today woke up at 7 plus..coz going out with Vin and his frenzs..we went to the zoo..Vin said meet me at 8.50..i knew he would be late so i take my own sweet time..9pm then reach amk mrt station..then wait for vin's frenzs..then wait for bus 138 directly to zoo.. abt 10 plus we reached zoo..6 of us went..went to walk around take pics..see lots of animals..got black pigs so cute..have snakes ..lions..sheeps..cows..horses..monkeys..cute sia..monkeys ' butt so cute..red red de..hhee
donkeys lah..alot of animals..cant finish mentioning if I going say out all..

Weather was fine..not sunny..but abit humid..hhaa Vin whenever there is air con facilities he would go in enjoy the air con..hhaa his frenzs and I were thinking he came to zoo to enjoy aircon or to look at animals..lol..there were seats he would sit down n rest..and he sweat alot..
Kind of hot ..I suggested he carried air con on his back..haaa bad ar:P..really wat..that will be cooling..

We went around til abt 2 plus then had lunch..went Kfc..Vin lah not enough cash never drew money..hhaa entrance de i help pay abit lst..is ok lah..nvm..then regarding food we were like coz of it unhappy..can see his face..he was angry..kind of small problems lah..after a while was ok..Then i felt a bit guilty..make him angry etc..apologise lor..but he always said he didnt blame me..i just felt bad..coz sometimes i speak without thinking n sparing of pple's thoughts..then after eating he said he felt cold and he went out lor of the shop..i left him alone.know he feel unhappy..then a while then go out..after that we walked like separate ways..just dun want get near him.kind of unhappy also..but after that was fine..we went to walk around a while then went home at 4 plus..

We are like tt..not lst time liao..haiz.. going 5 mths..then we like argue or quarrel dunno how many times..sometime i been thinking..let says we go on as far as 5, 6 years..how ar..everytime like tt ..sian right? and is tiring..
i dunno..
oh ya Ke Qi called me when i was going back home..asking me if i can work on fri..ntuc lor..distribute stuff..haiz..thinking fri can rest..but can earn money go lor..work 3 days...never rest..just hope mon i feel ok..surely very tired..wonder must i give account no. or wat coz haven say yet for my pay..
mm..legs abit tired..ache ar..walk whole day sia..I ok lah..ate dinner feel ok..right now abit sleepy..later go to bed earlier..end here..bye

Tired today..woke up ten plus..meeting vin for lunch..at lst meet 12.30 then he called me and say meet 1pm coz he not ready yet..sch have things not yet finished..then i watched tv lor..5566 variety show..nice..but duno which team won coz i went to meet vin le..

Ate lunch with him then went to library ..he borrowed bks..then went home..Coz he needed to do project ..he met lw and gl lor..
mm..i feel tired..went home take a nap..then awake up call..Ke Qi called me le..telling me to work at giant bedok..not bad lah..although far but is a gd location..i feel happy..
coz can start work liao..

I am glad tt i got a job..coz i guess is very useful now..right now..we are abit troubled..haiz..money problems..tight lah..wat to do..why he do that..now like no route lor..i somehow dun want write de..but this how how i feel..dun write i no way to express out..dun want to tell vin..coz after is family stuff ..say liao no one can help..make me fan..
anything also can but why tt..this is not a route..can make things worse..Mum so angry abt it..
I can understand..she hold it too long never say anything de..I just feel helpless..
right now i just feel tired..just now headache..i maybe want to avoid..so i keep myself busy..
ok lah dun feel like typing further..end here..

Today wake up still tired..woke up at eleven plus..then watch tv..ate lunch..tired lor..watch horror movie after tt..scary but nice..i like nothing to do leh...so sian..finish watching tv i went to rest a while..wl called me asking if she could come our house use com..i resting so she comes later..abt 6 like tt..

at night cant watch 5566 tt variety show coz dad watching another channel..sigh..anyway tml can watch..but i meeting vin for lunch..he going sch tml..mm..anyway is ok ..see him better right..kind of tired now..just now chat..hhaa 9pm de variety show kind of funny..sometime very lame lah..ok lah got to sleep..tired liao..frenzs n dear log off leh so i also sleep lah..bye

Today wl came my house at 10.40.wow i have not enough sleep like tt..wake up at 9.45..i lie in bed a while..then thinking wl coming so i woke up.then watch tv ..have lunch ..went out after tt..
Went out with dear to suntec to catch movie..Hitch..wow suntec alot of pple..the cinema no good..i feel kind of small..we sat at E but seem like quite infront lor..some pple even sat nearer..
the movie was funny..nice..but watch til abit tired ba..starting was like boring..not bad ..
after movie..we went shop around..then went to eat dinner..go marina square renovating lor..no wonder cant go giant there work..so we headed to merlion park..alot of pple..well we sat down n relax..is so relaxing..this time i never think of anything..then sat til abit tired liao..then a bit headache when i going home tt time..dear send me home as usually..he also felt tired..i should have ask him go home straight..but i didn't..nvm..he wanted send me home wat.is ok..

mm..alright i end here..tired..think i go to bed le..night

Today not tt tired..i drank coffee..hee then HRA lesson we study abit and play games..wow so difficult to fix those pieces into the shape stated..i tried so hard only can reach stage 2..
then go for a break..then go for ent ..late for ent..Mr Teo the relief teacher finding us..Kai ling called me..hhaa i in the canteen..then go self access room since nothing to do for ent..finish project already..well then so packed in there..i go library lor..

For IT i let Mrs Yeo approve my draft and i did a bit of project..right now dun want to do..i relax abit haa..actually kind of lazy to do i guess..hhaa.afternoon i took a nap..
just sleep a while awake..but at least i rest ..then ate dinner and watched tv..

wow hungry now ..hhee later going to eat after i blog..mm..
today went to have lunch at tp central..then go library with Vin..guess wat..he surprised me..is like so mushy to call each other dear by saying out..so we didnt ..haa he called me dear today..i thought i heard wrongly u see.then i ask him wat he called me? so sweet of him..for me i find it mushy ..sometime cant express myself tt much regarding such stuff..so i seldom say out ba..instead i msg lor..
Is happy to spend time with him..anyway i borrow html bk from the library ..I have not read yet..i guess read on sun..I just dunno why have alot of thoughts so i ask him some things and told him some things in the library..
I know i care abt his feelings..sometime just thinking am I too close with Jufri..not so gd u see..but i know we are friends wat..so is ok..besides he says he don't mind..but surely will mind abit ..cause that is normal.I guess pple around can see that Bro joined our group for lunch etc..well..just a frenz n bro to chat with..this time I am very sure He is purely my bro only nothing more than that..

Today go to sch wow tired..maybe coz i didnt sleep at ten yesterday..right now i also feel tired..sleepy ..but i want to blog then sleep..mm..ent nothing to do today..i did my IT stuff hhaa..not really do alot..did a bit..then cbz lesson..copy some stuff..wow tired sia hear Ms lee talked..earlier dismiss after tt
then so early..i called ke qi..regarding work..wow marina square giant not opened yet..so i fan..duno where i be located at..Ke Qi asked me sat ,sun can go parkway ma take over hazel..hazel takes off wat..so far so i say i not free lor..maybe should say i got something on cannot..bad ar..wat to do..i dun want..so cant be helped..
so waiting for her call to tell me where i be located..haiz..then think abt it i moody..sian lor in sch..
but ok lah when i am back home..
IT lesson Mrs yeo wanted to see draft..i let her see towards end of lesson then she told me n YH let her see tml..
then at night kanna scolded coz forget tak e out tissues and clothes put inside washing machines..tissues become alot of pieces..haiz..not purposely wat..wat is done is done..
anyway after tt ok liao..she is like tt scold liao fine le..
ok lah just now did a bit of research n chat..i go sleep now is late already..

Today..IT lesson nothing much.Mrs Yeo just taught the frame thing..then we do..well she was unhappy with our class.saying that 3/4 of the class are doing ent stuff in her lesson..I dunno her..yup maybe is right not gd to do in her lesson..but i feel she has mood swing de..old liao can't be helped..she is 50 plus..so can have frequent mood swing hhaaa..so in the end Yan Hong didnt print ent stuff..hazel was away due to some family matters..

Sw as usual sian..play basketball..dun want play those that i need to run de..no strength after sw..then went for lunch ..after that is Cbz lesson ..go through notice of meeting lor..nothing much then Ms lee told me to put the agenda stuff on the board..i write down..that all..hhaa she miss out the 2nd page which we had done the assignment 2..so she had to mark lor..haaa so cant return to us yet..

Wow KDs lesson we cant use B3-02 ..Mrs Tan's class using .In the end we have free period..nothing to do..go canteen n sit down eat titibits haa..then customer service..guess wat..Annie Koh came in to relief us..we were told when we saw her..sian lor..see her face..but hhaa her taste improved..surprising. she wear a dress pink in colour haaa looks fine..then Yan hong talks to her..i just listen while she talked to YH and Sophie..mm.she dun let us go early de..then in the end 5 mins earlier..I want change clothes wat..then she delayed..
so today 2 hrs we did nothing..boring..

after that cca..kind of moody ..tired also..mood swing u see..then was like IT lesson the mouse so difficult to use .sickening..then jive ..learn another thing i like kind of dunno..i impatience..coz i learn very slow..so i was kind of unhappy..then Ivy was asking me why..anyway i fine de lah..abit crazy this few days haha..
we finish jive..then next week no cca..so we will learn cha cha next next week.. :)

Ok lah i end here..tired after a whole day..got to go n sleep le.

Today go out abit later..bus come later but I am not late..just abit rush..then met Yan hong lor outside mrt station..nowaday dun want wait for each other..so troublesome..
well Cbz lesson, we go e tutor do SDL lor..then copy down the minutes of meeting stuff..stupid net..is so slow u see..when we want to proceed further , we cant access the page..so we dismiss after that since we cant use it..
customer service, Mrs lee didnt come..Mrs Tan relief us..hhaa that Mrs Tan who taught us Bzf last year..then Andrew ask her stuff and he n Jin lun talking abt Simon teo hhaa..that teacher who relief Mr Ramu..saying he treat gals different..like give more attention to gals..i duno true or not..the way they describe is so funny..i was just sitting right infront..which is teacher table right in front of me..haaa..Mr Teo was like gals hurt or wat..he will say u hurt ur hands ar.u ok ma hhaa be more careful leh..I dunno that wat Andrew says.. hhaa

after that is HRA before lunch..usually this timing i will go canteen as usual eat abit of snacks lst ..Hungry..hee
HRA i feel like sleeping..so sleepy..Mrs Quek taught unit 8..
lunch time..alot of time and left 4 of us..MF, YH, KL and me..Hazel, Bro didnt come..BRo on mc lor..
then we was like talking abt Alan Kor kor hhaa..then it was so funny that we laugh alot sia..talk abt his marriage..bad sia..say his wedding at void deck..opps..kor kor hear liao sure kill us..so shhhh..cannot tell him at all..hhaaa we are so naughty ar? but so fun..
Ent lesson was boring.nothing much..I started to do my IT project..done a page..
then Kds mm..as usual type..we go B3-02 wow tt new com room..gd man..have internet access but cant go messenger..so sad..

After sch i went to best denki..send my hp for repair..Vin lent me his spare hp..8250..actually his dad de..but not using liao..i use for the time being..well have to wait 3 to 4 weeks then can collect back my hp..haiz..plus repair ..my hp stuff all gone..i feel xin tong..mean alot to me u see..those msg etc..i kept so long..
cant be helped is gone..haiz.then trying to get used to using nokia phone..still ok lah..starting wow cant get used.when u msg keep msg wrongly is very fed up de...ok lah end here..right now want chat hee..

Today's mood not bad..wake up ,on my hp knowing tt dear will msg me..yeah indeed..ask me wake up liao ma and eaten breakfast already..is nice to recieve his msg..is sweet although i get used liao..i like recieving it..anyway who dun like..
As usual i watch tv and have my lunch..afternoon did research for IT project..i did some things liao which is gd..
I also surt a while net for fun..sometime just too lazy to do project..then after that i rest.I went downstairs to buy titbits..feel like eating ..seem very long never eat already..very tempted to eat..
so i bought potato chip n cuttlefish..yummy..
I miss him today..is like seldom miss him nowaday u see..maybe cause i get to see him everyday..
today i didnt see him so i miss him ..
well maybe everyday study n do project i really dun have tt feeling..coz i only worry abt project..
but after doing my stuff..ok lah..
But i still think alot sometime..make me fan only..so dun think so much..
like today i talk to him i feel happy le..no need say so much or wat..end here..
i naughty should continue with project but i never ..still talking

TOday bored at home..but meet Bro he comes my house install frontpage..but sad to say not successfully..i meet him for lunch ..then he comes my house..
talk to bro very comfortable..can talk alot..today talk very little with him..neglect him ba.anyway he play game wat..
sometime i seem to tell hui or ling rather than tell him..maybe scare he upset..I have alot of thoughts sia..
but never tell him..i feel insecure ba..scare he busy..i busy..then slowly drift apart..like two weekends i never go out with him..i still find it ok.coz i see him on fri?
maybe ba..nvm work liao better..wont think so much..if really luv fade also cant be helped..feeling cant be controlled totally..if love means love..cant force if no feel liao..
i guess i dun want think so much..sometime also think he minds ma i close with bro..nowaday kind of close..
He like ok leh..why like tt..haa no jealousy?
maybe is trust ba..
getting tired hhaa..talk alot abt Vin with frenzs lazy to type here coz wat i want to say i already said liao..
no point repeating lor..end here..

Today I feel better not so tired..then abnormal..so siao in sch...crazy with Yan Hong.she says I am so high hhaa crazy..sometime i be like tt..now i thinking am i really happy? or trying to be happy? then want to be more happy so i like tt? Vin seem not happy i can see..i feel he may say cant bring me happinesss..like zhen hui ..feeling cant bring me happiness..then break..i dunno ..coz this time..my mum scold n nag nothing changes my mind..i still love him..i been thinking whether i have tt feeling ma..when i cry because of him..i knew..coz when i think i lost him i feel sad..tt is true love i guess..although he dun look handsome..he has bad characters..i still love him..coz when u love someone..no matter how he is..u still love de..coz we been through things..

but i may hurt him somehow when i say some things..but i told him liao i love him..coz maybe tt day i really no confidence i so troubled..then make him so sad ..i feel bad..then he been very gd to me ..like even better.i know he feels i suffer tt why..must give me extra care..coz he dunno wat to say..then yesterday he talks so little..
but the more caring he is..the more scare i am..sometime think too much.

well got to sleep..actually should sleep..but want chat..today dance with Andrew..alright lah..dance a few times..my legs tired..coz sw also..sian..so hot..
ok lah time to go sleep..so late liao..anything i update tml..
so longwinded hhaa

Today mood soso..then ent lesson we do things at study area..i cant tahan i cry again..then he asks me why..i never ans..i say nothing..i know he feel sad..i also dun want..just tt maybe really pressure liao plus think too much..then like tt lor..
then ent like more things to do..i so tired..coz lack of sleep..then have to do project..IT de i haven touch..like very long never feel the stress..stress is back..then cbz letter must do by next mon..i also haven do..then need to print this n tt..sian..then the etutor siao siao..dunno lah..
I still ok lah..after a cry i feel better..right now must sleep..tired liao..
btw Ke Qi calls me ..i got the job..i know i got it then she confirm me le while i on the way home..Marina square..i being working on 26 march..onwards..glad i get it..just hope that I can cope with studies n work..
so end here..a short diary :)

Today a tiring day..I woke up is ok..coz last night i sleep at abt 12.40am..coz of settling things..Actually not that serious lah..abit fed up , boiling over some issue with him..then i ignore him today til lunch time..
I not angry actually..just dun feel like talking to him..then Hazel ask him go over our table n talk to me..mm..alright lah..everything is fine..just that ..i guess dun talk abt old issue then we wont agrue..

I given him the sweets that he asks me to buy for him..hhaa let him eat alot later tooth decay hha..so bad right? hhaaa..juz let nature takes its course..
I believe today cant sleep when i reach home..coz i need to do ent project..plus cbz assignment..need to type ent stuff..Feeling sleepy right now..yawn..i want to sleep..hhaa now in Cbz lesson..finish doing e tutoring stuff i blogging..so tonight i dun blog already..i will do project..
ok lah end here..

Today..wake up watch tv lor as usual on a sunday..mm..then took my lunch and ate medicine..i feel drownsy but cant sleep ..that is weird.maybe immune to it since i taken so many times..hhaaa..well i watch vcd with mum n after that take a rest..but couldnt sleep ..so i watch tv..mouth itchy today..eat love letters which i know i shouldnt coz my voice not yet recover fully..hhaa wat to do..i cant stand it..just feel like eating..i even ate cuttlefish..nevermind..i drank lots of water..

This few days I have been eating porridge..it is gd as it is bland and not oily..today ate chicken porridge..yummy ..is nice..mum cook de..well..at night i also ate porridge..i feel i can eat alot..dunno why..keep wanting to eat something..well..eat porridge it tastes bland the peanut n pork bone porridge..maybe because i ate medicine in the afternoon so it tastes bland..so i add sauce to it lor and pepper..
actually other than chicken porridge n fish porridge i guess the rest i dun like..
this porridge mum cook at for the lst time.still left alot as she cooked alot ..

Today i feel i rotting at home..nothing to do..read newspaper already watch tv already i kind of feel that i am so free..i dunno wat to do..maybe i too free that why ..when i work i be occupied everyday..which is gd..dun give me alot of free time so i wont think alot..
mm..just sign in to friendster just now..Jufri Brother writes me a new testi..hha wat low self esteem again..tt
bro ar..always say he going give me lesson on high self esteem if i keep on having low self esteem..dunno him lah.
ok lah i end here..

Today..woke up late..sleepy lor..maybe coz of medicine effect..i woke up at 12pm..nowaday doing nothing beside sleep..dunno wat i doing..waste time..haven start work..if start liao no time on weekends..so I must cherish the free time i have..maybe next week working..well..today eaten lunch eat medicine ..and rest..watch tv then sleep..
Today been thinking alot.maybe dun think too much..but sometime got to think..nowaday i sick..i didnt think much but sleep..hhaa pig liao..actually nothing much so dun write down..hee
well..wat to write ar..i also dunno..hhaa.lost for words..
hate to use blog..coz why cant keep it to myself..alot of pple can read..i dun like ..no privacy anymore..
why i give frenzs..
nvm lah..wat done is done..end here..

Today didnt go to sch as i plan to go see doctor..cough n sore throat haven recover although i eat medicine..so i see doctor..cough get worse..still no voice..I waited for the doc for 1 hr sia..so slow..wu gui..waited from abt9.40 to 10.40 sia..anyway i have nothing to do so is ok..then i bought newspaper n food n went home..

Yan hong msg me.wow didnt know actually she quite caring towards frenz..ask me twice ..once in the morning and another at night..glad to know she doing fine at the camp..we still keep in touch..b4 she goes camp she tells me she will msg me to tell me how the camp etc..

mm..glad to know when u r sick..lots of pple care for u..like bro lah..YH lah..KL lah all ask abt me..wow My Da Kor kor tt da sao never ask abt me..nvm..is ok.mm..lu give me a surprise..i tell him is ok dun need to acc me see doc..then he says he wont visit me today..but he came..he called me when he abt to reach..
then buy me herbal tea n barley drink..one for my brother..then sore throat sweet..i dunno how 2 spell the name:P
after seeing me he went off lor ..he going out after tt..

then i watch a while tv and went to sleep again..5 plus then wake up..so sleepy leh coz i eat medicine..but wei kou still gd..hungry..
have dinner abt 6 plus and ate one of my medicine..
after tt watch tv lor..oh ya heard there is hw to be done..tutorial questions..i do it tml ba..put it on my desk so i wont forget..

as usual..she nags again..same thing..dunno her lah..then fall sick again..fever..hhaa ..then no strength to nag..gd lor..bad ar..i still no voice..today seem talk alot..jia lat lor..
ok end here i write alot ..so longwinded ar..

Today sore throat maybe better..right now still pain..but i guess better..i still cant talk much..no voice..i feel is worse than yesterday..better dun talk..but i still talk in sch leh..but lesser..i want get well soon..cause cant eat this n that so sad..torture ar..hhaaa..i want eat wat..hazel they all dun let..hhaa abit like my mother..i guess my mum also wont like that..Vin also never control me..sigh..wat to do..like that lor..

mm..today de IT test alright lah..juz that query i did 3 times hhaa miss out certain fields lor for the relationship tt one..then redo..sigh..but manage to finish..lucky ..Phew wat a relief..so this time round still ok lah..
wow sudden cough alot of times..throat so irraited..tt why cough..ok lah end here..nowaday my diary short..hhaa sometime dunno wat to write and tired etc..i go n eat dinner le.. :)

Today suppose to be ok..coz i eat medicine..but i still cough alot..maybe aircon somemore..plus Sw..make my cough worse..still have sore throat..then after cca..i really no voice le..so ke lian..cant talk leh..

It is like that..usually immune system better de person( not saying i so gd lah) ...once get sick..is like all comes at the same time..poor me..starting fever de. last week..now cough n sore throat..hope it recovers soon..no voice so jia lat..cant talk..ok lah gtg..watch tv..end here..

Today ..I have a new Bro..hhaa he seems happy have a sis..i call him brother lor..glad tt brother back to normal..is gd to have bros..i abit greedy have 3 brothers..hhaa he is the 3rd bro i have..concern abt me..just hope he dun over concern i be ok..hhee Brother Jufri..this time i very sure i really just want be his sis tt all..nothing else..only bro sis relationship..hha ask me cut finger nails liao..abit concern ar just started to be my bro.. hope ok lah if not cant tahan him like wat YH says..hhaa

wow today cough n sore throat sian..keep coughing n sore throat ..throat very irraited..then eat sweet lor..
then eat medicine at night..can feel drownsy de but wat to do can feel better wat after tt..wow drownsy liao..got 2 sleep..hhaa anything i update tml..sian sw tml..hope my cough better tml..

Today I feel alright already went to sch..yesterday I was sick ..have slight fever..i hate being sick..anyway who likes to be sick anyway..well..i feel ok liao..but i still have sore throat..i must take care..
today lessons alright.. went to sch was a bit tired ..but after lunch ok already..
I dunno wat to type leh..like nothing much..wow today dear so gd..help me buy food for lunch..then help me to put back the bowl.but frankly speaking the kway teow soup not nice de..

ok lah end here..got lesson..

Today not tt tired as i sleep earlier yesterday..sch hrs shorter today..but i still go home late..I went for job interview at kallang..Hazel acc me lor..mm..her sales rep didnt say much..just ask me some question..then will call me next week or wat to confirm location.i will wait for her call...

mm..Mf sometimes very ke lian..i know she dun like our class.she dun have much to talk n dunno wat to talk ..
I can understand when u want to do project u dunno who to do with..and u are scare when u need to do group work tt no one pair with u or watever..I experience b4..is sad..lonely..But wat to do..only can tell her to join us or wat lor..
Today she cried leh i saw..dunno why lah..i guess becoz of this? i ask her she didnt tell me..mm..nvm maybe she dun want to tell..then For HRA she often calls me to ask abt it..she is hardworking..revising through her work..not like me hhaa lazy to flip as i reach home already late evening..tired etc...sometime i will lah..just read through..when she asks me to teach i dunno how..coz this is theory..theory u cant teach..wat i know is u have to read through n understand..

I believe sometime not juz me..teachers also cant stand her..asking alot..but sometime i ok lah..help her lor as a frenz..Hazel also cant tahan..coz tired or wat she calls us..sometime just come back she calls me..then in canteen or wat she dun talk much de..we all juz talk..she speaks so soft and canteen so noisy..hard to talk..

well i dunno lah..sometime dun bother so much lah..if not problems alot..ok lah end here..

today really tired during HRA lesson.really can fall asleep while hearing MRs Quek talking about the Evaluation form from company to appraise a staff..I think not just me falling asleep, the rest of the classmates also..so sleepy..

Cbz lesson lst period nothing much..log in the e tutor lor there is an assignment then need to print out..mm..i print at home..then print for Kai ling and Hazel too..Ms lee tells us to print..Ent as usually discuss lor stuff..then survey almost completed all ..yeah..left two more sheets to fill in..mm..Hazel not in sch then we amend wat i type the day b4..today de blog sound sian..coz i writing abt sch..sometime i dun ..coz there is nothing much to write abt sch hhaa.

Customer service we have a test..a surprise test..didnt know there is test..luckily is a test which we do not need to study de..then just take the test..KDS as usually lor type n type..type til i want to sleep.hhaa coz last lesson already..lesson end late also..

mm..today break abit sian..coz Hazel not around..left me , KL and Mf eating lor..then there is lots of time to waste.we ask pple do our ent project de survey lor..did alot hee left a few ..great man..

today de mood also not bad..we getting closer as time goes by..we behave in class..is gd..i guess like vin say we r stable liao after some many things happening..although never go out everyday or wat..we meet everyday in sch..in class..is gd lah..hope we stay the same like this for as long as we can..ok lah end here..later have to sleep early if not tml very tired cant dance..hhaa

Today tired .. yesterday so sleepy went off to bed earlier..yet today still tired..maybe coz yesterday wake up early and then stay back til 4 plus..surely tired..
I went out today with lu..went to bugis shop lor..although not long but alright lah..nowaday my mood is better..is gd lor..I can concentrate on my studies better..

wow nowaday weather hot..alot of mosquito..i get bite leh..so poor thing..i scratch here n there.n then legs n hands not nice le..last time still ok..nowaday is like everyday i scratch..i thought coz my room alot of things i display?? but not lah..my frenzs also get bited..well..poor us..
sometime itchy is not mosquito bites leh..duno wat happen..everytime kanna bite also no gd wat..wow weather also smoky..wat happen leh..must go n read news see how the gobal warming..i guess very jia lat..if not weather wont be so hot..35 leh..dunno abt this few days..

mm..wow heng lah..next sat open house i am not involved..i knew it coz of my standard..well..march have to perform no choice..we have to go to macperson there perform..then have to get an AL lor..sigh..miss lessons..but thur so early dismiss de..sian leh..rather other days then can leave no need study..no choice lah..

I tell Vin abt the flowers i throw away.cant be helped..never take care properly so smelly..i have to throw..is sad..cant bear to..is the lst flower he gives me..one week b4 valentine if not wrong..a fri..nvm..Valentine day de i still keep..hee i turn it upside down preserve it as dry flowers lor..they wither fast..coz i never put water? i did lah but not alot ..and not everyday..hhaa then wither lor..nvm still smell gd can already..ok lah end here

Today a better day i guess..at least it has been a better day which i did have a gd laugh today..seem like i didnt smile nowaday..even if i did..i asking myself ..am i bluffing myself or dun want others to worry ? life has to go on..so i act as if i am ok? i know deep in my heart i am unhappy..troubling me if the nagging continues..i am ok lah ..sometime hear liao haiz..forget it lor..just be myself..be gd gal..everything fine ba..i just have to let nature takes its course..til i cant take it..i may break down the most..
so far i have not shear a tear yet..dunno when will i do it..coz when i keep it too long surely there is a day i cant take it n i release out all..i been trying to pay attention..i feel today i did listen..which is gd..
i just want study lah..then be happy..i dun want think so much..is pointless to think as it cause me to feel sad n helpless only..
yesterday did went out eat lah n watch movie..so maybe mood better today..as long is firm..i believe is ok...
ok lah end here bye..

me

today got to wake up coz Wei Ling, Pei li, Wen n kor coming my house bai nian..they came in the morning.say abt 11 plus..pei li did come tt timing..but wl coz wait for wen wen hhaa come at abt 12..then kor last one to come..he very shy de..go where also like tt.but leh..in front of us always joke n tease us etc..very funny guy..gd too..can make our life fun..then he watch cartoon lor as usual..hhaa addict to it :P well then go to wen house..then went find wl at j8 and then went home..

mm..today awake can think of it..the moment my eyes open man..then feel moody n unhappy lor..not as if i want..then i feel head pain..headache lah..not enough sleep..chat til very late..today wont coz there is sch..i wonder v day there is mood ma..i dunno..just be happy lor..but i cant stop thinking..i thought i can..coz watch tv etc like ok liao..now still ok tt ok leh..maybe tml ok ba..need some time..i sleeping soon..end here..

today so sian..stay at home..morning hear pple nag..the volcano erupt..hhaa..dunno lah.. she dislikes me in relationship now then say..i start liao.. then wat quit sch siao..she getting mad..say til very guo fen.. then never think of how i feel.. why leh..why dun like..is me being in bgr..not them.. but only one person saying lah..then i in between..everyday like tt say..how can i study? becoz of two person i very wei nan leh..

he tells me let her say..now i thinking how long can we go..say we not pei lah..this kind of person also like..wat the..love is blind de wat..i never experience this kind of problem b4..i dunno how to solve..i need someone to consult..if not i can go crazy leh..i never do wat also leh..maybe our actions overboard...is it wrong? haiz..i dunno..she so angry man..then he seem thinking is a small problem..so big problem liao..i am a gal wat that why..so wat to do leh? why say him til so guo fen..

sometime must liu a lu wat..then coz appearance ar? then now everything stir up saying him..aiya only one thing lah..dislike lor.dislike can say anything also can..then become i take all the pressure..no one knows..soon i have no space for breathing liao..as time goes by i shall see lah..usually have freedom..now dunno wat will happen..
becoz of this..everyday scold me..then how to expect me to study hard? giving me no route to go..
i been thinking maybe really no route..sooner or later haiz..ending..
but who hopes to do tt..
any guy she also not satisfied de..as if i finding husband now hhahaa...always like tt..
am i cheap? i am not..say til like i so cheap? sigh..
i got pride de lor..never even give me face..ya lah say abt him..then is my problem lah..he dunno lor wat is happening..not so simple..ah..pressure..

Chinese New Year!

Today the third day of Chinese new year..so sian..coz have to go sch.right now i in sch doing nothing..so i blog.not much things to do..i moody..maybe still have Cny mood hhaa..then HRA lesson lecture i no mood..never listen much so sian Mrs Tan tallks..at the auidtorium..hhaa.the ENt lesson hear MR Ramu talk..also sian..i drawing haha so naughty hor.hhaa sian wat..then last lesson IT play com even worse..hhaaa enjoy aircon..hhaa..so boring..later going pei li house n weiling house bai nian..hhaa abit sian also..dunno why i so sian..hope it gets better later..then heard mum say tonight eat steamboat..wat leh..i bai nian then how..dunno lah..shall see

mm..update abt chinese new year the lst day ba..mm..wake up at 9.30 ..then hhaa bath lor..then get ready..hhaa 11 plus then go out..waiting wat for everyone to get ready..

then set off to beach road..hhaa this year we lst one..then eat lunch there.then wait for gu gu they all comes..then get ang bao..nothing much de..sian..then gu gu forget give me leh .da gu gu..nvm too many pple..i short of 12 dollars.sob..quite alot leh..then JUne came..then take pic lor..haa she brings camera.

then abt 3 went to bedok..have buffet..they lao yu sheng already..come early wat..we latest..haiz..every year like tt de..hhaa then cousins , aunty left very early abt 4 plus..then sian lor.this year buffet 1 plus wat..tt why..
then the food not nice one..got noodle lah..prawn , chicken etc..haiz..sian.just eat..then abt 6 we left for home..
1st day just past like tt..

second day..haa which is yesterday went to mum boss's house..got chicken wings to eat hhee..nice..then drink lor..then went to sengkang second ah yi house..xiao yi went also..then a while we go to mum's cousins etc de house at puggol..xiao jie dun want go he play game at ah yi house..hhaa i went to collect ang bao of course..haa have ang bao so go lor..abit sian lah but ok lah i msg wl etc regarding cny things lor..hhaa til low batt..hhaa
then abt 8 went back ah yi house eat dinner then go home liao..wow reach home 9.15 liao..tired lor..out the whole day from 1 plus til 9 plus..
second day like tt past le..at night as usual online ..til 12..hhaa tired leh..

so today tired lor hhaa..:P sleep too late wake up at 6 plus..ok lah end here..

today..tired..then..right now tired too..mm..just talk abt Cbz lesson..pai seh..teacher dunno me n vin together wat..then talking abt jewlery.tt letter lah..then say wat we will take note of..vin say price..Ms Lee says he dun have gf ar..then class say got..haa she asks who..sophie asks her to make a guess..then she asks sit where de..make me so paiseh..lucky never blushed hhaa..heard vin ears turn red..hhaa

heng she never ask further..hope she dunno..then ask who coming tml..Vin says he coming..teacher say i know u come with ur gf ..hhaa..well today sian..tml even sian so few pple will turn up ..but just go lor..Vin going wat..coz of each other then we go de..nvm..stay at home also like tt..

Today in the morning, my mood so so..IT lesson..do work til fed up..is not that I dont't know..the com very weird..the month b4 the date..weird..then everything like wrong liao..then got to go 4 sw lesson so i didnt print one sheet..nvm lah..wow file keep in sch no gd.Vin lost his file..i know he fed up..can understand..but why file can go missing..so jia lat de.

mm..today awake lah..after lunch..b4 lunch i very weak..coz i didnt eat breakfast then have sw..well..lucky have survey to do..take so long in the end never play game..just run one run..so not so tired after all..after sch have cca..mm..dance til quite fun as i get the dance..yeah..but after that of course hungry..went buy something eat b4 i went home to eat dinner..then ok lah..abit tired..

right now feel like sleeping liao..i will go sleep soon. hhaa want blog wat..so online ba..end here

haiz..today so angry..I dunno leh..angry so shuang meh? I also dun want de wat..He telling me i give him cold shoulder he feel so sad..ok fine..i not angry liao..but right now..i just feel unhappy..i dun even want write de..if i dun write.i keep it to myself i feel worse..ok lah maybe is i finding things to agrue lor..sometime not i want to say..he can be so gd..sacrifice this n help others n gain nothing..i dun want him get bullied wat..maybe i dun support him..different view..next time dun comment..ya lah..not supportive lah..not as if i dun want support him..i dun agree with it..i try leh be understanding..ok lor maybe is i make a big fuss fine lor?? i not angry..is bu shuang..

I not like angry about small things..is alot of things sometime i dun want say..he is like tt wat..wat do I want? totally two different view de person..why together..frankly speaking..i not like stopping him..some things i cant stop de.he the one who make the decision and thinks whether he wants to do it ma..alot of things he dunno..he cant do it..i really want..just abit..not really need alot of money de..maybe i also never do wat things to show i care etc..not enough..i really dunno lah wat to do..

no one perfect..sometime alot of things i cant tahan..but i still tolerate..coz everyone has bad points..like myself..
he misunderstand me leh..i dunno how to explain further..coz my mind already blank..u think give pple cold shoulder so fun meh? sometime i really can vomit blood..toot toot de..but i understand he lst love so sometime ok lor..gf not just keep acc enough liao..i understand tt..must dote..got alot of ways..small actions is a sweet way even like it seems so small..wow..xin tong liao..can hear it crack..

a small thing why become so unhappy thing..i just feel we still dun understand one another so well..must communicate..i know why he works..i understand..but studies also impt.i just dun want him neglect things around him lor..he no need to explain so much..see him so tired..i dunno leh..wat can i do?
just want to have a colourful n lively life before the end of the world come..

btw wow need to have cca for two days..fri cant go home early sian..just practise lor..have performance wat to do..end here

Nowaday seldom blog..nothing much to write lah..then I also tired..so i guess one week update once..sometime too lazy to type..

well today stay at home..sleepy ...lunch n dinner i help mum buy lor..actually partly is becoz I hungry so went to buy..my mum do spring cleaning ma..so i buy..then today i did my hw also..sian..but have to do..i completed..then can rest lor..then read through HRA unit 3..we were told tt we need to do role play hhaa..cant imagine wat we will act as..nvm we will know on mon ba..

hhaa fri was a great n memorable day..My lu acc me lor from afternoon til at night..wow my bed spoil liao..tell hui ar..she say me too fat liao is it..hhaa not leh..is tt the bed already going to be spoil..then weight too heavy wat..coz i lie down he sit wat..haa..anyway is solveD..mum solve it..wonder woman!! super ar haha..then i guess lu abit paiseh lah..nvm de lah..is time to get a new one hhaa.abit fear now when i sleep.but is ok lah..

temporary lor..wow..fri concert at sch lousy..so sian..somemore so early have CNY concert siao de..somemore 1 hr only..celebrate with hari raya haju..i dunno how to spell haa.. orhestra...no gd..coz short of some instruments..not so nice.Beatty de nicer..i feel Beatty de watever also better than college central..last time i used to complain Beatty wat no gd..now even worse..sch com lan sia..ok lah end here..

TodaY is sat le..one week never go shopping..hee finally did went out..then feel happy lor..hhaa now abit tired..is it hungry? Maybe leh..went to catch a movie today..kung fu hustle..It is nice..funny too..have stephen chow act..hhaa..it is very cartoon type..real life is like not possible de..alot fighting ..then funny reaction or action hhaa..pple in the cinema laugh n laugh..i do laugh too..then go n have dinner..and went to shop around and after go to merlion park a while..alot of pple..haa then after that went home..

Wat i know..spending time with him is a great thing no matter how long lor..a few hrs or whole day lor.. :) just stay happy lah..

today is public holiday. wow one week never update already..sometime dun feel like updating...I wake up i feel still sleepy lor..I dunno why..I went to si yi's house..There is curry chicken etc..I eat..then went to hawker centre drink ice tea and Ah yi order things to eat n drink..wow full leh...then cant digest lor..haha..sian leh..we shop around bedok central..nothing much..but after eating etc i feel awake..today feel abit sian..xiao yi n Vivien n Cheryl went together to si yi's house..at night eat hor fun..hhaa so full..mm..never see someone abit sian ba..but leh have msg etc alright lah..can meet de wat..

sometime dun want write here..coz maybe is privacy lor etc..i rather dun write here..and also lazy to type..hhaa.
i end here lah..dun want write further..

Very fast..is Fri..I been going to sch for one week already.. tomorrow is sat..great..hha can sleep later..mm..today not that tired..but is a long day for us..start lesson at 8.15..end at 1.15..in between no lunch..but Mrs Quek let us have a break..which is good..

Today go sch ..abit unhappy think abt YH ba..but alright lah..lesson alright i pay attention..but is like double period.Tiring..we have break in between is ok..IT lesson i try to do ..hungry n tired that i cant focus..almost forget how to do hhaa..but after that ok lah..i worry for IT..do til so lan..the rest i still can cope i guess..core module somemore..

Just feel moody right now..i also dunno why..maybe hhaa want his acc..haha..but he did wat today..mm..a while lah..still ok..I guess not enough time??getting busier lor..can't be helped..but I won't angry or wat..maybe abit sian sian..this is normal..I will try understand and not be unreasonable..but sometime I feel moody coz of that I also can't control..Sometime u have to think of others not just yourself..that wat i know..I guess usually i think too much for others end up gaining nothing..but sometime wei ren ci sheng is needed..never mind I guess tml will be great.

Time flies..sch has started..i didn't update for quite many days..mm..sch so far alright..just that everyday we have to wake up so early..i feel so sleepy every day..but still can manage to study lah. It is alright lah.. When I reach home hhaa feel awake..I feel abit tired right now..Well abit moody..

Today do the IT a bit blur but in the end I get it lor .Yan hong teaches me..I don't know lah why like cant focus..hhaa I think not that I can't , is just that sometime dunno wat Mrs Yeo trying to tell us to do and i am tired..She makes me blur..Maybe i worry too that I cant do IT well..My IT i do til very lousy..I got to practise more..I do til abit stress lor..sian..

Anyway I am alright..I think didnt get to talk to him then abit sian..cause studying wat..I feel that although everyday we meet in sch..I do miss him..I miss the times being with him..I understand that we do have our own life n friends so alright lor..but i still wish he can be by my side sometimes and I'll be happy and cheerful..

haha I can be so crazy at times..I dunno why I can be so crazy..with yan hong around surely laugh til mad or play til crazy..haha.Mf comes join us for lunch..I feel that we neglect her but she seem quiet dunno wat to talk..then we are there talking she so lef t out lor cant be helped wat..i try to talk to her already..but maybe really no topic ba..I can sense that she is lonely lor..some classmates like dun care her..i know why ..I understand ..well but for now she is alright..just that she is very quiet..

I can be quiet at times which means something is wrong..i too quiet maybe because i am tired, sleepy or no mood sia..like today alright lah..did talk but sometimes not really..Andrew yesterday was asking me why i feel sad..i am alright already..Sometime i dun feel like blogging..as others can see wat i wrote..quite a no. leh..but close frenz N Vin see is ok lah..nothing secret also..:) secret i wont write it here..

mm..yesterday and today hhaa i did really paid attention in class..got to study hard..i have the motivation lor..which is good..work hard together..think abt him i feel happy leh.can smile..I cant say really really so xin fu ..but I feel I am xin fu de right now..someone dote me but I hope is forever..everlasting de..I want happiness not saddness.. :) mm..just study hard.I guess i change..haha sleep later etc..must be the same me..I dunno lah did i change to become bad? hhaa..hope not..I still guai ar :P

wat a day!!

today went Vin's house..then plan to go cycle..in the end dun have..stay at his house..then eat dinner..then after that go Tampines ..He went to take contact lens..then shop a while..haiz..then abit late liao..i not back..then saw mum's msg..wow so fierce like tt..say i never reply..i didnt hear wat..a few msg not read..i put inside bag cant hear..not an excuse wat..she says i give excuses..kind of angry liao..bro calls me..ask me go home..aiya just like tt..angry de..last time i abt this kind of timing 9, 10 plus reach home also ok..dunno her lah.everytime say..dun do wrong thing.. if not dun come back..wat i do??we never do wrong thing leh..we are young adult wat..who dunno the ho guo meh?

Everytime say go sch is an excuse to avoid working..wat sia..who dun want get better qualification? everyone do have goals..but is whether u will work hard for it and achieve it lor..i admit i can be lazy..i trying lor..got to study hard for better life next time wat..
I do know i dunno to do housework etc..haiz..i guess can learn de..not as if dunno..i dun have do wat..how she knows i cant do? is whether u do it well or not..
sometime I dunno lah do i have pressure?? cause having a relationship why always kanna nag de..parents scare this scare that..can they have confidence in me? maybe i simple gal..they scare..i think i know de lah..i know my limit..if He goes overboard i will stop him..i know wat..wat wrong..sometime feel ai yi ge ren hao xin ku leh..ni ai ta..but u also must think of pple around u..but relationship stuff not two person de meh? dunno leh..but wont give up lah..coz cannot problems ar occur u give up..must try solve..but this time the problem is not us..i think i do feel the pressure..adults are weird..u do like this wrong..do like that also wrong..i dunno wat they want..wat i do then consider right? obey ar..be a gd gal at home..she says wat listen wat?? like that..wat the difference between human n dogs..we have our rights right? i am not 5 years old leh..not saying angry or wat..sometime i really dunno lah..how should i behave then parents satisfy..

actually today go out mood fine de..then come back haiz..sian..but write liao feel better..anyway she stop nagging hhaa..end here..

My birthday!!

wow..today hhaa i old liao :P went out..go cafe cartel eat. i eat fish n chip.. he eats pork ribs..hhee lu treat me..actually can say nothing much lah today..just shop eat dinner. i went to look for mum a while and she says she wants to buy clothes but in the end didnt buy.. well..birthday also no difference..juz that i am older liao hhaa..wat i know is spending time with him i surely feel happy.. Today i feel happy..just tt stomach abit not well..dunno why..but leh alright liao lor.. :)

so far we are so gd..although at time there are unhappy things...there is always ups n downs ..like life n relationship..if there isn't any ups n downs..there isnt any learning..whenever there is problems or watever, u learn from it..as u learn u grow up too..learn to be more mature in thinking etc..haa i can say i can be childish at times..but this is human nature..even adults do have some childish behaviour ..i guess i will learn lor as time goes by to think more mature.. :)

Sch reopening soon..i just let it comes by..coz it will come de..then study also gd..can see frenz n study together..life will be more meaningful not so bored ..ok i end here ..

New Year Eve!!

mm..today leh is the last day of 2004.. i went to my dear house..mm..when i plan to go i didnt remember that it is 31 dec..mm..he went count down today..i went to find him..then have dinner..then he send me home..after that he goes countdown..this year at least i spend with him..last year wow..so lonely..coz parents at malaysia attend wedding dinner..bro also went..mmm...abit regret Vin have ask me lor but later no transport wat..so i didnt go..i wish to go n countdown with him..fun leh..spray pple haha..naughty ar..dunno how he is..having fun i guess..wont disturb..next year ba i go.. :) anyway have someone to spend with is gd.. then tml a brand new year .. :) ok lah stop here..going 2005 soon..one more hr !!! :) mm..just want to add..new year..strive harder forget abt last year..coz there are unhappiness..i want put them all behind.. strive hard for studies..try lah..then happily with Vincent n my family can liao.. :)

today..went 3rd ah gu house..eat turkey..hhee have jelly too..turkey nice..today ar..not feeling very gd..tired also..wow 9am can feel house shaking..then believe is earthquake..really lor at night watch news..indonesia earthquake..very big impact..alot of countries affected as a result..then today abit sad..actually hungry but dun want eat..wat wrong with me..then in the end eat cup noodle..also dun feel is gd..maybe too hungry..no feel liao..

i just dun feel happy things bothering me..but leh..i think will be fine..today sian til i dun think i miss him even.abt 5 plus eat abit dinner..now like want drink something..maybe go pour cereal or wat..better wat..maybe mood swing..no wonder like tt..this few days i feel happy..yesterday n today not happy..

today hhaa ah yi say bring him go ah ma house on CNY..then they can see..hhaa..see lah..they want see him..haaa then today cousin also go ah gu house..ying ying not in..mm.hhaa she knows i got bf.hhaa coz she sees my friendster haaa..her mum also know haa..she even tell her see..funny ar..

mm..yesterday went orchard..find wl..then ar..give xmas card to hui ,wl n ling..then go shop..at night went home n go eat dinner with family..eat fish steamboat..wait so long sia..abt 1 hr..hhaa..so many pple eat. in the end 9 then start to eat..9 remind me of wedding dinner hhaa..

today never chat much with vincent..he say he chatting..maybe too many pple.or dun want talk to me even?hhaa maybe i think too much..i just feel moody..
dun want tink so much..maybe yesterday wat we say ..i cant get over it..tt why..but small matter wat.. should be ok when i see him..hhaa

Christmas Eve..

mm..today Vincent works..i at home ..watch vcd..at night went out lor with family go kallang there eat taiwan porridge lor..wow nice..eat 3 small bowl..super full..then sit in the car just now tired..abit cant tahan lor..usually too full i cant sit in the car..dun feel tt gd..but alright lah..i feel like finding him today...in the end cant leh..eat liao so late leh..he knock off leh..haiz..i miss him i know tt..go out eat also think of him sia haiz.very fast wor.xmas eve liao..mm..tt is fast..3 more weeks sch reopen..i hope can study hard..pay attention lor in class..must work hard to go poly lor..go out is go out must study too..
also gd everyday see him in class..hee..but leh..i also scare pple tease..but sch reopen two mths liao should be ok lah..nvm pple tease lor..they know know lor..is ok..

hhaa xmas eve forever at home count down..nvm..at night go sleep tml need go out..end here dunno wat to write..

Results out!

today..didn't went out..stay at home..went downstair have lunch then i come back watch vcd..then i play com..mm..nothing much lah..never talk to VIn yet feel weird..maybe miss? dunno leh..msn dun really chat in the afternoon coz he plays game..then at night know can check result liao..result out..mm..alright lah i pass.esc hhaa done not so gd.. C...Accounts B n Bzf B..PIE S lor..alright lah..wow LU get all Bs hhee..happy for him..mood gd also leh..want tell him de result..he never online so i call him..haha he sleep leh..no wonder no reply lah..hhaa..
make me worry..anyway he ok..talk to him i happy leh. :) finally know result..happy liao..can relax..wont be scare.. :)

ok end here..

today went to Vincent's house..then went out..go changi village eat ipoh hor fun..wow nice sia.then drink sugar cane..mm..went to changi bench after that..so windy.. :) hee..together..i really happy..see the sea..mm..so relaxed lor..then went to Century square n TM lor..hee take the bus have past by Gongshang ..my ex pri sch..hee..

haa..he ar naughty de..at his house tickle me :P then i realise hhaa..he ar very scare pple tickle de hhaa so fun..i tickle him..wat i can say..i feel the happiness..maybe no stress too..mm..wow have to wait til next week then can see him liao..he needs to work.nvm lor msn or sms lor..even can chat on phone..but usually we wont..msn chat better..endure abit lor..haa see who cant tahan hhaa..both lah..i can say he is diff..from other guy..he cares more for me..mm..still early lah..but soon de lah 2 mths etc..fast de..want to see that we can go beyond one year..actually half a year is gd liao..but of course go as far as we can .. this i cant be contented..

He tells me leh i simple gal..is gd..hhaa mm..i feel i too easily contented..but not really lah..depends wat..some things i may want..but i hope i achieve it myself?? maybe ba..is not wat others think i easily contented ba..but sometime u think of some pple so poor , we are very lucky liao lor..so cant ask for alot u see...in s'pore have house, study..then have food to eat have money to spend..ok wat..but if u want more lah..have to work hard lor like wat Vin says..true lah..i have think of staying in bungalow..but in s'pore difficult lah..i guess flat can liao lor..wow today diary so long hhaa..

ok lah end here liao..haa private stuff i wont write here ba..hhaa.. ;)

today..mm..went out..Vin comemy house..haa..then go out shopping..jurong lor..go IMM n jurong point..nothing much lah to shop..haaa he say dun go so far next time..yeah..tired wat..i abit tired..we go there eat also..hhee..but happy lah..i really feel happy..hee see him tml then wont see him til next week coz he got to work..no choice lor..work more impt..earn money ma.. :) i understand de..

just hope this kind of happiness is not for a few mth is forever.. :) last one.. hee..

Good mood..

today leh..wow tired coz yesterday i chat til midnight 2.30am hhaa..with him lor..hhaa then wake up today tired sia..mm..watch vcd..then afternoon go orchard meet mum..with bro..then go shopping..go far east han's eat chicken chop..mum eat fish n chip..mm..then continue shopping..shop til tired...but anyway bought titbit..hhee n ar..lipstick..yeah..gd sia.but walk til tired sia..hhaa..

then nine plus go home.mm..today mood not bad..good mood..hope it stays the same lor..for everyday..try lah..:)
hhaa like abit feel like eating..haaaa

mm..wow now midnight leh..today dance practise is cancelled..mm..i get the msg from Xiu ting in the morning..then he comes my house hee..then went to work..see him happy lor..then mood gd sia..hhaa..then i watch vcd..eat dinner like wei kou gd lor..hhee..mood gd eat wat also nice..mm..then leh give him xmas present liao..he gives me liao too..i like it lor..watever he gives..converse bag :) is gd..the colour not bad..will use de..
then give him de gift..he ar at lst say dun use lst hhaa then in the end i buy de he use lor..ar too small leh..then he cant put all stuff..haiz..i dunno how to buy..thought guy de dun want so big..nvm..he likes can liao.. :)

Feeling sian..

today wake up at abt 10 plus lor..Vin msg me sia..telling me he can't come my house he got to work today..cant be helped lah I wont blame him..but kind of disappointed lor..now he not online..dunno what he doing lah..i know he not purposely dun come..how i wish there is surprise visit..feel sian..want see him..i know i miss him lor..ask him miss me ma he ar hhaa say why must miss me leh..wow so bad leh..nvm lor no need miss lor..hhaa...
i watch tv later..then tml also at home ba..wed go practise dance..thur bowling he wants go go lor..fine with me de..dunno lah today y the tone so weird one hhaa why must miss me leh..duno him..

holiday fast lah sooner or later sch reopen..wow actually alot of things to do..watch tv lah, do crossstitch n write cards..crossstitch do half way going finish soon..yesterday went out never do liao..see how maybe will do..mm..yesterday he say wat give surprise..aiya no need hope lah..he say liao working today..sure not coming leh..haiz..
ok lah i stop here lah go watch vcd then won't think so much.. :D

today ok..abit sian..wake up at abt 12..hhaa Vin call me lor then at tt time i awake..mm..afternoon watch vcd lor..mood so so..coz abt yesterday de..i was kind of angry but wake up liao ok..but still remember wat..but i not so petty lah..he got ask wat i still angry..me alright lah.then at night watch tv..wow tonight online de frenz very few til abt 11 plus more lor..make me feel so sian sia..mm..tml going out buy present for him lor xmas present..hope can find a gd n nice wallet lor..but ok ok de price..

wow later i broke hhaa..no sch ma..aiya dun use so much money lor.present must buy de is ok..then buy for xiao jie also..his birthday coming..see can find wat to buy..haiz..always must crack my head de..wat to buy i dunno.i know wat to buy for vincent..if no nice wallet i buy shirt lor..

he ar dunno go where late liao still dun go home..but once a while ok lor..although guy but i do worry lah..like where he goes..dunno him lah..tt why never online haa..hope he ar dun go home too late lor..

wow now raining liao..heavily..i online then thinking lor today i talk to yan hong on phone lor..then mention tt 3 gals..mm..only tt s de lah..worry lor wat she might do coz friendster so big lor have our pic ..she always full of tricks..yh ask me beware..i know..i totally forget about them why remind me..haiz..i know she close with me just remind me lor..then i thinking lor..tell hui..then ask me dun worry..also remind vin..must be careful..haiz..pple know abt us ok lah but not them..dangerous..

mm..today call hazel plan regarding bowling thing lor..then korkor with her..hhee talk to me..then ar ask me how am i and got find job ma then say never he say me lazy worm..hhaa korkor forever de..i say him wow in thailand suan me back also suan haaaa..he laughs..then talk a while only..nvm lah thur seeing him..he lor sudden talk to me de..hhaa coz i kpo lor kor kor with her ar so i ask..hee then he ans phone..anyway glad to hear his voice.i call him korkor wow so long never like tt call heee..

today..go ling house..mm..wl also go..not bad lah get together lor..then ar shi hui also go..then starting nothing much to do..mm..then i chat online..then they watch tv..then go buy bubble tea..mm..i eat fries too..then go home hee Vin fetch me home..heee tt is great..i happy..wow go home cant eat..hhaa eat lor..then so full.mood gd eat wat also gd..hhee..then msn sudden got problem duno wat wrong sia..siao de..got to restart com..haiz..ma fan..no choice..

anyway quite a gd day lah..:) hhee see him ma.. :)

A boring day!

today like very sian..afternoon ar..no vcd to watch coz mum haven take lor.. discs no 7 onwards..haiz..then i play com lor..around evening time then watch tv..haaa laugh like siao..the 5566 program funny sia..then surt net lor at night..but sian..coz Dear ar..he busy playing game..then not many pple to chat..aiya..is like tt de ..make me feel so sian..then mood no gd liao..haiz.. easy mood swing...wow then late liao should sleep..if not nothing to do..mm..next few days got vcd to watch n go out should be ok..not so sian..

dunno wat to write leh..yawn..maybe off to bed..sleepy..i guess chat abit more ba..end here..

today go out ..take cardprint with Vin..mm..ok lah..we play badminton..then go eat..go changi airport eat..order food..order mee goreng n he order fried oyster..the bread too..wow full sia ..cannot finish mee goreng.two of us so full..i know i have fun lah..no matter wat go where do wat is fun n gd lor with him..cant imagine he go overseas wat to do..coz after airport we go expo a while n we go home..after tt he asks me call him when i reach home liao leh he send me home n he goes home..talk to me..he tells me he may go overseas study or yi ming..haiz..
i cant imagine lor he go me how..now i realise how impt he is to me..
is he telling the truth or he wants test me..i guess is real lah..he wants go Australia..mood was ok..become not ok leh..maybe i think too much..cant help it wat..haiz..duno lah later go sleep alright liao..

today watch s'pore idol..ah..taufik win sia.I vote Sylvester lor..in the end not he wins..disappointing..chat online also no mood..get irriated..coz of this ba..then talk to Vin hhaa also no mood de..i hope i dun give him attitude lah..not his fault..then he asks me things etc i get irriated..he with gals or wat..how i know...now no mood..

but talk to vin slowly ok liao..haiz..i very easy mood swing..dunno lah..my msn nick put so big..dun want pple later kanna scolding..
i guess tml will be ok..see him also.. :)

today holiday leh..hee finally..but abit fan..coz i dunno lor want work ma..abit dun feel like working lor..coz holiday leh ..mm..i guess not working..chatting then i will not think so much..watch vcd at home..do cross stitch go out ok wat..go work i no time leh..later sch start wow stress again should relax..so i guess i wont work leh..find own entertainment..

hee chat with Jufri always gd..he always full of jokes hhee..later Vin come my house..hhee great..acc me lor..
i hope i dun think so much..want work work lor..must make up my mind..i guess by thur ba..but at home too long later rot hhaa..nvm..have vcd to watch.. :)

today wake at ten plus awake by mum doing the housework. actually at night i sleep late i guess today i will be tired.ok lah now..just now talk to Vincent..he seem very sian..tired lor..i talk liao also sian..haa maybe call him wrong time. he calls me back...mm..he knows how to plan for future..i never think so far..sometime maybe dun dare think so far.i guess i find a time go n think about it lor..after exam ba i guess..think so far if never go so far how leh..of course hope bf will be the last one liao wont get hurt etc..but did i think abt it is he the right guy for me n towards marriage..dunno leh..just been together abt two weeks..u never know leh after a few months wat happen lor..he loves me more ..is gd..but maybe he thinking i love him ma..tt why he asks me b4..wat i know is yes ba..coz i feel jealous hhaa..

i know he dunno wat i thinking so ask me can see my diary ma..but kind of privacy lor..some things no need to show him de..maybe coz got things lah unless i delete but diary ma delete for wat..so i dun let pple see lor...very few knows abt it..i know he may feel disappointed..but really lah wat he wants to see leh..he will read n read de..then ask me why some dates dun have or wat..haiz..

mm..everything ok since yesterday..talk abt it liao..but i abit moody now..coz of accounts exam ba..plus a bit disappointed lor xmas eve cant celebrate with him ba..he works too haiz..but cant be helped...i find own entertainment lor..wat to do..

hopefully tml exam ok..dunno why so easy mood no gd de..then dunno wat to write here..got to sleep early..hopefully accounts not difficult..talk to him feel better i guess ...hheee

hello..today sian sian..coz of yesterday ba..partly affected..then he claims he ok..i dunno..then he never really msg me..only msg once..dunno lah.i guess busy..or he dun want talk to me..make me feel bad..now msn he knows i online i guess..dun care me..i can dun care..i feel sad..i thought ok liao..why like tt..tell him straight also no gd..he abit xiao qi sia..duno lah now we talking..abit dun feel like chatting..scare he not happy..i dun feel zhi zai..then he says he wants to study..dunno lah then he goes off..now come online..ok lah i dun talk to him..

tml exams already..why i say him..i really dunno lah..wat i doing..let us dun talk best ba..let ask think abt it..then ar study hard..but at this kind of atmosphere how to study..dunno lah just sleep later tml exam...sooner or later settled ba

today ..a fine day..last day of sch b4 i start exams..wow fast..today so few pple go to sch leh..8 pple only during assembly..hhaa yh say ar..snow white and seven dwarf hhaa..andrew the snow white hhaa..then accounts lesson still very few..that 3 gals ar..come during lunch time..wow sch no govt is it..dun care lah not my problem..

bca..nothing to do surt net haaa..then bzf so few pple too..then he comes to sch for bca lesson ...til last lessons..
tue he didnt come sch..hee i went to visit him..aiya go home get scolded but a while ok..mm..he sends me home ...heee.. hold hands leh..:) must remember tt day..i happy with him..hhee.. he feels better..is gd lor..coz he feels hungry..today he alright lah..still go play soccer..

today come back never study..relax lor..so relax..after sch went to eat something with him then i go home..he went home n meet his frenz for soccer..

today went out..wow he sick leh..i see liao sigh i dunno wat to say..coz he is still weak..go out also not happy sia..this is lst date hhee..he still weak still come out..poor him..he buys milk for me..buy mineral water for me when i eat dinner..so gd of him..

He go home with me..til my house..hee so gd then he goes home..see him so weak i feel sad sia..hope he get better..i feel tired..tonight got to sleep early lor..sigh..hhee i give him the cough drop leh..
tired lah cant think sia wat to write..we went bugis n suntec..plan to find wl but he so weak nvm go home lor..i wont see him for two days lor..mm..hope he is well on tue..:)

i end here..

today...go sch..wow only a few pple come..abt 6 like tt for sw..break record..many pple dun come..Vincent ar..sick so never come..i worry..he got fever lor..etc..then cant fetch me from sch..i understand..i feel sad..he sick wat..i care for him is normal..so he ask me out tml..mm..lst date ar.

today ar..slowly pple come..but only 10..then esc we know oral presentation result..hhee i help Vincent see..he not in sch..mm..i not happy..then got PIE test..sian..

anyway he alright.. :) i can fang xin..see him tml hhee..

oh ya yesterday went east coast..hee so relax..learn to cycle bicycle..

today holiday..gd ar..stay at home..but can feel stress..i dunno is work or coz Vincent..coz maybe we too fast hhee..i hope not leh..but really lor nowaday i very stress like tt so tense up in sch..i think coz of him..i so pai seh de kanna tease..we been together for 3 days leh.must remember Nov 9 i agree to be his gf leh.He clever yesterday Hazel ask abt us..she asks me..i deny..hhaa..so i know she sure ask him..he say after exam i will tell him..hhhaa..li hai..friendster status i haven change..yesterday he get kick out of the class..can see pong give a kind of expresssion like seeing wat my impression..hhaa..aiya Hazel so clever..i believe she knows..but i dun admit lor..she dunno..

mm..must go n buy cough drop for him.he cough ar..i hope to get it today tml give him..aiya in class i dun want so high profile coz starting only..but xin ku leh..i want talk to him haa..but i think next time give him a yan shen can liao..hehe.

today dunno go where leh..aiyo east coast sian leh..i dun feel like going..hhaa rather watch tv lor..

Today..BCA test..i think should be ok..everyday practise..when come to do..sigh..i cant do leh..i want sort data why sort liao the amount go wrong..sigh..is very wat the lor..feel very frustrated de..then the pivot table..cant do..abit not the same..some thing occurs which never occur when i doing in class.i can even forget how to do Vlookup..i think i know one..too stress til forget lah..then i feel sad..100 marks leh the paper..i print two sheets only..worse paper i guess..IT paper i do til like tt..

first time ba..Last time do ar..ok de..sigh..hope I pass..
I feel I make Vincent sad..sigh..like bad..coz i moody he also..he thought he is the one who makes me moody..maybe a bit..but mostly is test ba..and studies..he asks me go shopping..i where got mood to go..dun feel like going..at the moment..haiz..

see my mood tml lah..i hope is ok..

today my mood gd..hhee Jufri also say tt..so cheerful..haa...tt Vincent ar..so late dun go home..aiyo naughty..ask him go home he say will go but haven go home..aiya cant stop him also..haa msg him say want get scolding is it..tml have lessons..test too..sigh..he is like that i guess..want him study hard..hope he can..i go home late a bit he calls me liao ..see sigh..i tell hazel he seem more anxious than my mum..haaa..coz i go shop shop with hazel wat..dunno Vincent reach home already..dun care..let him have some freedom..

Not his gf hhaa cant control him lah..today just do hw lor..wow now a bit sleepy coz i eat supper hhhaa..feel like sleeping ..yh always say i pig sia hhaa eat liao want to sleep..hhaa

OK lah stop writing dunno wat to write..

midnight..mm..i talking to Vincent..yesterday got things to tell me..today he says leh and he asks me did i like him in this period of time..something like tt..i dunno how to ans..i ask him how abt him..he says got..i got the ans..i long ago can feel it just guessing..i dunno he likes me or not..now i know..i also know he dun call other pple dear etc.. he tells me..i ask him b4 but he didnt ans lor.yesterday he tells me..i know he has chance..he really gd i have no reason to reject him leh i feel tt..

When he confess i feel i ok leh unlike last time i so shock dunno wat to say..maybe i already know lor..is matter of time he says..i can feel it wat..i also know he wants to say this..he let me think abt it..he says holiday then think..he ask we together parents will object ma..mm..i thinking should be ok..still early lah..i tell him.i want to know him better lst..dun want regret..n he ask me i have the fear to start a relationship with him right..i know is yes..coz after 2 times i fail..sigh of course dun want get hurt..

But he must go slim down haha..that is a must..hhee..well.morning he msg me..ask me study..then ask me eat breadfast leh ma..well..i thinking lor if i like him mayb not as much as he likes me i afraid..coz i dunno leh i like him or not even..that is a gd question..

i shall see as time goes by..coz he ask if he with gals i will jealous ma..for now i think now leh..i haven reach the state i like him sia

today so fan like tt..yesterday want write diary cant enter dunno wat wrong..well..thinking abt why he so weird online yesterday..the way he talk..he wants to treat me ask me mon free or not..go home late cannot lah..tue have sch lor..then out of a sudden he says want treat me..abt the crab i kidding only..just says i want eat black pepper crab..he takes it serious..then yesterday say "i think should we .......hhaaa " weird sia talk halfway..let him say he dun want say..then say hard to speak up..lst time..wat he up to..scare me..and i dream of him sia hhaa..dream of yh also.. quarrel with her haha..
I have think of it..if he asks me how i react..well..i think still early he is nice ..i may accept but i think need more thing to think abt it n know him better..i dun want to regret..coz zhen hui ar...i regret..i dun want to get hurt..plus i dunno i have feeling for him or not..his look not handsome but impt is he is a nice guy..he very caring towards me..maybe coz he has feelings towards me?? i can feel it i am not stupid de lor..

i still thinking studies impt but i need love..i want..not just from frenz n family..i want bf love..so i sort of want but can't anyhow get one..i dun want to hurt pple n dun want to get hurt..is a headache thing..later i can't study well..how..sian..i want go poly de..so i thought dun want this relationship thing for the time being..

today..sian..accounts mrs quek went to see doc.so she not in sch..that miss koh she never come today coz she go headquarter..sian lor no lessons..then ar..i get back bzf test..i get a shock..i dun study well..i get 41..hhaa how can it be..really sian i do i feel i cant do well..cant believe..sometime hard to tell..

Well..then afternoon didnt go ballroom dancing coz we go for the entrepreurship presentation..our seniors lah..so sian lor..stay from 3 plus to abt 6..one group talk so long sian.more than 20 mins..then i feel hungry n bored..well the aircon so cold u see..lucky i brought jacket..poor jufri n yan hong so cold..i cant help cant i am cold myself..well then heard ballroom dancing cancel coz seniors went for seminar..

mm..wat a day i waste alot of time lor..then go home so tired..late liao didnt do anything..watch tv slack lor.well i play com

today..accounts lesson so tired..wow raining again..so cooling..nowaday forever rain..well..accounts lesson i almost doze off..not just me ..Hazel too..the rest also..
Esc ar..finally call me ..last one of the day..then ar..i saying history..she says want read ar..she can read herself i can just click let her read herself..she ar..bad..tml she not in sch great!!
well sigh of relief..finally over..can relax..but exams 3 more weeks coming liao..aiya i dunno wat i doing.want online want study too..then accounts do a bit not sure then i stop there..not tryin to be very hardworking but i really lazy..must study hard..lor..

mm..bzf ar..talk abt pie chart etc..like maths ar..so is bored too..concentration half way cant liao
tml have talk sia..cant go for ballroom dancing..but i tell senior liao so nvm lah..
wat else to write? nowaday dun really write..dunno wat to write wat or i lazy... :)
aiya today very free..well..i have think abt many stuffs ba..love stuff hard to say..i guess left it to fate..i know i want a bf hhaa..but not at this time ba..exam coming.. a class guy gd..he often join us gal gang..Jufri lah..but hee taken liao..i dun mind this kind of guy..but too bad lah..he sort of my type ba..he very caring person towards frenz n nice....hhaa wonder he interested in who ar..hhaa so close with us haha..wow anyhow say later he kills me..but he attached wat.nvm i say hhaa..

well..today ..mm..i wake up at 8..should be 7.30...mum wake me up when she sees me still sleeping..i jump up thinking is thur..i late liao..then mum say fri lah..scary..alarm didnt ring..i realise in kfc lor that the time n date is wrong ..how come..tt why never ring lah..aiyo..well..heng ar i still can ar get to sch..not late..wow i know i sure cant do the test..coz never study much..fail lor the most..lst thing is p.e test..wow then bzf test..then who knows ar..PIE also have test..
I have test starting from lst period..oh my god! today 3 tests.luckily pe n PIE test no need study..aiyo break record so many tests..
then after bzf test we have presentation.annie koh tell us to write our name on a piece of paper n she pick whoever..the person will present..lst one saeedah..heng lah not me..so hazel,shereen, kailing ,amlie..dunno how to spell..who else..mm..a few lah..heng lor..at least i have time to plan how to present..

finally test over at least can relax..today is a stress day..well after sch we went to kfc j8 eat..sit the same place but korkor not in s'pore..short of him..but still as usual we go eat..things are different..everyone order their own..mm..which is very different..leh..well..vincent always so quiet..aiya nowaday hazel n yan hong i think trying to say he gd..ask me consider ..well for time being..i think we frenzs..lah not more than that..this kind of thing next time then say..aiyo another hong nian..

wow a few days never write here..mm..today wake up still wondering why ar Hazel tells me to bring korkor present today..i dun understand.til i go sch i know..i also partly guess right he wont be in sch tml..sigh..the news is he wont be in s'pore for abt one month sia..so shocked..Hazel say she knows it yesterday only..guess korkor dun want so early break the news to her..is it he knows it will come or wat? i his sis he dun tell me too..well..Hazel feel most sad..one mth leh not a few days somemore in thailand leh..I feel sad to hear tt.wont be able to see him..like get used with him around sort of help me protect me..then fri we go have fun..eat lunch..i guess now wont liao..hazel even plan not to go ballroom dancing leh..for a month..then see her so sad dunno wat to say to her..i guess i know y i sad..i still have feelings for him...kind of admire ba

today have get back test..surprise i get 45/50 sia..haha better than last time heee..but not happy coz not tt difficult if is cash bk is difficult..
Tml going airport ba..send him off..then he went sch today..i pass him the present from four of us lor.. He says thanks..hope he likes..later msg him haa see he opens a not :P pig card haha sure scold me haha..:P

a pity tml kor kor birthday cant see him haiz..

today..aiyo..wat a day..lucky no test..etc.if not sure cant do well..the gal lah..i sit her place..in language lab..i forget is her seat too..coz saw hazel sit infront, i acc her.who knows.she bang her bottle on the table so i get up move away lah...then say she no manners..she outside lab bu shuang say me no manner still say pple..wat the..maybe this part i wrong..but i still think she is wrong..wat a childish act..and we argue, quarrel lah..feel not worth it lah..anyway classmates close with that b****..then also dun like me n yh..kanna brain wash i guess..

then today angry..Hazel say shouldnt angry coz like that they win..i also know..but cant control..anyway after lunch i ok..i am like tt.but need time to forget the incident..

went to shop n buy korkor present..mm..bought leh a long sleeve shirt..black one n a t shirt blue one..$32..mmm..4 person share.. still ok..glad i settle his present..

today..learn walt...today test not bad..ok lah..petty cash heng lor..n voucher..make mistake here n there..never mind as I have already done the test lor..funny ar..coz we thinking where to eat during fri..yan hong they all say coffeeshop..who agree raise hands..we all raise..hhaa 5 verse 1..poor korkor..then we say dun bully him lah he birthday boy..well..he decide to go kfc..at least ok lah..well..jin lun say ar..buy him cha siew bun can liao..i buy siew mia hhaa...then cha siew bun is very small one..korkor say wow he hao yi si hhaa..very funny..

annie koh's lesson..talking abt presentation..wow laugh til so happy coz..she use herself as example.say pple will want to know wat her weight..she say guess wat her weight..she say XXX kg..hhaa then classmate say..i think pong or who ar..dunno lah say is XXXX kg..hhaaa..funny..then ask we all know how she become so fat..so obvious eat lah hhaa..wat a question..

Mm..dancing ar..the nightmare has come..next year oritention must perform leh..sigh..no choice have to..my class only 5 pple..plus Gilyn , Melissa only 7 new pple..sigh..have hazel..so korkor pair with her..if not i guess maybe pair.with me.then pressure..actually dun mind..bro wat..more familar i dun mind..Yan hong with Andrew..Melissa n me..Gilyn with senior ba..at my rate..now oct..jan very fast de..sigh..next year sch start 8 jan ar..huh..fast leh is it 8 jan perform ..oh my god..try lor practise more think can de.. :)

today dunno why so sian..just watch tv..then revise abit of biz fun..aiya keep thinking of accounts..i have look through lah..accounts need practise look through actually no use..so i kind of stress dunno wat should i do..sigh..
I afraid i cant finish the account test then how..Korkor advise me lor..but i feel no use one..he always say same thing..usually i stress ar..then surely cant do well..cannot lor must relax then i can do the question..
I watch the left eye can see ghost hhaaa translate from chinese lah..feel a bit sad..although have ghosts but not scary leh..is sad..plus nice lor the story..

why sunday always bored one..want to study sometime also study abit only..but have watch 5566 program i happy liao ..hhaa..ren fu n xie zhi host..:) xi ha pi tou 4 ..not bad lor..

Ok lah i dunno wat to write leh ..dun feel like writing anymore..byebye..:)

today go sch..we go rc for the basketball team..we go there to support the basketball team..our sch one..wow ite tampines play well..my sch lost..then ar..today at sch wow didnt see classmates leh only saw Alan walk past..then see he come back with hazel..n sureen come..wow so few pple..slowly more come..then ar.surprsing i saw ite bedok play also..realise zhi hong in the team..wow he so li hai ..after the match congraulate him..his sch wins yeah!!! i support his sch..dover ite not so gd..me n yan hong was like crazy lor supporting..saying yes yes when his sch score a ball etc..hhaa so exciting cant be helped..at lst support dover i see him inside hhaa the team i support bedok..korkor see us was like oh my god haha..

then tell korkor hhee..the match my cousin inside..wow pple cheer for zhi hong leh..he li hai but just aiming in shooting not so gd..mm..really happy..i still scare i make a mistake..i call mummy confirm zhi hong in basketball team..find him familar..then go n talk to him..

then after tt go tampines safra see gim loon they all play bowling..Alan play also..then go burger king eat..so hungry lor..i lst time eat..then yan hong give me a kind of look when i say i never eat b4 bk..is fact wat.not bad..then meet mummy n go home together..bought a watch..i buy one for her she buy for me too..haha

today..hhmmm..that YH lah go and ask..and find out all a joke heng ar..scare me..anyway he very nice..but too bad attached haha..everytime make me laugh..but as a frenz only..his gf hhee in malaysia..well he ar use such thing as joke abit overdo it ba..he ar today esc work..instead of doing stuff..keep making me laugh..he really can make me happy..haa everytime with me n Yh aiyo make us laugh like siao..I can say he really nice..a gd frenz lor..he saw my pencil case ask me change new one..say will buy espirit one for me..haha i only his frenz..wat esprit lah..then ask abt my bag dunno for wat..say want to be a ? guy hhaa..coz my bag have ? ..hahaa..anyway i say my pencil case not spoil wont buy new one..he say cut can liao lor spoil can get new one..aiyo.. -_-''..

dunno lah he always so funny..heng ar..not interested in me..but he always praise me..like to talk to me..i dunno lah hhaa attractive?? haha nono cannot BhB..i dunno leh..then everytime ask me want to change hp..not one time..still early wat my hp use 5 mths only..still early lah..

I feel i feel like being in love suddenly..maybe coz see pple in love i envy..but if happy is ok..not suitable one then not happy cannot lah..so best to choose the right one..I hope is like forever..mm..possible n also not possible..i scare of being hurt..glad i get over lor for zh one..already over..and dun feel anything..i only know in this sch now is my happiest days in my life..although there is unhappy incident..

Mrs Yeo always say ar..saw me n yan hong smiling..we so happy gal..hhee..aiya life should be like tt..really happy wat..like that study better lor..but she dunno i can feel sad too and angry she never see..but really lah i very happy n contented.. :)

today..very relax..nothing to do..anyway ..meet J online while i checking something..then he come n chat with me..asking me kor kor is it dating..he say he knows it long ago liao -_-'' just want to double check n he say never make lst move abit regret..he weird tonight..i know he no siblings so must be he online..is it mistaken ..but talking abt korkor tt is him wat..after that he left say back 5 mins later..tell me dun log off..after that continue talking..then ar..i say pple dun like me..he say pple dislike me nvm most impt he love me..i was like huh u kidding.he say he serious..he say i am a nice gal..well..he not joking he says..i nice that is wat he love me..-_-'' is it he talking wrong conver..how come he talks like this..cannot be lor..just now msg him he dun reply..nvm lor..i say u must be bro love sis that love is it..he ask me why cant it be more than that..he dun think like this..i say i think this way..sigh..wat is he up to..hey mind him got gf leh..he too lonely ar..he not real one haha..fake one..i so shock til now..dun want jump to conclusion.he ask me i get wat he trying to say..i say dunno..hhaa he say shy to say lah..then i say i think i know wat he means..but want to confirm wat he means lor..he says shy to say.. ....wat the..aiya i dun care..maybe wrong leh ..misunderstanding ba..coz he say go out eat on thur..then ar..ask yan hong they all along..with out lovebirds hhee..then i say then better dun tell him later he say i bad..j say he dare say tell him he settle with him..wow..i dunno i so gd meh..in sch have pple protect me hhee..he still say my gd points..wow like no one tells me b4 sia..as if i no bad points..anyway i also dun like him leh for now..frenz lor..

today..mm..class problem become big liao.korkor gf want change seats...and sit beside me..then lunch time eat with me n Kai ling..i ok..then they find teacher to talk abt changing seats..and settle their problem..Teacher knows everything leh..and I find out bcoz of me n Yan Hong , kor kor kanna dislike by the 3 gals lah..coz they think he always defend me they not happy..wat he do..have defend meh..so wat if defend he is my bro..that all..even if is our classmates he also help wat..

At least i get to know the reasons..mm.both of them angry surely..the other 3 together also bu suan..then ar..at com lab..that short gal wallk past me n yan hong purposely lah..and dun say excuse me just push through our place to go to her seat..so bad..no manners..i say out loud..

Well..aiya korkor want to make the matter big ..i know he can't stand leh..like as if he scare he dun take action coz for the sake of his gf..now he did it..dunno what they will do i dun care..coz watever it is..korkor can help me..not i have kao shan but is the fact wat..my bro there to help..cant then tell teacher lor..

Today do work..watch tv. Xiao yi come our house..Uncle also..well..help us paste the window stuff..well cousins come..i do my work..I do work wont think of stuff..but think abt 3 gals..feel angry..now is sad..I feel sec sch ar onwards..just feel pple dun like me..i thought after sec 5 ok already..now have also..wat i do to deserve this?

I feel stress already..exams soon nov lor..and have problem now..not just me involve a few pple..I just dunno why they dun like me..y cant the class be peaceful n just study hard..where ever i go pple dislike me..I am no gd..I know i dunno anything..no talents..i try my best to study..and this incident dun share with mum later say my fault..go sch is study n make friends too..but make frenz can result in problem like now..why lah so ma fan..kor kor also angry n unhappy..sigh..why some pple so wu liao..i know i should not think..but i can't help it..goes on like this how to study..go sch is to study not find fault..mm..all those enter my sch aiya my class are those dun want study want want to find problems..not all some ok lah..like kor kor really want to study me n yh also..we joke is joke but we r serious while doing work..i do work no joking coz pple disturb i get angry one..

aiya some character maybe pple dun like..i also dun like them..Yh msg me thinking coz of us..kor kor get dislike.. i think partly..partly is those gals already dun like him..i feel better now :D enough of writing..i telling frenz wat i think also..:)

Today weather hot sia..well..biz fun..some learn b4..ok lah i have to find dictionary lor some words too chim..Mrs Tan teach is so so only..today after cha cha tired..mm..accounts lucky no hw..only have go through answer..well Bca a bit i go home do..mm..finish liao..today ballroom dancing learn new stuff..aiyo i dunno leh..catch no ball sia..after tt melissa teach me i ok lah..must practise..everytime dunno ar i will dance with kor kor one duno why..anyway today he dance with yan hong, hazel n me ..hhaa so many..change partner ma..

Well..Hazel pick up fast..not bad..Yan hong also..well i dunno..coz they dance usually i looking one..sigh coz not enough partner..and i like zhang shan wei learn things slow..Oh ya remember Annie koh's lesson, discussing about the report writing..we never do much dunno how lor..then ar talking abt annie koh hhaa her clothes..hhee like chinese new year ar the way she wears it..like want to celebrate like tt..then so tight fitting..and her butt big hahaa..yan hong so bad say her butt big haha..and Jufri n I cant stop laughing..laugh til siao leh..too bad she is such a gd person to be teased at..haha

Today finally reveal ar..kor kor n his gf..We suspect very long just that he dun admit..today ar....go home Kor kor n her hold hands..so obvious leh..mm..so i dun want to get to close with him ..anyway is ok i his sis..then i kind of feel sad..i know why lor..surely de..but just like tt..starting i ok ar..after i leave the train..i feel sad..is confirmed..that explains why he n her everytime show up together in sch..well kor kor dun admit lor..hhaa now cant deny..gf caring leh..take tissue for him to wipe face..frankly speaking i want to have a bf..but is easy to say..but fate haven come cant help..anyway My classmates and I usually no fate one..so have to wait for the right guy..the one i like taken leh..too bad lor..

Hhaa today ar..I no printing paper leh..coz forget to bring left one..then Yan hong lah purposely ask Alan want him to lend me..say want to test see whether i need to give him back double or triple a not hhaa..then she tells him he say dun use me to borrow..hhaa then i say really need..then he say ok kinship hhee no need give back double..then Yan hong say ok lor she n him mei you guan xi hha..too bad i his sis:P

Yan hong so bu suan hhaa..and kor kor say she throw temper..hhaa..mm..i believe guys scare of her..no guy can tolerate her..no wonder Kor kor choose that gf not others..coz ar she seems gentle and good..kind lor..quiet lor..not like us so noisy n naughty..but sis nvm..hhaa tease him..i thinking why so fast ar..they steady..usually wont long one..coz depends suit each other ma..i know what i thinking..hope they not together ..but i cant help thinking what..what to do..mmm..dun want to think leh so envy..and where my guy sigh..

today kind of busy..accounts hw..then do that spotlight work..then ar i finish my BCA work..well remember yesterday funny lor annie koh..She talks about a phrase vincent was like huh wat 5494 hhaa..become number can buy 4d..well..and talking abt women stuff ..kotex hhaa..coz say satay inside have tt..yucks..well.den talk abt a man die inside have something..classmate say have tt..hhaa we all laugh..Annie koh say how could man have tt.then is beef lah he die from it.. in his body for 6 years sia..

well..today tired lah..haiz.and Mrs Quek tells us Exam coming 5 more weeks..Nov 18 onwards dun have to go sch liao..now Oct..very fast one..pressure coming liao..haiz..think of Yan hong always tease me...and Boom Tom, my small kor keep asking me when i having bf..aiyo so eager to know for what..Always ask nowaday and have bf he will ask me how me n bf ..never go out with him ar..aiyo..I will ask when he has a gf..hhaa..ask me i ask him lor..then wl say want to bash him up because he also ask her ..hhaa i say go ahead..he so noisy hhaa..
Well she so caring towards kor kor hhee buy drinks for him..well today kor kor calls me ask me abt com..his com have problem ..hhaa i dunno lah..well surprise he asks me..usually i dun ask him things he dun ask me one..i ask yan hong he also..mm..feel he not so happy nowaday due to md i think..that bitch lah so bad..she very childish sia..playing sia with her gang of frenz..so wu liao..kid sia..sometime feel she acts as if she so mature sia..wat shit sia..*puke..
Ok lah i go zzzzz... :)

Today wake up so late sia..dunno lah wake up sleep back tired ma..then ar..MF calls me..I answer her call I just wake up.she asks me about studies what else..petty cash..my brain was like blank..just wake up sia can't think..12 plus that time..wow i sleep like pig haha..seldom sleep til so late..then she asks me call her back i didnt..coz after that i went to eat mooncake and then bath lor went out leh..wow today can say getting fat leh..

Eat mooncake..go out tp central..xiao jie eat mac, i dun want coz eat yesterday.then eat ice cream and help mum buy bread.I bought cheese stick n eat.bought floss bread for mum.then after that shop a while we go novena square..mum want to find the d.i.y shop but is not there dunno why..well she keep finding..never give up..hhaa that a gd point leh..but legs so tired walk here and there sian sia..the shopping centre not many shops to shop..

then go united square..not many shops too..a lot of kids that kind of shop.Then went back to toa payoh..buy bowl noodle go home eat..btw bought a bag for myself..$5 only hee.cheap lor.well can use for sch..mum birthday also like tt..never buy present for her.cant find gd ones ba..watches she dun like leh..so never buy..

I went back home help dad buy western food..downstair have wat..and bought chicken wings..and i Ate..oh really sia today eat alot of unhealthy food hhaa lucky Kor kor dunno if not sure say me one..

now getting a bit tired..but thought i sleep enough..dunno why..feel like eating also..anyway end here

Today I wake up, I don't feel like going to sch..Because don't want to see some people lah..But have to go so ok lor..SW sian one..running lor then do warm up again then ar play game as usual.I feel moody..tired during ESC lesson..the Spotlight talk so much one..about report writing..I so sleepy and hungry can't stand her talking..anyway i Wont do her hw i think..weekend mood hhaaa..then PIE play memory game ..ok lah not bad..I saw the 3 zha bo..i feel two of them seem the face not happy one..heck care i didnt do anything..maybe I think too much..aiya kor kor stand there I take things then ar i stand beside him lor..while i taking things he steps on me, he says sorry lah ask me ok a not..aiya ok nvm one lah..

Just feel he has gf in our class so best is that don't be so close with him not good lor..but He is my bro what...i think nothing wrong with that lor.I also not confirm his gf in our class.He don't admit..mm..wat to scare about..I suspect him n her as the status in friendster the gal put as in a relationship lor that why lah..wat a coincidence thing must be lah.. wink hhaa...
Have to wait and see.If true i wish him all the best really ar..i treat him as my bro forever..Think stay this way the best as he also call me xiao mei wat..

Today went to eat macdonald..hee with kor kor , Andrew, Jin lun , Yan Hong, Vincent and Gilyn.talk talk ..hhaa talk abt Yan Hong the way she is like a guy..hhaa...then Kor kor say she Hua Mu lan and He laugh..I hear liao also laugh alot sia..so funny..he getting very naughty also..just now msg him say yan hong new nick is hua mulan not hong nian leh hhaa he agree..he say we call her that next time..hhaa and i say if she says us pig we say her back lor..who ask her always suan us ;) wink..hhaa

oh ya still have korkor say go yan hong's house can slim down leh go one week..coz simple meal..then i think of food not nice..then ar say cannot ..reaction big..then say no place to sleep..then yan hong say sleep outside her house hhaa..i say i dog is it..kor kor say is cat..then i say i cat then he cat kor kor right so he is cat too haha.he say must think twice next time b4 speaking haa..he kanna suan by me hhaa.he always suan me when i say him pig head he say i his sis wat so is miss piggy..sigh..