Last day of 2010

I feel that I should do an ending post for 2010 and welcome 2011..

I believe I mention during my earlier post that this year is full of ups and downs.No doubt it might not be very smooth ,I experience a lot of first time such as seeing our dear friend getting award,going mdc cum SA,indoor stadium for SHA,going Istanta,SCO concert etc..The feeling is great.Of course there were lots more things that we did happily.Seriously I really wish that job can be smoother.It's ok,2011 will be a better year, just have to be positive.Something to look forward to will be Lam Fung's Concert

Relaxing right now while it is pouring outside,so glad that I am at home instead of being outside because it's so wet and cold due to the weather.Pray that the weather will be great for tonight in order for the countdown party to be held. :) Whatever that happens for this year, let it come to an end..A new start soon.No doubt I feel a little dishearted at times, is alright.

I am prepared to catch live countdown party on tv and snack around with sparkling juice and titbits.Trying to get the mood of a new year.Entering a new year, we should be happy though I am currently not feeling very happy.

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3 more days to 2011

I just feel like blogging..at times I am really too lazy that I realise I really didnt blog much especially during nov n dec month..I guess so..sometime is good to express myself here.

Time really flies and is only a few more days and we come to the end of 2010. I guess the best present would be providing me with a good job and I can progress from there.I am getting older as well..thx God I survived 2010 no matter whatever did happened..it's over.a brand new year is coming.Just have to live a more fruitful life.I had too much thoughts, not sure what else to express. Shall keep it to myself.I wish to smile even more which I couldn't do so now. Thx D for giving me such a gd "gift" for xmas and upcoming new year cum birthday :P memorable. It's ok

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I didn't blog for 1 week. Here it goes..After the bbq gathering,came Xmas..Just had xmas eve lunch with church friends at clark quay follow by tea then I head off to meet sec sch friends for early dinner at Suntec and we went to play bowling at MSQ follow by drinking at harry's bar esplanade. Xmas day just have dinner with Mum and then set off to church for XMAs OAR.It wasnt raining when we were heading there but shortly after heavy rain and then it stopped till about to go home, it started again. Thx God rain get smaller when we were going back.Glad that Pastor Gideon was back for xmas. He preached..Humourous him make us laughed though.Exhausted after two days as I reach home on xmas eve night around 1am which is already xmas day. Xmas Service till 10pm..reach home was 11plus.Sunday went for service early in the morning then went back to rest after brunch.I slept like a pig lol.Really too tired after xmas activities..I didn't sleep much for the past few days until sun afternoon I took a nap for 3 hours.

Looking forward to a better year 2011..I am working hard to work on my strength since I know some things might be what you like and prefer but they might not be your strength.At least I tried though.it's ok. Pick yourself up when you fail.Try and try again! At times I might feel down but life goes on. I just have to pick myself up again and move on. Learn from each incident and grow from there.I have been trying to motivate myself as no one can help me if I do not wish to help myself. I am helping myself right now. Everyone will feel demoralized but no point feeling that way. Wasting of time. I will jia you!

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BBQ Gathering 2010

I realise I blog lesser recently, perhaps nothing much to talk about plus I am lazy.

Well weekday was normal, working, yoga lesson and shopping after work. Met up with latin dance club pple for bbq at pasir ris park. This time, the pit was really good, pretty bright for us to interact and be able to have food happily. I was really full and I enjoyed the sausages and chicken wings etc. Nice gathering,I hope that we won't see each other only once every year. perhaps we can have more gathering if possible. I was there around 5.30 and I left at 11pm.It was already midnight when I reach home thus rather tired. I didn't go anywhere today. :P time flies. I just can't wait for xmas! Gonna catch up with the rest on xmas Eve..oh yeah..I will send a sms reminder when it is nearer..we just gonna have a xmas lunch and then perhaps tea or coffee if we are not drinking.
I guess it's too early to drink.drinking shall leave it to at night :p Xmas day would only be church service at night.I have no other plans for now. Totally no christmas party.sigh.

I am not gonna think so much, shall do my own stuff.read, watch tv etc and occupy myself.

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I didn't update for a while again..Fruitful weekend for this two weekends.Lam Fung was here to promote his feb desire tour next year and I went to see him at downtown east during last sat..Handsome wor!
Thx HL for passing me the ticket and I have yet to pay her till I get salary. A bit tight coz xmas is coming etc. I feel a bit bad but I will pay her that's for sure. I believe she knows I will do so.sigh broke coz of ticket,yoga etc..pending payments.. :P I will clear them before CNY..dun wanna owe too long..

I went to east side to visit grandma yesterday with my ah yis and cousin. We had dinner and then shopping plus having coffee at coffeebean..It's an enjoyable day! si yi wanna plan a bbq at east coast..that will be good..having fun getting together as a family..

As for today, went to church as usual and we have fellowship.I didnt play just help my cousin with stuff.. :)

Feeling empty now though I have a long day for weekend..somehow it's so quiet when I am alone. longer to find a partner..somehow is time and I am waiting..I have a strong feeling..I am ready after being alone since I start my course and I already graduated..

I shall leave it to YOU!


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Sick..

Wow I realise I have not been blogging for a few weeks..well I started working on mon..I fall sick on wed which was a public holiday and I took mc on thur.. -__-''' Lots of things to learn and I am getting stress and lost as in which one to start first.I just have to go and try..there might be mistakes but that's how we learnt..I know I fear, not sure how to start etc..Thx God colleagues are pretty helpful and willing to guide me. I just have to do whatever I can and if I am not sure, they can help me. I believe things would be fine..I must jia you!! :) I can do it! pray that I can settle the job order..I am just thinking about that,wanna finish those task asap..I cannot pend it for too long though.

Update a little, I went out with the rest,HL,Mum etc to topone ktv to sing and end up I fell sick after that and I was having a fever.I was already having a slight cough earlier on when I start work.I went back to work on fri and I went to meet up with Ame, Hui & WL for our hangout at play nation to play wii games. My sorethroat worsen & I cough too much.As a result I have a sexy voice right now :( Feeling tired though for today and I just stay at home to rest. Though I might sleep, I did not sleep very well, somehow waking up in the middle of the night as I cough..sigh

Something to look forward to is Lam Fung's concert. :)
End here..I hope I can get well soon.

宅女。。

This is my first entry for Nov..I realise I have been staying at home for many days for this week..I only met up with Vivian on mon for k session..$8 promotion for kbox on mon..worth it..Sang for 3 hrs..I didn't go to church nor go elsewhere though there is a long weekend..It really doesn't matter..taking a break at home is good as well.save money..catching my drama etc though it makes me pretty lazy..I will be out tml though..catch up with Vin, haven been seeing him for some time.time flies..gonna be dec but I am still slacking..hopefully I can find something that I am comfortable with and have a fruitful life..

I just feel rather tired now though I have enough sleep..sigh..perhaps I need to eat more..I just ate a little rice..I dun feel very good..

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S'pore Hits Award 2010 & Halloween Night

I love my weekend though I am tired today. I went to indoor stadium for the s'pore hits award on fri.Good experience! Happy! It's good to hear singers sing the songs live. I love Zhang Xin Zhe & Huang Xiao Hu..nice songs.. I realise Xiao GUI is really quite tall. Perhaps watching him on tv is a different feel..though we are not very near the stage but we still can see. Better than catching on tv, totally different feeling. Aunty Lucy n Veg Piano r really funny. Veg piano is the fake cai Qin acted by Michelle chong.somehow entertain us with their laughter. Gd to see Cq do the opening with ke Wei, Wei bin n Serene.Though I am not a fan of xiao GUI, personally find him cute. Not bad la..Ah zhe is the prince! Singing 3 songs n earlier on he sang a duet with Olivia. Nice! It's only when he sang as well as huang xiao hu sang, make me feel a bit high. Other than that, we r a little bored..hopefully it will be better next year with more stars! Ok enough about that. Move on to talk about yesterday. It has been some time since I attended sat's service.I went church as usual and then had dinner with siow ching n cousin..we went to clark quay since is halloween night.we walked around n see what others r wearing. Only one person do scare us. We even saw one person with a 7 11 box as design n wore it over the head.another one was a man with diaper carrying a moo moo softtoy lol. Interesting! We went for a drink before leaving to get a cab back..ling queue though but luckily my area not far so cab fare still alright. Gd experience. Maybe we will do something scary next time too. As for today, just went to grandma's place have dinner. I am occupied with things. Luckily! :) I shall end here

Lost..

It's a nice weather to rest and I am feeling sleepy..Thx God that the haze went down, I just hope that it won't rise up again.well it takes time depending on whether the fire is still burning..I hope not..

Well struggling through though it was the 2nd day and I hesitate whether to move on..seriously I really wish that I can just leave as I know that I do not wish to adapt with that culture. Rather uncomfortable. Environment is important. Once I am not comfortable, I will not want to continue..It's a tough decision though I know my answer. I find it quite bad but I rather move on now then drag on and then when the trainer trained me, I choose to leave..It's bad..

Headache..I shall end here..no point thinking further..head gonna crack..

Journey to the west...

Feeling tired.. Just do a quick post..Update about this week.nothing much except interview for weekday. Well as for yesterday , I went to look for cq, the jie li sai competition at imm..after that meet up with mum n bro for dinner n follow by supper at geylang. Daddy wanna bring us eat n we went out at 11 plus :p tired lor..I went to church this morning, after that catch up with huay ling while eating..after that I went to see Lam Fung. He came a short one as he need to go jb..he came to bukit panjang plaza for alicafe event. I shall load photos tml ba. He signed recycle bags..quite fast la..I didn't get any coffee coz I rarely drink..his fc compose songs for him..one goes with the tune of cai shen dao..lam fung commented so fast cny in canto. Hahaha..Tired! After he left I went to shop around n then head to lot 1 to shop a while too..seldom go that's y..here I am at home catching president star charity. Just dun feel like moving..end here

First thing in the morning, I receive a gd news..yup before I got the letter of employment, I shall not say much about it..gauging by the interview yesterday, pretty good..as the GM was not around, I will go down to talk to GM on wed afternoon follow by signing the contract..thx God! Actually this was one 2nd job interview..I take a month 2 weeks break and if nothing goes wrong, I will start work on next thur ba..hopefully everything is alright with upcoming challenges..To be frank, I have mixed feeling..new environment and new stuff to learn..then again this is a place that I wanna go to but previously perhaps due to some reasons, I wasn't given a chance..so I am grabbing the opportuntity now..

THis is gd news..then again there r some arguement between me & A..end up we r irritated..whatever..it's over anyway..just that I feel a bit moody..feel quite sian..not sure what to do tml as well..
Feel like not going any activities at all..no point la..

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10 oct 2010

TodAy is the day whereby many couple get married. I attended one just now. Ting fong & Abigail's wedding. Congrats to them! I dunno them well though but it is a church occasion so I attended service plus the wedding celebration. Happy for them. Just wondering when would it be my turn? Thinking of him. He was dressed smartly today helping out with ushering.just like it..is impossible between us..he has been busy I guess and we cut down on contacting each other once again..that's life..sometime also nothing much to say..he won't come to talk to me though..I heard that a few more couples will get married next year..happy for them and looking forward to attend.. "red bomb" coming! :P opps...is alright just give them our blessings..

I just pray that good opportunities will come soon & the right partner as well..End here!

Farewell Mrs Lee KY...

As I am blogging now, it's getting late..

I came across the eulogy with regard to Mrs Lee..My heart sank while I read..From MM Lee, PM Lee, Mr Lee Hisen Yang, Dr Lee Wei Ling..it was sad yet touching..The continously love between Mr & Mrs Lee for so many years was really touching..Looking at the tribute video, we can see that Mr Lee always bring a smile or will laugh when he is with his beloved wife..they are so sweet & lovely despite aging..the constant faith and love , support,cherishing each other whether in sickeness or in health till death apart..They did it..as what the wedding vows stated..I know life is not easy adapting as Mrs Lee is not around anymore.I know how they feel..I recalled the time when Ah gong passed away four years ago..Memories will always be there..Though I have not seen Mrs Lee in person, I always see her on tv etc, she was always accompaning MM Lee for trip etc..As I read about her, I just know that she was a lovely wife, mother, grandmother and a nice boss to her employees..a great woman of our country..Never regret queuing up at Istana to pay the last respect yesterday though it was warm and we only went in less than a min, give three bows and we left..I saw Mr Lee Hisen Yang & his wife..never see PM Lee

Well life is short, do cherish people around you especially old folks as age is catching up, you will not know when they will be gone..a few people passed away this year, Dr Goh, another MP Minister and then Mrs Lee.

I pray that the Lord will be able to grant the Lee family the strength,the peace and take away their sorrow slowly so that they can move on with life..Pray that Lord will watch after MM Lee's health as well and also the family..
I also pray for my family and friends and people that I know,that the Lord will protect them,watch over their health as the weather has been humid lately, and also my two grandmothers's health as they are getting older, may the Lord grant them happiness as well..also to watch over my cousin while she is on biz trip..
pray for myself too silently! God knows I know..will do..

I end here!

Nothing much today..I didn't wake up too late but I didn't turn up at the place..somehow I dun wanna shift work anymore.

I hope that tml is confirmed that we can go n pay respect to Mrs Lee KY..that's the last chance..waiting for Jm to arrange the timing..life is short, but at least Mr Lee spent around 60 years of life with her..Thx God for that..as everyone aged etc, we will leave one day just that she left earlier..pray that PM Lee & family would be able to pull through this period of time and move on with life..I know is not easy, give them some time..

Well the story of Mrs Lee is really great..can see that she is a kind person who is really caring and understanding..Mr Lee is really lucky to have her as wife..still lovely after many years and even went go out together on valentine's day during 2008..you can see Mr lee smiling so happily..somehow I can feel the pain and the lost that they are going through coz I lost love ones before too..my beloved grandfather..He is always remembered! I guess Grandma do miss him alot..

mmm..enough of that..somehow nothing much to do make me lazy..gonna catch last few eps of dramas and then move on to new dramas..I need to jia you..partly moody coz I am still at no where..It's ok..I will be alright, I will pull through this period of time..

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Tired..just a quick one before I go n sleep..We went out to have dinner at Liang Court as it was MUm's birthday..I bought her a cake as well..just a simple dinner and Dad drove us around for sight seeing such as RWS la, Mount Faber..Feel like going party world to sing but Dad was saying, if singing will drink etc..end up we decide not to go..

While we are having fun, we do know that MM Lee , PM Lee & Family were feeling sad as MM Lee's wife just passed away peacefully at home on sat 5.40pm..I understand how they feel as I experienced the lost of love ones before..Pray that GOd will grant the family the strength and the peace..Understand that PM Lee was away while MM Lee was actually admitted to hospital for chest infestion that day..the stress level while on biz trip and something happen to Dad and now Mum..sigh

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last day of sept..Towards the beginning of Oct..here I am so emo...he saw it and sms me..I thought it was mei and end up is him..we didn't talk for this few days as I guess nothing much to say also..I just dunno how to reply neither do I wanna reply..just dun wanna talk about it..I have been asking myself what have I achieve this year..rather sad..this year is pretty bad..nothing much for me and about 2 more months to dec and chapters will close this year and 2011 will begin..

I cannot control that feeling. So I wish you dun contact me so often so that I will stop myself from falling in deeper..It's hard and I am struggling..Father, what should I do? I need your guidance..is the news true? I believe in You..

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It's a gd day partipicating in are you smarter than charis kids? Though I am tired, it's fun though. Shall have a gd rest tonight. I went to caramel for high tea. Glad that hl enjoyed it. It's cosy :) hopefully can go drinking one day. Yeah I get Stella beer but not drinking today. End here

Seriously not sure what to blog..I am lost for words after hearing the news..where did she heard it from? She doesnt want to disclose anything, making me more curious..what can I do? like that lor..it also solve the issue of wondering what he is up to..I can say, I know it now..good..who is the lucky.... ? We shall see..God has His plans..seriously dun feel like going anywhere later, sound like avoiding him? maybe ba..I dunno..he doesnt know I know ba.so what if I know, like that lor..

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Nothing much today. I went to meet Bro Ju for dinner and chill out at tcc orchard..we didnt meet for so long..look like he doesn't really like to know about him :p so? I like can already..kind of purposely let him know opps..mean? not really..
It's really quite sian not knowing where to go..just walk around..I feel bored lately..time to work harder..I am trying my best..need more motivation. Tml will be a boring sat..sigh..what to do..

I hope sun will be better..end here..gonna drink while I watch drama then I can sleep well tonight . :) feeling a bit tired though..

Mid Autumn Festival

Yes is Mid Autumn again..nothing much today.I just went out for late lunch and then get some stuff before going home..yes I got Lam Feng's concert dvd..finally..I watched disc 1, still have two more to go..just wanna enjoy the songs and not to think so much. I miss you and I have yet receive your sms..Dun tell me you sleep already..it's more like I will reply ur sms, you dun reply mine..forget it ba..

I just seem to have the sour n strange feeling when I see the profile pic..I know is nothing but just feel weird..ahhhh..what should I do?? there is nothing I can do...I just cannot control my feeling though I try to hide it..the closer we get...perhaps we will distance away again..hard to say..

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