2nd post for the year

Oh well I just realise that I didn't really blog and this is the 2nd one for this year.

Nothing much except for work. I am still looking out for better opportunities and sometimes I feel that no doubt I am occupied but at the end of the day, I don't feel happy at all. I am not sure what I really want. Not easy to get a gd job as well.

Anyway Hl and the rest do wanna get him along with regards to activities.
I am not sure why I feel uneasy. I guess I just want to get away from him before I fall in deeper. Maybe it's not so strong after I sense that he might not be the one. I am really not sure who will be the one. I just feel that I can click with him but we seldom contact lately. Busy with our stuff that perhaps we dun feel that we should even contact ya. Even if we do, what should we say? Friends around me start to settle down and that's when I ask myself, what have I been doing? Kind of getting old liao this days. sigh...Even if I get to do my fav stuff, at the end of the day I feel that I have not really achieve anything. Simply not happy and I have no idea why is that so.
What should I do to make myself feel better? I am really trapped. So emo!

Update again after so long

Oh Well hasn't been blogging after quite some time.Decide to post again. This year has been ok so far. Of course not very happy about work stuff but then again I guess that's life. Boss been feeling that my work not up to the standard for now and trying to find out what is wrong with me..Oh well nothing much except that this is not the work that I wanna be at. Ever since F left,I just have to handle whatever stuff that he assigned alone and he might feels that I should try to handle this n that and at times I can't do it. As a result, work performance sucks ya. Ok perhaps I shouldn't talk about work as it makes me unhappy. Just hope that there is good opportunties and I will leave. I worked for at least a year plus now. As for happy moments,CQ get top ten once again :) As usual last one to be called up..As it was held at MBS this year, somehow the excitment not as strong as we were at rws..I find that this year SA is very normal..It's ok.. Anyway happy that Cq is the main actor for Ghost on air. Thx him for inviting us to the gala premiere :) Actually I don't watch horror movie but I will be going to support him though. Perhaps watch again with my friend who is interested if I dare to watch again :P I heard that they will be at Jcube tomorrow but I won't be going down. It's all I shall see everyone at the gala though. Excited though! Thx God for getting to know K better. We went out for dinner on thur and my plan is to go for dessert next time and he is ok with it. :) Not too bad for now though. No one knows what will happen next time. I find him not bad.He loves to read comics. I went with him to kino to get his stuff after dinner though. We chat about anything under the sun. Hopefully he isn't bored with my topics. He seems tired that day..hhaa I love the law joke.. :P funny! LOL.. Anyway it's great time but end up not able to sleep coz of the green tea that I drank in the afternoon..faint! But he give advice plus get suggestion from his sis. that's so sweet though. While walking over to the place, there was a piece of cake on the floor and I nearly trip..so embarrassing! just grab onto him..thx God nothing happen though..phew..Hope to see him tomorrow though and have a little chat. I try not to disturb him but I hope to msg him at times and hopefully he will drop me a msg when he thinks of me..will he?? sometimes he do comment on my fb status..Thx you for encouraging me. I guess is both of us encouraging each other. Somehow we know each other a few years but still dunno you well. I really hope I can find the right one. I have been searching for this few years, who knows actually the person is just right beside me without me realising.Heart affair hard to say.I just have to wait and see.Be more positive! End here

Gd Experience....

A gd news...Received the holy spirit after 3 yrs plus..yes on 15 Nov 2011 as I have the urge..I prayed and I discovered that God had answered my prayer with regards to drawing even closer to Him.something miracle happen..Perhaps I shouldn't say its a miracle as it was planned by Him..I wonder before, how come others react the way they are when they pray etc..hands moving, body shaking, crying etc..finally I understand..I told HL once I discovered and only today then I told S. She said its becoz I am open that's why. Thx God for that..I could even sense that it was stronger while the whole service people were praying as a family..I start to tear for no reason..It had been some time since I tear again.So who is not convinced then?? It's so real..seriously real and I can feel it..let's see what's the next step..I guess its about time to do something about it..

Gonna be another new week while boss will be away..may it be a good week..oh yeah..

Moody..

No idea what happen, just feel moody and she nagged again.no idea what should I say. Rather keep quiet.my chest feels tight at times. Wondering am I ok..time to do a check up..though fri is coming, I don't feel happy. Oh well perhaps I should say nothing much that makes me happy. Maybe SHA? Seriously not looking forward to it either. Anyway get ticket so just go. end here

Moody day

It's Nov. I didn't blog for a month. Seriously don't feel like whining on t or wb etc..I am back to my blog.no idea what really went wrong today n boss in a bad mood so ya, I guess you know what happen next. That's life.tired of things. Just do my part will do..once a while I will think about second plan..Work is stable for now but my life is still empty. I will go and apply for dance lesson soon.That's my plan but I didn't put it into action.Time to go for medical check up as well.Somehow I feel that I need to do so..snacking now with my bro just need to eat

I am back with blogging after a month :P rarely wanna blog as I am lazy..

Happy for J & J as last sunday was their wedding. Thx God for blessing the couple and I pray that they will have a happy marriage.
Somehow I am thinking , where is my Mr right? I did not rush into it and it has been quite a while that I am single..used to it..somehow I sense that is him,but just that he is studying so it doesnt make sense for him to date etc..not bad though..no one is perfect..pple around me telling me to consider him :P but it takes two to have sparks..I believe in YOu Lord..if he is the one,I shall wait for You to plan for me..currently no sparks though..I feel comfortable talking to him though..nothing else..

Well perhaps I am free right now to think about that. Its a relaxed day for me..thx God! I feel good but good moments always end fast..doesnt matter..Cherish what we have..

End here..gonna enjoy food at figos tml :)

A new post for August..seriously really dunno what to say..I just act as normal but deep down I hate myself again..the old me was back while working but there came a news whereby she decide to leave and left only me working..I can't accept it but slowly I accepted it but then again everything has to be done by me..yes only me and I really dun like it though workload reduce. I am tired of going back to the same path assisting one boss alone again but I am indeed doing so right now. I know you wanna see how long can I work and you predict that I won't work long..well we shall see..
I don't need discouragement from anyone and I don't deserve that as well..I will prove to myself..not because of anyone.

Somehow though I prayed but I feel that I am even escaping from our God..not wanna to go church this weekend..coz I don't want to listen to his sermon.I am tired..don't wish to tell anyone about how I feel again with my face outbreak of pimples..

I don't know what should I do. just continue to work then.what can I do? that's life.

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Wow ever since I use twitter n weibo, I seldom blog liao..This two months busy with work, tired when I reach home..

This weekend quite bored, well I already had off days on tue n wed.Tue was to send bro to camp as it was his enlistment day. Time flies.I went to shop a while with Mum as well, glad to find nice dresses at Yew Tee. Then we went to run our errand thus dun need to go out today as planned. It's alright.I guess tml will be heading home right after service as HL has to attend baby shower.

Nice weather to sleep today but I was auto awake at 8 plus and then sleep back till 1plus..shiok! Somehow a bit bored as weekend was rather packed each week but not for this week. Marilyn sis asked if I wanna go Sheng Shiong Show to see Yan Ya Lun, I declined the offer as I dun watch that show and I dun wanna go for the sake of seeing him for 10 mins? Maybe I will watch it on tv, just watch him sing ba.Feeling tired for whole day..Best to stay at home..Can't wait to watch Harry Potter next wed with the rest.thx YY for getting the tickets.Everyone talking about the movie,somehow have the urge to watch immediately.

I know tonight there is tvb starhub award at MBS and I doubt Fung is coming as his grandma passed away. It was told that Fung will come but I guess he just have to miss this.

Ok shall start to watch my drama if not I will feel bored..

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Time flies and is mid May..well last week didnt do much stuff..work..busy week..polling day on sat and sun go church..this week celebrate Grandma's birthday yesterday at Roland Restaurant..everyone had fun and Grandma is happy..that's most impt...I hang out again today and I know I shouldnt go out for whole day though I was tired coz I drank last night plus I am already tired..I just dun mind spending money as long as I feel good..a new week ahead and hopefully its good..having a break on tue again :) great!

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Long weekend has past and it's may..Just to update..previous week was SA..I spent last sat at ECP for charis baptism..We went to support the rest and then had picnic fellowship together with fried bee hoon, curry , snacks , fruits etc..I was rather full after that..

Sunday went to chinatown ten dollar ktv with my buddies and sang from 2pm-7pm..and then we had dinner..Japanese food together :) Great spending time together as we had not met for 2 months plus..anyway somehow ktv system hang a little here n there..sigh..overall still consider ok..affordable when you join the membership..

I have no plans for this weekend yet but well it's GE polling day plus mother's day..so ya..

Shall end here

Stars award show 2

This year is slightly more relaxed than last yr as we do not have to go red carpet, go straight to the ballroom. CQ look charming tonight with his white coat. N poly tail hair. Great! Everything is rather ok this yr beside Me President attended it. The top ten popular male make us very anxious as Cq's name wasn't called till the last one. As Dyt's name not in yet, we worried. In the end is him n he promise to let us touch his trophy n he did. We even pose with it :) cq ran to us when he was done with post party event n he hugs all of us n open chamange. Dunno how to spell. Yum say as well. He said he dunno how to open coz he didn't get married b4.everyone get to drink. David know us sometime, still talk to us, asking if we r anxious when last name was called. We were so scared.luckily he did it! Congrats! So happy for him. Gonna have a gathering after his 881. Great! Wonderful just that it will be great if pf get

I am getting lazy..time flies and tml is gd fri! Somehow it doesnt make a difference to me as I start work on mon :P Well somehow won't be really looking forward to sun as I will work on mon..Excited yet not sure what will be happening. I tried not to think that much like I mention before. Everything is a new start. Hopefully everything goes well and I would love my job. Once I slowly earn money, I can slowly save up again to do things that I like.I need a occupied life with job if not life not completed.I took a gd break already..time to cheong again!

This few days somehow being bothered by SA tics..Pple keep asking if we have etc.If I have, I will share.Just can't be bothered to ans the question, maybe just a close answer will do. No news from pq n kt as well,so I guess maybe not enough tickets even if they have.It's alright.We have it. Just waiting for jm to collect hers which she wins :) I hope everything goes well.Scare of mdc.
Anyway mdc didnt send tics to us..alot of pple didn't receive. I wonder did they try to make us happy only. -__-'''

Alright I shall go and catch my drama etc,do what I like as I will not be free for the weekends. Need to go crystal church and our own side as well for the weekend.wow a bit lazy :P other than that is SA lor..maybe heading to starhub tml..yeah can go shopping a while ba..need to go out a while coz been at home for this few days..rotting :P

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STar Award Show 1

Finally update again..somehow I don't really blog so often.

Apr so far had been a good month with fruitful events. :)
Thank God for the blessings! gonna start my new journey next mon so I cherish the free time I had right now to do things that I like.Somehow wasted alot of time at times but then again it's good to take a break and then continue to strive harder.

Yesterday was the show 1 for star awards..the skit was really funny.I laughed till my tears come out.I didn't know CQ was involved again and he was busy with 881 as well..Anyway Zhou Jia Ming was good and I glad Elvin got the fav male character. :)
I didnt wanna go down to catch it at studio this year..anyway the guest Daniel Chan was really handsome..faint faint.Looking forward to show 2 next week at RWS :) I will be going down..

Well life has been fine but I was kind of sad coz we heard a news today.our dear ex sec sch classmate Syafiq met with a motorbike accident and he passed away.He was so young.sigh.no doubt we aint close as we have not contacted him since we graduated, it was sad to know that. We were in the same class throughout.Pray that the family and friends will be able to get over it as time goes by. Life is short, cherish pple around you.

I shall end here.

Happy day!

Very long never felt so happy. No doubt is already midnight but just update.

Well for weekend, I went out with Mum to catch Perfect rivals and then we head down to NEx mall to shop and had dinner there. Glad to see Xing yu there due to I weekly event. I saw Bryan and Lee Teng. I didnt stay long, just a short while and went off to shop.
I have been going back earlier lately even if it is weekend.
Good gal ya! haha

As for Sunday, I didnt wake up on time for service :( Overslept.
Anyway went to have curry rice at kitchener road with family.Finally have it after having craving for some time.Yummy & Great! Daddy brought durians for grandma to eat after that. I don't really like and beside I was too full to consume it.Even our helper love to have it.

As for Mon which is yesterday, I went for an interview. Seriously I didnt have go for lots of interview,I got the job. :) thx God! really happy. I am not sure how it goes for the future, just have to see how it goes and do my best. After one big round, I am back to the same industry. I feel that I can learn more and it suits me, no doubt I might be more busy and stressful. I love the challenges since I am not studying now. I have to study for the papers that they wanna us to have. It's fine with me since company pay for it. Good.Who knows in 5 yrs time, my career pace will advance? let's see.No doubt I might not be good in it now, but who knows one day what kind of path will I take. Beside He is around, everything will be fine.It's amazing how He works in our life. I experience it way many times, that why I believe. I am a person who believe in what I see and not only hear pple saying it etc..I need assurance and I need evidence.

Anyway I bought new tshirt from Stage..so happy.still have free gift key chain..hhaa..so embarrassing!Reward myself..I bought koi milk tea as well plus potato chips and biscuits :P

Having a good rest and relax as I gonna start work on wed which is tml..end here

Kite Flying

Another update again after some time..Well busy uploading the photos taken at Marina Barrage on Sat since it is sunday now.Past midnight.We had fellowship.No doubt not many went especially the youngsters but I had fun though we didn't really know how to fly a kite :P It's a good experience.Hopefully we can master it next time.
Thank God for the weather as it was raining before that, after that the weather was great to fly the kite during the evening and we saw rainbow though.Night view was great as well as the moon was the brightest and nearest for the night and lots of stars.

I felt so happy. No doubt there was bad news the day before, after that gd news came and CQ got in top 42 together with Pf. We were so happy. Guess what, they make a mistake as a result their name were not in. I even wonder is it true and it turns out to be true.Hopefully he can get top 10 again. Jia you!

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Thoughts simply run while I am alone..Everyone's perception of life is different.

You must be wondering why am I talking about it out of a blue.Well somehow I realise some people ,like my friends, they don't ask for much. They just want a simple life whereby they can earn some income for a living and they are contented with their life.They just have to be a little thrifty if they do not earn that much.They enjoy reading, playing games or taking care of dogs.
I can feel that they are happy with their life.

A lot of times, perhaps our expectation are higher as we aim to achieve better things in life. How do you feel after you achieve them? Somehow you will aim to achieve even more things in life? Perhaps I do not know how it feels to earn more money every month, somehow I know that the more you earn, means the harder you work. At the end of the day, do you have the time to enjoy life with the money? I see alot of people working so hard and yes they earn alot,end up falling sick or too busy to even enjoy life. Why is everyone still aiming to achieve it then? Expenses simply too high though..Well who doesn't hope that we can earn that amount that we want and we can retire early , enjoying life, going for holiday and do whatever we like without worrying about money. Am I right? Money is never enough.

I have been asking myself what do I want in life right now. Well I wish that I can have a job that has prospect so that it can be my career throughout. After that I can relax a bit, save up for rainy day cash and also go for holiday etc without worrying that I do not have enough money.Even taking up lessons that I longer for.When will this day come? I have not been giving up. I just have to work harder. Sometime when I don't wish to think , I rather read my books or even get engrossed in my dramas.At least they make me happy and occupied. At the end of the day, I still feel empty though. My life simply lack of certain stuff.It takes time.

Right now,having a stable job will help me pick up my life and start afresh.At least I am not feeling so down right now, learning to accept whatever that is coming my way.I believe there will be a way out. Simply not sure how it goes, don't wish to think.Hopefully the right person will come into my life too.

Pray that everything will be fine.

I end here.

Wow I have not been updating for two weeks..

Feb's weekends had been great and fruitful..Update about previous weeks first..

12 Feb Sat: We had fellowship in church which is lou hei since it is still CNY and Don't forget the lyrics games.It was fun..Yama sang Huang Pin Yuan's song wor..We went to play the game but we dunno the lyrics though..It's alright.After that we left earlier as we head down to J's grandma's wake.

13 Feb Sun: As usual went to church and followed by going to Sentosa Flower with Jufri, HL and Yamashita-san. Lots of nice flowers and we took alot of photos. As it was the last day for the festival, many people were there.We spent about 2 and an half hours there.

19 Feb Sat: It was Yu Yan's birthday celebration at costa sand pasir ris so sec sch friends such as yy & gf, wl & bf,kk, bh, bt, Jamin,etc went down and we have fun gathering having buffet and playing card games..its more like having a gathering there instead of birthday celebration.No one stayed over though except the host herself and her bf..

26 Feb Sat which is yesterday, finally Lam Fung's concert was here right in Singapore Expo Max Pavillion..Raymond Lam Desire Tour Live in S'pore 2011.woo!!
Seriously nothing surprising except the part whereby Myolie 胡杏儿 came out to sing 我愿意 together with Lam fung. Kate couldnt make it if not it will be even more high with hot dance..It was rather the same as M'sia one and then all the same as Hk except that the costumes are different.M'sia and S'pore use the same costumes and dancers..Starting is of course start of with Hello! He sang many songs from Come to me, Let's get wet, Illusion, 定镜，我们很好，爱不疚，爱在记忆中找你 etc. He got fans to go up stage to sing with him. One guy and one gal.The guy's vocal was great, even Fung was impressed.The high part was actually him going down to interact with the audiences and all the fans crowd around him til he cannot walk to the back til he tried once but I cannot catch him coz all the fans are blocking..not able to see at all..It's alright, shall wait for dvd and hopefully he can hold his concert again next year and probably at S'pore Indoor stadium. I realise that the audiences consist of different age group therefore some of them not too high.
Everyone sat down to see his performances.He asked if he should speak canto or mandarin since some fans shouted to him, asking him to speak in canto. After that he decided to speak a little of each but he spoke mandarin more and he said that this is the first time he start of with mandarin. He was jokingly saying perhaps he can speak hokkien also hhaa..one auntie smiled.. :P He was loved by all ages..I saw many aunties and uncles there..

It started at 8.15 and end around 10.50. It was a good experience..the crowd lost control at the end whereby Lam Fung walked to the back which is section c..you can see how high the fans are..that should be the way.. :P Encore with 3 songs and the concert ended..He seem to be rather nervous or tired..his face so serious..Overall good! so glad to see his live performance..
I remembered the part whereby he can sit down and sang, the moment he sat down, fans told him to stand up..He was jokingly saying, I stood for so long, you all dun let me sit..hhaaaaa..funny sia..

As for today is church and lunch and went home to rest..I have uploaded the concert's photos..Waiting for Fung to come and promote his chinese album.It will be out during march..very soon..oh yeah..

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Somehow though CNY is still around coz it is 15 days but everyone is back to work and I can't pull myself out of bed today.Really too tired and I take leave :P rest and do my stuff.Thoughts just run..well It's a great great world is alright, looking forward to watching homecoming though. NO luck for opportunity yet. I am not sure what is installed for me.Is it the place that I am in now? seriously I still don't know and its already a Lunar new year and I am still no where.Not able to plan for holiday break as long as it is not stable. I really not sure what to say.Take a step at a time.

I shall end here.

CNY

Well is already midnight and here I am blogging once again.I start off with few posts this year..

Well 1st day of cny, as usual at both grandma's place and this year I went to my mum's uncle house as well. (Peh Gong, not the one pple worship)..lol..

2nd day was at home catching hk drama and doing my stuff and I went to angbao river with Mum and head to MBS as well..My third time to MBS.
Well before heading there,I heard a bad news. Cousin Wendy's hubby passed away on first day of CNy due to a car accident and he was dead on the spot.sigh. He was so young,mid 30s and he has two daughters who are so young. Life is short. I attended their wedding few years back and sad to hear that. I believe they are married less than 10 years,the most7-8 yrs..long way to go but he left already. I guess is predicted..When your time is up, means is up..so let's cherish our life and live to the fullest.

I won't be able to go for the wake as it is in M'sia and is not at johor..need 4-6 hrs of journey to the place.may the Lord grant my cousin and family the strength, peace and comfort. THat's all that I can do for them, to pray for them.

I am meeting buddies later on, going Ame's house to play games and enjoying our BT.
I would be catching movie with my mum , plus HL and YAma tml after service..IT's a great great world! I wanna watch homecoming too..Shall find a day.

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Well I just realise that this is only the 2nd post of this year. Perhaps I rather tweet about then blog about it.Don't wish to express too much? This few weeks had been fine I guess, working as temp staff and you know the obligation of working. After all I still feel insecure.I felt emo for too long cause me to break down that day. I guess I feel better after that. Life goes on. No matter how upset we are, we have to pick ourselves up. I read fromShow's book. I never regreted getting his book and gain life knowledge from his mum. Luo Mama rocks! It's an inspiration, motivation book. I believe obstacles will come and no doubt I still don't have the mood, I will continue to move on coz I am not easily defeated isn't it? I am trying to be positive though I know deep down I am really not happy with life yet. When can I be happier? It's me.Only I can help myself, I know that.Sometime is easier to say than done.Continue to look out for perm job.

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