Bad mood..

Today just a normal day and I thinking when am I a confirmed staff..I feel upset coz she seem not wanting to confirm me yet, claiming that I didnt learn much things yet..I feel that,it has nothing to do with confirming or not..is not a matter of whether wat I learnt or know now..I can learn and willing to learn..as long as I learnt, I will know how to handle but they are busy wat..so how can they let me try while the report is so urgent, I will slow down the process..what I say did make sense wat..so she says she wants one more month to see how well I can perform..

I wasnt so happy abt her..I dun get the assurance, it makes me so unsecure..Maybe I shouldnt get so upset but I also dunno why I feel this way..I feel that I am a person who is lack of security..sigh..I just have to wait n see if I am confirmed or not lor..wat to do..I am only an employee..

Shall end here..glad that tml is sat..meeting Jolene & the rest for lunch.. :)

Tired..

I simply feel tired today..not enough sleep..even right now, I am feeling tired..gonna slp earlier today if not I am going to fall sick..start to cough already and my dear friend, WL is on mc..poor gal..hope that she gets well soon..ya..

Work is as usual..I just went out after work last night..Went to bugis, have dinner and shop around with Jufri..mm..thinking of getting a mp3/mp4 player soon..I guess mine doesnt work anymore..I cant detect the device at all.. sob.. I want to get a new hp too..aiming for Samsung ultra 13.8 ;) I guess all these have to wait til next year..prices increase therefore expenses increase but our salary doesnt increase..sigh..

I feel that I really dun trust guys anymore..always doubt what they say..I just want to know more friends..be with my brothers and sisters,hanging out with them to have fun and of course continue being God's child together..I love my carefree life..Just want to be happy and not to think so much..
Sometime things doesnt go our way and I will get upset..what to do, certain things cannot be controlled..We cant always want it to be the way we wish for and of course not to force our way through..I shall let God lead me to the path..

At times I dun wish to share that much nor talk so much but I do have some thoughts here and there..anyway is not necessary to share that much abt certain things..
I shall end here..

God bless u!

Rest in peace..

I am back to blogging again and was sad to read abt the 5 dragonboat paddlers..at lst I wasnt very aware of wat's happening til I follow up with the news..life can be unpredictable and we lost 5 sportsmen..I just hope that their family can overcome the saddness soon..I Know is really hard..those are their love ones..and all five of them are so young and one is the P.E teacher..I can really understand how they feel..I did lost a love ones b4 and a lovely teacher too..sigh..

I just pray that they can overcome everything soon though we are not related..just pray that the 5 guys can rest in peace..

Anyway was busy with work as usual and a bit tired today..I shall end here..

May God bless all of u..

Not my day!!

Well today work as usual..but then shopping trip with Ke Xin cancelled..then heard that Lai Mei sick..then bible studies cancelled at the last min also..I was like, not my day..everything cancelled and my schedule was like all messed up..dunno wat to do with the remaining free time..water drip on my hair n nose somemore..water from the aircon! wat the..then not just that..dunno where the water comes from when I walk out from church..wat a day..

It makes my day so sian..at times I am dreaming that I can find the one in church..then go church together and believe in God together and we share the same value and he can understand why I want to go church coz he also goes..perhaps can compromise better..the best is having a church wedding at our church..I want Pastor Kian Cheng to help us wor..I hope it will come true..May God bless that I find the right one , one day.. :)continue waiting and dreaming for now.

End here..

Been a long time..

It has been some time since I last blog..well..recently ok de la..work lor..we going to start to be busy coz of "Front Warrior"..well have to finish it in a week's time.omg! What we can do is to try our best..
I rather be occupied than slacking and dunno wat to do..It is not so nice u see..

I just went to visit my grandma on sat and went out with Ling, hui & WL for ling's birthday celebration on sunday..
We tried Msq's Wakaru Japansese Pasta..healthy pasta..then shop around and of course took some pics.I will upload soon gals..dun worry abt it hehe..

It has been two months liao..we sort of seldom contact liao..not even talk on the phone liao..is it really the same for all?once part means dun contact much liao.. I feel that maybe there isn't a need to do so..no reason to chat alot liao..at times I walk past some places or even came across some food, they just trigger my mind abt u..I believe u will just stay in my memory forever..After all these are gd memories of us..I just hope that u are doing fine..I know I am ok but somehow some memories u wont be able to let go..I can bluff others but perhaps I cant lie to myself that I forget everything abt us..is not possible..It is just that since we part, I dun wish to think abt so much..looking forward to my future..I am doing fine nowaday..as per normal..

I feel that somehow..we cant compare one another..I seem to feel that every human is so so different..not sure how pple feel and how impt is certain things to others..Somehow I realise I cant tell but just open my eyes big n see for myself..I guess this is the only way..

Shall end here ba.

It will stay in my memory..

Fri again..Today used to be a special day in my life but now it will just be a past and memories..It is a special day for my dad though..

I just feel like blogging and then I blog..This has been going on for a few years since I started blogging..It is really a gd way to blog about our thoughts each day..
Somehow I believe eventually I get over it but somehow I wont forget all the happy moments that we have as they are sweet memories..9th of each month used to be so meaningful..It will just be a history of my life for now..just want to say thank u.. I guess I wont forget u..hope that u can live ur life to the fullest and achieve ur goals..This new way of life is relaxing but lack of something..I guess I think 2 much but who doesnt think..we have feelings and won't forget certain things in life..they are our history n past..

Perhaps I wont even tell others that I feel this way but then I am a person who cant forget..hard to forget..I need time..

Anyway let me update abt yesterday..I went out with mum n brother as it is a public holiday..we went to book tickets for our holiday trip to genting and it is confirmed..going off next month for 3 days..I will be applying leave soon..glad that we can really go n relax somewhere though is nearby..slowly..it takes time to travel to other places..yeah..I went to visit grandma and then go shopping after that..bought top n skirt..time just past like that lor..holiday is over..
I still feel the holiday mood..nvm going out tml though after work..yeah..can continue to have fun haha..

I shall end here..having my dinner le..

Busy day..

It has been a busy day today..Quite a cold day due to rain..so nice to sleep that I dun wish to get out of bed..but what to do, we have to work..so ya..getting excited and cant wait to be on holiday and cant wait to meet u on sat.. ;) wonder who is that u..hhaa dun tell u all.. lol :P

Well I am just busy today..doing documents stuff..photocopying etc..not a hard job..
I cant wait to catch the ending of " 溏心凤暴" ..though I roughly know how it is going 2 end because my mum told me the ending already..sigh..not very nice..it can be sad ..surely..anyway it is just a drama..I am quite emotional though..if there is sad scene, I may cry..omg! btw 林峰好帅喔!He simply look so charming lor..actresses really lucky to be able to work with this 帅哥..envy lor..what to do, can only daydream and cant get to know him..sigh..not only acting, Raymond can sing well too..be it cantonese songs or chinese songs..wow..el also no problem..It is really fortune for his parents to have such a talented son..Hope he keeps it up..Raymond rocks!

I end here..going catch the drama now before the night turns really late..

Updates again..

Well today is quite a carefree day..I just learnt some new things yesterday..I know I wish to leave this job again..damn sian..but job really not easy to find and that u are happy there..so far this is my 2nd full time job but I dun like though..I love to get along with my colleagues..they are fun..but haiz..I dun wish to say with regard to boss..

I shall change topic and talk abt yesterday..I went out with Az and I guess no one knows la..dun intend to tell as they will tease us if they find out..haha..We went to have meal at MSQ Swedsen then went to merlion park have a chat lor..just a simple meal..It is ok la to get along with him..wow I love this kind of freedom lor to go out with anyone and no restriction as long as the person is decent..haha
Enjoy the dinner..
Anyway out of a sudden KK call me and ask if I want to chat..he came n look for me..It has been a long time since we really chat..This friend of mine can be nice and a gentleman that if u dunno him personally, u maybe mistaken by his action haha..He will ring u up at times even though u never find him..sometime not that I dun look for him..everyone is busy wor..I tried to msg him once a while le..I cherish my friend and glad that he treat me as quite gd friend so he will contact me.. :) thanks for that..

I shall end here..dunno wat else to blog..tml is fri yeah..may or may not go out..depends on KK la..bringing me for a ride if possible..

Unhappy Day..

I simply thought that today will be a fine day going to work..I didnt know early in the morning there will be incident..then Boss just comment abt the work done by that person at the meeting..it happened to be me..so can u imagine how I feel..I simply have no pride at all..I mean I didnt do correctly is my fault..I admit but u dun have to say it infront of everyone..this is wat I hate..end up the rest helped me with the work..Thanks everyone!! I just feel sad and angry lor..I had never been shoot by boss like that..though it was a small matter..I dun like..He simply dun care abt how others feel and just hurt u without realising it..He did that to other staff also..he hurt my pride that why I upset..bad

I really appreciate previous company boss..maybe it is always the case whereby u see different boss then u will realise actually u found a gd boss then u doesnt cherish it..I cherish it lor..It is becoz of the job scope that why I left..
Maybe it is a learning experience that GOd wish to let us learn n see more things..I have to take it as a test..Simply wont stay there for long..wat to do just work n gain experience..I am not a gd employee..

Well this is parcel of life and that we still learning things..everyday is a learning day.. :)

End here..

Happy and enjoyable day..

Well I am a bit tired right now and I shall post a short one..

I am on leave today and settle some personal thing then head down to visit ex colleagues in PH..really glad to see them and I know they r happy to see me..yeah.. have quite a long chat with Xiao Wu..long time no chat wat..after that I meet Bro..
We went to vivo to shop and have dinner at secret receipe..frankly speaking we r quite close nowaday..of course we are just close friend now..food at the secret recipe was alright but too filling..maybe I ate something b4 that so wasnt that hungry ba..anyway thanks bro for his treat..planning for our next "date"..we thought of lots of programs and he seem very excited abt it..hhaha..
By the way finally bought my speaker..yeah..

It was a relaxing day and just sit down have a chat at the open gallery..It was nice man..I never feel so happy for quite some time lor..I really feel happy for the whole day..horray!! k end here..getting late..

Stress with work..

It has come to the 3rd week of working late..anyway manage to clear the work and can finish soon I guess but it really make me mood damn bad and down..cannot take it..I take a break yesterday after work and went to orchard to shop with Mum & Xiao Jie..I bought a white bag n two cardigans.did I spell correctly? nvm.. quite happy to shop and drink coffee at coffee club..spend an amt of money on all these lor..I hardly go out nowaday..so long didnt shop already..one month? abt there..haiz..we just relax during chalet then after that is cheong our work..wat the..
btw Vooka with rasbery flavour..I really cant consume it..I think I am allergy to it..skin allergy..I drank others still not so bad..well not going take it again.. :(
Took it last night and feel damn itchy n slight rashes seem to be coming out..sob..nose blocked..weird..now I am pretty sure I am quite allergy to alcohol..

I am tired today..Dad asked us to have supper at quite late..2 plus in the morning..after that then I slp at around 4..really tired after drinking n I fall asleep..slp til quite long..afternoon..opps..nvm..I must have a gd rest lor..
anyway after shopping I dun seem to be happy..weird..I think I am really thinking too much n I am too stress..back to work again tml..sian.tired..

End here..

Rest Day..

Today's weather can be unpredictable..It rains just now and it becomes sunny again..Life is just unpredictable not just weather..I remembered I cant take it on Fri and then I went off at 5.30 without doing any OT..the stress just comes and I cant take it anymore and feel like crying but I didnt..I went to arcade with my younger brother to destress..though we need to spend money but throwing the basketball really can make me destress in a way..throw til I have no strength..we play alot of times for that lol..addicted?? maybe..of course we play other games too..

It was a holiday yesterday so I was not working..I was kind of tired..partly becoz I slp late..slp quite alot I guess..wake up quite late :P I just went to church as usual and time just flies past like that..went to have some food with my cousin etc and went home..sat is always the case..boring..how I wish I can do something happily..I guess it has been a long time since I went out to shop on sat..due to going to church..I went out on sun instead..anyway doing window shopping may end up buying stuff hhaa..I guess I wont really shop til next month..spend quite alot this month..
So ya have to save a little..

As for today, I just dun feel like going anywhere but rest at home..perhaps wait til we dun have any extreme OT then I start 2 go out and have fun on weekdays and weekends..yeah..sometime really no time and there is no life..work work work is all I do..I know it is a gd way to stop myself from thinking abt unnecessary stuff but it is way too much for me..unbearable..We may rest a while but after that it is back to the same old thing..omg! I telling myself to endure and move on..trying hard..
How long can I endure?? I wish I know the answer but I dun..
so where is the right job for me?? I just wish to find a suitable one and stay there and just work on..

I shall end here..

I am back..

I am back from downtown east chalet..so fast.. is great..we stay for two nights..if one night only surely not enough..we have bbq on fri night..enjoy ourselves..helping out to wash food etc..then bbq by Restine's 老公& Wendy's friend..hhaa basically I only sit down n eat :P
我们很幸福喔..哈哈..
We didnt slp at all for the entire night on fri..we were really tired the next day..Mei Na , Ke Xin & I didnt slp at all while the rest still manage to slp lor..
We didnt slp so we went for a walk n play sparklers and head to macdonald 2 have some drink n light food while waiting to catch the sun rise..
romantic? lol too bad is not with the one I love..well..hopefully I can catch the sun rise with my future partner one day..
We went to escape yesterday..I love go kart..so fun n can feel the thrill..so relaxed though to drive and have fun..
It is a pity we didnt know there are more shops that we can shop around but anyway we went to explore b4 we go home..hehe go arcade til stuck there lol..dun want to go back yet..lol..though we waste a bit of time on sat, but then is gd that we can relax ourselves and have fun..of course have to spend some money la for chalet..is normal but is ok since it wont be that often..yeah..working life is too stress with OT everyday..I intend to work a while and will leave lor..cannot tahan la everyday OT..sick and tired of it already..I need some fresh air..I need some space on weekdays..I need some time to hang out with frenzs to destress..

I shall end here..

Simply stress..

Well I enjoyed my weekend like I mention it previously but when it comes to work, I simply feel moody..work simply cant finish and I wasnt unhappy with the job or anyone..I just simply dun like OT..the job is fine..But for this few days or should I say since last week, I work til 8.30pm..sat was fine though work til 2pm..haiz..what to do , this is working life and I know I shouldnt complain abt life..I cant help it but pour out how I feel.. I just feel moody becoz of work? I myself not sure either..sigh..I dunno what wrong with me..nothing much but I simply dun feel happy..perhaps dun see the sunset at all and leaving the office at 8.30 really isnt the ideal time that I want but is a marine company..cant be helped..

I can understand why pple resign..simply not enough time to finish the work within 2 weeks deadline..omg!!! It is a matter of time to gain experience and simply not the job that I wish for..I dun wish to talk abt anything bad lor, be it company or boss..but what i can say they r too "thrifty" and particular abt certain issues..BTH lor..what the..

I end here..

Enjoyable Weekend..

I am back again..well I did enjoy myself this week and I feel that it is the happiest week I even had for this few weeks..

I went out with my family yesterday to east coast to have seafood and then we head down to the beach to have a walk and I have the urge to play bowling at marine bowling..guess what..Mum wasnt so keen on it at 1st so I started it with Xiao Jie..end up she joined us and enjoyed it haaa..lol and we played 3 sets of game..all the way til midnight abt 2am..then we headed home..cool ar? hardly stay outside so late lor..Happy Hour! We went to have food abit late..around 9 plus and when we finished was abt 11 so we played all the way til 2am..I was tired then and I slept at 4am this morning hhaa..Glad that MUm know how to bowl and perhaps we can go some other days to relax.I know she feel relaxed and happy..It is the right choice to go bowling and she is fine though it is the lst time..

After that sunday which is today I meet Hui,Ling & WL to have a chat at Glorie Jean Cafe at 2pm..We plan to have it at starbucks but it is so crowded so change of plan ya..just have a small get together..Happy weekend and I really enjoyed it..
I really need some entertainment since I been working OT lor.. yeah..

K la end here..a bit tired ..going to slp earlier today..

Work..Work..Work..

Today I just feel tired..haha partly I slept late last night :P well is kind of tired to keep checking stuff..I wonder how to endure til 8.30pm tml and fri..I am going work OT..need to rush our work and I am going finish mine soon..probably can finish my part tml ba..hopefully..should be no problem when I am seriously working and dun talk :P I can do other stuff once completed..frankly speaking I did quite alot of work? yeah especially the internal part..so much to key but I manage to finish it..OMG!

Currently I am watching "天涯侠医"..mm..I didnt really catch it when channel 8 is showing during weekend..manage to catch a bit of it and realise is nice..So watching dvds lor.I didnt catch Hk drama quite long liao due to work etc..yeah back to my addiction of watching haha..I can really glue to the tv :P and cant wait to watch on..sometime no choice but have to stop as I need to slp..If not I surely watch til I really feel tired..well is an enjoyment to do wat u like.yeah..
I like Nick Cheung who act as doctor..I believe he hasnt been acting nowaday ,isnt he? Nick can act well and he do look like wat he act as be it doctor or police hhee..the character suits him..well the drama is quite a few years back..

Sometime certain topics can be sensitive to me nowaday..I dun wish to hear abt it nor think abt it but colleagues talking abt it , I just dun care so much..I dun wish to think so much and want to be happy. I feel alright, very normal lor..I was quite happy last night to meet up to celebrate a simple 中秋节..

希望我能开开心心得过每一天..然后工作顺顺利利..不想想那么多..希望我身边的人都平安..

Quite hard and slow to type in chi but I did it :) End here..

中秋节快乐!!

Today is a simple day with work and guess wat..OT is coming when we least expected it..I have to cancel my program for fri..sigh..no choice..working OT on thur, Fri & Sat..probably next week too b4 our chalet..sigh..sometime shouldnt say too much and end up it comes true..wat the..work is coming..

Well wishing everyone 中秋节快乐!!! Today's weather is fine to celebrate lantern festival..WL asked if I want to meet up to take lantern..I join her and we brought her niece to the park near our place..We just walk around and I bought lantern for her niece..manage 2 find mickey mouse one..hehe..yeah..

My colleague , Mei Na went to get those small lantern and decorate our office..yeah we can feel the atmosphere..then we bought mooncake to share and try diff. types lor..I still have some in the office..perhaps can eat it tml when we r hungry.
It is Kareen's birthday tml..so we having cake..It is kind of nice lor that colleagues will celebrate ur birthday..

Suddenly feel that I may have some thoughts or feel a bit sad as I am hearing "Would u be there"..It is a nice song and I find it so meaningful..cant help feeling a bit 伤感..nvm is ok..

K end here..

Time..

I realise everyone including me is complaining that there isn't enough time to rest. I rest for a day then I am back to work.wat to do,I have to work on sat too..so to me..sat is occupied with work and church..so no personal time..Time is spent with God..Sunday is the only day I can rest and I am lazy to go out.I have my free time..stay at home do wat I like..Can say I am kind of isolating myself? hhaa maybe? Coz I may be invited to birthday party but I dun wish to go nowaday unless the person is my colleague, close friends or relatives..dunno lah..I just dun wish to go and there is no particular reason..I just feel sian..not close wat..

I know that there is changes for this few weeks and though I smile and laugh at jokes, I dun think I am back to my normal self yet..I am trying to be..I dun wish to talk abt it and think abt it..U guys will know what I am talking abt..certain things just leave it aside..time will heal everything and work is more impt now..wow I have not been going out for this two weeks..nvm is ok..I just wish to rest and I will go out next fri hee..a date? ya right with Mei Fen :P haha..Just meet up to have a meal n shop around..yeah.

Today is a day for me to play com, read bks/bibles or watever..cool..make full use of my free time..the feeling is shiok but time just pass by very fast..I love to stay in my room..sometime will have a chat with mum..great!

Well not forgetting to thank friends whom stand by me when I feel down..especially my bro..Thx my dear bro for lending me a listening ear..sorry to trouble u so much..
I appreciate it..

I end here

Worried..

Quite a few days has past but to me I still feel the same..think a lot.. I really worried when I heard he is sick..but glad that at least u will share with me..if I dun msg u perhaps u dun wish to tell me?? sorry I cant be beside u to look after u..I cant enter ur camp..if not I surely look after u no matter wat..dun care u want or not..is my sincere thoughts..may God bless that u get well soon..poor thing.. make my heart ache la..shouldnt be like that..But I dun feel at ease..worried if anything happen to u..trust me, I wont feel gd de..I know u need someone now when u r sick..I know how it feels to have stomach flu..I simply cant be there right now..feeling so sad lor..that I want to cry..Pls pls take care of urself while I am not by ur side now..

Anyway working life is the same lor as usual..
I end here..

Life is unpredictable..

Today is just a normal resting day for me..I didnt go anywhere..I am feeling better..hope I am just be fine lor..can be tense up this few days..not normal isnt it? thx 4 ur concern..Somehow I feel that sometime life is not within our control..some things may happen, then it shall happen..is just that we wont be aware when it happens..I know I am not scare..I am prepared..I am just worried abt my love ones..my family,friends and not forgetting u..I will be worried abt u no matter wat..
should anything happen to me,我放不下你们!

There are disasters happening around and hard to predict when it happens..just like the plane which had crashed in Thailand killing abt 60 pple..It makes me worried coz he will be flying to Australia for some overseas training..Plane seem to be so unsafe lor..I just wish he is safe n sound that's all..I know I shouldnt have negative thoughts but I really afraid to lose u forever..*touch wood la..at least, I can still contact u n care for u now..
But if u aint around,I dun think I wish to live either..humans have feeling de..after all we been together for a period of time..another diaster is the earthquake..

Earthquake can really kill pple and my block can feel the shake..is terrible as it is not once..many times within 3 days..I felt the shake thrice..This time is terrible that pple in neighhood countries like Malaysia and Thailand can feel it too..May God bless that there will be lesser disaster and that pple r safe n sound..