today holiday leh..hee finally..but abit fan..coz i dunno lor want work ma..abit dun feel like working lor..coz holiday leh ..mm..i guess not working..chatting then i will not think so much..watch vcd at home..do cross stitch go out ok wat..go work i no time leh..later sch start wow stress again should relax..so i guess i wont work leh..find own entertainment..

hee chat with Jufri always gd..he always full of jokes hhee..later Vin come my house..hhee great..acc me lor..
i hope i dun think so much..want work work lor..must make up my mind..i guess by thur ba..but at home too long later rot hhaa..nvm..have vcd to watch.. :)

today wake at ten plus awake by mum doing the housework. actually at night i sleep late i guess today i will be tired.ok lah now..just now talk to Vincent..he seem very sian..tired lor..i talk liao also sian..haa maybe call him wrong time. he calls me back...mm..he knows how to plan for future..i never think so far..sometime maybe dun dare think so far.i guess i find a time go n think about it lor..after exam ba i guess..think so far if never go so far how leh..of course hope bf will be the last one liao wont get hurt etc..but did i think abt it is he the right guy for me n towards marriage..dunno leh..just been together abt two weeks..u never know leh after a few months wat happen lor..he loves me more ..is gd..but maybe he thinking i love him ma..tt why he asks me b4..wat i know is yes ba..coz i feel jealous hhaa..

i know he dunno wat i thinking so ask me can see my diary ma..but kind of privacy lor..some things no need to show him de..maybe coz got things lah unless i delete but diary ma delete for wat..so i dun let pple see lor...very few knows abt it..i know he may feel disappointed..but really lah wat he wants to see leh..he will read n read de..then ask me why some dates dun have or wat..haiz..

mm..everything ok since yesterday..talk abt it liao..but i abit moody now..coz of accounts exam ba..plus a bit disappointed lor xmas eve cant celebrate with him ba..he works too haiz..but cant be helped...i find own entertainment lor..wat to do..

hopefully tml exam ok..dunno why so easy mood no gd de..then dunno wat to write here..got to sleep early..hopefully accounts not difficult..talk to him feel better i guess ...hheee

hello..today sian sian..coz of yesterday ba..partly affected..then he claims he ok..i dunno..then he never really msg me..only msg once..dunno lah.i guess busy..or he dun want talk to me..make me feel bad..now msn he knows i online i guess..dun care me..i can dun care..i feel sad..i thought ok liao..why like tt..tell him straight also no gd..he abit xiao qi sia..duno lah now we talking..abit dun feel like chatting..scare he not happy..i dun feel zhi zai..then he says he wants to study..dunno lah then he goes off..now come online..ok lah i dun talk to him..

tml exams already..why i say him..i really dunno lah..wat i doing..let us dun talk best ba..let ask think abt it..then ar study hard..but at this kind of atmosphere how to study..dunno lah just sleep later tml exam...sooner or later settled ba

today ..a fine day..last day of sch b4 i start exams..wow fast..today so few pple go to sch leh..8 pple only during assembly..hhaa yh say ar..snow white and seven dwarf hhaa..andrew the snow white hhaa..then accounts lesson still very few..that 3 gals ar..come during lunch time..wow sch no govt is it..dun care lah not my problem..

bca..nothing to do surt net haaa..then bzf so few pple too..then he comes to sch for bca lesson ...til last lessons..
tue he didnt come sch..hee i went to visit him..aiya go home get scolded but a while ok..mm..he sends me home ...heee.. hold hands leh..:) must remember tt day..i happy with him..hhee.. he feels better..is gd lor..coz he feels hungry..today he alright lah..still go play soccer..

today come back never study..relax lor..so relax..after sch went to eat something with him then i go home..he went home n meet his frenz for soccer..

today went out..wow he sick leh..i see liao sigh i dunno wat to say..coz he is still weak..go out also not happy sia..this is lst date hhee..he still weak still come out..poor him..he buys milk for me..buy mineral water for me when i eat dinner..so gd of him..

He go home with me..til my house..hee so gd then he goes home..see him so weak i feel sad sia..hope he get better..i feel tired..tonight got to sleep early lor..sigh..hhee i give him the cough drop leh..
tired lah cant think sia wat to write..we went bugis n suntec..plan to find wl but he so weak nvm go home lor..i wont see him for two days lor..mm..hope he is well on tue..:)

i end here..

today...go sch..wow only a few pple come..abt 6 like tt for sw..break record..many pple dun come..Vincent ar..sick so never come..i worry..he got fever lor..etc..then cant fetch me from sch..i understand..i feel sad..he sick wat..i care for him is normal..so he ask me out tml..mm..lst date ar.

today ar..slowly pple come..but only 10..then esc we know oral presentation result..hhee i help Vincent see..he not in sch..mm..i not happy..then got PIE test..sian..

anyway he alright.. :) i can fang xin..see him tml hhee..

oh ya yesterday went east coast..hee so relax..learn to cycle bicycle..

today holiday..gd ar..stay at home..but can feel stress..i dunno is work or coz Vincent..coz maybe we too fast hhee..i hope not leh..but really lor nowaday i very stress like tt so tense up in sch..i think coz of him..i so pai seh de kanna tease..we been together for 3 days leh.must remember Nov 9 i agree to be his gf leh.He clever yesterday Hazel ask abt us..she asks me..i deny..hhaa..so i know she sure ask him..he say after exam i will tell him..hhhaa..li hai..friendster status i haven change..yesterday he get kick out of the class..can see pong give a kind of expresssion like seeing wat my impression..hhaa..aiya Hazel so clever..i believe she knows..but i dun admit lor..she dunno..

mm..must go n buy cough drop for him.he cough ar..i hope to get it today tml give him..aiya in class i dun want so high profile coz starting only..but xin ku leh..i want talk to him haa..but i think next time give him a yan shen can liao..hehe.

today dunno go where leh..aiyo east coast sian leh..i dun feel like going..hhaa rather watch tv lor..

Today..BCA test..i think should be ok..everyday practise..when come to do..sigh..i cant do leh..i want sort data why sort liao the amount go wrong..sigh..is very wat the lor..feel very frustrated de..then the pivot table..cant do..abit not the same..some thing occurs which never occur when i doing in class.i can even forget how to do Vlookup..i think i know one..too stress til forget lah..then i feel sad..100 marks leh the paper..i print two sheets only..worse paper i guess..IT paper i do til like tt..

first time ba..Last time do ar..ok de..sigh..hope I pass..
I feel I make Vincent sad..sigh..like bad..coz i moody he also..he thought he is the one who makes me moody..maybe a bit..but mostly is test ba..and studies..he asks me go shopping..i where got mood to go..dun feel like going..at the moment..haiz..

see my mood tml lah..i hope is ok..

today my mood gd..hhee Jufri also say tt..so cheerful..haa...tt Vincent ar..so late dun go home..aiyo naughty..ask him go home he say will go but haven go home..aiya cant stop him also..haa msg him say want get scolding is it..tml have lessons..test too..sigh..he is like that i guess..want him study hard..hope he can..i go home late a bit he calls me liao ..see sigh..i tell hazel he seem more anxious than my mum..haaa..coz i go shop shop with hazel wat..dunno Vincent reach home already..dun care..let him have some freedom..

Not his gf hhaa cant control him lah..today just do hw lor..wow now a bit sleepy coz i eat supper hhhaa..feel like sleeping ..yh always say i pig sia hhaa eat liao want to sleep..hhaa

OK lah stop writing dunno wat to write..

midnight..mm..i talking to Vincent..yesterday got things to tell me..today he says leh and he asks me did i like him in this period of time..something like tt..i dunno how to ans..i ask him how abt him..he says got..i got the ans..i long ago can feel it just guessing..i dunno he likes me or not..now i know..i also know he dun call other pple dear etc.. he tells me..i ask him b4 but he didnt ans lor.yesterday he tells me..i know he has chance..he really gd i have no reason to reject him leh i feel tt..

When he confess i feel i ok leh unlike last time i so shock dunno wat to say..maybe i already know lor..is matter of time he says..i can feel it wat..i also know he wants to say this..he let me think abt it..he says holiday then think..he ask we together parents will object ma..mm..i thinking should be ok..still early lah..i tell him.i want to know him better lst..dun want regret..n he ask me i have the fear to start a relationship with him right..i know is yes..coz after 2 times i fail..sigh of course dun want get hurt..

But he must go slim down haha..that is a must..hhee..well.morning he msg me..ask me study..then ask me eat breadfast leh ma..well..i thinking lor if i like him mayb not as much as he likes me i afraid..coz i dunno leh i like him or not even..that is a gd question..

i shall see as time goes by..coz he ask if he with gals i will jealous ma..for now i think now leh..i haven reach the state i like him sia

today so fan like tt..yesterday want write diary cant enter dunno wat wrong..well..thinking abt why he so weird online yesterday..the way he talk..he wants to treat me ask me mon free or not..go home late cannot lah..tue have sch lor..then out of a sudden he says want treat me..abt the crab i kidding only..just says i want eat black pepper crab..he takes it serious..then yesterday say "i think should we .......hhaaa " weird sia talk halfway..let him say he dun want say..then say hard to speak up..lst time..wat he up to..scare me..and i dream of him sia hhaa..dream of yh also.. quarrel with her haha..
I have think of it..if he asks me how i react..well..i think still early he is nice ..i may accept but i think need more thing to think abt it n know him better..i dun want to regret..coz zhen hui ar...i regret..i dun want to get hurt..plus i dunno i have feeling for him or not..his look not handsome but impt is he is a nice guy..he very caring towards me..maybe coz he has feelings towards me?? i can feel it i am not stupid de lor..

i still thinking studies impt but i need love..i want..not just from frenz n family..i want bf love..so i sort of want but can't anyhow get one..i dun want to hurt pple n dun want to get hurt..is a headache thing..later i can't study well..how..sian..i want go poly de..so i thought dun want this relationship thing for the time being..

today..sian..accounts mrs quek went to see doc.so she not in sch..that miss koh she never come today coz she go headquarter..sian lor no lessons..then ar..i get back bzf test..i get a shock..i dun study well..i get 41..hhaa how can it be..really sian i do i feel i cant do well..cant believe..sometime hard to tell..

Well..then afternoon didnt go ballroom dancing coz we go for the entrepreurship presentation..our seniors lah..so sian lor..stay from 3 plus to abt 6..one group talk so long sian.more than 20 mins..then i feel hungry n bored..well the aircon so cold u see..lucky i brought jacket..poor jufri n yan hong so cold..i cant help cant i am cold myself..well then heard ballroom dancing cancel coz seniors went for seminar..

mm..wat a day i waste alot of time lor..then go home so tired..late liao didnt do anything..watch tv slack lor.well i play com

today..accounts lesson so tired..wow raining again..so cooling..nowaday forever rain..well..accounts lesson i almost doze off..not just me ..Hazel too..the rest also..
Esc ar..finally call me ..last one of the day..then ar..i saying history..she says want read ar..she can read herself i can just click let her read herself..she ar..bad..tml she not in sch great!!
well sigh of relief..finally over..can relax..but exams 3 more weeks coming liao..aiya i dunno wat i doing.want online want study too..then accounts do a bit not sure then i stop there..not tryin to be very hardworking but i really lazy..must study hard..lor..

mm..bzf ar..talk abt pie chart etc..like maths ar..so is bored too..concentration half way cant liao
tml have talk sia..cant go for ballroom dancing..but i tell senior liao so nvm lah..
wat else to write? nowaday dun really write..dunno wat to write wat or i lazy... :)
aiya today very free..well..i have think abt many stuffs ba..love stuff hard to say..i guess left it to fate..i know i want a bf hhaa..but not at this time ba..exam coming.. a class guy gd..he often join us gal gang..Jufri lah..but hee taken liao..i dun mind this kind of guy..but too bad lah..he sort of my type ba..he very caring person towards frenz n nice....hhaa wonder he interested in who ar..hhaa so close with us haha..wow anyhow say later he kills me..but he attached wat.nvm i say hhaa..

well..today ..mm..i wake up at 8..should be 7.30...mum wake me up when she sees me still sleeping..i jump up thinking is thur..i late liao..then mum say fri lah..scary..alarm didnt ring..i realise in kfc lor that the time n date is wrong ..how come..tt why never ring lah..aiyo..well..heng ar i still can ar get to sch..not late..wow i know i sure cant do the test..coz never study much..fail lor the most..lst thing is p.e test..wow then bzf test..then who knows ar..PIE also have test..
I have test starting from lst period..oh my god! today 3 tests.luckily pe n PIE test no need study..aiyo break record so many tests..
then after bzf test we have presentation.annie koh tell us to write our name on a piece of paper n she pick whoever..the person will present..lst one saeedah..heng lah not me..so hazel,shereen, kailing ,amlie..dunno how to spell..who else..mm..a few lah..heng lor..at least i have time to plan how to present..

finally test over at least can relax..today is a stress day..well after sch we went to kfc j8 eat..sit the same place but korkor not in s'pore..short of him..but still as usual we go eat..things are different..everyone order their own..mm..which is very different..leh..well..vincent always so quiet..aiya nowaday hazel n yan hong i think trying to say he gd..ask me consider ..well for time being..i think we frenzs..lah not more than that..this kind of thing next time then say..aiyo another hong nian..

wow a few days never write here..mm..today wake up still wondering why ar Hazel tells me to bring korkor present today..i dun understand.til i go sch i know..i also partly guess right he wont be in sch tml..sigh..the news is he wont be in s'pore for abt one month sia..so shocked..Hazel say she knows it yesterday only..guess korkor dun want so early break the news to her..is it he knows it will come or wat? i his sis he dun tell me too..well..Hazel feel most sad..one mth leh not a few days somemore in thailand leh..I feel sad to hear tt.wont be able to see him..like get used with him around sort of help me protect me..then fri we go have fun..eat lunch..i guess now wont liao..hazel even plan not to go ballroom dancing leh..for a month..then see her so sad dunno wat to say to her..i guess i know y i sad..i still have feelings for him...kind of admire ba

today have get back test..surprise i get 45/50 sia..haha better than last time heee..but not happy coz not tt difficult if is cash bk is difficult..
Tml going airport ba..send him off..then he went sch today..i pass him the present from four of us lor.. He says thanks..hope he likes..later msg him haa see he opens a not :P pig card haha sure scold me haha..:P

a pity tml kor kor birthday cant see him haiz..

today..aiyo..wat a day..lucky no test..etc.if not sure cant do well..the gal lah..i sit her place..in language lab..i forget is her seat too..coz saw hazel sit infront, i acc her.who knows.she bang her bottle on the table so i get up move away lah...then say she no manners..she outside lab bu shuang say me no manner still say pple..wat the..maybe this part i wrong..but i still think she is wrong..wat a childish act..and we argue, quarrel lah..feel not worth it lah..anyway classmates close with that b****..then also dun like me n yh..kanna brain wash i guess..

then today angry..Hazel say shouldnt angry coz like that they win..i also know..but cant control..anyway after lunch i ok..i am like tt.but need time to forget the incident..

went to shop n buy korkor present..mm..bought leh a long sleeve shirt..black one n a t shirt blue one..$32..mmm..4 person share.. still ok..glad i settle his present..

today..learn walt...today test not bad..ok lah..petty cash heng lor..n voucher..make mistake here n there..never mind as I have already done the test lor..funny ar..coz we thinking where to eat during fri..yan hong they all say coffeeshop..who agree raise hands..we all raise..hhaa 5 verse 1..poor korkor..then we say dun bully him lah he birthday boy..well..he decide to go kfc..at least ok lah..well..jin lun say ar..buy him cha siew bun can liao..i buy siew mia hhaa...then cha siew bun is very small one..korkor say wow he hao yi si hhaa..very funny..

annie koh's lesson..talking abt presentation..wow laugh til so happy coz..she use herself as example.say pple will want to know wat her weight..she say guess wat her weight..she say XXX kg..hhaa then classmate say..i think pong or who ar..dunno lah say is XXXX kg..hhaaa..funny..then ask we all know how she become so fat..so obvious eat lah hhaa..wat a question..

Mm..dancing ar..the nightmare has come..next year oritention must perform leh..sigh..no choice have to..my class only 5 pple..plus Gilyn , Melissa only 7 new pple..sigh..have hazel..so korkor pair with her..if not i guess maybe pair.with me.then pressure..actually dun mind..bro wat..more familar i dun mind..Yan hong with Andrew..Melissa n me..Gilyn with senior ba..at my rate..now oct..jan very fast de..sigh..next year sch start 8 jan ar..huh..fast leh is it 8 jan perform ..oh my god..try lor practise more think can de.. :)

today dunno why so sian..just watch tv..then revise abit of biz fun..aiya keep thinking of accounts..i have look through lah..accounts need practise look through actually no use..so i kind of stress dunno wat should i do..sigh..
I afraid i cant finish the account test then how..Korkor advise me lor..but i feel no use one..he always say same thing..usually i stress ar..then surely cant do well..cannot lor must relax then i can do the question..
I watch the left eye can see ghost hhaaa translate from chinese lah..feel a bit sad..although have ghosts but not scary leh..is sad..plus nice lor the story..

why sunday always bored one..want to study sometime also study abit only..but have watch 5566 program i happy liao ..hhaa..ren fu n xie zhi host..:) xi ha pi tou 4 ..not bad lor..

Ok lah i dunno wat to write leh ..dun feel like writing anymore..byebye..:)

today go sch..we go rc for the basketball team..we go there to support the basketball team..our sch one..wow ite tampines play well..my sch lost..then ar..today at sch wow didnt see classmates leh only saw Alan walk past..then see he come back with hazel..n sureen come..wow so few pple..slowly more come..then ar.surprsing i saw ite bedok play also..realise zhi hong in the team..wow he so li hai ..after the match congraulate him..his sch wins yeah!!! i support his sch..dover ite not so gd..me n yan hong was like crazy lor supporting..saying yes yes when his sch score a ball etc..hhaa so exciting cant be helped..at lst support dover i see him inside hhaa the team i support bedok..korkor see us was like oh my god haha..

then tell korkor hhee..the match my cousin inside..wow pple cheer for zhi hong leh..he li hai but just aiming in shooting not so gd..mm..really happy..i still scare i make a mistake..i call mummy confirm zhi hong in basketball team..find him familar..then go n talk to him..

then after tt go tampines safra see gim loon they all play bowling..Alan play also..then go burger king eat..so hungry lor..i lst time eat..then yan hong give me a kind of look when i say i never eat b4 bk..is fact wat.not bad..then meet mummy n go home together..bought a watch..i buy one for her she buy for me too..haha