today is public holiday. wow one week never update already..sometime dun feel like updating...I wake up i feel still sleepy lor..I dunno why..I went to si yi's house..There is curry chicken etc..I eat..then went to hawker centre drink ice tea and Ah yi order things to eat n drink..wow full leh...then cant digest lor..haha..sian leh..we shop around bedok central..nothing much..but after eating etc i feel awake..today feel abit sian..xiao yi n Vivien n Cheryl went together to si yi's house..at night eat hor fun..hhaa so full..mm..never see someone abit sian ba..but leh have msg etc alright lah..can meet de wat..

sometime dun want write here..coz maybe is privacy lor etc..i rather dun write here..and also lazy to type..hhaa.
i end here lah..dun want write further..

Very fast..is Fri..I been going to sch for one week already.. tomorrow is sat..great..hha can sleep later..mm..today not that tired..but is a long day for us..start lesson at 8.15..end at 1.15..in between no lunch..but Mrs Quek let us have a break..which is good..

Today go sch ..abit unhappy think abt YH ba..but alright lah..lesson alright i pay attention..but is like double period.Tiring..we have break in between is ok..IT lesson i try to do ..hungry n tired that i cant focus..almost forget how to do hhaa..but after that ok lah..i worry for IT..do til so lan..the rest i still can cope i guess..core module somemore..

Just feel moody right now..i also dunno why..maybe hhaa want his acc..haha..but he did wat today..mm..a while lah..still ok..I guess not enough time??getting busier lor..can't be helped..but I won't angry or wat..maybe abit sian sian..this is normal..I will try understand and not be unreasonable..but sometime I feel moody coz of that I also can't control..Sometime u have to think of others not just yourself..that wat i know..I guess usually i think too much for others end up gaining nothing..but sometime wei ren ci sheng is needed..never mind I guess tml will be great.

Time flies..sch has started..i didn't update for quite many days..mm..sch so far alright..just that everyday we have to wake up so early..i feel so sleepy every day..but still can manage to study lah. It is alright lah.. When I reach home hhaa feel awake..I feel abit tired right now..Well abit moody..

Today do the IT a bit blur but in the end I get it lor .Yan hong teaches me..I don't know lah why like cant focus..hhaa I think not that I can't , is just that sometime dunno wat Mrs Yeo trying to tell us to do and i am tired..She makes me blur..Maybe i worry too that I cant do IT well..My IT i do til very lousy..I got to practise more..I do til abit stress lor..sian..

Anyway I am alright..I think didnt get to talk to him then abit sian..cause studying wat..I feel that although everyday we meet in sch..I do miss him..I miss the times being with him..I understand that we do have our own life n friends so alright lor..but i still wish he can be by my side sometimes and I'll be happy and cheerful..

haha I can be so crazy at times..I dunno why I can be so crazy..with yan hong around surely laugh til mad or play til crazy..haha.Mf comes join us for lunch..I feel that we neglect her but she seem quiet dunno wat to talk..then we are there talking she so lef t out lor cant be helped wat..i try to talk to her already..but maybe really no topic ba..I can sense that she is lonely lor..some classmates like dun care her..i know why ..I understand ..well but for now she is alright..just that she is very quiet..

I can be quiet at times which means something is wrong..i too quiet maybe because i am tired, sleepy or no mood sia..like today alright lah..did talk but sometimes not really..Andrew yesterday was asking me why i feel sad..i am alright already..Sometime i dun feel like blogging..as others can see wat i wrote..quite a no. leh..but close frenz N Vin see is ok lah..nothing secret also..:) secret i wont write it here..

mm..yesterday and today hhaa i did really paid attention in class..got to study hard..i have the motivation lor..which is good..work hard together..think abt him i feel happy leh.can smile..I cant say really really so xin fu ..but I feel I am xin fu de right now..someone dote me but I hope is forever..everlasting de..I want happiness not saddness.. :) mm..just study hard.I guess i change..haha sleep later etc..must be the same me..I dunno lah did i change to become bad? hhaa..hope not..I still guai ar :P

wat a day!!

today went Vin's house..then plan to go cycle..in the end dun have..stay at his house..then eat dinner..then after that go Tampines ..He went to take contact lens..then shop a while..haiz..then abit late liao..i not back..then saw mum's msg..wow so fierce like tt..say i never reply..i didnt hear wat..a few msg not read..i put inside bag cant hear..not an excuse wat..she says i give excuses..kind of angry liao..bro calls me..ask me go home..aiya just like tt..angry de..last time i abt this kind of timing 9, 10 plus reach home also ok..dunno her lah.everytime say..dun do wrong thing.. if not dun come back..wat i do??we never do wrong thing leh..we are young adult wat..who dunno the ho guo meh?

Everytime say go sch is an excuse to avoid working..wat sia..who dun want get better qualification? everyone do have goals..but is whether u will work hard for it and achieve it lor..i admit i can be lazy..i trying lor..got to study hard for better life next time wat..
I do know i dunno to do housework etc..haiz..i guess can learn de..not as if dunno..i dun have do wat..how she knows i cant do? is whether u do it well or not..
sometime I dunno lah do i have pressure?? cause having a relationship why always kanna nag de..parents scare this scare that..can they have confidence in me? maybe i simple gal..they scare..i think i know de lah..i know my limit..if He goes overboard i will stop him..i know wat..wat wrong..sometime feel ai yi ge ren hao xin ku leh..ni ai ta..but u also must think of pple around u..but relationship stuff not two person de meh? dunno leh..but wont give up lah..coz cannot problems ar occur u give up..must try solve..but this time the problem is not us..i think i do feel the pressure..adults are weird..u do like this wrong..do like that also wrong..i dunno wat they want..wat i do then consider right? obey ar..be a gd gal at home..she says wat listen wat?? like that..wat the difference between human n dogs..we have our rights right? i am not 5 years old leh..not saying angry or wat..sometime i really dunno lah..how should i behave then parents satisfy..

actually today go out mood fine de..then come back haiz..sian..but write liao feel better..anyway she stop nagging hhaa..end here..

My birthday!!

wow..today hhaa i old liao :P went out..go cafe cartel eat. i eat fish n chip.. he eats pork ribs..hhee lu treat me..actually can say nothing much lah today..just shop eat dinner. i went to look for mum a while and she says she wants to buy clothes but in the end didnt buy.. well..birthday also no difference..juz that i am older liao hhaa..wat i know is spending time with him i surely feel happy.. Today i feel happy..just tt stomach abit not well..dunno why..but leh alright liao lor.. :)

so far we are so gd..although at time there are unhappy things...there is always ups n downs ..like life n relationship..if there isn't any ups n downs..there isnt any learning..whenever there is problems or watever, u learn from it..as u learn u grow up too..learn to be more mature in thinking etc..haa i can say i can be childish at times..but this is human nature..even adults do have some childish behaviour ..i guess i will learn lor as time goes by to think more mature.. :)

Sch reopening soon..i just let it comes by..coz it will come de..then study also gd..can see frenz n study together..life will be more meaningful not so bored ..ok i end here ..

New Year Eve!!

mm..today leh is the last day of 2004.. i went to my dear house..mm..when i plan to go i didnt remember that it is 31 dec..mm..he went count down today..i went to find him..then have dinner..then he send me home..after that he goes countdown..this year at least i spend with him..last year wow..so lonely..coz parents at malaysia attend wedding dinner..bro also went..mmm...abit regret Vin have ask me lor but later no transport wat..so i didnt go..i wish to go n countdown with him..fun leh..spray pple haha..naughty ar..dunno how he is..having fun i guess..wont disturb..next year ba i go.. :) anyway have someone to spend with is gd.. then tml a brand new year .. :) ok lah stop here..going 2005 soon..one more hr !!! :) mm..just want to add..new year..strive harder forget abt last year..coz there are unhappiness..i want put them all behind.. strive hard for studies..try lah..then happily with Vincent n my family can liao.. :)

today..went 3rd ah gu house..eat turkey..hhee have jelly too..turkey nice..today ar..not feeling very gd..tired also..wow 9am can feel house shaking..then believe is earthquake..really lor at night watch news..indonesia earthquake..very big impact..alot of countries affected as a result..then today abit sad..actually hungry but dun want eat..wat wrong with me..then in the end eat cup noodle..also dun feel is gd..maybe too hungry..no feel liao..

i just dun feel happy things bothering me..but leh..i think will be fine..today sian til i dun think i miss him even.abt 5 plus eat abit dinner..now like want drink something..maybe go pour cereal or wat..better wat..maybe mood swing..no wonder like tt..this few days i feel happy..yesterday n today not happy..

today hhaa ah yi say bring him go ah ma house on CNY..then they can see..hhaa..see lah..they want see him..haaa then today cousin also go ah gu house..ying ying not in..mm.hhaa she knows i got bf.hhaa coz she sees my friendster haaa..her mum also know haa..she even tell her see..funny ar..

mm..yesterday went orchard..find wl..then ar..give xmas card to hui ,wl n ling..then go shop..at night went home n go eat dinner with family..eat fish steamboat..wait so long sia..abt 1 hr..hhaa..so many pple eat. in the end 9 then start to eat..9 remind me of wedding dinner hhaa..

today never chat much with vincent..he say he chatting..maybe too many pple.or dun want talk to me even?hhaa maybe i think too much..i just feel moody..
dun want tink so much..maybe yesterday wat we say ..i cant get over it..tt why..but small matter wat.. should be ok when i see him..hhaa

Christmas Eve..

mm..today Vincent works..i at home ..watch vcd..at night went out lor with family go kallang there eat taiwan porridge lor..wow nice..eat 3 small bowl..super full..then sit in the car just now tired..abit cant tahan lor..usually too full i cant sit in the car..dun feel tt gd..but alright lah..i feel like finding him today...in the end cant leh..eat liao so late leh..he knock off leh..haiz..i miss him i know tt..go out eat also think of him sia haiz.very fast wor.xmas eve liao..mm..tt is fast..3 more weeks sch reopen..i hope can study hard..pay attention lor in class..must work hard to go poly lor..go out is go out must study too..
also gd everyday see him in class..hee..but leh..i also scare pple tease..but sch reopen two mths liao should be ok lah..nvm pple tease lor..they know know lor..is ok..

hhaa xmas eve forever at home count down..nvm..at night go sleep tml need go out..end here dunno wat to write..

Results out!

today..didn't went out..stay at home..went downstair have lunch then i come back watch vcd..then i play com..mm..nothing much lah..never talk to VIn yet feel weird..maybe miss? dunno leh..msn dun really chat in the afternoon coz he plays game..then at night know can check result liao..result out..mm..alright lah i pass.esc hhaa done not so gd.. C...Accounts B n Bzf B..PIE S lor..alright lah..wow LU get all Bs hhee..happy for him..mood gd also leh..want tell him de result..he never online so i call him..haha he sleep leh..no wonder no reply lah..hhaa..
make me worry..anyway he ok..talk to him i happy leh. :) finally know result..happy liao..can relax..wont be scare.. :)

ok end here..

today went to Vincent's house..then went out..go changi village eat ipoh hor fun..wow nice sia.then drink sugar cane..mm..went to changi bench after that..so windy.. :) hee..together..i really happy..see the sea..mm..so relaxed lor..then went to Century square n TM lor..hee take the bus have past by Gongshang ..my ex pri sch..hee..

haa..he ar naughty de..at his house tickle me :P then i realise hhaa..he ar very scare pple tickle de hhaa so fun..i tickle him..wat i can say..i feel the happiness..maybe no stress too..mm..wow have to wait til next week then can see him liao..he needs to work.nvm lor msn or sms lor..even can chat on phone..but usually we wont..msn chat better..endure abit lor..haa see who cant tahan hhaa..both lah..i can say he is diff..from other guy..he cares more for me..mm..still early lah..but soon de lah 2 mths etc..fast de..want to see that we can go beyond one year..actually half a year is gd liao..but of course go as far as we can .. this i cant be contented..

He tells me leh i simple gal..is gd..hhaa mm..i feel i too easily contented..but not really lah..depends wat..some things i may want..but i hope i achieve it myself?? maybe ba..is not wat others think i easily contented ba..but sometime u think of some pple so poor , we are very lucky liao lor..so cant ask for alot u see...in s'pore have house, study..then have food to eat have money to spend..ok wat..but if u want more lah..have to work hard lor like wat Vin says..true lah..i have think of staying in bungalow..but in s'pore difficult lah..i guess flat can liao lor..wow today diary so long hhaa..

ok lah end here liao..haa private stuff i wont write here ba..hhaa.. ;)

today..mm..went out..Vin comemy house..haa..then go out shopping..jurong lor..go IMM n jurong point..nothing much lah to shop..haaa he say dun go so far next time..yeah..tired wat..i abit tired..we go there eat also..hhee..but happy lah..i really feel happy..hee see him tml then wont see him til next week coz he got to work..no choice lor..work more impt..earn money ma.. :) i understand de..

just hope this kind of happiness is not for a few mth is forever.. :) last one.. hee..

Good mood..

today leh..wow tired coz yesterday i chat til midnight 2.30am hhaa..with him lor..hhaa then wake up today tired sia..mm..watch vcd..then afternoon go orchard meet mum..with bro..then go shopping..go far east han's eat chicken chop..mum eat fish n chip..mm..then continue shopping..shop til tired...but anyway bought titbit..hhee n ar..lipstick..yeah..gd sia.but walk til tired sia..hhaa..

then nine plus go home.mm..today mood not bad..good mood..hope it stays the same lor..for everyday..try lah..:)
hhaa like abit feel like eating..haaaa

mm..wow now midnight leh..today dance practise is cancelled..mm..i get the msg from Xiu ting in the morning..then he comes my house hee..then went to work..see him happy lor..then mood gd sia..hhaa..then i watch vcd..eat dinner like wei kou gd lor..hhee..mood gd eat wat also nice..mm..then leh give him xmas present liao..he gives me liao too..i like it lor..watever he gives..converse bag :) is gd..the colour not bad..will use de..
then give him de gift..he ar at lst say dun use lst hhaa then in the end i buy de he use lor..ar too small leh..then he cant put all stuff..haiz..i dunno how to buy..thought guy de dun want so big..nvm..he likes can liao.. :)

Feeling sian..

today wake up at abt 10 plus lor..Vin msg me sia..telling me he can't come my house he got to work today..cant be helped lah I wont blame him..but kind of disappointed lor..now he not online..dunno what he doing lah..i know he not purposely dun come..how i wish there is surprise visit..feel sian..want see him..i know i miss him lor..ask him miss me ma he ar hhaa say why must miss me leh..wow so bad leh..nvm lor no need miss lor..hhaa...
i watch tv later..then tml also at home ba..wed go practise dance..thur bowling he wants go go lor..fine with me de..dunno lah today y the tone so weird one hhaa why must miss me leh..duno him..

holiday fast lah sooner or later sch reopen..wow actually alot of things to do..watch tv lah, do crossstitch n write cards..crossstitch do half way going finish soon..yesterday went out never do liao..see how maybe will do..mm..yesterday he say wat give surprise..aiya no need hope lah..he say liao working today..sure not coming leh..haiz..
ok lah i stop here lah go watch vcd then won't think so much.. :D

today ok..abit sian..wake up at abt 12..hhaa Vin call me lor then at tt time i awake..mm..afternoon watch vcd lor..mood so so..coz abt yesterday de..i was kind of angry but wake up liao ok..but still remember wat..but i not so petty lah..he got ask wat i still angry..me alright lah.then at night watch tv..wow tonight online de frenz very few til abt 11 plus more lor..make me feel so sian sia..mm..tml going out buy present for him lor xmas present..hope can find a gd n nice wallet lor..but ok ok de price..

wow later i broke hhaa..no sch ma..aiya dun use so much money lor.present must buy de is ok..then buy for xiao jie also..his birthday coming..see can find wat to buy..haiz..always must crack my head de..wat to buy i dunno.i know wat to buy for vincent..if no nice wallet i buy shirt lor..

he ar dunno go where late liao still dun go home..but once a while ok lor..although guy but i do worry lah..like where he goes..dunno him lah..tt why never online haa..hope he ar dun go home too late lor..

wow now raining liao..heavily..i online then thinking lor today i talk to yan hong on phone lor..then mention tt 3 gals..mm..only tt s de lah..worry lor wat she might do coz friendster so big lor have our pic ..she always full of tricks..yh ask me beware..i know..i totally forget about them why remind me..haiz..i know she close with me just remind me lor..then i thinking lor..tell hui..then ask me dun worry..also remind vin..must be careful..haiz..pple know abt us ok lah but not them..dangerous..

mm..today call hazel plan regarding bowling thing lor..then korkor with her..hhee talk to me..then ar ask me how am i and got find job ma then say never he say me lazy worm..hhaa korkor forever de..i say him wow in thailand suan me back also suan haaaa..he laughs..then talk a while only..nvm lah thur seeing him..he lor sudden talk to me de..hhaa coz i kpo lor kor kor with her ar so i ask..hee then he ans phone..anyway glad to hear his voice.i call him korkor wow so long never like tt call heee..

today..go ling house..mm..wl also go..not bad lah get together lor..then ar shi hui also go..then starting nothing much to do..mm..then i chat online..then they watch tv..then go buy bubble tea..mm..i eat fries too..then go home hee Vin fetch me home..heee tt is great..i happy..wow go home cant eat..hhaa eat lor..then so full.mood gd eat wat also gd..hhee..then msn sudden got problem duno wat wrong sia..siao de..got to restart com..haiz..ma fan..no choice..

anyway quite a gd day lah..:) hhee see him ma.. :)

A boring day!

today like very sian..afternoon ar..no vcd to watch coz mum haven take lor.. discs no 7 onwards..haiz..then i play com lor..around evening time then watch tv..haaa laugh like siao..the 5566 program funny sia..then surt net lor at night..but sian..coz Dear ar..he busy playing game..then not many pple to chat..aiya..is like tt de ..make me feel so sian..then mood no gd liao..haiz.. easy mood swing...wow then late liao should sleep..if not nothing to do..mm..next few days got vcd to watch n go out should be ok..not so sian..

dunno wat to write leh..yawn..maybe off to bed..sleepy..i guess chat abit more ba..end here..

today go out ..take cardprint with Vin..mm..ok lah..we play badminton..then go eat..go changi airport eat..order food..order mee goreng n he order fried oyster..the bread too..wow full sia ..cannot finish mee goreng.two of us so full..i know i have fun lah..no matter wat go where do wat is fun n gd lor with him..cant imagine he go overseas wat to do..coz after airport we go expo a while n we go home..after tt he asks me call him when i reach home liao leh he send me home n he goes home..talk to me..he tells me he may go overseas study or yi ming..haiz..
i cant imagine lor he go me how..now i realise how impt he is to me..
is he telling the truth or he wants test me..i guess is real lah..he wants go Australia..mood was ok..become not ok leh..maybe i think too much..cant help it wat..haiz..duno lah later go sleep alright liao..

today watch s'pore idol..ah..taufik win sia.I vote Sylvester lor..in the end not he wins..disappointing..chat online also no mood..get irriated..coz of this ba..then talk to Vin hhaa also no mood de..i hope i dun give him attitude lah..not his fault..then he asks me things etc i get irriated..he with gals or wat..how i know...now no mood..

but talk to vin slowly ok liao..haiz..i very easy mood swing..dunno lah..my msn nick put so big..dun want pple later kanna scolding..
i guess tml will be ok..see him also.. :)