1 week more to go to CNY Eve

Time flies and yup it's sat now..one week more to my job and one week more to CNY Eve..

Just to update..yesterday went to the interview, I would say pretty ok..gonna wait and then I met up with Jo to have dinner and he wanted to get jean also at orchard before heading down to chinatown. I can feel the CNY mood..actually quite a no. of pple went down. I didn't walk around the entire place though..perhaps I can go wih the rest tonight haha..see how it goes..mm..comfortable and nice to go out with friends..not sure when it's with Ji , is so different..however with other guy friends..pretty ok though.

I decided to head down to CSM later before going to church..dun wanna disappoint him since I can go for a while..

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Updated post..

Well I went for interview near my place..thx God for answering my prayer..look like is not something that I am looking forward to, nevertheless is ok..Its good to look around and the interviewer is the C type according to DISC..the way she look at the certs etc..I can tell.. :P really must thank James & Joseph for guiding me about DISC previously..I did the test before too..slowly can observe..the way she look at the cert, I sense the discrimation as my cert is private cert..well is alright..doesnt matter. At least I tried..the job scope is really very admin based..Tracy make it sound so good,I felt deceived..that's why at times I dun trust agency..well is alright..I wont wanna get in either..

I am looking forward to tml and see what the job scope's like..I wil be more willing to interact with pple and meeting up with pple rather than doing paper work only.that why I applied for consultant's job..I hope things will go well..thx God for the opportunities..meeting another agent on mon as well for other job..I see how it goes..seriously, I feel like giving 1 week notice to work til next week..should I? I rather not waste my time doing those work..not much prospect and for money sake?

Well I know myself, I dun like to force myself to do what I dun like..yeah you might find me fussy or choosy, there is job and you still wanna pick ar?..well you have to be happy then you can do things better isn't it?? what is the point of doing when you dun like it? beside you wanna have prospect..wha's the point of doing something while you feel that you can't learn and grow..oh man..the way I see things and the way I react is really same as him..what happen sia..learn everything from my mentor ar? we are a bit similar..though he is DC, I am SC..but Joseph told me DC and SC love to work together..I believe is true..yes James told me before..

Dun worry, James..I am still the Yvonne..I believe I will be that old Yvonne again soon..with that drive and that motivation towards my goal n job..I know I lost some part of me somehow after I left that place..well I belive when there is a drive in me, I wont give up easily..I will keep on going..

I understand you guys dunno what I want..not to worry, I know what I want to do in life..if I myself not sure about it, then I will be in trouble..I really took quite some time to be sure about it and it was suddenly..just that it is easy to say then done..SO I don't wish to share about my dream too much..dream without action is only a dream..lets jia you together my friends! I hope my determination in finishing my course is used on my work..pple tell me the right attitude will make me fly high..let see..I wanna be successful not to prove to pple but to myself..I wanna prove to myself..

I just wish that I can share the burden with my parents..this is what others dunno about it..they work so hard..I wish that my mum dun have to work so hard and can relax a bit..in order to do that, I have to work hard first..find the right career which is not easy..May God Bless.Father I know you are always there..thx u for your guidance..I have faith in you..may You continue to walk with me, bless my family and friends around me..I thank You Lord! I never regret being your daughter even since that day when I accepted you as my Lord & Saviour..You are wonderful and amazing!!

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Right now thinking alot..not working today..sigh..at times I know not everyone know what I am thinking..God knows..God understand..is ok..I might seem choosy but that is because I wish to choose wisely as it might lead me to the career path that I want..do you all understand? from the beginning, I take what it comes and end up no where and realise is not what I wish to and not the prospect that I aim for..I understand you guys care for me and trying to help me..thx alot..I believe is better that I choose it myself..as decision lies with me..yeah Ame is right, just don't be too concern about what others say..I am mentally tired you know..

Life is never easy, it makes us feel down at times..I's normal, if life would to be so smooth, we won't grow and learn..I went to read book to motivate myself..I came across this..let me share it

Think about how you can improve for the future but don't waste your present thinking about how you could have changed the past..

that's true..what is the point of thinking about that..it's past..so I am gonna keep the past memories with me..I did learnt skils and things from past experience..is not so bad after all..I really wish that I can find a suitable job and slowly build up my career path.I wanna have that professional feel..it takes time.giving myself 6 years to be successful..6 years not too long nor short..oh man..

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1st & 2nd Day..

A quick update before I go to bed.I am so tired. working for two days already and I am just doing some simple task like filing as the system can't be used yet..so mean while do some admin stuff which is bored..I even thought of not continuing soon if I really have to do admin stuff like that..kind of meaningless..I need more challenging job..Father, may U be able to grant me and provide me with a good prospect job with gd boss, colleagues, environment that I can grow..not too far either..I know you will be able to provide..

I can see the way the things are filed etc..seriously I cannot stand it..I can understand how those staff work ..not easy for them while we studied..saluate them..well I will just do what I can and wait for opportunities..rather sian..sad to say I am not able to committ to do the job..sigh

I shall end here..I hope tml will be a better day..tired

Good news to share

yeah.I just highlighted my hair today..looking slightly different now and I love the colour..it's gold blonde..yup..

Secondly, I got a call from MIS and confirmed going to work tml..yup though it is a temp position for two months,I am so happy to be back to my school and this time to serve the sch..I guess is a way of giving back since I studied there before..It's good to be back..I love my sch! I will try my best to do what I can..hopefully to bring out the CAR again..a fresh year & month of feb..
thx God for the blessing and opportunties..

well I am also happy for JY & Candyce..supported JY since the PSS1..Happy that they found each other and they are married yesterday..Wayne Lin JJ is so cute, bluffing JY that he wont be able to make it and he came up with a funny indian el accent video and he sang to congrat Jy and then he suddenly appear singing live and Jy cried though..it was really a surprise..I knew JJ will be back, is his gd friend's wedding wor..no matter what he will try to attend..yes he flew back ..
I love the vow by Candyce, so touching..it was in mandarin..Jy cried again..when he fetch the bride he cried too..touching..so JJ know Jy cried alot so he wanna make him cry hhaa..so funny..
Glad that Mr Paul Chan is so nice to keep up with the updates of celebrities wedding and he loaded the videos online for us to see..thx him for that..too bad there wasn't the video whereby Candyce & JJ performed..well is alright..I get to see a little through xin.sg

Gonna end here..I hope I can slp well tonight so that I can prepare myself for tml..

Yeah another post..that was posted during midnight so I was pretty tired though..let me add on..

Happy that I had a enjoyable night yesterday and worth it to catch the performance..I had a good chat with Joseph after performance..we went to mac to chat..sharing with me DISC etc..I am sure mine still the same..and he is the D type same as that James :P wow I get to know he learnt salsa dance..cool..same passion...at times happy to know more guys friends but I am not thinking about bgr thingy right now..just find that guys that I met, simply has their own characters that pple will notice..interesting..some are those that I look out for..well leaving it to fate..I am focusing completely on getting a better job and start to build my career as times goes by..no time for that..single life is good for now..

I know that hk stars are here today..happen that Moses chan is gonna be at PS..I wanna go n take a glance..well steven ma, hao yi , sonia kwok is going also..but only for today Moses is coming..he wont be there tml..maybe he needs to go back to hk..well is very near only 3 hours plus trip back :P not too bad

Gonna end here and have my lunch..go and see Moses and then off to church

Great day!

yup it's so late and I am getting tired..I wanna blog and then slp..
yeah I went to do inviligation in my ex sch MIS..yes..pretty interesting..

waiting for job offer even though is temp..better than nothing coz is my own sch..oh yeah.

I went to the SCO gala opening night cum 933 20th anniversary concert..great! I love the performance..cq rocks..get to see the djs also..great..even have autograph session..get to see them face to face..even the SCO conductor..hhaaa Cruz was funny, his blazer's button came off and he didnt manage to say some words which he suppose to say..lol..conductor was funny as he heard that his pant drop, wanna help him to hold his pant.is 扣子不是裤子。。哈哈 the rest said he was fat..coz at the finale closing he spreaded his hand too wide while he sang and shout hei..all of us laugh like mad..not forgetting Chong Qing's cute jacket hhaa

End here..tired..I wanna slp

I know I get enlightened..the true colours of humans..yeah we will meet different people along the way..that one I agreed..that's life..sometime we just get to see their character..what happen r past..I just can't forget about it for now.I will try my best..the disappointment still there..currently is looking forward to working on sat..yeah I got the temp job! is confirm..it will be a new experience for me..taka is a place whereby I am familar with so not so bad..It has been a long time since I start to work for ten hour straight again..wow a challenge..I will do my very best! God bless!

Meanwhile I am gonna relax and plan to get some goodies tml..waiting for the gala night show on fri! oh yeah and sat will be working le..better than slacking at home..I am feeling useless already.. :P

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I went down for interview today, position is temp staff to sell cny cookies..Thx God that at least I have an opportunity..waiting for jess to call me as I dun have to start now, it will be at the opening area and they need to set up..thx u wei for her help..sometime is good to have some connection and get to know more pple...I wonder did God send this sis to help me? there is always unexpected surprises along the way and it cannot be always a coincidence..

I know I must hang on and be determined to thrive on, I believe there will be a day I will become successful! choices are ours and is for us to choose and then to leave the rest to the Lord..I believe if we are down to earth, didn't harm anyone to get what we want, we can live in peace and God will continue to bless us along the way and I believe He always did. Perhaps is also blessing from my grandfather who dote grandchildren..I guess though my headache is rather terrible for past few days as I am in deep thoughts,it makes me feel better for now as I will continue to look out for opportunities..I give myself another chance to choose and if I really cannot succeed then I will know what to do..just be an employee for good for now..I know I won't wish to fail, but under his care seem not good either. I dunno what he is up to and I don't wish to take up the challenge again at that place once I step out..Dear is right, I should start afresh. I will really think of what I want in life..

Something to share:

On this day, God wants you to know...
... that what you are most afraid of is where your greatest rewards are. If all you had to do was wish for something and you would have it, life would be pretty boring, wouldn't it? God placed barriers between us and what we want, so we can enjoy interesting and satisfy...ing lives. God hid our biggest rewards behind the highest barriers - our deepest fears. God wants us to face our fears, and hold ground in their presence, and let them go,and that's how we get out biggest rewards. What are you most afraid of? Say it, just start by saying it

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things doesn't go our way today!

Seriously not sure what happen,suppose to be at ren ci charity show end up watching it at home..I am still upset la..to be frank..things doesnt work out..suppose to win tickets but something went wrong and we dun have the tickets already..security is tight that what we heard as pm went. xl received call from Uncle David..and she called me..luckily we didnt go there coz we cannot go in..heard cq is upset and not just him, other pple upset too..I guess he feel so bad..can't be helped if that happens..is not within his control ba..seriously not sure if wat is told is true..perhaps ba..watever it is, never go lor..

I am so disappointed..I wanna have the feel..since is upstair gallery also no use..well have to face it and then go for interview tml..I cannot think so much..dun wanna affect myself tml..

I guess is just not meant to be for us..that's why..at least wei manage to go in..

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bad morning but great afternoon..yeah shopping!

I went for interview today and I wasnt aware of wat company and end up when I reach there, I realise is AIA building -_-''' ..kind of feel that I am being deceived..what goes around really comes around..reminded me of what I did back then..end up I went since I am already there...

Morning was bad, 1stly I realise that I had forgetten to take my phone when I was in the bus..luckily I was one bus stop away so I alighted and went back to take my phone and head off to interview..blur sotong.I reached outram and realise that I wasn't too sure on how to go from there..I called up the company and didn't manage to find after some time..it was so warm ..her directions make me feel blur..end up I reach the place, it was AIA building..can you imagine the frustration that I have? so interview was delayed and worst still, I went to the wrong agency..this is my first time being so sotong..there are quite a few units..waste my time to fill up form again..wat the..so I guess it left a bad impression..seriously I don't even wanna join them..if I want I would go back to join his team instead since I know how the system goes..it might be stressful but I can learn alot..still considering though..

After the interview was great, as I met Mummy for shopping..we went orchard and I got one more dress..pink one..at 15 bucks..wooo..well and two pairs of shoes..one white one silver..not too expensive..yeah cny shopping completely accomplished!!great shopping..we helped to buy bro & Daddy's one too..both of us bought some stuff..that;s shopping therapy..I hope that once I find job, I can shop again happily soon..and we can enjoy high tea..at cafe..right now I dun dare to spend it..

End here..I wanna continue my drama and then hear yeyeye

I didn't wake up early today..slept til noon..I guess is time to sleep earlier tonight..I tried my best to find jobs, seriously nothing much that really interest me or suit me..a bit tired of trying..I believe I will not give up browsing around..going for another interview on thur..wish me good luck..


It's ok not to be able to find it today, perhaps I can find some jobs next few days..I need some luck and opportunities..good location also..thx God for providing.though the progress is not very fast , I do have interview coming up! I have to jia you!

End here..gonna tidy my drawer a little later though I am lazy..then I can watch my drama or read my book..

I seem to feel better today in terms of my mood..dun feel so lost and lazy..just finished organising my photos and putting them into various category and backing them up etc..feel great..I wanted to do so sometime ago but I was lazy.. phew done :) at least I did something and have to think of wat to do next in terms of tidying up..spring cleaning!! I only clear my books only..time to do a spring cleaning on tue since I have nothing on!

I was considering whether to go down for the interview tml as it seems to be insurance industry..I didnt tell mum about it as I am still thinking about it. well lets see how it goes.pray hard..
I believe things will be fine..I did my best to send in resume, just have to wait for good opportunites!! I will jiayou!!! :)

I can enjoy watching 宫心计 today..I didn't do much things.looking out for jobs each day while relaxing..going slow for the hk drama..

End here..I wanna read my storybook..should I learn my keyboarding since I am awake? I just had a cup of tea not long..

Hui Ling & Shuji Yamashita's birthday

yeah We went to timbre@ art house to celebrate their birthday..well feeling so relaxed now..as if I can doze off any time..enjoyed the live band and we stay for two hours as yamashita need to work the next day..we had pizza, drinks, timbre wings and salad..wooo..glad that both of them enjoyed..

I am having cold now..I had a glass of apple martini just now..not too bad..

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I thought u know me very well..disappointed..silent action doesn't mean not doing anything..I am trying my best but why are you always like that, nag & nag..to the extent that I start to ignore totally and not answer nor argue. what else can I say..I also feel sian, no direction in life now..give me a break la..I am feeling tired..

I tend to keep to myself now..dun wish to talk while I am at home..perhaps more to cyber..been eating alot this week..I snack alot..I guess it is to fill up my emptyness..dun wish to hear anything..noisy noisy..so disappointing..

Yesterday was like running around places when I wanna get stuff, doesnt seem to be able to get it at once but have to walk around to get them..good exercise..

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wish me good luck!

Right now perhaps I am not even sure what I want to write..hide in my room more often..I just went for the interview today and it was alright..rather comfortable..I know wat it is gonna be dealing with and I think is not easy..I know I have the fear in me..Father, pls guide me along so as to make the right decision.I am going for 2nd interview tml. Should I take up the challenge? I shall see..cannot give up like that right before trying?

anyway I got another dress from fashion lab..yeah left with shoes..I went clark quay for interview then went vivo city shop and head off to orchard..m1 sent me sms saying that there is promotion and I got a new nokia touch screen phone..finally get a new phone as my contract is up.. :) not too used to it though..slowly get used to it ba..yeah good day though!

I shall end here..wish me good luck

I am very sure I miss u..I hope I am not falling for u..the feeling for Ji is killing me already at times..while u r away, I miss u..I guess I wish u r around coz u r special..not taking u as spare..I am unsure of how I am feeling now..let me straighten my thoughts and find an ans..I guess she is the only one who can give u the special feeling not me..sigh..guys do appear in my life, but not one is the choice I guess..just not the right time..seriously I feel that u r not bad, I cannot deny I kind of admire u b4..however I am not sure what is my feeling towards u right now..what kind of status r we? why u wanna my photo? I am rather surprised u want a copy and u say is to keep..

You told me b4 u like me but not sure what type..I can feel it and u wanna see me when u r back..what is the reason? is that the only reason? haiz..dun let me feel hurt..I can't deny being with u is so comfortable and I dun have to hide anything from u..thx u..no one knows what happen in future..

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I went for shopping alone today..hehe..the feeling is good.relax a little instead of staying at home all the time..thx God..I gonna go for my first interview on mon..horray! at least there is hope..I am gonna work harder..sometime I feel that determined abt life is good, if only for bgr, I feel that way too..which I dun.

Anyway gotten one simple dress from far east plaza..oh yeah! :) I need to get another one for CNY..yes shopping for cny already before everyone start shopping like mad and clothes will be out of stock etc..

I miss u dear..I was surprised I miss u when I walk past certain places..u will be back soon..is ok..I am not sure if I miss him..I guess still a little..letting it go slowly..leave it to God..

I finished watching burning flames 3..happy ending.nice! Kelvin is so good!

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Sometime feel too tired, been sleeping late..last night I slept earlier..perhaps I should start sleeping even earlier..I didnt hear radio last night nor online..I was catching burning flames 3..4 more epsiodes to go..nice! I was rather demoralise yesterday as Mum nagged at me again..no one understand what I am thinking right now..I will not give up like that, I will strive on to get a proper job..hopefully something that I like..I guess she dun understand me with regards to that as I didnt mention about anything..sometime we need opportunities..I didnt really see good ones yet of course no news but doesnt mean I am giving up though..I guess I am too tired last year, I just wanna a gd break now..let me rest for a while, isnt that bad after right?

I shall go n browse around for job. end here..

I didnt blog yesterday..so here I am updating about my birthday..its just a simple day..surfing net, ironing clothes, catching 烈火雄心3 at home..actors pretty good especially Wang Xi..Kelvin is not bad either..I prefer Kelvin's character in the drama..But I can't deny Wang Xi can act very well..I am addicted to the drama..way to go..still have quite a bit to watch..

I met wl, Ame, Hui at wheelock place Big O cafe for dinner and we went shopping a while..thx for the presents, treat & the lovely minicake. :) I redeem my drink at gloria jean cafe so we end up sitting there to chit chat..Find it a normal day though it is my birthday..cannot really smile..I am thinking of u when I saw the shop..haiz..sometime there is just memories..not as if we break up..I dunno why I feel that way..hopefully my sixth sense is not wrong as it has been pretty accurate.

Hearing 933 now and Wei Bin was mentioning if some1 keep hurting u,perhaps he/she doesnt really love u..it sound logical though..

As for today..I will search for job..tidy up my textbooks and files a little and I can put my storybooks on my shelf..yeah..my room too many things..gonna continue my drama after I tidy up..I dun feel good seeing things still lying around..gonna meet MF for dinner tonight..I hope we will stay positive..I am alright, occupied with doing what I like now..relaxing since new year day..time to work harder to get a job and then try to change my attitude to do things and my perception of life..everything comes after I secure a job that I like and I will start to do things that I like, like getting basic theory test, vocal lesson etc..

I shall end here