S'pore Hits Award 2010 & Halloween Night

I love my weekend though I am tired today. I went to indoor stadium for the s'pore hits award on fri.Good experience! Happy! It's good to hear singers sing the songs live. I love Zhang Xin Zhe & Huang Xiao Hu..nice songs.. I realise Xiao GUI is really quite tall. Perhaps watching him on tv is a different feel..though we are not very near the stage but we still can see. Better than catching on tv, totally different feeling. Aunty Lucy n Veg Piano r really funny. Veg piano is the fake cai Qin acted by Michelle chong.somehow entertain us with their laughter. Gd to see Cq do the opening with ke Wei, Wei bin n Serene.Though I am not a fan of xiao GUI, personally find him cute. Not bad la..Ah zhe is the prince! Singing 3 songs n earlier on he sang a duet with Olivia. Nice! It's only when he sang as well as huang xiao hu sang, make me feel a bit high. Other than that, we r a little bored..hopefully it will be better next year with more stars! Ok enough about that. Move on to talk about yesterday. It has been some time since I attended sat's service.I went church as usual and then had dinner with siow ching n cousin..we went to clark quay since is halloween night.we walked around n see what others r wearing. Only one person do scare us. We even saw one person with a 7 11 box as design n wore it over the head.another one was a man with diaper carrying a moo moo softtoy lol. Interesting! We went for a drink before leaving to get a cab back..ling queue though but luckily my area not far so cab fare still alright. Gd experience. Maybe we will do something scary next time too. As for today, just went to grandma's place have dinner. I am occupied with things. Luckily! :) I shall end here

Lost..

It's a nice weather to rest and I am feeling sleepy..Thx God that the haze went down, I just hope that it won't rise up again.well it takes time depending on whether the fire is still burning..I hope not..

Well struggling through though it was the 2nd day and I hesitate whether to move on..seriously I really wish that I can just leave as I know that I do not wish to adapt with that culture. Rather uncomfortable. Environment is important. Once I am not comfortable, I will not want to continue..It's a tough decision though I know my answer. I find it quite bad but I rather move on now then drag on and then when the trainer trained me, I choose to leave..It's bad..

Headache..I shall end here..no point thinking further..head gonna crack..

Journey to the west...

Feeling tired.. Just do a quick post..Update about this week.nothing much except interview for weekday. Well as for yesterday , I went to look for cq, the jie li sai competition at imm..after that meet up with mum n bro for dinner n follow by supper at geylang. Daddy wanna bring us eat n we went out at 11 plus :p tired lor..I went to church this morning, after that catch up with huay ling while eating..after that I went to see Lam Fung. He came a short one as he need to go jb..he came to bukit panjang plaza for alicafe event. I shall load photos tml ba. He signed recycle bags..quite fast la..I didn't get any coffee coz I rarely drink..his fc compose songs for him..one goes with the tune of cai shen dao..lam fung commented so fast cny in canto. Hahaha..Tired! After he left I went to shop around n then head to lot 1 to shop a while too..seldom go that's y..here I am at home catching president star charity. Just dun feel like moving..end here

First thing in the morning, I receive a gd news..yup before I got the letter of employment, I shall not say much about it..gauging by the interview yesterday, pretty good..as the GM was not around, I will go down to talk to GM on wed afternoon follow by signing the contract..thx God! Actually this was one 2nd job interview..I take a month 2 weeks break and if nothing goes wrong, I will start work on next thur ba..hopefully everything is alright with upcoming challenges..To be frank, I have mixed feeling..new environment and new stuff to learn..then again this is a place that I wanna go to but previously perhaps due to some reasons, I wasn't given a chance..so I am grabbing the opportuntity now..

THis is gd news..then again there r some arguement between me & A..end up we r irritated..whatever..it's over anyway..just that I feel a bit moody..feel quite sian..not sure what to do tml as well..
Feel like not going any activities at all..no point la..

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10 oct 2010

TodAy is the day whereby many couple get married. I attended one just now. Ting fong & Abigail's wedding. Congrats to them! I dunno them well though but it is a church occasion so I attended service plus the wedding celebration. Happy for them. Just wondering when would it be my turn? Thinking of him. He was dressed smartly today helping out with ushering.just like it..is impossible between us..he has been busy I guess and we cut down on contacting each other once again..that's life..sometime also nothing much to say..he won't come to talk to me though..I heard that a few more couples will get married next year..happy for them and looking forward to attend.. "red bomb" coming! :P opps...is alright just give them our blessings..

I just pray that good opportunities will come soon & the right partner as well..End here!

Farewell Mrs Lee KY...

As I am blogging now, it's getting late..

I came across the eulogy with regard to Mrs Lee..My heart sank while I read..From MM Lee, PM Lee, Mr Lee Hisen Yang, Dr Lee Wei Ling..it was sad yet touching..The continously love between Mr & Mrs Lee for so many years was really touching..Looking at the tribute video, we can see that Mr Lee always bring a smile or will laugh when he is with his beloved wife..they are so sweet & lovely despite aging..the constant faith and love , support,cherishing each other whether in sickeness or in health till death apart..They did it..as what the wedding vows stated..I know life is not easy adapting as Mrs Lee is not around anymore.I know how they feel..I recalled the time when Ah gong passed away four years ago..Memories will always be there..Though I have not seen Mrs Lee in person, I always see her on tv etc, she was always accompaning MM Lee for trip etc..As I read about her, I just know that she was a lovely wife, mother, grandmother and a nice boss to her employees..a great woman of our country..Never regret queuing up at Istana to pay the last respect yesterday though it was warm and we only went in less than a min, give three bows and we left..I saw Mr Lee Hisen Yang & his wife..never see PM Lee

Well life is short, do cherish people around you especially old folks as age is catching up, you will not know when they will be gone..a few people passed away this year, Dr Goh, another MP Minister and then Mrs Lee.

I pray that the Lord will be able to grant the Lee family the strength,the peace and take away their sorrow slowly so that they can move on with life..Pray that Lord will watch after MM Lee's health as well and also the family..
I also pray for my family and friends and people that I know,that the Lord will protect them,watch over their health as the weather has been humid lately, and also my two grandmothers's health as they are getting older, may the Lord grant them happiness as well..also to watch over my cousin while she is on biz trip..
pray for myself too silently! God knows I know..will do..

I end here!

Nothing much today..I didn't wake up too late but I didn't turn up at the place..somehow I dun wanna shift work anymore.

I hope that tml is confirmed that we can go n pay respect to Mrs Lee KY..that's the last chance..waiting for Jm to arrange the timing..life is short, but at least Mr Lee spent around 60 years of life with her..Thx God for that..as everyone aged etc, we will leave one day just that she left earlier..pray that PM Lee & family would be able to pull through this period of time and move on with life..I know is not easy, give them some time..

Well the story of Mrs Lee is really great..can see that she is a kind person who is really caring and understanding..Mr Lee is really lucky to have her as wife..still lovely after many years and even went go out together on valentine's day during 2008..you can see Mr lee smiling so happily..somehow I can feel the pain and the lost that they are going through coz I lost love ones before too..my beloved grandfather..He is always remembered! I guess Grandma do miss him alot..

mmm..enough of that..somehow nothing much to do make me lazy..gonna catch last few eps of dramas and then move on to new dramas..I need to jia you..partly moody coz I am still at no where..It's ok..I will be alright, I will pull through this period of time..

End here..

Tired..just a quick one before I go n sleep..We went out to have dinner at Liang Court as it was MUm's birthday..I bought her a cake as well..just a simple dinner and Dad drove us around for sight seeing such as RWS la, Mount Faber..Feel like going party world to sing but Dad was saying, if singing will drink etc..end up we decide not to go..

While we are having fun, we do know that MM Lee , PM Lee & Family were feeling sad as MM Lee's wife just passed away peacefully at home on sat 5.40pm..I understand how they feel as I experienced the lost of love ones before..Pray that GOd will grant the family the strength and the peace..Understand that PM Lee was away while MM Lee was actually admitted to hospital for chest infestion that day..the stress level while on biz trip and something happen to Dad and now Mum..sigh

End here..

last day of sept..Towards the beginning of Oct..here I am so emo...he saw it and sms me..I thought it was mei and end up is him..we didn't talk for this few days as I guess nothing much to say also..I just dunno how to reply neither do I wanna reply..just dun wanna talk about it..I have been asking myself what have I achieve this year..rather sad..this year is pretty bad..nothing much for me and about 2 more months to dec and chapters will close this year and 2011 will begin..

I cannot control that feeling. So I wish you dun contact me so often so that I will stop myself from falling in deeper..It's hard and I am struggling..Father, what should I do? I need your guidance..is the news true? I believe in You..

End here

It's a gd day partipicating in are you smarter than charis kids? Though I am tired, it's fun though. Shall have a gd rest tonight. I went to caramel for high tea. Glad that hl enjoyed it. It's cosy :) hopefully can go drinking one day. Yeah I get Stella beer but not drinking today. End here

Seriously not sure what to blog..I am lost for words after hearing the news..where did she heard it from? She doesnt want to disclose anything, making me more curious..what can I do? like that lor..it also solve the issue of wondering what he is up to..I can say, I know it now..good..who is the lucky.... ? We shall see..God has His plans..seriously dun feel like going anywhere later, sound like avoiding him? maybe ba..I dunno..he doesnt know I know ba.so what if I know, like that lor..

End here

Nothing much today. I went to meet Bro Ju for dinner and chill out at tcc orchard..we didnt meet for so long..look like he doesn't really like to know about him :p so? I like can already..kind of purposely let him know opps..mean? not really..
It's really quite sian not knowing where to go..just walk around..I feel bored lately..time to work harder..I am trying my best..need more motivation. Tml will be a boring sat..sigh..what to do..

I hope sun will be better..end here..gonna drink while I watch drama then I can sleep well tonight . :) feeling a bit tired though..

Mid Autumn Festival

Yes is Mid Autumn again..nothing much today.I just went out for late lunch and then get some stuff before going home..yes I got Lam Feng's concert dvd..finally..I watched disc 1, still have two more to go..just wanna enjoy the songs and not to think so much. I miss you and I have yet receive your sms..Dun tell me you sleep already..it's more like I will reply ur sms, you dun reply mine..forget it ba..

I just seem to have the sour n strange feeling when I see the profile pic..I know is nothing but just feel weird..ahhhh..what should I do?? there is nothing I can do...I just cannot control my feeling though I try to hide it..the closer we get...perhaps we will distance away again..hard to say..

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A day to Zoo

Yes I know I am being a "tourist" going to local attractions..
I went to church for service as usual and Yamashita san wanna go jbp take photos , end up he decided to go zoo instead so 3 of us went..the last time I went was 2008..I am back to zoo again..not much changes except that the polar bear exhibtion is closed.. :( It's alright.
We spent half a day there taking lots of photos and I am tired now..Shall sleep after I blog..I was out the whole day for almost 12hrs..shag..It's fun going out.. we had dinner at amk sha bu shi jap buffet resturant..the food ok wor..we didnt eat much..just want to try it..

Enjoyable day..but somehow I thought of him..he somehow contacted me again..sigh..did he call the wrong person? cannot be so many times right?? It never happen before though only today..

I shall go to bed..sweet dream..tired..

End here..

A day to sentosa

Nothing much today and I meet up with xm and we went sentosa..go to silso beach, then head to discovery walk to take a stroll..He sms n call me saying maybe can meet for dinner, well end up never had dinner together also..make me happy ar..he was at house warming and I guess he had alot of food, cannot eat anymore..it's ok..we have to wake up early tml for service..must as well dun meet for dinner..another time ba..I just had dinner then a bit of headache..weather was really good today..I reach home at 3pm..right now nothing much to do..just rest..I am bored..quite tired too but I plan to sleep earlier tonight instead of sleeping too much in the afternoon..

End here..

Lazy fri..feeling tired again..been sleeping late. Waking up late.sigh. No news or maybe I didn't work hard enough on that. Sometime thought of u. Nothing much to do. Bored. I feel so slack. So many things that I wanna do. Not done yet. Pray that the right ones will come. The radio drama so sweet. Heehee. Resting a while.Didn't go out much. Only went out yesterday celebrate mei's birthday. A simple lunch then acc her to take passport. Meeting her again tml to go sentosa. We need beach. Sun will be church. The whole week almost gone like that. Sian. Sometime dun wish to blog about it

A fruitful weekend

Well it had been a fruitful weekend..time flies..
As Mum was out of town, so I helped out with housework :P
Meet up with Wl,Hui & Ame on fri for dinner at lexus bugis( I cannot remember what is the name)on fri..not bad..we had pizza, buffalo wings and mushroom..had a big glass of mint lemon tea to share..shop around as well,rather tired on friday though..It was nice spending time with friends.

As for yesterday, I woke up at 4.50am to tidy up house a little before I go out..Head off to meet HL at city hall to go to jb..guess what, the bus was delayed for half an hour and we actually reach early lor..no one apologise nor or whatsoever..
-_-''' They just get another bus to fetch us. Traffic flow was great and we reached JB about 8 plus and head off to eat dim sum around 9. It wasnt so fantastic to be frank..It comes with one whole plate etc, perhaps enough for all of us, not much also..end up we still cannot finish. ActuallY I dunno the rest well, dun dare to eat alot either.
After that we head off to organic farm for a visit. end up didn't see much stuff etc..The goat is cute though hhaa..running past us..It was the first time I see a goat running past us..then we saw cows as well..
after the farm, we went to have lunch,however there was a traffic jam so we had lunch at about 2pm..really late lunch and this time we had hokkien mee, fishball soup (everyone only can have 1 fishball each as it was only enough for all) -__-''' We wondered if the fishball is that expensive. :p I thought fuzhou fishball noodle end up is hokkien mee with a bowl of fishball soup with dong fen,fried kang kong & red wine chicken.Kong ba bao as well. not too bad but I felt that noodles might not be enough for big eaters..I was rather hungry lor during lunch..can eat quite a bit..
After lunch we went to noodle factory. It was a small place though. As bird nest factory was closed due to hari raya, we didnt get to go. No one informed us about that till we are on the tour bus..sigh..
After noodle factory, we went to eat durian outside a temple place.I didnt eat much also, end up feeding the mosquitos instead
-__-'''

After durian session,we went shopping. Actually bus journey took up lots of time. We didn't do much things and there is nothing to buy at the shopping centre though there are alot of clothes and shoes. I wasn's able to find anything that I like. We shopped for 1 hr and then head for dinner. We had dinner around 8pm and dinner was much better, there is xiao bai cai, beancurd, prawns,fish,fried sotong,watercress soup, fruits.

It was home sweet home after that. Traffic was good so we reach tuas checkpoint really fast. Hl & I face some problem while we go through, it has to do with our bag of stuff as we did not put the stuff on the stroller.Everything is fine, we didnt know we r suppose to put at the side. First time use auto scanning n arrive at checkpoint when we come back.
The lady police officer was really nice, asking me where I come back from, which part of m'sia. :)

Thx God for the safe trip,gd weather, traffic and nice custom officer.

As for today, I went to church and then head back to do some chore and gonna take a short nap soon

End here

Time flies and is Tue.

After a serious consideration,I decide to reject.

I thought I overcome that fear but it is still there..No point forcing myself to go for it. Perhaps people would wonder why am I like that, well it's me who is going to walk on with my life. I don't care what others are thinking as long as my conscience is clear. Everyone do sin. I did. However I have been a better girl ever since I start my studies and then I do know that I might seem not hardworking enough, that is because I have not find something that I have the motivation and the passion.Well this time round, I am striving hard to do my best to find one soon..then I can't say 100% perfect, but I will do my best to learn and progress..I won't give up! that's me!

Since still young, gonna take this time to strive though I have been circling around this few years but I did learn something. Getting a bit lost as I am no where right now. Well take this chance to take a break so that I can walk further in life.No one can determine how good or bad you are coz they ain't perfect too.. Only God knows.

End here!!

Charis Talent

It was a good day today, travelling for 1 hr plus to crystal to support the charis talent competition..It was good..congrats to tpy hgc for winning!

Had dinner at vivo and then shop a while n head home..not feeling very good now..somehow moody.not sure what am I thinking, perhaps ...I need to do something about it and after that I should be fine..looking out for opportunities..I guess when there is a goal in life, I will feel better.

I shall not sleep too late as I will be heading to church for service early in the morning..not sure what to do after that. so bored..ahhhh....

End here

I went out with J after work..chinatown eat and then eat dessert..follow by drink at starbucks. terrible hor.. :P just wanna rest only..he is quite tired.. :P wonder what is he thinking..playing with me today, disturbing me..he just like to play..I guess so..shouldn't take it to heart.But it is unusual lor.

I should focus on my stuff..so ya..end here