Today sian sian..coz maybe i get over it but still miss him..yesterday kind of fed up then today i know i want to talk to him de.end up dun talk to him...u think i feel ok? i feel worse lor..coz he seem really give up..ask him miss me ma..he says he miss his bed more..well but he say sure miss de..just hurt to see his hurt face..sometime willl look at him coz i still lovehim..yet hurt him..i ask him love me ma..he asks me wat is love..haiz.. he says love or dun love dun make any differences..haiz..make me feel hopeless..like this we happy ma? not at all..maybe feel lighter but i make him suffer lor..think so easy get over it meh..nope..
just dunno wat to say sometimes..

Now in class he even change seat le..guess dun want to see me also..rather sit with his frenz..haiz.not idun want talk to him..just that if everytime i go find him is weird..i dunno wat to do u see..
I feel better le..never cry le for this two days.but still cant get over it...i know he loves me de..just pretend only..get together a few mths i know him de...
guys always like that dun want to let gals share their burden de lor..coz they say as a guy cant let gals carry the burden lor..so they rather they suffer lor..
now so sian..in class doing nothing..Mrs Yeo not in..i still cant find the old me..it seems to disappear for now..he also lah no matter how he acts ..he still sad de.cant bluff me..he can lie to others but not himself lor..same class i have to face him everyday is so sad..sooner later everyone can feel there is problem between us..coz never eat together never talk never come together like so close..is kind of sian..

.i want to fight my happiness de but he like that i just feel like giving up..he lost his determination le..i just scare he become the old vin lor..i hope not..if not wat i do wasted..maybe i never say break we can still find solution..after all i am so selfish u see..always never spare a thought for someone..right now typing this..i have no feeling..just have alot of thoughts only..I love u Vincent! i now for now i still love u..so he cant stop me from loving him..
i think i stop here..nothing to write le..