Back to sch liao today..I just finish doing the HRA past year paper..mmm..Mrs Quek given us last week i guess ..then i completed it ..done with it , I can relax abit..

Well..Today feel tired..i drank coffee..if not i surely sleep de..kind of tired..but ok lah..hee so great that we didnt need to attend csv n kds lesson sia..
Sch end at 2.15..so great..Vin sent me home..b4 tt we went to buy the drink that i wanted..as usual..Mr bean 's soyabean milk..we share lor..dunno why i love to drink that nowaday..addicted haha..well anyway is a healthy drink like i said b4..mm..he ate a pancake also..so small de..kaya de.. i dun want coz surely sweet de..

mm..Mr Ramu is back today..then as there is no csv lesson he took over that lesson as ent..then after recess also ent..anyway lesson is being push up ..so we end earlier..nothing much today..everyone seems to have holiday mood..then Hazel not here today..talking abt project over the phone..wow she so fed up.as if she scolding me..but i know is not..she mood swing wat..understandable .haiz..early in the morning nag at me.. poor me..nvm..

Well.heard that MF will sit at Chandra place..to Kl is a gd news..to me a bad news..but better than she sits at bro place..dun want bro move so far away u see..well..she sits behind me ..omg..surely ask me questions etc..cant be helped..haiz..maybe is better this way..

mm..back to sch abit stress u see..then ar..dunno lah mum nag again..wat else..but i also like tt..get used le..patch back get nag is normal..but wat i know exams coming..i been going out for the past few days..is time to study le..dun care abt other stuff..i feel i keep myself occupied i wont think lor..like the past few days..i feel happy..
Our love getting deeper..i know leh this time he the one for me..want to spend the rest of my life with him le..dun care le..well regarding parents accepting him..i feel as time goes by..should be able to..have to face de lor sooner or later..when we are together for a longer period i will settle de..coz more firm..ok lah end here..

Today..I woke up feeling so tired..so nice to sleep but have to go out so i have to wake up ..then bath n went to buy lunch..Went to Amelia's house lor..b4 that i went to find soya bean drink..too bad no Mr bean de..i want to drink!! then no choice i bought jollibean de..so small cup..$1.20..haiz..

Then i went to Ling's house..reach abt 2.10 ..weather so hot man..then i reach a while hui reach le..hee..we talked lor..then see friendster etc..hhaa disturb ling's blog..hhaa write crap..hhaa so funny man..Hui n I naughty ar? that's us hhaa..so fun..hhee then we even post it while she went to bath..hahaa then when she was back she saw it n quickly delete off..hhee..
we decide a while where to go sia either 800 plus or century square..but hui said Cs nothing much..in the end i felt hungry so decided to eat fries..so long didnt ate mac fries..so we went to 800 plus de mac..sat there eat & talk..til five plus we went back to ling's house..thinking of leaving at 6..but end up i stay til 7 sia..hhaa butt stuck there..haaa talk to ling, her mum n hui til dun want to leave..gals' talk hhaa..talk abt bgr lor etc..

Then i reach home at 8.15 hee bath and had dinner at 9 .not hungry wat..tt why..mm..dear called me when i was at ling's house tt was 6.35 ..hhee asking me go home already..haa i say wow guan wo le ar..then ask wat i ate..hehe i say roasted pig..he said ya mac has tt ar..hee i know i trying to be funny..hhee..naughty wat..pple miss me i know de..sometime i dun like pple to control me like wat time i go home..but no doubt he asked abt it i fine with it..love it..it shows tt he cares lor..rather than dun bother u see..

mm..just feel relaxed this few days..i know i am very occupied.so never think so much..maybe dun need to face YH n MF ma too..no stress.i play enough..must study le ...exams going to come ..abt two weeks later..k end here

Nice Day!!

Today awoke by msg..kai ling msg me ..asking me i f i would like to go out..so thinking that i have nothing to do..i went out with her to bugis..then i thinking of going changi find dear..then not so sure how to go..in the end also go.took bus 29..he suspected lah when kai ling called him asking abt the bus to go there.i know he is smart..anyway he found out i visiting him..nvm lah..but he is touched..that wat he says..coz he miss me n i go all the way there..i know can take 29..but not so sure where to alight..anyway can find civil service club..hee then go admin office lor. i know he in the office..

He see me never talk..dunno leh he give an expression i wonder wat was he thinking..then talk in msn he told me he was lost for words. touched too.hhaa ..i went to find him and went to eat.lst. then dinner break acc him..then i went home..eight plus then reach home..mum know i went to find him coz i come back late..anyway she didnt scold lah..hha say i so li hai go til changi..hhaa..

what i know is show that u care n ..not regret when u cant do it le..u can love n care ..do all u want..since i lose once..i know to care n concern more for the person I love..dun want to have any regret..coz i just love him...i never make someone touched b4 i guess..he will be honoured..
hhaa dear surprise me today..shocked me..dun ask me wat..this is between me n him..i wont tell hhaa..well very happy today n tired on the way home..sleep late last night ba..
end here le..hee mood so gd..

Today went to Tampines..Grandma there..there is fried bee hoon n abit of curry..weather so hot..just feel very hot there..didnt meet vin today ..he went to Alicia's house to do project then went Sp for the sadam..dunno how to spell..heard have our schmate taking part in it..
I know i miss him..LS le..sian..then i do feel mood swing.so abit unhappy with him..coz msg him never reply de..dunno lah wat he doing..til later a bit he reply.thought he forget me le..

He msg me asking me have i eaten when i was on the way home..then 10 like tt..he called me when the thing ends..but i dun feel like picking up his call..but in the end also pick up..
but dun feel like talking..talk abit ..he asked i ans..sian..tired sia..feel like sleeping..mood swing affect my mood double..sian..
i know small thing i shouldnt mind..why i am like tt? angry coz of tt? unreasonable leh..i feel it..
but maybe i Ls so need him..then he not there..i feel sian ba..tt why..cant be helped when i feel tt way..must be understanding de..
I dunno lah ..right now so tired.i go sleep le..

Today sian..mood swing..make me kind of moody..coz of MF ba..today have a talk we attend..sian.then have reception we go canteen eat instead of eating the buffet..so crowded..
then went to find Mrs Quek..coz Mf want to change seat..she dun want to sit with S..who wants anyway..then she will be seated at jufri tt table lor..aiya everyone cant stand her lor..surely get angry de..she dunno situation like when to call pple..when not to.
dunno her..if she joins my group for project i also wonder how i can tolerate lor..but maybe wont shout at her..just get fed up only..then i complain to vin how i feel..i cant tahan..coz mrs yeo survey duno who say til she so bad..all disagree ..then i suspect tt 3 gals..but heard is not how i know..then is andrew ..one of them.how can it be..it is lor..
haiz..cant interfere with stuff u see..sometime dun get involved best..
i know i throw temper or wat..bad to vin..not his fault..but sometime really lor..i cant tahan not i want to scold him..i feel scolding teacher is a no no..even if teachers r at fault..after all they r elder..and they r teachers..should respect them..vin disagree..then i dun want say further end up no point wat..later agrue..
ok lah end here..wait for supper..dad buy supper hhee..

Today we have HRA Ca..i didnt study much.i know i am lazy..so sian same old units..i guess i will pass de but wont do well only..haiz..
well 8 plus never see Mr Teo..then Mrs Lee relief..and things happen from there..
MF was scolded by S.. in front of the class u see..then MF cried of course..Hazel cant tahan..go n tell her not to scold her ..and let her study lst coz there is CA..she dun listen and tell Hazel to go away..Hazel was angry coz it not only affect her ..it affects the whole class u see..haiz..i dunno..I cant interfere..well we know how others feel ..sometime she can make u real angry de..Mf..haiz..but also not scold her in front of the class..that wat i think.
and yesterday read abt hui's blog then know how she feels..same problem. coz parent disapprove of the relationship then they break up..poor her..i understand how she feels..i experience b4.but i feel helpless that i cant help her..tt time i also cry alot..yesterday vin ask me if I know how he feel ma tt time..he says got scar..still there in his heart..i know..then i ask him wat he wants he says nothing..he wants me to be happy when he is not around..well..make me abit scare..yesterday feel like crying..maybe i too stress.i think too much ba..
Maybe just let nature takes its course ba..
Nowaday often blog in class..nothing to do wat..project done can relax abit..CA just finish too..wow finally can relax a while..maybe can make some notes for HRA.
ok end here..

Stress....

Today in the class haiz..feel stress up..tired also..tml have HRA CA then fri need to finish the ent..haiz..
my mood very wat lor..then some of our classmates present the projects ..theirs very nice.. then make me feel tt mine is lousy..anyway lucky that YH helps me to do abit..if not i can die..haiz..
if can i want to cry sia..so i can feel less stress..i making myself so tense up sia..
is not gd..just hope i can cope well..dunno wat to write also..
just feel like blogging..hhaaa now vin presenting his project..careless sia opportunties spell short of a letter "P"..hhaa
ah..feeling hungry now..haiz..so fast hungry.later have SW how leh..
wow very cold in the lab..haiz..
Vin's presentation gd..interesting.. :) he put in alot of effort..i know de..so mine lousy haiz.so little content..tt wat i feel..
Today must go home study for CA..haiz..

Wow sch com really slow..that i have to wait for so long to get in..well right now i having ent lesson..nothing to do..feel like sleeping..haiz..today is fine..he is back to sch le..mm..but leh..why in the morning i seem not happy.i dunno why..haiz..
Mrs Quek give us May 2002 paper to do.I didnt study so not really know how to do..anyway just try out the paper lor..alright lah..thur we having Ca le..wow this two days better no project to do..i feel more relaxed..sometime mum will still nag..today i dunno..haiz..get used liao..same old thing..but at least never threaten..just let her say..i do my stuff lor..
later still have Kds lesson haiz..tired leh..later go home rest ba..
ok I end here..tired sia..dunno wat to write le..sian..
hee anyway hee someone sitting beside me disturbing me leh..vin lah..hhaa hazel upstair self access room do work.then he sit beside me ..hhaa ok lah end here

wat a day!!

Today..sch day..wake up ..i recieve Vin's msg that he is sick so he wont be coming to sch..mm..poor dear not feeling well..my mood no gd..in class is like sudden lack of something..dun have his voice..and his presence..abit dun get used lor..i know i lovesick..want to see him..but later go home late n tt sch end late..i cant go n find him..well..and also i am tired..hhaa maybe my turn to fall sick..of course i hope i wont..hhaa..
if not he xin tong wor..he says he has headache ..gan mao lah..feel relief that he sees a doctor..during lunch time i did call him..i guess i will ask him tonight how is he..
seem like i msg him he wont reply ..is it he didnt on hP? or no batt? i dunno..waste my msg hhaa.. just hope he is well tml..never see him for two days i cant tahan..i know i worry..but i cant see him..right now i in class..just want to know he is fine i be glad..

Today can sleep soundly no drilling sound like yesterday..right now i feel sleepy but blog lst n study a bit more b4 i sleep..well today quite ok occupied with stuff..watch tv..study lor for mock Ca tml..actually not really study alot..coz i dun like to study. tt.but have to study..memorise is kind of bored..so afternoon i want to study but watch I do I do lst then when i want to study i feel sleepy.. just dun feel like studying..coz kind of long chapters ..4 units to study..actually study b4 le..just recall lor..

mm..yesterday went to vin's house..have a nice day with him.in his arms..i feel so gd..tears run down my cheeks..is a kind of feeling i wont want to forget..i dun want leave u again..is hurting..i cant take it.. coz i love u..maybe happy so i cry..
.i feel happy..but ..this few days..either he tired or busy with stuff..never chat much online..but lucky i see him yesterday ..if not i feel very sian one..actually i feel it le..i know i cant blame him..so i never say anything. longer to chat with him..for the past few days ..i cant..either he watch tv or he sleeps..haiz.. did he realise he neglected me? cant be helped i know..tired cant control..
but i still feel sian ba..is natural wat..is a daily routine lor..i did tell him like a few days never chat with him..he says busy..
i duno..i feel he getting more busier sia..wat is he up to..like so busy..may holiday also cant acc me coz IAP start earlier..wat the..then ar..next week..mon onwards he got to work..so busy..
i know i cant blame him for tt..but which gf like this..dun like also keep quiet..coz he working..not playing..but often he works til neglect me or do project til neglect me..wat to do..
like that lor..then wat? angry? tt not the way..get used liao..just tolerate..see how long i can tolerate before i get angry..hhaa..
wow tired..end here..

Today..weather hot..mm..ent i did project..then YH was noisy ..i ask her she very free ar hhaa..indeed leh..she seems so free..while we are busy..i concentrating on my work..
mm..me n dear fine ..but i still worry why when he is with me he seems so sian..he told me he is tired..indeed ? i guess so..he holds me tight today..i know how he feels..he dun want me to slip from his hands again.. :) i know de.. i love him..i wont want to let go..unless he dun love me le..which he says he wont..who knows..but now i just let nature takes its course..
but i can imagine if he is the last guy tt i date with n get married..i will feel the happiness with him by my side everyday..do hope we can..i dun want to break his heart and also dun want myself to cry again..

I hope sat i can control myself..i scare i cry ..but surely cause happy so i cry..i just wish to hold him tight perhaps.so long never hold..he says he wont cry..hhaa i shall see..i think i dun trust him enough..must give him trust..trust is impt..but i dunno why sometime i doubt him..haiz.
tml have test.. but i study abit only..is such a long unit..kind of bored..later go study abit more perhaps..

mm..got to know the IAP i go to novena national skin centre to work..yeah...near my house..haiz..but bad news..is vincent will have attachment for 1 mth..so no holiday for him..haiz..cant go out with him..i disappointed..sentosa trip gone..sian..i wait n wait..tt time say is wishes..now also cant fufil leh..wat to do..sat he may work or no work he rest..we have no time for one another during holiday..haiz..
ok lah end here..

Today..i get angry again..kind of unhappy with YH..mm..dunno why this few days i get angry coz of her..all bcoz of her..maybe i petty lah..but not just me unhappy abt her ..bro they all also..we cant tahan her..sia..haiz..she huh..i dunno wat to say..then today i saw Wati put hand on vin's shoulder..i kind of mind ..surely mind..abit jealous..hhaa is normal..to others they may think i narrow minded? i dun care..coz i love him of course i care wat..is like she dunno meh pple 's gf in class..don't be overboard..i dun say anything doesnt mean i dun mind..just that maybe small matter i just close one eye..dun quarrel with classmate or wat lor..later hurt our class relationship ..i just hate pple call my dear names..is like after all he is a guy..human..he needs respect lor..
then i hear them call ar.i feel am i coward? just keep quiet..maybe small things ba..like tt lor..

We had farewell party today for social dance club..have pizza , spahetti..(dunno how to spell) :P, sandwich..kfc chicken..coleslaw ..drinks..seniors do enjoy..and we have fun..take pics etc.
Gilyn eyes abit watery..she hold back her tears..if not she cry le..hhaha..well she cry later i cry also.emotional..
well six plus then we left..
mm..dunno leh..i feel stress perhaps..or worry abt certain things..maybe i dun trust him?
is not a matter of trust or wat..maybe dun feel secure..duno wat he up to lately..so guai go home early after sch. say do project.then sudden go out de..say buy things..dunno really ma..i know i shouldnt doubt..him til this stage..
maybe break off patch back..i scare his love may change somehow..like..he really will love me ar..coz everyday say mushy words..really mean it? or perhaps say for fun? i know is unfair to him..i just feel he want a gf is it for him to hug only or wat?
why i think like tt..haiz..i scare ba..guys can say he love u n is play with u..until we are very very stable i will believe him alot? maybe i doubt him..just that i dun want to say..bgr should have trust..i know..but wat he do make me suspicious..like really he did do his work or wat..he sudden so guai..say want go home earlier do project..
who knows..he has another gf i also dunno..not tt he has..but really wat..some things can hide de..i will try ba..must have trust..
maybe dun think too much..end here..

Today i think i better..coz i am occupied..mm..wake up today..then change bedsheet..read newspaper..bath n had lunch i went out..meet kai ling to go tp central..
I went to pay hp bills..i know i miss lu..a little..
now is alot ba.. just now he not online..dunno where is he..still outside maybe? haiz..always go home so late..well..love sick i guess..then maybe just patch back not long..i scare i lose him..
got fear..not that only he has..i have my fear too..now i also dunno how i feeling.like cant tahan..i think very lovesick....how come leh..

i just feel he changed..like wont miss me so much perhaps..and dun care for me so much perhaps..like i told him my teeth gum pain.he tells me drink more liang suai..then eat lesser heaty food..then will be ok soon..just like tt..like very normal lor..haiz..something is wrong..
i just feel not the same..maybe i think too much?? now nothing to do ..my imagination went wild? maybe lor..haiz..just dunno lah..
i want to find back tt feeling..i think slowly i found le..i miss him as much as last time..
i love him ..the same..never change..dunno wat abt him..
he needs more time perhaps..we will find back tt feeling de .. i guess..
now i blog i feel better.. :)
maybe just dun think so much..end here..i watching tv..nkf..repeat..
last week didnt watched

Patching back with vin i thought i be happy.i am..and i dunno that actually he is scare..i also..coz break up b4 ..scare it happens again..vin ask me..if he dun love me as much as b4 will i blame him? i believe he thinks alot when he wants to patch with me..he scares u see..so he ask me will respect his decision right? if tt time cant patch i be sad..wat to do..in the lst place i hurt him..

he knows i be sad..so is he patching back coz of me? scare i sad? if like tt then is responsibility..
like he says he acc me tml..coz he want to fufil my wishes and coz he love me so much..is his duty to dote me..sound like zhe ren..make me sad...really..
so fast he dun love me as much as last time..cant blame him..who will dare put in 100% de..later hurt again how..

I understand de..wat we can do is get back tt feeling n overcome our fear..back a few days only..will try..kind of not the same..i juz feel lack of something..maybe cant feel sense of secure..
tired dun want write further i want sleep..tml test..

We are back together le..mm..alot of things lah..he msg etc..right now i want to sleep liao.maybe write more abt it tml..well we patch on 10 april..yeah..i can sleep well..so happy..dun want to be sad again..i cherish him..he told me on msn..he still love me like b4..want to patch up with me..dun want me to leave him le..if not he sure sad..i glad we are back together..with no objection with mum..she dun care le..

i know lah i must know my limit..cannot overboard..learn one time le..should know.. :) k got to sleep..late liao..talk so long with him..also cant finish talking de..hhee tired sia..want sleep

Today..wake up..so noisy..drilling sound..make me tired..i sleep at 2 leh yesterday..still miss him so much..then cry a little..maybe moody also lah..coz u know de lah..then msg him..i better le..just wont pester him or wat..just talk to him like frenz..i be happy le..never talk make me sad..
maybe really lah i never let go..i never step out at all..now he is trying to avoid ba.. i facing it..but still love him although we break le..like Hazel says..there is lots of hidden true feeling between us ever since we break up..maybe ba..

If we were to come back together again.wow surely very strong de this love..much more stable than b4 i know for sure..then sure more caring n lovely than b4..shall see..we still frenzs..this kind of thing hard to say..but so fast..he change friendster status liao n take out pics liao..
he really face reality le..haiz..my fault..cant turn back..end here ba

Today sian sian..coz maybe i get over it but still miss him..yesterday kind of fed up then today i know i want to talk to him de.end up dun talk to him...u think i feel ok? i feel worse lor..coz he seem really give up..ask him miss me ma..he says he miss his bed more..well but he say sure miss de..just hurt to see his hurt face..sometime willl look at him coz i still lovehim..yet hurt him..i ask him love me ma..he asks me wat is love..haiz.. he says love or dun love dun make any differences..haiz..make me feel hopeless..like this we happy ma? not at all..maybe feel lighter but i make him suffer lor..think so easy get over it meh..nope..
just dunno wat to say sometimes..

Now in class he even change seat le..guess dun want to see me also..rather sit with his frenz..haiz.not idun want talk to him..just that if everytime i go find him is weird..i dunno wat to do u see..
I feel better le..never cry le for this two days.but still cant get over it...i know he loves me de..just pretend only..get together a few mths i know him de...
guys always like that dun want to let gals share their burden de lor..coz they say as a guy cant let gals carry the burden lor..so they rather they suffer lor..
now so sian..in class doing nothing..Mrs Yeo not in..i still cant find the old me..it seems to disappear for now..he also lah no matter how he acts ..he still sad de.cant bluff me..he can lie to others but not himself lor..same class i have to face him everyday is so sad..sooner later everyone can feel there is problem between us..coz never eat together never talk never come together like so close..is kind of sian..

.i want to fight my happiness de but he like that i just feel like giving up..he lost his determination le..i just scare he become the old vin lor..i hope not..if not wat i do wasted..maybe i never say break we can still find solution..after all i am so selfish u see..always never spare a thought for someone..right now typing this..i have no feeling..just have alot of thoughts only..I love u Vincent! i now for now i still love u..so he cant stop me from loving him..
i think i stop here..nothing to write le..

Today feel better..never cry le..but i see him i feel sad..is like..u love him n he loves u..yet cant be close with him..so xin ku lor..a bit like last time we low profile..i have tt kind of feeling..
YH says that maybe not Vin dun want to patch..just that break so sudden..he needs time..well vin tells me le he needs time..wat he really means? yesterday conver..he can mention abt last time..
i thought he wont want think..he cant get over me..tt why see him so sad..but he still gd to me..got food still ask me want to eat ma..coz he told me b4 i cant stop him from loving me.hhaa i also tell him he cant stop me :P..mm..maybe we need time..he says not like break..is just separate a while..maybe will get back..i dunno..just feel who knows one party can get over it n one cant then cant patch le..tt wat i afraid of..actually if never break..one day we may break also..then maybe i rather i be the bad guy then hear it come out from him..
so i rather now suffer maybe..coz we not so long..longer the pain will be more..

say dun regret is bluff..but maybe do us good..i will take this time to think abt it..is a gd way of testing us..coz i agree vin says we not bf /gf ..is not the end..then want to patch so fast is a fast decision..later end up more hurt..maybe take a couple of mth ..then let him decide if we should patch back..i believe still have feeling de..not so easy fade..i dunno abt him..for me maybe ok lah.
but he loves so deep hhaa i am sure he wont stop loving me so fast..but sometime hard to say..
i be prepared lor..more over there are alot of guys out there..mm..maybe still early..have fate we can be together ..that why i think too..we still talk..but maybe wat i can hope for is to get back with him and dun have any problems occur so we can be together forever..ling tell me dun place too much hope..i know de..will try..right now just hope to get on with life..

If i can hug him..i think i will cry de..vin say dun want..later he hug le dun want let go..i rather like tt..instead of suffering..but end up parents angry also suffer..just that there are alot of regrets..but wat to do..like vin say over is over..let it be..but does he thinks like tt
i guess no de..just trying to get over it only..wound recovering..recover liao then see how..end here...

Today..still feel sad..yesterday blog siao siao..mm..i know i need him...but he just want to let go..so i be more happy..then i want to patch he dun want..wat can i say..same problem will occur..he ask me be brave like so easy..i try..then he like want to give up..say over liao over liao..let it be..so easy meh?kind of not happy..why he can say tt..make me fed up..i dun want bother..after all i hurt him de..wat can i say..give up lor
i want eat dinner le..maybe continue writing later or wat..

anyway think abt it..i straighten my thoughts already..should be ok..just scare of my eyes..dunno got any problem or not..maybe cry alot.spoil my eyes..hhaa..dun want think..
tired..i sleepy..

Today..i went to work at east point and white sand..sad..coz parents object to relationship..then today talk abt it..i let go le..sad..when at white sand is ok..then cry abit at mac..he wipe my tears..
I reach home bathe i cry..really cry..i realise i never been be so sad with a relationship b4..last time de i never shear a tear..maybe it is not so deep...

I dunno i just feel sad..i just want to cry..maybe can heal as time goes by..everyday see him wat to do.. i dunno ... just want to take a break..so we end today..which is abt 5 mths..less than tt..
every time my relationship cant last long..hurts me..i dun think i dare to try ba..
maybe no more confidence anymore..other pple happy..i need time..i am forced to do tt..i really sad..wat can i do..xin tong..

I told vin i ok..just to let him not worry..in fact i not ok..weep dunno how many times..later eyes swollen.. is gd lah problem solved..end here..

Midnight abt 12.15 am ..i was abt to sleep..apply wu bi gao..sitting on my bed..I kind of sleepy..then can feel my bed shaking suddenly..thinking too tired i went out to see the ceiling lights..shaking too.the clock also shake..the hands shake..then parents' room on aircon so door is close..I couldnt open door..then try to open toilet de..then mum ask me wat happen..i say i feel the shake..then mum stand up she can feel too..then dad woke up..then mum wake bro up..then we rush downstair..many pple also rush down for safety reason..on the way lst thing i thought of is calling Vin..his area wasnt affected..many areas like beach road, marine parade, seng kang , seragoon etc..

I scare Vin ..He worried abt me..after that incident..i realised n i know he realised he cant bear to lose me..if i am gone..* touch wood..wat abt him? wat he can do? scare .. couldnt get to sleep although i am tired..only think of Vin..i never tell him..i get to know..i really want to see him..hug him coz i need him at that moment of time..cry abit lor..coz i cant imagine if building shake alot more wat will happen if we didnt get downstair in time..then all gone..i left Vin? cannot..I love him so much..how can i leave him like that..tt a terrible experience..
dad very scared i know..coz he keep telling us faster go out of our house..i feel at that time..yes i am scare..but u have to stay calm if not u duno wat to do..He not calm..hhaaa

then i went to bed at 1 plus..manage to sleep at 2 plus..woke up at 6.35..i am so tired today lor..drink coffee still tired til abit headache..then ent lesson lie on the table..rest..Tt mr teo talked so much..heard tt highest mark for 2nd project 51..so jia lat..lowest 44.. horrible..
k end here..i want to sleep already..tired..still never sleep early although i want.Vin not online i guess he sleep liao..so tired wat..

Today..went to work as usual..the third day i work..i been thinking should i quit..but this pay gd..think abt it ..i just endure til i can find a better job then maybe i quit..then today an incident happened..a Security officer..approach me..i dun even know is who..like quite fierce..i blur..duno wat happen..he ask me go office..then b4 tt take out all the listerine pack tt i have..i wonder why..i ask him then he tells me dun talk much..be honest if not let him find out i take stuff i be in trouble..then he wont give chance..wat the..as if i steal..i feel sad..i even cry after tt..then another promoter same company de..tell me dun cry..embarrassing leh dunno any one see wat happened..anyway i very firm when i talk to him.. maybe get a fright lah tt why..

In my whole life..i never get accuse of stealing..wat for steal listerine sweet.siao..not nice also..
I want steal why i work..think abt it i feel bu shuang..others explain tt is his job cant blame him..
is not they kanna accuse leh..is a bad experience.wat to do i learn a lesson lor..dun even dare tell KE Qi..tml cant let Hazel know..same company best not to know..never give me pass ..then tell me low profile..haiz.. hai wo..3 days only this happen..anyway nvm..going change location..better change..dun want see tt SO..an uncle..spoil my mood..but after tt have dinner etc..feel ok lah..coz tml dun need work..feel better lor..think abt it i feel sad..ok lah end here..tml study le..so fast one week holiday has past..very fruitful one..mon went out a while..wed go zoo..then fri to sun work..

Today..second day of work..still ok lah..more tired..i reached earlier then went to library lst..yesterday legs really want to break like tt so aching..today still ache..but better lah..I get to know company de other staff..then get to know other promoters also..like Jian Xiang..He is 21..he promote princles potao chip..tml last day le..well he work only for a period of time de..anyway i also wont be working at bedok after tml..

Then i wish to keep in touch with him..haa dun want ask his no..although i want coz know more frenz wat..then he asked to exchange no..hee..i am a girl so cant of shy to do tt..anyway sometime exchange no dun mean will keep in touch..alot is like tt..never work together lost contact liao..ok lah..He is nice to chat with..clever boy going university le.then he knows bai wei xu de..his schmate wat..then head prefect..hee so gd leh..

Today only manage to sell 5 listerine..actually i also never promote much..eat snake..Ke Qi came down..heng i was around..then went to have tea break..and slack abit..pretend pretend can liao..this sweet no one wants to eat..so hot..is wat pple comment..just endure lst..yesterday manage to sell 10..ok lah end here..tired..

Today sian..thinking tml must work..actually i really dun want leh..but thinking she asked me to work..i say no can meh? i working leh not other things..right now i thinking feel sian..then i miss dear..maybe lovesick liao..so fast..I just see him yesterday..and after few hrs i feel like seeing him..why is that so? then i feel i very yi lai ta?? coz i feel i cant live without him..everyday msg him without fail..i longer to hear from him..never hear from him..i feel sian..is it coz i want someone to talk..i dun msg i feel xin ku? i think i fall very deep..see him almost whole day also like not enough..working liao have less time together and we are busy..i guess i feel better wont think so much ..neither will quarrel?? is like together for 4 mths plus.quarrel/agrue 5 times like tt.. haiz..to be continued...

well continue blogging from where i stop..Ke Qi ask me to go work other places..then i felt angry coz asking me go bedok then change again..like very wat lor..why no fix place..then at lst never tell me wat to do..then i was blur..lst time wat..then Violet called me meet up with Bryan..I dunno him..abit scare lah..coz cant trust pple..i dunno him u see..anyway things are settled..i wont worry sat sun how..tml just do my best..hee..haiz..public holiday..but i feel ok lah..
no inspiration to blog liao hhaa..end here..must sleep earlier..but i guess cant sleep de..nvmm.stay up abit later..dun care..i dun need wake up tt early..

today woke up at 7 plus..coz going out with Vin and his frenzs..we went to the zoo..Vin said meet me at 8.50..i knew he would be late so i take my own sweet time..9pm then reach amk mrt station..then wait for vin's frenzs..then wait for bus 138 directly to zoo.. abt 10 plus we reached zoo..6 of us went..went to walk around take pics..see lots of animals..got black pigs so cute..have snakes ..lions..sheeps..cows..horses..monkeys..cute sia..monkeys ' butt so cute..red red de..hhee
donkeys lah..alot of animals..cant finish mentioning if I going say out all..

Weather was fine..not sunny..but abit humid..hhaa Vin whenever there is air con facilities he would go in enjoy the air con..hhaa his frenzs and I were thinking he came to zoo to enjoy aircon or to look at animals..lol..there were seats he would sit down n rest..and he sweat alot..
Kind of hot ..I suggested he carried air con on his back..haaa bad ar:P..really wat..that will be cooling..

We went around til abt 2 plus then had lunch..went Kfc..Vin lah not enough cash never drew money..hhaa entrance de i help pay abit lst..is ok lah..nvm..then regarding food we were like coz of it unhappy..can see his face..he was angry..kind of small problems lah..after a while was ok..Then i felt a bit guilty..make him angry etc..apologise lor..but he always said he didnt blame me..i just felt bad..coz sometimes i speak without thinking n sparing of pple's thoughts..then after eating he said he felt cold and he went out lor of the shop..i left him alone.know he feel unhappy..then a while then go out..after that we walked like separate ways..just dun want get near him.kind of unhappy also..but after that was fine..we went to walk around a while then went home at 4 plus..

We are like tt..not lst time liao..haiz.. going 5 mths..then we like argue or quarrel dunno how many times..sometime i been thinking..let says we go on as far as 5, 6 years..how ar..everytime like tt ..sian right? and is tiring..
i dunno..
oh ya Ke Qi called me when i was going back home..asking me if i can work on fri..ntuc lor..distribute stuff..haiz..thinking fri can rest..but can earn money go lor..work 3 days...never rest..just hope mon i feel ok..surely very tired..wonder must i give account no. or wat coz haven say yet for my pay..
mm..legs abit tired..ache ar..walk whole day sia..I ok lah..ate dinner feel ok..right now abit sleepy..later go to bed earlier..end here..bye

Tired today..woke up ten plus..meeting vin for lunch..at lst meet 12.30 then he called me and say meet 1pm coz he not ready yet..sch have things not yet finished..then i watched tv lor..5566 variety show..nice..but duno which team won coz i went to meet vin le..

Ate lunch with him then went to library ..he borrowed bks..then went home..Coz he needed to do project ..he met lw and gl lor..
mm..i feel tired..went home take a nap..then awake up call..Ke Qi called me le..telling me to work at giant bedok..not bad lah..although far but is a gd location..i feel happy..
coz can start work liao..

I am glad tt i got a job..coz i guess is very useful now..right now..we are abit troubled..haiz..money problems..tight lah..wat to do..why he do that..now like no route lor..i somehow dun want write de..but this how how i feel..dun write i no way to express out..dun want to tell vin..coz after is family stuff ..say liao no one can help..make me fan..
anything also can but why tt..this is not a route..can make things worse..Mum so angry abt it..
I can understand..she hold it too long never say anything de..I just feel helpless..
right now i just feel tired..just now headache..i maybe want to avoid..so i keep myself busy..
ok lah dun feel like typing further..end here..

Today wake up still tired..woke up at eleven plus..then watch tv..ate lunch..tired lor..watch horror movie after tt..scary but nice..i like nothing to do leh...so sian..finish watching tv i went to rest a while..wl called me asking if she could come our house use com..i resting so she comes later..abt 6 like tt..

at night cant watch 5566 tt variety show coz dad watching another channel..sigh..anyway tml can watch..but i meeting vin for lunch..he going sch tml..mm..anyway is ok ..see him better right..kind of tired now..just now chat..hhaa 9pm de variety show kind of funny..sometime very lame lah..ok lah got to sleep..tired liao..frenzs n dear log off leh so i also sleep lah..bye

Today wl came my house at 10.40.wow i have not enough sleep like tt..wake up at 9.45..i lie in bed a while..then thinking wl coming so i woke up.then watch tv ..have lunch ..went out after tt..
Went out with dear to suntec to catch movie..Hitch..wow suntec alot of pple..the cinema no good..i feel kind of small..we sat at E but seem like quite infront lor..some pple even sat nearer..
the movie was funny..nice..but watch til abit tired ba..starting was like boring..not bad ..
after movie..we went shop around..then went to eat dinner..go marina square renovating lor..no wonder cant go giant there work..so we headed to merlion park..alot of pple..well we sat down n relax..is so relaxing..this time i never think of anything..then sat til abit tired liao..then a bit headache when i going home tt time..dear send me home as usually..he also felt tired..i should have ask him go home straight..but i didn't..nvm..he wanted send me home wat.is ok..

mm..alright i end here..tired..think i go to bed le..night

Today not tt tired..i drank coffee..hee then HRA lesson we study abit and play games..wow so difficult to fix those pieces into the shape stated..i tried so hard only can reach stage 2..
then go for a break..then go for ent ..late for ent..Mr Teo the relief teacher finding us..Kai ling called me..hhaa i in the canteen..then go self access room since nothing to do for ent..finish project already..well then so packed in there..i go library lor..

For IT i let Mrs Yeo approve my draft and i did a bit of project..right now dun want to do..i relax abit haa..actually kind of lazy to do i guess..hhaa.afternoon i took a nap..
just sleep a while awake..but at least i rest ..then ate dinner and watched tv..

wow hungry now ..hhee later going to eat after i blog..mm..
today went to have lunch at tp central..then go library with Vin..guess wat..he surprised me..is like so mushy to call each other dear by saying out..so we didnt ..haa he called me dear today..i thought i heard wrongly u see.then i ask him wat he called me? so sweet of him..for me i find it mushy ..sometime cant express myself tt much regarding such stuff..so i seldom say out ba..instead i msg lor..
Is happy to spend time with him..anyway i borrow html bk from the library ..I have not read yet..i guess read on sun..I just dunno why have alot of thoughts so i ask him some things and told him some things in the library..
I know i care abt his feelings..sometime just thinking am I too close with Jufri..not so gd u see..but i know we are friends wat..so is ok..besides he says he don't mind..but surely will mind abit ..cause that is normal.I guess pple around can see that Bro joined our group for lunch etc..well..just a frenz n bro to chat with..this time I am very sure He is purely my bro only nothing more than that..

Today go to sch wow tired..maybe coz i didnt sleep at ten yesterday..right now i also feel tired..sleepy ..but i want to blog then sleep..mm..ent nothing to do today..i did my IT stuff hhaa..not really do alot..did a bit..then cbz lesson..copy some stuff..wow tired sia hear Ms lee talked..earlier dismiss after tt
then so early..i called ke qi..regarding work..wow marina square giant not opened yet..so i fan..duno where i be located at..Ke Qi asked me sat ,sun can go parkway ma take over hazel..hazel takes off wat..so far so i say i not free lor..maybe should say i got something on cannot..bad ar..wat to do..i dun want..so cant be helped..
so waiting for her call to tell me where i be located..haiz..then think abt it i moody..sian lor in sch..
but ok lah when i am back home..
IT lesson Mrs yeo wanted to see draft..i let her see towards end of lesson then she told me n YH let her see tml..
then at night kanna scolded coz forget tak e out tissues and clothes put inside washing machines..tissues become alot of pieces..haiz..not purposely wat..wat is done is done..
anyway after tt ok liao..she is like tt scold liao fine le..
ok lah just now did a bit of research n chat..i go sleep now is late already..

Today..IT lesson nothing much.Mrs Yeo just taught the frame thing..then we do..well she was unhappy with our class.saying that 3/4 of the class are doing ent stuff in her lesson..I dunno her..yup maybe is right not gd to do in her lesson..but i feel she has mood swing de..old liao can't be helped..she is 50 plus..so can have frequent mood swing hhaaa..so in the end Yan Hong didnt print ent stuff..hazel was away due to some family matters..

Sw as usual sian..play basketball..dun want play those that i need to run de..no strength after sw..then went for lunch ..after that is Cbz lesson ..go through notice of meeting lor..nothing much then Ms lee told me to put the agenda stuff on the board..i write down..that all..hhaa she miss out the 2nd page which we had done the assignment 2..so she had to mark lor..haaa so cant return to us yet..

Wow KDs lesson we cant use B3-02 ..Mrs Tan's class using .In the end we have free period..nothing to do..go canteen n sit down eat titibits haa..then customer service..guess wat..Annie Koh came in to relief us..we were told when we saw her..sian lor..see her face..but hhaa her taste improved..surprising. she wear a dress pink in colour haaa looks fine..then Yan hong talks to her..i just listen while she talked to YH and Sophie..mm.she dun let us go early de..then in the end 5 mins earlier..I want change clothes wat..then she delayed..
so today 2 hrs we did nothing..boring..

after that cca..kind of moody ..tired also..mood swing u see..then was like IT lesson the mouse so difficult to use .sickening..then jive ..learn another thing i like kind of dunno..i impatience..coz i learn very slow..so i was kind of unhappy..then Ivy was asking me why..anyway i fine de lah..abit crazy this few days haha..
we finish jive..then next week no cca..so we will learn cha cha next next week.. :)

Ok lah i end here..tired after a whole day..got to go n sleep le.

Today go out abit later..bus come later but I am not late..just abit rush..then met Yan hong lor outside mrt station..nowaday dun want wait for each other..so troublesome..
well Cbz lesson, we go e tutor do SDL lor..then copy down the minutes of meeting stuff..stupid net..is so slow u see..when we want to proceed further , we cant access the page..so we dismiss after that since we cant use it..
customer service, Mrs lee didnt come..Mrs Tan relief us..hhaa that Mrs Tan who taught us Bzf last year..then Andrew ask her stuff and he n Jin lun talking abt Simon teo hhaa..that teacher who relief Mr Ramu..saying he treat gals different..like give more attention to gals..i duno true or not..the way they describe is so funny..i was just sitting right infront..which is teacher table right in front of me..haaa..Mr Teo was like gals hurt or wat..he will say u hurt ur hands ar.u ok ma hhaa be more careful leh..I dunno that wat Andrew says.. hhaa

after that is HRA before lunch..usually this timing i will go canteen as usual eat abit of snacks lst ..Hungry..hee
HRA i feel like sleeping..so sleepy..Mrs Quek taught unit 8..
lunch time..alot of time and left 4 of us..MF, YH, KL and me..Hazel, Bro didnt come..BRo on mc lor..
then we was like talking abt Alan Kor kor hhaa..then it was so funny that we laugh alot sia..talk abt his marriage..bad sia..say his wedding at void deck..opps..kor kor hear liao sure kill us..so shhhh..cannot tell him at all..hhaaa we are so naughty ar? but so fun..
Ent lesson was boring.nothing much..I started to do my IT project..done a page..
then Kds mm..as usual type..we go B3-02 wow tt new com room..gd man..have internet access but cant go messenger..so sad..

After sch i went to best denki..send my hp for repair..Vin lent me his spare hp..8250..actually his dad de..but not using liao..i use for the time being..well have to wait 3 to 4 weeks then can collect back my hp..haiz..plus repair ..my hp stuff all gone..i feel xin tong..mean alot to me u see..those msg etc..i kept so long..
cant be helped is gone..haiz.then trying to get used to using nokia phone..still ok lah..starting wow cant get used.when u msg keep msg wrongly is very fed up de...ok lah end here..right now want chat hee..

Today's mood not bad..wake up ,on my hp knowing tt dear will msg me..yeah indeed..ask me wake up liao ma and eaten breakfast already..is nice to recieve his msg..is sweet although i get used liao..i like recieving it..anyway who dun like..
As usual i watch tv and have my lunch..afternoon did research for IT project..i did some things liao which is gd..
I also surt a while net for fun..sometime just too lazy to do project..then after that i rest.I went downstairs to buy titbits..feel like eating ..seem very long never eat already..very tempted to eat..
so i bought potato chip n cuttlefish..yummy..
I miss him today..is like seldom miss him nowaday u see..maybe cause i get to see him everyday..
today i didnt see him so i miss him ..
well maybe everyday study n do project i really dun have tt feeling..coz i only worry abt project..
but after doing my stuff..ok lah..
But i still think alot sometime..make me fan only..so dun think so much..
like today i talk to him i feel happy le..no need say so much or wat..end here..
i naughty should continue with project but i never ..still talking

TOday bored at home..but meet Bro he comes my house install frontpage..but sad to say not successfully..i meet him for lunch ..then he comes my house..
talk to bro very comfortable..can talk alot..today talk very little with him..neglect him ba.anyway he play game wat..
sometime i seem to tell hui or ling rather than tell him..maybe scare he upset..I have alot of thoughts sia..
but never tell him..i feel insecure ba..scare he busy..i busy..then slowly drift apart..like two weekends i never go out with him..i still find it ok.coz i see him on fri?
maybe ba..nvm work liao better..wont think so much..if really luv fade also cant be helped..feeling cant be controlled totally..if love means love..cant force if no feel liao..
i guess i dun want think so much..sometime also think he minds ma i close with bro..nowaday kind of close..
He like ok leh..why like tt..haa no jealousy?
maybe is trust ba..
getting tired hhaa..talk alot abt Vin with frenzs lazy to type here coz wat i want to say i already said liao..
no point repeating lor..end here..

Today I feel better not so tired..then abnormal..so siao in sch...crazy with Yan Hong.she says I am so high hhaa crazy..sometime i be like tt..now i thinking am i really happy? or trying to be happy? then want to be more happy so i like tt? Vin seem not happy i can see..i feel he may say cant bring me happinesss..like zhen hui ..feeling cant bring me happiness..then break..i dunno ..coz this time..my mum scold n nag nothing changes my mind..i still love him..i been thinking whether i have tt feeling ma..when i cry because of him..i knew..coz when i think i lost him i feel sad..tt is true love i guess..although he dun look handsome..he has bad characters..i still love him..coz when u love someone..no matter how he is..u still love de..coz we been through things..

but i may hurt him somehow when i say some things..but i told him liao i love him..coz maybe tt day i really no confidence i so troubled..then make him so sad ..i feel bad..then he been very gd to me ..like even better.i know he feels i suffer tt why..must give me extra care..coz he dunno wat to say..then yesterday he talks so little..
but the more caring he is..the more scare i am..sometime think too much.

well got to sleep..actually should sleep..but want chat..today dance with Andrew..alright lah..dance a few times..my legs tired..coz sw also..sian..so hot..
ok lah time to go sleep..so late liao..anything i update tml..
so longwinded hhaa

Today mood soso..then ent lesson we do things at study area..i cant tahan i cry again..then he asks me why..i never ans..i say nothing..i know he feel sad..i also dun want..just tt maybe really pressure liao plus think too much..then like tt lor..
then ent like more things to do..i so tired..coz lack of sleep..then have to do project..IT de i haven touch..like very long never feel the stress..stress is back..then cbz letter must do by next mon..i also haven do..then need to print this n tt..sian..then the etutor siao siao..dunno lah..
I still ok lah..after a cry i feel better..right now must sleep..tired liao..
btw Ke Qi calls me ..i got the job..i know i got it then she confirm me le while i on the way home..Marina square..i being working on 26 march..onwards..glad i get it..just hope that I can cope with studies n work..
so end here..a short diary :)

Today a tiring day..I woke up is ok..coz last night i sleep at abt 12.40am..coz of settling things..Actually not that serious lah..abit fed up , boiling over some issue with him..then i ignore him today til lunch time..
I not angry actually..just dun feel like talking to him..then Hazel ask him go over our table n talk to me..mm..alright lah..everything is fine..just that ..i guess dun talk abt old issue then we wont agrue..

I given him the sweets that he asks me to buy for him..hhaa let him eat alot later tooth decay hha..so bad right? hhaaa..juz let nature takes its course..
I believe today cant sleep when i reach home..coz i need to do ent project..plus cbz assignment..need to type ent stuff..Feeling sleepy right now..yawn..i want to sleep..hhaa now in Cbz lesson..finish doing e tutoring stuff i blogging..so tonight i dun blog already..i will do project..
ok lah end here..

Today..wake up watch tv lor as usual on a sunday..mm..then took my lunch and ate medicine..i feel drownsy but cant sleep ..that is weird.maybe immune to it since i taken so many times..hhaaa..well i watch vcd with mum n after that take a rest..but couldnt sleep ..so i watch tv..mouth itchy today..eat love letters which i know i shouldnt coz my voice not yet recover fully..hhaa wat to do..i cant stand it..just feel like eating..i even ate cuttlefish..nevermind..i drank lots of water..

This few days I have been eating porridge..it is gd as it is bland and not oily..today ate chicken porridge..yummy ..is nice..mum cook de..well..at night i also ate porridge..i feel i can eat alot..dunno why..keep wanting to eat something..well..eat porridge it tastes bland the peanut n pork bone porridge..maybe because i ate medicine in the afternoon so it tastes bland..so i add sauce to it lor and pepper..
actually other than chicken porridge n fish porridge i guess the rest i dun like..
this porridge mum cook at for the lst time.still left alot as she cooked alot ..

Today i feel i rotting at home..nothing to do..read newspaper already watch tv already i kind of feel that i am so free..i dunno wat to do..maybe i too free that why ..when i work i be occupied everyday..which is gd..dun give me alot of free time so i wont think alot..
mm..just sign in to friendster just now..Jufri Brother writes me a new testi..hha wat low self esteem again..tt
bro ar..always say he going give me lesson on high self esteem if i keep on having low self esteem..dunno him lah.
ok lah i end here..

Today..woke up late..sleepy lor..maybe coz of medicine effect..i woke up at 12pm..nowaday doing nothing beside sleep..dunno wat i doing..waste time..haven start work..if start liao no time on weekends..so I must cherish the free time i have..maybe next week working..well..today eaten lunch eat medicine ..and rest..watch tv then sleep..
Today been thinking alot.maybe dun think too much..but sometime got to think..nowaday i sick..i didnt think much but sleep..hhaa pig liao..actually nothing much so dun write down..hee
well..wat to write ar..i also dunno..hhaa.lost for words..
hate to use blog..coz why cant keep it to myself..alot of pple can read..i dun like ..no privacy anymore..
why i give frenzs..
nvm lah..wat done is done..end here..

Today didnt go to sch as i plan to go see doctor..cough n sore throat haven recover although i eat medicine..so i see doctor..cough get worse..still no voice..I waited for the doc for 1 hr sia..so slow..wu gui..waited from abt9.40 to 10.40 sia..anyway i have nothing to do so is ok..then i bought newspaper n food n went home..

Yan hong msg me.wow didnt know actually she quite caring towards frenz..ask me twice ..once in the morning and another at night..glad to know she doing fine at the camp..we still keep in touch..b4 she goes camp she tells me she will msg me to tell me how the camp etc..

mm..glad to know when u r sick..lots of pple care for u..like bro lah..YH lah..KL lah all ask abt me..wow My Da Kor kor tt da sao never ask abt me..nvm..is ok.mm..lu give me a surprise..i tell him is ok dun need to acc me see doc..then he says he wont visit me today..but he came..he called me when he abt to reach..
then buy me herbal tea n barley drink..one for my brother..then sore throat sweet..i dunno how 2 spell the name:P
after seeing me he went off lor ..he going out after tt..

then i watch a while tv and went to sleep again..5 plus then wake up..so sleepy leh coz i eat medicine..but wei kou still gd..hungry..
have dinner abt 6 plus and ate one of my medicine..
after tt watch tv lor..oh ya heard there is hw to be done..tutorial questions..i do it tml ba..put it on my desk so i wont forget..

as usual..she nags again..same thing..dunno her lah..then fall sick again..fever..hhaa ..then no strength to nag..gd lor..bad ar..i still no voice..today seem talk alot..jia lat lor..
ok end here i write alot ..so longwinded ar..

Today sore throat maybe better..right now still pain..but i guess better..i still cant talk much..no voice..i feel is worse than yesterday..better dun talk..but i still talk in sch leh..but lesser..i want get well soon..cause cant eat this n that so sad..torture ar..hhaaa..i want eat wat..hazel they all dun let..hhaa abit like my mother..i guess my mum also wont like that..Vin also never control me..sigh..wat to do..like that lor..

mm..today de IT test alright lah..juz that query i did 3 times hhaa miss out certain fields lor for the relationship tt one..then redo..sigh..but manage to finish..lucky ..Phew wat a relief..so this time round still ok lah..
wow sudden cough alot of times..throat so irraited..tt why cough..ok lah end here..nowaday my diary short..hhaa sometime dunno wat to write and tired etc..i go n eat dinner le.. :)

Today suppose to be ok..coz i eat medicine..but i still cough alot..maybe aircon somemore..plus Sw..make my cough worse..still have sore throat..then after cca..i really no voice le..so ke lian..cant talk leh..

It is like that..usually immune system better de person( not saying i so gd lah) ...once get sick..is like all comes at the same time..poor me..starting fever de. last week..now cough n sore throat..hope it recovers soon..no voice so jia lat..cant talk..ok lah gtg..watch tv..end here..

Today ..I have a new Bro..hhaa he seems happy have a sis..i call him brother lor..glad tt brother back to normal..is gd to have bros..i abit greedy have 3 brothers..hhaa he is the 3rd bro i have..concern abt me..just hope he dun over concern i be ok..hhee Brother Jufri..this time i very sure i really just want be his sis tt all..nothing else..only bro sis relationship..hha ask me cut finger nails liao..abit concern ar just started to be my bro.. hope ok lah if not cant tahan him like wat YH says..hhaa

wow today cough n sore throat sian..keep coughing n sore throat ..throat very irraited..then eat sweet lor..
then eat medicine at night..can feel drownsy de but wat to do can feel better wat after tt..wow drownsy liao..got 2 sleep..hhaa anything i update tml..sian sw tml..hope my cough better tml..

Today I feel alright already went to sch..yesterday I was sick ..have slight fever..i hate being sick..anyway who likes to be sick anyway..well..i feel ok liao..but i still have sore throat..i must take care..
today lessons alright.. went to sch was a bit tired ..but after lunch ok already..
I dunno wat to type leh..like nothing much..wow today dear so gd..help me buy food for lunch..then help me to put back the bowl.but frankly speaking the kway teow soup not nice de..

ok lah end here..got lesson..

Today not tt tired as i sleep earlier yesterday..sch hrs shorter today..but i still go home late..I went for job interview at kallang..Hazel acc me lor..mm..her sales rep didnt say much..just ask me some question..then will call me next week or wat to confirm location.i will wait for her call...

mm..Mf sometimes very ke lian..i know she dun like our class.she dun have much to talk n dunno wat to talk ..
I can understand when u want to do project u dunno who to do with..and u are scare when u need to do group work tt no one pair with u or watever..I experience b4..is sad..lonely..But wat to do..only can tell her to join us or wat lor..
Today she cried leh i saw..dunno why lah..i guess becoz of this? i ask her she didnt tell me..mm..nvm maybe she dun want to tell..then For HRA she often calls me to ask abt it..she is hardworking..revising through her work..not like me hhaa lazy to flip as i reach home already late evening..tired etc...sometime i will lah..just read through..when she asks me to teach i dunno how..coz this is theory..theory u cant teach..wat i know is u have to read through n understand..

I believe sometime not juz me..teachers also cant stand her..asking alot..but sometime i ok lah..help her lor as a frenz..Hazel also cant tahan..coz tired or wat she calls us..sometime just come back she calls me..then in canteen or wat she dun talk much de..we all juz talk..she speaks so soft and canteen so noisy..hard to talk..

well i dunno lah..sometime dun bother so much lah..if not problems alot..ok lah end here..

today really tired during HRA lesson.really can fall asleep while hearing MRs Quek talking about the Evaluation form from company to appraise a staff..I think not just me falling asleep, the rest of the classmates also..so sleepy..

Cbz lesson lst period nothing much..log in the e tutor lor there is an assignment then need to print out..mm..i print at home..then print for Kai ling and Hazel too..Ms lee tells us to print..Ent as usually discuss lor stuff..then survey almost completed all ..yeah..left two more sheets to fill in..mm..Hazel not in sch then we amend wat i type the day b4..today de blog sound sian..coz i writing abt sch..sometime i dun ..coz there is nothing much to write abt sch hhaa.

Customer service we have a test..a surprise test..didnt know there is test..luckily is a test which we do not need to study de..then just take the test..KDS as usually lor type n type..type til i want to sleep.hhaa coz last lesson already..lesson end late also..

mm..today break abit sian..coz Hazel not around..left me , KL and Mf eating lor..then there is lots of time to waste.we ask pple do our ent project de survey lor..did alot hee left a few ..great man..

today de mood also not bad..we getting closer as time goes by..we behave in class..is gd..i guess like vin say we r stable liao after some many things happening..although never go out everyday or wat..we meet everyday in sch..in class..is gd lah..hope we stay the same like this for as long as we can..ok lah end here..later have to sleep early if not tml very tired cant dance..hhaa

Today tired .. yesterday so sleepy went off to bed earlier..yet today still tired..maybe coz yesterday wake up early and then stay back til 4 plus..surely tired..
I went out today with lu..went to bugis shop lor..although not long but alright lah..nowaday my mood is better..is gd lor..I can concentrate on my studies better..

wow nowaday weather hot..alot of mosquito..i get bite leh..so poor thing..i scratch here n there.n then legs n hands not nice le..last time still ok..nowaday is like everyday i scratch..i thought coz my room alot of things i display?? but not lah..my frenzs also get bited..well..poor us..
sometime itchy is not mosquito bites leh..duno wat happen..everytime kanna bite also no gd wat..wow weather also smoky..wat happen leh..must go n read news see how the gobal warming..i guess very jia lat..if not weather wont be so hot..35 leh..dunno abt this few days..

mm..wow heng lah..next sat open house i am not involved..i knew it coz of my standard..well..march have to perform no choice..we have to go to macperson there perform..then have to get an AL lor..sigh..miss lessons..but thur so early dismiss de..sian leh..rather other days then can leave no need study..no choice lah..

I tell Vin abt the flowers i throw away.cant be helped..never take care properly so smelly..i have to throw..is sad..cant bear to..is the lst flower he gives me..one week b4 valentine if not wrong..a fri..nvm..Valentine day de i still keep..hee i turn it upside down preserve it as dry flowers lor..they wither fast..coz i never put water? i did lah but not alot ..and not everyday..hhaa then wither lor..nvm still smell gd can already..ok lah end here

Today a better day i guess..at least it has been a better day which i did have a gd laugh today..seem like i didnt smile nowaday..even if i did..i asking myself ..am i bluffing myself or dun want others to worry ? life has to go on..so i act as if i am ok? i know deep in my heart i am unhappy..troubling me if the nagging continues..i am ok lah ..sometime hear liao haiz..forget it lor..just be myself..be gd gal..everything fine ba..i just have to let nature takes its course..til i cant take it..i may break down the most..
so far i have not shear a tear yet..dunno when will i do it..coz when i keep it too long surely there is a day i cant take it n i release out all..i been trying to pay attention..i feel today i did listen..which is gd..
i just want study lah..then be happy..i dun want think so much..is pointless to think as it cause me to feel sad n helpless only..
yesterday did went out eat lah n watch movie..so maybe mood better today..as long is firm..i believe is ok...
ok lah end here bye..

me

today got to wake up coz Wei Ling, Pei li, Wen n kor coming my house bai nian..they came in the morning.say abt 11 plus..pei li did come tt timing..but wl coz wait for wen wen hhaa come at abt 12..then kor last one to come..he very shy de..go where also like tt.but leh..in front of us always joke n tease us etc..very funny guy..gd too..can make our life fun..then he watch cartoon lor as usual..hhaa addict to it :P well then go to wen house..then went find wl at j8 and then went home..

mm..today awake can think of it..the moment my eyes open man..then feel moody n unhappy lor..not as if i want..then i feel head pain..headache lah..not enough sleep..chat til very late..today wont coz there is sch..i wonder v day there is mood ma..i dunno..just be happy lor..but i cant stop thinking..i thought i can..coz watch tv etc like ok liao..now still ok tt ok leh..maybe tml ok ba..need some time..i sleeping soon..end here..

today so sian..stay at home..morning hear pple nag..the volcano erupt..hhaa..dunno lah.. she dislikes me in relationship now then say..i start liao.. then wat quit sch siao..she getting mad..say til very guo fen.. then never think of how i feel.. why leh..why dun like..is me being in bgr..not them.. but only one person saying lah..then i in between..everyday like tt say..how can i study? becoz of two person i very wei nan leh..

he tells me let her say..now i thinking how long can we go..say we not pei lah..this kind of person also like..wat the..love is blind de wat..i never experience this kind of problem b4..i dunno how to solve..i need someone to consult..if not i can go crazy leh..i never do wat also leh..maybe our actions overboard...is it wrong? haiz..i dunno..she so angry man..then he seem thinking is a small problem..so big problem liao..i am a gal wat that why..so wat to do leh? why say him til so guo fen..

sometime must liu a lu wat..then coz appearance ar? then now everything stir up saying him..aiya only one thing lah..dislike lor.dislike can say anything also can..then become i take all the pressure..no one knows..soon i have no space for breathing liao..as time goes by i shall see lah..usually have freedom..now dunno wat will happen..
becoz of this..everyday scold me..then how to expect me to study hard? giving me no route to go..
i been thinking maybe really no route..sooner or later haiz..ending..
but who hopes to do tt..
any guy she also not satisfied de..as if i finding husband now hhahaa...always like tt..
am i cheap? i am not..say til like i so cheap? sigh..
i got pride de lor..never even give me face..ya lah say abt him..then is my problem lah..he dunno lor wat is happening..not so simple..ah..pressure..

Chinese New Year!

Today the third day of Chinese new year..so sian..coz have to go sch.right now i in sch doing nothing..so i blog.not much things to do..i moody..maybe still have Cny mood hhaa..then HRA lesson lecture i no mood..never listen much so sian Mrs Tan tallks..at the auidtorium..hhaa.the ENt lesson hear MR Ramu talk..also sian..i drawing haha so naughty hor.hhaa sian wat..then last lesson IT play com even worse..hhaaa enjoy aircon..hhaa..so boring..later going pei li house n weiling house bai nian..hhaa abit sian also..dunno why i so sian..hope it gets better later..then heard mum say tonight eat steamboat..wat leh..i bai nian then how..dunno lah..shall see

mm..update abt chinese new year the lst day ba..mm..wake up at 9.30 ..then hhaa bath lor..then get ready..hhaa 11 plus then go out..waiting wat for everyone to get ready..

then set off to beach road..hhaa this year we lst one..then eat lunch there.then wait for gu gu they all comes..then get ang bao..nothing much de..sian..then gu gu forget give me leh .da gu gu..nvm too many pple..i short of 12 dollars.sob..quite alot leh..then JUne came..then take pic lor..haa she brings camera.

then abt 3 went to bedok..have buffet..they lao yu sheng already..come early wat..we latest..haiz..every year like tt de..hhaa then cousins , aunty left very early abt 4 plus..then sian lor.this year buffet 1 plus wat..tt why..
then the food not nice one..got noodle lah..prawn , chicken etc..haiz..sian.just eat..then abt 6 we left for home..
1st day just past like tt..

second day..haa which is yesterday went to mum boss's house..got chicken wings to eat hhee..nice..then drink lor..then went to sengkang second ah yi house..xiao yi went also..then a while we go to mum's cousins etc de house at puggol..xiao jie dun want go he play game at ah yi house..hhaa i went to collect ang bao of course..haa have ang bao so go lor..abit sian lah but ok lah i msg wl etc regarding cny things lor..hhaa til low batt..hhaa
then abt 8 went back ah yi house eat dinner then go home liao..wow reach home 9.15 liao..tired lor..out the whole day from 1 plus til 9 plus..
second day like tt past le..at night as usual online ..til 12..hhaa tired leh..

so today tired lor hhaa..:P sleep too late wake up at 6 plus..ok lah end here..

today..tired..then..right now tired too..mm..just talk abt Cbz lesson..pai seh..teacher dunno me n vin together wat..then talking abt jewlery.tt letter lah..then say wat we will take note of..vin say price..Ms Lee says he dun have gf ar..then class say got..haa she asks who..sophie asks her to make a guess..then she asks sit where de..make me so paiseh..lucky never blushed hhaa..heard vin ears turn red..hhaa

heng she never ask further..hope she dunno..then ask who coming tml..Vin says he coming..teacher say i know u come with ur gf ..hhaa..well today sian..tml even sian so few pple will turn up ..but just go lor..Vin going wat..coz of each other then we go de..nvm..stay at home also like tt..

Today in the morning, my mood so so..IT lesson..do work til fed up..is not that I dont't know..the com very weird..the month b4 the date..weird..then everything like wrong liao..then got to go 4 sw lesson so i didnt print one sheet..nvm lah..wow file keep in sch no gd.Vin lost his file..i know he fed up..can understand..but why file can go missing..so jia lat de.

mm..today awake lah..after lunch..b4 lunch i very weak..coz i didnt eat breakfast then have sw..well..lucky have survey to do..take so long in the end never play game..just run one run..so not so tired after all..after sch have cca..mm..dance til quite fun as i get the dance..yeah..but after that of course hungry..went buy something eat b4 i went home to eat dinner..then ok lah..abit tired..

right now feel like sleeping liao..i will go sleep soon. hhaa want blog wat..so online ba..end here

haiz..today so angry..I dunno leh..angry so shuang meh? I also dun want de wat..He telling me i give him cold shoulder he feel so sad..ok fine..i not angry liao..but right now..i just feel unhappy..i dun even want write de..if i dun write.i keep it to myself i feel worse..ok lah maybe is i finding things to agrue lor..sometime not i want to say..he can be so gd..sacrifice this n help others n gain nothing..i dun want him get bullied wat..maybe i dun support him..different view..next time dun comment..ya lah..not supportive lah..not as if i dun want support him..i dun agree with it..i try leh be understanding..ok lor maybe is i make a big fuss fine lor?? i not angry..is bu shuang..

I not like angry about small things..is alot of things sometime i dun want say..he is like tt wat..wat do I want? totally two different view de person..why together..frankly speaking..i not like stopping him..some things i cant stop de.he the one who make the decision and thinks whether he wants to do it ma..alot of things he dunno..he cant do it..i really want..just abit..not really need alot of money de..maybe i also never do wat things to show i care etc..not enough..i really dunno lah wat to do..

no one perfect..sometime alot of things i cant tahan..but i still tolerate..coz everyone has bad points..like myself..
he misunderstand me leh..i dunno how to explain further..coz my mind already blank..u think give pple cold shoulder so fun meh? sometime i really can vomit blood..toot toot de..but i understand he lst love so sometime ok lor..gf not just keep acc enough liao..i understand tt..must dote..got alot of ways..small actions is a sweet way even like it seems so small..wow..xin tong liao..can hear it crack..

a small thing why become so unhappy thing..i just feel we still dun understand one another so well..must communicate..i know why he works..i understand..but studies also impt.i just dun want him neglect things around him lor..he no need to explain so much..see him so tired..i dunno leh..wat can i do?
just want to have a colourful n lively life before the end of the world come..

btw wow need to have cca for two days..fri cant go home early sian..just practise lor..have performance wat to do..end here

Nowaday seldom blog..nothing much to write lah..then I also tired..so i guess one week update once..sometime too lazy to type..

well today stay at home..sleepy ...lunch n dinner i help mum buy lor..actually partly is becoz I hungry so went to buy..my mum do spring cleaning ma..so i buy..then today i did my hw also..sian..but have to do..i completed..then can rest lor..then read through HRA unit 3..we were told tt we need to do role play hhaa..cant imagine wat we will act as..nvm we will know on mon ba..

hhaa fri was a great n memorable day..My lu acc me lor from afternoon til at night..wow my bed spoil liao..tell hui ar..she say me too fat liao is it..hhaa not leh..is tt the bed already going to be spoil..then weight too heavy wat..coz i lie down he sit wat..haa..anyway is solveD..mum solve it..wonder woman!! super ar haha..then i guess lu abit paiseh lah..nvm de lah..is time to get a new one hhaa.abit fear now when i sleep.but is ok lah..

temporary lor..wow..fri concert at sch lousy..so sian..somemore so early have CNY concert siao de..somemore 1 hr only..celebrate with hari raya haju..i dunno how to spell haa.. orhestra...no gd..coz short of some instruments..not so nice.Beatty de nicer..i feel Beatty de watever also better than college central..last time i used to complain Beatty wat no gd..now even worse..sch com lan sia..ok lah end here..

TodaY is sat le..one week never go shopping..hee finally did went out..then feel happy lor..hhaa now abit tired..is it hungry? Maybe leh..went to catch a movie today..kung fu hustle..It is nice..funny too..have stephen chow act..hhaa..it is very cartoon type..real life is like not possible de..alot fighting ..then funny reaction or action hhaa..pple in the cinema laugh n laugh..i do laugh too..then go n have dinner..and went to shop around and after go to merlion park a while..alot of pple..haa then after that went home..

Wat i know..spending time with him is a great thing no matter how long lor..a few hrs or whole day lor.. :) just stay happy lah..

today is public holiday. wow one week never update already..sometime dun feel like updating...I wake up i feel still sleepy lor..I dunno why..I went to si yi's house..There is curry chicken etc..I eat..then went to hawker centre drink ice tea and Ah yi order things to eat n drink..wow full leh...then cant digest lor..haha..sian leh..we shop around bedok central..nothing much..but after eating etc i feel awake..today feel abit sian..xiao yi n Vivien n Cheryl went together to si yi's house..at night eat hor fun..hhaa so full..mm..never see someone abit sian ba..but leh have msg etc alright lah..can meet de wat..

sometime dun want write here..coz maybe is privacy lor etc..i rather dun write here..and also lazy to type..hhaa.
i end here lah..dun want write further..

Very fast..is Fri..I been going to sch for one week already.. tomorrow is sat..great..hha can sleep later..mm..today not that tired..but is a long day for us..start lesson at 8.15..end at 1.15..in between no lunch..but Mrs Quek let us have a break..which is good..

Today go sch ..abit unhappy think abt YH ba..but alright lah..lesson alright i pay attention..but is like double period.Tiring..we have break in between is ok..IT lesson i try to do ..hungry n tired that i cant focus..almost forget how to do hhaa..but after that ok lah..i worry for IT..do til so lan..the rest i still can cope i guess..core module somemore..

Just feel moody right now..i also dunno why..maybe hhaa want his acc..haha..but he did wat today..mm..a while lah..still ok..I guess not enough time??getting busier lor..can't be helped..but I won't angry or wat..maybe abit sian sian..this is normal..I will try understand and not be unreasonable..but sometime I feel moody coz of that I also can't control..Sometime u have to think of others not just yourself..that wat i know..I guess usually i think too much for others end up gaining nothing..but sometime wei ren ci sheng is needed..never mind I guess tml will be great.

Time flies..sch has started..i didn't update for quite many days..mm..sch so far alright..just that everyday we have to wake up so early..i feel so sleepy every day..but still can manage to study lah. It is alright lah.. When I reach home hhaa feel awake..I feel abit tired right now..Well abit moody..

Today do the IT a bit blur but in the end I get it lor .Yan hong teaches me..I don't know lah why like cant focus..hhaa I think not that I can't , is just that sometime dunno wat Mrs Yeo trying to tell us to do and i am tired..She makes me blur..Maybe i worry too that I cant do IT well..My IT i do til very lousy..I got to practise more..I do til abit stress lor..sian..

Anyway I am alright..I think didnt get to talk to him then abit sian..cause studying wat..I feel that although everyday we meet in sch..I do miss him..I miss the times being with him..I understand that we do have our own life n friends so alright lor..but i still wish he can be by my side sometimes and I'll be happy and cheerful..

haha I can be so crazy at times..I dunno why I can be so crazy..with yan hong around surely laugh til mad or play til crazy..haha.Mf comes join us for lunch..I feel that we neglect her but she seem quiet dunno wat to talk..then we are there talking she so lef t out lor cant be helped wat..i try to talk to her already..but maybe really no topic ba..I can sense that she is lonely lor..some classmates like dun care her..i know why ..I understand ..well but for now she is alright..just that she is very quiet..

I can be quiet at times which means something is wrong..i too quiet maybe because i am tired, sleepy or no mood sia..like today alright lah..did talk but sometimes not really..Andrew yesterday was asking me why i feel sad..i am alright already..Sometime i dun feel like blogging..as others can see wat i wrote..quite a no. leh..but close frenz N Vin see is ok lah..nothing secret also..:) secret i wont write it here..

mm..yesterday and today hhaa i did really paid attention in class..got to study hard..i have the motivation lor..which is good..work hard together..think abt him i feel happy leh.can smile..I cant say really really so xin fu ..but I feel I am xin fu de right now..someone dote me but I hope is forever..everlasting de..I want happiness not saddness.. :) mm..just study hard.I guess i change..haha sleep later etc..must be the same me..I dunno lah did i change to become bad? hhaa..hope not..I still guai ar :P

wat a day!!

today went Vin's house..then plan to go cycle..in the end dun have..stay at his house..then eat dinner..then after that go Tampines ..He went to take contact lens..then shop a while..haiz..then abit late liao..i not back..then saw mum's msg..wow so fierce like tt..say i never reply..i didnt hear wat..a few msg not read..i put inside bag cant hear..not an excuse wat..she says i give excuses..kind of angry liao..bro calls me..ask me go home..aiya just like tt..angry de..last time i abt this kind of timing 9, 10 plus reach home also ok..dunno her lah.everytime say..dun do wrong thing.. if not dun come back..wat i do??we never do wrong thing leh..we are young adult wat..who dunno the ho guo meh?

Everytime say go sch is an excuse to avoid working..wat sia..who dun want get better qualification? everyone do have goals..but is whether u will work hard for it and achieve it lor..i admit i can be lazy..i trying lor..got to study hard for better life next time wat..
I do know i dunno to do housework etc..haiz..i guess can learn de..not as if dunno..i dun have do wat..how she knows i cant do? is whether u do it well or not..
sometime I dunno lah do i have pressure?? cause having a relationship why always kanna nag de..parents scare this scare that..can they have confidence in me? maybe i simple gal..they scare..i think i know de lah..i know my limit..if He goes overboard i will stop him..i know wat..wat wrong..sometime feel ai yi ge ren hao xin ku leh..ni ai ta..but u also must think of pple around u..but relationship stuff not two person de meh? dunno leh..but wont give up lah..coz cannot problems ar occur u give up..must try solve..but this time the problem is not us..i think i do feel the pressure..adults are weird..u do like this wrong..do like that also wrong..i dunno wat they want..wat i do then consider right? obey ar..be a gd gal at home..she says wat listen wat?? like that..wat the difference between human n dogs..we have our rights right? i am not 5 years old leh..not saying angry or wat..sometime i really dunno lah..how should i behave then parents satisfy..

actually today go out mood fine de..then come back haiz..sian..but write liao feel better..anyway she stop nagging hhaa..end here..

My birthday!!

wow..today hhaa i old liao :P went out..go cafe cartel eat. i eat fish n chip.. he eats pork ribs..hhee lu treat me..actually can say nothing much lah today..just shop eat dinner. i went to look for mum a while and she says she wants to buy clothes but in the end didnt buy.. well..birthday also no difference..juz that i am older liao hhaa..wat i know is spending time with him i surely feel happy.. Today i feel happy..just tt stomach abit not well..dunno why..but leh alright liao lor.. :)

so far we are so gd..although at time there are unhappy things...there is always ups n downs ..like life n relationship..if there isn't any ups n downs..there isnt any learning..whenever there is problems or watever, u learn from it..as u learn u grow up too..learn to be more mature in thinking etc..haa i can say i can be childish at times..but this is human nature..even adults do have some childish behaviour ..i guess i will learn lor as time goes by to think more mature.. :)

Sch reopening soon..i just let it comes by..coz it will come de..then study also gd..can see frenz n study together..life will be more meaningful not so bored ..ok i end here ..

New Year Eve!!

mm..today leh is the last day of 2004.. i went to my dear house..mm..when i plan to go i didnt remember that it is 31 dec..mm..he went count down today..i went to find him..then have dinner..then he send me home..after that he goes countdown..this year at least i spend with him..last year wow..so lonely..coz parents at malaysia attend wedding dinner..bro also went..mmm...abit regret Vin have ask me lor but later no transport wat..so i didnt go..i wish to go n countdown with him..fun leh..spray pple haha..naughty ar..dunno how he is..having fun i guess..wont disturb..next year ba i go.. :) anyway have someone to spend with is gd.. then tml a brand new year .. :) ok lah stop here..going 2005 soon..one more hr !!! :) mm..just want to add..new year..strive harder forget abt last year..coz there are unhappiness..i want put them all behind.. strive hard for studies..try lah..then happily with Vincent n my family can liao.. :)

today..went 3rd ah gu house..eat turkey..hhee have jelly too..turkey nice..today ar..not feeling very gd..tired also..wow 9am can feel house shaking..then believe is earthquake..really lor at night watch news..indonesia earthquake..very big impact..alot of countries affected as a result..then today abit sad..actually hungry but dun want eat..wat wrong with me..then in the end eat cup noodle..also dun feel is gd..maybe too hungry..no feel liao..

i just dun feel happy things bothering me..but leh..i think will be fine..today sian til i dun think i miss him even.abt 5 plus eat abit dinner..now like want drink something..maybe go pour cereal or wat..better wat..maybe mood swing..no wonder like tt..this few days i feel happy..yesterday n today not happy..

today hhaa ah yi say bring him go ah ma house on CNY..then they can see..hhaa..see lah..they want see him..haaa then today cousin also go ah gu house..ying ying not in..mm.hhaa she knows i got bf.hhaa coz she sees my friendster haaa..her mum also know haa..she even tell her see..funny ar..

mm..yesterday went orchard..find wl..then ar..give xmas card to hui ,wl n ling..then go shop..at night went home n go eat dinner with family..eat fish steamboat..wait so long sia..abt 1 hr..hhaa..so many pple eat. in the end 9 then start to eat..9 remind me of wedding dinner hhaa..

today never chat much with vincent..he say he chatting..maybe too many pple.or dun want talk to me even?hhaa maybe i think too much..i just feel moody..
dun want tink so much..maybe yesterday wat we say ..i cant get over it..tt why..but small matter wat.. should be ok when i see him..hhaa

Christmas Eve..

mm..today Vincent works..i at home ..watch vcd..at night went out lor with family go kallang there eat taiwan porridge lor..wow nice..eat 3 small bowl..super full..then sit in the car just now tired..abit cant tahan lor..usually too full i cant sit in the car..dun feel tt gd..but alright lah..i feel like finding him today...in the end cant leh..eat liao so late leh..he knock off leh..haiz..i miss him i know tt..go out eat also think of him sia haiz.very fast wor.xmas eve liao..mm..tt is fast..3 more weeks sch reopen..i hope can study hard..pay attention lor in class..must work hard to go poly lor..go out is go out must study too..
also gd everyday see him in class..hee..but leh..i also scare pple tease..but sch reopen two mths liao should be ok lah..nvm pple tease lor..they know know lor..is ok..

hhaa xmas eve forever at home count down..nvm..at night go sleep tml need go out..end here dunno wat to write..

Results out!

today..didn't went out..stay at home..went downstair have lunch then i come back watch vcd..then i play com..mm..nothing much lah..never talk to VIn yet feel weird..maybe miss? dunno leh..msn dun really chat in the afternoon coz he plays game..then at night know can check result liao..result out..mm..alright lah i pass.esc hhaa done not so gd.. C...Accounts B n Bzf B..PIE S lor..alright lah..wow LU get all Bs hhee..happy for him..mood gd also leh..want tell him de result..he never online so i call him..haha he sleep leh..no wonder no reply lah..hhaa..
make me worry..anyway he ok..talk to him i happy leh. :) finally know result..happy liao..can relax..wont be scare.. :)

ok end here..

today went to Vincent's house..then went out..go changi village eat ipoh hor fun..wow nice sia.then drink sugar cane..mm..went to changi bench after that..so windy.. :) hee..together..i really happy..see the sea..mm..so relaxed lor..then went to Century square n TM lor..hee take the bus have past by Gongshang ..my ex pri sch..hee..

haa..he ar naughty de..at his house tickle me :P then i realise hhaa..he ar very scare pple tickle de hhaa so fun..i tickle him..wat i can say..i feel the happiness..maybe no stress too..mm..wow have to wait til next week then can see him liao..he needs to work.nvm lor msn or sms lor..even can chat on phone..but usually we wont..msn chat better..endure abit lor..haa see who cant tahan hhaa..both lah..i can say he is diff..from other guy..he cares more for me..mm..still early lah..but soon de lah 2 mths etc..fast de..want to see that we can go beyond one year..actually half a year is gd liao..but of course go as far as we can .. this i cant be contented..

He tells me leh i simple gal..is gd..hhaa mm..i feel i too easily contented..but not really lah..depends wat..some things i may want..but i hope i achieve it myself?? maybe ba..is not wat others think i easily contented ba..but sometime u think of some pple so poor , we are very lucky liao lor..so cant ask for alot u see...in s'pore have house, study..then have food to eat have money to spend..ok wat..but if u want more lah..have to work hard lor like wat Vin says..true lah..i have think of staying in bungalow..but in s'pore difficult lah..i guess flat can liao lor..wow today diary so long hhaa..

ok lah end here liao..haa private stuff i wont write here ba..hhaa.. ;)

today..mm..went out..Vin comemy house..haa..then go out shopping..jurong lor..go IMM n jurong point..nothing much lah to shop..haaa he say dun go so far next time..yeah..tired wat..i abit tired..we go there eat also..hhee..but happy lah..i really feel happy..hee see him tml then wont see him til next week coz he got to work..no choice lor..work more impt..earn money ma.. :) i understand de..

just hope this kind of happiness is not for a few mth is forever.. :) last one.. hee..

Good mood..

today leh..wow tired coz yesterday i chat til midnight 2.30am hhaa..with him lor..hhaa then wake up today tired sia..mm..watch vcd..then afternoon go orchard meet mum..with bro..then go shopping..go far east han's eat chicken chop..mum eat fish n chip..mm..then continue shopping..shop til tired...but anyway bought titbit..hhee n ar..lipstick..yeah..gd sia.but walk til tired sia..hhaa..

then nine plus go home.mm..today mood not bad..good mood..hope it stays the same lor..for everyday..try lah..:)
hhaa like abit feel like eating..haaaa

mm..wow now midnight leh..today dance practise is cancelled..mm..i get the msg from Xiu ting in the morning..then he comes my house hee..then went to work..see him happy lor..then mood gd sia..hhaa..then i watch vcd..eat dinner like wei kou gd lor..hhee..mood gd eat wat also nice..mm..then leh give him xmas present liao..he gives me liao too..i like it lor..watever he gives..converse bag :) is gd..the colour not bad..will use de..
then give him de gift..he ar at lst say dun use lst hhaa then in the end i buy de he use lor..ar too small leh..then he cant put all stuff..haiz..i dunno how to buy..thought guy de dun want so big..nvm..he likes can liao.. :)

Feeling sian..

today wake up at abt 10 plus lor..Vin msg me sia..telling me he can't come my house he got to work today..cant be helped lah I wont blame him..but kind of disappointed lor..now he not online..dunno what he doing lah..i know he not purposely dun come..how i wish there is surprise visit..feel sian..want see him..i know i miss him lor..ask him miss me ma he ar hhaa say why must miss me leh..wow so bad leh..nvm lor no need miss lor..hhaa...
i watch tv later..then tml also at home ba..wed go practise dance..thur bowling he wants go go lor..fine with me de..dunno lah today y the tone so weird one hhaa why must miss me leh..duno him..

holiday fast lah sooner or later sch reopen..wow actually alot of things to do..watch tv lah, do crossstitch n write cards..crossstitch do half way going finish soon..yesterday went out never do liao..see how maybe will do..mm..yesterday he say wat give surprise..aiya no need hope lah..he say liao working today..sure not coming leh..haiz..
ok lah i stop here lah go watch vcd then won't think so much.. :D

today ok..abit sian..wake up at abt 12..hhaa Vin call me lor then at tt time i awake..mm..afternoon watch vcd lor..mood so so..coz abt yesterday de..i was kind of angry but wake up liao ok..but still remember wat..but i not so petty lah..he got ask wat i still angry..me alright lah.then at night watch tv..wow tonight online de frenz very few til abt 11 plus more lor..make me feel so sian sia..mm..tml going out buy present for him lor xmas present..hope can find a gd n nice wallet lor..but ok ok de price..

wow later i broke hhaa..no sch ma..aiya dun use so much money lor.present must buy de is ok..then buy for xiao jie also..his birthday coming..see can find wat to buy..haiz..always must crack my head de..wat to buy i dunno.i know wat to buy for vincent..if no nice wallet i buy shirt lor..

he ar dunno go where late liao still dun go home..but once a while ok lor..although guy but i do worry lah..like where he goes..dunno him lah..tt why never online haa..hope he ar dun go home too late lor..

wow now raining liao..heavily..i online then thinking lor today i talk to yan hong on phone lor..then mention tt 3 gals..mm..only tt s de lah..worry lor wat she might do coz friendster so big lor have our pic ..she always full of tricks..yh ask me beware..i know..i totally forget about them why remind me..haiz..i know she close with me just remind me lor..then i thinking lor..tell hui..then ask me dun worry..also remind vin..must be careful..haiz..pple know abt us ok lah but not them..dangerous..

mm..today call hazel plan regarding bowling thing lor..then korkor with her..hhee talk to me..then ar ask me how am i and got find job ma then say never he say me lazy worm..hhaa korkor forever de..i say him wow in thailand suan me back also suan haaaa..he laughs..then talk a while only..nvm lah thur seeing him..he lor sudden talk to me de..hhaa coz i kpo lor kor kor with her ar so i ask..hee then he ans phone..anyway glad to hear his voice.i call him korkor wow so long never like tt call heee..

today..go ling house..mm..wl also go..not bad lah get together lor..then ar shi hui also go..then starting nothing much to do..mm..then i chat online..then they watch tv..then go buy bubble tea..mm..i eat fries too..then go home hee Vin fetch me home..heee tt is great..i happy..wow go home cant eat..hhaa eat lor..then so full.mood gd eat wat also gd..hhee..then msn sudden got problem duno wat wrong sia..siao de..got to restart com..haiz..ma fan..no choice..

anyway quite a gd day lah..:) hhee see him ma.. :)

A boring day!

today like very sian..afternoon ar..no vcd to watch coz mum haven take lor.. discs no 7 onwards..haiz..then i play com lor..around evening time then watch tv..haaa laugh like siao..the 5566 program funny sia..then surt net lor at night..but sian..coz Dear ar..he busy playing game..then not many pple to chat..aiya..is like tt de ..make me feel so sian..then mood no gd liao..haiz.. easy mood swing...wow then late liao should sleep..if not nothing to do..mm..next few days got vcd to watch n go out should be ok..not so sian..

dunno wat to write leh..yawn..maybe off to bed..sleepy..i guess chat abit more ba..end here..

today go out ..take cardprint with Vin..mm..ok lah..we play badminton..then go eat..go changi airport eat..order food..order mee goreng n he order fried oyster..the bread too..wow full sia ..cannot finish mee goreng.two of us so full..i know i have fun lah..no matter wat go where do wat is fun n gd lor with him..cant imagine he go overseas wat to do..coz after airport we go expo a while n we go home..after tt he asks me call him when i reach home liao leh he send me home n he goes home..talk to me..he tells me he may go overseas study or yi ming..haiz..
i cant imagine lor he go me how..now i realise how impt he is to me..
is he telling the truth or he wants test me..i guess is real lah..he wants go Australia..mood was ok..become not ok leh..maybe i think too much..cant help it wat..haiz..duno lah later go sleep alright liao..

today watch s'pore idol..ah..taufik win sia.I vote Sylvester lor..in the end not he wins..disappointing..chat online also no mood..get irriated..coz of this ba..then talk to Vin hhaa also no mood de..i hope i dun give him attitude lah..not his fault..then he asks me things etc i get irriated..he with gals or wat..how i know...now no mood..

but talk to vin slowly ok liao..haiz..i very easy mood swing..dunno lah..my msn nick put so big..dun want pple later kanna scolding..
i guess tml will be ok..see him also.. :)