Today I feel alright already went to sch..yesterday I was sick ..have slight fever..i hate being sick..anyway who likes to be sick anyway..well..i feel ok liao..but i still have sore throat..i must take care..
today lessons alright.. went to sch was a bit tired ..but after lunch ok already..
I dunno wat to type leh..like nothing much..wow today dear so gd..help me buy food for lunch..then help me to put back the bowl.but frankly speaking the kway teow soup not nice de..

ok lah end here..got lesson..

Today not tt tired as i sleep earlier yesterday..sch hrs shorter today..but i still go home late..I went for job interview at kallang..Hazel acc me lor..mm..her sales rep didnt say much..just ask me some question..then will call me next week or wat to confirm location.i will wait for her call...

mm..Mf sometimes very ke lian..i know she dun like our class.she dun have much to talk n dunno wat to talk ..
I can understand when u want to do project u dunno who to do with..and u are scare when u need to do group work tt no one pair with u or watever..I experience b4..is sad..lonely..But wat to do..only can tell her to join us or wat lor..
Today she cried leh i saw..dunno why lah..i guess becoz of this? i ask her she didnt tell me..mm..nvm maybe she dun want to tell..then For HRA she often calls me to ask abt it..she is hardworking..revising through her work..not like me hhaa lazy to flip as i reach home already late evening..tired etc...sometime i will lah..just read through..when she asks me to teach i dunno how..coz this is theory..theory u cant teach..wat i know is u have to read through n understand..

I believe sometime not juz me..teachers also cant stand her..asking alot..but sometime i ok lah..help her lor as a frenz..Hazel also cant tahan..coz tired or wat she calls us..sometime just come back she calls me..then in canteen or wat she dun talk much de..we all juz talk..she speaks so soft and canteen so noisy..hard to talk..

well i dunno lah..sometime dun bother so much lah..if not problems alot..ok lah end here..

today really tired during HRA lesson.really can fall asleep while hearing MRs Quek talking about the Evaluation form from company to appraise a staff..I think not just me falling asleep, the rest of the classmates also..so sleepy..

Cbz lesson lst period nothing much..log in the e tutor lor there is an assignment then need to print out..mm..i print at home..then print for Kai ling and Hazel too..Ms lee tells us to print..Ent as usually discuss lor stuff..then survey almost completed all ..yeah..left two more sheets to fill in..mm..Hazel not in sch then we amend wat i type the day b4..today de blog sound sian..coz i writing abt sch..sometime i dun ..coz there is nothing much to write abt sch hhaa.

Customer service we have a test..a surprise test..didnt know there is test..luckily is a test which we do not need to study de..then just take the test..KDS as usually lor type n type..type til i want to sleep.hhaa coz last lesson already..lesson end late also..

mm..today break abit sian..coz Hazel not around..left me , KL and Mf eating lor..then there is lots of time to waste.we ask pple do our ent project de survey lor..did alot hee left a few ..great man..

today de mood also not bad..we getting closer as time goes by..we behave in class..is gd..i guess like vin say we r stable liao after some many things happening..although never go out everyday or wat..we meet everyday in sch..in class..is gd lah..hope we stay the same like this for as long as we can..ok lah end here..later have to sleep early if not tml very tired cant dance..hhaa

Today tired .. yesterday so sleepy went off to bed earlier..yet today still tired..maybe coz yesterday wake up early and then stay back til 4 plus..surely tired..
I went out today with lu..went to bugis shop lor..although not long but alright lah..nowaday my mood is better..is gd lor..I can concentrate on my studies better..

wow nowaday weather hot..alot of mosquito..i get bite leh..so poor thing..i scratch here n there.n then legs n hands not nice le..last time still ok..nowaday is like everyday i scratch..i thought coz my room alot of things i display?? but not lah..my frenzs also get bited..well..poor us..
sometime itchy is not mosquito bites leh..duno wat happen..everytime kanna bite also no gd wat..wow weather also smoky..wat happen leh..must go n read news see how the gobal warming..i guess very jia lat..if not weather wont be so hot..35 leh..dunno abt this few days..

mm..wow heng lah..next sat open house i am not involved..i knew it coz of my standard..well..march have to perform no choice..we have to go to macperson there perform..then have to get an AL lor..sigh..miss lessons..but thur so early dismiss de..sian leh..rather other days then can leave no need study..no choice lah..

I tell Vin abt the flowers i throw away.cant be helped..never take care properly so smelly..i have to throw..is sad..cant bear to..is the lst flower he gives me..one week b4 valentine if not wrong..a fri..nvm..Valentine day de i still keep..hee i turn it upside down preserve it as dry flowers lor..they wither fast..coz i never put water? i did lah but not alot ..and not everyday..hhaa then wither lor..nvm still smell gd can already..ok lah end here

Today a better day i guess..at least it has been a better day which i did have a gd laugh today..seem like i didnt smile nowaday..even if i did..i asking myself ..am i bluffing myself or dun want others to worry ? life has to go on..so i act as if i am ok? i know deep in my heart i am unhappy..troubling me if the nagging continues..i am ok lah ..sometime hear liao haiz..forget it lor..just be myself..be gd gal..everything fine ba..i just have to let nature takes its course..til i cant take it..i may break down the most..
so far i have not shear a tear yet..dunno when will i do it..coz when i keep it too long surely there is a day i cant take it n i release out all..i been trying to pay attention..i feel today i did listen..which is gd..
i just want study lah..then be happy..i dun want think so much..is pointless to think as it cause me to feel sad n helpless only..
yesterday did went out eat lah n watch movie..so maybe mood better today..as long is firm..i believe is ok...
ok lah end here bye..

me

today got to wake up coz Wei Ling, Pei li, Wen n kor coming my house bai nian..they came in the morning.say abt 11 plus..pei li did come tt timing..but wl coz wait for wen wen hhaa come at abt 12..then kor last one to come..he very shy de..go where also like tt.but leh..in front of us always joke n tease us etc..very funny guy..gd too..can make our life fun..then he watch cartoon lor as usual..hhaa addict to it :P well then go to wen house..then went find wl at j8 and then went home..

mm..today awake can think of it..the moment my eyes open man..then feel moody n unhappy lor..not as if i want..then i feel head pain..headache lah..not enough sleep..chat til very late..today wont coz there is sch..i wonder v day there is mood ma..i dunno..just be happy lor..but i cant stop thinking..i thought i can..coz watch tv etc like ok liao..now still ok tt ok leh..maybe tml ok ba..need some time..i sleeping soon..end here..

today so sian..stay at home..morning hear pple nag..the volcano erupt..hhaa..dunno lah.. she dislikes me in relationship now then say..i start liao.. then wat quit sch siao..she getting mad..say til very guo fen.. then never think of how i feel.. why leh..why dun like..is me being in bgr..not them.. but only one person saying lah..then i in between..everyday like tt say..how can i study? becoz of two person i very wei nan leh..

he tells me let her say..now i thinking how long can we go..say we not pei lah..this kind of person also like..wat the..love is blind de wat..i never experience this kind of problem b4..i dunno how to solve..i need someone to consult..if not i can go crazy leh..i never do wat also leh..maybe our actions overboard...is it wrong? haiz..i dunno..she so angry man..then he seem thinking is a small problem..so big problem liao..i am a gal wat that why..so wat to do leh? why say him til so guo fen..

sometime must liu a lu wat..then coz appearance ar? then now everything stir up saying him..aiya only one thing lah..dislike lor.dislike can say anything also can..then become i take all the pressure..no one knows..soon i have no space for breathing liao..as time goes by i shall see lah..usually have freedom..now dunno wat will happen..
becoz of this..everyday scold me..then how to expect me to study hard? giving me no route to go..
i been thinking maybe really no route..sooner or later haiz..ending..
but who hopes to do tt..
any guy she also not satisfied de..as if i finding husband now hhahaa...always like tt..
am i cheap? i am not..say til like i so cheap? sigh..
i got pride de lor..never even give me face..ya lah say abt him..then is my problem lah..he dunno lor wat is happening..not so simple..ah..pressure..

Chinese New Year!

Today the third day of Chinese new year..so sian..coz have to go sch.right now i in sch doing nothing..so i blog.not much things to do..i moody..maybe still have Cny mood hhaa..then HRA lesson lecture i no mood..never listen much so sian Mrs Tan tallks..at the auidtorium..hhaa.the ENt lesson hear MR Ramu talk..also sian..i drawing haha so naughty hor.hhaa sian wat..then last lesson IT play com even worse..hhaaa enjoy aircon..hhaa..so boring..later going pei li house n weiling house bai nian..hhaa abit sian also..dunno why i so sian..hope it gets better later..then heard mum say tonight eat steamboat..wat leh..i bai nian then how..dunno lah..shall see

mm..update abt chinese new year the lst day ba..mm..wake up at 9.30 ..then hhaa bath lor..then get ready..hhaa 11 plus then go out..waiting wat for everyone to get ready..

then set off to beach road..hhaa this year we lst one..then eat lunch there.then wait for gu gu they all comes..then get ang bao..nothing much de..sian..then gu gu forget give me leh .da gu gu..nvm too many pple..i short of 12 dollars.sob..quite alot leh..then JUne came..then take pic lor..haa she brings camera.

then abt 3 went to bedok..have buffet..they lao yu sheng already..come early wat..we latest..haiz..every year like tt de..hhaa then cousins , aunty left very early abt 4 plus..then sian lor.this year buffet 1 plus wat..tt why..
then the food not nice one..got noodle lah..prawn , chicken etc..haiz..sian.just eat..then abt 6 we left for home..
1st day just past like tt..

second day..haa which is yesterday went to mum boss's house..got chicken wings to eat hhee..nice..then drink lor..then went to sengkang second ah yi house..xiao yi went also..then a while we go to mum's cousins etc de house at puggol..xiao jie dun want go he play game at ah yi house..hhaa i went to collect ang bao of course..haa have ang bao so go lor..abit sian lah but ok lah i msg wl etc regarding cny things lor..hhaa til low batt..hhaa
then abt 8 went back ah yi house eat dinner then go home liao..wow reach home 9.15 liao..tired lor..out the whole day from 1 plus til 9 plus..
second day like tt past le..at night as usual online ..til 12..hhaa tired leh..

so today tired lor hhaa..:P sleep too late wake up at 6 plus..ok lah end here..

today..tired..then..right now tired too..mm..just talk abt Cbz lesson..pai seh..teacher dunno me n vin together wat..then talking abt jewlery.tt letter lah..then say wat we will take note of..vin say price..Ms Lee says he dun have gf ar..then class say got..haa she asks who..sophie asks her to make a guess..then she asks sit where de..make me so paiseh..lucky never blushed hhaa..heard vin ears turn red..hhaa

heng she never ask further..hope she dunno..then ask who coming tml..Vin says he coming..teacher say i know u come with ur gf ..hhaa..well today sian..tml even sian so few pple will turn up ..but just go lor..Vin going wat..coz of each other then we go de..nvm..stay at home also like tt..

Today in the morning, my mood so so..IT lesson..do work til fed up..is not that I dont't know..the com very weird..the month b4 the date..weird..then everything like wrong liao..then got to go 4 sw lesson so i didnt print one sheet..nvm lah..wow file keep in sch no gd.Vin lost his file..i know he fed up..can understand..but why file can go missing..so jia lat de.

mm..today awake lah..after lunch..b4 lunch i very weak..coz i didnt eat breakfast then have sw..well..lucky have survey to do..take so long in the end never play game..just run one run..so not so tired after all..after sch have cca..mm..dance til quite fun as i get the dance..yeah..but after that of course hungry..went buy something eat b4 i went home to eat dinner..then ok lah..abit tired..

right now feel like sleeping liao..i will go sleep soon. hhaa want blog wat..so online ba..end here

haiz..today so angry..I dunno leh..angry so shuang meh? I also dun want de wat..He telling me i give him cold shoulder he feel so sad..ok fine..i not angry liao..but right now..i just feel unhappy..i dun even want write de..if i dun write.i keep it to myself i feel worse..ok lah maybe is i finding things to agrue lor..sometime not i want to say..he can be so gd..sacrifice this n help others n gain nothing..i dun want him get bullied wat..maybe i dun support him..different view..next time dun comment..ya lah..not supportive lah..not as if i dun want support him..i dun agree with it..i try leh be understanding..ok lor maybe is i make a big fuss fine lor?? i not angry..is bu shuang..

I not like angry about small things..is alot of things sometime i dun want say..he is like tt wat..wat do I want? totally two different view de person..why together..frankly speaking..i not like stopping him..some things i cant stop de.he the one who make the decision and thinks whether he wants to do it ma..alot of things he dunno..he cant do it..i really want..just abit..not really need alot of money de..maybe i also never do wat things to show i care etc..not enough..i really dunno lah wat to do..

no one perfect..sometime alot of things i cant tahan..but i still tolerate..coz everyone has bad points..like myself..
he misunderstand me leh..i dunno how to explain further..coz my mind already blank..u think give pple cold shoulder so fun meh? sometime i really can vomit blood..toot toot de..but i understand he lst love so sometime ok lor..gf not just keep acc enough liao..i understand tt..must dote..got alot of ways..small actions is a sweet way even like it seems so small..wow..xin tong liao..can hear it crack..

a small thing why become so unhappy thing..i just feel we still dun understand one another so well..must communicate..i know why he works..i understand..but studies also impt.i just dun want him neglect things around him lor..he no need to explain so much..see him so tired..i dunno leh..wat can i do?
just want to have a colourful n lively life before the end of the world come..

btw wow need to have cca for two days..fri cant go home early sian..just practise lor..have performance wat to do..end here

Nowaday seldom blog..nothing much to write lah..then I also tired..so i guess one week update once..sometime too lazy to type..

well today stay at home..sleepy ...lunch n dinner i help mum buy lor..actually partly is becoz I hungry so went to buy..my mum do spring cleaning ma..so i buy..then today i did my hw also..sian..but have to do..i completed..then can rest lor..then read through HRA unit 3..we were told tt we need to do role play hhaa..cant imagine wat we will act as..nvm we will know on mon ba..

hhaa fri was a great n memorable day..My lu acc me lor from afternoon til at night..wow my bed spoil liao..tell hui ar..she say me too fat liao is it..hhaa not leh..is tt the bed already going to be spoil..then weight too heavy wat..coz i lie down he sit wat..haa..anyway is solveD..mum solve it..wonder woman!! super ar haha..then i guess lu abit paiseh lah..nvm de lah..is time to get a new one hhaa.abit fear now when i sleep.but is ok lah..

temporary lor..wow..fri concert at sch lousy..so sian..somemore so early have CNY concert siao de..somemore 1 hr only..celebrate with hari raya haju..i dunno how to spell haa.. orhestra...no gd..coz short of some instruments..not so nice.Beatty de nicer..i feel Beatty de watever also better than college central..last time i used to complain Beatty wat no gd..now even worse..sch com lan sia..ok lah end here..

TodaY is sat le..one week never go shopping..hee finally did went out..then feel happy lor..hhaa now abit tired..is it hungry? Maybe leh..went to catch a movie today..kung fu hustle..It is nice..funny too..have stephen chow act..hhaa..it is very cartoon type..real life is like not possible de..alot fighting ..then funny reaction or action hhaa..pple in the cinema laugh n laugh..i do laugh too..then go n have dinner..and went to shop around and after go to merlion park a while..alot of pple..haa then after that went home..

Wat i know..spending time with him is a great thing no matter how long lor..a few hrs or whole day lor.. :) just stay happy lah..

today is public holiday. wow one week never update already..sometime dun feel like updating...I wake up i feel still sleepy lor..I dunno why..I went to si yi's house..There is curry chicken etc..I eat..then went to hawker centre drink ice tea and Ah yi order things to eat n drink..wow full leh...then cant digest lor..haha..sian leh..we shop around bedok central..nothing much..but after eating etc i feel awake..today feel abit sian..xiao yi n Vivien n Cheryl went together to si yi's house..at night eat hor fun..hhaa so full..mm..never see someone abit sian ba..but leh have msg etc alright lah..can meet de wat..

sometime dun want write here..coz maybe is privacy lor etc..i rather dun write here..and also lazy to type..hhaa.
i end here lah..dun want write further..

Very fast..is Fri..I been going to sch for one week already.. tomorrow is sat..great..hha can sleep later..mm..today not that tired..but is a long day for us..start lesson at 8.15..end at 1.15..in between no lunch..but Mrs Quek let us have a break..which is good..

Today go sch ..abit unhappy think abt YH ba..but alright lah..lesson alright i pay attention..but is like double period.Tiring..we have break in between is ok..IT lesson i try to do ..hungry n tired that i cant focus..almost forget how to do hhaa..but after that ok lah..i worry for IT..do til so lan..the rest i still can cope i guess..core module somemore..

Just feel moody right now..i also dunno why..maybe hhaa want his acc..haha..but he did wat today..mm..a while lah..still ok..I guess not enough time??getting busier lor..can't be helped..but I won't angry or wat..maybe abit sian sian..this is normal..I will try understand and not be unreasonable..but sometime I feel moody coz of that I also can't control..Sometime u have to think of others not just yourself..that wat i know..I guess usually i think too much for others end up gaining nothing..but sometime wei ren ci sheng is needed..never mind I guess tml will be great.

Time flies..sch has started..i didn't update for quite many days..mm..sch so far alright..just that everyday we have to wake up so early..i feel so sleepy every day..but still can manage to study lah. It is alright lah.. When I reach home hhaa feel awake..I feel abit tired right now..Well abit moody..

Today do the IT a bit blur but in the end I get it lor .Yan hong teaches me..I don't know lah why like cant focus..hhaa I think not that I can't , is just that sometime dunno wat Mrs Yeo trying to tell us to do and i am tired..She makes me blur..Maybe i worry too that I cant do IT well..My IT i do til very lousy..I got to practise more..I do til abit stress lor..sian..

Anyway I am alright..I think didnt get to talk to him then abit sian..cause studying wat..I feel that although everyday we meet in sch..I do miss him..I miss the times being with him..I understand that we do have our own life n friends so alright lor..but i still wish he can be by my side sometimes and I'll be happy and cheerful..

haha I can be so crazy at times..I dunno why I can be so crazy..with yan hong around surely laugh til mad or play til crazy..haha.Mf comes join us for lunch..I feel that we neglect her but she seem quiet dunno wat to talk..then we are there talking she so lef t out lor cant be helped wat..i try to talk to her already..but maybe really no topic ba..I can sense that she is lonely lor..some classmates like dun care her..i know why ..I understand ..well but for now she is alright..just that she is very quiet..

I can be quiet at times which means something is wrong..i too quiet maybe because i am tired, sleepy or no mood sia..like today alright lah..did talk but sometimes not really..Andrew yesterday was asking me why i feel sad..i am alright already..Sometime i dun feel like blogging..as others can see wat i wrote..quite a no. leh..but close frenz N Vin see is ok lah..nothing secret also..:) secret i wont write it here..

mm..yesterday and today hhaa i did really paid attention in class..got to study hard..i have the motivation lor..which is good..work hard together..think abt him i feel happy leh.can smile..I cant say really really so xin fu ..but I feel I am xin fu de right now..someone dote me but I hope is forever..everlasting de..I want happiness not saddness.. :) mm..just study hard.I guess i change..haha sleep later etc..must be the same me..I dunno lah did i change to become bad? hhaa..hope not..I still guai ar :P

wat a day!!

today went Vin's house..then plan to go cycle..in the end dun have..stay at his house..then eat dinner..then after that go Tampines ..He went to take contact lens..then shop a while..haiz..then abit late liao..i not back..then saw mum's msg..wow so fierce like tt..say i never reply..i didnt hear wat..a few msg not read..i put inside bag cant hear..not an excuse wat..she says i give excuses..kind of angry liao..bro calls me..ask me go home..aiya just like tt..angry de..last time i abt this kind of timing 9, 10 plus reach home also ok..dunno her lah.everytime say..dun do wrong thing.. if not dun come back..wat i do??we never do wrong thing leh..we are young adult wat..who dunno the ho guo meh?

Everytime say go sch is an excuse to avoid working..wat sia..who dun want get better qualification? everyone do have goals..but is whether u will work hard for it and achieve it lor..i admit i can be lazy..i trying lor..got to study hard for better life next time wat..
I do know i dunno to do housework etc..haiz..i guess can learn de..not as if dunno..i dun have do wat..how she knows i cant do? is whether u do it well or not..
sometime I dunno lah do i have pressure?? cause having a relationship why always kanna nag de..parents scare this scare that..can they have confidence in me? maybe i simple gal..they scare..i think i know de lah..i know my limit..if He goes overboard i will stop him..i know wat..wat wrong..sometime feel ai yi ge ren hao xin ku leh..ni ai ta..but u also must think of pple around u..but relationship stuff not two person de meh? dunno leh..but wont give up lah..coz cannot problems ar occur u give up..must try solve..but this time the problem is not us..i think i do feel the pressure..adults are weird..u do like this wrong..do like that also wrong..i dunno wat they want..wat i do then consider right? obey ar..be a gd gal at home..she says wat listen wat?? like that..wat the difference between human n dogs..we have our rights right? i am not 5 years old leh..not saying angry or wat..sometime i really dunno lah..how should i behave then parents satisfy..

actually today go out mood fine de..then come back haiz..sian..but write liao feel better..anyway she stop nagging hhaa..end here..

My birthday!!

wow..today hhaa i old liao :P went out..go cafe cartel eat. i eat fish n chip.. he eats pork ribs..hhee lu treat me..actually can say nothing much lah today..just shop eat dinner. i went to look for mum a while and she says she wants to buy clothes but in the end didnt buy.. well..birthday also no difference..juz that i am older liao hhaa..wat i know is spending time with him i surely feel happy.. Today i feel happy..just tt stomach abit not well..dunno why..but leh alright liao lor.. :)

so far we are so gd..although at time there are unhappy things...there is always ups n downs ..like life n relationship..if there isn't any ups n downs..there isnt any learning..whenever there is problems or watever, u learn from it..as u learn u grow up too..learn to be more mature in thinking etc..haa i can say i can be childish at times..but this is human nature..even adults do have some childish behaviour ..i guess i will learn lor as time goes by to think more mature.. :)

Sch reopening soon..i just let it comes by..coz it will come de..then study also gd..can see frenz n study together..life will be more meaningful not so bored ..ok i end here ..

New Year Eve!!

mm..today leh is the last day of 2004.. i went to my dear house..mm..when i plan to go i didnt remember that it is 31 dec..mm..he went count down today..i went to find him..then have dinner..then he send me home..after that he goes countdown..this year at least i spend with him..last year wow..so lonely..coz parents at malaysia attend wedding dinner..bro also went..mmm...abit regret Vin have ask me lor but later no transport wat..so i didnt go..i wish to go n countdown with him..fun leh..spray pple haha..naughty ar..dunno how he is..having fun i guess..wont disturb..next year ba i go.. :) anyway have someone to spend with is gd.. then tml a brand new year .. :) ok lah stop here..going 2005 soon..one more hr !!! :) mm..just want to add..new year..strive harder forget abt last year..coz there are unhappiness..i want put them all behind.. strive hard for studies..try lah..then happily with Vincent n my family can liao.. :)

today..went 3rd ah gu house..eat turkey..hhee have jelly too..turkey nice..today ar..not feeling very gd..tired also..wow 9am can feel house shaking..then believe is earthquake..really lor at night watch news..indonesia earthquake..very big impact..alot of countries affected as a result..then today abit sad..actually hungry but dun want eat..wat wrong with me..then in the end eat cup noodle..also dun feel is gd..maybe too hungry..no feel liao..

i just dun feel happy things bothering me..but leh..i think will be fine..today sian til i dun think i miss him even.abt 5 plus eat abit dinner..now like want drink something..maybe go pour cereal or wat..better wat..maybe mood swing..no wonder like tt..this few days i feel happy..yesterday n today not happy..

today hhaa ah yi say bring him go ah ma house on CNY..then they can see..hhaa..see lah..they want see him..haaa then today cousin also go ah gu house..ying ying not in..mm.hhaa she knows i got bf.hhaa coz she sees my friendster haaa..her mum also know haa..she even tell her see..funny ar..

mm..yesterday went orchard..find wl..then ar..give xmas card to hui ,wl n ling..then go shop..at night went home n go eat dinner with family..eat fish steamboat..wait so long sia..abt 1 hr..hhaa..so many pple eat. in the end 9 then start to eat..9 remind me of wedding dinner hhaa..

today never chat much with vincent..he say he chatting..maybe too many pple.or dun want talk to me even?hhaa maybe i think too much..i just feel moody..
dun want tink so much..maybe yesterday wat we say ..i cant get over it..tt why..but small matter wat.. should be ok when i see him..hhaa