..gonna support his movie as it has nothing to do with his personal life..yes I am catching it tonight and will feedback whether it is nice after that ..

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I feel it once again..that feeling of no motivation..can't wait to get a new job..8 more days to my current contract..sigh..well met up with mf..just a simple dinner..chit chat..also nver chat much..reach home at 10pm..I am pretty tired now..I wanna go to bed soon..feeling abit bad..doing nothing much..never search for job..I guess tml ba..too tired..


THought of that JN's news remind me of him..same kind though..sigh..

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Touched..

It's a normal sat once again but I am touched..my eyes get watery..
As I know the amt that I have is gonna run out sooner or later..He always provide..is not the first time..providing me with solutions..thx U..I just cried..no matter what I did, everyone makes mistakes..He forgives..It makes me realise that I am not very forgiving towards my friends..perhaps I should be more forgiving..I will try..it takes time..I know I am lazy at times..but no worries I won't give up searching for the career..give me some time..I will continue to search..and do my best for the job that I am in now..this is what I should do now..

Time flies and I am going to church soon to worship You Lord..Thx U..I know that simply words not able to describe how mighty how wonderful You are and how much You dote & love us..I love U Father!

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Well getting a little busy this two days as there are more work to be done..fruiful day..catching Vanness 's drama 下一站幸福。。still have a few more espiode..nice..never been so engross in one ever since I watched 宫心计。。relaxing and watch..I wont think so much..personally feel that Vanness mature alot compared to during meteor garden..his acting skill improves..

mm..somehow feel a bit emo..I will be alright..thx God..finally get my pay..delayed for some time and I prayed for it.Michelle came to me today unexpectly to give me my cheque..I really need some money..finally..as for last month end salary, I guess it needs some time again..sigh..hopefully end of this month..

I pray for more job oppportunies and may God grant me patience & strength to move on with life, also my family & friends with gd health, happiness and keep them safe n sound..

I have faith in U..I continue to work hard and also trust in U..

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MIS Dinner & Dance 2010

Yes We just had dinner & dance on fri 26feb..yup..It was fun and cool as most pple dress up as different characters such as spiderman, emperor, empressor, mario, me as a student etc..the host was funny while he entertain us..we had the dinner at hilton hotel and a bus was here to pick us up and head to the hotel..if not can you imagine wearing weird outfit there taking public transport..if not have to change there..still abit ma fan..our emperor and empressor changed there..if not they will look weird..9 person was selected for the best dressed costume..and the lady in black dress won though..busy taking pics with pple and We didnt take with all..there is photo shots that we can take..one was free for us..the rest u will need to pay

Aiyo I was choosen to go to the stage and then learn how to dance..haha..makarina..oh man so embarassing..it's fun as I dun care about the audiences hhaa..I am just into the dance..trying to follow..the indian guy was firstly singing as he picked a lady to sit down and he said love song..haha..after that then we went up..one guy & I was chosen..

Of course there is game to guess the song's name or where the song is from..haha..funny as the person who wanna to ans has to sit on the chair which is on the stage..so participants will snatch..
anyway dinner was good..the food was not bad..end up sitting back with sales dept pple as I dun wanna eat halal food :P opps I know I am bad..seriously I don't want to..so weird..

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Its already 2nd day of work at CE dept..yup I transfer over..work is alright..temp admin tend to do more paper work and data entry..need to photocopy stuff tml..sian but just do as it is temporary..I guess she is not too happy about it? I sense that she doesnt wanna to talk to me and asking if she wanna go for lunch she said she was meething other pple which I think is realistic..as she told me she having rice lor..who told me we r friends? she is the one..every working place do let us learn more things..at times is sad to know the truth..I know I might be sensitive..I hope I am..just feel like ignoring her..coz once she is having meal with auntie, they will gossip..I hate it..whereas it's more healthy to have lunch with Alicia they all..it's ok if she is a realistic person..
There isn't really a true friend in life..maybe you might meet but it is rare..sad to say..the longer you know doesnt mean you are all close..might distant away..in fact sec sch friends on off will meet and at times don't even bother..not that close..just that they are fun loving though..everyone is busy..

well let me share an incident today and I think it happens any other day..I was on my way back after my work and it was peak hour and happen that an old lady accompanied by perhaps her daughter came in..at first they r standing near the door after that slowly move inwards a little and infront of people who are sitting down..I noticed 4 teenagers sitting down and they are couple..simply ignore the old lady and as people stare at them, I overheard them saying snap pics of them and post la for not giving up seats.. -_-''' I wasnt sitting down so I can't give up my seats..simply don't feel good seeing her stand sigh..They are too much!

Anyway still looking out for my career, firstly is a job first to make it a career..then other things can be in place such as things that I wish to fufil..

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CNY Dinner cum Lo Hei

Yeah I just come back not long..I went to church as usual..she still made me really mad this morning but I am fine now..
Believe those who look at fb will know..Ji even tell me to cool down and be forgiving..not to be so angry..thx for your concern..Kelvin also ask me..I guess they dun dare to ask online in case they get scolded lol..anyway we have cny dinner out at the field with the lo hei..games too..Ji seem to avoid me when we took the same car to serangoon and he went to sit in the front..am I too sensitive..we went for dessert and he didnt sit with us also..not sure though..I had mango smoothie..pretty alright..normal..we had fun chit chatting and joke..gossip..lol.more than 20 of us..luckily some of them drive so ok lor..Johnson sent me n Kelvin back while the rest fetch the rest home

End here..I can catch drama a while coz I am not sleepy

Pissed me off

SeriouslY I was so pissed off yesterday, fickle minded and she doesn't learnt her mistakes..I prefer to mind my own biz now..when pple ignore her she can bomb ur house no. and hp no. til u r fed up.My Family is irritated by the phone call as well..ahhhh..how to be patience with her? Ta tell me to be patience with her and pray to God to have patience with her. sigh..I don't even want to try.She spoilt my CNY mood..it's still CNY and I blow my top yesterday..reach my tolerance limit..angry lor! thinking about it now still makes me feel irritated..not angry become angry again..she doesn't know what is her mistake..she throw her temper..

Well update abt yesterday, met up with Grace mei and we went msq kbox for klunch and then chit chat around while doing window shopping..not too bad.xl fly us aeroplane ..is alright.I am abit unhappy but that not as pissed like wat that MF did..I was really mad til my face was so hot..

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Well feeling so tired now..I guess is the headache..weather is too warm..stay at home the whole day..I will try to sleep earlier today..

I am thinking about stuff..she asked me about the type of guys that I like..trying to dig out my secrets? in the end I did share a little with her but that's past..dun wish to think about it as it makes me emo. I just caught a new drama..rather normal to me..as Roger Kwok acted, not so bad..

Pray that I can get the right job with prospect and the right guy ba..

Well I met up with Grace mei yesterday as she wanna pass me homemade cookies..almond cookies..not bad..it's nice though I dun like the taste of almond ,this cookies doesnt have that strong taste..yummy..end up we went to river angbao..this time is day time..acc her to go and then we went to s'pore flyer popeye to chit chat..I didn't reach home too late..just a short one..sat will have buffet dinner cum lo hei..wooo..

seriously a few guys aint not so bad appear in my life but I never thought abt it as bgr issue..simply friends..I hope that others dun be too anxious to help me with it..cousin might try to matchmake me hahaa..so funny..let nature takes its course..not too impt now as compared to career..

yeah gonna sing my hearts out tml with mei..wooo..yes k lunch..I just wanna relax and then go to work next mon

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2nd & 3rd Day CNY

Well 2nd day of cny which is yesterday, Yamashita-san and HL came over to my place..invited them over for dinner and bai nian..catch the aunty lucy movie with them..I was surprised that my Dad enjoyed it too while laughing hhaa..my mum catch a little too..wow..can you imagine, CQ is really successful in that..even my dad praise him..He rarely watch tv de..and he enjoyed watching..hahaha..first year that they visit us and then had some simple home cooked dinner with nice soup :) glad that they enjoyed the food..

As for today..nothing much to do and I went to catch movie with HL at Lido shaw house..well valentine;s day was a great movie with laughter..wooo..everyone laughed alot though..I believe most of them especially people who are sitting behind me..haha..they LOL..I didnt regret watching it..after that we take a stroll and shop around before heading home around evening to have dinner etc..Catch guo hao nian's last epsiode..glad that it has a good ending :)

That's mark the third day..I can rest a while and gonna call or sms lela tml regarding that issue..probably rest til end of this week..wow good break..

I shall end here..time for my drama..I wanna catch..

CNY Eve & Day 1

Here I am to update..I was back a little late yesterday after steamboat..went to have steamboat as usual and then was asked whether I wanna go hang out with the rest..Tin An, Siow CHing, cousin, me , Wei Xiang and Alvin went to river angbao..yeah went to walk n walk and we went to flyer's popeye to have drinks..follow by watching the fireworks and then WX drove me back first before the rest head to Tin An's house to play mahjong which I am not interested in.. :P pretty fun hanging around with them..with lots of laughter..hehe..a different way of cny eve..

Well as for today..as usual house visitation for both grandma's side..I was too tired to go for service :P sigh..just mark the end of CNY Day 1 with no V day mood..no partner lor..no urge to find partner but rather to find my career first :)

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Should I?

This is the last day at the dept..mm..nothing much..it marks the end of the two weeks..time flies..rather in need to find a job..sigh..I am not sure why, suddenly I was asked if I wanna join the other dept since they need some1 also and they wish that I can consider..amazing arrangement right? I was surprised also..

I know I dun like admin job but I need more money now..how..sigh..not sure ..let me think about it..so tired..

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