Stress Dec..

I feel the stress, busy with work and I have not really start on my individual assignment .. thought that I will use that topic but end up I choose not to as it is hard..so I have decide on already and so I can start to do the project and have to hand in, in two weeks time..that is why I am stress..though it is not a last min thing, I feel that perhaps I should start earlier? well what done is done just move on and get my things done..

I don't have time to talk nonsense though and to think about unnecessary stuff. I just have to perform well for work..the CAR which you mention. so ya..sometime wonder why I make myself suffer,is it worth it to make myself so tired & busy? at times we don't have a choice as we are employee..sigh

I will do my best and I know I am stretching myself and am I overstretch? I believe at times it is..everyone has their own limit..have I reach mine? I am not sure..It is only the beginning, I have to hang on.. I know what I want and since I have chosen the path, I just have to move on and work hard on it to fufil what I want.

I am not superwoman but rather training myself to achieve what I want when I still have the time..as long as I know what I did, is worth it, I will do it! There is always up n downs in life, everyone has to go through that.. positive thinking is impt..

I know I have been down this week and lots of things to be done..I really wanna cry at times but right now, my main focus is my work n studies..while not working, I have to spend time on my studies..at the same time, I try to relax myself a little by meeting friends..I need some fresh air..no matter what, I always try to set a day per week to relax a little..Hopefully I can still do that every week for next year..

Shall end here..I need to get my dinner.so hungry! I can't work with hungry stomach..

Why?

I feel like blogging for past few days but simply lazy or dont wish to blog..

I feel that why are you like that? I just don't wish to face you, began to hate you at times..really..is that serious. I don't know what is my limit..I guess I already reach it but controlling..

Who wants to play with you, I don't have time either..
Shaun mentioned abt the two Cs which I don't have..

I have lots to mention but I don;t wish to say much

Anyway I went to orchard with MF to see the lighting..I love them..shall update photos when I have time..I took some pics..felt relaxed walking around..


Shall end here..

Planning...

Well I just have lots of thoughts and my head feels pain..I have been thinking alot..since 2009 is coming, I start to think about what I would wish to achieve for next year..

I already write it down in my personal notebook..shall add on more when more stuff comes to my mind..

Project's deadline is next month, not sure what topic to do yet..I am going to do research tomorrow..work seem quite alot,things are piling up..I need to buck up and clear them..

I feel the stress once again and I feel the slacking in me after we shifted office..
Somehow I just don't have the motivation to work and I am so tired everyday..Why is that so? I know myself the best..so ya..
How to go about performing well is what I am thinking right now..
I have some plans in mind though..

Sometime I wonder why does people want to gossip so much? am I too sensitive? I sense that people do gossip whereever they are be it in sch or workplace..I guess it doesn't matter as it is none of our biz u see..it's their mouth not mine..Just don't wish to hear any nasty comments from others will do..anyway NO one is perfect though..

I shall end here..going to read newspaper and rest..going office tomorrow to clear my work..stress..

3rd day..

Time flies and I shifted office for 3 days already..shifted to raffle place..I didn't work in town area before and my wish is to work there..my wish has come true but somehow feel that the area is so crowded..scary..can you imagine the crowd when you go for lunch? scary..

I love the view as it is better than trapping inside an enclosed area..nice view whereby you can relax..

Thank God for blessing..I just hope that everything will be fine for me..gonna go for lesson tml..didnt go for two lessons ..opps..I feel guilty liao..due to unpacking of office..I really dun feel shag..I have to change my mindset about this..need to study hard..gonna read through notes later..sleep earlier is impt..I have been busy for past two days..

Tired..shall end here..

Angry day!

Simply not happy today..just wonder why are you like that?

You take me for granted? I help you with things and you think this is what I must do..you take me for granted right?? Aint you making things difficult for me? always ask me to think positively..

Do you think that I can't leave? sigh..I just don't know..unhappy with you! hate u at times! is not that I don;t leave, I am waiting for opportunity..

I have alot to say but somehow I feel abit blank now..I just don't want to write further I guess..simply unhappy with you..

Who am I to u? so tiny?? I will do what is instructed..coz I can't say no right?

I will remember wat u say to me..that sentence..u wait n see..

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Happy Birthday Daddy!

Today is my dearest Daddy's birthday! Yesterday was James' Birthday..

Well some updates..

We celebrated James' birthday on wed as requested by him. I wanna plan to celebrate yesterday but he prefers to have it on wed so we went for dinner at HK Family Restaurant! fulfilled his dream for many years..then set off to changi..one of the lounge to have a drink and they have karaoke facilities but is manual type whereby u pass them the songs that you want.

I only sang a few songs but is alright..Drink a glass of cocktail and I was so tired the next day as I reached home at 12.30am..Nancy sent us home while James headed home straight as he was shag after the manager's meeting.

We enjoyed ourselves did we? laugh so loudly together as John N Nancy was so funny.. They always make James laugh..James appreciate the celebration

As for yesterday, I went out alone when I didn't have to work..I went to get Amelia's present and also to run my own errand,do some shopping. Weekend is the best time to do so..I don't have much time on weekdays already..Well have to sacrifice time when you wanna achieve something..so ya..feel a bit sian & empty on sat..

Somehow there is not much life now as work & studies occupied most of my time..nevertheless I just have to endure through this period of time and once is done, I will be able to take a break and have some fresh air and then decide when I should take up my degree..The course is expensive.I have to think about it. really..
Meanwhile I have to study hard first. Positive thinking! somehow I can't catch HRM lesson as Lecturer Daniel taught so fast..aiyo..what to do, I just have to read up..yeah!

As for today , staying at home to study and head out for dinner later with my family to celebrate Daddy's birthday!

Shall end here! studying time..

Sch starts..

Well I start sch for two days and I was coping fine..I start to get busy as I have to knock off on time..nevertheless..though is tiring to rush to sch, I enjoyed the lessons so far..trying to pay attention etc..I guess it wont be that bad right if you pay attention in class? It's quite interesting though is hectic to study after work..after work, I felt relaxed..

I start off with Biz Economics and HR Management..Frankly speaking though I have not covered Biz Econs b4..I understand while Lecturer was teaching..as for HR Management..though I have some basic foundation. I don't get what lecturer is teaching.haha..my phone was spoilt on fri. It kind of affected me and I can't focus well..anyway I sent my hp for servicing..The LCD was spoilt. sigh..Luckily it was still under warranty. HP would be hospitalised for 3 to 5 days lol..Hope that everything would be fine.. :) miss my phone..

Gonna have another new module on mon..Biz policy & strategy..hopefully I can cope..after that ..I will study 4 modules from next week onwards..which means heading to sch almost everyday except wed..Right now, my time would be work and studies..

Nothing much..not so much time for leisure..anyway is alright..I have to miss my tv programs etc but I believe it's worth it..

If possible I will consider degree after my course? I shall see..trying my best to cope with work and studies..have to motivate myself..perhaps I can stick some motivation notes on my office desk? lol..

Well I am afraid that I can't cope but since I have decided to study, I will try to bear with it and do my best..I realise in order to complete tasks fast, I made quite a lot of mistakes this week. How should I go about to improve? mm..I am wondering.

Let nature takes its course..pray to GOD..of course I have to help myself too..

well as for today, I went shopping after going office to do some tidying of cupboards etc..oh yeah..I felt more relaxed..I need that but somehow irritated this morning by two persons..never mind..is ok..Shall make sat a day to enjoy and relax while I leave sun for my personal time..

Shall end here..

Updates..

I am back to blogging again..what should I write this time..well some updates for this week..

I didn't really go anywhere but rather meet up with friends for dinner..

I went for sch orientation on fri and what I can say was that..it was boring and guess what, only one guy & I who turned up.. He is Eric..

I am quite excited what's gonna be installed for us and that I will do my best to study hard as well as work hard for my work..mean while I don't wish to think about anything except work and studies.. May God bless that I can cope..I must think positively..
I have yet to see the rest of my classmates, shall meet them on thur..

As for sat, I went to work n church as usual..then meet Huay Ling for dinner.well my cousin, Jeremy & Kelvin joined us as well..also to get James' present..Sunday which is yesterday, Jolene n Angelia came to my house and we headed off to Aaron's house for a dinner gathering..
So I have been eating n eating this whole week lol..so unhealthy wor..am I fat already?

As for today, I am at Grandma's house right now, waiting for dinner lor..Mum helping the domestic helper to cook as well..wow I guess we will have a great feast? home cooked food should be healthier lol..oh yeah..I am hungry

I just feel that the so called last week of free time, was spent not so meaningfully but I guess I enjoy the food etc..relaxing is a gd thing u see..

I shall end here..

Orientation

Well I am back from orientation just now..kind of lost around that area..lol..

I regretted going as there was nothing much. should have meet wl instead..sigh nvm meet her another time..only two person turn up for the orientation lol. I was like, huh..
I shouldn't go but just went to take a look u see..feeling tired now..so fast tired ar..
sigh..after a long day of work..

I dun feel like updating anymore..shall end here..sch starting soon..

Success Attracts Success

Back to blogging again and in fact I felt tired already..Trying to have a quick update of my blog and off to bed soon.

Somehow need some motivation and I went to read a book and get to learn some stuff from there.. I gonna share it now..weekly life coach-how to get the life you want in 48 hrs..

It says winning isn't about being a winner-winning is a state of mind..

Positive self belief-postive expectations-effective behaviour- increased confidence..
Let all your experiences work for you..when you see each moment as a learning experience, your life will have enhanced meaning..

Share the 10 ways to attract success..

1. Be true to yourself

2. Celebrate your uniqueness-this is what makes you special

3. Develop your inner strengths and talents

4. Think Big

5. Believe in yourself and radiate confidence

6. Take the first step towards one of your goals

7. Appreciate the miracle of life

8.Love and value your experiences

9. Be a go getter

10. Never, ever give up!


I didn't read a lot yet so I shall share till here..

Well a busy day today, so occupied..It's good that I focus..I dun wanna think so much and let nature takes its course

I guess I need to think positively..I am trying not to be down..I need to cope with studies soon. I really need to change my mindset..I don't wish to have any regrets and I have certain dreams on mind..I wanna to fufil them..Work & studies matter more now and the rest can wait..

So be positive! I will try my best! Gabatte Ne!

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Updates..

Here I am back with some updates..oh yeah fri meet up with Timothy like I have mentioned in previous post. I went to work as usual yesterday and head off to church followed by steamboat with KH,kk,YY & Ming :) We enjoyed our food at bugis..Free flow of food, my fav ice cream..oh yeah..I felt so relaxed..

I know I enjoyed myself and I feel good..whatever it is installed tml, I just leave it to tomorrow..I hope that everything will be fine for the meeting tml. I dun even know how to use the projector yet..oh man

As for today,I went to orchid country club for bowling as yishun safra doesn't have any lanes available..oh yeah finally get my new keyboard and mouse..I realise my previous mouse can be used..anyway is ok..I can keep it for spare use..

I feel tired..shall end here..

Relax..

I just come back not long just now..yeah met up with my dear pri sch friend Timothy...so met up for dinner and have a chat.. I do talk to him on msn..We went to bugis..

Thanks dear Tim for listening etc and also advise me..U brighten and straighten my thoughts..
Right now I won't think of other stuff besides work n studies which are more impt..
As for fate..I leave it to GOd..what comes will come..

Nice meeting you Tim..is great to chat..hhaa you are as chatty as me.

Hope to catch up again next time..once a while..friends what..

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Tired..

I didn't sleep well for past few days..simply feel so tired..I am going off to bed after I blog

Well I received my studies timetable..Been waiting for it and I received it through my email..well terrible as in studying 4 days per week..oh man..I hope I can cope..For certain timing, it wont be four days as we are having holiday etc. That I have to wait til dec..study for 1 day for the week..shiok! At least I can take a short break..during xmas etc

I guess for the 3rd semester, it will be a bit tough as we have 4 modules..after that should be fine..So I have to bear with the timetable til Feb..

加油！I have faith in God! I will do my best in work n studies and see how it goes..Work is tiring as I work late

I need to sleep..end here..

Relax..

As usual working today and I was really busy lately..work n work..Just wanna finish them..left with some work only..It's making me stress though..I still can endure..Endure till I cant, I will know what to do ya..

I am still waiting for my timetable..wonder when will it come?

I went bowling with KH to relax..I didn't enjoy that much but anyway release my stress already.. We had a chat etc..I felt better. Thanks KH..

I went back home early though and I find it rare to reach home early on sat haha..nothing much to do lor..getting sleepy after meal..sigh..it's only 10 plus..

shall end here..tired

Some thoughts

I am back blogging again..somehow I feel..mixed feeling..

I know I dun feel so happy but rather trying to be happy at times..It takes time and also other work issue, it's making me stress and unhappy..My boss is stress and here I am also stress..what can I do to help u James? hope everything is fine on thur wor..
headache..I am not happy..if I am, I guess I am not human being..I am trying to be normal in front of all..I just wanna work, don't wanna think too much..

I try to stay happy..I will..it might be hard..what to do..work stuff, leave it aside..irritated..haiz..I am affected..

ENd here..

Still the same..

I am trying my best but sometime things doesn't go our way & I get upset..maybe I should stop whatever I am thinking or doing to just move on with life.

Things doesn't go on that smoothly.how am I suppose to carry on, it's really bothering me..I just feel like letting go..at least I feel happier..I think I should just do it..stay away & be alone..I know I will feel happier that way..I am really tired of life..ya at this age? must be wondering so fast?

I won't be bothered from now on..u guys happy can liao..life still goes on..things always dun work out for me..so what u wanna me to do? I am tired..really..

shall end here..going back office a while n go to church..

simply tired..

Somehow after I come back from HK, I am back to the same old me, thinking alot and I am seriously unhappy coz of u two..whatever it is..I dun wish to talk much about it..is that why I feel so unhappy? coz I dun tell anyone what happen..a few friends been asking me..is ok guys..I guess I will be fine..I dun wanna say la..really..so dun need to ask me..plus lonely in office? so I become too self centered in my world? I dunno..

anyway I will try to get some sleep..I was snacking away today not becoz I really wanna eat but rather I will snack when I dun feel so happy..sigh..

Shall end here..

Mid Autumn Festival & Hk Trip..

I am back from Restine's Wedding..Yes, I just attended her wedding at dragon gate resturant harbourfront centre. Congrats to her & her Hubby..finally hold their chinese wedding..You look good in ur wedding photos..

Anyway I just come back on sat night 11.46pm.. Back from my hk trip..
I felt relaxed..I went for four days..I took Singapore airline..Took a morning flight on wed and a night flight on sat..
I am quite tired now..I wanna just have a quick blog n sleep.

Hk's weather was very warm. 33 degree celcius and it was so sunny all day..summer..they have their summer sales but I didnt really get things from their shopping centres..

Train was very convenient as u can travel and go to anywhere u want. We stayed at conrad hotel with Jolene who is on biz trip. Cousin & I went to avenue of stars whereby u can see famous stars' handprints etc..U are able to see the smponthy of lights ( sorry dunno how to spell) at 8pm..building will light up.. We went to causeway bay, kowloon, wan chai,mong Kok,tsim Sha Tsui,lang kui fang..Visited their ladies street,temple street,the peak etc. We took the tram and get to see the night view of hk. It was rather hazy so we cant see that clearly..what a pity..anyway is alright..We went to tsing Ma Bridge too and get a glance of the hk view..wow nice and I manage to get a few mugs which will change colour when u pour hot water..
I bought some snacks too and espirt clothes etc..oh yeah..I also went to the famous wax museum..We tried their dessert , congee & dim sum..Oh yummy! We had been eating quite alot of pork n prawn that I reach s'pore..I dun wanna have any..

I didnt go to disneyland & ocean park though..It was fun exploring around and get to taste different food..my cantonese wasn't that good. I can understand but I dun think I speak that fluently so somehow we speak english when we talk to sales person etc. They can ask us, r u from singapore? lol..that obvious?
Hk is really a shopping place whereby u can really see alot of shopping centres..As for pubs, lang kui fong is a gd place..

It's good to take a break for a while..recharge myself..a pity I didnt get to eat egg tart..anyway enjoy myself though it is a short trip.

I shall end here and go to bed..gd night..need my sleep..shall update again soon..

Setting off soon..

I finished my work today.I went back home earlier and packed my stuff..James should be on board already..He sms me just now saying he checked in..Well anything just sms will do while he is away n I am away..my gd friend ;)

I can't wait for mine..sense of relief to finish what I have to do..clear my mind and have fun..

I shall update when I am back..sleeping time..night!

Update again..

I am back to blogging again..

mm..Last fri went out for dinner with my fellow colleagues and boss came to join us for a drink at bliss after his dinner with family..
I drank la..

Sat, dun feel that good but after that I went to church and met darling for dinner.

Sun, rest day for me..I just stay at home though.

Back to mon, working day for me lor..as usual..As for yesterday, work and then had dinner with James...to discuss some issues and clear doubts etc.. Everything is great

He is off for holiday without any worries. No one can contact him..power..end up I will be the one picking up call lor -_-'' Hate it as it makes me fed up coz of an issue today.. Something to do with one of our fp and end up I had to try to solve..what the..at times they cause some inconvenience..nvm..what done is done..

I don't wish to think so much..work can make me stress but just let it be..how I wish James is around..I don't wish to worry that much..Some things are just beyond our control. It is within God's control. We can't do anything about it..

I cant wait for my trip that's all..I can just let go off everything and have fun..I need a break..Hopefully after 4 days of break, I will feel very fresh..

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