Troubled

Today didnt go out. Some things just happen so sudden tt I dunno how I should react and somemore I knew it just pretend dunno.y it happen 2 me and I make someone sad .I feel bad.I can only say sorry.love cant be forced.not one is two But I dun like.end here

long time never blog

hi.I am back..long time never blog..recently been working in Hang ten ..currently not working le..now using frenz com to blog..I just end my job on wed..hope to get a new job ..is nice working with kent etc..but after all I still need to leave..u see..anyway I will still go back n visit them..miss them though..hheee..My dear going army soon..nowaday really not enough time..seldom spend time together..he working and I also working..

I dunno when I can update my blog again..shall see..sunday going pray ah gong..well waiting for my pay so I can rebond hair.. haiz.. well..I dunno wat to update le..there are so many things to say..I guess I wont type in all here..that will be super long u see..just dun have much time nowaday..weekend busy working..

alright I end here..

Going to work

Well have job le going 2 work on thur le.hang ten near my place. Yeah! Just went 2 bbq on sat n yesterday went 2 pong chalet at changi. His birthday. Tml go cut hair.kind of mixed feeling going 2 work ,excited. Can earn money

Went to Amelia's house

Today went to Amelia's house..My dear at thailand lor so gd sia having holiday but will be back soon..dunno how is he.just recieve his msg and know he is fine..great.Weather not tt gd today look like going to rain heavily wor..just get a bubble tea wor..nan de can blog on a weekend.. My skin still sun burn due to wed lor ..go jurong swimming complex and have fun end up having sunburn..sigh..my nose's skin start peeling lor..look like snake..lol..I have been at home for two days..didnt want to go out also dunno where to go..luckily didnt go where as it rains this few days ...somemore heavily..

Talking abt wed ar..went to jurong in the morning..then have fun til 2 plus we went to have shower..12 of us went lor.masturah , dayana, hadi they all..after that went to seoul garden to have lunch..should be dinner le ar..4 plus then ate..so hungry sia..ate til 6 plus then went home..

Tml going to bedok lor bai ah gong..sian have to go that person house..cant be helped..for ah gong sake..anyway guess cousins will go ba..hope so..end here..

Today feel sian lor didnt go out.kind of tired.thinking of working.manage 2 blog using my hp,guess this month bill sure expensive .going out tml with dear and other friends 2 jurong swimming complex.didnt get to sleep well today caúse of yesterday which i dun want 2 mention end here

Last day of sch b4 exam

Well hasnt been blogging this few days..mm..finally come to the last day of sch haa coz tml staying at home to revise work..time flies..I think I cant bear to leave the sch as I spend the happiest time in ITE with my frenzs and nice lecturer like Mr Ramu..plus hee using the com very gd sia..flat screen de..opps..hhee like going to sch for that..no la..

Exam coming and then graduate liao ..mm..planning to go out next week..so far wed confirm going out le..thinking of going kbox ..wonder anyone wants to go on weekdays..shall see..maybe make it next next week..

First time to do is to go n cut my hair after exam..so long n I find it messy..sigh..

Ok la end here..dunno when will blog again..guess wont really blog le..

well todayI feel tired..didnt update blog for a few days..nothing much though just went on AL on wed coz nian jin..mm..then whole day I was tired..came back to sch abit blur coz there is new things to be learn for Aoa lesson..anyway manage to catch up..heng..exams around the corner..nowaday more busy..more work n go home help to do some housework ..light one though very fast can finish :) quite alright..

I feel sian have to do excel rather do at home..tired lor..end here

Moody..

Today wake up later than usual as there is no sw lor.. :) yeah..Mum was like asking me..how come never wake up, no sch ar..I heard someone talking to me when I was sleeping..I said 7.30pm..then sleep some more..I feel bad as yesterday just has a quarrel lor..haiz..a very harsh one though..making my mood still not back to normal yet.. haiz..

Now update about yesterday..nothing much lor..stay at home read story bk and watch tv..I was feeling sad though ..cried haiz..
Sat went to catch a movie..Watched Big Mama House 2 with Vin at Marina Square and then went to take some pics at merlion park then went to eat dinner and went to IT show at Suntec lor..bought an ear phone..sigh This is the 3rd ear phone that I was using..dunno why the previous ones that I bought was spoilt so fast...

Alright end here..

Sian..

Well just have a presentation..marketing project presentation.How I wish my dear listening when I am presenting..just give me some support or wat..I can sense he isnt..I didnt see la coz if I look at others, I cant present so I just look at Mr Ramu..most likely didnt listen to me..when others presenting he wasnt listening.. sad..his group not yet present..I guess I can do the same..when he presents I dun listen..dun care about him.. I dunno why I mind so much..perhaps that he is my bf ba..

I dunno la dun care..do work ba..end here

sian..

Well today I wasnt happy..yesterday cant sleep..end up today tired and like no strength..every day get nag..then being say I was useless or what..how I feel?..I dunno how should I think..cause get used le ba..i just want to have a peaceful day ..end up sometimes parents talking, can talk til us de..We really no gd meh in their eyes?? really so useless?

Just went to have lunch at kfc yeah..so full..I didnt even tell anyone abt how I feel today..just tell my bf that I didnt feel happy.I feel that it is no point wat..So wat if I share..I just feel if I study also get said..dun study also say me..I really must make sure I come out and earn money..then earn money myself..see wat pple can say abt me..I dun care what others say..but my own parents sometime seem to say something that they think they should say, but have they think of how we will feel?
sometime I dun even bother to talk to them so much nowaday.I rather keep to myself..then wont get scolded or wat..sometime dun talk also wrong..talk also wrong..wat they want me to do leh?? sigh..
I guess cant think so much..just study lor..exams coming.
Even if I think so much also no use de...

End here..

Flu..

Sian I still having flu..my brother la..plus weather hot..flu for quite long still not ok..anyway I have eaten medicine..sian..usually flu n cough is very xin ku..sian..anyway sch going to end soon.everyday in aircon room I wear jacket..scare that I will catch a cold..abit tired now..*yawn... wonder wat to eat for lunch lor..sian..maybe getting hungry??

Alright end here..dunno wat to blog le..tml going to pray ah gong ba..two weeks never go out with dear le.. :(

So fast March

Well..Today feeling sian right now..I went to hand in my application form and realise there is a need 2 attach o level cert to it..which I didnt..I feel I am blur..or didnt understand there is a need.. sian..actually today has cca and I dun intend to go home after that coz it is a waste of time u see..but cant be helped have to go haiz..

I feel tired sia..like no mood lor..I just hope to settle stuff then I will feel ok le..end here..

Well I have decided to give it a try to apply for poly..I will see when the results are out wat I can do lor..no point thinking so much..mm.. I know I want to go ..but now choosing which poly to apply..only can apply the courses from one poly which I cant mix..so sian..still considering..perhaps nyp coz nearer.. still not very sure wat course I may take as I dun want to regret..I already decide le..but I want to know more about the courses lor..hee now looking through then decide

alright end here.. :)

Well today just completed my frontpage project ..yeah..finally done..last few days was busy..I didnt do very nice one..I just do a simple one but with effort put in though..I just hope is ok..hhee now I can slack le..tml then hand in the work..yeah..exams coming I must study le..today go home n look through marketing ba..at least read through lor..so for aoa lesson, I will be free le.done with my work..yeah..maybe can edit somemore or wat..I shall see..but I think it is fine le..

Getting hungry lor..going to have lunch soon..anyway my poor brother sick ..wonder if he is ok le..hope so..now raining sian..guess dear cant play soccer..so sad..very sacrastic ar?? hhee dunno leh just dun want him to get hurt..later legs pain etc..haiz..end here..

Today feel sian..We can apply for poly le..for my results I may get in or may not..but I guess I not studying ba..Actually I know my dream is to go in to poly to study..I am still young I want to get a diploma cert..Juz feel that so fast I have to go out to working life ..I wasnt very experienced too..I get a bit worried u see.haiz..Maybe work lst then pursue my dream ba..I want to get at least a diploma cert lor..sometime others dunno how I feel..studying in poly not cheap either..I dun have the ability now..what to do..Just have to work first... :(

Now want to try to complete my AOA project..frontpage..I see others do like very nice..Just want to do a simple yet nice de.. nvm I trying my best to do it le :) yeah..go n do work le..end here

Well today long hrs of lessons..now my eyes abit dry I cant tahan..mm..update abt last two days..went out on sat and sun..sat went out with dear to bugis to upgrade my hp plan and he went to see camera at sim lim square..we got wat we want..hhee I buy hp , he buy camera..yeah.I didnt get the phone that I want..I get a cheaper de with a contract of plan..mmm was alright la quite nice to use ..pink colour de..It was quite meaningful on sat lor..went to get stuff and go shopping too..then went to hawker centre to have dinner..

Sunday which is yesterday went to san qing gong with mum n bro to pray ah gong..It seem abt 2 weeks never go?? I guess so..just hope he knows we went..then went to visit ah ma in bedok ..We also went to sam's house to view his new flat then went to fourth ah yi house a while..makes me so tired sia coz I have nothing to do..went home around 4.30pm..I plan to go and find my bf but I was tired plus it is getting late..later reach home very late..End up didnt go..sigh..

alright la end here

Sad

Well today nothing much just start to do my frontpage project lor..resumes..hhee done one page le..

Now update about yesterday..heard a bad news..the photos that we taken during chalet, plus valentine day..all gone..the photos develop out are blank..sad lor..wasted..lucky some vin's frenzs has..just that the pics dun have me.. *sob..so unlucky..dear was sad me too..that i can cry u know..anyway over is over..just have to take pics again..birthday de cant be helped..others de still can take again..haiz..just that there are alot of memories lor.. fated..haiz..should have back up lor..anyway watever I say also too late le..

Guess tml going out and he will buy a new one..have to buy..coz I want to take pics leh..maybe can go sim lim square and buy lor..go check out the prices..

Happy Birthday Vin..

Well today is my dear's birthday..hhee later going catch a movie and eat something..he says yoshinoya ..ok anyway I have the voucher ..hee.. dear xin fu ar..sat have birthday de bbq today I acc him..then didnt go for my dance lor..

Well update abt yesterday..valentine day I went out with dear to Marina square. We ate at pizza hut, ate the heart shape pizza meal..it was nice..with drinks..soup, chicken wings and dessert, a mini strawberry cake..yucks not nice de the cake..I dun like..food was very filling..so full lor..the service was good too..hhaa..lol ..As dear had to work, he only spend time with me til 5pm ..kind of sad coz only a few hours..But it is better than not spending time with me.. :) We took some pics too..
hhee he gave me one pink rose..hhaa coz if he give 3 roses without wrapping is not nice..but how I wish I have more than that..pink roses nice..he has he giving me more roses the next day..I dunno wait and see lor..

Guess that all that I want to update..end here..

I didnt blog for a few days..mm..now update about this few days..I went to dear's chalet at changi civil service club to check in with him on friday..10 feb..then ate rojak and keep him acc til I went home at 4 plus..just be together for 2 hours..hhee..I have to go home..then Hadi, Andrew and Chandra reached so they keep him acc..hhee they played PS2..they are like so excited while playing game..lol..hhaa How I wish I can keep him acc more..but cant..

Well then I went to his birthday party on sat..which is the day before..bbq lor..I feel that it wasnt fun coz dear get sabo by his guys frenz with water bomb..i wasnt happy about it..just cant help him ..but then try to make sure he is dry..I just scare that he is wet..then he will catch a cold..I guess whoever is in my shoes will feel unhappy right?? But I cant stop in time as he already get wet..haiz..21st birthday hhaa..actually not yet 21 la..he celebrate earlier hhee..

Well I reached the chalet with Jufri at 4 plus but he wasnt in..I was disappointed as I thought I will see him the moment I got there..is ok..anyway he was back from collecting cake around 6..
I guess I didnt want him to get "bullied" then I was like a kola bear hhaa stick to him which wasnt like wat i used to be....I dunno..helping him to take things and then acc him upstair whenever I can..

I ate a little bit of food only as the fire was slow sia..it was windy u see..the weather gd..mm..then at 9 plus he cut the cake ..yeah chocolate cake ..sweet but nice..then I help him to take pics lor..hhaa then his frenzs tease us..was shouting..kiss kiss..Of course we didnt ..this is private thing..shy shy la hhee wont do it in front of so many pple right??

I went home around 11 ..Vin's bro drive me home..of course with dear inside the car acc me to my door step :) so sweet..
although didnt enjoy much but treat it as a gathering lor..not so bad lah..just dun feel happy coz his gals frenzs seem planning to sabo him but seeing tt I wasnt happy about it they didnt do it lor..lucky lor..if not I sabo them lor.. then I slept around 3am that night..I couldnt get to sleep ..haiz..

Yesterday just stay at home..feel tired as I wake up around 9 plus..cant sleep further sia..dunno why..then afternoon take a nap..didnt do anything lor..too tired..well Vin feel more tired though..

alright end here..

I didnt blog for a few days..mm..now update about this few days..I went to dear's chalet at changi civil service club to check in with him on friday..10 feb..then ate rojak and keep him acc til I went home at 4 plus..just be together for 2 hours..hhee..I have to go home..then Hadi, Andrew and Chandra reached so they keep him acc..hhee they played PS2..they are like so excited while playing game..lol..hhaa How I wish I can keep him acc more..but cant..

Well then I went to his birthday party on sat..which is the day before..bbq lor..I feel that it wasnt fun coz dear get sabo by his guys frenz with water bomb..i wasnt happy about it..just cant help him ..but then try to make sure he is dry..I just scare that he is wet..then he will catch a cold..I guess whoever is in my shoes will feel unhappy right?? But I cant stop in time as he already get wet..haiz..21st birthday hhaa..actually not yet 21 la..he celebrate earlier hhee..

Well I reached the chalet with Jufri at 4 plus but he wasnt in..I was disappointed as I thought I will see him the moment I got there..is ok..anyway he was back from collecting cake around 6..
I guess I didnt want him to get "bullied" then I was like a kola bear hhaa stick to him which wasnt like wat i used to be....I dunno..helping him to take things and then acc him upstair whenever I can..

I ate a little bit of food only as the fire was slow sia..it was windy u see..the weather gd..mm..then at 9 plus he cut the cake ..yeah chocolate cake ..sweet but nice..then I help him to take pics lor..hhaa then his frenzs tease us..was shouting..kiss kiss..Of course we didnt ..this is private thing..shy shy la hhee wont do it in front of so many pple right??

I went home around 11 ..Vin's bro drive me home..of course with dear inside the car acc me to my door step :) so sweet..
although didnt enjoy much but treat it as a gathering lor..not so bad lah..just dun feel happy coz his gals frenzs seem planning to sabo him but seeing tt I wasnt happy about it they didnt do it lor..lucky lor..if not I sabo them lor.. then I slept around 3am that night..I couldnt get to sleep ..haiz..

Yesterday just stay at home..feel tired as I wake up around 9 plus..cant sleep further sia..dunno why..then afternoon take a nap..didnt do anything lor..too tired..well Vin feel more tired though..

alright end here..