Today a better day i guess..at least it has been a better day which i did have a gd laugh today..seem like i didnt smile nowaday..even if i did..i asking myself ..am i bluffing myself or dun want others to worry ? life has to go on..so i act as if i am ok? i know deep in my heart i am unhappy..troubling me if the nagging continues..i am ok lah ..sometime hear liao haiz..forget it lor..just be myself..be gd gal..everything fine ba..i just have to let nature takes its course..til i cant take it..i may break down the most..
so far i have not shear a tear yet..dunno when will i do it..coz when i keep it too long surely there is a day i cant take it n i release out all..i been trying to pay attention..i feel today i did listen..which is gd..
i just want study lah..then be happy..i dun want think so much..is pointless to think as it cause me to feel sad n helpless only..
yesterday did went out eat lah n watch movie..so maybe mood better today..as long is firm..i believe is ok...
ok lah end here bye..